A PopStar Life
Chapter 1

I was in the kitchen at my flat making tea and my girlfriend was over watching TV

Let me introduce myself I’mand was in the biggest boy band Blue but now I have gone solo.

My girlfriendhas been a fan of mine for ages but now we are dating again.

‘What you watching on TV?’I asked her ‘Just some fit lads on TV’ she laughed 

‘Hey you don’t need to when I am here’ I said as I went over to the sofa and handed her a cup of tea.

‘Thanks babe’ she said as she took the cup ‘Its alright’ I said as I kissed her on her forehead and went to sit next to her.

I watched her drink some of her tea and then she put the cup down and lent her head on my shoulder. I put my arm around her shoulder 
and hugged her close to me.

I was lucky to have her after what had happened in the past with us both.

‘Hey what you thinking?’ She said looking up at me ‘Just that I am lucky to have you’ I said looking down at her  ‘Aww thanks babe but 
you know you nearly didn’t’ she said. She was right I nearly did not have her and that was down to my mistakes.

‘ Yeh I know’ I sighed ‘Hey you know I love you right no matter what’ she looked at me ‘Yeh I know babe’ I said as I kissed her on the lips.

She pulled off me and smiled ‘And you know I love you no matter what’ I said as I pulled her down onto the sofa so we were laying next to 
each other.

‘ You know I am sorry for the past and that’ I said to her, I did not know if I should of brought that topic up but I just wanted her to know 
I was.

‘please I know you are, we don’t have to bring that up again’ she said to me.

‘ Sorry Babe’ She was right I did not need to bring it up again.

It all happened years ago when I first started out in the band we were all new to this sort of area and were just meeting fans.

We had met loads of fans and then one day there she wasshe had never been to any of our other promotion before, when I saw her I 
thought she was cute.

I went over to her ‘Heycan you sign this for me please? She asked me ‘Yeh sure Babe ‘ I answered. Ok so I never said babe a lot it just 
sort of came out my mouth at that time ‘Here you are’ I said as I gave her a poster back ‘Thanks, Can I have a photo with you to please? 
She asked, I must admit she was really polite out of all the fans I had met so far ‘ Sure you can’ I said as I sort of bent down with me arm 
around her shoulder as the photo was taken.

‘Thanks’ she smiled after the photo was taken, I talked to her for abit to try and find out more about her and she asked me questions about 
me.

I remember I told her whereabouts I live, ok so I was young back then and told girls everything about me and sometimes my number but 
hey I did not mind her knowing.

Then it was time to leave so I said Goodbye to her and she said that she would see me tomorrow and maybe some other times I said great 
and smiled.

I was on top of the world for the whole day ok I know she was a fan of mine but she was really so down to earth that I could talk to her 
about anything.

I had seena couple of times at TV Shows and at Signings, she was great whenever she turned up she was always smiling and sometimes 
gave me gifts which I loved. I found out that she was the same age as me, which was great.

I had given her my mobile number so we could keep in touch I think she was shocked by this as she said ‘ you sure you want me to have
your number? ‘Yeh sure babe I would love to keep in touch with you’ I looked at her ‘But like I am a fan’ she then looked back at me ‘Well 
I think more of you as a friend then a fan so I don’t mind’ I looked back at her ‘ Thanks Lee’ she said as she hugged me, her hugs were great.

Over the couple of months we texted each other and rang each other just to talk about anything or what we were both up to. She still came 
to see me at TV Show, Signings and now the Airport. I don’t know how she finds out this information but its great to have her there.

One day I was talking to her on the phone about anything and something slipped out my mouth ‘ Maybe you can come over to mine so I 
can see you on my own that would be nice’ I said to her ‘ Don’t be silly’ She laughed ‘ That’s like asking me out on a date’ she laughed 
again ‘ Hey I’m not being silly, I would love you to come over’ I said to her. I had not known her long but I felt like I should get to know 
her better.

‘Do the other lads know we talk etc? She asked me ‘No I have not said anything, I can make sure no one is at home before you come over’ 
I said to her. I still lived with my mum and my sister at home andfrom the band lives with us 2.

‘Ok then sure I would love to come over ‘ She said. God I thought she would never say yes ‘ You know how to get here right? I asked her. 
‘Yeh I do’ She laughed ‘Let me know a date and time and I will be there’ She said ‘Sure babe’ then we ended the call.

