THE UNWANTED
A Fruits Basket Darefic
Written by Miyu, Vampire Princess
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
Another dare from Koishii. *glompage* This one is to help get me back on track.
GAH! I may never recover from Otakon! Oh well. *sigh* In the Furuba Universe,
this takes place just before Rin is released from the hospital. Angst. Bits of
seriousness and possible OOC-ness. Told from Kagura's POV. Lemon.
KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK!
I glanced up from the book I was reading, then looked at the clock on the wall above the television. It was nearly nine o'clock at night. Who could be visiting at this hour? My insides clenched as my mind ran down a list of possibilities.
KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK!
"Coming," I called, literally jumping out of my chair. Sitting my book down on the coffee table, I walked towards the door. Who would be on the other side?
Hatori?
Rin?
Akito?
They all seemed less than likely. Hatori was busy taking care of Yun-chan, who'd fallen ill just the day before. Rin was still in the hospital and would be for another day at least. And the likelihood that Akito would leave his room was...well, just plain unlikely.
KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK!
"I said I was coming," I yell as my hand grasps the doorknob. I have to be mindful my temper doesn't get the better of me, otherwise I'll take the door off its hinges. Sighing, I turn the knob and open the door.
"You come too slowly, Kagura-nee."
I'm surprised. Clearly surprised. And not by the calm tone of voice, or the innuendo in them. I'm just surprised to see my younger cousin Hatsuharu standing on the front porch.
"Rin's not here," I say without thinking. I know the two of them have something going, or at least they did. Rin had said something today about never wanting to see him again. Strange that he should show up on my doorstep then.
"I know," he replies with a nod. "I didn't come here to see her. I came to see you."
BLINK. "Me?"
"Hai. May I come in?"
"H-hai." I step aside so he can walk into the living room. I watch as he passes, uncertain of why he would come to speak to me. We hardly talk as it is and I'm certainly no expert or...well, anything! What could he possibly want to talk about?
Closing the door, I join him in the living room, taking the seat I was sitting in. He sits across from me on the couch. Leaning forward, he rests his elbows on his knees, his head bowed.
"I wanted to ask about Rin," he begins without looking up. "About how she's doing at the hospital. Is she recovering well?"
"Hai," I answer with a small smile. Should I mention to him what she said to me or not? "She's doing quite well. She may be home as early as tomorrow."
"That soon, huh? She must be doing well then." He sighs, but still doesn't look up. "Did she...tell you what happened?"
I shake my head. Of all the things I wanted to hear from her, this wasn't one of them. "She hasn't said a word to me about it. Although...."
He looks up then, his eyes looking misty, on the verge of tears. "Although?"
I bite my bottom lip. I'm not sure if I should tell him or not. What do I do? "Although, she did talk to Shigure-nii for quite a while the other day. He might know."
He shakes his head sadly. "If he knows he isn't telling. I already asked."
"She did tell me something today," I offer without realizing it.
He looks more hopeful now. "Was it about me?"
I nod, unable to find the words now.
"What did she say?"
I look down at the floor. I shouldn't have said anything. Getting his hopes up wouldn't be good. I mean, I know how it feels when the bubble deflates and all. Been there and done that. So instead of continuing I stand, offering him a fake smile.
"Would you like something to drink, Haru-chan?"
He looks at me, confused, then nods. "Water, onegaishimasu."
"All right."
I begin my walk to the kitchen, but I have to pass the couch first. He doesn't make a move to stop me, but then I feel a tug on my arm and I pause in mid-step. He grabs my hand as I walk past, holding me in place.
"Kagura, what did she say?!"
"I really shouldn't--"
"Tell me."
His voice is so calm that I have to comply. "She said...she...she didn't want to...to see you again."
I could see his heart break into a thousand pieces. He literally fell apart right in front of me. I opened my mouth to apologize when he asked:
"She really said that?"
The only answer I could give him was the honest one. "H-hai."
He frowned, looking at the floor and sulking. "So she does hate me."
"I wouldn't say that."
He looks up at me, surprised. "But you just said she doesn't want to see me any more."
"That doesn't mean she doesn't still care," I tell him. And it's partially true. "Rin has her reasons for a lot of things, Haru-chan. She could be just protecting you."
"From what? From who?"
"I don't know."
He sighs, leaning back in the couch. "It's my fault she's in the hospital."
My eyes widen when he says that. It's not his fault. He wasn't there. "I don't think that's right--"
"It's true. It's my fault."
"Why?" I ask nervously.
"Because," he sighs again and shakes his head. "Because I was in love with her, that's why. Because we messed around. We screwed up big time."
I didn't think my eyes could get any wider. I knew they were close but, I hadn't realized. Oh my god, the person I thought of like a sister was in the hospital. And it was Haru's fault.
Akito must've found out.
Oh, kami!
"Why would you even RISK such a thing?!" I'm yelling although I don't mean to. I just can't help it. "You know Akito would never approve!"
He stands from the couch, our eyes meeting and glaring. "I love her, dammit."
"Then maybe you should STOP loving her, or she'll end up right back in the hospital!"
