Tout le Monde,

So about the last entry.  Basically the problem that came up was the fact that Mr. Man's friend invited me down to Atlantic City.  Based off of this guys flirtiness and the fact that he's Mr. Man's friend, I didn't feel comfortable with spending the night in the same room as him without letting Mr. Man know.  So Wednesday morning I ask his friend if Mr. Man can go.

Well Mr. Man out of the blue wanted to see me after work Wednesday.  We played golf and lazied around in my room.  I had finally brought up the AC trip.  Apparently after asking his friend if I could bring Mr. Man he had went on ahead and asked him.  I guess it would have sounded better coming from him than me. 

Mr. Man told me that he wanted me to include him more in my life.  I told him that I can only limit him in my life because of the sheer fact that he doesn't own me.  Look, don't get me wrong I might come off as abrassive and secretive but the fact is that if I'm not involved with a guy in a girlfriend/boyfriend relationship, I would rather not share my life with him because I would get uneccessarily too close, thus getting attached, which in turn will leave me vulnerable.  I like him I do, I would love to eventually be in a relationship with him, but that's not what he wants right now and maybe that's not what I want either, so we should just have an understanding that we can do whatever we please such as long as it's not having sex with other people.

Well from my house he was going to start heading down to AC I had to head off to work and then drive down later that night.  He said he will miss me and missed me the Tuesday.  Now that was weird! He's never been so clingly, touchy feely, or lovey dovey.  Well I went down and met up with him.  When we went to bed he told me why he came down which was just to be with me.  I was like hell fucking right! But that was his genuine reason, so he said, and was telling me how much he loved to be with me and hold me.  What the heck am I supposed to do with that?!  I didn't say anything really.

Well he said he had to leave at six but ended up leaving at seven.  He wished he didn't have to leave me but of course work doesn't allow that so he went.  He wanted to see me again later that night.

So yeah last night I got off of work late.  I had a rough night with a handful of guys getting emotional on me because wasn't giving them all my attention.  Stupid bitches!  I had my own agenda.  Tuition is needed and I am broke! Well somewhat broke.  So I was busy all night.  One guy made me feel like crap.  I know that in a gogo bar everything that is said and done inside the bar should never be taken seriously.  But I just was so irritated by others that this guy pushed the last button.  He was bringing me down because I worked in a place like that.  I know that I'm smarter than all this but concidering my schedule this is the only thing that will accomodate my schedule.  Well I went to the bathroom and I cried a little.  Of course every now and then I get mad at these jerk offs that try to touch me or try to win me over, criticise me or put me down, give me an attitude or just plain ignore me.  I hate it at times I do, but I just had to wipe the tears and get back out there with a smile on my face because that's life and you do what you have to just to get by.  I won't be there forever at least as a mistreated employee.  So there were no worries after that.  A number of shots after that.

I drove down to Mr. Mans and I got there like before three.  He had sent me a text with him leaving for work at six.  I got in bed and we just layed there.  I was all over him and vice versa.  That perhaps was a mistake because I was tired and he wanted some.  I had forgotten that while working I thought of giving him a full body massage so I did.  But he still wanted some.  I ended up telling him that maybe not since we'd have to wake up in three hours.  HIS INGENIOUS COMMENT WAS:  I THINK I'D CUM FAST.  That's where I got mad.  He knew something was wrong and wanted to know what's up.  Now don't get me wrong again.  At any opportunity where I can get some with a guy I like and am comfortable with I have no problems jumping on the band wagon and doing it.  BUT I WAS SOO FREAKING TIRED! After pathetically driving from AC back to my house going 55 because I got a flat and was using a spare.  Even with the events that I went through prior too the AC trip.  Working that night and driving down to his house.  Yeah I have every right to be tired! But to me it seemed that he didn't give two shits.

Well all this was said but he told me that all I had to say was that I was tired and it's okay.  He says that he knows I had a long day and that it was really okay in his nice sweet voice.  But I barked back and told him that he didn't act like he understood because he said "I THINK I CAN CUM FAST".  What is that?!  So I just kept quiet and shut up.

Soon enough he woke me up and I had no freaking clue what was going on.  I somehow managed to drive home without stopping.  Went into my house, got into the covers of my bed and fell asleep.  Now that felt good! Coming home to your bed and feeling the comfort of it all.  Needless to say I was about two hours late for work today and now typing for all of you out there.  This weekend should be the best and perhaps the last of my joy ride because school will be starting up tuesday.  Will I still have Mr. Man or will this summer fling come to an end? If I wasn't very well tired I'd probably give a shit to write a comment about that.  But I guess this is it.

Ciao Bebe!