Tout le Monde,

I couldn't sleep last night.  It might have been the new Jeff Gordon Energy drink.  It could have been the three hour nap.  It could have been the multiple of movies that was on.  Or maybe it's just the thoughts in my head.

Speaking of I was reading my entries from this year and I wish that I had documented the days where I met Hopeless.  One of the things that I was thinking of last night was things that had happened between me and him since we met.  It made me laugh.  I could remember all the things I thought, felt, and said about him.  What a riot.  I look at it now and see how rediculous things were or made to be.  Some good, some bad, but I wish that I had put it down so that I could look back on it.

Moments like that you can't have back.  That excitement and edge that come quick and unexpected but never lasts and forever lost if you don't have a good memory.  So you know I can't recall everything!

Shame for shame! lol

Ugh! just in...  Got a text from Hopeless and I'm at work.  I think that it's important to know who you are sleeping with.  I mean in terms of just knowing that they take care of themselves and are aware of the dangers that unfortunately flood the world today.  It pisses me off when people don't admit to what STD's linger out there.  The theory is, "I'm careful with who I sleep with so you don't have to worry."  But how do you know? How would you know if either parties had anything at all if they didn't check for it.  Most cases these STD's are dormant and never if not rarely show.  And even then ignorance would pass it as 'a bad rash' or whatever.

The fact that it took Hopeless all this time, and granted I do appreciate that he is actually doing it, but DAMN!  I don't need to be humored, I need him to be aware not for my sake but his own.  I'm just so annoyed right now that I don't even want to talk to him.  "At work, I'm honored for your cooperation" Funny how you can't read sarcasm in text without a footnote.

Well he could have been a bastard and never checked.  Then again he could have been a more understandable individual and fully RESPECT my wishes.  It's not for me its for you dummy!  Why do I always have to look like the 'anal head basket case'?!

~Je deteste!