Then the big day had arrived she was coming over to mine I was so nerviest. I had gotten mum and my sister out the house for the whole 
day with a little bit of a push andhad gone out.

I was looking at the clock waiting for her to arrive then the doorbell went.

I went to answer the door and as I opened the door there she was standing there smiling.

‘Afternoon’ she smiled ‘Afternoon come in’ I said to her letting her into the house and closing the door behind me.

‘See I got here in one piece’ she said to me giggling, god her giggle turned me on.

‘ I see, you want a drink? I asked her ‘Sure’ she said as she followed me into the kitchen and I got her a drink.

‘Here’ I gave her the glass ‘Thanks’ she said then there was silence

‘So why did you ask me here? She said breaking the silence

‘I just wanted to get to know you better and well your like a friend to me and you know friends invite each other round’ I said to her 

‘True, I’m like your girlfriend as I am a girl and a friend ‘she laughed walking into the living room. I would not mind her as my girlfriend she was 
looking fit today. She had jeans on and a low cut top where I suppose if she bent down you could get an eye full.

‘So where is everyone? She asked me sitting down on the sofa 

‘Well my mum and sister went out together andjust went out somewhere’ I said sitting next to her.

‘That’s good will we expect them back anytime soon’ She looked at me

‘Nah hope not’ I laughed She smiled as she put her glass down on the table in front of us and lent on my shoulder

I put my arm around her and hugged her close to me, she put her arm around my waist and lent on me.

‘Hey would you like to see some of my awards and disk I have in my room? I asked her

‘Sure’ she said sitting up and looking at me I smiled and held my hand out for her to take. She took my hand and we both got up from the 
sofa and went up to my room.

‘Its not much’ I said opening the door and letting her in, will it was just like a young boys room I suppose with just some awards here and 
there.

‘Thanks’ She said walking in and taking a look around then sat on my bed.

I shut the door behind me and started to show her some of my awards that I was proud of then sat next to her on my bed. She looked great 
herhair was shiny and hereyes sparkled in the sunlight.

‘Your awards are great ‘she said ‘You have really come along in the band’ she said looking at me. At that point I wanted to kiss her, in my 
mind I knew I had to but it seemed my body did not want to move or anything.

‘Thanks’ I said looking at her. Then it sort of happened I moved in towards her and kissed her on the lips, she kissed me back and then pulled off.

‘Sorry’ I said looking at her ‘Don’t be its ok’ she looked at me then kissed me on the lips again.

As I kissed her back I put my arms around her waist and sort of pulled her closer to me, she put her arms around my neck then we fell back 
onto my bed. We sort of both laughed as we fell back onto my bed but still carried on kissing. Shame she was in jeans I would of loved to 
feel her legs as we kissed.

Our kissing was broken by the front door going and we both sat up quick.

‘Who’s that?’ She said looking at me ‘Dunno babe’ I said looking back at her, then our question was answered ‘you here mate’ We both 
heard from downstairs It washe had came back. ‘´ I looked at her ‘It’s ok I’ll get rid of him stay here’ I said getting up from 
my bed and going out my room and downstairs to seein the living room.

‘Hi was upstairs writing some new songs your back early’ I looked at him ‘Yeh I forgot my wallet so had to come back for it but I found it 
now so I will see you later’said to me picking his wallet up and heading for the front door.

I followed him to the front door and sawcoat hanging up just asturned around I stood in front of her coat so he did not see.

‘How is the song writing coming along?asked me

‘Yeh I was on a roll before you came in’ I laughed well I was on a roll kissing  and having her in my room and on my bed.

‘Good maybe I can have a look when I get back see ya’ He said to me and left

Close I thought to myself I went back upstairs to my room to findstill lying on my bed.

‘just left’ I said laying next to her ‘I should really be going’ She said to me and sat up ‘Ok babe I’ll call you and maybe we can meet 
again’ I said to her getting up from my bed and holding my hand out to her for her to take.

‘Sure’ she said taking my hand and getting up from my bed.

We walked downstairs hand in hand and I gave her, her coat.

‘Thanks call me or something and we can met up again’ She said to me opening the door ‘sure babe’ I said kissing her on the lips before she 
left.

I textedand phone her from time to time but could not get to see her as I was busy as ever now.

We agreed to meet up at my house again after I had gotten back from being away on promotion.

