Tout le Monde,

In reflection of certain instances I've come to feel at this very moment that I want to love.  Is there something so terrible about me that prohibits me to find one to love.

I'm not ok.  I've been cheated out and cheated myself out of love.  And I'd give anything at this moment to be holding an amazing guy with no history with me.  That get's it right the first time.

I'm sitting here watching my favorite show drinking hot coco and eating a 70% dark chocolate bar, all because "love don't come 'round here no more."  The last time I ever was mad at not having someone to love was when I was in highschool.  Have I reverted into this eternally screwed of unloved curse?

I guess to appease my sorrow I can only say that I have all this love all the potential to make someone very happy, but my time will come.  These Times are not made for me at this moment to recieve or give love.  It's an unbelievable fact that I must accept.

Do I fight for one? Do I just sit back and wait?  Or do I go and look for one?

Mission Impossible...