This is the newest version.  Version Three: Was it Fate?

"Was it Fate?

      Fate... that insist that I should always remember you?

                     ...appear before me like a ghost.

  I miss you...

          ...but you don't even know my name."

                                                                --LMT.

ACCEPTANCE..._________________________________

     [2412o4] - I'm extremely tired but very happy altogether.  because today I've just received my letter from TAFE to tell me that I got ACCEPTED to st george and am on the standby list for east sydney.  I'm totally ecstatic because I get to do the course in which I want my career to be based on =)).  I was more hoping to get into east sydney but hey st george ain't bad!  plus as long as I get to do advance diploma of Fashion Design then I don't really care~!!  urghh so happy this is the BEST christmas present by far. merry christmas everyone and a happy new year.  [muah]

"You appeared like out of nowhere and disappeared like a ghost... I never got your name..."

-- LMT.

1o:14pm - Friday - Ja. yingfa

MENTALLY UNPREPARED, SEETHING..._____

     [1212o4] - I haven't updated for a long time... I've been busy organising things for my parents and am glad that it's finally over~!  well I guess I should talk about my absent days huh?  well beside hanging out with friends out in the city I haven't been doing much.  places you'll find me about in the city is actually quite limited:  kinokuniya.  george st cinema.  eckersley's.  and on some occassions around chinatown.  but beside that it was only just this tuesday~! that I had to undergo a mental breakdown.  why you ask?  well if you were I, and had to go all the way to east sydney tafe to do an interview and test then you goddamn well be as mentally unprepared as I.  why was I unprepared?  because I did not do more designs for my portfolio!~!  [ARGH] cursed I tell you!  I'm BLOODY cursed.  the test was alright I guess, it consisted that I draw an exact replica of the image they choose and then with the given fabrics we are to design an outfit.  firstly the sketch was hard~!  I mean having to redraw these two chicks who seems to be in such hard annoying sketch poses where I had to make sure that her arms aren't TOO long and out of proportions isn't easy okay!  I mean I thought I was doing okay, I mean I'm no Da Vinci but hey I'm quite capable of sketching something from an image and all but my god, when I looked up to the girl in front of me which is like too very large science lab away, that girl was giving it her all!!!  bloody outlines and shading and details... [depressed]  I felt pathetic!  secondly, the FABRICS, never had I ever seen such revolting combination ever~!  I mean moron velvet, pinkish organza, and a weird pattern with purple, black and lime green and I think there was some yellow too, swirls.  seriously the worst combination ever, took me FOREVER to come up with a half decent design, and that I didn't get time to finish putting colours onto the design.  the interview was another thing.  at first I was so nervous, going over the designers that I've researched and thought were my favourite, but then I started talking to the guy next to me - his name is Edward <- whole accent thing too.  his really nice and was like 25 years old - so picture the scene: a 17yr old girl who had just finished high school and her hsc, outside a room all nervous but manages to strike a convo with this guy next to her who so happens to be going to the same panel as her, to get her mind off being nervous.  [hmm] I think I did alright in starting a convo, and there was something I remembered he said that was pretty good advice "don't be nervous, there's nothing to be nervous bout because you're doing something you love."  after hearing it I felt how right that was.  so when my name was called I walked in with whatever courage and love for the course I could muster.  I think it went pretty fine they ask the usual things, like why you wanna do this course and so.  I even found out that about more than 8oo people applied and only around 2oo or was asked to attend the test and interview.  needless to say I was extremely proud and happy that I was one of those 2oo.  I felt kind of stupid when I was blabbering, I wasn't expecting some questions and had thought I was really prepare, guess I was wrong.  but I was extremely happy to hear them talk among themselves about how they liked the 'feel' of some of my designs.  yep to have other's approval of your hard work really is rewarding, what made me even more happy was that these three people who liked my designs aren't just people you ask randomly, they are teachers of this course and so.  [oops] after rambling about this for so long I never did state what course it was that I went to the interview for, it was none other than FASHION DESIGN - advance diploma.  [oh] don't think that I've gotten in already because I haven't which is making me extremely on the edge.  they said that the letters will be out on the first week of january.  so I'm hoping.  did I also forgot to mention that they never asked about the designers and stuff.  got me up a few nights researching on designers and all and trying to find my favourites...  oh well I'll just let you guys know so my hard work won't go down the drain completely.  my favourite is Naoki Takizawa, his the designer of the house of Issey Miyake, I absolutely love the moon range.

