Tout le Monde,

Almost the end of summer and where do I see myself.  I've been through a tragic dumping, what's would have been a deadly car accident, a loss of communication with my father, a stolen phone, and burning out with schoolwork.  The good side of things would show the independency from what was my car, the gain of patience with the loss of my phone,  still a lack of communication with my father but have earned some respect with the purchase of a new house for my mom and sister, and times that I had spent with friends and dates.

Breaking from what I would have typed, I must say that my accuracy in calculating relationship stages is impeccable.  Hopeless who had done the unpredictable dumping one month after the relationship started was a shocker to myself because usually one month ends the 'honeymoon' part of a relationship.  But like expected clockwork had found communication with me three months later of this month to be exact.  And on the streak of exes Air Force 1 has been talking to me constantly from U.A.E.  And Mr. Man of last summer has found his way to talk to me despite my lack of communication outlets.

To this all I can say is BULLSHIT THAT!  Why, what, where, and how?  Did these guys get a memo?  That they should band together and hit me up again for kicks?  All seemingly wanting to still be my friend... AFTER ALL THE SHIT THESE ASSHOLES PUT ME THROUGH?!  Oh yeah speaking of assholes, I forgot one.  I don't know if I ever gave him a name but if he's reading, the marbley eyes that I've come to love and never forget.  The ones that I tend to see on a blank moment in time.  Yeah that guy.  Mr. Jerkoff that always wants his way and who couldn't wait for me to be comfortable with his assholyass again.  If he is reading this... "Hey jerkoff, I wasn't trying to get back with you when I had gotten stuck in that ditch.  You asked me why I am calling you now and not before, well my answer is that you made it clear that you didn't want me to talk to you anymore, so how's that for dumb logic.  So don't blame me if you hadn't heard from me till then.  I've tried so many times to be your friend because that's how relationships start, at least good ones. And I've lost that trust from you the first time we broke up. And lost so much respect from you after when you had said all those mean things including wanting to do a threesome in Amsterdam and an open relationship.  So you pretty much fucked yourself!  Why would I have thought it to be easy to be back with you after that.  You're just as dumb as the rest!

Ok so now that I'm back to what I was talking about, I can't remember what I was going to say next.  But anyway, I managed to date here and there, some good, some bad.  All in the thick I've had my breath taken away.

And with the end of the summer I can say this.  I've definately been through a lot.  I feel that a new chapter has started in my life and now I just have to keep a level head in writing this one to be better than the last.  The school year starts soon and I've already started it out pretty amazing.  I'm confident, strong, and happy.

~ Cheers To ASSHOLES Everywhere!!!