I heard the doorbell go and it was her, I went to open the door and there she was standing there in a short skirt and a top. God she looked 
hot.

‘How are you?’ I asked her ‘Yeh I am good thanks you miss me? She looked at me

‘Yeh I did’ I laughed well I had sort of missed her.

‘Yeh me to’ she said as she kissed me on the lips I kissed her back and pulled off

‘I brought you something’ I said looking at her

‘What is it? She asked 

I went over to the side and got a black box out of the drawer and went over to her and opened the box.

‘It’s a sliver necklace I thought of you when I saw it and knew you would love it’ I said to her

‘Thanks babe its great’ she said as I put it around her neck and she looked into the mirror

I put my arms around her waist and gave her soft kisses on her neck.

She turned around in my arms ‘Thanks its lovely’ she said looking in to my eyes.

‘It’s ok’ I said as I took her hand and took her upstairs to my room.

‘How was the trip then? She asked me as she sat on my bed

‘Yeh it was ok I did not see much of the sights as I was working but you know’ I sat next to her

‘Aww Babe’ she said as she kissed me on the lips and then pulled off

‘You know we have the house to ourselves’ I looked at her she nodded

I pulled her close to me and kissed her on the lips she kissed me back and we fell back onto my bed. I ran my hand up and down her leg as 
I kissed her.

‘, What are you doing? She asked me

‘Sssh, Just enjoy the moment’ I said to her kissing her again

Her neck was so soft and her skin was so warm, I started to put my hands under her top and started to feel her body with my hands and then 
moved up to her breasts

I tugged at her Top and she knew what I wanted to do she let me pull her top off over her head and then I went back to kissing her. I felt 
her hands on my shirt and then she was undoing the buttons on my shirt then she let it slip of my back. She started to kiss my neck then 
my body, she was turning me on.

She then unzipped my jeans her hands were soft and I took my jeans off and put them on the floor

I turned our kiss into more of a snog and I was running my hand up and down her leg more and her body. Our tongues were playing with 
each other. 

I pulled her skirt down and off her and put it down next to all my clothes and we were both in our underwear.

I was getting all hot and I really wanted her, we started giving each other 4play and it was great.

‘Do you have any protection? She asked me ‘Yeh here’ I said as I handed it to her

‘Do you want me to or should you? She looked at me 

‘Go Ahead’ I looked at her

She did as she was told. I looked straight into her eyes and then it happened I was inside her it was rough and slow but it was how we both 
liked it.

I pulled off from her and sat up with my back on the wall of my room she sat up and I pulled her close to me and she pulled the sheet over 
us both.

We stayed liked that for ages I cant believe that just happened between us but we both loved it.

She sat up and looked at me ‘Sorry I have to go now but thanks for everything’ she said as she was getting her clothes together and put 
them on.

‘Babe, you alright? I said rubbing her back

‘Yeh phone me or text me’ she said I nodded back at her and got my clothes on 

She walked off to the bathroom and soon after I followed her and found her putting on some make up.

‘You know I go to Japan soon for a week’ I said to her as she was putting some of her make up on

‘Yeh I know but we can keep in touch by phone’ she said as she finished putting on her make up.

‘Yeh sure babe’ I said as we walked down the stairs

‘wait’said coming down the stairs after me

‘Yeh Babe’ I said and looked at her

‘Sorry if I was sort of rude back there’ She looked at me

‘Hey you was not’ I kissed her on the lips to make sure she understood I was right

‘Thanks I’ll come and see you off at the airport if that’s ok still’ She looked at me

‘Sure babe you know its fine’ I said to her

‘Talk later’ she said and with that she left my house.

Weeks went by and I talked toover the phone or texted her then it happened

I had met a girl that was in the music business like me and I had started going out with her, I had not told, as I did not think we were 
serious but now it was all over the newspapers, which was not helping me.

I textedto let her know that’s the girl and me were not serious but she never replied and she never answered my calls.

It was getting to me a lot plus we were leaving for Japan in 3 days and I had not spoken to her since the newspapers.

It came to the day I was leaving for Japan with the others; I was sitting in the car withon the way to the airport.

‘What’ up with you bro? He asked me

‘Nothing mate’ I answered him back

‘Hey your get to see her when you get back’said to me thinking I was thinking of someone else

‘Yeh’ I said answering him back I was thinking ofnot anyone else

We arrived at the airport and got out the car and there she waswas at the airport.

went over to that group where she was and started talking to her, I could see him flirting with her and standing close to her. He signed 
something for her then kissed her on the cheek

That did not help me and what I was thinking was she just flirting with him cos she knew I was there or what.

