Disclaimer :
Belong to their creators, not mine, I swear…
Warnings :
Shounen ai (ne, Kyaa-chan?)--and if you don’t feel like it you can go…
Pairing :
1x2/2x1
Timeline :
Shortly after Endless Waltz
Notes : The fic title was inspired from one of Duo Maxwell
song title ‘Good luck and Goodbye’ but no relation with its content really…
(Prequel for Only by My Own Word)
Everything
rocked to a halt as he saw Gundam Wing Zero crash and make a big explosion in
the ground. His world stopped
rotating. All he could think of is
death. If he’s dead… he took my life
with him…
NOOOO……..!!!
He raced his Gundam towards the crash in a single movement, vaulted out of the cockpit of Deathscythe-Hell before the hatch fully opened.
“Heero…!!!!”
All he could think of is calling his name, and hoping that the one he’s looking
for would reply for the call.
Nothing..
He could see
the cockpit door of the other Gundam was open.
Did he manage to get out after the crash?
But where
the hell did he go?
//Flashback//
“Heero. Oi,
Heero. Don’t scare me like that,
man. Where the hell are you?”
No answer.
Duo walked slowly to the open room that he shared
with the Japanese pilot. Looking wildly
for the stoic figure of Heero Yuy. His
violet eyes swept the entire room but still he couldn’t find what he’s
searching.
“Heero..”
“Okay, Heero. I get the point here. You’re still mad aren’t you---for not
telling about that stupid mission..” He sighed. “Well, actually---Gyaaah…”
He couldn’t even struggle to get out from the
strong hands that shoved him to the corner of the room. Violet eyes met cobalts, and Duo almost swore
that he could see anger in those cold eyes.
“Heero, I didn’t see you coming..” He grinned nervously, petrified with the
look that he received.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” Exclaimed the Wing pilot.
Strong hands pinned the braided boy to the wall.
“What--?”
“Why didn’t you tell me?! Damn it, Duo. You should have told me!” His look changed into something more look
like a---worrying eyes. And a glint of
relieve.
“I’m sorry, but it wasn’t exactly a dangerous
mission like what ever they told you..” He smiled cheerfully.
He
buried his face in Duo's neck and released him from the strong locked in his
wrist. Duo forced himself for not
smiling. It’s not too often The Perfect
Soldier gave him his full attention and he decided to savor it as long as it
last.
“If
you died.. I could never forgive myself…” He heard him say.
“I’m
sorry, Heero. I promised, I would never
do it again. Promise..” He smiled, sliding his hand to a mass of
dark-brown hair and caressed it tenderly.
“Promise?”
“I
promise.”
“You
never tell a lie?” He lifted his head, looking straight to Duo’s eyes,
searching for affirmation.
“You
know I don’t.”
“Promise
you won’t leave me?”
“I
won’t if you won’t.”
//End flashback//
Duo ran through the corridor, searching
for the control room. There’s a massive
wreck inside the castle that have been made by Wing Zero and he thought that
the building could fall anytime. After
running halfway the castle he spotted light and he could hear people talking
and finally a gunshot. He fastened his
run through the room and abruptly stops at the doorframe.
He saw Heero, leaning firmly and safely
in Relena’s arms.
He’s alive… and breathing…
His world started rotating again, but…
Heero’s eyes closed with comfort, not
trying to hide the pain he felt.
And Duo could see her staring to his
beautiful face and smiled, embraced him with the touch that you could only
define with the word ‘love’.
People passed him by, one of the guards
brought Mariemeia to the medical room with Une trailing behind, she nodded
towards Duo, but the boy didn’t respond.
He’s still standing in the doorway,
watching for the couple in the middle of the room with hesitation. And with a swift moved he went to the other
direction.
*Promise you won’t leave me?*
*I won’t if you won’t*
Soon everything was taken care of,
Heero had been moved to one of the medical room and Relena hadn’t leaved his
side since, he hadn’t waken up yet but the doctors said that his condition was
getting more stable every minute.
Duo’s walking towards and backwards the
conference room with his two friends waiting for news. His brain’s getting foggier every minute and
he couldn’t stand it. In the normal
situation he would have talked non-stop to forget about everything, however all
he wanted now was to be by Heero’s side.
But of course *his* Heero didn’t need him there, cause Relena was always
by his side.
“Don’t worry, Duo. I’m sure he would be fine. He always
does.” Trowa said calmly.
“And stop wandering around like that,
you made us dizzy..” Quatre chuckled.
He just gets his smiled back after a long frustrated hour.
“I know, I just…”
His words stopped when suddenly Relena
entered the room, she smiled a genuine smile to the three pilots. “He’s awake.”
//Flashback//
“Would
you stop that..!!” Heero shouted from
behind the desk. Eyes still fixed to
the computer screen. Duo’s non-stop humming
could be very distracted sometimes.
“Stop
what? This?!” He hummed more loudly and combined it with a rough bounce over
the bed.
“Duo..!!”
“Ow,
c’mon, Heero. Lighten up a little. Why do you have to *find’* a mission when
they’re not offering you one?”
