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ANNE
OF GREEN GABLES
by
Lucy Maud Montgomery
Table of Contents CHAPTER I Mrs.
Rachel Lynde Is Surprised CHAPTER II Matthew Cuthbert Is Surprised CHAPTER III Marilla
Cuthbert Is Surprised CHAPTER IV Morning at Green Gables CHAPTER V Anne's History CHAPTER
VI Marilla Makes Up Her Mind CHAPTER VII Anne Says Her Prayers CHAPTER VIII Anne's
Bringing-Up Is Begun CHAPTER IX Mrs. Rachel Lynde Is Properly Horrified CHAPTER X Anne's
Apology CHAPTER XI Anne's Impressions of Sunday School CHAPTER XII A Solemn Vow and
Promise CHAPTER XIII The Delights of Anticipation CHAPTER XIV Anne's Confession CHAPTER XV
A Tempest in the School Teapot CHAPTER XVI Diana Is Invited to Tea with Tragic Results
CHAPTER XVII A New Interest in Life CHAPTER XVIII Anne to the Rescue CHAPTER XIX A Concert
a Catastrophe and a Confession CHAPTER XX A Good Imagination Gone Wrong CHAPTER XXI A New
Departure in Flavorings CHAPTER XXII Anne is Invited Out to Tea CHAPTER XXIII Anne Comes
to Grief in an Affair of Honor CHAPTER XXIV Miss Stacy and Her Pupils Get Up a Concert
CHAPTER XXV Matthew Insists on Puffed Sleeves CHAPTER XXVI The Story Club Is Formed
CHAPTER XXVII Vanity and Vexation of Spirit CHAPTER XXVIII An Unfortunate Lily Maid
CHAPTER XXIX An Epoch in Anne's Life CHAPTER XXX The Queens Class Is Organized CHAPTER
XXXI Where the Brook and River Meet CHAPTER XXXII The Pass List Is Out CHAPTER XXXIII The
Hotel Concert CHAPTER XXXIV A Queen's Girl CHAPTER XXXV The Winter at Queen's CHAPTER
XXXVI The Glory and the Dream CHAPTER XXXVII The Reaper Whose Name Is Death CHAPTER
XXXVIII The Bend in the road Anne of Green Gables CHAPTER
I Mrs. Rachel Lynde is Surprised
- Mrs. Rachel Lynde lived just where the Avonlea main road dipped down
into a little hollow, fringed with alders and ladies' eardrops and traversed by a brook
that had its source away back in the woods of the old Cuthbert place; it was reputed to be
an intricate, headlong brook in its earlier course through those woods, with dark secrets
of pool and cascade; but by the time it reached Lynde's Hollow it was a quiet,
well-conducted little stream, for not even a brook could run past Mrs. Rachel Lynde's door
without due regard for decency and decorum; it probably was conscious that Mrs. Rachel was
sitting at her window, keeping a sharp eye on everything that passed, from brooks and
children up, and that if she noticed anything odd or out of place she would never rest
until she had ferreted out the whys and wherefores thereof.
- There are plenty of people in Avonlea and out of it, who can attend
closely to their neighbor's business by dint of neglecting their own; but Mrs. Rachel
Lynde was one of those capable creatures who can manage their own concerns and those of
other folks into the bargain. She was a notable housewife; her work was always done and
well done; she "ran" the Sewing Circle, helped run the Sunday-school, and was
the strongest prop of the Church Aid Society and Foreign Missions Auxiliary. Yet with all
this Mrs. Rachel found abundant time to sit for hours at her kitchen window, knitting
"cotton warp" quilts--she had knitted sixteen of them, as Avonlea housekeepers
were wont to tell in awed voices--and keeping a sharp eye on the main road that crossed
the hollow and wound up the steep red hill beyond. Since Avonlea occupied a little
triangular peninsula jutting out into the Gulf of St. Lawrence with water on two sides of
it, anybody who went out of it or into it had to pass over that hill road and so run the
unseen gauntlet of Mrs. Rachel's all-seeing eye.
- She was sitting there one afternoon in early June. The sun was coming
in at the window warm and bright; the orchard on the slope below the house was in a bridal
flush of pinky- white bloom, hummed over by a myriad of bees. Thomas Lynde-- a meek little
man whom Avonlea people called "Rachel Lynde's husband"--was sowing his late
turnip seed on the hill field beyond the barn; and Matthew Cuthbert ought to have been
sowing his on the big red brook field away over by Green Gables. Mrs. Rachel knew that he
ought because she had heard him tell Peter Morrison the evening before in William J.
Blair's store over at Carmody that he meant to sow his turnip seed the next afternoon.
Peter had asked him, of course, for Matthew Cuthbert had never been known to volunteer
information about anything in his whole life.
- And yet here was Matthew Cuthbert, at half-past three on the afternoon
of a busy day, placidly driving over the hollow and up the hill; moreover, he wore a white
collar and his best suit of clothes, which was plain proof that he was going out of
Avonlea; and he had the buggy and the sorrel mare, which betokened that he was going a
considerable distance. Now, where was Matthew Cuthbert going and why was he going there?
- Had it been any other man in Avonlea, Mrs. Rachel, deftly putting this
and that together, might have given a pretty good guess as to both questions. But Matthew
so rarely went from home that it must be something pressing and unusual which was taking
him; he was the shyest man alive and hated to have to go among strangers or to any place
where he might have to talk. Matthew, dressed up with a white collar and driving in a
buggy, was something that didn't happen often. Mrs. Rachel, ponder as she might, could
make nothing of it and her afternoon's enjoyment was spoiled.
- "I'll just step over to Green Gables after tea and find out from
Marilla where he's gone and why," the worthy woman finally concluded. "He
doesn't generally go to town this time of year and he NEVER visits; if he'd run out of
turnip seed he wouldn't dress up and take the buggy to go for more; he wasn't driving fast
enough to be going for a doctor. Yet something must have happened since last night to
start him off. I'm clean puzzled, that's what, and I won't know a minute's peace of mind
or conscience until I know what has taken Matthew Cuthbert out of Avonlea today."
- Accordingly after tea Mrs. Rachel set out; she had not far to go; the
big, rambling, orchard-embowered house where the Cuthberts lived was a scant quarter of a
mile up the road from Lynde's Hollow. To be sure, the long lane made it a good deal
further. Matthew Cuthbert's father, as shy and silent as his son after him, had got as far
away as he possibly could from his fellow men without actually retreating into the woods
when he founded his homestead. Green Gables was built at the furthest edge of his cleared
land and there it was to this day, barely visible from the main road along which all the
other Avonlea houses were so sociably situated. Mrs. Rachel Lynde did not call living in
such a place LIVING at all.
- "It's just STAYING, that's what," she said as she stepped
along the deep-rutted, grassy lane bordered with wild rose bushes. "It's no wonder
Matthew and Marilla are both a little odd, living away back here by themselves. Trees
aren't much company, though dear knows if they were there'd be enough of them. I'd ruther
look at people. To be sure, they seem contented enough; but then, I suppose, they're used
to it. A body can get used to anything, even to being hanged, as the Irishman said."
- With this Mrs. Rachel stepped out of the lane into the backyard of
Green Gables. Very green and neat and precise was that yard, set about on one side with
great patriarchal willows and the other with prim Lombardies. Not a stray stick nor stone
was to be seen, for Mrs. Rachel would have seen it if there had been. Privately she was of
the opinion that Marilla Cuthbert swept that yard over as often as she swept her house.
One could have eaten a meal off the ground without overbrimming the proverbial peck of
dirt.
- Mrs. Rachel rapped smartly at the kitchen door and stepped in when
bidden to do so. The kitchen at Green Gables was a cheerful apartment--or would have been
cheerful if it had not been so painfully clean as to give it something of the appearance
of an unused parlor. Its windows looked east and west; through the west one, looking out
on the back yard, came a flood of mellow June sunlight; but the east one, whence you got a
glimpse of the bloom white cherry-trees in the left orchard and nodding, slender birches
down in the hollow by the brook, was greened over by a tangle of vines. Here sat Marilla
Cuthbert, when she sat at all, always slightly distrustful of sunshine, which seemed to
her too dancing and irresponsible a thing for a world which was meant to be taken
seriously; and here she sat now, knitting, and the table behind her was laid for supper.
- Mrs. Rachel, before she had fairly closed the door, had taken a mental
note of everything that was on that table. There were three plates laid, so that Marilla
must be expecting some one home with Matthew to tea; but the dishes were everyday dishes
and there was only crab-apple preserves and one kind of cake, so that the expected company
could not be any particular company. Yet what of Matthew's white collar and the sorrel
mare? Mrs. Rachel was getting fairly dizzy with this unusual mystery about quiet,
unmysterious Green Gables.
- "Good evening, Rachel," Marilla said briskly. "This is a
real fine evening, isn't it" Won't you sit down? How are all your folks?"
- Something that for lack of any other name might be called friendship
existed and always had existed between Marilla Cuthbert and Mrs. Rachel, in spite of--or
perhaps because of--their dissimilarity.
- Marilla was a tall, thin woman, with angles and without curves; her
dark hair showed some gray streaks and was always twisted up in a hard little knot behind
with two wire hairpins stuck aggressively through it. She looked like a woman of narrow
experience and rigid conscience, which she was; but there was a saving something about her
mouth which, if it had been ever so slightly developed, might have been considered
indicative of a sense of humor.
- "We're all pretty well," said Mrs. Rachel. "I was kind
of afraid YOU weren't, though, when I saw Matthew starting off today. I thought maybe he
was going to the doctor's."
- Marilla's lips twitched understandingly. She had expected Mrs. Rachel
up; she had known that the sight of Matthew jaunting off so unaccountably would be too
much for her neighbor's curiosity.
- "Oh, no, I'm quite well although I had a bad headache
yesterday," she said. "Matthew went to Bright River. We're getting a little boy
from an orphan asylum in Nova Scotia and he's coming on the train tonight."
- If Marilla had said that Matthew had gone to Bright River to meet a
kangaroo from Australia Mrs. Rachel could not have been more astonished. She was actually
stricken dumb for five seconds. It was unsupposable that Marilla was making fun of her,
but Mrs. Rachel was almost forced to suppose it.
- "Are you in earnest, Marilla?" she demanded when voice
returned to her.
- "Yes, of course," said Marilla, as if getting boys from
orphan asylums in Nova Scotia were part of the usual spring work on any well-regulated
Avonlea farm instead of being an unheard of innovation.
- Mrs. Rachel felt that she had received a severe mental jolt. She
thought in exclamation points. A boy! Marilla and Matthew Cuthbert of all people adopting
a boy! From an orphan asylum! Well, the world was certainly turning upside down! She would
be surprised at nothing after this! Nothing!
- "What on earth put such a notion into your head?" she
demanded disapprovingly.
- This had been done without here advice being asked, and must perforce
be disapproved.
- "Well, we've been thinking about it for some time--all winter in
fact," returned Marilla. "Mrs. Alexander Spencer was up here one day before
Christmas and she said she was going to get a little girl from the asylum over in Hopeton
in the spring. Her cousin lives there and Mrs. Spencer has visited here and knows all
about it. So Matthew and I have talked it over off and on ever since. We thought we'd get
a boy. Matthew is getting up in years, you know--he's sixty-- and he isn't so spry as he
once was. His heart troubles him a good deal. And you know how desperate hard it's got to
be to get hired help. There's never anybody to be had but those stupid, half-grown little
French boys; and as soon as you do get one broke into your ways and taught something he's
up and off to the lobster canneries or the States. At first Matthew suggested getting a
Home boy. But I said `no' flat to that. `They may be all right--I'm not saying they're
not--but no London street Arabs for me,' I said. `Give me a native born at least. There'll
be a risk, no matter who we get. But I'll feel easier in my mind and sleep sounder at
nights if we get a born Canadian.' So in the end we decided to ask Mrs. Spencer to pick us
out one when she went over to get her little girl. We heard last week she was going, so we
sent her word by Richard Spencer's folks at Carmody to bring us a smart, likely boy of
about ten or eleven. We decided that would be the best age--old enough to be of some use
in doing chores right off and young enough to be trained up proper. We mean to give him a
good home and schooling. We had a telegram from Mrs. Alexander Spencer today--the mail-man
brought it from the station-- saying they were coming on the five-thirty train tonight. So
Matthew went to Bright River to meet him. Mrs. Spencer will drop him off there. Of course
she goes on to White Sands station herself"
- Mrs. Rachel prided herself on always speaking her mind; she proceeded
to speak it now, having adjusted her mental attitude to this amazing piece of news.
- "Well, Marilla, I'll just tell you plain that I think you're doing
a mighty foolish thing--a risky thing, that's what. You don't know what you're getting.
You're bringing a strange child into your house and home and you don't know a single thing
about him nor what his disposition is like nor what sort of parents he had nor how he's
likely to turn out. Why, it was only last week I read in the paper how a man and his wife
up west of the Island took a boy out of an orphan asylum and he set fire to the house at
night--set it ON PURPOSE, Marilla--and nearly burnt them to a crisp in their beds. And I
know another case where an adopted boy used to suck the eggs--they couldn't break him of
it. If you had asked my advice in the matter--which you didn't do, Marilla--I'd have said
for mercy's sake not to think of such a thing, that's what."
- This Job's comforting seemed neither to offend nor to alarm Marilla.
She knitted steadily on.
- "I don't deny there's something in what you say, Rachel. I've had
some qualms myself. But Matthew was terrible set on it. I could see that, so I gave in.
It's so seldom Matthew sets his mind on anything that when he does I always feel it's my
duty to give in. And as for the risk, there's risks in pretty near everything a body does
in this world. There's risks in people's having children of their own if it comes to
that--they don't always turn out well. And then Nova Scotia is right close to the Island.
It isn't as if we were getting him from England or the States. He can't be much different
from ourselves."
- "Well, I hope it will turn out all right," said Mrs. Rachel
in a tone that plainly indicated her painful doubts. "Only don't say I didn't warn
you if he burns Green Gables down or puts strychnine in the well--I heard of a case over
in New Brunswick where an orphan asylum child did that and the whole family died in
fearful agonies. Only, it was a girl in that instance."
- "Well, we're not getting a girl," said Marilla, as if
poisoning wells were a purely feminine accomplishment and not to be dreaded in the case of
a boy. "I'd never dream of taking a girl to bring up. I wonder at Mrs. Alexander
Spencer for doing it. But there, SHE wouldn't shrink from adopting a whole orphan asylum
if she took it into her head."
- Mrs. Rachel would have liked to stay until Matthew came home with his
imported orphan. But reflecting that it would be a good two hours at least before his
arrival she concluded to go up the road to Robert Bell's and tell the news. It would
certainly make a sensation second to none, and Mrs. Rachel dearly loved to make a
sensation. So she took herself away, somewhat to Marilla's relief, for the latter felt her
doubts and fears reviving under the influence of Mrs. Rachel's pessimism.
- "Well, of all things that ever were or will be!" ejaculated
Mrs. Rachel when she was safely out in the lane. "It does really seem as if I must be
dreaming. Well, I'm sorry for that poor young one and no mistake. Matthew and Marilla
don't know anything about children and they'll expect him to be wiser and steadier that
his own grandfather, if so be's he ever had a grandfather, which is doubtful. It seems
uncanny to think of a child at Green Gables somehow; there's never been one there, for
Matthew and Marilla were grown up when the new house was built--if they ever WERE
children, which is hard to believe when one looks at them. I wouldn't be in that orphan's
shoes for anything. My, but I pity him, that's what."
- So said Mrs. Rachel to the wild rose bushes out of the fulness of her
heart; but if she could have seen the child who was waiting patiently at the Bright River
station at that very moment her pity would have been still deeper and more profound.
- CHAPTER II
- Matthew Cuthbert is surprised
- Matthew Cuthbert and the sorrel mare jogged comfortably over the eight
miles to Bright River. It was a pretty road, running along between snug farmsteads, with
now and again a bit of balsamy fir wood to drive through or a hollow where wild plums hung
out their filmy bloom. The air was sweet with the breath of many apple orchards and the
meadows sloped away in the distance to horizon mists of pearl and purple; while
- "The little birds sang as if it were The one day of summer in all
the year."
- Matthew enjoyed the drive after his own fashion, except during the
moments when he met women and had to nod to them-- for in Prince Edward island you are
supposed to nod to all and sundry you meet on the road whether you know them or not.
- Matthew dreaded all women except Marilla and Mrs. Rachel; he had an
uncomfortable feeling that the mysterious creatures were secretly laughing at him. He may
have been quite right in thinking so, for he was an odd-looking personage, with an
ungainly figure and long iron-gray hair that touched his stooping shoulders, and a full,
soft brown beard which he had worn ever since he was twenty. In fact, he had looked at
twenty very much as he looked at sixty, lacking a little of the grayness.
- When he reached Bright River there was no sign of any train; he thought
he was too early, so he tied his horse in the yard of the small Bright River hotel and
went over to the station house. The long platform was almost deserted; the only living
creature in sight being a girl who was sitting on a pile of shingles at the extreme end.
Matthew, barely noting that it WAS a girl, sidled past her as quickly as possible without
looking at her. Had he looked he could hardly have failed to notice the tense rigidity and
expectation of her attitude and expression. She was sitting there waiting for something or
somebody and, since sitting and waiting was the only thing to do just then, she sat and
waited with all her might and main.
- Matthew encountered the stationmaster locking up the ticket office
preparatory to going home for supper, and asked him if the five-thirty train would soon be
along.
- "The five-thirty train has been in and gone half an hour
ago," answered that brisk official. "But there was a passenger dropped off for
you--a little girl. She's sitting out there on the shingles. I asked her to go into the
ladies' waiting room, but she informed me gravely that she preferred to stay outside.
`There was more scope for imagination,' she said. She's a case, I should say."
- "I'm not expecting a girl," said Matthew blankly. "It's
a boy I've come for. He should be here. Mrs. Alexander Spencer was to bring him over from
Nova Scotia for me."
- The stationmaster whistled.
- "Guess there's some mistake," he said. "Mrs. Spencer
came off the train with that girl and gave her into my charge. Said you and your sister
were adopting her from an orphan asylum and that you would be along for her presently.
That's all I know about it--and I haven't got any more orphans concealed hereabouts."
- "I don't understand," said Matthew helplessly, wishing that
Marilla was at hand to cope with the situation.
- "Well, you'd better question the girl," said the station-
master carelessly. "I dare say she'll be able to explain-- she's got a tongue of her
own, that's certain. Maybe they were out of boys of the brand you wanted."
- He walked jauntily away, being hungry, and the unfortunate Matthew was
left to do that which was harder for him than bearding a lion in its den--walk up to a
girl--a strange girl--an orphan girl--and demand of her why she wasn't a boy. Matthew
groaned in spirit as he turned about and shuffled gently down the platform towards her.
- She had been watching him ever since he had passed her and she had her
eyes on him now. Matthew was not looking at her and would not have seen what she was
really like if he had been, but an ordinary observer would have seen this: A child of
about eleven, garbed in a very short, very tight, very ugly dress of yellowish-gray
wincey. She wore a faded brown sailor hat and beneath the hat, extending down her back,
were two braids of very thick, decidedly red hair. Her face was small, white and thin,
also much freckled; her mouth was large and so were her eyes, which looked green in some
lights and moods and gray in others.
- So far, the ordinary observer; an extraordinary observer might have
seen that the chin was very pointed and pronounced; that the big eyes were full of spirit
and vivacity; that the mouth was sweet-lipped and expressive; that the forehead was broad
and full; in short, our discerning extraordinary observer might have concluded that no
commonplace soul inhabited the body of this stray woman- child of whom shy Matthew
Cuthbert was so ludicrously afraid.
- Matthew, however, was spared the ordeal of speaking first, for as soon
as she concluded that he was coming to her she stood up, grasping with one thin brown hand
the handle of a shabby, old-fashioned carpet-bag; the other she held out to him.
- "I suppose you are Mr. Matthew Cuthbert of Green Gables?" she
said in a peculiarly clear, sweet voice. "I'm very glad to see you. I was beginning
to be afraid you weren't coming for me and I was imagining all the things that might have
happened to prevent you. I had made up my mind that if you didn't come for me to-night I'd
go down the track to that big wild cherry-tree at the bend, and climb up into it to stay
all night. I wouldn't be a bit afraid, and it would be lovely to sleep in a wild
cherry-tree all white with bloom in the moonshine, don't you think? You could imagine you
were dwelling in marble halls, couldn't you? And I was quite sure you would come for me in
the morning, if you didn't to-night."
- Matthew had taken the scrawny little hand awkwardly in his; then and
there he decided what to do. He could not tell this child with the glowing eyes that there
had been a mistake; he would take her home and let Marilla do that. She couldn't be left
at Bright River anyhow, no matter what mistake had been made, so all questions and
explanations might as well be deferred until he was safely back at Green Gables.
- "I'm sorry I was late," he said shyly. "Come along. The
horse is over in the yard. Give me your bag."
- "Oh, I can carry it," the child responded cheerfully.
"It isn't heavy. I've got all my worldly goods in it, but it isn't heavy. And if it
isn't carried in just a certain way the handle pulls out--so I'd better keep it because I
know the exact knack of it. It's an extremely old carpet-bag. Oh, I'm very glad you've
come, even if it would have been nice to sleep in a wild cherry-tree. We've got to drive a
long piece, haven't we? Mrs. Spencer said it was eight miles. I'm glad because I love
driving. Oh, it seems so wonderful that I'm going to live with you and belong to you. I've
never belonged to anybody--not really. But the asylum was the worst. I've only been in it
four months, but that was enough. I don't suppose you ever were an orphan in an asylum, so
you can't possibly understand what it is like. It's worse than anything you could imagine.
Mrs. Spencer said it was wicked of me to talk like that, but I didn't mean to be wicked.
It's so easy to be wicked without knowing it, isn't it? They were good, you know--the
asylum people. But there is so little scope for the imagination in an asylum--only just in
the other orphans. It was pretty interesting to imagine things about them--to imagine that
perhaps the girl who sat next to you was really the daughter of a belted earl, who had
been stolen away from her parents in her infancy by a cruel nurse who died before she
could confess. I used to lie awake at nights and imagine things like that, because I
didn't have time in the day. I guess that's why I'm so thin--I AM dreadful thin, ain't I?
There isn't a pick on my bones. I do love to imagine I'm nice and plump, with dimples in
my elbows."
- With this Matthew's companion stopped talking, partly because she was
out of breath and partly because they had reached the buggy. Not another word did she say
until they had left the village and were driving down a steep little hill, the road part
of which had been cut so deeply into the soft soil, that the banks, fringed with blooming
wild cherry-trees and slim white birches, were several feet above their heads.
- The child put out her hand and broke off a branch of wild plum that
brushed against the side of the buggy.
- "Isn't that beautiful? What did that tree, leaning out from the
bank, all white and lacy, make you think of?" she asked.
- "Well now, I dunno," said Matthew.
- "Why, a bride, of course--a bride all in white with a lovely misty
veil. I've never seen one, but I can imagine what she would look like. I don't ever expect
to be a bride myself. I'm so homely nobody will ever want to marry me-- unless it might be
a foreign missionary. I suppose a foreign missionary mightn't be very particular. But I do
hope that some day I shall have a white dress. That is my highest ideal of earthly bliss.
I just love pretty clothes. And I've never had a pretty dress in my life that I can
remember--but of course it's all the more to look forward to, isn't it? And then I can
imagine that I'm dressed gorgeously. This morning when I left the asylum I felt so ashamed
because I had to wear this horrid old wincey dress. All the orphans had to wear them, you
know. A merchant in Hopeton last winter donated three hundred yards of wincey to the
asylum. Some people said it was because he couldn't sell it, but I'd rather believe that
it was out of the kindness of his heart, wouldn't you? When we got on the train I felt as
if everybody must be looking at me and pitying me. But I just went to work and imagined
that I had on the most beautiful pale blue silk dress--because when you ARE imagining you
might as well imagine something worth while--and a big hat all flowers and nodding plumes,
and a gold watch, and kid gloves and boots. I felt cheered up right away and I enjoyed my
trip to the Island with all my might. I wasn't a bit sick coming over in the boat. Neither
was Mrs. Spencer although she generally is. She said she hadn't time to get sick, watching
to see that I didn't fall overboard. She said she never saw the beat of me for prowling
about. But if it kept her from being seasick it's a mercy I did prowl, isn't it? And I
wanted to see everything that was to be seen on that boat, because I didn't know whether
I'd ever have another opportunity. Oh, there are a lot more cherry-trees all in bloom!
This Island is the bloomiest place. I just love it already, and I'm so glad I'm going to
live here. I've always heard that Prince Edward Island was the prettiest place in the
world, and I used to imagine I was living here, but I never really expected I would. It's
delightful when your imaginations come true, isn't it? But those red roads are so funny.
When we got into the train at Charlottetown and the red roads began to flash past I asked
Mrs. Spencer what made them red and she said she didn't know and for pity's sake not to
ask her any more questions. She said I must have asked her a thousand already. I suppose I
had, too, but how you going to find out about things if you don't ask questions? And what
DOES make the roads red?"
- "Well now, I dunno," said Matthew.
- "Well, that is one of the things to find out sometime. Isn't it
splendid to think of all the things there are to find out about? It just makes me feel
glad to be alive-- it's such an interesting world. It wouldn't be half so interesting if
we know all about everything, would it? There'd be no scope for imagination then, would
there? But am I talking too much? People are always telling me I do. Would you rather I
didn't talk? If you say so I'll stop. I can STOP when I make up my mind to it, although
it's difficult."
- Matthew, much to his own surprise, was enjoying himself. Like most
quiet folks he liked talkative people when they were willing to do the talking themselves
and did not expect him to keep up his end of it. But he had never expected to enjoy the
society of a little girl. Women were bad enough in all conscience, but little girls were
worse. He detested the way they had of sidling past him timidly, with sidewise glances, as
if they expected him to gobble them up at a mouthful if they ventured to say a word. That
was the Avonlea type of well-bred little girl. But this freckled witch was very different,
and although he found it rather difficult for his slower intelligence to keep up with her
brisk mental processes he thought that he "kind of liked her chatter." So he
said as shyly as usual:
- "Oh, you can talk as much as you like. I don't mind."
- "Oh, I'm so glad. I know you and I are going to get along together
fine. It's such a relief to talk when one wants to and not be told that children should be
seen and not heard. I've had that said to me a million times if I have once. And people
laugh at me because I use big words. But if you have big ideas you have to use big words
to express them, haven't you?"
- "Well now, that seems reasonable," said Matthew.
- "Mrs. Spencer said that my tongue must be hung in the middle. But
it isn't--it's firmly fastened at one end. Mrs. Spencer said your place was named Green
Gables. I asked her all about it. And she said there were trees all around it. I was
gladder than ever. I just love trees. And there weren't any at all about the asylum, only
a few poor weeny-teeny things out in front with little whitewashed cagey things about
them. They just looked like orphans themselves, those trees did. It used to make me want
to cry to look at them. I used to say to them, `Oh, you POOR little things! If you were
out in a great big woods with other trees all around you and little mosses and Junebells
growing over your roots and a brook not far away and birds singing in you branches, you
could grow, couldn't you? But you can't where you are. I know just exactly how you feel,
little trees.' I felt sorry to leave them behind this morning. You do get so attached to
things like that, don't you? Is there a brook anywhere near Green Gables? I forgot to ask
Mrs. Spencer that."
- "Well now, yes, there's one right below the house."
- "Fancy. It's always been one of my dreams to live near a brook. I
never expected I would, though. Dreams don't often come true, do they? Wouldn't it be nice
if they did? But just now I feel pretty nearly perfectly happy. I can't feel exactly
perfectly happy because--well, what color would you call this?"
- She twitched one of her long glossy braids over her thin shoulder and
held it up before Matthew's eyes. Matthew was not used to deciding on the tints of ladies'
tresses, but in this case there couldn't be much doubt.
