As I stared right through my velvet box
It scared me to think I'd hurt so many
And my soul would never rest
Even the people I didn't think cared
Those who turned a blind eye
Those who got me into so much trouble for my own good
Those who tried so hard to get through
With no luck
As the hymns grow louder
Their faces grow sadder
I can't believe the upset I've caused
And still have reason to hate myself
I never want to hurt my friends
It's good to die alone
All in black
They hold each other
Like I meant something
Like I would never be forgotten
At that I squirm in my coffin
For I'd rather not exist as a sad memory
You people wonder why
There's no reason
I'd like to sing them a song
But I'm unable
I'd like to help them along
They'll live
I'll wait and die alone