“*That*
is my mission.” He growled.
“Great….
Why can’t I have a normal partner, anyway.”
He sighed and then jumped from the bed, standing beside Heero and starting
massaging the other boy in the shoulder.
“What
are you doing?” The Japanese boy turned
his back to face the braided boy. But
Duo turned him back again to face the damned laptop.
“I’m
trying to make you relax, so you can work better..” He answered--almost
solemnly.
“Duo,
you’re not trying to…”
“What?!
Seduce you? Puhleeeze…” He chuckled. Somehow there’s a suspicious tone behind
his words.
“Good,
cause if you’re trying to distract me from my mission…”
“I
know, I know, you will kill me…..”
“Hn.”
“But
you know what, Hee-chan?” He’s lowering
his mouth to the other boy’s ear, “I didn’t remember you complain last night.”
Heero
had to think hard for his next words. “I couldn’t find any mission last night.”
“Yeah,
right.” Duo giggled, “I like it better
when there’s no mission.”
“Baka.” Heero almost smiled.
Duo
jumped for surprised. Did he just hear ‘the tone’? The tone that Heero Yuy always uttered when he finally give up to
his ol’ Maxwell charm?
“Okay,
now, Heero. I’ll leave you for your mission now.” Duo abandoned his unfinished job and started walking away towards
the door.
“What?!”
“You
said you’ll kill me if I ever distracted you from your mission, so I’m trying
to save my head here..” He smiled coyly
teasing him.
“Damn
it, Duo.” He grasped the end of his
partner’s braid. Duo eeped and pulled
back to Heero’s side.
“The
mission can wait, I guess.” He snorted while twinning his arms around Duo’s
waist.
Duo
laughed in triumph. “Mission acknowledged.” He leaned to kiss his lover and
turned off the laptop.
//End flashback//
“The doctor said that he recovers fast
and his condition will be in complete shape in a week.” Relena said to the other three pilots. She had a tray in her hands, not letting any
of the maids to bring the food for the Perfect Soldier.
They’re walking through the corridor
heading to Heero’s room when Duo suddenly stopped.
“Duo, what’s wrong?” Quatre looked over
his shoulder to see the Deathscythe pilot.
“Umm, sorry guys. Seems I forget something with my tools in
Shinigami. I’d better take it before we
self--destruct it later.” He startled.
“We can do it later.” Trowa muttered and did not stop walking.
“No, we can’t. That’s why I have to go
now.” Duo said nervously.
“But I thought you *really* want to see
Heero…” Quatre winced with
disappointment.
Duo bit his bottom lip, eyes not
exactly planted to the blue-eyed boy.
Quatre could read him like an open book; he smiled and then sighed. “Okay, Duo.
You can see him later. He’s
okay, you know that…”
Duo nodded, didn’t know how to thank
the Arabian pilot and then he ran to the exit door.
“What’s wrong with him? I
thought he’s Heero’s friend.” Relena
blinked in surprise.
“I think that’s exactly
why…” Trowa gasped, eyes filled with
tender when he remembered about their early waiting hours with Duo who never
stop asking for Heero’s condition.
“Duo is afraid if he sees
Heero now..” Quatre smiled, “he might
not be able to control himself.”
“They’re really close
friends, didn’t they?” Relena smiled. “I never thought Heero could be friend
with anyone before..”
Trowa faced the blonde
pilot and he could see the Winner boy smiling to somewhere far away, “you have
no idea, Relena-sama…”
//Flashback//
He
turned towards the mirror and preened, straightening the collar of his black
button down shirt when he felt gentle hands run through the strands of his
hair.
“Be
careful.” A soft voice whispered in his
ear.
“I’ll
be fine, Heero.” He smiled to their
reflection in the mirror, “see, I didn’t forget to tell you this time.”
“Hn.” He continued caressing Duo’s hair. Smell the scent of the chestnut braid.
“Heero,”
Duo turned around and pushed him a little.
His violet eyes full with determination when he finally said,
“I
love you, Heero.”
Heero
startled, moving backwards when he heard the statement. Duo gulped, didn’t know what to do, He knew
he shouldn’t have told him, a minute later he regret his action--especially
after seeing Heero’s reaction. But God
knows that he could not *not* say it.
And if he had to die in this next mission, he wanted Heero to know how
he really felt.
“I’m
sorry, Heero. Maybe I’m wrong to say
those words now, but I have to say it, before it’s too late…”
“Noo…!!” For his surprise Heero had pulled him back
to his embrace and held him tightly. He closed his eyes and buried his face to
Heero’s shoulder; trying to catch the smell of his lover.
“Admit
it, Heero. We’re in the middle of a war here. We could’ve died anytime
soon. And before that I wanted to be
with you, tell you how much I love you…”
“I
know, but before the war is over and we’re still alive, promise me… Duo, you’ll
always be here with me.”
