I Love You...No Matter What They Say Part 7 Since the momenttold you thatwas maybe coming you couldn�t stop smiling. You were actually really looking forward to this all: seeingagain. But you were kinda scared too, cos there was a chance she wasn't coming because she was still mad or something, what you would understand, if she was still mad at you. You acted like a mad-headed-fool and that was something that should be said! Only because your mum was against your relationship with Vianne didn�t mean you had to break up with her. It was stupid of you to act so weird to her , she didn't do anything wrong , that is what she must think though. Whenopened the door of the dressing room you were anxiously waiting forto a appear behind her. Which she eventually did. - hiya all!said happily and walked over towho she started to kiss-hi.said hy , to everybody in the room _hi! you said back looking at her belly and remembering whathad said, and he was right, she was really getting the whole pregnant look. _how are you doing? you said trying to start a conversation with -I�m fine thank you , ..erm... and you ? she asked hesitatingly _I�m not really what you can call fine. you started - what's wrong then ?asked looking worried _I haven't seen you in such a long time , and I�ve acted like a arsehole and that wasn't fair against you... - ooh just a arsehole !? she said with a firm tone but with a smile on her face _yeah I know probably worse than a arsehole , more like a motherf*cker , but my point is that i am so sorry about this all, i mean i really wanna be with you and ... -you do? she asked sweetly _yeah I really really really DO! you said - and I wanna help you get thru your pregnancy, and I wanna be there when the baby gets borne and I dunno I just wanna be there whenever and wherever you need me! you added and with that you laid you hand on her belly carefully waiting for her reaction. -do you really mean that all?asked you not really knowing what to believe _yeah I really do again! you said smiling and lifted her chin with your hand and gave her a gentle kiss. - I�m cool with this all, but erm what is your mum gonna say then? I mean I read what she said, and that wasn�t really nice against me, I don't really care what your mum thinks about me though, but I mean it's still your mother, right?asked you _yeah I don't know, I think I am just gonna tell her whatever my heart says at that time. you told her and you wrapped your arms around her and she laid her head on your shoulder - 5 minutes guys! someone shouted into the room _okay. you shouted back _babe, I gotta go on stage! you are going to watch, right?! you asked her -Course I am! what do ya see me for!? haha. she laughed _okay then, I�ll see you after the show. you said and wanted to walk to the hallway whenpulled you close to her and gave you a passionate kiss. when it ended she whispered -I love you. _ooh babe I love you too, but I really got to hurry. bye babes! you said and hurried into the hallway to the stage When you left the room, you felt so happy, the concert went great, you sawsitting in one of the front rows, and you smiled at her, while she smiled back. After a few songs, you got dressed and when the next song started you looked in�s direction to see her beautiful smile again, but she wasn't smiling anymore. *your pov* You were feeling so great, when you andhad made up. You just couldn't stop smiling. You were sitting on the 2nd row in front of the stage. You had a really good sight, and could see everything pretty good. Every time you sawlooking and smiling at you, you just felt so great. When Blue had sung a few songs, there was a short break. Everybody started to talk and shout and stuff like that. You started to talk toand told her about that you andhad made up and that you felt so happy. She was happy for you. After about 10 minutes there were some girls, probably fans off course, with BLUE in big, blue, letters written on there faces, who started to talk to you at first they seemed nice but after a while -hey! aren't you? one of the girls asked _yes I am, and you are? You asked her nicely -I am ... she wanted to say her name but her friend cut her off -that�s non off your business bitch! _pardon me? you asked her -you heard me, bitch ! she spat in your face _what did i do, to deserve to be a bitch ? you said to her and looked at -you slept with!!! and your getting a bloody baby form him! YOUR SUCH A SLUT! she said and looked at your with a really angry face, a face that you don't want to meet in a dark alley if you get what i mean . _.... so? i didn't do anything wrong right? you said -yeah do did! OH MY GOD! YOUR DUMB AND PREGNANT! THAT AINT PRETTY! BITCH! she said again -come on! leave her alone! the nice girl said and grabbed her friends arm -I�m not finished with you yet, bitch ! her friend shouted while she pulled her away. _is everybody gonna be against me andbeing together? i mean first his mother and now the fans ! you said to - I dunno! I had a few not so nice fans coming on to me 2, but they won't do any harm! at least I hope so! she said when the music started again, and you sawlooking and smiling at you, you wanted to smile back but you just couldn't after what had just happened .There were a few girls looking at you all the time. It was so incredibly annoying. You could see them looking and then whispering at each other. saw it too and suggested to go somewhere else. _you stay here, I�ll see