I regret it the moment it leaves my mouth. I cover my lips with one hand, knowing that what he says next I rightly deserve.
"Maybe you should give up on Kyo, then. The cat will never love you back. Not after you ran away like a scared little pig."
He looks at me angrily, and for a moment I think I may have brought out Black Haru. But he turns away, fists clenched at his sides. With long strides he makes for the door.
"Wait, Haru-chan!"
He stops only when I reach him, only when I place my arms around his waist from behind. His hand reaches for the doorknob but nothing else. As I hug him I rest my forehead between his shoulder blades. I'm barely tall enough. I can feel him relax, feel a sigh escape his body. I sigh as well, tears stinging at my eyes.
"Gomen ne, Haru-chan," I say as the tears start to fall. "I shouldn't have yelled at you. It's not your fault that Rin was put in the hospital. It's not your fault that Akito's such an insufferable bastard to everyone around him."
"And it's not your fault that Kyo doesn't return your affection." He loosens my grip on him and turns in my arms. I look up as he faces me. "I shouldn't have said what I said. Gomen, Kagura-nee."
"It's all right. After what I said, I deserved it."
His hands cup my face, his thumbs wiping away tears as they fall down my cheeks. "No, you didn't deserve it. Neither of us do. I guess Shigure-sensei was right."
I looked at him curiously. "Nani?"
"He once told me that as jyuunishi we are 'the unwanted' children. Granted not all of us have despicable parents. I mean, look at you. But I think this applies in a different sense." He paused. "We're unwanted by the ones we love." He paused again, leaning forward until our foreheads touched. "I think that's worse."
My body is suddenly on overdrive and his nearness is driving my senses wild. I shouldn't feel like this with him. I should only feel this way for Kyo. But surprisingly enough, I don't feel this way around Kyo. I don't think I ever have. It's different when I'm around him.
Why didn't I see that before?
Probably because you didn't want to admit that you're not really in love with him, my mind retorts.
I'm not in love with Kyo? Really?
Perhaps I'm not.
"It's much worse," I whisper, my voice hoarse as I choke back a sob.
"But we have each other, ne?" He's closer now, his breath tickling my nose. I can feel his hands press gently on my lower back, pulling me closer to him. "Ne, Kagura-nee?"
"Hai," I answer, closing my eyes as I lean forward that last inch to close the distance between us.
When our lips meet for the first time, it sends an electric shock through my system. My body shivers and he pulls me tighter because of it. I hold onto him tightly too. Afraid that, when we part, I'll wake up, and this will all have been a dream.
He's a very good kisser, my younger cousin. His lips move over mine masterfully. He's skilled no doubt. And when his tongue reaches for mine, I can only join him. Our tongues play with each other, tasting and teasing. I pick up a definitive taste from the back of his mouth. Something minty...or is that fruity...in either case, it's very tasty, and distinctly Haru.
Our hands do not remain still, either. My hands roam up and down his back, to his sides, his shoulders and down over his spine again. My hands lightly run over the curve of his butt, grasping him tightly. He returns the favor by fondling my breasts, flicking one hardened nipple through the fabric of my dress with a fingernail. As he repeats this motion, I gasp into the kiss and he breaks it, trailing lighter, wetter kisses down to my neck and back to my ear.
One hand leaves my breast and caresses lower, down my side, past my hip until I feel his rough fingertips against my outer thigh. He grasps my there, lifting me until he's holding my leg up by my knee. I take the hint and wrap it around him as best as I can. With the height difference it's a bit difficult, but the end result -- the perfect joining of our groins together in just the right spot -- is well worth the effort.
As Haru continues to kiss my neck, I use my grip on his butt to pull him closer to me. I can feel his hardened erection through is leather pants. It presses just so against my center that if I move just slightly it grazes my clitoris, sending wonderful waves of pleasure through my body.
Soon I don't have to move as Haru's rocking his hips against mine freely. I feel myself being lifted slightly, just enough so that our bodies are locked in the correct position. When did he push me against the door? It matters little as he begins rocking again. I try to toss my head back, only for it to be stopped by the door. My hands grasp his buttocks tightly, kneading them as his other hand in kneading my breast.
I try to hold back, but there's a rush of light coming at me and I have no power to stop it. My breath catches and my body goes numb. Everything blurs in my vision for an instant, then slowly comes back into focus. When it does, I'm staring into the most beautiful pair of eyes I've ever seen.
"Haru...chan?"
"I take back what I said earlier, Kagura-nee" he says with a smile. "You don't come so slowly after all."
Carefully he lowered me to my feet. My legs were a bit wobbly but he kept his arms around me for support. He pressed a light kiss to the tip of my nose, releasing me a little and stepping away. I had to lean on the door for support, but then he grabbed my hands in his and pulled me forward, walking me back into the living room.
"Do you still want to play?" he asks quietly.
I nod, not trusting my voice to answer. I really shouldn't be doing this with him. I should be saving this for Kyo. But, if what I thought about earlier is true, does it really matter? Will it matter?
This feels so right, so why am I fighting it?
