Love Takes Time Chapter 5 *�s POV * Here we are. In the church. Again. It�s quiet� Cold� Empty just like me. All dressed in black we made our way through the church where Max was lying in his coffin. I was holding�s hand for support because I couldn�t stand on my feet. I was weak, a physical wreck. These past 3 days had been so hard. I didn�t eat anything even thoughtried his best to take care of me. I didn�t talk that much. I stayed in�s guestroom crying and listening to sad songs. It was the first time I went out since he was gone. >You�ll have to get over it and try to carry on living your own life< repeatedwithout stopping. But I couldn�t, I hadn�t the courage, the strength to stand up and fight. I lost something when Max died. I wasn�t the same anymore. They all said it�d take time, but how long? I wanted the pain away from me but wasn�t it too selfish? I didn�t want to forget Max. I wanted to have him for the rest of my life as I was going to promise him this the day of our wedding. I wish he knew how much I loved him with all my heart and that I was going to be faithful towards him, no men for a long time. As I was sittinglifted my chin with his finger and looked at my constant red and puffy eyes for not stopping crying these days. He wiped my tears away as I saw some were filling up his eyes too. �I don�t like seeing you like that babe and I can�t do anything for stopping your pain� he said softly as his voice trembled. It was the sweetest thing someone told me since Max�s death. �you�ve been the best these days. You were really acting like a best friend. You were caring, listening to me and tried to cheer me up when I was feeling low and I�m sorry if I annoyed you with all my tears� I told him looking at the floor butlifted my head up again. �Hun, I will always be there for you, to share your pain, your tears, your fears,� you didn�t annoy me at all. You�re sad and I�m glad I was there to help you�� he said truthfully. �You really did help mebut I think I need more time to get over it, I wish nobody could one day live what�s happening to me� I replied sobbing. He took me in his arms and stroked my back. He hugged me tightly just like he did these days and I felt safe� weak but safe. The priest talked about Max. He made everyone know how great he was. I was glad with what he said but then he wanted me to go near him and say something. I didn�t expect that and I didn�t want to. I hadn�t enough strength to do that. �Tell him the last goodbye�softly said in my ear. �do it hun� he kissed my temple. �I don�t know what to say� I said sanding up. �You�ll find the right words, I�m sure of it� he replied as I headed towards the priest. I turned round and saw everyone looking at me. I then looked at Max�s coffin. �We used to love that song babe� I said taking a deep breath and holding back the tears. �We were as one babe, for a moment in time, and it seemed everlasting, that you would always be mine, now you wanna be free so I�ll let you fly, cause I know in my heart babe, our love will never die� I sang. �I love you Max and always will� and I let the tears fall down my cheeks. I turned to look at them all and they had tearful eyes. I went back toand the others and sat down. was sobbing. �It was beautiful hun, really� he whispered. I hugged him and then the boys andwent away. �Where you�re going?� I asked. �You�ll see babe�replied kissing my forehead. After a few minutes, I heard some music. I lifted my head up and saw all the boys with their mike ready to sing � **Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say Now it's too late to hold you Cause you've flown away, so far away. Never, had I imagined living without your smile Feeling and knowing you hear me It keeps me alive. Alive� And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven, Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together, One sweet day. Eventually I'll see you in heaven Darling, I never showed you Assumed you'd always be there I took your presence for granted But I always cared And I miss the love we shared And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven. Like so many friends we've lost along the way. And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day. Picture a little scene from Heaven. Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll always look to a brighter day Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep, You'll always listen, as I pray! And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven, Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day. Sorry, I Never told you, all I wanted to say Mariah Carey/Boys II Men - One sweet day 