| Amy's Story |
| You're just a little girl now, Amy But some day you will be grown You'll have to face tough choices And sometimes you'll be alone But I'll always be your mother And you, my little girl, I'll live my life around you And you'll always be my world I can't promise you princes and ponies And I can't give you all the new toys But I'll try my best to make you happy And fill your life with joys I'm just trying to keep you safe, Amy It's a big, scary world out that door But if you need me to back off I'll let you spread your wings and soar Amy, dream as if you'll live forever But live as though you'll die today Take a chance, it's now or never Don't lose hope, it'll be okay The only difference between falling and failing Is whether or not you choose to stand The only difference between stalling and prevailing Is if you are willing to stick to the plan No matter what they tell you Remember, you are strong Just because they don't believe you It doesn't mean that you are wrong They used to say a man won't fly He'll never make it to the stars Well, now we know that isn't true We've already gone that far We didn't get where we are now By following the norm We wouldn't ever take a chance If we decided to conform Galileo found the stars above And Columbus dared the sea If it wasn't for those few dreamers Where in the world would be now be I can't live your life for you, my dear There are choices you must make alone I put all my faith in your decisions But there's things I just can't condone I can't let you stay out all hours of night Or spend all your time with that guy You need to get your priorities straight If you want to keep flying high That boy, he's bad news, he's not your type He's violent, he's controlling, Amy this guy's really scary You loved, you lost, and then you paid He gave you grief, but you still stayed One hit, you leave, don't wait for more Just leave, no matter what he swore You should have left him way back when Now here's your chance, don't miss it again You thought you loved him, now you know It isn't worth it; now, just go You don't need him, not in the least The pain he gives, it hasn't ceased Don't stay with him for any aim Forget his words, don't take the blame You've earned much more than he can give Amy, stop hiding there, it's time to live Out there's a life that you deserve It's time to go, you have the nerve Ready to leave, it's time to pack Keep walking now, do not look back A few more steps and then you're free Out there life's better, just wait you'll see He says this while beating you, explain to me how? He wants to control you, he wants you to scare What's there to get? You can't even stand Get out while you can, this is a dangerous game Amy, this isn't about your father and me We chose separate ways because it was best for all three The issue is you and the danger that's near Unless you take action you'll be living in fear If he gets control, he won't lets you go You won't have a chance, it'll be like death row The only hope you'll have is to end all your pain You have your life to loose and nothing to gain I cannot help you if you won't let me You are my daughter I won't walk away |
| Mommy, I'm a big girl now Stop following me around I can take care of myself now, Mom I don't need you to hold my ground It's okay when the boys pull my pigtails It's not really hurting my hair No, Mommy, don't go tell the teacher I'm mean to them back when you're not there Mom, you've got to let me live my own life Please, let me have a little fun I can't live inside this cage all day I need a little room to run Thanks for understanding, Mom You know, it's tough to be a teen Sometimes I go through the motions I feel like just a machine Sometimes it's like I'm a no one No one cares if I live or I die Sometimes it's like there's no reason No reason even to try You've always said to do my best But what if it's not good enough You've always said life would be hard for us two But I never thought it could be this tough How do you keep going When the world's falling down at your feet How do you stop yourself from wrong doing From the urge to lie, steal, and cheat It's easy for you to tell me to be strong It's easy to say that I'm right You're not the one who needs to belong You're not the one putting up the fight You don't have to face all the students When you try to follow your own mind There is never a chance to repent That's not how the system's designed You say that about all of them, you just want to gripe Mom, just shut up, he's the one I'm going to marry For once in my life I have someone who needs me For once, unafraid I can go where life leads me For once in my life I won't let fear hurt me For once I have someone I know won't desert me For once in my life I'm not alone any longer For once, the pain's gone And I know I am stronger For once in my life I won't be afraid For once I am sure The love will not fade For once in my life I know love without end For once, by a miracle I have found a true friend For once in my life I have someone who needs me For once, unafraid I can go where life leads me He said he loved me, I can't leave him now He needs me to help him, he needs me to care You don't know how it is, you don't understand It's not all his fault, I'm party to blame Just leave me alone, I don't care what you say You don't know the half, so just go away I won't run away, I won't be like you You gave up on your marriage, I won't do it too I don't want your help, please just forget me I am grown up now, Mom, I don't want you to stay One day I just decided I couldn't take it any more So I packed up my stuff and I walked out the door But he was waiting for me and he won't let me go You were right when you said he would keep his control I finally figured a way to escape from my fate I can't just leave now, it's already too late So I made my decision, I put my blade to my wrist I couldn't survive, so now I cease to exist Mom, it isn't your fault, you did raise me right I chose to battle the odds, and I lost the fight So I yield to my destiny, I submit to my doom My blood's growing cold, it will all be over soon I'm a little light headed, but finally I am free He can't stop my decision, he can't control me Mommy, don't worry, I feel no more pain It's finally over, I'm released from my chain Mommy, I love you, please do not cry Know that I love you, as I lay here and die I'm sorry for the pain I've inflicted on you I know you've always loved me... know that I love you too Shed no tears for me, my mother most dear Remember I am not dead, I'm just sleeping here I'm no longer afraid, I'm no longer alone Finally, I am at peace I am safe . . . I am home |
| This was my junior year forensics OPP, which is a 10-minute speech that is usually given as a story in the first-person. I put a different twist on it, and took bits and pieces of my other works, ending with the story of Amy. I only performed it a few times, but it was received well, and even made a judge cry once. A mother's love is something I don't have the experience to describe, but I can relate a daughter's mistakes and her regrets. More importantly, I can speak of her gratitude and her love for the woman who created her--in every way, shape, and form. |
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