I seriously hate food, I always have problems with it, thats why i became a vegitarian. If I see hair,bugs, flies or nats when i am eating i get realy sick and start to hack.. i seriously almost puke everytime. and then i am ruined for the rest of the day, I wont eat anything.. I can just be sitting there and i'll think that there is a hair, bug, or bone.. in my food and I get realy sick , over the years I have found seomthing that helps me out.. when i start to hack I grab something sweet, candy bar, apple, ect... (I know its soooo in my head..lol) sweets help cause its never done me wrong.. it takes me to a happy place.. I am tricking my mind and body.. it works great for me..
Today I found a peace of hair in my potatoe salad, god yuck..lol it was the closest i have ever been to actualy throwing up junks.. i was spitting the stomache juices..thats how bad it was.. till i went crazy searching for something sweet.. i finaly found an apple in my lunch box... I ate the apple as fast as i could and didnt dare look at the potatoe salad.. god it took forever this time to calm down.. thats the first time i ever panicked.. I hate being like this.. I realy wish i didnt have to eat food..lol
"I hate that I can't eat what I love because of some stupid phobia" |
