Did She Know?

 

The homework she didn’t bother to do

Did she know she wouldn’t be there to hand it in?

The book on the shelf, a bookmark in the middle

Did she care that she’d never finish it?

 

Weekend pans she made with friends

Did she know she wouldn’t get there?

The half hearted wave as her friend went home

Did either of them think it was a final goodbye?

 

When she woke up that morning, threw the covers on the floor

Did she know that it didn’t matter is she picked them up or not?

Did she know she wouldn’t ever wake up again?

Was she glad about it? Or just relieved?

 

As she swallowed the pills

Did she wonder is she was making a mistake?

Or was she so desperate for the pain to be over

That she just didn’t care any more?