- "It's red, ain't it?" he said.
- The girl let the braid drop back with a sigh that seemed to come from
her very toes and to exhale forth all the sorrows of the ages.
- "Yes, it's red," she said resignedly. "Now you see why I
can't be perfectly happy. Nobody could who has red hair. I don't mind the other things so
much--the freckles and the green eyes and my skinniness. I can imagine them away. I can
imagine that I have a beautiful rose-leaf complexion and lovely starry violet eyes. But I
CANNOT imagine that red hair away. I do my best. I think to myself, `Now my hair is a
glorious black, black as the raven's wing.' But all the time I KNOW it is just plain red
and it breaks my heart. It will be my lifelong sorrow. I read of a girl once in a novel
who had a lifelong sorrow but it wasn't red hair. Her hair was pure gold rippling back
from her alabaster brow. What is an alabaster brow? I never could find out. Can you tell
me?"
- "Well now, I'm afraid I can't," said Matthew, who was getting
a little dizzy. He felt as he had once felt in his rash youth when another boy had enticed
him on the merry-go- round at a picnic.
- "Well, whatever it was it must have been something nice because
she was divinely beautiful. Have you ever imagined what it must feel like to be divinely
beautiful?"
- "Well now, no, I haven't," confessed Matthew ingenuously.
- "I have, often. Which would you rather be if you had the
choice--divinely beautiful or dazzlingly clever or angelically good?"
- "Well now, I--I don't know exactly."
- "Neither do I. I can never decide. But it doesn't make much real
difference for it isn't likely I'll ever be either. It's certain I'll never be angelically
good. Mrs. Spencer says--oh, Mr. Cuthbert! Oh, Mr. Cuthbert!! Oh, Mr. Cuthbert!!!"
- That was not what Mrs. Spencer had said; neither had the child tumbled
out of the buggy nor had Matthew done anything astonishing. They had simply rounded a
curve in the road and found themselves in the "Avenue."
- The "Avenue," so called by the Newbridge people, was a
stretch of road four or five hundred yards long, completely arched over with huge,
wide-spreading apple-trees, planted years ago by an eccentric old farmer. Overhead was one
long canopy of snowy fragrant bloom. Below the boughs the air was full of a purple
twilight and far ahead a glimpse of painted sunset sky shone like a great rose window at
the end of a cathedral aisle.
- Its beauty seemed to strike the child dumb. She leaned back in the
buggy, her thin hands clasped before her, her face lifted rapturously to the white
splendor above. Even when they had passed out and were driving down the long slope to
Newbridge she never moved or spoke. Still with rapt face she gazed afar into the sunset
west, with eyes that saw visions trooping splendidly across that glowing background.
Through Newbridge, a bustling little village where dogs barked at them and small boys
hooted and curious faces peered from the windows, they drove, still in silence. When three
more miles had dropped away behind them the child had not spoken. She could keep silence,
it was evident, as energetically as she could talk.
- "I guess you're feeling pretty tired and hungry," Matthew
ventured to say at last, accounting for her long visitation of dumbness with the only
reason he could think of. "But we haven't very far to go now--only another
mile."
- She came out of her reverie with a deep sigh and looked at him with the
dreamy gaze of a soul that had been wondering afar, star-led.
- "Oh, Mr. Cuthbert," she whispered, "that place we came
through--that white place--what was it?"
- "Well now, you must mean the Avenue," said Matthew after a
few moments' profound reflection. "It is a kind of pretty place."
- "Pretty? Oh, PRETTY doesn't seem the right word to use. Nor
beautiful, either. They don't go far enough. Oh, it was wonderful--wonderful. It's the
first thing I ever saw that couldn't be improved upon by imagination. It just satisfies me
here"--she put one hand on her breast--"it made a queer funny ache and yet it
was a pleasant ache. Did you ever have an ache like that, Mr. Cuthbert?"
- "Well now, I just can't recollect that I ever had."
- "I have it lots of time--whenever I see anything royally
beautiful. But they shouldn't call that lovely place the Avenue. There is no meaning in a
name like that. They should call it--let me see--the White Way of Delight. Isn't that a
nice imaginative name? When I don't like the name of a place or a person I always imagine
a new one and always think of them so. There was a girl at the asylum whose name was
Hepzibah Jenkins, but I always imagined her as Rosalia DeVere. Other people may call that
place the Avenue, but I shall always call it the White Way of Delight. Have we really only
another mile to go before we get home? I'm glad and I'm sorry. I'm sorry because this
drive has been so pleasant and I'm always sorry when pleasant things end. Something still
pleasanter may come after, but you can never be sure. And it's so often the case that it
isn't pleasanter. That has been my experience anyhow. But I'm glad to think of getting
home. You see, I've never had a real home since I can remember. It gives me that pleasant
ache again just to think of coming to a really truly home. Oh, isn't that pretty!"
- They had driven over the crest of a hill. Below them was a pond,
looking almost like a river so long and winding was it. A bridge spanned it midway and
from there to its lower end, where an amber-hued belt of sand-hills shut it in from the
dark blue gulf beyond, the water was a glory of many shifting hues--the most spiritual
shadings of crocus and rose and ethereal green, with other elusive tintings for which no
name has ever been found. Above the bridge the pond ran up into fringing groves of fir and
maple and lay all darkly translucent in their wavering shadows. Here and there a wild plum
leaned out from the bank like a white-clad girl tip-toeing to her own reflection. From the
marsh at the head of the pond came the clear, mournfully-sweet chorus of the frogs. There
was a little gray house peering around a white apple orchard on a slope beyond and,
although it was not yet quite dark, a light was shining from one of its windows.
- "That's Barry's pond," said Matthew.
- "Oh, I don't like that name, either. I shall call it--let me
see--the Lake of Shining Waters. Yes, that is the right name for it. I know because of the
thrill. When I hit on a name that suits exactly it gives me a thrill. Do things ever give
you a thrill?"
- Matthew ruminated.
- "Well now, yes. It always kind of gives me a thrill to see them
ugly white grubs that spade up in the cucumber beds. I hate the look of them."
- "Oh, I don't think that can be exactly the same kind of a thrill.
Do you think it can? There doesn't seem to be much connection between grubs and lakes of
shining waters, does there? But why do other people call it Barry's pond?"
- "I reckon because Mr. Barry lives up there in that house. Orchard
Slope's the name of his place. If it wasn't for that big bush behind it you could see
Green Gables from here. But we have to go over the bridge and round by the road, so it's
near half a mile further."
- "Has Mr. Barry any little girls? Well, not so very little
either--about my size."
- "He's got one about eleven. Her name is Diana."
- "Oh!" with a long indrawing of breath. "What a perfectly
lovely name!"
- "Well now, I dunno. There's something dreadful heathenish about
it, seems to me. I'd ruther Jane or Mary or some sensible name like that. But when Diana
was born there was a schoolmaster boarding there and they gave him the naming of her and
he called her Diana."
- "I wish there had been a schoolmaster like that around when I was
born, then. Oh, here we are at the bridge. I'm going to shut my eyes tight. I'm always
afraid going over bridges. I can't help imagining that perhaps just as we get to the
middle, they'll crumple up like a jack-knife and nip us. So I shut my eyes. But I always
have to open them for all when I think we're getting near the middle. Because, you see, if
the bridge DID crumple up I'd want to SEE it crumple. What a jolly rumble it makes! I
always like the rumble part of it. Isn't it splendid there are so many things to like in
this world? There we're over. Now I'll look back. Good night, dear Lake of Shining Waters.
I always say good night to the things I love, just as I would to people I think they like
it. That water looks as if it was smiling at me."
- When they had driven up the further hill and around a corner Matthew
said:
- "We're pretty near home now. That's Green Gables over--"
- "Oh, don't tell me," she interrupted breathlessly, catching
at his partially raised arm and shutting her eyes that she might not see his gesture.
"Let me guess. I'm sure I'll guess right."
- She opened her eyes and looked about her. They were on the crest of a
hill. The sun had set some time since, but the landscape was still clear in the mellow
afterlight. To the west a dark church spire rose up against a marigold sky. Below was a
little valley and beyond a long, gently-rising slope with snug farmsteads scattered along
it. From one to another the child's eyes darted, eager and wistful. At last they lingered
on one away to the left, far back from the road, dimly white with blossoming trees in the
twilight of the surrounding woods. Over it, in the stainless southwest sky, a great
crystal-white star was shining like a lamp of guidance and promise.
- "That's it, isn't it?" she said, pointing.
- Matthew slapped the reins on the sorrel's back delightedly.
- "Well now, you've guessed it! But I reckon Mrs. Spencer described
it so's you could tell."
- "No, she didn't--really she didn't. All she said might just as
well have been about most of those other places. I hadn't any real idea what it looked
like. But just as soon as I saw it I felt it was home. Oh, it seems as if I must be in a
dream. Do you know, my arm must be black and blue from the elbow up, for I've pinched
myself so many times today. Every little while a horrible sickening feeling would come
over me and I'd be so afraid it was all a dream. Then I'd pinch myself to see if it was
real--until suddenly I remembered that even supposing it was only a dream I'd better go on
dreaming as long as I could; so I stopped pinching. But it IS real and we're nearly
home."
- With a sigh of rapture she relapsed into silence. Matthew stirred
uneasily. He felt glad that it would be Marilla and not he who would have to tell this
waif of the world that the home she longed for was not to be hers after all. They drove
over Lynde's Hollow, where it was already quite dark, but not so dark that Mrs. Rachel
could not see them from her window vantage, and up the hill and into the long lane of
Green Gables. By the time they arrived at the house Matthew was shrinking from the
approaching revelation with an energy he did not understand. It was not of Marilla or
himself he was thinking of the trouble this mistake was probably going to make for them,
but of the child's disappointment. When he thought of that rapt light being quenched in
her eyes he had an uncomfortable feeling that he was going to assist at murdering
something--much the same feeling that came over him when he had to kill a lamb or calf or
any other innocent little creature.
- The yard was quite dark as they turned into it and the poplar leaves
were rustling silkily all round it.
- "Listen to the trees talking in their sleep," she whispered,
as he lifted her to the ground. "What nice dreams they must have!"
- Then, holding tightly to the carpet-bag which contained "all her
worldly goods," she followed him into the house.
- CHAPTER III
- Marilla Cuthbert is Surprised
- Marilla came briskly forward as Matthew opened the door. But when her
eyes fell of the odd little figure in the stiff, ugly dress, with the long braids of red
hair and the eager, luminous eyes, she stopped short in amazement.
- "Matthew Cuthbert, who's that?" she ejaculated. "Where
is the boy?"
- "There wasn't any boy," said Matthew wretchedly. "There
was only HER."
- He nodded at the child, remembering that he had never even asked her
name.
- "No boy! But there MUST have been a boy," insisted Marilla.
"We sent word to Mrs. Spencer to bring a boy."
- "Well, she didn't. She brought HER. I asked the station- master.
And I had to bring her home. She couldn't be left there, no matter where the mistake had
come in."
- "Well, this is a pretty piece of business!" ejaculated
Marilla.
- During this dialogue the child had remained silent, her eyes roving
from one to the other, all the animation fading out of her face. Suddenly she seemed to
grasp the full meaning of what had been said. Dropping her precious carpet-bag she sprang
forward a step and clasped her hands.
- "You don't want me!" she cried. "You don't want me
because I'm not a boy! I might have expected it. Nobody ever did want me. I might have
known it was all too beautiful to last. I might have known nobody really did want me. Oh,
what shall I do? I'm going to burst into tears!"
- Burst into tears she did. Sitting down on a chair by the table,
flinging her arms out upon it, and burying her face in them, she proceeded to cry
stormily. Marilla and Matthew looked at each other deprecatingly across the stove. Neither
of them knew what to say or do. Finally Marilla stepped lamely into the breach.
- "Well, well, there's no need to cry so about it."
- "Yes, there IS need!" The child raised her head quickly,
revealing a tear-stained face and trembling lips. "YOU would cry, too, if you were an
orphan and had come to a place you thought was going to be home and found that they didn't
want you because you weren't a boy. Oh, this is the most TRAGICAL thing that ever happened
to me!"
- Something like a reluctant smile, rather rusty from long disuse,
mellowed Marilla's grim expression.
- "Well, don't cry any more. We're not going to turn you out-
of-doors to-night. You'll have to stay here until we investigate this affair. What's your
name?"
- The child hesitated for a moment.
- "Will you please call me Cordelia?" she said eagerly.
- "CALL you Cordelia? Is that your name?"
- "No-o-o, it's not exactly my name, but I would love to be called
Cordelia. It's such a perfectly elegant name."
- "I don't know what on earth you mean. If Cordelia isn't your name,
what is?"
- "Anne Shirley," reluctantly faltered forth the owner of that
name, "but, oh, please do call me Cordelia. It can't matter much to you what you call
me if I'm only going to be here a little while, can it? And Anne is such an unromantic
name."
- "Unromantic fiddlesticks!" said the unsympathetic Marilla.
"Anne is a real good plain sensible name. You've no need to be ashamed of it."
- "Oh, I'm not ashamed of it," explained Anne, "only I
like Cordelia better. I've always imagined that my name was Cordelia--at least, I always
have of late years. When I was young I used to imagine it was Geraldine, but I like
Cordelia better now. But if you call me Anne please call me Anne spelled with an E."
- "What difference does it make how it's spelled?" asked
Marilla with another rusty smile as she picked up the teapot.
- "Oh, it makes SUCH a difference. It LOOKS so much nicer. When you
hear a name pronounced can't you always see it in your mind, just as if it was printed
out? I can; and A-n-n looks dreadful, but A-n-n-e looks so much more distinguished. If
you'll only call me Anne spelled with an E I shall try to reconcile myself to not being
called Cordelia."
- "Very well, then, Anne spelled with an E, can you tell us how this
mistake came to be made? We sent word to Mrs. Spencer to bring us a boy. Were there no
boys at the asylum?"
- "Oh, yes, there was an abundance of them. But Mrs. Spencer said
DISTINCTLY that you wanted a girl about eleven years old. And the matron said she thought
I would do. You don't know how delighted I was. I couldn't sleep all last night for joy.
Oh," she added reproachfully, turning to Matthew, "why didn't you tell me at the
station that you didn't want me and leave me there? If I hadn't seen the White Way of
Delight and the Lake of Shining Waters it wouldn't be so hard."
- "What on earth does she mean?" demanded Marilla, staring at
Matthew.
- "She--she's just referring to some conversation we had on the
road," said Matthew hastily. "I'm going out to put the mare in, Marilla. Have
tea ready when I come back."
- "Did Mrs. Spencer bring anybody over besides you?" continued
Marilla when Matthew had gone out.
- "She brought Lily Jones for herself. Lily is only five years old
and she is very beautiful and had nut-brown hair. If I was very beautiful and had
nut-brown hair would you keep me?"
- "No. We want a boy to help Matthew on the farm. A girl would be of
no use to us. Take off your hat. I'll lay it and your bag on the hall table."
- Anne took off her hat meekly. Matthew came back presently and they sat
down to supper. But Anne could not eat. In vain she nibbled at the bread and butter and
pecked at the crab-apple preserve out of the little scalloped glass dish by her plate. She
did not really make any headway at all.
- "You're not eating anything," said Marilla sharply, eying her
as if it were a serious shortcoming. Anne sighed.
- "I can't. I'm in the depths of despair. Can you eat when you are
in the depths of despair?"
- "I've never been in the depths of despair, so I can't say,"
responded Marilla.
- "Weren't you? Well, did you ever try to IMAGINE you were in the
depths of despair?"
- "No, I didn't."
- "Then I don't think you can understand what it's like. It's very
uncomfortable feeling indeed. When you try to eat a lump comes right up in your throat and
you can't swallow anything, not even if it was a chocolate caramel. I had one chocolate
caramel once two years ago and it was simply delicious. I've often dreamed since then that
I had a lot of chocolate caramels, but I always wake up just when I'm going to eat them. I
do hope you won't be offended because I can't eat. Everything is extremely nice, but still
I cannot eat."
- "I guess she's tired," said Matthew, who hadn't spoken since
his return from the barn. "Best put her to bed, Marilla."
- Marilla had been wondering where Anne should be put to bed. She had
prepared a couch in the kitchen chamber for the desired and expected boy. But, although it
was neat and clean, it did not seem quite the thing to put a girl there somehow. But the
spare room was out of the question for such a stray waif, so there remained only the east
gable room. Marilla lighted a candle and told Anne to follow her, which Anne spiritlessly
did, taking her hat and carpet-bag from the hall table as she passed. The hall was
fearsomely clean; the little gable chamber in which she presently found herself seemed
still cleaner.
- Marilla set the candle on a three-legged, three-cornered table and
turned down the bedclothes.
- "I suppose you have a nightgown?" she questioned.
- Anne nodded.
- "Yes, I have two. The matron of the asylum made them for me.
They're fearfully skimpy. There is never enough to go around in an asylum, so things are
always skimpy--at least in a poor asylum like ours. I hate skimpy night-dresses. But one
can dream just as well in them as in lovely trailing ones, with frills around the neck,
that's one consolation."
- "Well, undress as quick as you can and go to bed. I'll come back
in a few minutes for the candle. I daren't trust you to put it out yourself. You'd likely
set the place on fire."
When Marilla had gone Anne looked around her wistfully. The whitewashed walls were so
painfully bare and staring that she thought they must ache over their own bareness. The
floor was bare, too, except for a round braided mat in the middle such as Anne had never
seen before. In one corner was the bed, a high, old-fashioned one, with four dark, low-
turned posts. In the other corner was the aforesaid three- corner table adorned with
- a fat, red velvet pin-cushion hard enough to turn the point of the most
adventurous pin. Above it hung a little six-by-eight mirror. Midway between table and bed
was the window, with an icy white muslin frill over it, and opposite it was the
wash-stand. The whole apartment was of a rigidity not to be described in words, but which
sent a shiver to the very marrow of Anne's bones. With a sob she hastily discarded her
garments, put on the skimpy nightgown and sprang into bed where she burrowed face downward
into the pillow and pulled the clothes over her head. When Marilla came up for the light
various skimpy articles of raiment scattered most untidily over the floor and a certain
tempestuous appearance of the bed were the only indications of any presence save her own.
- She deliberately picked up Anne's clothes, placed them neatly on a prim
yellow chair, and then, taking up the candle, went over to the bed.
- "Good night," she said, a little awkwardly, but not unkindly.
- Anne's white face and big eyes appeared over the bedclothes with a
startling suddenness.
- "How can you call it a GOOD night when you know it must be the
very worst night I've ever had?" she said reproachfully.
- Then she dived down into invisibility again.
- Marilla went slowly down to the kitchen and proceeded to wash the
supper dishes. Matthew was smoking--a sure sign of perturbation of mind. He seldom smoked,
for Marilla set her face against it as a filthy habit; but at certain times and seasons he
felt driven to it and them Marilla winked at the practice, realizing that a mere man must
have some vent for his emotions.
- "Well, this is a pretty kettle of fish," she said wrathfully.
"This is what comes of sending word instead of going ourselves. Richard Spencer's
folks have twisted that message somehow. One of us will have to drive over and see Mrs.
Spencer tomorrow, that's certain. This girl will have to be sent back to the asylum."
- "Yes, I suppose so," said Matthew reluctantly.
- "You SUPPOSE so! Don't you know it?"
- "Well now, she's a real nice little thing, Marilla. It's kind of a
pity to send her back when she's so set on staying here."
- "Matthew Cuthbert, you don't mean to say you think we ought to
keep her!"
- Marilla's astonishment could not have been greater if Matthew had
expressed a predilection for standing on his head.
- "Well, now, no, I suppose not--not exactly," stammered
Matthew, uncomfortably driven into a corner for his precise meaning. "I suppose--we
could hardly be expected to keep her."
- "I should say not. What good would she be to us?"
- "We might be some good to her," said Matthew suddenly and
unexpectedly.
- "Matthew Cuthbert, I believe that child has bewitched you! I can
see as plain as plain that you want to keep her."
- "Well now, she's a real interesting little thing," persisted
Matthew. "You should have heard her talk coming from the station."
- "Oh, she can talk fast enough. I saw that at once. It's nothing in
her favour, either. I don't like children who have so much to say. I don't want an orphan
girl and if I did she isn't the style I'd pick out. There's something I don't understand
about her. No, she's got to be despatched straight-way back to where she came from."
- "I could hire a French boy to help me," said Matthew,
"and she'd be company for you."
- "I'm not suffering for company," said Marilla shortly.
"And I'm not going to keep her."
- "Well now, it's just as you say, of course, Marilla," said
Matthew rising and putting his pipe away. "I'm going to bed."
- To bed went Matthew. And to bed, when she had put her dishes away, went
Marilla, frowning most resolutely. And up-stairs, in the east gable, a lonely,
heart-hungry, friendless child cried herself to sleep.
- CHAPTER IV
- Morning at Green Gables
- It was broad daylight when Anne awoke and sat up in bed, staring
confusedly at the window through which a flood of cheery sunshine was pouring and outside
of which something white and feathery waved across glimpses of blue sky.
- For a moment she could not remember where she was. First came a
delightful thrill, as something very pleasant; then a horrible remembrance. This was Green
Gables and they didn't want her because she wasn't a boy!
- But it was morning and, yes, it was a cherry-tree in full bloom outside
of her window. With a bound she was out of bed and across the floor. She pushed up the
sash--it went up stiffly and creakily, as if it hadn't been opened for a long time, which
was the case; and it stuck so tight that nothing was needed to hold it up.
- Anne dropped on her knees and gazed out into the June morning, her eyes
glistening with delight. Oh, wasn't it beautiful? Wasn't it a lovely place? Suppose she
wasn't really going to stay here! She would imagine she was. There was scope for
imagination here.
- A huge cherry-tree grew outside, so close that its boughs tapped
against the house, and it was so thick-set with blossoms that hardly a leaf was to be
seen. On both sides of the house was a big orchard, one of apple-trees and one of
cherry-trees, also showered over with blossoms; and their grass was all sprinkled with
dandelions. In the garden below were lilac-trees purple with flowers, and their dizzily
sweet fragrance drifted up to the window on the morning wind.
- Below the garden a green field lush with clover sloped down to the
hollow where the brook ran and where scores of white birches grew, upspringing airily out
of an undergrowth suggestive of delightful possibilities in ferns and mosses and woodsy
things generally. Beyond it was a hill, green and feathery with spruce and fir; there was
a gap in it where the gray gable end of the little house she had seen from the other side
of the Lake of Shining Waters was visible.
- Off to the left were the big barns and beyond them, away down over
green, low-sloping fields, was a sparkling blue glimpse of sea.
- Anne's beauty-loving eyes lingered on it all, taking everything
greedily in. She had looked on so many unlovely places in her life, poor child; but this
was as lovely as anything she had ever dreamed.
- She knelt there, lost to everything but the loveliness around her,
until she was startled by a hand on her shoulder. Marilla had come in unheard by the small
dreamer.
- "It's time you were dressed," she said curtly.
- Marilla really did not know how to talk to the child, and her
uncomfortable ignorance made her crisp and curt when she did not mean to be.
- Anne stood up and drew a long breath.
- "Oh, isn't it wonderful?" she said, waving her hand
comprehensively at the good world outside.
- "It's a big tree," said Marilla, "and it blooms great,
but the fruit don't amount to much never--small and wormy."
- "Oh, I don't mean just the tree; of course it's lovely--yes, it's
RADIANTLY lovely--it blooms as if it meant it--but I meant everything, the garden and the
orchard and the brook and the woods, the whole big dear world. Don't you feel as if you
just loved the world on a morning like this? And I can hear the brook laughing all the way
up here. Have you ever noticed what cheerful things brooks are? They're always laughing.
Even in winter-time I've heard them under the ice. I'm so glad there's a brook near Green
Gables. Perhaps you think it doesn't make any difference to me when you're not going to
keep me, but it does. I shall always like to remember that there is a brook at Green
Gables even if I never see it again. If there wasn't a brook I'd be HAUNTED by the
uncomfortable feeling that there ought to be one. I'm not in the depths of despair this
morning. I never can be in the morning. Isn't it a splendid thing that there are mornings?
But I feel very sad. I've just been imagining that it was really me you wanted after all
and that I was to stay here for ever and ever. It was a great comfort while it lasted. But
the worst of imagining things is that the time comes when you have to stop and that
hurts."
- "You'd better get dressed and come down-stairs and never mind your
imaginings," said Marilla as soon as she could get a word in edgewise.
"Breakfast is waiting. Wash your face and comb your hair. Leave the window up and
turn your bedclothes back over the foot of the bed. Be as smart as you can."
- Anne could evidently be smart so some purpose for she was down-stairs
in ten minutes' time, with her clothes neatly on, her hair brushed and braided, her face
washed, and a comfortable consciousness pervading her soul that she had fulfilled all
Marilla's requirements. As a matter of fact, however, she had forgotten to turn back the
bedclothes.
- "I'm pretty hungry this morning," she announced as she
slipped into the chair Marilla placed for her. "The world doesn't seem such a howling
wilderness as it did last night. I'm so glad it's a sunshiny morning. But I like rainy
mornings real well, too. All sorts of mornings are interesting, don't you think? You don't
know what's going to happen through the day, and there's so much scope for imagination.
But I'm glad it's not rainy today because it's easier to be cheerful and bear up under
affliction on a sunshiny day. I feel that I have a good deal to bear up under. It's all
very well to read about sorrows and imagine yourself living through them heroically, but
it's not so nice when you really come to have them, is it?"
- "For pity's sake hold your tongue," said Marilla. "You
talk entirely too much for a little girl."
- Thereupon Anne held her tongue so obediently and thoroughly that her
continued silence made Marilla rather nervous, as if in the presence of something not
exactly natural. Matthew also held his tongue,--but this was natural,--so that the meal
was a very silent one.
- As it progressed Anne became more and more abstracted, eating
mechanically, with her big eyes fixed unswervingly and unseeingly on the sky outside the
window. This made Marilla more nervous than ever; she had an uncomfortable feeling that
while this odd child's body might be there at the table her spirit was far away in some
remote airy cloudland, borne aloft on the wings of imagination. Who would want such a
child about the place?
- Yet Matthew wished to keep her, of all unaccountable things! Marilla
felt that he wanted it just as much this morning as he had the night before, and that he
would go on wanting it. That was Matthew's way--take a whim into his head and cling to it
with the most amazing silent persistency--a persistency ten times more potent and
effectual in its very silence than if he had talked it out.
- When the meal was ended Anne came out of her reverie and offered to
wash the dishes.
- "Can you wash dishes right?" asked Marilla distrustfully.
- "Pretty well. I'm better at looking after children, though. I've
had so much experience at that. It's such a pity you haven't any here for me to look
after."
- "I don't feel as if I wanted any more children to look after than
I've got at present. YOU'RE problem enough in all conscience. What's to be done with you I
don't know. Matthew is a most ridiculous man."
- "I think he's lovely," said Anne reproachfully. "He is
so very sympathetic. He didn't mind how much I talked--he seemed to like it. I felt that
he was a kindred spirit as soon as ever I saw him."
- "You're both queer enough, if that's what you mean by kindred
spirits," said Marilla with a sniff. "Yes, you may wash the dishes. Take plenty
of hot water, and be sure you dry them well. I've got enough to attend to this morning for
I'll have to drive over to White Sands in the afternoon and see Mrs. Spencer. You'll come
with me and we'll settle what's to be done with you. After you've finished the dishes go
up-stairs and make your bed."
- Anne washed the dishes deftly enough, as Marilla who kept a sharp eye
on the process, discerned. Later on she made her bed less successfully, for she had never
learned the art of wrestling with a feather tick. But is was done somehow and smoothed
down; and then Marilla, to get rid of her, told her she might go out-of-doors and amuse
herself until dinner time.
- Anne flew to the door, face alight, eyes glowing. On the very threshold
she stopped short, wheeled about, came back and sat down by the table, light and glow as
effectually blotted out as if some one had clapped an extinguisher on her.
