From:  "Rebecca L" email: [email protected]
Date:  Sat Mar 10, 2001  6:32 pm
Subject:  fic: poem: "Now"

 
PLEASE DO NOT POST THIS UNDER ANY TERMS. I HAVE GIVEN RUBIE-CHAN EXCLUSIVES 
TO THIS PIECE

+hugs Rubie+

Full disclaimers
Gods I hope this one turns out okay.


Now

1.
Life filter through the budding leaves,
	Golden passing, Golden gone,
	Press the silver upon my dying crown
You open your hands; eyes closed, mind opened: Is there a way to catch this 
moment?
Please do not invent what it precious, lover
I cannot protect you from that.

I waste to dust and stone as you wander
	Older lovers make their dreamy cries
	I cannot live like you; my hands are drawn for the blade: that is there 
only beauty
		Please, let me fade with the cracking of the first lights
Please, just close your mind and trust me.

Dawn sees we two as we dance. Why must we seem so vulgar?
	Fingers touch as we pull aside, laughter stopped.
Please do not look at me!
Sister night attacks and destroys my face. I lick her fingers in gratitude.
I am a slave to all that is golden, I am a slave to all gods.

Comfort is the demon that pounds on my door at night: please keep the wake 
with me!
	The gods bless the holy one�s slumber; they cradle the dying miracle
	You know I am not the beast you search for: I can hate
		My body longs for all that is living, claws for fingers
		You bleed every time I touch you

Innocent blood pool and cake;
Sketch me a portrait of my sins! I want to believe!
No, they scream.  You life was the sacrifice.
	Trust the beauty, trust with faith
	Lover, I am proven unworthy again
Why am I always the taker?

2.
It takes all bodies to finish the ending.
Please let me hold you; please let me know
	I�ve never seen my stars with another�s eyes. I am not eternity.
	Blind me, lover; I need no more.

Your eyes contain the forever garden:
	Gentle green dancing with its lover Red
Shake your pretty hair and blow me a kiss
I feel I am intruding once again

My feelings are the ocean beyond: Asturia�s gods, and Freid�s temples.
	Protect the seas and the skies! Save where the dying slumbers!
The earth is all that is worthless.
		Colors fade in the end, pull back and disappear.
		Let them burn while they can; Let the fires flicker in the wind
			They shall not last the passing

Let their words burn in the throat like the sweetest wine. Please intoxicate 
me!
	I need to know that I exist for nothing else.
I watched, as sensations become familiar air.



3.
The spirits surround us; they coo their meaningless babble.
You who are innocent could only respond
Only they know that goodbyes are meaningless,
	I am carried; I am touched. I let my body become the vessel
As you move away, my eyes opened:  I can see through yours no longer
Trust me, lover. Remember this:
	Now is never forever.