you later, I think I�ll go to the dressing room or outside for a moment , I just need some fresh air and i need some time for myself to think . you said to -oke, take care hun, there take your passes and concert ticket, that could be handy if you wanna get back in! she said laughing and gave you a hug, and you walked away . When you were outside you had such an urge for an cigarette, but you hadn't smoked for 5 months now, and you weren�t planning to go and smoke, cos you were pregnant ! But you still had that urge for something like an cigarette, so you decided to walk to an little supermarket just around the corner of the arena, and bought a whole bunch of chocolate and stuff. You sat yourself down somewhere outside the arena on a bench and started to eat! it felt good to eat the sorrows away, as they say! You could hear Blue signing outside, it even was nice outside, even when you can't hear them! When most of the stuff you bought, you were feeling kind of sick after all that chocolate, but whatever! you threw the rest away and walked back inside, you showed your passes and walked to the dressing room and sat yourself down again and started to read a magazine, which wasn�t about you for a change ! When the concert had ended, the lads came stumbling thru the door all smiling and laughing hard and whipping the sweat off there face�s, they were all looking happy except, who came thru the doorway as last one. _hi. you said smiling, trying to hide the fact that you were feeling sick! - hey! are you ok? I mean, you suddenly left... _yeah I�m fine, I just wasn�t feeling well, so I needed some fresh air, and something to eat. -are you feeling better now then? he asked and walked your way ,sat himself down next to you and wrapped his arm around you and gave you a kiss. -you smell nice, you know? he added _yeah I�ll live, what do i smell like then? you asked him -you smell like erm maybe this will sound weird but you smell like chocolate! he said and started to kiss your neck _I do? you said smiling, and laughing from the inside -? he asked after a while _yeah ?- you answered - how many weeks or moths are you? he said and laid his hand on your belly and rubbed it softly _I�m about 24 weeks and that�s about 6 months . you said and looked back at the timewasn�t there, which was pretty long, that meant he had just missed those things -oh okay. he just answered _? you asked this time -yes! what�s wrong? he answered _nothing I just wanted to ask if you wanna see your child.. -huh? _ the photo of the echo they made last month in the hospital, do you wanna see the picture? you asked again -.... yeah.. yeah I wanna see! he said shocked _I thought I had it in there somewhere. you said while you were looking in your bag _ aah here it is. you said and gavethe echo-picture -ooh my god, i don�t know what to say, it is so beautiful. Is this really our child? he said looking at the photo _yes , this is our child. you said being so proud of it. -do you know what it is gonna be? I mean boy or girl? he asked all of a sudden _no, I don't. I don�t wanna know to be honest. But if you wanna know i could just ... -nah if you don�t wanna know I don't need to know either. he said cutting you off _okay then , erm ... I have a appointment in the hospital this weekend and i was wondering if you...erm ... would like to join me, i mean your still the baby's father? you askedhesitating -off course I like to join you! I�d love to join you to be exact! he said smiling and gave you a kiss and then your belly _okay, thanks! -your welcome hunny, I love you! he said _i love you 2, but erm ... you're a bit of sweaty so can you please get a shower or something cos erm you stink! you said laughing and pushingslightly away from you -eey! he said laughing -I�ll see you outside ok? he added _yeah sure sweetie. you said, grabbed your bag and walked outside where,,andwaiting. - eey! what's up girl !shouted _hi! I�m fine thnx and you? you said laughing -me 2, but those girls weren�t really nice in there you know! she said -which girls?wanted to know At that momentcame walking your way... -ooh the girls that were sort of bullying, they were saying mean stuff to her! she continued. - she got bullied ? ooh god ! that�s not nice! didn�t you say or do anything then ?asked -who got bullied?came and joined the conversation -did!said and wrapped an arm around you -but she's all right now! right? she added _yeah, I�m fine. you nodded slightly -what happened then, I mean: I saw you laughing and having fun before the break and after there was this sober un-happy looking, I couldn't bare to watch it, I wanted to do or say anything, but I couldn't cos i was on stage, but then when i looked again, you had left. Why didn�t you tell me before , in the dressing room or something. We could have talked about this.said while he wrapped his arm around you and walked you to his car. _ooh yeah , I just didn't know what to do , maybe i thought that you wouldn't believe me or so ,cos they are your fans and ... yeah i just dunno okay ! you said -who do you think i believe : you or my fans ?! if you say that they had said something i will believe you , trust me on this one okay ! _okay i will . you said back -okay , next time, although I don't hope there is gonna be a next time , we're gonna be there together and we are gonna get thru. I mean we, me and the lads, have like spoke persons for these kind of things . _spoke what? you asked him -spoke