[sigh] it's getting late and I should head to bed.  oh for the title of this entry the word 'seething' is because of a story I read.  I am currently not happy with some of the works that I have read.  I mean seriously there is no logic in some of the stories.  how can a girl who hates this guy for so long after hearing his friend talk to her and saying that they belong together ends up running straight to him and tell him that she loves him too and that they belong together.  firstly I wouldn't mind it so if she had gradually change her mind not like the snap of a finger she's changed her mind completely.  secondly, what in the world will a girl say 'they belong together' to the guy, especially a guy she hade hated for so long, I wont mind it so if they had been together for a while and she then says it but really?!~  what the hell is the writer trying to portray.  another that I just read, the guy says he loves her and that he'll come back for her... so tell me if he says that does that gives him any moral to sleep with another, while she waits years and years for him?~!  I'm sorry if anyone of you believes that it's actually alright for him to sleep with another because of the years but I however find that disgusting~!!  especially where he does comes back after his done his responsibility to be with her, claiming that he still loves her and wants to marry her.  while she held onto his promise believing him, turning down offers that others had propose, waiting just for him and then he comes back and makes love to her and asks her hand in marriage but throughout this she knows naught of his escapade.  I'm sorry though he did at least asks her to marry him and all but I still found it disgusting that he claims to love this girl, and willing to die for her yet goes and have sex with another!  it's ruin the so call love story of it all~!  I don't mean to complain about it because it ain't no typical love story, but she made the girl so.... stupidly in love that I found it unbearable therefore I am currently 'SEETHING' and am in hunt of something new to read to get my mind of the all whole thing.

"I find it hard to say...  what a fool I've become when I promised my love for you is eternity, when you turn around and is now loving someone...  who isn't me."

-- LMT.

12:27am - Sunday - Ja. yingfa

MOON RANGE..._________________________________

     [2511o4] - I didn't sleep till 4 this morning.  why?  simply cause I was doing some research.  research?  even though you no longer go to school?  yup!!  I was researching on some international fashion designer's new ranges.  [sighs] and let me tell you ISSEY MIYAKE's newest moon range is simply the most gorgeous and [urgh] I just don't know how to say it but I'm totally in love with this collection at the current moment!!!!  I'll say someone needs to drag me back to earth soon [lol].  anyway I didn't wake up till 11 something this morning and guess what I did as soon as I woke up...  I went straight back to researching.  anyway beside that I STILL can't believe I have sign out completely.  yeah it's sign, done, snap, finished, out.  can you people believe it!!  I'm no longer a high school student!!  you should of seen the last few days I've been out, take yesterday for an example, Dewi, Rae and me went to Galaxy World to play pool and while we were playing these juniors with uniforms came up, I still find it hard to see students in uniforms walking around because to me it feels like we're on holidays and once its over we have to go back to school [lol].  I should stop typing and finish the layout, since this is no longer a homepage but rather a blog from now on!  oh yeah just put your mouse over yingfa that is in blue and it will let you leave a message.

"I wonder if it's autumn?  cause the leaves are falling...  and so have I."

-- LMT.

1o:5opm - Thursday - Ja. yingfa

GRADUATION____________________________________

     [25o9o4] - I had just graduate from High School on Thursday, this whole week had been all about having fun.  I had started video recording since Tuesday, even though on Tuesday me and my friends didn't end up going to school because of our TAFE project.  This is just a few shots from Tuesday when Lucie gave us a lift.

It was a really fun day with us ending up shoe shopping.  We had originally plan to go to Happy Cup to get a drink but... it was [gasp] close.  So we ended up doing some light shopping.  Oh yeah, Tuesday the 21st so happens to be my last day of TAFE for the course "clothing production"  we had to finish and finalise our formal dress.

On Wednesday, there wasn't really any classes at all, my friends and I ended up hanging around the kitchen because Dewi and Rae where preparing the food for graduation.  Renuga, Leisa and I ended up walking around the school, video recording and having lunch, upstairs at Grind.  Oh and it was a mufti day too.  Here are the pics from Wednesday that I recorded.  Did I forgot to mention that I can turn the stuff I taped into still images?  [lol] well I can!