Am I fighting it?
Haru sits on the edge of the couch pulling me to stand between his open legs. He nuzzles my stomach with his nose, his hands stroking over my calves and the back of my knees. Slowly, very carefully, he grabs the hem of my dress and pulls it up as his hands roam upward over my body. His hands don't go any higher than my shoulders, so I take over from there. With that one article discarded, I'm standing before him in nothing but my mismatched bra and panties.
My hands weave through his white and black hair as he nuzzles his nose against my bare stomach, his lips pressing light kisses against my skin. His tongue soon follows, tracing invisible lines, dipping into my bellybutton, the moving downward.
With one hand on my ass to help support me, his other pulls the waistband of my panties down. Once they reach my lower thigh they slide down effortlessly to my ankles. Pulling me closer still, he nuzzles me again, this time with his nose buried in the curls of my sex.
Now with both hands cupping my buttocks, he lays a line of kisses along my hip and downward to my thigh. I moan as his hands knead the tight muscles of my ass, gasping when I feel his tongue brushing against my bead of pleasure, and nearly crying out as his lips curl around my clit and suckles gently.
My entire body shivers as I feel the light approaching me once more. I try to fight it, to push it away, but it comes barreling at me again. I grasp his scalp tightly, pulling him closer to me. I can feel his tongue slip into my sex, seeking and finding my core and the licking the wet juices there. The sound of him drinking me in is my undoing. I come again quickly, my voice hoarse as I cry out in pleasure.
When it's over, he rises a little, nuzzling my bellybutton. He smiles against my stomach, placing a light kiss there. "You taste good, Kagura-nee. I never knew."
My legs become wobbly and I'm not sure how much longer I can stand on my own. "Haru-chan...onegai."
Answering my plea, he pulls me down to the couch, lying me underneath him. With my help he manages to unbutton his pants and pull them downward. I should be surprised that he's not wearing any underwear, but I'm not. What I am surprised by is his size. Now, I'm no sex expert but I do know how things are supposed to operate, and I have to wonder how the hell his engorged cock is going to fit inside of me. I mean, he's huge...and perhaps that's an understatement.
He chuckles, grabbing one of my hands and placing it around his length. "Don't be scared. It won't bite."
As he once again sets about placing kisses along my jaw and neck, I stroke over his cock tentatively. The contrast between smooth skin and hard steel is incredible. I'm at once awed and amazed. Then I don't even care as Haru finds that soft spot on my neck, just where the head and shoulder meet. I gasp, squeezing him tightly in my fist. He curses, moaning my name in response.
"Did I hurt you?" I ask. I really should learn to control my strength better.
He shakes his head, moving his hips so I'll continue to stroke him. "No. Actually that felt rather good."
My hand moves up and down his length as his lips move lower still. Instead of reaching around and undoing my bra, he simply pulls the cups down, revealing me to his heated gaze. He wastes no time in taking a hardened nipple into his mouth, pulling and tugging on the painful bit of flesh as I pull and tug at his cock. In no time he has me crying out again, whimpering as the ache between my legs keeps building.
"Haru-chan?"
"Are you sure, Kagura-nee?"
"H-hai."
He pulls away forcing me to release my hold on him. He hovers above me for a moment, position his hips to mine. I can feel the head of his cock piercing my entrance and I lift my hips instinctively to push him further inside. He smiles, obliging by pushing himself in just a little. For every inch he sinks into me he pauses to allow me time to adjust.
Then he comes to my barrier.
"This will hurt," he says, kissing my forehead.
"I know," I reply, kissing his shoulder.
With one thrust he fills me, tearing through my barrier and stretching my inner walls as far as they will go. I wince at the sudden burst of pain, but as he holds himself still, my body begins to relax, to adjust. In a matter of minutes -- or was it seconds -- I lift my hips to indicate my readiness to continue.
His first few thrusts are careful, gentle, but after a while they become frantic, needy. I'm already on the verge of another climax, but I don't want to go over yet. I want his to be with me, or not too far behind.
"Kami, you're tight," he mutters as his thrusts move even faster than before. I've already stopped trying to keep up. "I'm going to...come...any...second."
When I feel him make that one final thrust, I give in to my orgasm, allowing the light to wash over me again, the heat to pour through my body. I'm sure I call his name, and I think I hear mine as well. The world goes blissfully black just after I feel him fall on top of me, exhausted.
I'm not sure how long I've been out when the world comes back into focus. A few seconds? Minutes? HOURS? At any rate, I look down at the young man on top of me. His arms wrap around my middle and he hugs me tightly.
"Arigato, Kagura-nee," he whispers, falling asleep. Honestly I think its the most sleep he's gotten in a while. I never realized how tired he looked until now. Odd.
Stroking the hair out of his eyes, I place a light kiss to the top of his head, pillowed on my breasts. "Arigato, Haru-chan."
We can never been seen together in public. Not like this. Not like he and Rin used to be. Besides, we have our own goals while we're out in the world. He has Rin and I have Kyo.
But when no one's looking, we'll have each other.
We are the unwanted, after all.
~OWARI~