She started to walk over to me I could not say much to her as I had fans around me

‘Hi you alight babe’ I said to her and kissed her on he cheek

‘Fine you? She asked me

‘Yeah great babe I looked at her straight in the eyes.

Mm please can you sign this for me please and can I have a photo please’ she looked at me not knowing what to say.

‘Sure’ I said signing a photo for her and having a photo with her.

I was trying to ask her why she had not answered my calls etc but I had other fans around me and I t was hard to ask.

‘come on we have to go’shouted at me

We all started to walk into the airportwas still walking with me

‘So why did you not answer my calls’ I asked her as I put my arm around her shoulders and pulled her close to me so no one could here us 
talk.

‘You know why, your with that other girl now’ she said to me.

‘ You know I’m not’ I said to her as we arrived at check-in 

She wanted to say something but could not as I had to leave.

‘I’ll text ya’ I whispered to her as I kissed her check. She nodded then we left.

I could not stop thinking about her when I was in Japan. I texted her and we sorted out a day and time to meet when I got back.

My mate had this flat that he Let’s out to people but no one was in it so he let me have it for the day so me andcould spend it there.

Our work in Japan was done and we were on our way back to England.

We arrived at the airport and got our suitcases and walked out to arrivals and theirwas waiting for us.

We did the usual signing something and had photo together and the same for the fans that were there to. Then we walked to the car park 
together.

‘I’ll see you soon’ I hugged her and kissed her cheek goodbye.

It was 3 days later and today was the day that I was seeing.

My mate’s flat was really nice and I had giveninstructions on how to get here. There was a knock at the door and it was her.

‘Morning’ I said as I opened the door to her

‘Yeah morning’ she said as she walked in.

‘Ok what’s the matter? I shut the door behind me

‘Your still seeing her’said as she threw The Sun newspaper on the table and looked at me with her arms crossed.

‘We are only friends’ I told her

‘Oh’ she said sitting down on the sofa

I walked over to where she was sitting and sat on the coffee table infront of her

‘Look just forget about this, the newspaper makes up rubbish anyway’ I said as I threw the paper on the floor and looked back at her.

‘Hey’ I pulled her up by her hand ‘So what are you wearing under this jacket then’ I said to her as I undid the buttons and put my hands 
under her jacket and slipped it off her back to show a black strap evening top. She looked down at the floor.

‘Hey you don’t have anything to be sad about I love you ok’ I looked at her as I moved her head up from the floor she nodded back.

‘Did you bring your PJ’s with you like I said so we could sit back and watch films together’ I asked her

‘Yes sure did’ She smiled ‘Great’ I kissed her on the lips and she kissed me back

‘We can watch some films then Lunch then more films then dinner’ I said to her

We sat on the sofa watching films, chatting and just loved up together.

The time flew by and it was getting near dinner

‘Babe it’s near tea time, I’m gonna cook you a great dinner’ I said to her as I hugged her

‘Thanks babe your great’ she kissed me on the lips.

I went and made the dinner for us both whilewatched TV

After a while it was ready so we both sat down to eat it.

‘How about you get changed into your PJ’s and we can watch some TV together I put your bag in the bedroom’ I said to her so off she 
went to get changed.

I had to sort of laugh when she came out the bedroom in her PJ’s as they were

‘Don’t laugh’ she said hitting me on the arm as she sat nest to me on the sofa

‘I’m not I think you look really cute in them’ I said to her, well ok I did laugh but she does look cut in them.

‘What you going to wear? She asked me

‘Your see’ I said as I walked into the bedroom and came back out in just my boxers ‘This is all I wear in bed’ I sat next to her

‘Nice’ she smiled looking at me I knew she was checking out my body by the way her eyes looked up and down my body.

We sat watching TV together then I noticed it was getting late.

‘It’s getting late maybe we should go to bed now’ I said to her

She took my hand and pulled me up from the sofa and took me into the bedroom.

‘Wait I got to lock the front door’ I said to her as I let go of her hands

I went to the front door and locked it and then had abit of a tidy and made sure everything was safe.