Thursday was Graduation Day.  It was extremely sad as everyone couldn't believe that it was it.  The teachers at the very end of the ceremony got on stage and sang "Eyes of the Tiger" changing a few of the words for us, it was really sweet.

 The first pic is Rae, she's giving my the sly smile for recording her.  The second pic is Claire during a quick rehearsal in the morning.  The third is the sweet Steven, practicing his piece for the day.

There is more of a little of everyone from that day I even got shots of the teachers singing on stage!  It was a great day where everyone in the so called Ball Room had tables of food; which I didn't eat any, cause I, like everyone else was getting friends and teachers to sign my shirt.  I'm going to need to take a shot of my shirt one day and upload it.  in the end we didn't go to the beach as plan, however Renuga, Rae and Wayne suggest we go the next day.

Now on to Friday, the day we head to the beach!  I ended up getting to the wharf at least a hour early, which is a real surprise considering that I'm always the one late.  I ended up looking for the wharf that is the Manly Ferry which was wharf three.  Message everyone so that they didn't have to end up looking.  My back ended up a little tan since I was standing in the sun, and I wasn't even at the beach yet.  While waiting, someone I never thought I'll see walk pass me to the wharf, trust me I wasn't certain that it was him, and I'm still not certain that he is the one that I know.  Anyway, at 9:3o Rae appear, I knew she was going to the first one to appear and I was right.

It wasn't till close to 1o; our meeting time that Claire, Dewi, Renuga and Wayne came.  Yup you people heard right Wayne came and as you can guess he was the only guy with us.  The ferry trip was long, but Claire and Dewi entertain us with their singing while Renuga and I took a little walk on the ferry.  it was a fun day except not enough sun!!  But we had load of fun especially when Rae, Claire and Wayne decided to play with sands, or when Rae freak Dewi out by scaring her with seaweed and especially when we were checking out hot guys.  We took loads of shots but some pics were too dark so I had to play with the contrast to lighten them.

"Love is like death...  you cannot control what is to come".

-- LMT.

11:52pm - Saturday - Ja. yingfa

know-it-alls.  show-offs.  snobs.  people who don't get the message 'away'.  slimy, crawling creatures.  not being confident enough.  promise breaker.  two-timer.  horror sh*ts.  people who stares: it's like bloody hell get a camera and take a shot, it last longer!!  those who spread fake rumours.  going out alone.  people who tries to make me look a fool.  those who think it's funny to say 'i like you'.  those who say 'i love you' without even considering if that's exactly how they feel.  those who keeps bugging me.  not getting any peace and quiet around the house.  waking up in the morning.  having to get to somewhere on time.  the train timetable. 

..COLLECTS..

cute letter sets.  nail polishes.  mangas.  albums: utada, jay etc.  hair accessories.  animes.  things that are purple.  things with cherry blossoms on it.

..MORE..

well I had just finish year 12.  Lei Mun Ting is my chinese name.  i just finish my HSC~!  YIPEE~  I'm a hopeless romantic.  I cry watching sad movies.  extremely sentimental and emotional.  I care a lot about my family and friends.  I know that life is too short for regrets, especially after my grandfather passed away, I began to live for the moment more.  I do believe in fate and all.  I guess I don't have a lot of faith in myself.  afraid to get hurt.  never lie about how i feel... so if the feeling is gone then I'll end it, I won't pretend that the feeling is still there.  I'm a huge daydreamer, my mind is always off in la la land.  love being with my friends.  I'm a very forgetful person, and I don't exactly live by the time.  I like playing with my appearance, so if I can pull that style off I'll go for it.  I tend to prefer the more casual style more.  I'm a final fantasy freak, know all the main characters in each one, my ringtones are all final fantasy.  when I read I get all absorb and into another world, tend to ignore my surroundings.  if you ever go into a book store with me, you'll have to drag me just to get out, that's how bad I am with books, but I come second to that title right after Rae.  Rae is the biggest book freak.  I'm still on my L's, can't wait to get my P's.  I also enjoy writing my own stories and creating quotes.

"Life's too short to have a bad dress day..."

-- LMT.