Tout le Monde,

Somebody shoot me!

If not my brain is just going to combust on its own.  What the hell is going on?! all I know is that I can't work right now, I can't think, all I feel is the urge to just cry and it's pissing me off.

So now this boy isn't telling me if everything is ok between us.  I don't know if he's still upset about his issues and/or me going down to see Air Force 1, or if he just plainly has no interest in me.  Is it going to take me to hang out with an ex or a guy to have him tell me he misses me because he has the opportunity to see me all this week and yet I have heard nothing of the sort.

I can't function right now, I'm just too dumbfounded at the fact that I don't know why I'm being treated this way. What did I do wrong? Why don't he talk to me, why doesn't he want or plan on seeing me.  He went from not having any plans for today to having plans with his 'friend' whoever that is.  So I guess he didn't really miss me because wouldn't that cause one to want to somehow see the person they miss?

~Loss of words