Love Takes Time Chapter 6 * Three days later * *�s POV * Three days after the funeral and I still felt dead inside. I missed Max so much. I missed all the things we shared. I missed his soft kisses, his tender touch, his sweet words,� that made me cry even more. I�ve never cried so much in my entire life. Nights and days I cried his loss.was there to comfort me but I�ve still missed him and nobody could stop my pain and nobody could understand what I went through. This was awful. Losing the one you loved, the one you were gonna marry, losing your soul mate, I hated to think of that. I knew I had to carry on living my life, working as a journalist but without his love, without Max�s love, I just couldn�t. he was my energy, my reason to live. How was I gonna go on living my life knowing he wasn�t with me to share my laughs, my cries, my ups and downs� I didn�t see the point of still living here. Nobody understood but I was nothing without him. Evenwho knew me too well said I had to accept the fact I had to carry on living cause I got a job and a life to build and meet someone new. But he didn�t understand. Max was my life and someone took if away from me. Why? Why did they do that to me? What had I done to deserve so much pain? I loved Max, maybe more than he loved me. I made him happy and then he�s gone. The day of our wedding. But why? Why when everything seemed so perfect something bad has to happen? I could clearly see my future with him. I Wasn�t afraid of settling down with him cause I knew I did the right thing for me like for him. We both loved each other so much and that was why not it hurt so much. was getting worried cause I didn�t eat anymore, I refused to go out, I just wanted to lie on my bed and cry. I was a physical wreck but today I had decided something. I didn�t want to live again this pain and I couldn�t bear the idea of living far away from the love of my life. The only solution to stop the pain was to join him. That was it. I was gonna join him and we could live happy. I was gonna end up my life to begin living another one. I didn�t wanna leave all my friends and my family but I knew I had to. If I wanted to be happy, the only option I had was to live with Max� even if it was in Heaven� yeah I had to do it. I didn�t wanna live in this damn life anymore and the only way to ease the pain was to die. Strangely I wasn�t afraid at all. I knew it was the right thing and I knew I would be happy this way. Before going I wanted to say goodbye to all the person I really cared and loved. And I wrote a letter� As I finished the letter I let a tear rolling down my cheek. I had to do it even if I was gonna miss �em. My place wasn�t here anymore. I placed the letter on the table and left�s apart. Half an hour later, arrived where I wanted to. I went out of my car and headed towards the end of the rock and sat. I could have taken some sleeping pills and just fall asleep but I didn�t want that. I wanted to feel the pain, it might be strange, I wanted to hurt myself. I was so angry at myself. Deep down inside, I felt like it was my fault. But wasn�t it? Maybe it was my fault if Max had left me, I thought to myself as I passed my legs to the other side of the rock and could see my feet into space. Maybe I deserved all I had been through. That was why I wanted to punish myself. I didn�t like myself anymore but soon everything would be all right with Max by my side� I looked down then closed my eyes as I prepared myself to fall and leave this life which hated me but soon she wouldn�t be able to see me and hurt me. I left it all behind, my friends, my family� and I got ready for a new life as I suddenly couldn�t control my body anymore and just simply gave in. I didn�t wanna fight anymore that was why I just gave in and let myself fall� To Be Continued...