How Do I “It all started when you were in mummy’s tummy….” Flashback ‘I can’t wait for our baby,’giggled as she caresses her huge bump of miracle. and I were together since high school. We were named “Puppy Love” as people think it just a high school love but it was more than that. We’ve been together for 6 years now, she used to be a dancer until she got pregnant but I’m a solo artist. I used to be in a band called “Blue” but that’s over now that we all settling down. ‘I know baby’ I smiled as I wrote some notes down for my new album, it’s Christmas soon, so we might have a Christmas baby. ‘God, tear yourself away from that stupid notepad!’muttered, I can’t blame her…she is really stressed out as she is 2 weeks late. I should be there for her. I sighed as I dropped my pen on the table and walked over to. I bend down in front of her as I place my right hand on the bump. ‘I’m sorry’ I whispered,smiled and nodded. I kissed her head and then place my head on the bump. ‘I love you so much baby, am so happy that you are my wife’ I whispered and smiled. ‘I love you too pookie, Am a lucky girl to have a husband like you’ She giggled. ‘Say, how many children do you want when our first one born?’ I lifted my head away from the bump and sat next to. ‘Hmm Three? Two girls and one boy’ she smiled. ‘Hey, that mean our daughters will gang up on our son, don’t think so!’ I laughed. ‘Fine, how many do you want?’ She crossed her arms together and looked at me with a serious look. ‘I want a little girl and older son, so our son will always look out for his little sister’ I sighed as I stroked the bump. ‘We don’t know if it a boy or a girl’giggled. ‘I know…but who cares as long we love this baby so much’ I smiled. ‘Ow…! My tummy!’screamed as she sat up on the sofa, I was so worried…didn’t know what to do as it’s our first baby. ‘Come on’ I helpedup, I grab our coat and car keys before gently leading her out the house. ‘!!’ She screamed as she looked down, I looked at the floor…it was blood. I held back my tears as I heard all those stories about miscarried. I hurried her to the car, I couldn’t concentrate what I’m doing. I couldn’t get the key in the car as I was shaking until I finally did. I drove off fastly to the hospital, it was 5 minutes away from us. I couldn’t get my head into driving aswas screaming & sobbing. I was really nervous about what happening. Finally we got to the hospital, I leftin the car as I ran inside to get help, and Couple of nurses with a wheelchair ran over to. When they pushto the room, I was told not to come. I don’t understand, I needed to be there for our baby to come. So I sat in the waiting room, worried and scared. ‘You can come in now, She’s going to have a baby in a minutes’ One of the nurses came up to me after 20 minutes later. I followed the nurse and can hearscreaming…She’s having the baby now. I hurried to the room and saw Haley…she was sweating and crying. So I ran over to her and took her hand. ‘Come on baby…you can do this’ I whispered as I wiped her fridge out of the way on her face. It took forever to get the baby out until one of the nurses screamed that she can see the legs of the baby. I looked down and was confused, the baby came out the wrong way round. I went back toand tried to cool her down, she have to push last time, really hard. ‘It’s a girl’ the nurses smiled. I looked atwho was gasping for air, she looked really knackered and I can’t blame her. I choked back my tears…we got a daughter. ‘Would you like to cut the cord?’ One of the nurses handed me the scissors to cut the cord. As I did, the baby screamed…she made it. She looks beautiful. I was cut off by the sound of noises. I looked at, she wasn’t moving or breathing. ‘!!’ I screamed as I ran over to her, shaking her body…hoping she would wake up. ‘I’m sorry, you have to go’ One of the nurses took me outside in the waiting room. I sobbed as I sat down, I heard about these stories as well…I don’t want to believe it. Mywill get through this…she is strong. I know it. An hour later, the horrible words I heard from the nurse said to me. ‘I’m sorry…she didn’t make it’ I just stare at the nurse, as I looked down the floor, I felt tears falling down my cheeks. We were going to be parent…be a family together and now all that is ruined. She’s gone…my angel has gone. I sobbed in my hands, I want this nightmare to be over…I want to wake up and see my sweet darling wife next to me in my bed like I always waken up to. I opened my eyes…the nightmare was real. ‘Would you like to see her to say goodbye’ she whispered as she places her hand on my shoulder. I got up and nodded as I wiped my tears with my jumper sleeves. I went in the room and could seelying on the bed…she look like she’s sleeping…Oh my angel…why do you have to go. I sobbed as I walked over to her, I took her hand and stare at her for a moment and heard a baby gurgled. I looked over to’s side and saw our daughter…our little miracle. I looked back atand bursts in tears. My love of life gone, if we didn’t have our daughter, she would be still here…watching this sloppy romance film she liked with me. But we didn’t know, we didn’t know that she would die after giving birth. ‘How will I get over you’ I sobbed as I kiss her hand before leaving the room. Couple months ago, On’s funeral. Over 300 people attended at’s funeral, she was loved by a lot of people. I brought our daughter to say goodbye to her mother…her mother that she will never know anymore. I written a song I was going to sing in a moment, when I was called up the stage…I carried our daughter whom I called “Angel” to the stage with me, I wanted Angel to be with me as I sing for her mother, my wife. ‘I would like to say thank you for all of you coming in today,was loved by many people…sadly she was taken away. Angels must really wanted her as she was a sweet beautiful and amazing person…also caring wife and mother. It’s really heartbreaking to see her go… without getting to held her…our first baby Angel. I written this song sinceleft us, those words are true meaning… There she goes once again The ghost of our love, it's making me shiver It's only small drops of pain, But even the rain can turn into rivers Thought i'd be safe, living behind this wall But the pressures too much, and it's starting to fall So how do i get over you How do i survive living half the life that i knew Oh how do i get over you? When you take away Everything i held to be true I wonder if you feel it too, do you? Everywhere that i turn, there's something there Something to remind me When i sleep it's alone, still i reach out As if you're beside me Thought i'd ve safe, i tried to find something new But everything that i did Is something we used to do So how do i get over you How do i survive living half the life that i knew Oh how do i get over you? When you take away Everything i held to be true I wonder if you feel it too, do you? Seems like every place, every person we knew Every sound every taste, reminds me of you I thought this would be gone, but it's still so strong I keep holding on, what else can i do? So how do i get over you How do i survive living half the life that i knew Oh how do i get over you? When you take away Everything i held to be true I wonder if you feel it too, do you? I sobbed as Angel waving her arm around, I couldn’t believewas gone, My love. Everybody in this room gave me a round of applause and some of them were crying. ‘Goodbye my love…You will always be remembered’ I whispered as I threw a single red rose on’s coffin. I walked off the stage with Angel in my arm, People was touching my arms as I walked down the aisle. I opened the big wooden door, the sun blinded me…it was a start of new life for me and Angel. Flashback Over ‘That what happened to your mummy angel, she will always looked down on us…she will never miss out anything that is important. She will be always be in our heart, No mum could ever love you like she could but she never had to chance to. She love you growing inside her tummy, I’m sure she love you so much when she is here or not, Night Angel’ I whispered as Angel was fast asleep in her cot. I kiss her forehead, I turned off the light…leaving the night light on before taken one last look of Angel before closing the door. The End