Tout le Monde,

Guys are a funny thing.  There is always the hunt no matter what guy you have trailing you.  Church boys, hopeless romantic boys, business men, jocks, etc. 

I have taken my hard shell and shed a couple of layers to allow some feelings for this guy. Monday I took the initiative to show him a bit of my life that had been lost.  We went rock climbing all on my treat.  It went great and was fun.  We headed back to my parents house and there I had gave him a candlelit dinner in the back yard all with petals and a satin sheet covered matress to gaze at the stars after.  It was perfect and he showed it.

So up comes Tuesday and I'm feeling a little lonesome from avoiding a relationship and actually concidered having one with him.  With the help of my ex-roommate I was snapped back into reality and kept it at that.  However, I had brought up the idea to Mr. Man and what I had thought that day, not that I wanted any action upon it and he suggested that I work things out with my ex.

Now what in the hell is that?!  Mr. Man was all bugging me to be with him and has hopes of being together and now that I told him that there could be a possibility of that happening what does he do, he tells me I should work it out with my ex.

It's all about the game ladies.  I knew from the beginning.  Guys are only interested in girls they can't have.  The more enticing and unattainable whether attached or even better 'sort of attached'.  I think Mr. Man loves the thrill of being with someone who's heart belongs to someone else but can have them (me) in the circumfrence of their arms.

As retarded as he could ever be, he asks me what's wrong.  I tell him that I'm trying to find everything in my head and heart as to why I shouldn't work things out with my ex because of how different we are and here I have family friends and even now Mr. Man telling me to work things out with him.  What a boat load of confusion.

Well apparently Mr. Man says that he didn't mean it and he was just trying to be nice.  I told him I don't need him to be nice I just need him to be honest.  So he says he doesn't want me to work things out with my ex and to ask him 'what he wants' in a couple of day.

That guy must be on crack! No way in hell I told him I'm going to ask because any girl with blinders off can see that him saying 'I hope we can be more than friends' is a load of crap!  I told him thank you for snapping me back.  Back where? Don't worry about it dickhead! Back to not giving a shit about being with a guy who isn't worth being with me, candlelight dinners and all.

You know it is always great to be in relationships especially with me, but I'm better out of one.  I don't know what the heck Mr. Man will do, but I'm going to do what I do and if that means alongs comes a guy who knows what the heck they want and that's what I want, then see ya Mr. Man! You snooze you lose as they say.

Salut!