persons, they're people who tell things to the press and media , so that we , the artists and relatives , don't have to tell it our self ,so for example : the press will see us together again now , walking on the streets and driving in the car , shopping or doing whatever, and they will ask if we are together again , and if we don�t wanna answer or don't have time to or get sick off saying yes we�re back together, these people come in handy ! you get it !? he said laughing _yeah I get it ! you said and he opened the door of his car When you both got in his car he drove away , out off Wembley�s garage. -where do ya wanna go? back to mine , to yours , or do you wanna grab something to eat?... Oh never mind , you don't look so well, are you feeling ok ? he asked looking worried from you to the road and to you again _ooh no! you said , and you opened a your window to get some fresh air -oh okay , do you want me to stop ? he asked _no, just drive ! you said , feeling rather sick -you sure, cos if you rather want me to stop ,you know i will ! even it is in the middle of the road ! he said looking worried _no! please just drive somewhere ! you sighed -okay, let me see . he said talking to himself , you just let him , cos you were feeling rather sick at this moment - i know ! he said after a while , when you were still hanging half out of the car window _know what ? you said just to be polite not because you really wanted to know what he was gonna say , you weren't really interested right now -know who I�m gonna drive to, i mean it's a too long way to drive all the way to mine or yours so I decided to drive to someone else although I�m beginning to doubt that decision right now ! but never mind , you'll see when we get there ! he said _okay . you sighed again A few minutes later he stopped the car at a posh house , with a big garden , and walked to the door and tried to help you out. Which could be hard cos you were caring a baby , and you were heavy because you were feeling sick. _where are we anyway ? you said when you walked together withdown the long driveway. -we're at my mums. he said _... you looked at him shocked -yeah yeah i know , it wasn't a good decision ,but whatever , i mean you are carring my baby and i want my mum to accept you just the way you are. You may not have know some things , but everybody makes mistakes and i don't think she can judge you just because you've made some mistakes . And i think she just doesn't like you because ... he stopped _because of what ? you wanted to know -because, okay this is gonna sound harsh, but because we've slept on the first night we had met. And she thinks girls who do one-night- stands are just simply all sluts. And above that : you became pregnant! and i think she is judging you by that . But that's not all, cos, i think she's a bit mad at me cos i am the one who slept with you in the first place and I am the one who got you pregnant and she is punishing me by letting the world know what and how she thinks about you . he said _ooh okay , but... -yeah ? he said and wrapped an arm around you _there's just one thing I don't understand . you said -what�s that babe ? he said _erm why do we or did we break up every time she says or does things to make our relationship worse . I mean if we separate everytime she's gonna be happy cos she did that! you get what i mean? she 's trying to separate us , and we are simply obeying her prayers !!! you said and started to walk back to the car -heeywait ! i get it ! but can't we just try to talk to her ? he asked you , you thought about it for a couple of minutes and _okay , but if she says something I don't like or something that gets on my nerves : I'm out ! is that clear ? you asked him -crystal clear! love ya! he said and rang the doorbell while he gave you a kiss on your cheek Whenopened the door, she looked shocked but her face-expression changed fast . -hi mum! be were in the neighbourhood so we thought lets drop by!greeted his mum -what is she doing here? she asked him pointing at you with and pulling dirty kinda face -she's my girlfriend mum! you know her :! he said back -yeah unfortunately I do know her! i don't want her on my property anymore! if you wanna visit me you should come on your own next time! bye! she said and slammed the door, leaving you andstanding there looking at each other just shocked _can we please go? you asked him with a lump in your thought, you wanted to cry so bad , but not withthere -yeah sure . he said disappointed When you were about 7,5 months (30 weeks) you tookwith you to the hospital, for a monthly scan. He was so exicted. Since the day after the concert, when everybody saw you andtogether, everybone was happy for you and him.. Everybody was so glad that you and had made up. Except's mother, but you couldn't care less : you were so happy with, being pregnant and everybody was happy for you.said that he didn't mind to not talk to his mum, but you could see he suffered and that was all her fault, maybe i would help if you went and had a little talk with her, but you just couldn't get the image out of your head ofjust slamming the door in your and, what you thought was really rude,'s face ! Her own F*cking son !!! in your eyes you don't just slam the door in someone�s face ! but what the heck ! it was her door ! parked his car in the hospitals parking area. You got out but had to support your back cos your baby was getting bigger and heavier. sprinted around