I walked back into the bedroom and sawsitting in bed

‘All done’ I said to her as I got into bed

‘Great’ she said as she turned the bedside light off next to her and lay down

I turned off the light on my side of the bed so the room was dark and lay down next to.

I moved close to her and started to kiss her neck softly

‘Lee’ she giggled ‘what? I think your so pretty and amazing’ I pulled her closer to me and kissed her neck more.

‘Your amazing to’ she said and sat up. I sat up and kissed her on the lips she kissed me back we were kissing each other more and more 
pulled off and started kissing my neck. I lay back down on the bed pulling her on top of me 

She kissed my neck and then down my chest to my stomach. Her soft kisses where making me feel funny inside.

I took her Pj top off and I turned her over onto her back and put her hands above her head with mine on top.

I kissed around her neck then down her body, I could fell her fingers moving inside my hands when I kissed down her body making her body 
tingle

I pulled back up and kissed her on the lips. She kissed me back wanting me more I moved one of my hands down her body to the top of her 
PJ bottoms and pulled them off so she lay naked underneath me.

I put my hand in between her legs and felt around she was likeing it as her kisses where more forceful then before. I felthand move 
down my body to my boxers and she slid them down off me, I felt her hand on my penis and she moved her hand up and down it.

I moaned her name into her neck she was turning me on. I moved my hands to her waist and she moved hers to around my neck then I 
pulled myself inside her. I was moving it in and out fast and she was moaning my name out loud. We were like that for half an hour then 
she grab around my neck and let out a slow moan. I pulled myself off her and lay next to her shaking

‘Hey you shaking come here’said to me as she pulled me into a hug

‘Night Babe’ I smiled at her and kissed her. We both fell asleep in each other’s arms.

I woke up the next morning with her still in my arms. I kissed her forehead and she opened her eyes ‘ Morning’ I smiled at her

‘Morning’ she kissed me ‘I’ll go and make breakfast come out when your awake’ I as I went to the kitchen.

5 mins laterwalked out in my shirt and half her underwear on.

‘Hey you look great in my shirt’ I looked at her as I put my arms around her.

‘Thanks and thanks again for last night’ she kissed me on the lips.

‘That’s ok Babe’ I said to her as I pulled off her and went to finish breakfast.

‘I should be going soon’said as we finished breakfast.

‘Yeah I should really get back’ I looked at her

‘What?’ she looked back at me ‘Nothing’ I said 

‘So when we going to meet up again?’ I asked her

‘Whenever just let me know’ she said getting up and walking into the bedroom

I followed her into the bedroom and put my arms around her and turned her round to face me.

‘Promise you want tell anyone about last night’ I looked at her

‘Promise’ she said as she went into the bathroom I sat on the bed waiting for her to come out.

She walked out the bathroom dressed and sorted her bag out.

‘Right I’m off’ she said as she got her bag together 

‘Ok babe I’ll text you’ I said as I walked her to the door and saw her off

I’ve been really busy with work and have not had time to seeplus the newspapers are not helping by printing more stories about me 
and girls which was getting to me,

I got one day off and was at my mates flat, I could be alone there which helped

I had been there all morning and now it was late evening, there was a knock at the door and I went to open it and foundstanding there.

‘Thought you would be here’ she said walking in.

‘How you know it was my day off?’ I asked her as I shut the door

‘Contacts’ she said looking at me

‘So how have you been? I asked her

‘Yeah great thanks, I’ve just started seeing someone and so far so good you? She sat on the sofa

‘Good, you’ve started seeing someone’ I said shocked as I sat next to her

‘Yeah his called’ she said to me

‘What about us? I asked her

‘There is no us we were just abit of fun’ she answered

‘Abit of fun’ I said short of shouting at her ‘We were not just abit of fun’ I stood up

‘Yeah we were, we never went out on dates you use to call me and I use to be there for you’ she said to me

‘You know what I wished I never met you’ I said to her and walked off to the bedroom and slammed the door behind me.

I can’t believe that just happen and I should not of said what I did to her. I could hear the TV on in the other room so she was still there.

I sat on the bed for an hour then went to get a drink.

I walked out the bedroom and I sawrubbing her eyes I went to get a drink.

‘Would you like a drink? I asked her from the kitchen with my back to her.

