I feel I need to discuss my feelings more. I am totally destroyed by his accusations and his taking the side of two people he has never met face to face. I am so hurt it is undescribable. I feel such an inner cold and emptiness. Here was a man that I absolutley love and adore, would do anything for, and he apparently had no respect or regard for me.

I guess this says alot about the truth behind our relationship. It appears that it wasn't what I thought it was, how could I have been so wrong? As of this morning he has yet to come out of that room and even say anything to me.

He is one of those macho men who do not believe in apologizing or anything else they feel will show a weakness. So I fear this is all doomed.