Tout le Monde,

Wow back from the dead I am.  As you can see it's really hard for me to keep away from this thing.  I need to vent I just don't think if I should right now.

I don't feel that is fair for certain people that I know to have access to my life.  To read my inner thoughts and desires. To know exactly how I feel.  Yeah I hate that.  I don't think it's fair to be able to know everything about me and on my side, never have a clue of what going on in his head.

So why should I give him the honour?  He has the easy way out.  He'll know if I like him or hate him or just don't give a damn about him.  And I will be forever lost searching his mind.

I remember when I had it easy.  When I knew exactly how this one guy felt.  I wasn't even an issue, it never came to mind.  If anything I would so love for that to be with him but that I think is virtually impossible.

Whatever...