Not Alowed To Love You
Part 3 & 4


Part 3

*�s POV *

I was in the kitchen getting a cup of tea ready when I heard
hang up the 
phone. He came to the kitchen.
�I have to be in the studio in 10 min.� he said.
He was often there these times because of the success of his first single, 
his manager had decided that he had to begin to record an album. 
wrote his songs himself and I was very proud of him.
�Ok. Do you want a �� I began to ask him when there was a knock at 
the door. 
Was it possible not to be disturbed all the time?
�I�m coming�yelled. �Hello! � Yeah, I�m fine, you? � Thanx, see ya tomorrow.� 
I heard him say. �It was the postman babe. And there is a letter for me and another 
one for you� from� he said smiling.
�Oh my God, give it to me! I wonder how she is!� I said happy.
It was a while since I hadn�t heard from her. I began reading : 

"Hello my little darling, 

How are you? And the baby? And? Is he kind with you? Ok I stop! I wanted to 
give you some news. Don�t worry, everything is fine here. My grandma is feeling 
better and better but she�s still in the hospital. They take care of her cause 
I couldn�t� with my new job! I was fed up with being a waitress and then I found 
out they searched a new secretary in a office near the restaurant where 
I worked. After a few examinations that I passed successfully they took me! I�m 
so glad. I really enjoy doing it. Everything is perfect now. D�ya wanna know why? 
You know I had talked to you about aI dated (Had I told you he was 
gorgeous? *Lol*) and guess what? He asked me to live with him! I know we are together 
for a few months now but I really love him and he loves me too! So why not? I really 
would like you to meet him. Why don�t you come here with
soon before the 
baby arrives...? I miss you hun and I always will� Sorry but as you can understand 
I won�t come back in England soon�I�m so happy here. I hope you understand. 
Don�t forget to call me or write to me when something is wrong. 
You�ll always be my best friend, I love you hun. I loveand already the baby 
who�s growing up in you. I wish you all the happiness you deserve. 
   
Loads of love, .

Oh my Goodness, I was so happy for her that it made me cry! 
Despite the fact I was gonna miss her, I was really glad that everything was 
perfect for her.was gone to Australia last year because of her sick Grandmother. 
She had a leukaemia andhad decided to go there to take care of her� I 
remember her phone call about that�

� Flashback �
* A year ago (The day after the last chap of Never Too Late) *
*�s POV *

I woke up early because I worked at 7am in the morning that day. 
I wasn�t complaining cause I was going to seeand today he could leave. 
was fed up with staying in the hospital. But today I was gonna help him 
to come back home. I couldn�t sleep this night. I was so glad. I had never imagined 
one day I was gonna go out with, thefrom school, theI loved when 
I was 17 and still loved. I couldn�t believe it. 
Because of that I had to split up with Max. I didn�t love him like I loved 
and he had the right to know the truth. He was very kind and sweet. He understood 
me and my feelings and wasn�t mad at me. He was a great guy, I knew that. He wished 
me the best and I did the same for him. I really wanted him to meet someone else. 
He deserved it. He was a sweet and wonderful man. I was sure he�d met a new woman 
soon and that he made her happy. He told me he�d never forget me and then he went 
away but I didn�t hear any news from him anymore. 
I quickly took a shower and got dressed. I made my breakfast : cereals as usual. 
I grabbed my bag, locked the door behind me and drove off to the hospital.
�Hello� I heard someone saying.
�Oh hello Anna� I greeted her.
�How are you?� she asked me.
�Great and you? Proud of gettingand I together? I mean, for yesterday, it 
was you huh?� I asked teasing her.
�Course I�m proud. I�m joking but without me you would have never gone 
and seen him anymore� she told me smiling.
�Yeah you�re right, thanx Anna� I laughed and hugged her.
�It�s time to wake him up, I think you know the number of his room� she said 
winking at me.
I nodded and went towards his room. I walked slowly through the room.was 
lying on his bed. I could see his face, he was sleeping so peacefully. I 
kneeled down in front of him and began stroking his hair. I gave him a kiss on his 
forehead and then he began to wake up. As he saw me he smiled. 
He was so cute and beautiful.
�Morning sleepyhead, it�s your personal nurse� I whispered still running my fingers 
through his hair. 
He looked like an angel!
�Hello sweetheart� he replied smiling. 
�How do you feel today?� I asked him taking his hand which was lying beside 
his face.
�Better since you�re there� he said with a sweet voice.
�Ready to go home?� I asked smiling. 
�Course I am!� he said jumping up from his bed. 
But before heading to the bathroom, he turned round to me
�Morning my fav nurse� he said before kissing me passionately.
I smiled to myself as he went to get ready. I was so happy, bless him for that�
�Ready?� I said taking his bag as he appeared from the bathroom after a 
few minutes.
Wow he looked gorgeous. I had only seen him back in a dressing grown. He was 
standing in front of me with a jeans and a white shirt. He looked really fit.
�Yeah ready but � one more thing� he said and then kissed me passionately � 
yeah one more time!
�You�re already addicted to me huh?� I said laughing.
�How come you already know that?� he replied and we laughed.
We were going to get on in my car when he stopped suddenly. He had a face pale 
and looked worried.
�, what�s wrong?� I asked as I got closer to him and then took his cold hand.
�It�s just � it�s the first time I get on in a car since my car accident�� he 
said quietly.
�Oh babe, come here� I said taking him in my arms and gave him the best hug. �Don�t 
worry hun, I�m not a fast driver� I said half smiling.
�Thanx I�ll be ok. It�s just the first time� he said taking a deep breath.
I gave him a peck on the cheek and we drove off to his house.
Arrived there I could see he lived in a beautiful house. We get out and headed to 
the door while he searched for his key. I asked him annoyed
�Babe? Hasalready moved all of her stuff?�
�Don�t worry hun, she won�t be there because we didn�t live together� he said 
smiling. I smiled and he opened the door.
We entered and he had a beautiful house.
�You have a �� but my phone interrupted me.
I picked it up.
�Yeah?� I answered. �How u doing? ... Ooh I�m sorry hun, how is she? � huh huh 
... in 2 hours? � how long? � ok I understand. Take care, I�ll miss you and I�m 
with you babe� I said hanging up. 
I was a little sad suddenly. Wow I didn�t expect that.came closer to me and 
put his hands on my hips.
�What happened hun?� he asked me worried.
�It was my best friend. Her grandmother has a leukaemia and her father 
asked her if she could go there and take care of her cause she has nobody 
there�� I said sadly.
�There, there � but where does she live?� he asked me.
�In Australia!� I almost yelled. �I�m gonna miss her so much� I said with 
tears in my eyes.took me in his arms and tried to comfort me. But it was hard 
to cope with it, my best friend was gonna live far away from me�

