Not Alowed To Love You
Part 5 & 6


Part 5  

*�s POV *

I wanted to tell him goodbye and that we could have lunch together during my break 
but he was already gone. Strange, suddenly he was very strange. I thought it wasn�t about 
,he hardly knew her. Maybe this letter from a fan� or wasn�t he just in a good 
mood? I thought he�d be fine this very night but he was still acting strange�
It was about 10 o�clock in the evening when I came back from the hospital. He wasn�t in 
the kitchen, in the living-room or even in the bathroom but I found him lying on our 
bed in the darkness staring at the sky; he was thinking. He was just wearing his boxer 
and was ready to fall asleep. Then he saw me standing at the door. He looked me 
deeply in the eyes like it was the last time he�d see me. Very strange, I told you. 
I lay near him and he kissed my forehead without saying a single word. He carried on 
staring at the sky and the stars. It was very beautiful. We were lying in the darkness 
with only as a light the full moon. We soon fell asleep and I had forgotten to ask 
him how he was�
The next morning I woke up and found myself alone in our bed. Where was? I 
came downstairs and found him in the kitchen. He was sitting to our bar and drinking 
his coffee. He was reading the newspaper. I walked quietly and went behind him,I 
wrapped my arms around his waist and kissed his bare shoulder. 
He hadn�t got his shirt on, he was just wearing his jeans. He turned around and 
smiled at me. I kissed him softly.
�Morning babe� I said smiling.
�Morning sleepyhead� he replied smiling too.
�How do you feel?� I asked him suddenly serious sitting next to him.
�Good� he replied.
But then I knew he was lying as I saw his face. He hadn�t slept well I could see that, 
something bothered him, it was obvious�
�Sorry sweetheart I gotta go, they're waiting for me in the studio� he said suddenly 
slipping his shirt on. �See ya later and don�t forget I love you� he said and kissed 
me and then went out.
Don�t forget I love you, where did that come from? For God�s sake, what happened to 
him? What was going on in his mind? I decided to forget this whole story and prepared 
myself and then went away to the hospital.
After my day at work, I had decided to go and seein the studio. It was already 
8 o�clock in the evening. Arrived there I heard him singing. I was right : he had 
the voice of an angel.

"It�s impossible,
It�s impossible, 
oh baby It�s impossible for me to love you this way
It�s impossible,
Oh baby It�s impossible�
(Christina Aguilera � Impossible)

He was singing. I was suddenly speechless. He always told me that his songs reflected 
his feelings, how he felt and I heard him singing It�s impossible to love you. 
What did that mean? I hoped he didn�t talk about me� 
�Hey babe� I heard him saying interrupting my thoughts. 
He was surprised to see me but not as surprised as I was after hearing his new 
song. I had to tell him �
�Hiya babe� I replied. �Was it a new song you recorded a moment ago?� I asked him.
He was shocked suddenly but then tried to hide it.
�You � erm � heard it?� he asked me.
�Yeah, the lyrics were �� I began to say but he interrupted me.
�Oh it�s not from me. someone wrote it for me and I was just trying to sing it. 
why would I sing �it�s impossible to love you� when I can already love the 
woman I�m in love with� he said trying to smile and taking me in his arms.
He was a very bad liar but I wanted to believe him. Something bad had happened. I 
knew it. He was hiding something from me. he was acting so strange for 2 days 
now but I wanted to put all these thoughts away and just enjoyed this moment where 
we were alone. We were sitting on a couch there and I was in his arms. I had rested 
my head on his chest and he was stroking my hair. We were listening to his new 
songs he had recorded all day. Wow I loved them all. They were so great and his 
voice was perfect.
�I�m proud of you babe, they�re all amazing� I said after the last song finished.
�I�m glad you like them. I wrote them all thinking of you� he said smiling.
I kissed him softly on his lips.
�Thanx babe, it�s so sweet� I replied looking at him in the eyes.
We stayed there cuddling a few moments. It was so good to be in his arms. Then  I felt 
tired and decided to go back home.
�, I�m feeling tired suddenly� I said while he had begun recording. 
He really wanted to make his album and worked hard for that. Bless him �
�Ok sweetheart, I won�t be long, love you� he said kissing me.
Then I went out and walked towards the house. We lived a few streets away from 
the studio. It was already  9 o�clock in the evening and it was very dark. But as 
I was walking I heard some footsteps behind me. But I thought it was maybe an animal 
or something else. And then I heard them again, always louder and louder as if the 
person got more and more close to me. I quickly understood it wasn�t a cat?! I 
began to sweat and I was frightened. I didn�t dare to look behind me. I decided 
to walk faster and the footsteps did the same. I was followed by someone. I was sure. 
I began to run and the person did also the same. I was reaching my house when I felt an 
arm on my shoulder. I screamed and sawwho had seen me too, in front of my 
house. The person lost his grip maybe because he saw that someone else had seen 
him and I heard him running away from me. I burst into tears and had come near me. 
He hugged me really tight and I couldn�t stop the tears. OMG! 
What had happened?! I couldn�t believe it. I was still in a state of shock.took 
me to my house. He made me sit and begged me to calm down�

Part 6

*�s POV *   

It was already nine o�clock in the evening but I felt like visiting&. I 
wanted to see, to see how she felt because she was pregnant for the first time. 
I was a good mate of. We knew each other since the primary school and always 
hang out together. We really got along with each other. We played football together, 
I was sitting next to him in class, we went clubbing together and flirted with some 
girls together. We were so funny, always up for a laugh. 
And I was glad he found. She seemed happy and so did he. They really loved each 
other and truly cared for each other.
I parked my car in front of their house and made my way to the door when I heard 
someone screaming a few meters away from me. I recognized�s voice and saw a man 
standing behind her with his hand on her shoulder and it wasn�t ?! As he saw me, 
he quickly disappeared and run away in the darkness.was shocked. I came 
near her and hugged her while she cried. In their house I tried my best to calm 
her down.
�Please, calm down, I�m here� I tried to reassure her.
She began to breathe calmly. 
�It was awful, I don�t know who it was, he followed me since�s studio� she tried 
to explain but she was still crying. �He then put his hand on my shoulder and 
I screamed�
�And I was there in time� I said worried.
�Yeah thanx, I can�t imagine what would happen next� she said bursting into 
some new fresh tears.
I hugged her as hard as I could. She was still shocked but tried to calm down. After 
a few minutes she didn�t cry anymore.
�Why did someone want to hurt me? What have I done?� she asked me sad and angry.
I suddenly looked down and didn�t answer; she understood I knew something.
�, you know something?� she asked with anger in her voice.
�No hun, I don�t know why this man wanted to hurt you� I replied quickly.
Oh, why couldn�t you just act normally?! Of course I knew something. I knew 
everything! I knew that little bitch wanted to hurt. I hated her. I already 
hated her when we were in school. And now she was back to destroy what& 
had built for a year. Poorshe ignored everything. And I was sure that man was 
a mate ofthat she hired to hurt. She told,was gonna pay�
�, don�t act weirdly with me too� she said softly looking down.
�Too?� I asked her surprised.
�Yeahseems strange for 2 days now and I don�t know why. 
First he had received this letter from a fan that I didn�t read and afterwards he 
acted so weirdly� she explained to me.
Well done! She noticed your strange behaviour but he couldn�t tell her. 
He wanted to protect her and not to worry her. Bless him for that but in the end 
she was hurt all the same.
�Which letter?� I asked her innocently.
�I don�t know, yesterday morning he received a letter, I thought it was from a fan 
because he didn�t talk to me about it and since then he acted strangely with me. 
He wrote also a song "Impossible to love ya� she said upset.
OMG! She heard the song he wrote for her! He had written it because it was 
what he was feeling at that moment. It was impossible to love her, he felt like 
he wasn�t allowed to love her�
�Please, don�t worry� I tried to calm her fears down. �He�s probably very tired, 
he worked a lot and very hard to record his album. He doesn�t want to disappoint his 
fans. Believe me, he thinks a lot about his fans. Don�t ask him, don�t annoy him with 
that. Help him to forget a bit his job. Just chilling out here together. Don�t believe 
he doesn�t love you anymore, you know he needs you� I said not to worry her.
�Yeah, you�re right. He loves me and needs me. He needs to know I�m here for 
him, for supporting him� she said half smiling. I was glad she felt suddenly 
better� �But I cannot stop thinking of this man who followed me. Have I done something 
wrong to deserve that?� she said looking at the floor sadly.
But when I wanted to answer her we heard the door opening. It had to be. She 
didn�t move, she was still in a state of shock. I had to confess towhat had 
happened to. I walked towards him, he was in the kitchen searching something 
in the fridge.
�Hey� I said.
�Hey, don�t know you were here,�s here?� he asked me pouring some 
orange juice in his glass. 
I knewcouldn�t hear us so I told him.
�she�s here, and she�s feeling very bad. She know something is wrong with you 
since this letter fromand this song you recorded afterwards� I began 
to tell him.
He was a little shocked but didn�t know what I was gonna tell him next.
��wasn�t jokin�, she already tried to hurt� I said looking at the 
floor but then I looked at him to see his reaction. He suddenly spilled his glass.
�, what diddo? Tell me the truth, where�s??? DOES SHE KNOW ABOUT 
?� he yelled.
�calm down!hired a man to hurt, I�m sure. I arrived in time, she�s 
fine but shocked., do something!is dangerous. And don�t worrydoesn�t know 
about her but she wonders why. Why this happened to her�� I explained. �She�s 
in the living-room, go and comfort her. I gotta go now� I said leading towards 
the door.
was still speechless and had a shocked expression on his face.
�?� he said and I turned round. �Thanx�.
�You�re welcome� I replied walking out. 
made his way to his living-room�

To Be Continued...