‘Please’ I heard her sat I made drinks and tookhers over to her. As I looked over to her I could see that she had been crying. I don’t 
blame her I mean I was an evil person to say what I said 

‘Here’ I put the glass on the table ‘Thanks’ she said to me

‘You can stay in the spare room tonight’ I said to her as I picked her bag up and took it to the other bedroom she must of knew she was 
going to stay if she brought her stuff with her

‘Night’ I said to her before going into my room

I lay on the bed for the nest hour and half then heard turn the TV off and go into the other bedroom. It was late so I went to sleep.

I woke up and looked at the clock it was Midnight something had woken me up then I heard Thunder then saw lightening outside the 
window. I lay still in my bed trying to go back to sleep then I heard her voice.

‘are you asleep? I heardsay ‘No’ I said back to her. I felt her get into the bed then felt her arm go around my waist as she lay next 
to me I put my arm around her ‘Was you scared? I asked her ‘No’ she said I smiled to myself knowing that she hated storms I kissed her on 
the head and pulled her close to me.

‘’ she sat up next to me ‘Yeah babe’ I sat up looking at her

‘I’m sorry for what I said earlier’ she said looking at me then at the window at the storm

I got up from the bed and went to the window and shut the curtains then went and sat back in bed.

‘Thanks I’m sorry for what I said to it was out of order’ I said kissing her on the lips

I heard the thunder rumble overhead and put my hands overears so she could not here it, she smiled and looked at me as a thank 
you. I took my hands off her ears and lay back down again.

‘’ she said sitting over my waist facing me ‘you were never with them girls right? She looked at me ‘No and I told you that before’ I said 
to her as I put my hands on her hips ‘ yeah I know you did’ she said

‘How long have you been seeing? I asked her looking at her in the eyes

‘4 days’ she answered me ‘4 days’ I looked at her and she nodded

‘4 days and now your with me in the bed’ I looked at her she nodded sadly

‘Hey don’t be sad’ I said pulling her down back next to me with my arms around her

‘I love you and that’s what matters’ I said to her

‘Since when have you loved me; she asked me ‘Since always’ I said to her 

‘Thanks I love you too’ she said to me ‘since when? I asked her

‘Since always’ she giggled as she sort of took the mick out of me

‘You know it’s coming up to New Year soon, maybe we could go out together for that’ I said to her

‘Sorry I can’t I promisedI would go out with him then, so me him and some of out mates are going to a club in London then we are 
going to watch the fireworks’ she said

‘The storms gone now you going back to the other room or you going to stay here’ I asked her ‘Here’ she said to me

‘Ok babe go to sleep as we both need it’ I said to her, I felt as if I was losing her already to another bloke.

In the morningleft and I went back to work. Over the next couple of months I was so busy I had not seen her all that time.

I had brought myself a car so it was easier for me to drive myself around and I was trying to sort myself out a flat.

It was New Years Eve and I had found out what clubwas going to so I got dressed and drove down there. I parked my car down and 
turning so no one could see and textedwhere I was and to come out for abit.

I got out my car and lent on it waiting for her. Then I saw a girl walking towards me in a black dress that came to her knees as she got closer 
I saw it wasGod I would not of known it was her.

‘I can’t stay long I told the others I was coming out for some air’ she said to me

‘Ok get in’ I said to her nodding at the other car door. We both go into the car.

‘So how are you? I asked her I could see out the corner of my eye her in her dress and her long legs then her high heels she had on.

‘Great Thanks You? She asked me ‘Yeah good’ I said to her. I moved in my seat to face her.

‘You look great tonight’ I looked at her ‘Thanks’ she moved in her seat to face me

‘must be something special if your dressed like that’ I said to her

‘I’m wearing this cos I want to, nothing to do with him’ she looked at me

There was silence for abit, as we both did not know what to say.

Then I leant in towards her and kissed her on the lips she kissed me back.

‘Your great’ I said to her as I pulled off ‘ so are you but I have to go now’ she said to me. I nodded, as I knew she had to get back. She kissed 
me on the lips again and got out the car and walked back. I watched her in the mirror as she got to the club she spoke to some lad. Then 10 
mins later she walked out withand the others.

was holding her hand then he kissed her on the lips and then they walked off hand in hand.

I started my car and drove home going past them. I could not believe I was losing her to that lad, what had he got that I did not have.

I suppose I felt likefelt when she read the papers with stories about me and some girl in. Maybe if I started seeing someone I could 
forget about her but I don’t want to forget about her. 

