Tout le Monde,

Schools Out For Summer...!

Back at home and happy to be here.  I'm feeling a little empty inside not seeing my good friends at school today and knowing that I won't as often over the summer or the future.  But people graduate and life begin's not knowing if friendships will work in it.

But I'm in the positive and hopefully I'll still be able to keep contact with them.

So last night my roomate and I had one crazy party!  We took TKE's entertainment of the night.  We took some of their guests and planned an unorganized somewhat decently alcohol provided frienzy.  Of course in appreciation to the guests I decided to put on a show and bellydanced for everybody.  Pulled out the costume, pulled out the sword and with 'DJ Deizel' we got the party started.  I had no idea that it would be a success.  I would have never fathomed the amount of people that could fit and that room!  All in all, a good time well spent.  Hopefully we'll be able to do it again next year!

A funny thing happened the night before this though that I feel I must put down.  I had one more test to complete this week on Wednesday.  I had been studying for it since Friday.  Hopeless wanted to see me the Monday, however I wasn't too sure if it was the enjoyment of seeing me or the need of moving his stuff out of his dorm room.  Regardless it didn't matter so much to me because I was concentrating on doing something right this semester.  So I might have came off as not wanting to see him and through a misunderstood phone conversation on Monday we had a bit of a fight.

I could only imagine how Hopeless could be feeling.  Maybe he really wanted to see me.  Maybe he just wanted to get his stuff right away rather than after my test.  Either way I couldn't just let him sound like that and get away with it lol.  I mean he did sound frustrated, possibly upset and I of course cannot have that.  So I took my room mate and went to see him up in NY. 

I wasn't able to talk to him due to pot (that son of a bitch lol) but I knew that my efforts did not go unnoticed.  The next day he came to see me at school.  He wanted to and seeing him I knew he meant it.  It was amazing.  Wow there is that word again.  When was the last time I used 'amazing' to describe Hopeless.  I guess I should spend more days away from him because I saw the guy that I first met.  He was as impatiently attentive and glued onto me the way that we were in our first month.  It had been a while since we'd be watching tv and he'd just spend the time not watching tv but looking at me.  What else could I do but just stare right back at him.  I cracked up most of the time though because I couldn't believe what was happening.  I thought that I would never see him like that again.  Usually once the 'honeymoon' (first month) was up, the 'honeymoon' was over indefinately.  The sad truth about relationships, of which I would love to play over and over again.  I've always loved that first part of a relationship and who wouldn't love that.

Tuesday, while he was with me, I was extremely happy and was satisfied in Every way possible, more so than these past weeks.  I have something brewing but due to the fact that certain people can read my entries (along with the whole world), I will not disclosed it till the day of or after, but I'm really excited about it and I hope that it will work well.

~Separation makes the heart grow fonder