- "What's the matter now?" demanded Marilla.
- "I don't dare go out," said Anne, in the tone of a martyr
relinquishing all earthly joys. "If I can't stay here there is no use in my loving
Green Gables. And if I go out there and get acquainted with all those trees and flowers
and the orchard and the brook I'll not be able to help loving it. It's hard enough now, so
I won't make it any harder. I want to go out so much--everything seems to be calling to
me, `Anne, Anne, come out to us. Anne, Anne, we want a playmate'--but it's better not.
There is no use in loving things if you have to be torn from them, is there? And it's so
hard to keep from loving things, isn't it? That was why I was so glad when I thought I was
going to live here. I thought I'd have so many things to love and nothing to hinder me.
But that brief dream is over. I am resigned to my fate now, so I don't think I'll go out
for fear I'll get unresigned again. What is the name of that geranium on the window-sill,
please?"
- "That's the apple-scented geranium."
- "Oh, I don't mean that sort of a name. I mean just a name you gave
it yourself. Didn't you give it a name? May I give it one then? May I call it--let me
see--Bonny would do--may I call it Bonny while I'm here? Oh, do let me!"
- "Goodness, I don't care. But where on earth is the sense of naming
a geranium?"
- "Oh, I like things to have handles even if they are only
geraniums. It makes them seem more like people. How do you know but that it hurts a
geranium's feelings just to be called a geranium and nothing else? You wouldn't like to be
called nothing but a woman all the time. Yes, I shall call it Bonny. I named that
cherry-tree outside my bedroom window this morning. I called it Snow Queen because it was
so white. Of course, it won't always be in blossom, but one can imagine that it is, can't
one?"
- "I never in all my life say or heard anything to equal her,"
muttered Marilla, beating a retreat down to the cellar after potatoes. "She is kind
of interesting as Matthew says. I can feel already that I'm wondering what on earth she'll
say next. She'll be casting a spell over me, too. She's cast it over Matthew. That look he
gave me when he went out said everything he said or hinted last night over again. I wish
he was like other men and would talk things out. A body could answer back then and argue
him into reason. But what's to be done with a man who just LOOKS?"
- Anne had relapsed into reverie, with her chin in her hands and her eyes
on the sky, when Marilla returned from her cellar pilgrimage. There Marilla left her until
the early dinner was on the table.
- "I suppose I can have the mare and buggy this afternoon,
Matthew?" said Marilla.
- Matthew nodded and looked wistfully at Anne. Marilla intercepted the
look and said grimly:
- "I'm going to drive over to White Sands and settle this thing.
I'll take Anne with me and Mrs. Spencer will probably make arrangements to send her back
to Nova Scotia at once. I'll set your tea out for you and I'll be home in time to milk the
cows."
- Still Matthew said nothing and Marilla had a sense of having wasted
words and breath. There is nothing more aggravating than a man who won't talk back--unless
it is a woman who won't.
- Matthew hitched the sorrel into the buggy in due time and Marilla and
Anne set off. Matthew opened the yard gate for them and as they drove slowly through, he
said, to nobody in particular as it seemed:
- "Little Jerry Buote from the Creek was here this morning, and I
told him I guessed I'd hire him for the summer."
- Marilla made no reply, but she hit the unlucky sorrel such a vicious
clip with the whip that the fat mare, unused to such treatment, whizzed indignantly down
the lane at an alarming pace. Marilla looked back once as the buggy bounced along and saw
that aggravating Matthew leaning over the gate, looking wistfully after them.
- CHAPTER V
- Anne's History
- "Do you know," said Anne confidentially, "I've made up
my mind to enjoy this drive. It's been my experience that you can nearly always enjoy
things if you make up your mind firmly that you will. Of course, you must make it up
FIRMLY. I am not going to think about going back to the asylum while we're having our
drive. I'm just going to think about the drive. Oh, look, there's one little early wild
rose out! Isn't it lovely? Don't you think it must be glad to be a rose? Wouldn't it be
nice if roses could talk? I'm sure they could tell us such lovely things. And isn't pink
the most bewitching color in the world? I love it, but I can't wear it. Redheaded people
can't wear pink, not even in imagination. Did you ever know of anybody whose hair was red
when she was young, but got to be another color when she grew up?"
- "No, I don't know as I ever did," said Marilla mercilessly,
"and I shouldn't think it likely to happen in your case either."
- Anne sighed.
- "Well, that is another hope gone. `My life is a perfect graveyard
of buried hopes.' That's a sentence I read in a book once, and I say it over to comfort
myself whenever I'm disappointed in anything."
- "I don't see where the comforting comes in myself," said
Marilla.
- "Why, because it sounds so nice and romantic, just as if I were a
heroine in a book, you know. I am so fond of romantic things, and a graveyard full of
buried hopes is about as romantic a thing as one can imagine isn't it? I'm rather glad I
have one. Are we going across the Lake of Shining Waters today?"
- "We're not going over Barry's pond, if that's what you mean by
your Lake of Shining Waters. We're going by the shore road."
- "Shore road sounds nice," said Anne dreamily. "Is it as
nice as it sounds? Just when you said `shore road' I saw it in a picture in my mind, as
quick as that! And White Sands is a pretty name, too; but I don't like it as well as
Avonlea. Avonlea is a lovely name. It just sounds like music. How far is it to White
Sands?"
- "It's five miles; and as you're evidently bent on talking you
might as well talk to some purpose by telling me what you know about yourself."
- "Oh, what I KNOW about myself isn't really worth telling,"
said Anne eagerly. "If you'll only let me tell you what I IMAGINE about myself you'll
think it ever so much more interesting."
- "No, I don't want any of your imaginings. Just you stick to bald
facts. Begin at the beginning. Where were you born and how old are you?"
- "I was eleven last March," said Anne, resigning herself to
bald facts with a little sigh. "And I was born in Bolingbroke, Nova Scotia. My
father's name was Walter Shirley, and he was a teacher in the Bolingbroke High School. My
mother's name was Bertha Shirley. Aren't Walter and Bertha lovely names? I'm so glad my
parents had nice names. It would be a real disgrace to have a father named--well, say
Jedediah, wouldn't it?"
- "I guess it doesn't matter what a person's name is as long as he
behaves himself," said Marilla, feeling herself called upon to inculcate a good and
useful moral.
- "Well, I don't know." Anne looked thoughtful. "I read in
a book once that a rose by any other name would smell as sweet, but I've never been able
to believe it. I don't believe a rose WOULD be as nice if it was called a thistle or a
skunk cabbage. I suppose my father could have been a good man even if he had been called
Jedediah; but I'm sure it would have been a cross. Well, my mother was a teacher in the
High school, too, but when she married father she gave up teaching, of course. A husband
was enough responsibility. Mrs. Thomas said that they were a pair of babies and as poor as
church mice. They went to live in a weeny-teeny little yellow house in Bolingbroke. I've
never seen that house, but I've imagined it thousands of times. I think it must have had
honeysuckle over the parlor window and lilacs in the front yard and lilies of the valley
just inside the gate. Yes, and muslin curtains in all the windows. Muslin curtains give a
house such an air. I was born in that house. Mrs. Thomas said I was the homeliest baby she
ever saw, I was so scrawny and tiny and nothing but eyes, but that mother thought I was
perfectly beautiful. I should think a mother would be a better judge than a poor woman who
came in to scrub, wouldn't you? I'm glad she was satisfied with me anyhow, I would feel so
sad if I thought I was a disappointment to her--because she didn't live very long after
that, you see. She died of fever when I was just three months old. I do wish she'd lived
long enough for me to remember calling her mother. I think it would be so sweet to say
`mother,' don't you? And father died four days afterwards from fever too. That left me an
orphan and folks were at their wits' end, so Mrs. Thomas said, what to do with me. You
see, nobody wanted me even then. It seems to be my fate. Father and mother had both come
from places far away and it was well known they hadn't any relatives living. Finally Mrs.
Thomas said she'd take me, though she was poor and had a drunken husband. She brought me
up by hand. Do you know if there is anything in being brought up by hand that ought to
make people who are brought up that way better than other people? Because whenever I was
naughty Mrs. Thomas would ask me how I could be such a bad girl when she had brought me up
by hand-- reproachful-like.
- "Mr. and Mrs. Thomas moved away from Bolingbroke to Marysville,
and I lived with them until I was eight years old. I helped look after the Thomas
children--there were four of them younger than me--and I can tell you they took a lot of
looking after. Then Mr. Thomas was killed falling under a train and his mother offered to
take Mrs. Thomas and the children, but she didn't want me. Mrs. Thomas was at HER wits'
end, so she said, what to do with me. Then Mrs. Hammond from up the river came down and
said she'd take me, seeing I was handy with children, and I went up the river to live with
her in a little clearing among the stumps. It was a very lonesome place. I'm sure I could
never have lived there if I hadn't had an imagination. Mr. Hammond worked a little sawmill
up there, and Mrs. Hammond had eight children. She had twins three times. I like babies in
moderation, but twins three times in succession is TOO MUCH. I told Mrs. Hammond so
firmly, when the last pair came. I used to get so dreadfully tired carrying them about.
- "I lived up river with Mrs. Hammond over two years, and then Mr.
Hammond died and Mrs. Hammond broke up housekeeping. She divided her children among her
relatives and went to the States. I had to go to the asylum at Hopeton, because nobody
would take me. They didn't want me at the asylum, either; they said they were over-
crowded as it was. But they had to take me and I was there four months until Mrs. Spencer
came."
- Anne finished up with another sigh, of relief this time. Evidently she
did not like talking about her experiences in a world that had not wanted her.
- "Did you ever go to school?" demanded Marilla, turning the
sorrel mare down the shore road.
- "Not a great deal. I went a little the last year I stayed with
Mrs. Thomas. When I went up river we were so far from a school that I couldn't walk it in
winter and there was a vacation in summer, so I could only go in the spring and fall. But
of course I went while I was at the asylum. I can read pretty well and I know ever so many
pieces of poetry off by heart--`The Battle of Hohenlinden' and `Edinburgh after Flodden,'
and `Bingen of the Rhine,' and lost of the `Lady of the Lake' and most of `The Seasons' by
James Thompson. Don't you just love poetry that gives you a crinkly feeling up and down
your back? There is a piece in the Fifth Reader--`The Downfall of Poland'--that is just
full of thrills. Of course, I wasn't in the Fifth Reader--I was only in the Fourth--but
the big girls used to lend me theirs to read."
- "Were those women--Mrs. Thomas and Mrs. Hammond--good to
you?" asked Marilla, looking at Anne out of the corner of her eye.
- "O-o-o-h," faltered Anne. Her sensitive little face suddenly
flushed scarlet and embarrassment sat on her brow. "Oh, they MEANT to be--I know they
meant to be just as good and kind as possible. And when people mean to be good to you, you
don't mind very much when they're not quite--always. They had a good deal to worry them,
you know. It's very trying to have a drunken husband, you see; and it must be very trying
to have twins three times in succession, don't you think? But I feel sure they meant to be
good to me."
- Marilla asked no more questions. Anne gave herself up to a silent
rapture over the shore road and Marilla guided the sorrel abstractedly while she pondered
deeply. Pity was suddenly stirring in her heart for the child. What a starved, unloved
life she had had--a life of drudgery and poverty and neglect; for Marilla was shrewd
enough to read between the lines of Anne's history and divine the truth. No wonder she had
been so delighted at the prospect of a real home. It was a pity she had to be sent back.
What if she, Marilla, should indulge Matthew's unaccountable whim and let her stay? He was
set on it; and the child seemed a nice, teachable little thing.
- "She's got too much to say," thought Marilla, "but she
might be trained out of that. And there's nothing rude or slangy in what she does say.
She's ladylike. It's likely her people were nice folks."
- The shore road was "woodsy and wild and lonesome." On the
right hand, scrub firs, their spirits quite unbroken by long years of tussle with the gulf
winds, grew thickly. On the left were the steep red sandstone cliffs, so near the track in
places that a mare of less steadiness than the sorrel might have tried the nerves of the
people behind her. Down at the base of the cliffs were heaps of surf-worn rocks or little
sandy coves inlaid with pebbles as with ocean jewels; beyond lay the sea, shimmering and
blue, and over it soared the gulls, their pinions flashing silvery in the sunlight.
- "Isn't the sea wonderful?" said Anne, rousing from a long,
wide-eyed silence. "Once, when I lived in Marysville, Mr. Thomas hired an express
wagon and took us all to spend the day at the shore ten miles away. I enjoyed every moment
of that day, even if I had to look after the children all the time. I lived it over in
happy dreams for years. But this shore is nicer than the Marysville shore. Aren't those
gulls splendid? Would you like to be a gull? I think I would--that is, if I couldn't be a
human girl. Don't you think it would be nice to wake up at sunrise and swoop down over the
water and away out over that lovely blue all day; and then at night to fly back to one's
nest? Oh, I can just imagine myself doing it. What big house is that just ahead,
please?"
- "That's the White Sands Hotel. Mr. Kirke runs it, but the season
hasn't begun yet. There are heaps of Americans come there for the summer. They think this
shore is just about right."
- "I was afraid it might be Mrs. Spencer's place," said Anne
mournfully. "I don't want to get there. Somehow, it will seem like the end of
everything."
- CHAPTER VI
- Marilla Makes Up Her Mind
- Get there they did, however, in due season. Mrs. Spencer lived in a big
yellow house at White Sands Cove, and she came to the door with surprise and welcome
mingled on her benevolent face.
- "Dear, dear," she exclaimed, "you're the last folks I
was looking for today, but I'm real glad to see you. You'll put your horse in? And how are
you, Anne?"
- "I'm as well as can be expected, thank you," said Anne
smilelessly. A blight seemed to have descended on her.
- "I suppose we'll stay a little while to rest the mare," said
Marilla, "but I promised Matthew I'd be home early. The fact is, Mrs. Spencer,
there's been a queer mistake somewhere, and I've come over to see where it is. We send
word, Matthew and I, for you to bring us a boy from the asylum. We told your brother
Robert to tell you we wanted a boy ten or eleven years old."
- "Marilla Cuthbert, you don't say so!" said Mrs. Spencer in
distress. "Why, Robert sent word down by his daughter Nancy and she said you wanted a
girl--didn't she Flora Jane?" appealing to her daughter who had come out to the
steps.
- "She certainly did, Miss Cuthbert," corroborated Flora Jane
earnestly.
- I'm dreadful sorry," said Mrs. Spencer. "It's too bad; but it
certainly wasn't my fault, you see, Miss Cuthbert. I did the best I could and I thought I
was following your instructions. Nancy is a terrible flighty thing. I've often had to
scold her well for her heedlessness."
- "It was our own fault," said Marilla resignedly. "We
should have come to you ourselves and not left an important message to be passed along by
word of mouth in that fashion. Anyhow, the mistake has been made and the only thing to do
is to set it right. Can we send the child back to the asylum? I suppose they'll take her
back, won't they?"
- "I suppose so," said Mrs. Spencer thoughtfully, "but I
don't think it will be necessary to send her back. Mrs. Peter Blewett was up here
yesterday, and she was saying to me how much she wished she'd sent by me for a little girl
to help her. Mrs. Peter has a large family, you know, and she finds it hard to get help.
Anne will be the very girl for you. I call it positively providential."
- Marilla did not look as if she thought Providence had much to do with
the matter. Here was an unexpectedly good chance to get this unwelcome orphan off her
hands, and she did not even feel grateful for it.
- She knew Mrs. Peter Blewett only by sight as a small, shrewish-faced
woman without an ounce of superfluous flesh on her bones. But she had heard of her.
"A terrible worker and driver," Mrs. Peter was said to be; and discharged
servant girls told fearsome tales of her temper and stinginess, and her family of pert,
quarrelsome children. Marilla felt a qualm of conscience at the thought of handing Anne
over to her tender mercies.
- "Well, I'll go in and we'll talk the matter over," she said.
- "And if there isn't Mrs. Peter coming up the lane this blessed
minute!" exclaimed Mrs. Spencer, bustling her guests through the hall into the
parlor, where a deadly chill struck on them as if the air had been strained so long
through dark green, closely drawn blinds that it had lost every particle of warmth it had
ever possessed. "That is real lucky, for we can settle the matter right away. Take
the armchair, Miss Cuthbert. Anne, you sit here on the ottoman and don't wiggle. Let me
take your hats. Flora Jane, go out and put the kettle on. Good afternoon, Mrs. Blewett. We
were just saying how fortunate it was you happened along. Let me introduce you two ladies.
Mrs. Blewett, Miss Cuthbert. Please excuse me for just a moment. I forgot to tell Flora
Jane to take the buns out of the oven."
- Mrs. Spencer whisked away, after pulling up the blinds. Anne sitting
mutely on the ottoman, with her hands clasped tightly in her lap, stared at Mrs Blewett as
one fascinated. Was she to be given into the keeping of this sharp-faced, sharp-eyed
woman? She felt a lump coming up in her throat and her eyes smarted painfully. She was
beginning to be afraid she couldn't keep the tears back when Mrs. Spencer returned,
flushed and beaming, quite capable of taking any and every difficulty, physical, mental or
spiritual, into consideration and settling it out of hand.
- "It seems there's been a mistake about this little girl, Mrs.
Blewett," she said. "I was under the impression that Mr. and Miss Cuthbert
wanted a little girl to adopt. I was certainly told so. But it seems it was a boy they
wanted. So if you're still of the same mind you were yesterday, I think she'll be just the
thing for you."
- Mrs. Blewett darted her eyes over Anne from head to foot.
- "How old are you and what's your name?" she demanded.
- "Anne Shirley," faltered the shrinking child, not daring to
make any stipulations regarding the spelling thereof, "and I'm eleven years
old."
- "Humph! You don't look as if there was much to you. But you're
wiry. I don't know but the wiry ones are the best after all. Well, if I take you you'll
have to be a good girl, you know--good and smart and respectful. I'll expect you to earn
your keep, and no mistake about that. Yes, I suppose I might as well take her off your
hands, Miss Cuthbert. The baby's awful fractious, and I'm clean worn out attending to him.
If you like I can take her right home now."
- Marilla looked at Anne and softened at sight of the child's pale face
with its look of mute misery--the misery of a helpless little creature who finds itself
once more caught in the trap from which it had escaped. Marilla felt an uncomfortable
conviction that, if she denied the appeal of that look, it would haunt her to her dying
day. More- over, she did not fancy Mrs. Blewett. To hand a sensitive,
"highstrung" child over to such a woman! No, she could not take the
responsibility of doing that!
- "Well, I don't know," she said slowly. "I didn't say
that Matthew and I had absolutely decided that we wouldn't keep her. In fact I may say
that Matthew is disposed to keep her. I just came over to find out how the mistake had
occurred. I think I'd better take her home again and talk it over with Matthew. I feel
that I oughtn't to decide on anything without consulting him. If we make up our mind not
to keep her we'll bring or send her over to you tomorrow night. If we don't you may know
that she is going to stay with us. Will that suit you, Mrs. Blewett?"
- "I suppose it'll have to," said Mrs. Blewett ungraciously.
- During Marilla's speech a sunrise had been dawning on Anne's face.
First the look of despair faded out; then came a faint flush of hope; here eyes grew deep
and bright as morning stars. The child was quite transfigured; and, a moment later, when
Mrs. Spencer and Mrs. Blewett went out in quest of a recipe the latter had come to borrow
she sprang up and flew across the room to Marilla.
- "Oh, Miss Cuthbert, did you really say that perhaps you would let
me stay at Green Gables?" she said, in a breathless whisper, as if speaking aloud
might shatter the glorious possibility. "Did you really say it? Or did I only imagine
that you did?"
- "I think you'd better learn to control that imagination of yours,
Anne, if you can't distinguish between what is real and what isn't," said Marilla
crossly. "Yes, you did hear me say just that and no more. It isn't decided yet and
perhaps we will conclude to let Mrs. Blewett take you after all. She certainly needs you
much more than I do."
- "I'd rather go back to the asylum than go to live with her,"
said Anne passionately. "She looks exactly like a--like a gimlet."
- Marilla smothered a smile under the conviction that Anne must be
reproved for such a speech.
- "A little girl like you should be ashamed of talking so about a
lady and a stranger," she said severely. "Go back and sit down quietly and hold
your tongue and behave as a good girl should."
- "I'll try to do and be anything you want me, if you'll only keep
me," said Anne, returning meekly to her ottoman.
- When they arrived back at Green Gables that evening Matthew met them in
the lane. Marilla from afar had noted him prowling along it and guessed his motive. She
was prepared for the relief she read in his face when he saw that she had at least brought
back Anne back with her. But she said nothing, to him, relative to the affair, until they
were both out in the yard behind the barn milking the cows. Then she briefly told him
Anne's history and the result of the interview with Mrs. Spencer.
- "I wouldn't give a dog I liked to that Blewett woman," said
Matthew with unusual vim."
- "I don't fancy her style myself," admitted Marilla, "but
it's that or keeping her ourselves, Matthew. And since you seem to want her, I suppose I'm
willing--or have to be. I've been thinking over the idea until I've got kind of used to
it. It seems a sort of duty. I've never brought up a child, especially a girl, and I dare
say I'll make a terrible mess of it. But I'll do my best. So far as I'm concerned,
Matthew, she may stay."
- Matthew's shy face was a glow of delight.
- "Well now, I reckoned you'd come to see it in that light,
Marilla," he said. "She's such an interesting little thing."
- "It'd be more to the point if you could say she was a useful
little thing," retorted Marilla, "but I'll make it my business to see she's
trained to be that. And mind, Matthew, you're not to go interfering with my methods.
Perhaps an old maid doesn't know much about bringing up a child, but I guess she knows
more than an old bachelor. So you just leave me to manage her. When I fail it'll be time
enough to put your oar in."
- "There, there, Marilla, you can have your own way," said
Matthew reassuringly. "Only be as good and kind to her as you can without spoiling
her. I kind of think she's one of the sort you can do anything with if you only get her to
love you."
- Marilla sniffed, to express her contempt for Matthew's opinions
concerning anything feminine, and walked off to the dairy with the pails.
- "I won't tell her tonight that she can stay," she reflected,
as she strained the milk into the creamers. "She'd be so excited that she wouldn't
sleep a wink. Marilla Cuthbert, you're fairly in for it. Did you ever suppose you'd see
the day when you'd be adopting an orphan girl? It's surprising enough; but not so
surprising as that Matthew should be at the bottom of it, him that always seemed to have
such a mortal dread of little girls. Anyhow, we've decided on the experiment and goodness
only knows what will come of it."
- CHAPTER VII
- Anne Says Her Prayers
- When Marilla took Anne up to bed that night she said stiffly:
- "Now, Anne, I noticed last night that you threw your clothes all
about the floor when you took them off. That is a very untidy habit, and I can't allow it
at all. As soon as you take off any article of clothing fold it neatly and place it on the
chair. I haven't any use at all for little girls who aren't neat."
- "I was so harrowed up in my mind last night that I didn't think
about my clothes at all," said Anne. "I'll fold them nicely tonight. They always
made us do that at the asylum. Half the time, though, I'd forget, I'd be in such a hurry
to get into bed nice and quiet and imagine things."
- "You'll have to remember a little better if you stay here,"
admonished Marilla. "There, that looks something like. Say your prayers now and get
into bed."
- "I never say any prayers," announced Anne.
- Marilla looked horrified astonishment.
- "Why, Anne, what do you mean? Were you never taught to say your
prayers? God always wants little girls to say their prayers. Don't you know who God is,
Anne?"
- "`God is a spirit, infinite, eternal and unchangeable, in His
being, wisdom, power, holiness, justice, goodness, and truth,'" responded Anne
promptly and glibly.
- Marilla looked rather relieved.
- "So you do know something then, thank goodness! You're not quite a
heathen. Where did you learn that?"
- "Oh, at the asylum Sunday-school. They made us learn the whole
catechism. I liked it pretty well. There's something splendid about some of the words.
`Infinite, eternal and unchangeable.' Isn't that grand? It has such a roll to it--just
like a big organ playing. You couldn't quite call it poetry, I suppose, but it sounds a
lot like it, doesn't it?"
- "We're not talking about poetry, Anne--we are talking about saying
your prayers. Don't you know it's a terrible wicked thing not to say your prayers every
night? I'm afraid you are a very bad little girl."
- "You'd find it easier to be bad than good if you had red
hair," said Anne reproachfully. "People who haven't red hair don't know what
trouble is. Mrs. Thomas told me that God made my hair red ON PURPOSE, and I've never cared
about Him since. And anyhow I'd always be too tired at night to bother saying prayers.
People who have to look after twins can't be expected to say their prayers. Now, do you
honestly think they can?"
- Marilla decided that Anne's religious training must be begun at once.
Plainly there was no time to be lost.
- "You must say your prayers while you are under my roof,
Anne."
- "Why, of course, if you want me to," assented Anne
cheerfully. "I'd do anything to oblige you. But you'll have to tell me what to say
for this once. After I get into bed I'll imagine out a real nice prayer to say always. I
believe that it will be quite interesting, now that I come to think of it."
- "You must kneel down," said Marilla in embarrassment.
- Anne knelt at Marilla's knee and looked up gravely.
- "Why must people kneel down to pray?" If I really wanted to
pray I'll tell you what I'd do. I'd go out into a great big field all alone or into the
deep, deep, woods, and I'd look up into the sky--up--up--up--into that lovely blue sky
that looks as if there was no end to its blueness. And then I'd just FEEL a prayer. Well,
I'm ready. What am I to say?"
- Marilla felt more embarrassed than ever. She had intended to teach Anne
the childish classic, "Now I lay me down to sleep." But she had, as I have told
you, the glimmerings of a sense of humor--which is simply another name for a sense of
fitness of things; and it suddenly occurred to her that that simple little prayer, sacred
to white-robed childhood lisping at motherly knees, was entirely unsuited to this freckled
witch of a girl who knew and cared nothing bout God's love, since she had never had it
translated to her through the medium of human love.
- "You're old enough to pray for yourself, Anne," she said
finally. "Just thank God for your blessings and ask Him humbly for the things you
want."
- "Well, I'll do my best," promised Anne, burying her face in
Marilla's lap. "Gracious heavenly Father--that's the way the ministers say it in
church, so I suppose it's all right in private prayer, isn't it?" she interjected,
lifting her head for a moment.
- "Gracious heavenly Father, I thank Thee for the White Way of
Delight and the Lake of Shining Waters and Bonny and the Snow Queen. I'm really extremely
grateful for them. And that's all the blessings I can think of just now to thank Thee for.
As for the things I want, they're so numerous that it would take a great deal of time to
name them all so I will only mention the two most important. Please let me stay at Green
Gables; and please let me be good-looking when I grow up. I remain, "Yours
respectfully, Anne Shirley.
- "There, did I do all right?" she asked eagerly, getting up.
"I could have made it much more flowery if I'd had a little more time to think it
over."
- Poor Marilla was only preserved from complete collapse by remembering
that it was not irreverence, but simply spiritual ignorance on the part of Anne that was
responsible for this extraordinary petition. She tucked the child up in bed, mentally
vowing that she should be taught a prayer the very next day, and was leaving the room with
the light when Anne called her back.
- "I've just thought of it now. I should have said, `Amen' in place
of `yours respectfully,' shouldn't I?--the way the ministers do. I'd forgotten it, but I
felt a prayer should be finished off in some way, so I put in the other. Do you suppose it
will make any difference?"
- "I--I don't suppose it will," said Marilla. "Go to sleep
now like a good child. Good night."
- "I can only say good night tonight with a clear conscience,"
said Anne, cuddling luxuriously down among her pillows.
- Marilla retreated to the kitchen, set the candle firmly on the table,
and glared at Matthew.
