“I Don’t Know Why I Didn’t Come”

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

I had the chance to come but I stayed away.  When Kev told me there were ladies who wanted to meet me I should have called a cab.  I knew I wasn’t in any shape to drive but maybe they wouldn’t have wanted to see me like this anyway.  It’s hard when I’m stuck in this rut of ‘Dana and drinking.’  It’s like it’s all I’ve ever known and yet there has to be something better out there for me.  There probably was someone better at that dinner and I blew it off.

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

The next day I had so many regrets.  Kev told me what I’d missed and it was kind of sickening.  I don’t know if I could face trying to build another new relationship with someone else.  I know it ain’t right for me to be with Dana but at least I know what I’m up against and I know how it’ll come out-yeah, like that makes it right or something.  Still, I could have made some new friends that night and maybe one of them would have helped me break free of the choke hold Dana has on me.

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone

I was drunk that night.  I don’t do this for fun.  It’s not fun waking up afterwards and it’s going to kill me someday.  I’d rather die happy and in the arms of a sweeter lady than the one whose clutches I’m in now.  I guess I’ll always wonder if I could have found someone new that night.  She could have saved me from the so-called life I have now. 

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

Work is good and I have my kids and my best buddy but that’s about all.  Why can’t I have what he’s got?  There must be someone out there who is better for me but I guess I’ll die alone and broken.  It’s what I seem destined to do.  I just don’t know why I didn’t come that night.