Tout le Monde,

Save me the embarrassment.  I feel a bit lost with this new guy.  Last night I might have pushed the cards a little too far I guess.  I was coming off from work last night and called up Mr. man.  I might have been a little aggressive on the phone about what he was wearing and what he was doing.  I thought it was rather entertaining, but he seemed a little stand off-ish.  I guess he wasn't comfortable nor has ever tried phone sex.

So a little embarrassed and a lot turned off I blew him on like a sack of rice and went to bed.  I haven't heard or said anything to him since then even though it's been only a handful of hours.  I don't plan on talking to him despite our meeting tonight after work.  I'll just keep it cool and play it off.  My ego is a little squat today.

I know it shouldn't be because he tried everything to say to me to reassure me that he's just different and wanted to make me feel better.  How would anyone feel if they were shot down at intimacy twice so far both physically and verbally.  Geez louise!  I mean we do make out here and there and tease each other to the point where there is a halt at second base, but I guess he just really wants to wait with me. Go figure!

cioa!