- "Matthew Cuthbert, it's about time somebody adopted that child and
taught her something. She's next door to a perfect heathen. Will you believe that she
never said a prayer in her life till tonight? I'll send her to the manse tomorrow and
borrow the Peep of the Day series, that's what I'll do. And she shall go to Sunday-school
just as soon as I can get some suitable clothes made for her. I foresee that I shall have
my hands full. Well, well, we can't get through this world without our share of trouble.
I've had a pretty easy life of it so far, but my time has come at last and I suppose I'll
just have to make the best of it."
- CHAPTER VIII
- Anne's Bringing-up Is Begun
- For reasons best known to herself, Marilla did not tell Anne that she
was to stay at Green Gables until the next afternoon. During the forenoon she kept the
child busy with various tasks and watched over her with a keen eye while she did them. By
noon she had concluded that Anne was smart and obedient, willing to work and quick to
learn; her most serious shortcoming seemed to be a tendency to fall into daydreams in the
middle of a task and forget all about it until such time as she was sharply recalled to
earth by a reprimand or a catastrophe.
- When Anne had finished washing the dinner dishes she suddenly
confronted Marilla with the air and expression of one desperately determined to learn the
worst. Her thin little body trembled from head to foot; her face flushed and her eyes
dilated until they were almost black; she clasped her hands tightly and said in an
imploring voice:
- "Oh, please, Miss Cuthbert, won't you tell me if you are going to
send me away or not?" I've tried to be patient all the morning, but I really feel
that I cannot bear not knowing any longer. It's a dreadful feeling. Please tell me."
- "You haven't scalded the dishcloth in clean hot water as I told
you to do," said Marilla immovably. "Just go and do it before you ask any more
questions, Anne."
- Anne went and attended to the dishcloth. Then she returned to Marilla
and fastened imploring eyes of the latter's face. "Well," said Marilla, unable
to find any excuse for deferring her explanation longer, "I suppose I might as well
tell you. Matthew and I have decided to keep you--that is, if you will try to be a good
little girl and show yourself grateful. Why, child, whatever is the matter?"
- "I'm crying," said Anne in a tone of bewilderment. "I
can't think why. I'm glad as glad can be. Oh, GLAD doesn't seem the right word at all. I
was glad about the White Way and the cherry blossoms--but this! Oh, it's something more
than glad. I'm so happy. I'll try to be so good. It will be uphill work, I expect, for
Mrs. Thomas often told me I was desperately wicked. However, I'll do my very best. But can
you tell me why I'm crying?"
- "I suppose it's because you're all excited and worked up,"
said Marilla disapprovingly. "Sit down on that chair and try to calm yourself. I'm
afraid you both cry and laugh far too easily. Yes, you can stay here and we will try to do
right by you. You must go to school; but it's only a fortnight till vacation so it isn't
worth while for you to start before it opens again in September."
- "What am I to call you?" asked Anne. "Shall I always say
Miss Cuthbert? Can I call you Aunt Marilla?"
- "No; you'll call me just plain Marilla. I'm not used to being
called Miss Cuthbert and it would make me nervous."
- "It sounds awfully disrespectful to just say Marilla,"
protested Anne.
- "I guess there'll be nothing disrespectful in it if you're careful
to speak respectfully. Everybody, young and old, in Avonlea calls me Marilla except the
minister. He says Miss Cuthbert--when he thinks of it."
- "I'd love to call you Aunt Marilla," said Anne wistfully.
"I've never had an aunt or any relation at all--not even a grandmother. It would make
me feel as if I really belonged to you. Can't I call you Aunt Marilla?"
- "No. I'm not your aunt and I don't believe in calling people names
that don't belong to them."
- "But we could imagine you were my aunt."
- "I couldn't," said Marilla grimly.
- "Do you never imagine things different from what they really
are?" asked Anne wide-eyed.
- "No."
- "Oh!" Anne drew a long breath. "Oh, Miss--Marilla, how
much you miss!"
- "I don't believe in imagining things different from what they
really are," retorted Marilla. "When the Lord puts us in certain circumstances
He doesn't mean for us to imagine them away. And that reminds me. Go into the sitting
room, Anne--be sure your feet are clean and don't let any flies in--and bring me out the
illustrated card that's on the mantelpiece. The Lord's Prayer is on it and you'll devote
your spare time this afternoon to learning it off by heart. There's to be no more of such
praying as I heard last night."
- "I suppose I was very awkward," said Anne apologetically,
"but then, you see, I'd never had any practice. You couldn't really expect a person
to pray very well the first time she tried, could you? I thought out a splendid prayer
after I went to bed, just as I promised you I would. It was nearly as long as a minister's
and so poetical. But would you believe it? I couldn't remember one word when I woke up
this morning. And I'm afraid I'll never be able to think out another one as good. Somehow,
things never are so good when they're thought out a second time. Have you ever noticed
that?"
- "Here is something for you to notice, Anne. When I tell you to do
a thing I want you to obey me at once and not stand stock-still and discourse about it.
Just you go and do as I bid you."
- Anne promptly departed for the sitting-room across the hall; she failed
to return; after waiting ten minutes Marilla laid down her knitting and marched after her
with a grim expression. She found Anne standing motionless before a picture hanging on the
wall between the two windows, with her eyes astar with dreams. The white and green light
strained through apple trees and clustering vines outside fell over the rapt little figure
with a half-unearthly radiance.
- "Anne, whatever are you thinking of?" demanded Marilla
sharply.
- Anne came back to earth with a start.
- "That," she said, pointing to the picture--a rather vivid
chromo entitled, "Christ Blessing Little Children"--"and I was just
imagining I was one of them--that I was the little girl in the blue dress, standing off by
herself in the corner as if she didn't belong to anybody, like me. She looks lonely and
sad, don't you think? I guess she hadn't any father or mother of her own. But she wanted
to be blessed, too, so she just crept shyly up on the outside of the crowd, hoping nobody
would notice her--except Him. I'm sure I know just how she felt. Her heart must have beat
and her hands must have got cold, like mine did when I asked you if I could stay. She was
afraid He mightn't notice her. But it's likely He did, don't you think? I've been trying
to imagine it all out--her edging a little nearer all the time until she was quite close
to Him; and then He would look at her and put His hand on her hair and oh, such a thrill
of joy as would run over her! But I wish the artist hadn't painted Him so sorrowful
looking. All His pictures are like that, if you've noticed. But I don't believe He could
really have looked so sad or the children would have been afraid of Him."
- "Anne," said Marilla, wondering why she had not broken into
this speech long before, "you shouldn't talk that way. It's irreverent--positively
irreverent."
- Anne's eyes marveled.
- "Why, I felt just as reverent as could be. I'm sure I didn't mean
to be irreverent."
- "Well I don't suppose you did--but it doesn't sound right to talk
so familiarly about such things. And another thing, Anne, when I send you after something
you're to bring it at once and not fall into mooning and imagining before pictures.
Remember that. Take that card and come right to the kitchen. Now, sit down in the corner
and learn that prayer off by heart."
- Anne set the card up against the jugful of apple blossoms she had
brought in to decorate the dinnertable--Marilla had eyed that decoration askance, but had
said nothing-- propped her chin on her hands, and fell to studying it intently for several
silent minutes.
- "I like this," she announced at length. "It's beautiful.
I've heard it before--I heard the superintendent of the asylum Sunday school say it over
once. But I didn't like it then. He had such a cracked voice and he prayed it so
mournfully. I really felt sure he thought praying was a disagreeable duty. This isn't
poetry, but it makes me feel just the same way poetry does. `Our Father who art in heaven
hallowed be Thy name.' That is just like a line of music. Oh, I'm so glad you thought of
making me learn this, Miss-- Marilla."
- "Well, learn it and hold your tongue," said Marilla shortly.
- Anne tipped the vase of apple blossoms near enough to bestow a soft
kiss on a pink-cupped but, and then studied diligently for some moments longer.
- "Marilla," she demanded presently, "do you think that I
shall ever have a bosom friend in Avonlea?"
- "A--a what kind of friend?"
- "A bosom friend--an intimate friend, you know--a really kindred
spirit to whom I can confide my inmost soul. I've dreamed of meeting her all my life. I
never really supposed I would, but so many of my loveliest dreams have come true all at
once that perhaps this one will, too. Do you think it's possible?"
- "Diana Barry lives over at Orchard Slope and she's about your age.
She's a very nice little girl, and perhaps she will be a playmate for you when she comes
home. She's visiting her aunt over at Carmody just now. You'll have to be careful how you
behave yourself, though. Mrs. Barry is a very particular woman. She won't let Diana play
with any little girl who isn't nice and good."
- Anne looked at Marilla through the apple blossoms, her eyes aglow with
interest.
- "What is Diana like? Her hair isn't red, is it? Oh, I hope not.
It's bad enough to have red hair myself, but I positively couldn't endure it in a bosom
friend."
- "Diana is a very pretty little girl. She has black eyes and hair
and rosy cheeks. And she is good and smart, which is better than being pretty."
- Marilla was as fond of morals as the Duchess in Wonderland, and was
firmly convinced that one should be tacked on to every remark made to a child who was
being brought up.
- But Anne waved the moral inconsequently aside and seized only on the
delightful possibilities before it.
- "Oh, I'm so glad she's pretty. Next to being beautiful
oneself--and that's impossible in my case--it would be best to have a beautiful bosom
friend. When I lived with Mrs. Thomas she had a bookcase in her sitting room with glass
doors. There weren't any books in it; Mrs. Thomas kept her best china and her preserves
there--when she had any preserves to keep. One of the doors was broken. Mr. Thomas smashed
it one night when he was slightly intoxicated. But the other was whole and I used to
pretend that my reflection in it was another little girl who lived in it. I called her
Katie Maurice, and we were very intimate. I used to talk to her by the hour, especially on
Sunday, and tell her everything. Katie was the comfort and consolation of my life. We used
to pretend that the bookcase was enchanted and that if I only knew the spell I could open
the door and step right into the room where Katie Maurice lived, instead of into Mrs.
Thomas' shelves of preserves and china. And then Katie Maurice would have taken me by the
hand and led me out into a wonderful place, all flowers and sunshine and fairies, and we
would have lived there happy for ever after. When I went to live with Mrs. Hammond it just
broke my heart to leave Katie Maurice. She felt it dreadfully, too, I know she did, for
she was crying when she kissed me good-bye through the bookcase door. There was no
bookcase at Mrs. Hammond's. But just up the river a little way from the house there was a
long green little valley, and the loveliest echo lived there. It echoed back every word
you said, even if you didn't talk a bit loud. So I imagined that it was a little girl
called Violetta and we were great friends and I loved her almost as well as I loved Katie
Maurice--not quite, but almost, you know. The night before I went to the asylum I said
good-bye to Violetta, and oh, her good-bye came back to me in such sad, sad tones. I had
become so attached to her that I hadn't the heart to imagine a bosom friend at the asylum,
even if there had been any scope for imagination there."
- "I think it's just as well there wasn't," said Marilla drily.
"I don't approve of such goings-on. You seem to half believe your own imaginations.
It will be well for you to have a real live friend to put such nonsense out of your head.
But don't let Mrs. Barry hear you talking about your Katie Maurices and your Violettas or
she'll think you tell stories."
- "Oh, I won't. I couldn't talk of them to everybody--their memories
are too sacred for that. But I thought I'd like to have you know about them. Oh, look,
here's a big bee just tumbled out of an apple blossom. Just think what a lovely place to
live--in an apple blossom! Fancy going to sleep in it when the wind was rocking it. If I
wasn't a human girl I think I'd like to be a bee and live among the flowers."
- "Yesterday you wanted to be a sea gull," sniffed Marilla.
"I think you are very fickle minded. I told you to learn that prayer and not talk.
But it seems impossible for you to stop talking if you've got anybody that will listen to
you. So go up to your room and learn it."
- "Oh, I know it pretty nearly all now--all but just the last
line."
- "Well, never mind, do as I tell you. Go to your room and finish
learning it well, and stay there until I call you down to help me get tea."
- "Can I take the apple blossoms with me for company?" pleaded
Anne.
- "No; you don't want your room cluttered up with flowers. You
should have left them on the tree in the first place."
- "I did feel a little that way, too," said Anne. "I kind
of felt I shouldn't shorten their lovely lives by picking them--I wouldn't want to be
picked if I were an apple blossom. But the temptation was IRRESISTIBLE. What do you do
when you meet with an irresistible temptation?"
- "Anne, did you hear me tell you to go to your room?"
- Anne sighed, retreated to the east gable, and sat down in a chair by
the window.
- "There--I know this prayer. I learned that last sentence coming
upstairs. Now I'm going to imagine things into this room so that they'll always stay
imagined. The floor is covered with a white velvet carpet with pink roses all over it and
there are pink silk curtains at the windows. The walls are hung with gold and silver
brocade tapestry. The furniture is mahogany. I never saw any mahogany, but it does sound
SO luxurious. This is a couch all heaped with gorgeous silken cushions, pink and blue and
crimson and gold, and I am reclining gracefully on it. I can see my reflection in that
splendid big mirror hanging on the wall. I am tall and regal, clad in a gown of trailing
white lace, with a pearl cross on my breast and pearls in my hair. My hair is of midnight
darkness and my skin is a clear ivory pallor. My name is the Lady Cordelia Fitzgerald. No,
it isn't--I can't make THAT seem real."
- She danced up to the little looking-glass and peered into it. Her
pointed freckled face and solemn gray eyes peered back at her.
- "You're only Anne of Green Gables," she said earnestly,
"and I see you, just as you are looking now, whenever I try to imagine I'm the Lady
Cordelia. But it's a million times nicer to be Anne of Green Gables than Anne of nowhere
in particular, isn't it?"
- She bent forward, kissed her reflection affectionately, and betook
herself to the open window
- "Dear Snow Queen, good afternoon. And good afternoon dear birches
down in the hollow. And good afternoon, dear gray house up on the hill. I wonder if Diana
is to be my bosom friend. I hope she will, and I shall love her very much. But I must
never quite forget Katie Maurice and Violetta. They would feel so hurt if I did and I'd
hate to hurt anybody's feelings, even a little bookcase girl's or a little echo girl's. I
must be careful to remember them and send them a kiss every day."
- Anne blew a couple of airy kisses from her fingertips past the cherry
blossoms and then, with her chin in her hands, drifted luxuriously out on a sea of
daydreams.
- CHAPTER IX
- Mrs. Rachel Lynde Is Properly Horrified
- Anne had been a fortnight at Green Gables before Mrs. Lynde arrived to
inspect her. Mrs. Rachel, to do her justice, was not to blame for this. A severe and
unseason -able attack of grippe had confined that good lady to her house ever since the
occasion of her last visit to Green Gables. Mrs. Rachel was not often sick and had a well-
defined contempt for people who were; but grippe, she asserted, was like no other illness
on earth and could only be interpreted as one of the special visitations of Providence. As
soon as her doctor allowed her to put her foot out-of-doors she hurried up to Green
Gables, bursting with curiosity to see Matthew and Marilla's orphan, concerning whom all
sorts of stories and suppositions had gone abroad in Avonlea.
- Anne had made good use of every waking moment of that fortnight.
Already she was acquainted with every tree and shrub about the place. She had discovered
that a lane opened out below the apple orchard and ran up through a belt of woodland; and
she had explored it to its furthest end in all its delicious vagaries of brook and bridge,
fir coppice and wild cherry arch, corners thick with fern, and branching byways of maple
and mountain ash.
- She had made friends with the spring down in the hollow-- that
wonderful deep, clear icy-cold spring; it was set about with smooth red sandstones and
rimmed in by great palm-like clumps of water fern; and beyond it was a log bridge over the
brook.
- That bridge led Anne's dancing feet up over a wooded hill beyond, where
perpetual twilight reigned under the straight, thick-growing firs and spruces; the only
flowers there were myriads of delicate "June bells," those shyest and sweetest
of woodland blooms, and a few pale, aerial starflowers, like the spirits of last year's
blossoms. Gossamers glimmered like threads of silver among the trees and the fir boughs
and tassels seemed to utter friendly speech.
- All these raptured voyages of exploration were made in the odd half
hours which she was allowed for play, and Anne talked Matthew and Marilla halfdeaf over
her discoveries. Not that Matthew complained, to be sure; he listened to it all with a
wordless smile of enjoyment on his face; Marilla permitted the "chatter" until
she found herself becoming too interested in it, whereupon she always promptly quenched
Anne by a curt command to hold her tongue.
- Anne was out in the orchard when Mrs. Rachel came, wandering at her own
sweet will through the lush, tremu- lous grasses splashed with ruddy evening sunshine; so
that good lady had an excellent chance to talk her illness fully over, describing every
ache and pulse beat with such evident enjoyment that Marilla thought even grippe must
bring its compensations. When details were exhausted Mrs. Rachel introduced the real
reason of her call.
- "I've been hearing some surprising things about you and
Matthew."
- "I don't suppose you are any more surprised than I am
myself," said Marilla. "I'm getting over my surprise now."
- "It was too bad there was such a mistake," said Mrs. Rachel
sympathetically. "Couldn't you have sent her back?"
- "I suppose we could, but we decided not to. Matthew took a fancy
to her. And I must say I like her myself-- although I admit she has her faults. The house
seems a different place already. She's a real bright little thing."
- Marilla said more than she had intended to say when she began, for she
read disapproval in Mrs. Rachel's expression.
- "It's a great responsibility you've taken on yourself," said
that lady gloomily, "especially when you've never had any experience with children.
You don't know much about her or her real disposition, I suppose, and there's no guessing
how a child like that will turn out. But I don't want to discourage you I'm sure,
Marilla."
- "I'm not feeling discouraged," was Marilla's dry response.
"when I make up my mind to do a thing it stays made up. I suppose you'd like to see
Anne. I'll call her in."
- Anne came running in presently, her face sparkling with the delight of
her orchard rovings; but, abashed at finding the delight herself in the unexpected
presence of a stranger, she halted confusedly inside the door. She certainly was an
odd-looking little creature in the short tight wincey dress she had worn from the asylum,
below which her thin legs seemed ungracefully long. Her freckles were more numerous and
obtrusive than ever; the wind had ruffled her hatless hair into over-brilliant disorder;
it had never looked redder than at that moment.
- "Well, they didn't pick you for your looks, that's sure and
certain," was Mrs. Rachel Lynde's emphatic comment. Mrs. Rachel was one of those
delightful and popular people who pride themselves on speaking their mind without fear or
favor. "She's terrible skinny and homely, Marilla. Come here, child, and let me have
a look at you. Lawful heart, did any one ever see such freckles? And hair as red as
carrots! Come here, child, I say."
- Anne "came there," but not exactly as Mrs. Rachel expected.
With one bound she crossed the kitchen floor and stood before Mrs. Rachel, her face
scarlet with anger, her lips quivering, and her whole slender form trembling from head to
foot.
- "I hate you," she cried in a choked voice, stamping her foot
on the floor. "I hate you--I hate you--I hate you--" a louder stamp with each
assertion of hatred. "How dare you call me skinny and ugly? How dare you say I'm
freckled and redheaded? You are a rude, impolite, unfeeling woman!"
- "Anne!" exclaimed Marilla in consternation.
- But Anne continued to face Mrs. Rachel undauntedly, head up, eyes
blazing, hands clenched, passionate indignation exhaling from her like an atmosphere.
- "How dare you say such things about me?" she repeated
vehemently. "How would you like to have such things said about you? How would you
like to be told that you are fat and clumsy and probably hadn't a spark of imagination in
you? I don't care if I do hurt your feelings by saying so! I hope I hurt them. You have
hurt mine worse than they were ever hurt before even by Mrs. Thomas' intoxicated husband.
And I'll NEVER forgive you for it, never, never!"
- Stamp! Stamp!
- "Did anybody ever see such a temper!" exclaimed the horrified
Mrs. Rachel.
- "Anne go to your room and stay there until I come up," said
Marilla, recovering her powers of speech with difficulty.
- Anne, bursting into tears, rushed to the hall door, slammed it until
the tins on the porch wall outside rattled in sympathy, and fled through the hall and up
the stairs like a whirlwind. A subdued slam above told that the door of the east gable had
been shut with equal vehemence.
- "Well, I don't envy you your job bringing THAT up, Marilla,"
said Mrs. Rachel with unspeakable solemnity.
- Marilla opened her lips to say she knew not what of apology or
deprecation. What she did say was a surprise to herself then and ever afterwards.
- "You shouldn't have twitted her about her looks, Rachel."
- "Marilla Cuthbert, you don't mean to say that you are upholding
her in such a terrible display of temper as we've just seen?" demanded Mrs. Rachel
indignantly.
- "No," said Marilla slowly, "I'm not trying to excuse
her. She's been very naughty and I'll have to give her a talking to about it. But we must
make allowances for her. She's never been taught what is right. And you WERE too hard on
her, Rachel."
- Marilla could not help tacking on that last sentence, although she was
again surprised at herself for doing it. Mrs. Rachel got up with an air of offended
dignity.
- "Well, I see that I'll have to be very careful what I say after
this, Marilla, since the fine feelings of orphans, brought from goodness knows where, have
to be considered before anything else. Oh, no, I'm not vexed--don't worry yourself. I'm
too sorry for you to leave any room for anger in my mind. You'll have your own troubles
with that child. But if you'll take my advice--which I suppose you won't do, although I've
brought up ten children and buried two--you'll do that `talking to' you mention with a
fair- sized birch switch. I should think THAT would be the most effective language for
that kind of a child. Her temper matches her hair I guess. Well, good evening, Marilla. I
hope you'll come down to see me often as usual. But you can't expect me to visit here
again in a hurry, if I'm liable to be flown at and insulted in such a fashion. It's
something new in MY experience."
- Whereat Mrs. Rachel swept out and away--if a fat woman who always
waddled COULD be said to sweep away--and Marilla with a very solemn face betook herself to
the east gable.
- On the way upstairs she pondered uneasily as to what she ought to do.
She felt no little dismay over the scene that had just been enacted. How unfortunate that
Anne should have displayed such temper before Mrs. Rachel Lynde, of all people! Then
Marilla suddenly became aware of an uncomfortable and rebuking consciousness that she felt
more humiliation over this than sorrow over the discovery of such a serious defect in
Anne's disposition. And how was she to punish her? The amiable suggestion of the birch
switch--to the efficiency of which all of Mrs. Rachel's own children could have borne
smarting testimony-- did not appeal to Marilla. She did not believe she could whip a
child. No, some other method of punishment must be found to bring Anne to a proper
realization of the enormity of her offense.
- Marilla found Anne face downward on her bed, crying bitterly, quite
oblivious of muddy boots on a clean counterpane.
- "Anne," she said not ungently.
- No answer.
- "Anne," with greater severity, "get off that bed this
minute and listen to what I have to say to you."
- Anne squirmed off the bed and sat rigidly on a chair beside it, her
face swollen and tear-stained and her eyes fixed stubbornly on the floor.
- "This is a nice way for you to behave. Anne! Aren't you ashamed of
yourself?"
- "She hadn't any right to call me ugly and redheaded,"
retorted Anne, evasive and defiant.
- "You hadn't any right to fly into such a fury and talk the way you
did to her, Anne. I was ashamed of you-- thoroughly ashamed of you. I wanted you to behave
nicely to Mrs. Lynde, and instead of that you have disgraced me. I'm sure I don't know why
you should lose your temper like that just because Mrs. Lynde said you were redhaired and
homely. You say it yourself often enough."
- "Oh, but there's such a difference between saying a thing yourself
and hearing other people say it," wailed Anne. "You may know a thing is so, but
you can't help hoping other people don't quite think it is. I suppose you think I have an
awful temper, but I couldn't help it. When she said those things something just rose right
up in me and choked me. I HAD to fly out at her."
- "Well, you made a fine exhibition of yourself I must say. Mrs.
Lynde will have a nice story to tell about you everywhere--and she'll tell it, too. It was
a dreadful thing for you to lose your temper like that, Anne."
- "Just imagine how you would feel if somebody told you to your face
that you were skinny and ugly," pleaded Anne tearfully.
- An old remembrance suddenly rose up before Marilla. She had been a very
small child when she had heard one aunt say of her to another, "What a pity she is
such a dark, homely little thing." Marilla was every day of fifty before the sting
had gone out of that memory.
- "I don't say that I think Mrs. Lynde was exactly right in saying
what she did to you, Anne," she admitted in a softer tone. "Rachel is too
outspoken. But that is no excuse for such behavior on your part. She was a stranger and an
elderly person and my visitor--all three very good reasons why you should have been
respectful to her. You were rude and saucy and"--Marilla had a saving inspiration of
punishment--"you must go to her and tell her you are very sorry for your bad temper
and ask her to forgive you."
- "I can never do that," said Anne determinedly and darkly.
"You can punish me in any way you like, Marilla. You can shut me up in a dark, damp
dungeon inhabited by snakes and toads and feed me only on bread and water and I shall not
complain. But I cannot ask Mrs. Lynde to forgive me."
- "We're not in the habit of shutting people up in dark damp
dungeons," said Marilla drily, "especially as they're rather scarce in Avonlea.
But apologize to Mrs. Lynde you must and shall and you'll stay here in your room until you
can tell me you're willing to do it."
- "I shall have to stay here forever then," said Anne
mournfully, "because I can't tell Mrs. Lynde I'm sorry I said those things to her.
How can I? I'm NOT sorry. I'm sorry I've vexed you; but I'm GLAD I told her just what I
did. It was a great satisfaction. I can't say I'm sorry when I'm not, can I? I can't even
IMAGINE I'm sorry."
- "Perhaps your imagination will be in better working order by the
morning," said Marilla, rising to depart. "You'll have the night to think over
your conduct in and come to a better frame of mind. You said you would try to be a very
good girl if we kept you at Green Gables, but I must say it hasn't seemed very much like
it this evening."
- Leaving this Parthian shaft to rankle in Anne's stormy bosom, Marilla
descended to the kitchen, grievously troubled in mind and vexed in soul. She was as angry
with herself as with Anne, because, whenever she recalled Mrs. Rachel's dumbfounded
countenance her lips twitched with amusement and she felt a most reprehensible desire to
laugh.
- CHAPTER X
- Anne's Apology
- Marilla said nothing to Matthew about the affair that evening; but when
Anne proved still refractory the next morning an explanation had to be made to account for
her absence from the breakfast table. Marilla told Matthew the whole story, taking pains
to impress him with a due sense of the enormity of Anne's behavior.
- "It's a good thing Rachel Lynde got a calling down; she's a
meddlesome old gossip," was Matthew's consolatory rejoinder.
- "Matthew Cuthbert, I'm astonished at you. You know that Anne's
behavior was dreadful, and yet you take her part! I suppose you'll be saying next thing
that she oughtn't to be punished at all!"
- "Well now--no--not exactly," said Matthew uneasily. I reckon
she ought to be punished a little. But don't be too hard on her, Marilla. Recollect she
hasn't ever had anyone to teach her right. You're--you're going to give her something to
eat, aren't you?"
- "When did you ever hear of me starving people into good
behavior?" demanded Marilla indignantly. "She'll have her meals regular, and
I'll carry them up to her myself. But she'll stay up there until she's willing to
apologize to Mrs. Lynde, and that's final, Matthew."
- Breakfast, dinner, and supper were very silent meals--for Anne still
remained obdurate. After each meal Marilla carried a well-filled tray to the east gable
and brought it down later on not noticeably depleted. Matthew eyed its last descent with a
troubled eye. Had Anne eaten anything at all?
- When Marilla went out that evening to bring the cows from the back
pasture, Matthew, who had been hanging about the barns and watching, slipped into the
house with the air of a burglar and crept upstairs. As a general thing Matthew gravitated
between the kitchen and the little bedroom off the hall where he slept; once in a while he
ventured uncomfortably into the parlor or sitting room when the minister came to tea. But
he had never been upstairs in his own house since the spring he helped Marilla paper the
spare bedroom, and that was four years ago.
- He tiptoed along the hall and stood for several minutes outside the
door of the east gable before he summoned courage to tap on it with his fingers and then
open the door to peep in.