Duo
could feel him tremble in his shoulder, and he couldn’t stop himself for
nodding. “I promise…”
He
never heard the answer for his pledge that day. Sometimes he thought he could hear it with his heart every time
Heero touched him and kissed him, and Duo never stop saying ‘I love you’ when
he get the chance, but sometimes he just longed to hear the words came from the
mouth of Heero Yuy.
//End flashback//
He’s afraid.
He’s afraid if he saw Heero now he
would jump straight over the stoic boy and cried. He still couldn’t get the scene out of his mind, the scene of
Heero and Relena together.
‘Don’t you think they’re so perfect
together?’ A voice crackled in his mind.
“Yes”
‘And you think that he wouldn’t leave
you one day for her?’
“No.”
‘Why? He didn’t love you.’
“Yes, he did.”
‘But he never say that, did he?’
He swallowed hard. He had to admit that probably Heero Yuy
never did in love with him, that he just a war pleasure after all for him.
It is time, he said to himself. He had to say it. It is now or never.
He walked through that corridor once
again, somehow it reminded him to the school hallway where he and Heero had
their first mission together.
He stopped at Heero’s door and heard
voices coming from inside, he cracked open the door and peeked. He saw Relena sitting in a chair near the
bed accompanying Heero who’s eating his dinner in the bed. The boys were gone,
probably looking for him.
Heero was getting better now; he could
see it in those intense eyes.
“The doctor said you’re going to be
okay in a few days.” Duo could hear her said lovingly, her eyes straight to the
Japanese boy.
“Aaa…” He kept shoveling his meal.
“Your friends seem pretty worried about
you.” She continued.
There’s a pause in his action--a slight
pause--that only Duo could realize it.
“Hai.”
She waited until Heero drank his last
water and his medication; she reached for the tray and lean to kiss him in the
forehead. He didn’t try to escape the
kiss and somehow it made Duo’s heart wrench.
Relena had a red blushed on her
cheek. “Get well soon, Heero.” She smiled.
“Hn.”
Duo closed the door silently, hid in
one of the small dark alley nearby, and waited for Relena to depart; he waited
long enough until he finally saw her pass his spot. He gasped and tried to collect his nerve before he opened the
door of Heero’s room.
He saw Heero standing in one side of
the room, watching the stars from the nearest window and eyes wide opened when
he saw his visitor.
“Hi.”
He mumbled when he finally have contact with Heero’s eyes. “I’m glad you’re looking better..”
“Aa..”
“You should get some sleep now,
Heero. It’s been a hard day for
you.” He smiled.
“You too…”
“Well, not as bad as yours.” He pointed at Heero’s wounds, “I’m sorry I
didn’t come here sooner, it’s just that there’s something I have to do…”
Heero came closer to him and touched
him in the stomach, Duo jerked away instantly from the touch. “Does it still hurt, where I hit you?”
“No, no, I’m just shocked. I know you
didn’t mean it, I mean.. you could’ve hit me harder than that….” He gulped and then grinned. “And actually I’m kinda hoping it will left
some mark.”
“Baka.”
Duo laughed and flopped himself to the
bed.
“So, Relena is very sweet ne?” He smirked.
“What do you mean?”
“Well, she’s so nice to you, bringing
you food and everything.”
“Yes, she is.”
“And we both know that she’s always
have that feelings for you..” he chuckled, somehow it sounds bittersweet.
Duo bit his bottom lip again,
“Everything’s over now..”
“Yes, it is. Relena said the same thing.
I have promised that I wouldn’t kill anyone anymore…”
Silence filled the air of the room,
only their breathing that matters. And
after an eternity, he finally said,
“Speaking about promise…” Duo started,
“do you remembered the promise we’ve made long time ago?”
“We’ve made so much promises.” Heero smiled to him, and Duo fell in love to
him once again.
“We’ve promised before the war is over
and we’re still alive, we’ll always be together..”
“Aa…”
“The war is over now, and you can--, I
mean we can…”
“Aa…”
He swallowed hard, waiting for Heero’s
reaction.
“I love you, Heero. But you’ve never told me how you felt, don’t
you think it is time?”
“Duo..” His eyes showed somewhat really close to the word fear.
Duo rose from the bed and smiled.
“It’s okay, Heero. If you
can’t say it, maybe it’s because you’ve never did felt that way. But it’s okay, I’m okay with that…”
“Duo…”
His mouth opened and closed. Duo smiled. ‘at least he didn’t say sorry’,
he said to himself.
He had a brilliant smile in his face
that matches the star in the sky itself. “So this is goodbye then…”
“What?” Heero’s eyes wide open.
“Yes, Heero. Goodbye. The war is over,
I fulfilled my promised and now I’m going to leave you..”
“Du..”
He couldn’t finish the word as Duo’s lips seized his with a very sweet
and tender kiss. He cupped his face in
both hands and Heero savored the kiss to the last pleasure it gave him.
“Goodbye, Heero Yuy.”
“Duo.”
“I love you…” Duo released his hands
and started moving towards the door.
Heero wished he had the reason to stop
him. ‘Duo, I….’ But no words came out his mouth.
“Good luck… and goodbye.”
And the door closed.
*I love you, Heero.*
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