| > 23 february 03 'blurry' 'cast your eyes upon the lord, and he shall make your way straight.' as a christian, the most important aspect of our walk with god is our focus on him, our faithful reliance on him during the calm and the storms, when the world around us tempts us with sweet, satanic candy from every side. it sounds simple: focus on jesus. yet, that obediance to him comes with some struggle, and we find that when we lose sight of god, our life tends to become blurry. from personal experience, over time i've noticed that after a long period of doing daily bible studies, prayer, and abstaining from what worldy junk i can, i feel like i've taken a great drug, a powerful medicine that gives me a spiritual high. it's a great feeling to know that god is all around you, literally, and to have such peace and joy in your life. but, if i slack on my daily devotionals and such for a while, i have noticed that after a few weeks, everything begins to swirl again. if you're a christian, you probably know what i speak of. without god as my total focus, the world becomes chaotic around you; your mind becomes filled with a mess of worldly matters, anxiety, and debris; and for me personally, i become moody and depressed easily for long periods. i've traveled these two roads often, and i always kick myself for straying just a little in my ignorance and stupidly human ways. luckily, god always welcomes us back home, and each time, i tell myself i won't fall away again. aren't we're blessed to have a god with a horrible memory? wink. |
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