- Anne was sitting on the yellow chair by the window gazing mournfully
out into the garden. Very small and unhappy she looked, and Matthew's heart smote him. He
softly closed the door and tiptoed over to her.
- "Anne," he whispered, as if afraid of being overheard,
"how are you making it, Anne?"
- Anne smiled wanly.
- "Pretty well. I imagine a good deal, and that helps to pass the
time. Of course, it's rather lonesome. But then, I may as well get used to that."
- Anne smiled again, bravely facing the long years of solitary
imprisonment before her.
- Matthew recollected that he must say what he had come to say without
loss of time, lest Marilla return prematurely. "Well now, Anne, don't you think you'd
better do it and have it over with?" he whispered. "It'll have to be done sooner
or later, you know, for Marilla's a dreadful deter- mined woman--dreadful determined,
Anne. Do it right off, I say, and have it over."
- "Do you mean apologize to Mrs. Lynde?"
- "Yes--apologize--that's the very word," said Matthew eagerly.
"Just smooth it over so to speak. That's what I was trying to get at."
- "I suppose I could do it to oblige you," said Anne
thoughtfully. "It would be true enough to say I am sorry, because I AM sorry now. I
wasn't a bit sorry last night. I was mad clear through, and I stayed mad all night. I know
I did because I woke up three times and I was just furious every time. But this morning it
was over. I wasn't in a temper anymore--and it left a dreadful sort of goneness, too. I
felt so ashamed of myself. But I just couldn't think of going and telling Mrs. Lynde so.
It would be so humili- ating. I made up my mind I'd stay shut up here forever rather than
do that. But still--I'd do anything for you--if you really want me to--"
- "Well now, of course I do. It's terrible lonesome downstairs
without you. Just go and smooth things over-- that's a good girl."
- "Very well," said Anne resignedly. "I'll tell Marilla as
soon as she comes in I've repented."
- "That's right--that's right, Anne. But don't tell Marilla I said
anything about it. She might think I was putting my oar in and I promised not to do
that."
- "Wild horses won't drag the secret from me," promised Anne
solemnly. "How would wild horses drag a secret from a person anyhow?"
- But Matthew was gone, scared at his own success. He fled hastily to the
remotest corner of the horse pasture lest Marilla should suspect what he had been up to.
Marilla herself, upon her return to the house, was agreeably surprised to hear a plaintive
voice calling, "Marilla" over the banisters.
- "Well?" she said, going into the hall.
- "I'm sorry I lost my temper and said rude things, and I'm willing
to go and tell Mrs. Lynde so."
- "Very well." Marilla's crispness gave no sign of her relief.
She had been wondering what under the canopy she should do if Anne did not give in.
"I'll take you down after milking."
- Accordingly, after milking, behold Marilla and Anne walking down the
lane, the former erect and triumphant, the latter drooping and dejected. But halfway down
Anne's dejection vanished as if by enchantment. She lifted her head and stepped lightly
along, her eyes fixed on the sunset sky and an air of subdued exhilaration about her.
Marilla beheld the change disapprovingly. This was no meek penitent such as it behooved
her to take into the presence of the offended Mrs. Lynde.
- "What are you thinking of, Anne?" she asked sharply.
- "I'm imagining out what I must say to Mrs. Lynde," answered
Anne dreamily.
- This was satisfactory--or should have been so. But Marilla could not
rid herself of the notion that something in her scheme of punishment was going askew. Anne
had no business to look so rapt and radiant.
- Rapt and radiant Anne continued until they were in the very presence of
Mrs. Lynde, who was sitting knitting by her kitchen window. Then the radiance vanished.
Mournful penitence appeared on every feature. Before a word was spoken Anne suddenly went
down on her knees before the astonished Mrs. Rachel and held out her hands beseechingly.
- "Oh, Mrs. Lynde, I am so extremely sorry," she said with a
quiver in her voice. "I could never express all my sorrow, no, not if I used up a
whole dictionary. You must just imagine it. I behaved terribly to you--and I've disgraced
the dear friends, Matthew and Marilla, who have let me stay at Green Gables although I'm
not a boy. I'm a dreadfully wicked and ungrateful girl, and I deserve to be punished and
cast out by respectable people forever. It was very wicked of me to fly into a temper
because you told me the truth. It WAS the truth; every word you said was true. My hair is
red and I'm freckled and skinny and ugly. What I said to you was true, too, but I
shouldn't have said it. Oh, Mrs. Lynde, please, please, forgive me. If you refuse it will
be a lifelong sorrow on a poor little orphan girl would you, even if she had a dreadful
temper? Oh, I am sure you wouldn't. Please say you forgive me, Mrs. Lynde."
- Anne clasped her hands together, bowed her head, and waited for the
word of judgment.
- There was no mistaking her sincerity--it breathed in every tone of her
voice. Both Marilla and Mrs. Lynde recognized its unmistakable ring. But the former under-
stood in dismay that Anne was actually enjoying her valley of humiliation--was reveling in
the thoroughness of her abasement. Where was the wholesome punishment upon which she,
Marilla, had plumed herself? Anne had turned it into a species of positive pleasure.
- Good Mrs. Lynde, not being overburdened with perception, did not see
this. She only perceived that Anne had made a very thorough apology and all resentment
vanished from her kindly, if somewhat officious, heart.
- "There, there, get up, child," she said heartily. "Of
course I forgive you. I guess I was a little too hard on you, anyway. But I'm such an
outspoken person. You just mustn't mind me, that's what. It can't be denied your hair is
terrible red; but I knew a girl once--went to school with her, in fact--whose hair was
every mite as red as yours when she was young, but when she grew up it darkened to a real
handsome auburn. I wouldn't be a mite surprised if yours did, too--not a mite."
- "Oh, Mrs. Lynde!" Anne drew a long breath as she rose to her
feet. "You have given me a hope. I shall always feel that you are a benefactor. Oh, I
could endure anything if I only thought my hair would be a handsome auburn when I grew up.
It would be so much easier to be good if one's hair was a handsome auburn, don't you
think? And now may I go out into your garden and sit on that bench under the apple-trees
while you and Marilla are talking? There is so much more scope for imagination out
there."
- "Laws, yes, run along, child. And you can pick a bouquet of them
white June lilies over in the corner if you like."
- As the door closed behind Anne Mrs. Lynde got briskly up to light a
lamp.
- "She's a real odd little thing. Take this chair, Marilla; it's
easier than the one you've got; I just keep that for the hired boy to sit on. Yes, she
certainly is an odd child, but there is something kind of taking about her after all. I
don't feel so surprised at you and Matthew keeping her as I did--nor so sorry for you,
either. She may turn out all right. Of course, she has a queer way of expressing herself--
a little too--well, too kind of forcible, you know; but she'll likely get over that now
that she's come to live among civilized folks. And then, her temper's pretty quick, I
guess; but there's one comfort, a child that has a quick temper, just blaze up and cool
down, ain't never likely to be sly or deceitful. Preserve me from a sly child, that's
what. On the whole, Marilla, I kind of like her."
- When Marilla went home Anne came out of the fragrant twilight of the
orchard with a sheaf of white narcissi in her hands.
- "I apologized pretty well, didn't I?" she said proudly as
they went down the lane. "I thought since I had to do it I might as well do it
thoroughly."
- "You did it thoroughly, all right enough," was Marilla's
comment. Marilla was dismayed at finding herself inclined to laugh over the recollection.
She had also an uneasy feeling that she ought to scold Anne for apologizing so well; but
then, that was ridiculous! She compromised with her conscience by saying severely:
- "I hope you won't have occasion to make many more such apologies.
I hope you'll try to control your temper now, Anne."
- "That wouldn't be so hard if people wouldn't twit me about my
looks," said Anne with a sigh. "I don't get cross about other things; but I'm SO
tired of being twitted about my hair and it just makes me boil right over. Do you suppose
my hair will really be a handsome auburn when I grow up?"
- "You shouldn't think so much about your looks, Anne. I'm afraid
you are a very vain little girl."
- "How can I be vain when I know I'm homely?" protested Anne.
"I love pretty things; and I hate to look in the glass and see something that isn't
pretty. It makes me feel so sorrowful--just as I feel when I look at any ugly thing. I
pity it because it isn't beautiful."
- "Handsome is as handsome does," quoted Marilla. "I've
had that said to me before, but I have my doubts about it," remarked skeptical Anne,
sniffing at her narcissi. "Oh, aren't these flowers sweet! It was lovely of Mrs.
Lynde to give them to me. I have no hard feelings against Mrs. Lynde now. It gives you a
lovely, comfortable feeling to apologize and be forgiven, doesn't it? Aren't the stars
bright tonight? If you could live in a star, which one would you pick? I'd like that
lovely clear big one away over there above that dark hill."
- "Anne, do hold your tongue." said Marilla, thoroughly worn
out trying to follow the gyrations of Anne's thoughts.
- Anne said no more until they turned into their own lane. A little gypsy
wind came down it to meet them, laden with the spicy perfume of young dew-wet ferns. Far
up in the shadows a cheerful light gleamed out through the trees from the kitchen at Green
Gables. Anne suddenly came close to Marilla and slipped her hand into the older woman's
hard palm.
- "It's lovely to be going home and know it's home," she said.
"I love Green Gables already, and I never loved any place before. No place ever
seemed like home. Oh, Marilla, I'm so happy. I could pray right now and not find it a bit
hard."
- Something warm and pleasant welled up in Marilla's heart at touch of
that thin little hand in her own--a throb of the maternity she had missed, perhaps. Its
very unaccustomedness and sweetness disturbed her. She hastened to restore her sensations
to their normal calm by inculcating a moral.
- "If you'll be a good girl you'll always be happy, Anne. And you
should never find it hard to say your prayers."
- "Saying one's prayers isn't exactly the same thing as
praying," said Anne meditatively. "But I'm going to imagine that I'm the wind
that is blowing up there in those tree tops. When I get tired of the trees I'll imagine
I'm gently waving down here in the ferns--and then I'll fly over to Mrs. Lynde's garden
and set the flowers dancing--and then I'll go with one great swoop over the clover
field--and then I'll blow over the Lake of Shining Waters and ripple it all up into little
sparkling waves. Oh, there's so much scope for imagination in a wind! So I'll not talk any
more just now, Marilla."
- "Thanks be to goodness for that," breathed Marilla in devout
relief.
- CHAPTER XI
- Anne's Impressions of Sunday-School
- "Well, how do you like them?" said Marilla.
- Anne was standing in the gable room, looking solemnly at three new
dresses spread out on the bed. One was of snuffy colored gingham which Marilla had been
tempted to buy from a peddler the preceding summer because it looked so serviceable; one
was of black-and-white checkered sateen which she had picked up at a bargain counter in
the winter; and one was a stiff print of an ugly blue shade which she had purchased that
week at a Carmody store.
- She had made them up herself, and they were all made alike--plain
skirts fulled tightly to plain waists, with sleeves as plain as waist and skirt and tight
as sleeves could be.
- "I'll imagine that I like them," said Anne soberly.
- "I don't want you to imagine it," said Marilla, offended.
"Oh, I can see you don't like the dresses! What is the matter with them? Aren't they
neat and clean and new?"
- "Yes."
- "Then why don't you like them?"
- "They're--they're not--pretty," said Anne reluctantly.
- "Pretty!" Marilla sniffed. "I didn't trouble my head
about getting pretty dresses for you. I don't believe in pampering vanity, Anne, I'll tell
you that right off. Those dresses are good, sensible, serviceable dresses, without any
frills or furbelows about them, and they're all you'll get this summer. The brown gingham
and the blue print will do you for school when you begin to go. The sateen is for church
and Sunday school. I'll expect you to keep them neat and clean and not to tear them. I
should think you'd be grateful to get most anything after those skimpy wincey things
you've been wearing."
- "Oh, I AM grateful," protested Anne. "But I'd be ever so
much gratefuller if--if you'd made just one of them with puffed sleeves. Puffed sleeves
are so fashionable now. It would give me such a thrill, Marilla, just to wear a dress with
puffed sleeves."
- "Well, you'll have to do without your thrill. I hadn't any
material to waste on puffed sleeves. I think they are ridiculous-looking things anyhow. I
prefer the plain, sensible ones."
- "But I'd rather look ridiculous when everybody else does than
plain and sensible all by myself," persisted Anne mournfully.
- "Trust you for that! Well, hang those dresses carefully up in your
closet, and then sit down and learn the Sunday school lesson. I got a quarterly from Mr.
Bell for you and you'll go to Sunday school tomorrow," said Marilla, disap- pearing
downstairs in high dudgeon.
- Anne clasped her hands and looked at the dresses.
- "I did hope there would be a white one with puffed sleeves,"
she whispered disconsolately. "I prayed for one, but I didn't much expect it on that
account. I didn't suppose God would have time to bother about a little orphan girl's
dress. I knew I'd just have to depend on Marilla for it. Well, fortunately I can imagine
that one of them is of snow-white muslin with lovely lace frills and three-puffed
sleeves."
- The next morning warnings of a sick headache prevented Marilla from
going to Sunday-school with Anne.
- "You'll have to go down and call for Mrs. Lynde, Anne." she
said. "She'll see that you get into the right class. Now, mind you behave yourself
properly. Stay to preaching afterwards and ask Mrs. Lynde to show you our pew. Here's a
cent for collection. Don't stare at people and don't fidget. I shall expect you to tell me
the text when you come home."
- Anne started off irreproachable, arrayed in the stiff black- and-white
sateen, which, while decent as regards length and certainly not open to the charge of
skimpiness, contrived to emphasize every corner and angle of her thin figure. Her hat was
a little, flat, glossy, new sailor, the extreme plainness of which had likewise much
disappointed Anne, who had permitted herself secret visions of ribbon and flowers. The
latter, however, were supplied before Anne reached the main road, for being confronted
halfway down the lane with a golden frenzy of wind-stirred buttercups and a glory of wild
roses, Anne promptly and liberally garlanded her hat with a heavy wreath of them. Whatever
other people might have thought of the result it satisfied Anne, and she tripped gaily
down the road, holding her ruddy head with its decoration of pink and yellow very proudly.
- When she had reached Mrs. Lynde's house she found that lady gone.
Nothing daunted, Anne proceeded onward to the church alone. In the porch she found a crowd
of little girls, all more or less gaily attired in whites and blues and pinks, and all
staring with curious eyes at this stranger in their midst, with her extraordinary head
adornment. Avonlea little girls had already heard queer stories about Anne. Mrs. Lynde
said she had an awful temper; Jerry Buote, the hired boy at Green Gables, said she talked
all the time to herself or to the trees and flowers like a crazy girl. They looked at her
and whispered to each other behind their quarterlies. Nobody made any friendly advances,
then or later on when the opening exercises were over and Anne found herself in Miss
Rogerson's class.
- Miss Rogerson was a middle-aged lady who had taught a Sunday-school
class for twenty years. Her method of teaching was to ask the printed questions from the
quarterly and look sternly over its edge at the particular little girl she thought ought
to answer the question. She looked very often at Anne, and Anne, thanks to Marilla's
drilling, answered promptly; but it may be questioned if she understood very much about
either question or answer.
- She did not think she liked Miss Rogerson, and she felt very miserable;
every other little girl in the class had puffed sleeves. Anne felt that life was really
not worth living without puffed sleeves.
- "Well, how did you like Sunday school?" Marilla wanted to
know when Anne came home. Her wreath having faded, Anne had discarded it in the lane, so
Marilla was spared the knowledge of that for a time.
- "I didn't like it a bit. It was horrid."
- "Anne Shirley!" said Marilla rebukingly.
- Anne sat down on the rocker with a long sigh, kissed one of Bonny's
leaves, and waved her hand to a blossoming fuchsia.
- "They might have been lonesome while I was away," she
explained. "And now about the Sunday school. I behaved well, just as you told me.
Mrs. Lynde was gone, but I went right on myself. I went into the church, with a lot of
other little girls, and I sat in the corner of a pew by the window while the opening
exercises went on. Mr. Bell made an awfully long prayer. I would have been dreadfully
tired before he got through if I hadn't been sitting by that window. But it looked right
out on the Lake of Shining Waters, so I just gazed at that and imagined all sorts of
splendid things."
- "You shouldn't have done anything of the sort. You should have
listened to Mr. Bell."
- "But he wasn't talking to me," protested Anne. "He was
talking to God and he didn't seem to be very much inter- ested in it, either. I think he
thought God was too far off though. There was long row of white birches hanging over the
lake and the sunshine fell down through them, 'way, 'way down, deep into the water. Oh,
Marilla, it was like a beautiful dream! It gave me a thrill and I just said, `Thank you
for it, God,' two or three times."
- "Not out loud, I hope," said Marilla anxiously.
- "Oh, no, just under my breath. Well, Mr. Bell did get through at
last and they told me to go into the classroom with Miss Rogerson's class. There were nine
other girls in it. They all had puffed sleeves. I tried to imagine mine were puffed, too,
but I couldn't. Why couldn't I? It was as easy as could be to imagine they were puffed
when I was alone in the east gable, but it was awfully hard there among the others who had
really truly puffs."
- "You shouldn't have been thinking about your sleeves in Sunday
school. You should have been attending to the lesson. I hope you knew it."
- "Oh, yes; and I answered a lot of questions. Miss Rogerson asked
ever so many. I don't think it was fair for her to do all the asking. There were lots I
wanted to ask her, but I didn't like to because I didn't think she was a kindred spirit.
Then all the other little girls recited a paraphrase. She asked me if I knew any. I told
her I didn't, but I could recite, `The Dog at His Master's Grave' if she liked. That's in
the Third Royal Reader. It isn't a really truly religious piece of poetry, but it's so sad
and melancholy that it might as well be. She said it wouldn't do and she told me to learn
the nineteenth paraphrase for next Sunday. I read it over in church afterwards and it's
splendid. There are two lines in particular that just thrill me.
- "`Quick as the slaughtered squadrons fell In Midian's evil day.'
- I don't know what `squadrons' means nor `Midian,' either, but it sounds
SO tragical. I can hardly wait until next Sunday to recite it. I'll practice it all the
week. After Sunday school I asked Miss Rogerson--because Mrs. Lynde was too far away--to
show me your pew. I sat just as still as I could and the text was Revelations, third
chapter, second and third verses. It was a very long text. If I was a minister I'd pick
the short, snappy ones. The sermon was awfully long, too. I suppose the minister had to
match it to the text. I didn't think he was a bit interesting. The trouble with him seems
to be that he hasn't enough imagination. I didn't listen to him very much. I just let my
thoughts run and I thought of the most surprising things."
- Marilla felt helplessly that all this should be sternly reproved, but
she was hampered by the undeniable fact that some of the things Anne had said, especially
about the minister's sermons and Mr. Bell's prayers, were what she herself had really
thought deep down in her heart for years, but had never given expression to. It almost
seemed to her that those secret, unuttered, critical thoughts had suddenly taken visible
and accusing shape and form in the person of this outspoken morsel of neglected humanity.
- CHAPTER XII
- A Solemn Vow and Promise
- It was not until the next Friday that Marilla heard the story of the
flower-wreathed hat. She came home from Mrs. Lynde's and called Anne to account.
- "Anne, Mrs. Rachel says you went to church last Sunday with your
hat rigged out ridiculous with roses and buttercups. What on earth put you up to such a
caper? A pretty-looking object you must have been!"
- "Oh. I know pink and yellow aren't becoming to me," began
Anne.
- "Becoming fiddlesticks! It was putting flowers on your hat at all,
no matter what color they were, that was ridiculous. You are the most aggravating
child!"
- "I don't see why it's any more ridiculous to wear flowers on your
hat than on your dress," protested Anne. "Lots of little girls there had
bouquets pinned on their dresses. What's the difference?"
- Marilla was not to be drawn from the safe concrete into dubious paths
of the abstract.
- "Don't answer me back like that, Anne. It was very silly of you to
do such a thing. Never let me catch you at such a trick again. Mrs. Rachel says she
thought she would sink through the floor when she come in all rigged out like that. She
couldn't get near enough to tell you to take them off till it was too late. She says
people talked about it something dreadful. Of course they would think I had no better
sense than to let you go decked out like that."
- "Oh, I'm so sorry," said Anne, tears welling into her eyes.
"I never thought you'd mind. The roses and buttercups were so sweet and pretty I
thought they'd look lovely on my hat. Lots of the little girls had artificial flowers on
their hats. I'm afraid I'm going to be a dreadful trial to you. Maybe you'd better send me
back to the asylum. That would be terrible; I don't think I could endure it; most likely I
would go into consumption; I'm so thin as it is, you see. But that would be better than
being a trial to you."
- "Nonsense," said Marilla, vexed at herself for having made
the child cry. "I don't want to send you back to the asylum, I'm sure. All I want is
that you should behave like other little girls and not make yourself ridiculous. Don't cry
any more. I've got some news for you. Diana Barry came home this afternoon. I'm going up
to see if I can borrow a skirt pattern from Mrs. Barry, and if you like you can come with
me and get acquainted with Diana."
- Anne rose to her feet, with clasped hands, the tears still glistening
on her cheeks; the dish towel she had been hemming slipped unheeded to the floor.
- "Oh, Marilla, I'm frightened--now that it has come I'm actually
frightened. What if she shouldn't like me! It would be the most tragical disappointment of
my life."
- "Now, don't get into a fluster. And I do wish you wouldn't use
such long words. It sounds so funny in a little girl. I guess Diana'll like you well
enough. It's her mother you've got to reckon with. If she doesn't like you it won't matter
how much Diana does. If she has heard about your outburst to Mrs. Lynde and going to
church with buttercups round your hat I don't know what she'll think of you. You must be
polite and well behaved, and don't make any of your startling speeches. For pity's sake,
if the child isn't actually trembling!"
- Anne WAS trembling. Her face was pale and tense.
- "Oh, Marilla, you'd be excited, too, if you were going to meet a
little girl you hoped to be your bosom friend and whose mother mightn't like you,"
she said as she hastened to get her hat.
- They went over to Orchard Slope by the short cut across the brook and
up the firry hill grove. Mrs. Barry came to the kitchen door in answer to Marilla's knock.
She was a tall black-eyed, black-haired woman, with a very resolute mouth. She had the
reputation of being very strict with her children.
- "How do you do, Marilla?" she said cordially. "Come in.
And this is the little girl you have adopted, I suppose?"
- "Yes, this is Anne Shirley," said Marilla.
- "Spelled with an E," gasped Anne, who, tremulous and excited
as she was, was determined there should be no misunderstanding on that important point.
- Mrs. Barry, not hearing or not comprehending, merely shook hands and
said kindly:
- "How are you?"
- "I am well in body although considerable rumpled up in spirit,
thank you ma'am," said Anne gravely. Then aside to Marilla in an audible whisper,
"There wasn't anything startling in that, was there, Marilla?"
- Diana was sitting on the sofa, reading a book which she dropped when
the callers entered. She was a very pretty little girl, with her mother's black eyes and
hair, and rosy cheeks, and the merry expression which was her inheritance from her father.
- "This is my little girl Diana," said Mrs. Barry. "Diana,
you might take Anne out into the garden and show her your flowers. It will be better for
you than straining your eyes over that book. She reads entirely too much--" this to
Marilla as the little girls went out--"and I can't prevent her, for her father aids
and abets her. She's always poring over a book. I'm glad she has the prospect of a
playmate-- perhaps it will take her more out-of-doors."
- Outside in the garden, which was full of mellow sunset light streaming
through the dark old firs to the west of it, stood Anne and Diana, gazing bashfully at
each other over a clump of gorgeous tiger lilies.
- The Barry garden was a bowery wilderness of flowers which would have
delighted Anne's heart at any time less fraught with destiny. It was encircled by huge old
willows and tall firs, beneath which flourished flowers that loved the shade. Prim,
right-angled paths neatly bordered with clamshells, intersected it like moist red ribbons
and in the beds between old-fashioned flowers ran riot. There were rosy bleeding-hearts
and great splendid crimson peonies; white, fragrant narcissi and thorny, sweet Scotch
roses; pink and blue and white columbines and lilac-tinted Bouncing Bets; clumps of
southernwood and ribbon grass and mint; purple Adam-and-Eve, daffodils, and masses of
sweet clover white with its delicate, fragrant, feathery sprays; scarlet lightning that
shot its fiery lances over prim white musk-flowers; a garden it was where sunshine
lingered and bees hummed, and winds, beguiled into loitering, purred and rustled.
- "Oh, Diana," said Anne at last, clasping her hands and
speaking almost in a whisper, "oh, do you think you can like me a little--enough to
be my bosom friend?"
- Diana laughed. Diana always laughed before she spoke.
- "Why, I guess so," she said frankly. "I'm awfully glad
you've come to live at Green Gables. It will be jolly to have somebody to play with. There
isn't any other girl who lives near enough to play with, and I've no sisters big
enough."
- "Will you swear to be my friend forever and ever?" demanded
Anne eagerly.
- Diana looked shocked.
- "Why it's dreadfully wicked to swear," she said rebukingly.
- "Oh no, not my kind of swearing. There are two kinds, you
know."
- "I never heard of but one kind," said Diana doubtfully.
- "There really is another. Oh, it isn't wicked at all. It just
means vowing and promising solemnly."
- "Well, I don't mind doing that," agreed Diana, relieved.
"How do you do it?"
- "We must join hands--so," said Anne gravely. "It ought
to be over running water. We'll just imagine this path is running water. I'll repeat the
oath first. I solemnly swear to be faithful to my bosom friend, Diana Barry, as long as
the sun and moon shall endure. Now you say it and put my name in."
- Diana repeated the "oath" with a laugh fore and aft. Then she
said:
- "You're a queer girl, Anne. I heard before that you were queer.
But I believe I'm going to like you real well."
- When Marilla and Anne went home Diana went with them as for as the log
bridge. The two little girls walked with their arms about each other. At the brook they
parted with many promises to spend the next afternoon together.
- "Well, did you find Diana a kindred spirit?" asked Marilla as
they went up through the garden of Green Gables.
- "Oh yes," sighed Anne, blissfully unconscious of any sarcasm
on Marilla's part. "Oh Marilla, I'm the happiest girl on Prince Edward Island this
very moment. I assure you I'll say my prayers with a right good-will tonight. Diana and I
are going to build a playhouse in Mr. William Bell's birch grove tomorrow. Can I have
those broken pieces of china that are out in the woodshed? Diana's birthday is in February
and mine is in March. Don't you think that is a very strange coincidence? Diana is going
to lend me a book to read. She says it's perfectly splendid and tremendously exciting.
She's going to show me a place back in the woods where rice lilies grow. Don't you think
Diana has got very soulful eyes? I wish I had soulful eyes. Diana is going to teach me to
sing a song called `Nelly in the Hazel Dell.' She's going to give me a picture to put up
in my room; it's a perfectly beautiful picture, she says--a lovely lady in a pale blue
silk dress. A sewing-machine agent gave it to her. I wish I had something to give Diana.
I'm an inch taller than Diana, but she is ever so much fatter; she says she'd like to be
thin because it's so much more graceful, but I'm afraid she only said it to soothe my
feelings. We're going to the shore some day to gather shells. We have agreed to call the
spring down by the log bridge the Dryad's Bubble. Isn't that a perfectly elegant name? I
read a story once about a spring called that. A dryad is sort of a grown-up fairy, I
think."
- "Well, all I hope is you won't talk Diana to death," said
Marilla. "But remember this in all your planning, Anne. You're not going to play all
the time nor most of it. You'll have your work to do and it'll have to be done
first."
- Anne's cup of happiness was full, and Matthew caused it to overflow. He
had just got home from a trip to the store at Carmody, and he sheepishly produced a small
parcel from his pocket and handed it to Anne, with a deprecatory look at Marilla.
- "I heard you say you liked chocolate sweeties, so I got you
some," he said.
- "Humph," sniffed Marilla. "It'll ruin her teeth and
stomach. There, there, child, don't look so dismal. You can eat those, since Matthew has
gone and got them. He'd better have brought you peppermints. They're wholesomer. Don't
sicken yourself eating all them at once now."