Over the next couple of 2 months my life changed I was taking drugs for some reason got done for drink driving my life was just a mess. I 
was still travelling places with the band and that was the only way I got to see.

My mate who let me have his flat from time to time got to knowand they both became friends.

and I decided a night too meet I was going to be at a club in London and my mate would pick her up then me.

I was at the nightclub with another celeb I knew we both had already taken something before going into the club so we’re really high. I 
looked at the clock and it was time for me to go. I went outside and saw my mate car within the back I got into the car.

‘Alright’ I said ‘Good mate have a great night’ my mate said to me as we drove off ‘Yeah was good, how are you babe? I turned around and 
looked at‘Fine thanks’ she said

I opened the window and lit a fag and started to smoking It ‘What’ I said as I sawlooking at me in the side mirror ‘You know I hate 
that’ she said ‘Fine’ I said taking a long suck from it and chucking it out the window.

The rest of the Journey to my mates flat was in silence.

We arrived at my mates flat. ‘Do you want a lift in the morning?’ my mate asked‘Yes please that would be a great help’ she answered 
‘Thanks for picking us up etc’ I said to my mate getting out the van and opening the back door for a. She got out the van and I shut 
the door behind her. ‘See you in the morning’ my mate said and drove off. I sort of grabbedby the hand and walked to the flat with her

‘your hurting me’ she said as we got to the door. I let go of her hand and walked in withfollowing behind me as she closed the door. 
‘Bed then’ I looked at her ‘don’t I get a nice to see you kiss’ she said looking back at me. I walked over to her and gave her a kiss on the lips 
‘There’ I said to her as I pulled off. I looked at her and grabbed her by the wrist and took her to the bedroom ‘your hurting me’ she said 
as she tried to pull her arm out of my hand. I stood her in front of me and took my jacket off and undid my shirt buttonswatched 
my every move. I put my hands ontop and pulled it up over her head and off. I put my shirt onand did the buttons up with the 
top two open ‘Shoes’ I looked at her ‘What about them?’ she said ‘Take them off’ I said to her she took her shoes off and I took mine off. 
I took my trousers off so I was just in my boxers and got into the bed. I watchedtake her jeans off then she got into bed with my shirt still 
on.

I was still high on whatever I had taken earlier. I puller her close to me and kissed her on the lips she kissed me back. I pulled off her and 
kissed her neck and started undoing the buttons on the shirt. ‘don’t’said sort of pushing me off her ‘we should sleep’ she said ‘No’ I said 
to her pulling her close to me and kissing her chest. ‘get off of me’said pushing me ‘I can’t’ I said to her forcedly grabbing her close to 
me ‘let go’ she said to me as she hit me.

I grabbed her arms so she could not hit me anymore. I took my boxers off and took the rest ofunderwear off her. I pulled her down the bed 
and sat over her. ‘I’ll let go of your arms if you promise not to hit me’ I said to her she nodded as I let go of her arms she started to hit me 
‘Hey’ I said pinning her arms to the bed just above her head ‘You promised’ I said to her ‘well I lied’ she said to me. I kissed her neck then 
down her body ‘get off of me’ she said trying to move. I still had my hands on her wrists so she could not move. I kissed her on the lips 
then pulled of and looked into her eyes. Then it happened I entered her and she had no choice but to have sex with me. My head felt funny 
as I pulled off of. I lay down next to her and went to sleep. I woke up, as I felt funny I looked at the clock it was 1 in the morning. I lay there 
trying to remember what had happened then I remembered everything. I sat up quickly and sawsitting on the floor hugging her knees crying.

I put my boxers on and went over to her ‘Don’t touch me’ she said to me ‘Babe please’ I sat next to her on the floor ‘I’m such a idiot’ I said 
to her. I put my arm around her shoulder and pulled her close to me ‘please’ I said to her. She put her arm around my waist and I pulled her 
into a hug ‘Babe I’m sorry my head was such a mess’ I sighed ‘Why’ she said to me ‘Because of something’ I said to her. She sat up and sat 
over my knees. ‘Because of what?’ she looked at me

‘I took’ I said to her as I lowered my head ‘Took what’ she said to me making me look at her straight in the face. ‘Drugs’ I said to her ‘what’ 
she looked at me shocked I nodded back to her. ‘What was you thinking, are you trying to kill yourself’ she shouted.

To Be Continued...