Tout Le Monde,

I went to the beach yesterday and I was a little pissed that me and Mr. Man might be in a fall out after my telling him how I felt.  So sad and insecure I needed to get out.  I went to the beach for some R & R before work that night and stumbled upon a bartender.

Life's funny at times and this guy put's another mark on my 'isn't life grand' list.  I'm writing up a list of my own of things that I need to focus on this coming school year.  I ordered a snack and a screw driver and thought away while watching the Yankees get their asses kicked.

Just hanging out the bartender gives me a 'flower napkin' (a rose made out of a napkin) and occasionally makes a conversation while I was sitting at the bar. Seems like a nice guy, I didn't really look into it.

My friends met up with me so I left with them to get one of those crazy waffle icecream things. I told him about the guy and debated whether I should get his number or not.  Needless to say we walked back, I went up to him and said, "You have to do me a favor..."  "...Can you sign my flower with your number on it?"  And sure enough I got his number, I gave him mine and continued on my merry way outta there!

Guys are funny.  He said he was meaning to get mine but didn't have the chance.  Guys, at any point you are having a conversation with a girl, is always an opportune time to get a number.  Chickenheads!

I was almost home close to 7 pm and recieved a phonecall from the bartender.  Apparently he wanted to make sure I had his number because he just changed it.  He stated flat out that he was going to wait the traditional 3 days before the phonecall but it is what it is.

Guys are funny.  Yeah I did expect the wait before the call.  In fact I really didn't think much of it.  I was planning on calling when I was in the area which wasn't planned yet for at least a week.

Later that night at work this other guy, the 'country boy' stopped by my job like he had said a couple of days ago.  I was fairly surprised because I didn't think nothing much of what he said, but there he was so I chatted up with him.  Before the night was out I found myself with a date on Tuesday to watch a movie.

Back at home I tried to sleep with the emptiness of my heart.  Even though I have my ex wanting to be with me, Mr. Man in the wing for confused fun, and these two guys to remind me that I can attract people, I felt alone.  I wanted to be in love and wanted it back from the right person.  At the same time I didn't want all that because as you can see life offers so many choices.  So where do I go?  When the hurt of love deprivation rears its ugly head at my door.  I just don't know. All I know is that Mr. Man has gotten me so wound up and sensitive about the situation.  I could strangle him!

Au Revoir...