- "Oh, no, indeed, I won't," said Anne eagerly. "I'll just
eat one tonight, Marilla. And I can give Diana half of them, can't I? The other half will
taste twice as sweet to me if I give some to her. It's delightful to think I have
something to give her."
- "I will say it for the child," said Marilla when Anne had
gone to her gable, "she isn't stingy. I'm glad, for of all faults I detest stinginess
in a child. Dear me, it's only three weeks since she came, and it seems as if she'd been
here always. I can't imagine the place without her. Now, don't be looking I told-you-so,
Matthew. That's bad enough in a woman, but it isn't to be endured in a man. I'm perfectly
willing to own up that I'm glad I consented to keep the child and that I'm getting fond of
her, but don't you rub it in, Matthew Cuthbert."
- CHAPTER XIII
- The Delights of Anticipation
- "It's time Anne was in to do her sewing," said Marilla,
glancing at the clock and then out into the yellow August afternoon where everything
drowsed in the heat. "She stayed playing with Diana more than half an hour more'n I
gave her leave to; and now she's perched out there on the woodpile talking to Matthew,
nineteen to the dozen, when she knows perfectly well she ought to be at her work. And of
course he's listening to her like a perfect ninny. I never saw such an infatuated man. The
more she talks and the odder the things she says, the more he's delighted evidently. Anne
Shirley, you come right in here this minute, do you hear me!"
- A series of staccato taps on the west window brought Anne flying in
from the yard, eyes shining, cheeks faintly flushed with pink, unbraided hair streaming
behind her in a torrent of brightness.
- "Oh, Marilla," she exclaimed breathlessly, "there's
going to be a Sunday-school picnic next week--in Mr. Harmon Andrews's field, right near
the lake of Shining Waters. And Mrs. Superintendent Bell and Mrs. Rachel Lynde are going
to make ice cream--think of it, Marilla--ICE CREAM! And, oh, Marilla, can I go to
it?"
- "Just look at the clock, if you please, Anne. What time did I tell
you to come in?"
- "Two o'clock--but isn't it splendid about the picnic, Marilla?
Please can I go? Oh, I've never been to a picnic--I've dreamed of picnics, but I've
never--"
- "Yes, I told you to come at two o'clock. And it's a quarter to
three. I'd like to know why you didn't obey me, Anne."
- "Why, I meant to, Marilla, as much as could be. But you have no
idea how fascinating Idlewild is. And then, of course, I had to tell Matthew about the
picnic. Matthew is such a sympathetic listener. Please can I go?"
- "You'll have to learn to resist the fascination of Idlewhatever-
you-call-it. When I tell you to come in at a certain time I mean that time and not half an
hour later. And you needn't stop to discourse with sympathetic listeners on your way,
either. As for the picnic, of course you can go. You're a Sunday-school scholar, and it's
not likely I'd refuse to let you go when all the other little girls are going."
- "But--but," faltered Anne, "Diana says that everybody
must take a basket of things to eat. I can't cook, as you know, Marilla, and--and--I don't
mind going to a picnic without puffed sleeves so much, but I'd feel terribly humiliated if
I had to go without a basket. It's been preying on my mind ever since Diana told me."
- "Well, it needn't prey any longer. I'll bake you a basket."
- "Oh, you dear good Marilla. Oh, you are so kind to me. Oh, I'm so
much obliged to you."
- Getting through with her "ohs" Anne cast herself into
Marilla's arms and rapturously kissed her sallow cheek. It was the first time in her whole
life that childish lips had voluntarily touched Marilla's face. Again that sudden
sensation of startling sweetness thrilled her. She was secretly vastly pleased at Anne's
impulsive caress, which was probably the reason why she said brusquely:
- "There, there, never mind your kissing nonsense. I'd sooner see
you doing strictly as you're told. As for cooking, I mean to begin giving you lessons in
that some of these days. But you're so featherbrained, Anne, I've been waiting to see if
you'd sober down a little and learn to be steady before I begin. You've got to keep your
wits about you in cooking and not stop in the middle of things to let your thoughts rove
all over creation. Now, get out your patchwork and have your square done before
teatime."
- "I do NOT like patchwork," said Anne dolefully, hunting out
her workbasket and sitting down before a little heap of red and white diamonds with a
sigh. "I think some kinds of sewing would be nice; but there's no scope for
imagination in patchwork. It's just one little seam after another and you never seem to be
getting anywhere. But of course I'd rather be Anne of Green Gables sewing patchwork than
Anne of any other place with nothing to do but play. I wish time went as quick sewing
patches as it does when I'm playing with Diana, though. Oh, we do have such elegant times,
Marilla. I have to furnish most of the imagination, but I'm well able to do that. Diana is
simply perfect in every other way. You know that little piece of land across the brook
that runs up between our farm and Mr. Barry's. It belongs to Mr. William Bell, and right
in the corner there is a little ring of white birch trees--the most romantic spot,
Marilla. Diana and I have our playhouse there. We call it Idlewild. Isn't that a poetical
name? I assure you it took me some time to think it out. I stayed awake nearly a whole
night before I invented it. Then, just as I was dropping off to sleep, it came like an
inspiration. Diana was ENRAPTURED when she heard it. We have got our house fixed up
elegantly. You must come and see it, Marilla--won't you? We have great big stones, all
covered with moss, for seats, and boards from tree to tree for shelves. And we have all
our dishes on them. Of course, they're all broken but it's the easiest thing in the world
to imagine that they are whole. There's a piece of a plate with a spray of red and yellow
ivy on it that is especially beautiful. We keep it in the parlor and we have the fairy
glass there, too. The fairy glass is as lovely as a dream. Diana found it out in the woods
behind their chicken house. It's all full of rainbows--just little young rainbows that
haven't grown big yet--and Diana's mother told her it was broken off a hanging lamp they
once had. But it's nice to imagine the fairies lost it one night when they had a ball, so
we call it the fairy glass. Matthew is going to make us a table. Oh, we have named that
little round pool over in Mr. Barry's field Willowmere. I got that name out of the book
Diana lent me. That was a thrilling book, Marilla. The heroine had five lovers. I'd be
satisfied with one, wouldn't you? She was very handsome and she went through great
tribulations. She could faint as easy as anything. I'd love to be able to faint, wouldn't
you, Marilla? It's so romantic. But I'm really very healthy for all I'm so thin. I believe
I'm getting fatter, though. Don't you think I am? I look at my elbows every morning when I
get up to see if any dimples are coming. Diana is having a new dress made with elbow
sleeves. She is going to wear it to the picnic. Oh, I do hope it will be fine next
Wednesday. I don't feel that I could endure the disappointment if anything happened to
prevent me from getting to the picnic. I suppose I'd live through it, but I'm certain it
would be a lifelong sorrow. It wouldn't matter if I got to a hundred picnics in after
years; they wouldn't make up for missing this one. They're going to have boats on the Lake
of Shining Waters--and ice cream, as I told you. I have never tasted ice cream. Diana
tried to explain what it was like, but I guess ice cream is one of those things that are
beyond imagination."
- "Anne, you have talked even on for ten minutes by the clock,"
said Marilla. "Now, just for curiosity's sake, see if you can hold your tongue for
the same length of time."
- Anne held her tongue as desired. But for the rest of the week she
talked picnic and thought picnic and dreamed picnic. On Saturday it rained and she worked
herself up into such a frantic state lest it should keep on raining until and over
Wednesday that Marilla made her sew an extra patchwork square by way of steadying her
nerves.
- On Sunday Anne confided to Marilla on the way home from church that she
grew actually cold all over with excitement when the minister announced the picnic from
the pulpit.
- "Such a thrill as went up and down my back, Marilla! I don't think
I'd ever really believed until then that there was honestly going to be a picnic. I
couldn't help fearing I'd only imagined it. But when a minister says a thing in the pulpit
you just have to believe it."
- "You set your heart too much on things, Anne," said Marilla,
with a sigh. "I'm afraid there'll be a great many disappointments in store for you
through life."
- "Oh, Marilla, looking forward to things is half the pleasure of
them," exclaimed Anne. "You mayn't get the things themselves; but nothing can
prevent you from having the fun of looking forward to them. Mrs. Lynde says, `Blessed are
they who expect nothing for they shall not be disappointed.' But I think it would be worse
to expect nothing than to be disappointed."
- Marilla wore her amethyst brooch to church that day as usual. Marilla
always wore her amethyst brooch to church. She would have thought it rather sacrilegious
to leave it off--as bad as forgetting her Bible or her collection dime. That amethyst
brooch was Marilla's most treasured possession. A seafaring uncle had given it to her
mother who in turn had bequeathed it to Marilla. It was an old-fashioned oval, containing
a braid of her mother's hair, surrounded by a border of very fine amethysts. Marilla knew
too little about precious stones to realize how fine the amethysts actually were; but she
thought them very beautiful and was always pleasantly conscious of their violet shimmer at
her throat, above her good brown satin dress, even although she could not see it.
- Anne had been smitten with delighted admiration when she first saw that
brooch.
- "Oh, Marilla, it's a perfectly elegant brooch. I don't know how
you can pay attention to the sermon or the prayers when you have it on. I couldn't, I
know. I think amethysts are just sweet. They are what I used to think diamonds were like.
Long ago, before I had ever seen a diamond, I read about them and I tried to imagine what
they would be like. I thought they would be lovely glimmering purple stones. When I saw a
real diamond in a lady's ring one day I was so disappointed I cried. Of course, it was
very lovely but it wasn't my idea of a diamond. Will you let me hold the brooch for one
minute, Marilla? Do you think amethysts can be the souls of good violets?"
- CHAPTER XIV
- Anne's Confession
- ON the Monday evening before the picnic Marilla came down from her room
with a troubled face.
- "Anne," she said to that small personage, who was shelling
peas by the spotless table and singing, "Nelly of the Hazel Dell" with a vigor
and expression that did credit to Diana's teaching, "did you see anything of my
amethyst brooch? I thought I stuck it in my pincushion when I came home from church
yesterday evening, but I can't find it anywhere."
- "I--I saw it this afternoon when you were away at the Aid
Society," said Anne, a little slowly. "I was passing your door when I saw it on
the cushion, so I went in to look at it."
- "Did you touch it?" said Marilla sternly.
- "Y-e-e-s," admitted Anne, "I took it up and I pinned it
on my breast just to see how it would look."
- "You had no business to do anything of the sort. It's very wrong
in a little girl to meddle. You shouldn't have gone into my room in the first place and
you shouldn't have touched a brooch that didn't belong to you in the second. Where did you
put it?"
- "Oh, I put it back on the bureau. I hadn't it on a minute. Truly,
I didn't mean to meddle, Marilla. I didn't think about its being wrong to go in and try on
the brooch; but I see now that it was and I'll never do it again. That's one good thing
about me. I never do the same naughty thing twice."
- "You didn't put it back," said Marilla. "That brooch
isn't anywhere on the bureau. You've taken it out or something, Anne."
- "I did put it back," said Anne quickly--pertly, Marilla
thought. "I don't just remember whether I stuck it on the pincushion or laid it in
the china tray. But I'm perfectly certain I put it back."
- "I'll go and have another look," said Marilla, determining to
be just. "If you put that brooch back it's there still. If it isn't I'll know you
didn't, that's all!"
- Marilla went to her room and made a thorough search, not only over the
bureau but in every other place she thought the brooch might possibly be. It was not to be
found and she returned to the kitchen.
- "Anne, the brooch is gone. By your own admission you were the last
person to handle it. Now, what have you done with it? Tell me the truth at once. Did you
take it out and lose it?"
- "No, I didn't," said Anne solemnly, meeting Marilla's angry
gaze squarely. "I never took the brooch out of your room and that is the truth, if I
was to be led to the block for it--although I'm not very certain what a block is. So
there, Marilla."
- Anne's "so there" was only intended to emphasize her
assertion, but Marilla took it as a display of defiance.
- "I believe you are telling me a falsehood, Anne," she said
sharply. "I know you are. There now, don't say anything more unless you are prepared
to tell the whole truth. Go to your room and stay there until you are ready to
confess."
- "Will I take the peas with me?" said Anne meekly.
- "No, I'll finish shelling them myself. Do as I bid you."
- When Anne had gone Marilla went about her evening tasks in a very
disturbed state of mind. She was worried about her valuable brooch. What if Anne had lost
it? And how wicked of the child to deny having taken it, when anybody could see she must
have! With such an innocent face, too!
- "I don't know what I wouldn't sooner have had happen,"
thought Marilla, as she nervously shelled the peas. "Of course, I don't suppose she
meant to steal it or anything like that. She's just taken it to play with or help along
that imagination of hers. She must have taken it, that's clear, for there hasn't been a
soul in that room since she was in it, by her own story, until I went up tonight. And the
brooch is gone, there's nothing surer. I suppose she has lost it and is afraid to own up
for fear she'll be punished. It's a dreadful thing to think she tells falsehoods. It's a
far worse thing than her fit of temper. It's a fearful responsibility to have a child in
your house you can't trust. Slyness and untruthfulness--that's what she has displayed. I
declare I feel worse about that than about the brooch. If she'd only have told the truth
about it I wouldn't mind so much."
- Marilla went to her room at intervals all through the evening and
searched for the brooch, without finding it. A bedtime visit to the east gable produced no
result. Anne persisted in denying that she knew anything about the brooch but Marilla was
only the more firmly convinced that she did.
- She told Matthew the story the next morning. Matthew was confounded and
puzzled; he could not so quickly lose faith in Anne but he had to admit that circumstances
were against her.
- "You're sure it hasn't fell down behind the bureau?" was the
only suggestion he could offer.
- "I've moved the bureau and I've taken out the drawers and I've
looked in every crack and cranny" was Marilla's positive answer. "The brooch is
gone and that child has taken it and lied about it. That's the plain, ugly truth, Matthew
Cuthbert, and we might as well look it in the face."
- "Well now, what are you going to do about it?" Matthew asked
forlornly, feeling secretly thankful that Marilla and not he had to deal with the
situation. He felt no desire to put his oar in this time.
- "She'll stay in her room until she confesses," said Marilla
grimly, remembering the success of this method in the former case. "Then we'll see.
Perhaps we'll be able to find the brooch if she'll only tell where she took it; but in any
case she'll have to be severely punished, Matthew."
- "Well now, you'll have to punish her," said Matthew, reaching
for his hat. "I've nothing to do with it, remember. You warned me off yourself."
- Marilla felt deserted by everyone. She could not even go to Mrs. Lynde
for advice. She went up to the east gable with a very serious face and left it with a face
more serious still. Anne steadfastly refused to confess. She persisted in asserting that
she had not taken the brooch. The child had evidently been crying and Marilla felt a pang
of pity which she sternly repressed. By night she was, as she expressed it, "beat
out."
- "You'll stay in this room until you confess, Anne. You can make up
your mind to that," she said firmly.
- "But the picnic is tomorrow, Marilla," cried Anne. "You
won't keep me from going to that, will you? You'll just let me out for the afternoon,
won't you? Then I'll stay here as long as you like AFTERWARDS cheerfully. But I MUST go to
the picnic."
- "You'll not go to picnics nor anywhere else until you've
confessed, Anne."
- "Oh, Marilla," gasped Anne.
- But Marilla had gone out and shut the door.
- Wednesday morning dawned as bright and fair as if expressly made to
order for the picnic. Birds sang around Green Gables; the Madonna lilies in the garden
sent out whiffs of perfume that entered in on viewless winds at every door and window, and
wandered through halls and rooms like spirits of benediction. The birches in the hollow
waved joyful hands as if watching for Anne's usual morning greeting from the east gable.
But Anne was not at her window. When Marilla took her breakfast up to her she found the
child sitting primly on her bed, pale and resolute, with tight-shut lips and gleaming
eyes.
- "Marilla, I'm ready to confess."
- "Ah!" Marilla laid down her tray. Once again her method had
succeeded; but her success was very bitter to her. "Let me hear what you have to say
then, Anne."
- "I took the amethyst brooch," said Anne, as if repeating a
lesson she had learned. "I took it just as you said. I didn't mean to take it when I
went in. But it did look so beautiful, Marilla, when I pinned it on my breast that I was
overcome by an irresistible temptation. I imagined how perfectly thrilling it would be to
take it to Idlewild and play I was the Lady Cordelia Fitzgerald. It would be so much
easier to imagine I was the Lady Cordelia if I had a real amethyst brooch on. Diana and I
make necklaces of roseberries but what are roseberries compared to amethysts? So I took
the brooch. I thought I could put it back before you came home. I went all the way around
by the road to lengthen out the time. When I was going over the bridge across the Lake of
Shining Waters I took the brooch off to have another look at it. Oh, how it did shine in
the sunlight! And then, when I was leaning over the bridge, it just slipped through my
fingers--so--and went down--down--down, all purplysparkling, and sank forevermore beneath
the Lake of Shining Waters. And that's the best I can do at confessing, Marilla."
- Marilla felt hot anger surge up into her heart again. This child had
taken and lost her treasured amethyst brooch and now sat there calmly reciting the details
thereof without the least apparent compunction or repentance.
- "Anne, this is terrible," she said, trying to speak calmly.
"You are the very wickedest girl I ever heard of"
- "Yes, I suppose I am," agreed Anne tranquilly. "And I
know I'll have to be punished. It'll be your duty to punish me, Marilla. Won't you please
get it over right off because I'd like to go to the picnic with nothing on my mind."
- "Picnic, indeed! You'll go to no picnic today, Anne Shirley. That
shall be your punishment. And it isn't half severe enough either for what you've
done!"
- "Not go to the picnic!" Anne sprang to her feet and clutched
Marilla's hand. "But you PROMISED me I might! Oh, Marilla, I must go to the picnic.
That was why I confessed. Punish me any way you like but that. Oh, Marilla, please,
please, let me go to the picnic. Think of the ice cream! For anything you know I may never
have a chance to taste ice cream again."
- Marilla disengaged Anne's clinging hands stonily.
- "You needn't plead, Anne. You are not going to the picnic and
that's final. No, not a word."
- Anne realized that Marilla was not to be moved. She clasped her hands
together, gave a piercing shriek, and then flung herself face downward on the bed, crying
and writhing in an utter abandonment of disappointment and despair.
- "For the land's sake!" gasped Marilla, hastening from the
room. "I believe the child is crazy. No child in her senses would behave as she does.
If she isn't she's utterly bad. Oh dear, I'm afraid Rachel was right from the first. But
I've put my hand to the plow and I won't look back."
- That was a dismal morning. Marilla worked fiercely and scrubbed the
porch floor and the dairy shelves when she could find nothing else to do. Neither the
shelves nor the porch needed it--but Marilla did. Then she went out and raked the yard.
- When dinner was ready she went to the stairs and called Anne. A
tear-stained face appeared, looking tragically over the banisters.
- "Come down to your dinner, Anne."
- "I don't want any dinner, Marilla," said Anne, sobbingly.
"I couldn't eat anything. My heart is broken. You'll feel remorse of conscience
someday, I expect, for breaking it, Marilla, but I forgive you. Remember when the time
comes that I forgive you. But please don't ask me to eat anything, especially boiled pork
and greens. Boiled pork and greens are so unromantic when one is in affliction."
- Exasperated, Marilla returned to the kitchen and poured out her tale of
woe to Matthew, who, between his sense of justice and his unlawful sympathy with Anne, was
a miserable man.
- "Well now, she shouldn't have taken the brooch, Marilla, or told
stories about it," he admitted, mournfuly surveying his plateful of unromantic pork
and greens as if he, like Anne, thought it a food unsuited to crises of feeling, "but
she's such a little thing--such an interesting little thing. Don't you think it's pretty
rough not to let her go to the picnic when she's so set on it?"
- "Matthew Cuthbert, I'm amazed at you. I think I've let her off
entirely too easy. And she doesn't appear to realize how wicked she's been at all--that's
what worries me most. If she'd really felt sorry it wouldn't be so bad. And you don't seem
to realize it, neither; you're making excuses for her all the time to yourself--I can see
that."
- "Well now, she's such a little thing," feebly reiterated
Matthew. "And there should be allowances made, Marilla. You know she's never had any
bringing up."
- "Well, she's having it now" retorted Marilla.
- The retort silenced Matthew if it did not convince him. That dinner was
a very dismal meal. The only cheerful thing about it was Jerry Buote, the hired boy, and
Marilla resented his cheerfulness as a personal insult.
- When her dishes were washed and her bread sponge set and her hens fed
Marilla remembered that she had noticed a small rent in her best black lace shawl when she
had taken it off on Monday afternoon on returning from the Ladies' Aid.
- She would go and mend it. The shawl was in a box in her trunk. As
Marilla lifted it out, the sunlight, falling through the vines that clustered thickly
about the window, struck upon something caught in the shawl--something that glittered and
sparkled in facets of violet light. Marilla snatched at it with a gasp. It was the
amethyst brooch, hanging to a thread of the lace by its catch!
- "Dear life and heart," said Marilla blankly, "what does
this mean? Here's my brooch safe and sound that I thought was at the bottom of Barry's
pond. Whatever did that girl mean by saying she took it and lost it? I declare I believe
Green Gables is bewitched. I remember now that when I took off my shawl Monday afternoon I
laid it on the bureau for a minute. I suppose the brooch got caught in it somehow.
Well!"
- Marilla betook herself to the east gable, brooch in hand. Anne had
cried herself out and was sitting dejectedly by the window.
- "Anne Shirley," said Marilla solemnly, "I've just found
my brooch hanging to my black lace shawl. Now I want to know what that rigmarole you told
me this morning meant."
- "Why, you said you'd keep me here until I confessed,"
returned Anne wearily, "and so I decided to confess because I was bound to get to the
picnic. I thought out a confession last night after I went to bed and made it as
interesting as I could. And I said it over and over so that I wouldn't forget it. But you
wouldn't let me go to the picnic after all, so all my trouble was wasted."
- Marilla had to laugh in spite of herself. But her conscience pricked
her.
- "Anne, you do beat all! But I was wrong--I see that now. I
shouldn't have doubted your word when I'd never known you to tell a story. Of course, it
wasn't right for you to confess to a thing you hadn't done--it was very wrong to do so.
But I drove you to it. So if you'll forgive me, Anne, I'll forgive you and we'll start
square again. And now get yourself ready for the picnic."
- Anne flew up like a rocket.
- "Oh, Marilla, isn't it too late?"
- "No, it's only two o'clock. They won't be more than well gathered
yet and it'll be an hour before they have tea. Wash your face and comb your hair and put
on your gingham. I'll fill a basket for you. There's plenty of stuff baked in the house.
And I'll get Jerry to hitch up the sorrel and drive you down to the picnic ground."
- "Oh, Marilla," exclaimed Anne, flying to the washstand.
"Five minutes ago I was so miserable I was wishing I'd never been born and now I
wouldn't change places with an angel!"
- That night a thoroughly happy, completely tired-out Anne returned to
Green Gables in a state of beatification impossible to describe.
- "Oh, Marilla, I've had a perfectly scrumptious time. Scrumptious
is a new word I learned today. I heard Mary Alice Bell use it. Isn't it very expressive?
Everything was lovely. We had a splendid tea and then Mr. Harmon Andrews took us all for a
row on the Lake of Shining Waters--six of us at a time. And Jane Andrews nearly fell
overboard. She was leaning out to pick water lilies and if Mr. Andrews hadn't caught her
by her sash just in the nick of time she'd fallen in and prob'ly been drowned. I wish it
had been me. It would have been such a romantic experience to have been nearly drowned. It
would be such a thrilling tale to tell. And we had the ice cream. Words fail me to
describe that ice cream. Marilla, I assure you it was sublime."
- That evening Marilla told the whole story to Matthew over her stocking
basket.
- "I'm willing to own up that I made a mistake," she concluded
candidly, "but I've learned a lesson. I have to laugh when I think of Anne's
`confession,' although I suppose I shouldn't for it really was a falsehood. But it doesn't
seem as bad as the other would have been, somehow, and anyhow I'm responsible for it. That
child is hard to understand in some respects. But I believe she'll turn out all right yet.
And there's one thing certain, no house will ever be dull that she's in."
- CHAPTER XV
- A Tempest in the School Teapot
- "What a splendid day!" said Anne, drawing a long breath.
"Isn't it good just to be alive on a day like this? I pity the people who aren't born
yet for missing it. They may have good days, of course, but they can never have this one.
And it's splendider still to have such a lovely way to go to school by, isn't it?"
- "It's a lot nicer than going round by the road; that is so dusty
and hot," said Diana practically, peeping into her dinner basket and mentally
calculating if the three juicy, toothsome, raspberry tarts reposing there were divided
among ten girls how many bites each girl would have.
- The little girls of Avonlea school always pooled their lunches, and to
eat three raspberry tarts all alone or even to share them only with one's best chum would
have forever and ever branded as "awful mean" the girl who did it. And yet, when
the tarts were divided among ten girls you just got enough to tantalize you.
- The way Anne and Diana went to school WAS a pretty one. Anne thought
those walks to and from school with Diana couldn't be improved upon even by imagination.
Going around by the main road would have been so unromantic; but to go by Lover's Lane and
Willowmere and Violet Vale and the Birch Path was romantic, if ever anything was.
- Lover's Lane opened out below the orchard at Green Gables and stretched
far up into the woods to the end of the Cuthbert farm. It was the way by which the cows
were taken to the back pasture and the wood hauled home in winter. Anne had named it
Lover's Lane before she had been a month at Green Gables.
- "Not that lovers ever really walk there," she explained to
Marilla, "but Diana and I are reading a perfectly magnificent book and there's a
Lover's Lane in it. So we want to have one, too. And it's a very pretty name, don't you
think? So romantic! We can't imagine the lovers into it, you know. I like that lane
because you can think out loud there without people calling you crazy."
- Anne, starting out alone in the morning, went down Lover's Lane as far
as the brook. Here Diana met her, and the two little girls went on up the lane under the
leafy arch of maples--"maples are such sociable trees," said Anne; "they're
always rustling and whispering to you"--until they came to a rustic bridge. Then they
left the lane and walked through Mr. Barry's back field and past Willowmere. Beyond
Willowmere came Violet Vale--a little green dimple in the shadow of Mr. Andrew Bell's big
woods. "Of course there are no violets there now," Anne told Marilla, "but
Diana says there are millions of them in spring. Oh, Marilla, can't you just imagine you
see them? It actually takes away my breath. I named it Violet Vale. Diana says she never
saw the beat of me for hitting on fancy names for places. It's nice to be clever at
something, isn't it? But Diana named the Birch Path. She wanted to, so I let her; but I'm
sure I could have found something more poetical than plain Birch Path. Anybody can think
of a name like that. But the Birch Path is one of the prettiest places in the world,
Marilla."
- It was. Other people besides Anne thought so when they stumbled on it.
It was a little narrow, twisting path, winding down over a long hill straight through Mr.
Bell's woods, where the light came down sifted through so many emerald screens that it was
as flawless as the heart of a diamond. It was fringed in all its length with slim young
birches, white stemmed and lissom boughed; ferns and starflowers and wild
lilies-of-the-valley and scarlet tufts of pigeonberries grew thickly along it; and always
there was a delightful spiciness in the air and music of bird calls and the murmur and
laugh of wood winds in the trees overhead. Now and then you might see a rabbit skipping
across the road if you were quiet--which, with Anne and Diana, happened about once in a
blue moon. Down in the valley the path came out to the main road and then it was just up
the spruce hill to the school.
- The Avonlea school was a whitewashed building, low in the eaves and
wide in the windows, furnished inside with comfortable substantial old-fashioned desks
that opened and shut, and were carved all over their lids with the initials and
hieroglyphics of three generations of school children. The schoolhouse was set back from
the road and behind it was a dusky fir wood and a brook where all the children put their
bottles of milk in the morning to keep cool and sweet until dinner hour.
