Toute le Monde,

So as it turns out this boy likes me, wants to date me and share this moment in his life with me.  What is a girl to do?  I could choose the path of sailing away into the arms of someone new, but as tonight would have it, a little faith has left the bucket.

A faux pas of ex-relationships is the post friendship of it all.  Some welcome it and others treat it as the dust that is left upon a television set yet is of course un-noticed.

Well tonight would have it that I would be accompanied by two ex-es ago to help me out with a class project.  He's always been a real help, it's always been fun, and he is so sure that things between us were given up on and wants the friendship phase to kick in.

I've had my doubts on his request, but gave him the benefit of the doubt.  Tonight however he sang pretty much a different tune. 

So all this drama of what could have been and and whom else I choose to date, and why it's not him.

It isn't anybody.  It's just me.  Me doing what I need to do and having fun meanwhile.

So anyway thinking back at all the disappointment, the unfulfilled expectations, and the possibilities of a new relationship.  I'm scared.  For once in a month of this new found me I feel alone and lost.  I'm affraid to start any relationship because of the sheer fact that guys are hopeless.

So to this boy that likes me, I'm sorry that my past has made it to where my only defense mechanism is to just not get too emotionally involved.  I'd love to love again but it is more comfortable for me to be unglued.

In my dreams for now...

Au Revoir