� End of the flashback �

Part 4

*�s POV *

After she read�s letter, I read the one I had received. I thought it was 
from a fan but when I recognized the handwriting I suddenly realised that it 
was from her. It didn�t take me a long time to read it. The message was simple. 
Why did she do that when every�
�Everything is perfect! I�m so happy for her. Wow I�m such in a good mood. 
I�m so glad to hear she�s fine. And if she�s fine, I am too!� she laughed.
But I wasn�t laughing at all. If she had read the letter from that prick she 
wouldn�t have said that. Why when everything was perfect, was there something 
which had to spoil everything? I was happy and I thanked God everyday to have 
Mh by my side. She was so kind, nice, lovely, caring, sweet and loving. She was the 
woman of my life and I was proud to say that she was carrying our baby. I was 
going to record an album and my first single reached the number one. But yeah I 
thought there was no �but� so far but this letter showed me that just loving each 
other wasn�t allowed anymore� but why now? When everything was fucking great?!
�Aren�t you happy for her?� she asked me smiling noticing my weird face.
�Course I am. I�m glad she�s fine and happy with her new boyfriend and 
her new job� I replied quietly but I couldn�t smile and I became very quiet.
�you okay?� she asked.
I always knew she could read my mind. No I wasn�t okay! I really didn�t know how 
I was feeling. Afraid and insecure maybe� and that feeling scared me 
even more.
�Yeah hunnie� I replied lying.
I hated that.
�What about your letter? Still the same� a fan who would want to kill me to be 
with you?� she laughed �I�m joking�
OMG! She could absolutely read my mind. If only she knew, if only she knew �
�, you�re so quiet suddenly� she asked me worried.
I had to go away before she could really notice that something was wrong 
with me.
�Sorry sweetheart. I gotta go now. See ya tonight� I replied hiding the 
letter in a drawer.
I grabbed my coat, kissed her on the lips and went to the door before she could 
ask me some other questions about this letter.
I walked to go to the studio cause we didn�t live so far away from there, only 
a few streets away. I was still thinking about her, about this letter. I hated 
her even more to do that to us. Why? Oh why? No way I was gonna listen to her. 
�Please leave us alone� I thought �and live happy together�. But I wasn�t innocent 
and na�ve, I knew that soon I�d hear something from her. She wouldn�t have 
left us alone I knew that and I knew her� I needed to talk to someone about 
that and I thought of, my best mate�

* The day before *
*�s POV *

Wow it has been a while since I wasn�t come back anymore. I missed London so 
much. After Lee broke up with me I didn�t want to stay here anymore. It 
would have hurt me so much to see them happy, he and that
from school. I 
hated her and I did since the school when she wanted to steal me , my little 
baby. And a year ago when we were so in love with each other, she appeared and 
stole my man. I will never forgive her� 
I was gone to NY. I was a journalist and I begged my boss to �play� the 
reporter for a while. He agreed and sent me there. I really enjoyed the trip, 
I was doing my job and I loved it. It helped me to get over
after our split. 
There I didn�t date anyone. It was too early I thought�
As I made my way to my old appartement, I went past a mag shops and saw some 
newspapers. I couldn�t believe what I read : 
�the solo singer and his girlfriendare going to have 
a baby�.
They were still together, she was pregnant and he was finally a singer. It 
really hurt. I missedso much. He was happy and I wanted to be the one who 
made him happy. I couldn�t still believe that he dumped me for her. We were 
together for 6 years, yeah sometimes we had taken a break but we missed each 
other a lot and got back together. I was sure he still loved me. 
I was gonna show her what we felt when someone you loved left you. She was gonna 
pay for the hurt she caused. And I had decided to do anything to get back. I wrote 
him a letter so that he knew I was back and that their lovely life was gonna end. 
He was my man, she wasn�t gonna be happy no longer. She had to suffer like I 
suffered, I began to write it but it didn�t take me long. He was gonna receive it 
tomorrow� I wondered how he was gonna react. The message was clear, it was 
her or me �

To Be Continued...