- Marilla had seen Anne start off to school on the first day of September
with many secret misgivings. Anne was such an odd girl. How would she get on with the
other children? And how on earth would she ever manage to hold her tongue during school
hours?
- Things went better than Marilla feared, however. Anne came home that
evening in high spirits.
- "I think I'm going to like school here," she announced.
"I don't think much of the master, through. He's all the time curling his mustache
and making eyes at Prissy Andrews. Prissy is grown up, you know. She's sixteen and she's
studying for the entrance examination into Queen's Academy at Charlottetown next year.
Tillie Boulter says the master is DEAD GONE on her. She's got a beautiful complexion and
curly brown hair and she does it up so elegantly. She sits in the long seat at the back
and he sits there, too, most of the time--to explain her lessons, he says. But Ruby Gillis
says she saw him writing something on her slate and when Prissy read it she blushed as red
as a beet and giggled; and Ruby Gillis says she doesn't believe it had anything to do with
the lesson."
- "Anne Shirley, don't let me hear you talking about your teacher in
that way again," said Marilla sharply. "You don't go to school to criticize the
master. I guess he can teach YOU something, and it's your business to learn. And I want
you to understand right off that you are not to come home telling tales about him. That is
something I won't encourage. I hope you were a good girl."
- "Indeed I was," said Anne comfortably. "It wasn't so
hard as you might imagine, either. I sit with Diana. Our seat is right by the window and
we can look down to the Lake of Shining Waters. There are a lot of nice girls in school
and we had scrumptious fun playing at dinnertime. It's so nice to have a lot of little
girls to play with. But of course I like Diana best and always will. I ADORE Diana. I'm
dreadfully far behind the others. They're all in the fifth book and I'm only in the
fourth. I feel that it's kind of a disgrace. But there's not one of them has such an
imagination as I have and I soon found that out. We had reading and geography and Canadian
history and dictation today. Mr. Phillips said my spelling was disgraceful and he held up
my slate so that everybody could see it, all marked over. I felt so mortified, Marilla; he
might have been politer to a stranger, I think. Ruby Gillis gave me an apple and Sophia
Sloane lent me a lovely pink card with `May I see you home?' on it. I'm to give it back to
her tomorrow. And Tillie Boulter let me wear her bead ring all the afternoon. Can I have
some of those pearl beads off the old pincushion in the garret to make myself a ring? And
oh, Marilla, Jane Andrews told me that Minnie MacPherson told her that she heard Prissy
Andrews tell Sara Gillis that I had a very pretty nose. Marilla, that is the first
compliment I have ever had in my life and you can't imagine what a strange feeling it gave
me. Marilla, have I really a pretty nose? I know you'll tell me the truth."
- "Your nose is well enough," said Marilla shortly. Secretly
she thought Anne's nose was a remarkable pretty one; but she had no intention of telling
her so.
- That was three weeks ago and all had gone smoothly so far. And now,
this crisp September morning, Anne and Diana were tripping blithely down the Birch Path,
two of the happiest little girls in Avonlea.
- "I guess Gilbert Blythe will be in school today," said Diana.
"He's been visiting his cousins over in New Brunswick all summer and he only came
home Saturday night. He's AW'FLY handsome, Anne. And he teases the girls something
terrible. He just torments our lives out."
- Diana's voice indicated that she rather liked having her life tormented
out than not.
- "Gilbert Blythe?" said Anne. "Isn't his name that's
written up on the porch wall with Julia Bell's and a big `Take Notice' over them?"
- "Yes," said Diana, tossing her head, "but I'm sure he
doesn't like Julia Bell so very much. I've heard him say he studied the multiplication
table by her freckles."
- "Oh, don't speak about freckles to me," implored Anne.
"It isn't delicate when I've got so many. But I do think that writing take-notices up
on the wall about the boys and girls is the silliest ever. I should just like to see
anybody dare to write my name up with a boy's. Not, of course," she hastened to add,
"that anybody would."
- Anne sighed. She didn't want her name written up. But it was a little
humiliating to know that there was no danger of it.
- "Nonsense," said Diana, whose black eyes and glossy tresses
had played such havoc with the hearts of Avonlea schoolboys that her name figured on the
porch walls in half a dozen take-notices. "It's only meant as a joke. And don't you
be too sure your name won't ever be written up. Charlie Sloane is DEAD GONE on you. He
told his mother--his MOTHER, mind you--that you were the smartest girl in school. That's
better than being good looking."
- "No, it isn't," said Anne, feminine to the core. "I'd
rather be pretty than clever. And I hate Charlie Sloane, I can't bear a boy with goggle
eyes. If anyone wrote my name up with his I'd never GET over it, Diana Barry. But it IS
nice to keep head of your class."
- "You'll have Gilbert in your class after this," said Diana,
"and he's used to being head of his class, I can tell you. He's only in the fourth
book although he's nearly fourteen. Four years ago his father was sick and had to go out
to Alberta for his health and Gilbert went with him. They were there three years and Gil
didn't go to school hardly any until they came back. You won't find it so easy to keep
head after this, Anne."
- "I'm glad," said Anne quickly. "I couldn't really feel
proud of keeping head of little boys and girls of just nine or ten. I got up yesterday
spelling `ebullition.' Josie Pye was head and, mind you, she peeped in her book. Mr.
Phillips didn't see her--he was looking at Prissy Andrews--but I did. I just swept her a
look of freezing scorn and she got as red as a beet and spelled it wrong after all."
- "Those Pye girls are cheats all round," said Diana
indignantly, as they climbed the fence of the main road. "Gertie Pye actually went
and put her milk bottle in my place in the brook yesterday. Did you ever? I don't speak to
her now."
- When Mr. Phillips was in the back of the room hearing Prissy Andrews's
Latin, Diana whispered to Anne,
- "That's Gilbert Blythe sitting right across the aisle from you,
Anne. Just look at him and see if you don't think he's handsome."
- Anne looked accordingly. She had a good chance to do so, for the said
Gilbert Blythe was absorbed in stealthily pinning the long yellow braid of Ruby Gillis,
who sat in front of him, to the back of her seat. He was a tall boy, with curly brown
hair, roguish hazel eyes, and a mouth twisted into a teasing smile. Presently Ruby Gillis
started up to take a sum to the master; she fell back into her seat with a little shriek,
believing that her hair was pulled out by the roots. Everybody looked at her and Mr.
Phillips glared so sternly that Ruby began to cry. Gilbert had whisked the pin out of
sight and was studying his history with the soberest face in the world; but when the
commotion subsided he looked at Anne and winked with inexpressible drollery.
- "I think your Gilbert Blythe IS handsome," confided Anne to
Diana, "but I think he's very bold. It isn't good manners to wink at a strange
girl."
- But it was not until the afternoon that things really began to happen.
- Mr. Phillips was back in the corner explaining a problem in algebra to
Prissy Andrews and the rest of the scholars were doing pretty much as they pleased eating
green apples, whispering, drawing pictures on their slates, and driving crickets harnessed
to strings, up and down aisle. Gilbert Blythe was trying to make Anne Shirley look at him
and failing utterly, because Anne was at that moment totally oblivious not only to the
very existence of Gilbert Blythe, but of every other scholar in Avonlea school itself.
With her chin propped on her hands and her eyes fixed on the blue glimpse of the Lake of
Shining Waters that the west window afforded, she was far away in a gorgeous dreamland
hearing and seeing nothing save her own wonderful visions.
- Gilbert Blythe wasn't used to putting himself out to make a girl look
at him and meeting with failure. She SHOULD look at him, that red-haired Shirley girl with
the little pointed chin and the big eyes that weren't like the eyes of any other girl in
Avonlea school.
- Gilbert reached across the aisle, picked up the end of Anne's long red
braid, held it out at arm's length and said in a piercing whisper:
- "Carrots! Carrots!"
- Then Anne looked at him with a vengeance!
- She did more than look. She sprang to her feet, her bright fancies
fallen into cureless ruin. She flashed one indignant glance at Gilbert from eyes whose
angry sparkle was swiftly quenched in equally angry tears.
- "You mean, hateful boy!" she exclaimed passionately.
"How dare you!"
- And then--thwack! Anne had brought her slate down on Gilbert's head and
cracked it--slate not head--clear across.
- Avonlea school always enjoyed a scene. This was an especially enjoyable
one. Everybody said "Oh" in horrified delight. Diana gasped. Ruby Gillis, who
was inclined to be hysterical, began to cry. Tommy Sloane let his team of crickets escape
him altogether while he stared open-mouthed at the tableau.
- Mr. Phillips stalked down the aisle and laid his hand heavily on Anne's
shoulder.
- "Anne Shirley, what does this mean?" he said angrily. Anne
returned no answer. It was asking too much of flesh and blood to expect her to tell before
the whole school that she had been called "carrots." Gilbert it was who spoke up
stoutly.
- "It was my fault Mr. Phillips. I teased her."
- Mr. Phillips paid no heed to Gilbert.
- "I am sorry to see a pupil of mine displaying such a temper and
such a vindictive spirit," he said in a solemn tone, as if the mere fact of being a
pupil of his ought to root out all evil passions from the hearts of small imperfect
mortals. "Anne, go and stand on the platform in front of the blackboard for the rest
of the afternoon."
- Anne would have infinitely preferred a whipping to this punishment
under which her sensitive spirit quivered as from a whiplash. With a white, set face she
obeyed. Mr. Phillips took a chalk crayon and wrote on the blackboard above her head.
- "Ann Shirley has a very bad temper. Ann Shirley must learn to
control her temper," and then read it out loud so that even the primer class, who
couldn't read writing, should understand it.
- Anne stood there the rest of the afternoon with that legend above her.
She did not cry or hang her head. Anger was still too hot in her heart for that and it
sustained her amid all her agony of humiliation. With resentful eyes and passion-red
cheeks she confronted alike Diana's sympathetic gaze and Charlie Sloane's indignant nods
and Josie Pye's malicious smiles. As for Gilbert Blythe, she would not even look at him.
She would NEVER look at him again! She would never speak to him!!
- When school was dismissed Anne marched out with her red head held high.
Gilbert Blythe tried to intercept her at the porch door.
- "I'm awfully sorry I made fun of your hair, Anne," he
whispered contritely. "Honest I am. Don't be mad for keeps, now"
- Anne swept by disdainfully, without look or sign of hearing. "Oh
how could you, Anne?" breathed Diana as they went down the road half reproachfully,
half admiringly. Diana felt that SHE could never have resisted Gilbert's plea.
- "I shall never forgive Gilbert Blythe," said Anne firmly.
"And Mr. Phillips spelled my name without an e, too. The iron has entered into my
soul, Diana."
- Diana hadn't the least idea what Anne meant but she understood it was
something terrible.
- "You mustn't mind Gilbert making fun of your hair," she said
soothingly. "Why, he makes fun of all the girls. He laughs at mine because it's so
black. He's called me a crow a dozen times; and I never heard him apologize for anything
before, either."
- "There's a great deal of difference between being called a crow
and being called carrots," said Anne with dignity. "Gilbert Blythe has hurt my
feelings EXCRUCIATINGLY, Diana."
- It is possible the matter might have blown over without more
excruciation if nothing else had happened. But when things begin to happen they are apt to
keep on.
- Avonlea scholars often spent noon hour picking gum in Mr. Bell's spruce
grove over the hill and across his big pasture field. From there they could keep an eye on
Eben Wright's house, where the master boarded. When they saw Mr. Phillips emerging
therefrom they ran for the schoolhouse; but the distance being about three times longer
than Mr. Wright's lane they were very apt to arrive there, breathless and gasping, some
three minutes too late.
- On the following day Mr. Phillips was seized with one of his spasmodic
fits of reform and announced before going home to dinner, that he should expect to find
all the scholars in their seats when he returned. Anyone who came in late would be
punished.
- All the boys and some of the girls went to Mr. Bell's spruce grove as
usual, fully intending to stay only long enough to "pick a chew." But spruce
groves are seductive and yellow nuts of gum beguiling; they picked and loitered and
strayed; and as usual the first thing that recalled them to a sense of the flight of time
was Jimmy Glover shouting from the top of a patriarchal old spruce "Master's
coming."
- The girls who were on the ground, started first and managed to reach
the schoolhouse in time but without a second to spare. The boys, who had to wriggle
hastily down from the trees, were later; and Anne, who had not been picking gum at all but
was wandering happily in the far end of the grove, waist deep among the bracken, singing
softly to herself, with a wreath of rice lilies on her hair as if she were some wild
divinity of the shadowy places, was latest of all. Anne could run like a deer, however;
run she did with the impish result that she overtook the boys at the door and was swept
into the schoolhouse among them just as Mr. Phillips was in the act of hanging up his hat.
- Mr. Phillips's brief reforming energy was over; he didn't want the
bother of punishing a dozen pupils; but it was necessary to do something to save his word,
so he looked about for a scapegoat and found it in Anne, who had dropped into her seat,
gasping for breath, with a forgotten lily wreath hanging askew over one ear and giving her
a particularly rakish and disheveled appearance.
- "Anne Shirley, since you seem to be so fond of the boys' company
we shall indulge your taste for it this afternoon," he said sarcastically. "Take
those flowers out of your hair and sit with Gilbert Blythe."
- The other boys snickered. Diana, turning pale with pity, plucked the
wreath from Anne's hair and squeezed her hand. Anne stared at the master as if turned to
stone.
- "Did you hear what I said, Anne?" queried Mr. Phillips
sternly.
- "Yes, sir," said Anne slowly "but I didn't suppose you
really meant it."
- "I assure you I did"--still with the sarcastic inflection
which all the children, and Anne especially, hated. It flicked on the raw. "Obey me
at once."
- For a moment Anne looked as if she meant to disobey. Then, realizing
that there was no help for it, she rose haughtily, stepped across the aisle, sat down
beside Gilbert Blythe, and buried her face in her arms on the desk. Ruby Gillis, who got a
glimpse of it as it went down, told the others going home from school that she'd
"acksually never seen anything like it--it was so white, with awful little red spots
in it."
- To Anne, this was as the end of all things. It was bad enough to be
singled out for punishment from among a dozen equally guilty ones; it was worse still to
be sent to sit with a boy, but that that boy should be Gilbert Blythe was heaping insult
on injury to a degree utterly unbearable. Anne felt that she could not bear it and it
would be of no use to try. Her whole being seethed with shame and anger and humiliation.
- At first the other scholars looked and whispered and giggled and
nudged. But as Anne never lifted her head and as Gilbert worked fractions as if his whole
soul was absorbed in them and them only, they soon returned to their own tasks and Anne
was forgotten. When Mr. Phillips called the history class out Anne should have gone, but
Anne did not move, and Mr. Phillips, who had been writing some verses "To
Priscilla" before he called the class, was thinking about an obstinate rhyme still
and never missed her. Once, when nobody was looking, Gilbert took from his desk a little
pink candy heart with a gold motto on it, "You are sweet," and slipped it under
the curve of Anne's arm. Whereupon Anne arose, took the pink heart gingerly between the
tips of her fingers, dropped it on the floor, ground it to powder beneath her heel, and
resumed her position without deigning to bestow a glance on Gilbert.
- When school went out Anne marched to her desk, ostentatiously took out
everything therein, books and writing tablet, pen and ink, testament and arithmetic, and
piled them neatly on her cracked slate.
- "What are you taking all those things home for, Anne?" Diana
wanted to know, as soon as they were out on the road. She had not dared to ask the
question before.
- "I am not coming back to school any more," said Anne. Diana
gasped and stared at Anne to see if she meant it.
- "Will Marilla let you stay home?" she asked.
- "She'll have to," said Anne. "I'll NEVER go to school to
that man again."
- "Oh, Anne!" Diana looked as if she were ready to cry. "I
do think you're mean. What shall I do? Mr. Phillips will make me sit with that horrid
Gertie Pye--I know he will because she is sitting alone. Do come back, Anne."
- "I'd do almost anything in the world for you, Diana," said
Anne sadly. "I'd let myself be torn limb from limb if it would do you any good. But I
can't do this, so please don't ask it. You harrow up my very soul."
- "Just think of all the fun you will miss," mourned Diana.
"We are going to build the loveliest new house down by the brook; and we'll be
playing ball next week and you've never played ball, Anne. It's tremendously exciting. And
we're going to learn a new song-- Jane Andrews is practicing it up now; and Alice Andrews
is going to bring a new Pansy book next week and we're all going to read it out loud,
chapter about, down by the brook. And you know you are so fond of reading out loud,
Anne."
- Nothing moved Anne in the least. Her mind was made up. She would not go
to school to Mr. Phillips again; she told Marilla so when she got home.
- "Nonsense," said Marilla.
- "It isn't nonsense at all," said Anne, gazing at Marilla with
solemn, reproachful eyes. "Don't you understand, Marilla? I've been insulted."
- "Insulted fiddlesticks! You'll go to school tomorrow as
usual."
- "Oh, no." Anne shook her head gently. "I'm not going
back, Marilla. "I'll learn my lessons at home and I'll be as good as I can be and
hold my tongue all the time if it's possible at all. But I will not go back to school, I
assure you."
- Marilla saw something remarkably like unyielding stubbornness looking
out of Anne's small face. She understood that she would have trouble in overcoming it; but
she re-solved wisely to say nothing more just then. "I'll run down and see Rachel
about it this evening," she thought. "There's no use reasoning with Anne now.
She's too worked up and I've an idea she can be awful stubborn if she takes the notion.
Far as I can make out from her story, Mr. Phillips has been carrying matters with a rather
high hand. But it would never do to say so to her. I'll just talk it over with Rachel.
She's sent ten children to school and she ought to know something about it. She'll have
heard the whole story, too, by this time."
- Marilla found Mrs. Lynde knitting quilts as industriously and
cheerfully as usual.
- "I suppose you know what I've come about," she said, a little
shamefacedly.
- Mrs. Rachel nodded.
- "About Anne's fuss in school, I reckon," she said.
"Tillie Boulter was in on her way home from school and told me about it."
"I don't know what to do with her," said Marilla. "She declares she won't
go back to school. I never saw a child so worked up. I've been expecting trouble ever
since she started to school. I knew things were going too smooth to last. She's so high
strung. What would you advise, Rachel?"
- "Well, since you've asked my advice, Marilla," said Mrs.
Lynde amiably--Mrs. Lynde dearly loved to be asked for advice--"I'd just humor her a
little at first, that's what I'd do. It's my belief that Mr. Phillips was in the wrong. Of
course, it doesn't do to say so to the children, you know. And of course he did right to
punish her yesterday for giving way to temper. But today it was different. The others who
were late should have been punished as well as Anne, that's what. And I don't believe in
making the girls sit with the boys for punishment. It isn't modest. Tillie Boulter was
real indignant. She took Anne's part right through and said all the scholars did too. Anne
seems real popular among them, somehow. I never thought she'd take with them so
well."
- "Then you really think I'd better let her stay home," said
Marilla in amazement.
- "Yes. That is I wouldn't say school to her again until she said it
herself. Depend upon it, Marilla, she'll cool off in a week or so and be ready enough to
go back of her own accord, that's what, while, if you were to make her go back right off,
dear knows what freak or tantrum she'd take next and make more trouble than ever. The less
fuss made the better, in my opinion. She won't miss much by not going to school, as far as
THAT goes. Mr. Phillips isn't any good at all as a teacher. The order he keeps is
scandalous, that's what, and he neglects the young fry and puts all his time on those big
scholars he's getting ready for Queen's. He'd never have got the school for another year
if his uncle hadn't been a trustee--THE trustee, for he just leads the other two around by
the nose, that's what. I declare, I don't know what education in this Island is coming
to."
- Mrs. Rachel shook her head, as much as to say if she were only at the
head of the educational system of the Province things would be much better managed.
- Marilla took Mrs. Rachel's advice and not another word was said to Anne
about going back to school. She learned her lessons at home, did her chores, and played
with Diana in the chilly purple autumn twilights; but when she met Gilbert Blythe on the
road or encountered him in Sunday school she passed him by with an icy contempt that was
no whit thawed by his evident desire to appease her. Even Diana's efforts as a peacemaker
were of no avail. Anne had evidently made up her mind to hate Gilbert Blythe to the end of
life.
- As much as she hated Gilbert, however, did she love Diana, with all the
love of her passionate little heart, equally intense in its likes and dislikes. One
evening Marilla, coming in from the orchard with a basket of apples, found Anne sitting
along by the east window in the twilight, crying bitterly.
- "Whatever's the matter now, Anne?" she asked.
- "It's about Diana," sobbed Anne luxuriously. "I love
Diana so, Marilla. I cannot ever live without her. But I know very well when we grow up
that Diana will get married and go away and leave me. And oh, what shall I do? I hate her
husband--I just hate him furiously. I've been imagining it all out--the wedding and
everything--Diana dressed in snowy garments, with a veil, and looking as beautiful and
regal as a queen; and me the bridesmaid, with a lovely dress too, and puffed sleeves, but
with a breaking heart hid beneath my smiling face. And then bidding Diana
goodbye-e-e--" Here Anne broke down entirely and wept with increasing bitterness.
- Marilla turned quickly away to hide her twitching face; but it was no
use; she collapsed on the nearest chair and burst into such a hearty and unusual peal of
laughter that Matthew, crossing the yard outside, halted in amazement. When had he heard
Marilla laugh like that before?
- "Well, Anne Shirley," said Marilla as soon as she could
speak, "if you must borrow trouble, for pity's sake borrow it handier home. I should
think you had an imagination, sure enough."
- CHAPTER XVI
- Diana Is Invited to Tea with Tragic Results
- OCTOBER was a beautiful month at Green Gables, when the birches in the
hollow turned as golden as sunshine and the maples behind the orchard were royal crimson
and the wild cherry trees along the lane put on the loveliest shades of dark red and
bronzy green, while the fields sunned themselves in aftermaths.
- Anne reveled in the world of color about her.
- "Oh, Marilla," she exclaimed one Saturday morning, coming
dancing in with her arms full of gorgeous boughs" 'I'm so glad I live in a world
where there are Octobers. It would be terrible if we just skipped from September to
November, wouldn't it? Look at these maple branches. Don't they give you a thrill--several
thrills? I'm going to decorate my room with them."
- "Messy things," said Marilla, whose aesthetic sense was not
noticeably developed. "You clutter up your room entirely too much with out-of-doors
stuff, Anne. Bedrooms were made to sleep in."
- "Oh, and dream in too, Marilla. And you know one can dream so much
better in a room where there are pretty things. I'm going to put these boughs in the old
blue jug and set them on my table."
- "Mind you don't drop leaves all over the stairs then. I'm going on
a meeting of the Aid Society at Carmody this afternoon, Anne, and I won't likely be home
before dark. You'll have to get Matthew and Jerry their supper, so mind you don't forget
to put the tea to draw until you sit down at the table as you did last time."
- "It was dreadful of me to forget," said Anne apologetically,
"but that was the afternoon I was trying to think of a name for Violet Vale and it
crowded other things out. Matthew was so good. He never scolded a bit. He put the tea down
himself and said we could wait awhile as well as not. And I told him a lovely fairy story
while we were waiting, so he didn't find the time long at all. It was a beautiful fairy
story, Marilla. I forgot the end of it, so I made up an end for it myself and Matthew said
he couldn't tell where the join came in."
- "Matthew would think it all right, Anne, if you took a notion to
get up and have dinner in the middle of the night. But you keep your wits about you this
time. And--I don't really know if I'm doing right--it may make you more addlepated than
ever--but you can ask Diana to come over and spend the afternoon with you and have tea
here."
- "Oh, Marilla!" Anne clasped her hands. "How perfectly
lovely! You ARE able to imagine things after all or else you'd never have understood how
I've longed for that very thing. It will seem so nice and grown-uppish. No fear of my
forgetting to put the tea to draw when I have company. Oh, Marilla, can I use the rosebud
spray tea set?"
- "No, indeed! The rosebud tea set! Well, what next? You know I
never use that except for the minister or the Aids. You'll put down the old brown tea set.
But you can open the little yellow crock of cherry preserves. It's time it was being used
anyhow--I believe it's beginning to work. And you can cut some fruit cake and have some of
the cookies and snaps."
- "I can just imagine myself sitting down at the head of the table
and pouring out the tea," said Anne, shutting her eyes ecstatically. "And asking
Diana if she takes sugar! I know she doesn't but of course I'll ask her just as if I
didn't know. And then pressing her to take another piece of fruit cake and another helping
of preserves. Oh, Marilla, it's a wonderful sensation just to think of it. Can I take her
into the spare room to lay off her hat when she comes? And then into the parlor to
sit?"
- "No. The sitting room will do for you and your company. But
there's a bottle half full of raspberry cordial that was left over from the church social
the other night. It's on the second shelf of the sitting-room closet and you and Diana can
have it if you like, and a cooky to eat with it along in the afternoon, for I daresay
Matthew'll be late coming in to tea since he's hauling potatoes to the vessel."
- Anne flew down to the hollow, past the Dryad's Bubble and up the spruce
path to Orchard Slope, to ask Diana to tea. As a result just after Marilla had driven off
to Carmody, Diana came over, dressed in HER second-best dress and looking exactly as it is
proper to look when asked out to tea. At other times she was wont to run into the kitchen
without knocking; but now she knocked primly at the front door. And when Anne, dressed in
her second best, as primly opened it, both little girls shook hands as gravely as if they
had never met before. This unnatural solemnity lasted until after Diana had been taken to
the east gable to lay off her hat and then had sat for ten minutes in the sitting room,
toes in position.
- "How is your mother?" inquired Anne politely, just as if she
had not seen Mrs. Barry picking apples that morning in excellent health and spirits.
- "She is very well, thank you. I suppose Mr. Cuthbert is hauling
potatoes to the LILY SANDS this afternoon, is he?" said Diana, who had ridden down to
Mr. Harmon Andrews's that morning in Matthew's cart.
- "Yes. Our potato crop is very good this year. I hope your father's
crop is good too."
- "It is fairly good, thank you. Have you picked many of your apples
yet?"
- "Oh, ever so many," said Anne forgetting to be dignified and
jumping up quickly. "Let's go out to the orchard and get some of the Red Sweetings,
Diana. Marilla says we can have all that are left on the tree. Marilla is a very generous
woman. She said we could have fruit cake and cherry preserves for tea. But it isn't good
manners to tell your company what you are going to give them to eat, so I won't tell you
what she said we could have to drink. Only it begins with an R and a C and it's bright red
color. I love bright red drinks, don't you? They taste twice as good as any other
color."
- The orchard, with its great sweeping boughs that bent to the ground
with fruit, proved so delightful that the little girls spent most of the afternoon in it,
sitting in a grassy corner where the frost had spared the green and the mellow autumn
sunshine lingered warmly, eating apples and talking as hard as they could. Diana had much
to tell Anne of what went on in school. She had to sit with Gertie Pye and she hated it;
Gertie squeaked her pencil all the time and it just made her--Diana's--blood run cold;
Ruby Gillis had charmed all her warts away, true's you live, with a magic pebble that old
Mary Joe from the Creek gave her. You had to rub the warts with the pebble and then throw
it away over your left shoulder at the time of the new moon and the warts would all go.
Charlie Sloane's name was written up with Em White's on the porch wall and Em White was
AWFUL MAD about it; Sam Boulter had "sassed" Mr. Phillips in class and Mr.
Phillips whipped him and Sam's father came down to the school and dared Mr. Phillips to
lay a hand on one of his children again; and Mattie Andrews had a new red hood and a blue
crossover with tassels on it and the airs she put on about it were perfectly sickening;
and Lizzie Wright didn't speak to Mamie Wilson because Mamie Wilson's grown-up sister had
cut out Lizzie Wright's grown-up sister with her beau; and everybody missed Anne so and
wished she's come to school again; and Gilbert Blythe--
- But Anne didn't want to hear about Gilbert Blythe. She jumped up
hurriedly and said suppose they go in and have some raspberry cordial.
