Tout le Monde,

Reflecting on how I've been recently, trying to find the answers to all my misfortunes and I've stumbled upon some must needed support from myself.

Post Hopeless Ass that broke up with me, I went out almost everyday hanging out with friends trying not to let time stop.  I thought that if I let time stop I'd start to think and cry because I would still feel the sting of Hopeless leaving me the way that he did.  Why did he do it.  What did I do?  This all that would be running through my mind and all the while with hanging out by my girl/guy friends I've realized that time can stop.  Time could stop and I would think to myself that it wasn't my fault.  Why should have been?  I liked him to the best of my ability even when he didn't deserve it at times or even at all.  It was his loss to pass every thought, every word, every nice gesture that I did just to make him smile.  And that is something that hardly comes by.  Come to think of it I would feel like someone like me is pretty much one out of a million.

Why so...

Well I'm generous to family and friends stretching myself out there both physically, verbally, financially, or anyway else that I could possibly help someone.  I'm overly forgiving and nice even to those who have scorned me once or a more.  I would believe that I am beautiful inside and out.  I am intelligent with goals and ambitions.  I'm almost done with school graduating with seven years of experience under my belt.  I'm sure that when I move on to bigger things that I'll be able to land my dream job.  Point blank is that I'm a good person with a lot to offer to the table.

So I guess things always work out the best for me because I would think that in order for someone to be with me, they should be equipped to balance out everything that I'm going to bring into the relationship, and if not, they aren't worth my time.

So in the midst of hanging out with a lot of people for the past month they alone have shown me that there isn't anything wrong with me and that I'm not alone in this.  And most importantly, that there are more prospects of finding someone that is definately better than what I've had.  It's not a loss just another wall that I had to climb, into new heights.

~I'm back!