| I am Faith.
I am sixteen years old. I am a student, But I am not very interested in school. I have blue eyes, rimmed with grey Which freely show emotion And light brown hair That drives me up the wall. For work I put it up, For school I leave it alone. I am an animal fanatic. I have a dog, And fish, And two budgies (although sometimes I wish I didn�t). I love pizza with lots of cheese and chocolate anything. I am younger then my sisters But older then my cousins. I love the smell of freshly cut grass and my puppy. I drink milk and lemonade. Ferns are beautiful plants, The wilted things Mom calls plants are not. I am afraid of Shelob off of Lord of the Rings. I like rivers and waterfalls. I work best with deadlines. I like drawing and music But I hate pastels and country twang. I like comfy rooms with beanbag chairs and Paperback novels because I love to read. I like red ink and coil notebooks Although I can�t use them at school. I love holidays But I hate the crowds they bring. I love footwear. I like sneakers more then dress shoes, And flip flops come before prom sandals. But next year I�ll get prom sandals, And a fancy dress, And dance. Not until next year. Someday I want the house I designed, With a garden and a pool But it has to wait Until I make some more money. Someday. I believe in the nature of the beast, But that the beast can change. I know Bill Gates has lots of money, But I don�t know why he doesn�t share more of it. People who do a 180 in their habits to become great, Are inspiring. People who do a 360, Are not. I am confused. I like to go in the woods with my dog. I�m crazy about pasta and ice cream and Barbeque chips. I like organized chaos, as long as I know where everything is. I love pajamas and what dancing in the rain stands for. I make rice in the microwave and add spice For flavor. I am in love with trees, the way water moves and pennies from the 50�s. I read Philip Pullman, JK Rowling, Iris Johansen And oh so many more. I love warm cloudy days and quiet snowy nights And classical writing like Bram Stoker, Even if his writing is dry in places. I love old houses, bon fires and warm baths. I habitually make desserts and like Pop Tarts. I�d like to be sophisticated, but I love fantasy too much. |
| I love coloring books, but I don�t color often.
I hate the idea that my actions hurt the environment But I am too lazy to change them. I�d rather jog then power walk. I learned that in PAL this year. (That�s about all I learned) I want the privileges of adulthood but None of the worries that come with them. I read too much, write too much, talk too much, walk too fast, watch TV too much And stay on the computer too long. I love every minute of it. If the world wasn�t so massive, I�d be able to function better. I love my friends, but hate their habits. I�m normal, on the outside. I have a wonderful memory, until I need it. I both hate and love my thoughts But at least they are mine. I spend all my money on comic books, mystery books, book books And the occasional fish. My thoughts are schizophrenic All over the place and seemingly spontaneous. Except to me. I love Linkin Park, Thornly and Pink. I know every word to my favorite songs. But I know nothing about them. And I�ve never met them. I don�t really desire to either. But I am glad they made music. I don�t understand me. But others seem too. I find that reassuring And yet, disturbing. I always wanted to be a vet. Or a lawyer. Something interesting and adventurous, But now I�m not so sure. My sense of adventure has changed. If I could go anywhere I wanted� The Rocky Mountains would be awesome. And then a tour of Europe. And finally, Brazil, because I always get it in RISK. I don�t like to think I need anyone, But I love to know that I�m needed. My need for people is always something I deny Although I don�t know why it bothers me so. People tell me I am funny when I�m angry. Well, That�s great� It�s just what I wanted. It�s traumatized me for life. I�ve had my heart broken, It�s not something I enjoyed Or look forward too. Unnatural bicolored bright dye jobs (Pink with Orange, Blue with Green) Bother me. I like spring and fall. Winter is too cold. Summer is too hot. But that�s just me. I love the quiet hours of late night and early morning. I just wish they happened more while I was conscious. Knowledge was something I used to do on my own, School has made it a chore to me, Now I find it much less interesting. I don�t know much, but what I know, I like to know well. My name is Faith, and it is the 5th year of the new millennium. |
| Faith: An Inventory of Being |
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