Dying

I watch as the bullet ripples through her chest. She slumps to the floor, dazed and confused. Tears stream down my face as I run towards her and clutch her bleeding body.
�Jeff,� she says, �I love you with all my heart, remember me when I�m gone.�
�Don�t say that,� I cry, �You can�t leave me�please baby, don�t leave me.� I sob uncontrollably as the beautiful face before me contorts in pain and fear.
�Look after our baby. Promise me Jeff that you�ll look after Jake. Remarry so Jake can have a new mommy. He needs a mommy,� she whispers hoarsely. I strain my ears to catch her words and weep even more as she gasps for breath.
�I need you, don�t leave me. You�ll be fine once we get you to the hospital�you�re going to be just fine. And I�ll bring Jake to see you in the morning. We�ll bring you candy, flowers and balloons. You�ll be fine,� I say in between tears. I look in to her tranquil blue eyes and realise that she is in peace. She is no longer in pain.
�Honey, I love and Jake�I love you,� she says slowly and carefully. I kiss her soft skin and notice blood all over my white shirt and trousers. But I do not care.
�Jake, Jake,� she says pointing to the car. I place her down gently on the floor and run to the car to fetch my baby son who is strapped safely into his seat. I clutch his tiny body tightly and hold him close to my chest as I place him in front of his mother so she can give him a kiss. She is too weak to hold him in her arms.
�I�ll be up there keeping an eye on you,� she says pointing to the sky before closing her eyes.
�NO,� I scream shaking her lifeless body, �Wake up, you have to wake up.�
Her body goes limp and I fumble around to feel for her pulse. I feel none. She�s gone. My beautiful wife is gone. I tighten my grip around her body and cry. NO. I refuse to believe that she is gone.
�Baby I�m going to give up wrestling so we can spend more time together. Just the two of us and Jake. We�ll be a nice little family. We can move into a nice big house in Cameron and you can choose whatever d�cor you want�even though we both know how bad you are when it comes to colour coordination.� I know I am rambling but she always told me to hang onto hope until the last minute. I must not give up.
The realisation suddenly hits me again and tears drip of my face and onto her blood soaked torso.
�I love you, come back please. Come back for me and Jake,� I scream hysterically kissing her face roughly.
I am numb with pain. She is dead. Gone forever. She looks so beautiful and serene. Her face is banished of the pain and she has a slight smile. She died happy, thank you God. At least she suffered no pain. I kiss her face and then kiss Jake.
�I�ll see you in heaven my little angel. I�ll be seeing you shortly,� I manage a smile and walk back to the car.
I sit Jake in my lap and start up the engine. I press my foot down on the accelerator and watch Jake playing with his fingers as the car races down the highway. I see a truck approaching but I make no attempt to steer clear. I hold Jake closer to me and wrap him up inside my jacket.
�I love you Jake. God please protect my son,� I kiss his small forehead and cry as he gurgles happily.
The force of the truck is tremendous. The impact sends my car off the road and into a tree. I roll out of the car and onto the wet grass outside. My head hurts and I am still holding onto Jake who is crying.
I gasp for breath. My chest feels tight and seems to be getting tighter. My head is spinning and my legs are numb. I see a man and woman running towards me. The woman grabs Jake and soothes him.
�Son you�re going to be alright,� says the man.
�Tell my brother Matt Hardy to look after Jake,� I mumble incoherently.
I close my eyes and feel my will to live slipping away.
�Tell Matt I loved him and Jake, but I cannot not go on. Without her my life is meaningless.� I smile as peace surrounds me and I close my eyes.
�Wait young man, help is on way,� I hear the man ramble on trying to keep me awake.
I see her standing at the end of a bright tunnel.
�Jeff, come join me,� she says in her sweet tone, �We will be happy forever.� I sob loudly and open my eyes.
�Jake daddy loves you and so did mommy, you remember that. I never meant for this to happen and I promise to make it up to you one day,� I say before blackness envelops me.