But before I go
I think you should know
What has happened to me.
I was a toy for him
Off and on for six years.
Why weren't you there
To wipe my tears?
Why am I still here?
I see nothing
whenv I look into the mirror.
My face is just an image.
I am just a zombie.
What is my purpose?
Yes I have feelings
And they get hurt
Every minute.
And yes I have a soul
Because I feel for others.
But if you think I am going to live
With all of this pain,
Then you are the one
Who is insane.
So it is time for me to go
But do not worry.....
No one will ever know.
I will keep my mouth shut.
I will not tell anyone.
And when this is done
I will have taken my life with a gun.
But before I die
Make sure there are no tears in my eyes.
So from now on
When I am finally gone,
You can go back to ignoring the truth.
But remember that I took my life as a youth.
Now you can go back to living the lies.
Wait!
Yes, I'm dead,
But there is still a tear in my eye.
Always remember that one lonely tear
Because I always lived in fear.
It fucked me up bad.
My whole life,
I pretended I was in a dream world
A happy life was what I had.
But before I end this,
Do not forget what I said.
Yes I am dead
But there is still that one lonely tear in my eye.
Always remember that one lonely tear.
And I can finally rest
And not live in fear.