the car and wanted to help you, what is sweet but you said you would manage. Since you andhad made up , he did nothing else than wanting to help you! _? you asked him not wanting to take advantage of the situation ,cos he wanted to help -yes babe ! he said _can you please get my bag? you asked him pointing at the seat were your bag lay on , but you couldn't get it cos you had to bend your knees and then all the pressiure whould get on your knees and you would fall -course babe! he said got your bag and gave it to you . _thank you. you said with a sweet smile and, when he had locked his car and walked around it , gavea rather passionate kiss . -what was that for? he said and looked at you , with a huge smile on his face _oh nothing. you said smiling from the inside -okay, yeah! he said laughing _you ready for the scan? you asked him like he was the one getting the echo -yeah I�m ready, are you ? course you are you had these kind of scan-echo things before haven't you ? he asked you walking with you to the entrance of the hospital _Yup ,just hope the baby is still healthy ... -how big is the chance he or she isn't healthy? he asked a bit shocked _ooh Lee calm down, a month ago he OR she was totally healthy so it would be weird and extraordinary if he or she isn't healty anymore, but ... -but what? he said while you walked to the elevator and pushed the button for it to come down, which it did very quickly _but... there is a chance that he or she isn't the healthy it was before. you said and looked at's shocked face before walking in the elevator and pushed the button of the 4th floor: maternity -there is? Ooh god babe, why haven't you told me? he looked at you , while you studied you tummy in the elevator mirror _why? should I have told ya? I mean that isn't something what happens everyday so i actually thought you knew the bits and pieces of being pregnant. You know don't ya ? you turned around and looked him in the face, instead of looking at him in the mirror when you asked him the question, like you did before _you do, right? you added when he didn�t answer -I.. Do know the main things, like what happens during a pregnancy but please don�t blame me that I didn�t know the risk�s! I...I just don't know, I mean you're the one�s that�s pregnant and .. we've been apart for such a long time, i had the time to prepare then, but i didn't , I�m sorry! he said with a guilty-looking face _aah, that doesn�t matter, you've still got about erm... 1,5 months got read up, I�ve got loads of books from friends and family so you could read some of them and, when the baby is born they teach the mother and father of the child the main thing like: changing a diaper or bathing the baby, so you really don�t have to worry. You said while the elevator door opened and grabbed his hand. You walked to the waiting room ,and waited to get called . After a minute or 10 , a nurse called your name and you were ushered to a room, with a bed and an echo/scan-machine in it, you were asked to wait for a few more minutes so she could get a doctor. -ooh babe, this is so exciting he said and lightly squeezed your hand . _hahaha, ooh it's so incredibly to see what a beautiful little creature I�ve got here . you said and rubbed your belly -erm, shouldn�t we ... _yeah what, should we? you asked -shouldn't we come up with names already ? he asked shyly _that isn't such a bad idea ! you said laughing At that moment a doctor came in _hi , I�m Dr. Chase, I�ll do the echo today, is that okay Miss ....? he said while looking in his, or to be exact your, files . -yeah sure, bring on the slimey cold stuff! you said in horror cos it was really cold and slimey, that was definitely one of the things you hated ! _haha okay. the doctor said laughing -erm you must be the father ? he said looking at, who he obviously hadn't noticed before -yes I am! he said proud -okay then, so I guess you both know the procedure I�m gonna do now? he asked _no this is my first time actually.said feeling a bit ashamed , you could see cos he was getting a bit red - okay, would you like an explanation then? the doctor askedkindly -erm yes please. he said hesitatingly -you don't mind, do ya? cos if you do mind... I mean you had more of these thing already then I won't ... _I don�t mind . you said cutting him off -okay then, we will rub some of the what Miss... _please call me. you said to the doctor -okay, where was I? ooh yeah, we will rub some of the whatcalls the "slimey cold stuff" on her belly and we will scan her belly with this devise. He said showingsome kind of scan-thingy -when I put this devise on's belly I�ll have direct contact with the scanner and it will go to the screen here. he said pointing to a computer-looking screen _and I�ll see my baby. you said -yes that's right, then you will see your child . he said and started the procedure You looked at's face, who was looking at the screen as if he had just won a million pounds. It was such a funny sight, but then you saw something that looked like a little creature on the screen ... that was so beautiful. Everybody in the room , fell quiet. -okay, here it is! the doc said after a few moments of silence -let me see, yeah it looks healthy to me , I�ll take a screen picture and let it stand here for a moment, for you to look at, and i will be right back with some results of tests the computer did. he said and left you,and the computer screen with a echo-picture on it alone in the room.