- Anne looked on the second shelf of the room pantry but there was no
bottle of raspberry cordial there . Search revealed it away back on the top shelf. Anne
put it on a tray and set it on the table with a tumbler.
- "Now, please help yourself, Diana," she said politely.
"I don't believe I'll have any just now. I don't feel as if I wanted any after all
those apples."
- Diana poured herself out a tumblerful, looked at its bright-red hue
admiringly, and then sipped it daintily.
- "That's awfully nice raspberry cordial, Anne," she said.
"I didn't know raspberry cordial was so nice."
- "I'm real glad you like it. Take as much as you want. I'm going to
run out and stir the fire up. There are so many responsibilities on a person's mind when
they're keeping house, isn't there?"
- When Anne came back from the kitchen Diana was drinking her second
glassful of cordial; and, being entreated thereto by Anne, she offered no particular
objection to the drinking of a third. The tumblerfuls were generous ones and the raspberry
cordial was certainly very nice.
- "The nicest I ever drank," said Diana. "It's ever so
much nicer than Mrs. Lynde's, although she brags of hers so much. It doesn't taste a bit
like hers."
- "I should think Marilla's raspberry cordial would prob'ly be much
nicer than Mrs. Lynde's," said Anne loyally. "Marilla is a famous cook. She is
trying to teach me to cook but I assure you, Diana, it is uphill work. There's so little
scope for imagination in cookery. You just have to go by rules. The last time I made a
cake I forgot to put the flour in. I was thinking the loveliest story about you and me,
Diana. I thought you were desperately ill with smallpox and everybody deserted you, but I
went boldly to your bedside and nursed you back to life; and then I took the smallpox and
died and I was buried under those poplar trees in the graveyard and you planted a rosebush
by my grave and watered it with your tears; and you never, never forgot the friend of your
youth who sacrificed her life for you. Oh, it was such a pathetic tale, Diana. The tears
just rained down over my cheeks while I mixed the cake. But I forgot the flour and the
cake was a dismal failure. Flour is so essential to cakes, you know. Marilla was very
cross and I don't wonder. I'm a great trial to her. She was terribly mortified about the
pudding sauce last week. We had a plum pudding for dinner on Tuesday and there was half
the pudding and a pitcherful of sauce left over. Marilla said there was enough for another
dinner and told me to set it on the pantry shelf and cover it. I meant to cover it just as
much as could be, Diana, but when I carried it in I was imagining I was a nun--of course
I'm a Protestant but I imagined I was a Catholic--taking the veil to bury a broken heart
in cloistered seclusion; and I forgot all about covering the pudding sauce. I thought of
it next morning and ran to the pantry. Diana, fancy if you can my extreme horror at
finding a mouse drowned in that pudding sauce! I lifted the mouse out with a spoon and
threw it out in the yard and then I washed the spoon in three waters. Marilla was out
milking and I fully intended to ask her when she came in if I'd give the sauce to the
pigs; but when she did come in I was imagining that I was a frost fairy going through the
woods turning the trees red and yellow, whichever they wanted to be, so I never thought
about the pudding sauce again and Marilla sent me out to pick apples. Well, Mr. and Mrs.
Chester Ross from Spencervale came here that morning. You know they are very stylish
people, especially Mrs. Chester Ross. When Marilla called me in dinner was all ready and
everybody was at the table. I tried to be as polite and dignified as I could be, for I
wanted Mrs. Chester Ross to think I was a ladylike little girl even if I wasn't pretty.
Everything went right until I saw Marilla coming with the plum pudding in one hand and the
pitcher of pudding sauce WARMED UP, in the other. Diana, that was a terrible moment. I
remembered everything and I just stood up in my place and shrieked out `Marilla, you
mustn't use that pudding sauce. There was a mouse drowned in it. I forgot to tell you
before.' Oh, Diana, I shall never forget that awful moment if I live to be a hundred. Mrs.
Chester Ross just LOOKED at me and I thought I would sink through the floor with
mortification. She is such a perfect housekeeper and fancy what she must have thought of
us. Marilla turned red as fire but she never said a word--then. She just carried that
sauce and pudding out and brought in some strawberry preserves. She even offered me some,
but I couldn't swallow a mouthful. It was like heaping coals of fire on my head. After
Mrs. Chester Ross went away, Marilla gave me a dreadful scolding. Why, Diana, what is the
matter?"
- Diana had stood up very unsteadily; then she sat down again, putting
her hands to her head.
- "I'm--I'm awful sick," she said, a little thickly.
"I--I--must go right home."
- "Oh, you mustn't dream of going home without your tea," cried
Anne in distress. "I'll get it right off--I'll go and put the tea down this very
minute."
- "I must go home," repeated Diana, stupidly but determinedly.
- "Let me get you a lunch anyhow," implored Anne. "Let me
give you a bit of fruit cake and some of the cherry preserves. Lie down on the sofa for a
little while and you'll be better. Where do you feel bad?"
- "I must go home," said Diana, and that was all she would say.
In vain Anne pleaded.
- "I never heard of company going home without tea," she
mourned. "Oh, Diana, do you suppose that it's possible you're really taking the
smallpox? If you are I'll go and nurse you, you can depend on that. I'll never forsake
you. But I do wish you'd stay till after tea. Where do you feel bad?"
- "I'm awful dizzy," said Diana.
- And indeed, she walked very dizzily. Anne, with tears of disappointment
in her eyes, got Diana's hat and went with her as far as the Barry yard fence. Then she
wept all the way back to Green Gables, where she sorrowfully put the remainder of the
raspberry cordial back into the pantry and got tea ready for Matthew and Jerry, with all
the zest gone out of the performance.
- The next day was Sunday and as the rain poured down in torrents from
dawn till dusk Anne did not stir abroad from Green Gables. Monday afternoon Marilla sent
her down to Mrs. Lynde's on an errand. In a very short space of time Anne came flying back
up the lane with tears rolling down her cheeks. Into the kitchen she dashed and flung
herself face downward on the sofa in an agony.
- "Whatever has gone wrong now, Anne?" queried Marilla in doubt
and dismay. "I do hope you haven't gone and been saucy to Mrs. Lynde again."
- No answer from Anne save more tears and stormier sobs!
- "Anne Shirley, when I ask you a question I want to be answered.
Sit right up this very minute and tell me what you are crying about."
- Anne sat up, tragedy personified.
- "Mrs. Lynde was up to see Mrs. Barry today and Mrs. Barry was in
an awful state," she wailed. "She says that I set Diana DRUNK Saturday and sent
her home in a disgraceful condition. And she says I must be a thoroughly bad, wicked
little girl and she's never, never going to let Diana play with me again. Oh, Marilla, I'm
just overcome with woe."
- Marilla stared in blank amazement.
- "Set Diana drunk!" she said when she found her voice.
"Anne are you or Mrs. Barry crazy? What on earth did you give her?"
- "Not a thing but raspberry cordial," sobbed Anne. "I
never thought raspberry cordial would set people drunk, Marilla--not even if they drank
three big tumblerfuls as Diana did. Oh, it sounds so--so--like Mrs. Thomas's husband! But
I didn't mean to set her drunk."
- "Drunk fiddlesticks!" said Marilla, marching to the sitting
room pantry. There on the shelf was a bottle which she at once recognized as one
containing some of her three-year-old homemade currant wine for which she was celebrated
in Avonlea, although certain of the stricter sort, Mrs. Barry among them, disapproved
strongly of it. And at the same time Marilla recollected that she had put the bottle of
raspberry cordial down in the cellar instead of in the pantry as she had told Anne.
- She went back to the kitchen with the wine bottle in her hand. Her face
was twitching in spite of herself.
- "Anne, you certainly have a genius for getting into trouble. You
went and gave Diana currant wine instead of raspberry cordial. Didn't you know the
difference yourself?"
- "I never tasted it," said Anne. "I thought it was the
cordial. I meant to be so--so--hospitable. Diana got awfully sick and had to go home. Mrs.
Barry told Mrs. Lynde she was simply dead drunk. She just laughed silly-like when her
mother asked her what was the matter and went to sleep and slept for hours. Her mother
smelled her breath and knew she was drunk. She had a fearful headache all day yesterday.
Mrs. Barry is so indignant. She will never believe but what I did it on purpose."
- "I should think she would better punish Diana for being so greedy
as to drink three glassfuls of anything," said Marilla shortly. "Why, three of
those big glasses would have made her sick even if it had only been cordial. Well, this
story will be a nice handle for those folks who are so down on me for making currant wine,
although I haven't made any for three years ever since I found out that the minister
didn't approve. I just kept that bottle for sickness. There, there, child, don't cry. I
can't see as you were to blame although I'm sorry it happened so."
- "I must cry," said Anne. "My heart is broken. The stars
in their courses fight against me, Marilla. Diana and I are parted forever. Oh, Marilla, I
little dreamed of this when first we swore our vows of friendship."
- "Don't be foolish, Anne. Mrs. Barry will think better of it when
she finds you're not to blame. I suppose she thinks you've done it for a silly joke or
something of that sort. You'd best go up this evening and tell her how it was."
- "My courage fails me at the thought of facing Diana's injured
mother," sighed Anne. "I wish you'd go, Marilla. You're so much more dignified
than I am. Likely she'd listen to you quicker than to me."
- "Well, I will," said Marilla, reflecting that it would
probably be the wiser course. "Don't cry any more, Anne. It will be all right."
- Marilla had changed her mind about it being all right by the time she
got back from Orchard Slope. Anne was watching for her coming and flew to the porch door
to meet her.
- "Oh, Marilla, I know by your face that it's been no use," she
said sorrowfully. "Mrs. Barry won't forgive me?"
- "Mrs. Barry indeed!" snapped Marilla. "Of all the
unreasonable women I ever saw she's the worst. I told her it was all a mistake and you
weren't to blame, but she just simply didn't believe me. And she rubbed it well in about
my currant wine and how I'd always said it couldn't have the least effect on anybody. I
just told her plainly that currant wine wasn't meant to be drunk three tumblerfuls at a
time and that if a child I had to do with was so greedy I'd sober her up with a right good
spanking."
- Marilla whisked into the kitchen, grievously disturbed, leaving a very
much distracted little soul in the porch behind her. Presently Anne stepped out bareheaded
into the chill autumn dusk; very determinedly and steadily she took her way down through
the sere clover field over the log bridge and up through the spruce grove, lighted by a
pale little moon hanging low over the western woods. Mrs. Barry, coming to the door in
answer to a timid knock, found a white-lipped eager-eyed suppliant on the doorstep.
- Her face hardened. Mrs. Barry was a woman of strong prejudices and
dislikes, and her anger was of the cold, sullen sort which is always hardest to overcome.
To do her justice, she really believed Anne had made Diana drunk out of sheer malice
prepense,??? and she was honestly anxious to preserve her little daughter from the
contamination of further intimacy with such a child.
- "What do you want?" she said stiffly.
- Anne clasped her hands.
- "Oh, Mrs. Barry, please forgive me. I did not mean
to--to--intoxicate Diana. How could I? Just imagine if you were a poor little orphan girl
that kind people had adopted and you had just one bosom friend in all the world. Do you
think you would intoxicate her on purpose? I thought it was only raspberry cordial. I was
firmly convinced it was raspberry cordial. Oh, please don't say that you won't let Diana
play with me any more. If you do you will cover my life with a dark cloud of woe."
- This speech which would have softened good Mrs. Lynde's heart in a
twinkling, had no effect on Mrs. Barry except to irritate her still more. She was
suspicious of Anne's big words and dramatic gestures and imagined that the child was
making fun of her. So she said, coldly and cruelly:
- "I don't think you are a fit little girl for Diana to associate
with. You'd better go home and behave yourself."
- Anne's lips quivered.
- "Won't you let me see Diana just once to say farewell?" she
implored.
- "Diana has gone over to Carmody with her father," said Mrs.
Barry, going in and shutting the door.
- Anne went back to Green Gables calm with despair.
- "My last hope is gone," she told Marilla. "I went up and
saw Mrs. Barry myself and she treated me very insultingly. Marilla, I do NOT think she is
a well-bred woman. There is nothing more to do except to pray and I haven't much hope that
that'll do much good because, Marilla, I do not believe that God Himself can do very much
with such an obstinate person as Mrs. Barry."
- "Anne, you shouldn't say such things" rebuked Marilla,
striving to overcome that unholy tendency to laughter which she was dismayed to find
growing upon her. And indeed, when she told the whole story to Matthew that night, she did
laugh heartily over Anne's tribulations.
- But when she slipped into the east gable before going to bed and found
that Anne had cried herself to sleep an unaccustomed softness crept into her face.
- "Poor little soul," she murmured, lifting a loose curl of
hair from the child's tear-stained face. Then she bent down and kissed the flushed cheek
on the pillow.
- CHAPTER XVII A New Interest in Life
- THE next afternoon Anne, bending over her patchwork at the kitchen
window, happened to glance out and beheld Diana down by the Dryad's Bubble beckoning
mysteriously. In a trice Anne was out of the house and flying down to the hollow,
astonishment and hope struggling in her expressive eyes. But the hope faded when she saw
Diana's dejected countenance.
- "Your mother hasn't relented?" she gasped.
- Diana shook her head mournfully.
- "No; and oh, Anne, she says I'm never to play with you again. I've
cried and cried and I told her it wasn't your fault, but it wasn't any use. I had ever
such a time coaxing her to let me come down and say good-bye to you. She said I was only
to stay ten minutes and she's timing me by the clock."
- "Ten minutes isn't very long to say an eternal farewell in,"
said Anne tearfully. "Oh, Diana, will you promise faithfully never to forget me, the
friend of your youth, no matter what dearer friends may caress thee?"
- "Indeed I will," sobbed Diana, "and I'll never have
another bosom friend--I don't want to have. I couldn't love anybody as I love you."
- "Oh, Diana," cried Anne, clasping her hands, "do you
LOVE me?"
- "Why, of course I do. Didn't you know that?"
- "No." Anne drew a long breath. "I thought you LIKED me
of course but I never hoped you LOVED me. Why, Diana, I didn't think anybody could love
me. Nobody ever has loved me since I can remember. Oh, this is wonderful! It's a ray of
light which will forever shine on the darkness of a path severed from thee, Diana. Oh,
just say it once again."
- "I love you devotedly, Anne," said Diana stanchly, "and
I always will, you may be sure of that."
- "And I will always love thee, Diana," said Anne, solemnly
extending her hand. "In the years to come thy memory will shine like a star over my
lonely life, as that last story we read together says. Diana, wilt thou give me a lock of
thy jet-black tresses in parting to treasure forevermore?"
- "Have you got anything to cut it with?" queried Diana, wiping
away the tears which Anne's affecting accents had caused to flow afresh, and returning to
practicalities.
- "Yes. I've got my patchwork scissors in my apron pocket
fortunately," said Anne. She solemnly clipped one of Diana's curls. "Fare thee
well, my beloved friend. Henceforth we must be as strangers though living side by side.
But my heart will ever be faithful to thee."
- Anne stood and watched Diana out of sight, mournfully waving her hand
to the latter whenever she turned to look back. Then she returned to the house, not a
little consoled for the time being by this romantic parting.
- "It is all over," she informed Marilla. "I shall never
have another friend. I'm really worse off than ever before, for I haven't Katie Maurice
and Violetta now. And even if I had it wouldn't be the same. Somehow, little dream girls
are not satisfying after a real friend. Diana and I had such an affecting farewell down by
the spring. It will be sacred in my memory forever. I used the most pathetic language I
could think of and said `thou' and `thee.' `Thou' and `thee' seem so much more romantic
than `you.' Diana gave me a lock of her hair and I'm going to sew it up in a little bag
and wear it around my neck all my life. Please see that it is buried with me, for I don't
believe I'll live very long. Perhaps when she sees me lying cold and dead before her Mrs.
Barry may feel remorse for what she has done and will let Diana come to my funeral."
- "I don't think there is much fear of your dying of grief as long
as you can talk, Anne," said Marilla unsympathetically.
- The following Monday Anne surprised Marilla by coming down from her
room with her basket of books on her arm and hip??? lips primmed up into a line of
determination.
- "I'm going back to school," she announced. "That is all
there is left in life for me, now that my friend has been ruthlessly torn from me. In
school I can look at her and muse over days departed."
- "You'd better muse over your lessons and sums," said Marilla,
concealing her delight at this development of the situation. "If you're going back to
school I hope we'll hear no more of breaking slates over people's heads and such carryings
on. Behave yourself and do just what your teacher tells you."
- "I'll try to be a model pupil," agreed Anne dolefully.
"There won't be much fun in it, I expect. Mr. Phillips said Minnie Andrews was a
model pupil and there isn't a spark of imagination or life in her. She is just dull and
poky and never seems to have a good time. But I feel so depressed that perhaps it will
come easy to me now. I'm going round by the road. I couldn't bear to go by the Birch Path
all alone. I should weep bitter tears if I did."
- Anne was welcomed back to school with open arms. Her imagination had
been sorely missed in games, her voice in the singing and her dramatic ability in the
perusal aloud of books at dinner hour. Ruby Gillis smuggled three blue plums over to her
during testament reading; Ella May MacPherson gave her an enormous yellow pansy cut from
the covers of a floral catalogue--a species of desk decoration much prized in Avonlea
school. Sophia Sloane offered to teach her a perfectly elegant new pattern of knit lace,
so nice for trimming aprons. Katie Boulter gave her a perfume bottle to keep slate water
in, and Julia Bell copied carefully on a piece of pale pink paper scalloped on the edges
the following effusion:
- When twilight drops her curtain down And pins it with a star Remember
that you have a friend Though she may wander far.
- "It's so nice to be appreciated," sighed Anne rapturously to
Marilla that night.
- The girls were not the only scholars who "appreciated" her.
When Anne went to her seat after dinner hour--she had been told by Mr. Phillips to sit
with the model Minnie Andrews--she found on her desk a big luscious "strawberry
apple." Anne caught it up all ready to take a bite when she remembered that the only
place in Avonlea where strawberry apples grew was in the old Blythe orchard on the other
side of the Lake of Shining Waters. Anne dropped the apple as if it were a red-hot coal
and ostentatiously wiped her fingers on her handkerchief. The apple lay untouched on her
desk until the next morning, when little Timothy Andrews, who swept the school and kindled
the fire, annexed it as one of his perquisites. Charlie Sloane's slate pencil, gorgeously
bedizened with striped red and yellow paper, costing two cents where ordinary pencils cost
only one, which he sent up to her after dinner hour, met with a more favorable reception.
Anne was graciously pleased to accept it and rewarded the donor with a smile which exalted
that infatuated youth straightway into the seventh heaven of delight and caused him to
make such fearful errors in his dictation that Mr. Phillips kept him in after school to
rewrite it.
- But as,
- The Caesar's pageant shorn of Brutus' bust Did but of Rome's best son
remind her more.
- so the marked absence of any tribute or recognition from Diana Barry
who was sitting with Gertie Pye embittered Anne's little triumph.
- "Diana might just have smiled at me once, I think," she
mourned to Marilla that night. But the next morning a note most fearfully and wonderfully
twisted and folded, and a small parcel were passed across to Anne.
- Dear Anne (ran the former)
- Mother says I'm not to play with you or talk to you even in school. It
isn't my fault and don't be cross at me, because I love you as much as ever. I miss you
awfully to tell all my secrets to and I don't like Gertie Pye one bit. I made you one of
the new bookmarkers out of red tissue paper. They are awfully fashionable now and only
three girls in school know how to make them. When you look at it remember Your true friend
Diana Barry.
- Anne read the note, kissed the bookmark, and dispatched a prompt reply
back to the other side of the school.
- My own darling Diana:--
- Of course I am not cross at you because you have to obey your mother.
Our spirits can commune. I shall keep your lovely present forever. Minnie Andrews is a
very nice little girl--although she has no imagination--but after having been Diana's
busum friend I cannot be Minnie's. Please excuse mistakes because my spelling isn't very
good yet, although much improoved. Yours until death us do part Anne or Cordelia Shirley.
- P.S. I shall sleep with your letter under my pillow tonight. A. OR C.S.
- Marilla pessimistically expected more trouble since Anne had again
begun to go to school. But none developed. Perhaps Anne caught something of the
"model" spirit from Minnie Andrews; at least she got on very well with Mr.
Phillips thenceforth. She flung herself into her studies heart and soul, determined not to
be outdone in any class by Gilbert Blythe. The rivalry between them was soon apparent; it
was entirely good natured on Gilbert's side; but it is much to be feared that the same
thing cannot be said of Anne, who had certainly an unpraiseworthy tenacity for holding
grudges. She was as intense in her hatreds as in her loves. She would not stoop to admit
that she meant to rival Gilbert in schoolwork, because that would have been to acknowledge
his existence which Anne persistently ignored; but the rivalry was there and honors
fluctuated between them. Now Gilbert was head of the spelling class; now Anne, with a toss
of her long red braids, spelled him down. One morning Gilbert had all his sums done
correctly and had his name written on the blackboard on the roll of honor; the next
morning Anne, having wrestled wildly with decimals the entire evening before, would be
first. One awful day they were ties and their names were written up together. It was
almost as bad as a take-notice and Anne's mortification was as evident as Gilbert's
satisfaction. When the written examinations at the end of each month were held the
suspense was terrible. The first month Gilbert came out three marks ahead. The second Anne
beat him by five. But her triumph was marred by the fact that Gilbert congratulated her
heartily before the whole school. It would have been ever so much sweeter to her if he had
felt the sting of his defeat.
- Mr. Phillips might not be a very good teacher; but a pupil so
inflexibly determined on learning as Anne was could hardly escape making progress under
any kind of teacher. By the end of the term Anne and Gilbert were both promoted into the
fifth class and allowed to begin studying the elements of "the branches"--by
which Latin, geometry, French, and algebra were meant. In geometry Anne met her Waterloo.
- "It's perfectly awful stuff, Marilla," she groaned. "I'm
sure I'll never be able to make head or tail of it. There is no scope for imagination in
it at all. Mr. Phillips says I'm the worst dunce he ever saw at it. And Gil--I mean some
of the others are so smart at it. It is extremely mortifying, Marilla.
- Even Diana gets along better than I do. But I don't mind being beaten
by Diana. Even although we meet as strangers now I still love her with an INEXTINGUISHABLE
love. It makes me very sad at times to think about her. But really, Marilla, one can't
stay sad very long in such an interesting world, can one?"
- CHAPTER XVIII Anne to the Rescue
- ALL things great are wound up with all things little. At first glance
it might not seem that the decision of a certain Canadian Premier to include Prince Edward
Island in a political tour could have much or anything to do with the fortunes of little
Anne Shirley at Green Gables. But it had.
- It was a January the Premier came, to address his loyal supporters and
such of his nonsupporters as chose to be present at the monster mass meeting held in
Charlottetown. Most of the Avonlea people were on Premier's side of politics; hence on the
night of the meeting nearly all the men and a goodly proportion of the women had gone to
town thirty miles away. Mrs. Rachel Lynde had gone too. Mrs. Rachel Lynde was a red-hot
politician and couldn't have believed that the political rally could be carried through
without her, although she was on the opposite side of politics. So she went to town and
took her husband--Thomas would be useful in looking after the horse--and Marilla Cuthbert
with her. Marilla had a sneaking interest in politics herself, and as she thought it might
be her only chance to see a real live Premier, she promptly took it, leaving Anne and
Matthew to keep house until her return the following day.
- Hence, while Marilla and Mrs. Rachel were enjoying themselves hugely at
the mass meeting, Anne and Matthew had the cheerful kitchen at Green Gables all to
themselves. A bright fire was glowing in the old-fashioned Waterloo stove and blue-white
frost crystals were shining on the windowpanes. Matthew nodded over a FARMERS' ADVOCATE on
the sofa and Anne at the table studied her lessons with grim determination, despite sundry
wistful glances at the clock shelf, where lay a new book that Jane Andrews had lent her
that day. Jane had assured her that it was warranted to produce any number of thrills, or
words to that effect, and Anne's fingers tingled to reach out for it. But that would mean
Gilbert Blythe's triumph on the morrow. Anne turned her back on the clock shelf and tried
to imagine it wasn't there.
- "Matthew, did you ever study geometry when you went to
school?"
- "Well now, no, I didn't," said Matthew, coming out of his
doze with a start.
- "I wish you had," sighed Anne, "because then you'd be
able to sympathize with me. You can't sympathize properly if you've never studied it. It
is casting a cloud over my whole life. I'm such a dunce at it, Matthew."
- "Well now, I dunno," said Matthew soothingly. "I guess
you're all right at anything. Mr. Phillips told me last week in Blair's store at Carmody
that you was the smartest scholar in school and was making rapid progress. `Rapid
progress' was his very words. There's them as runs down Teddy Phillips and says he ain't
much of a teacher, but I guess he's all right."
- Matthew would have thought anyone who praised Anne was "all
right."
- "I'm sure I'd get on better with geometry if only he wouldn't
change the letters," complained Anne. "I learn the proposition off by heart and
then he draws it on the blackboard and puts different letters from what are in the book
and I get all mixed up. I don't think a teacher should take such a mean advantage, do you?
We're studying agriculture now and I've found out at last what makes the roads red. It's a
great comfort. I wonder how Marilla and Mrs. Lynde are enjoying themselves. Mrs. Lynde
says Canada is going to the dogs the way things are being run at Ottawa and that it's an
awful warning to the electors. She says if women were allowed to vote we would soon see a
blessed change. What way do you vote, Matthew?"
- "Conservative," said Matthew promptly. To vote Conservative
was part of Matthew's religion.
- "Then I'm Conservative too," said Anne decidedly. "I'm
glad because Gil--because some of the boys in school are Grits. I guess Mr. Phillips is a
Grit too because Prissy Andrews's father is one, and Ruby Gillis says that when a man is
courting he always has to agree with the girl's mother in religion and her father in
politics. Is that true, Matthew?"
- "Well now, I dunno," said Matthew.
- "Did you ever go courting, Matthew?"
- "Well now, no, I dunno's I ever did," said Matthew, who had
certainly never thought of such a thing in his whole existence.
- Anne reflected with her chin in her hands.
- "It must be rather interesting, don't you think, Matthew? Ruby
Gillis says when she grows up she's going to have ever so many beaus on the string and
have them all crazy about her; but I think that would be too exciting. I'd rather have
just one in his right mind. But Ruby Gillis knows a great deal about such matters because
she has so many big sisters, and Mrs. Lynde says the Gillis girls have gone off like hot
cakes. Mr. Phillips goes up to see Prissy Andrews nearly every evening. He says it is to
help her with her lessons but Miranda Sloane is studying for Queen's too, and I should
think she needed help a lot more than Prissy because she's ever so much stupider, but he
never goes to help her in the evenings at all. There are a great many things in this world
that I can't understand very well, Matthew."
- "Well now, I dunno as I comprehend them all myself,"
acknowledged Matthew.
- "Well, I suppose I must finish up my lessons. I won't allow myself
to open that new book Jane lent me until I'm through. But it's a terrible temptation,
Matthew. Even when I turn my back on it I can see it there just as plain. Jane said she
cried herself sick over it. I love a book that makes me cry. But I think I'll carry that
book into the sitting room and lock it in the jam closet and give you the key. And you
must NOT give it to me, Matthew, until my lessons are done, not even if I implore you on
my bended knees. It's all very well to say resist temptation, but it's ever so much easier
to resist it if you can't get the key. And then shall I run down the cellar and get some
russets, Matthew? Wouldn't you like some russets?"
- "Well now, I dunno but what I would," said Matthew, who never
ate russets but knew Anne's weakness for them.
- Just as Anne emerged triumphantly from the cellar with her plateful of
russets came the sound of flying footsteps on the icy board walk outside and the next
moment the kitchen door was flung open and in rushed Diana Barry, white faced and
breathless, with a shawl wrapped hastily around her head. Anne promptly let go of her
candle and plate in her surprise, and plate, candle, and apples crashed together down the
cellar ladder and were found at the bottom embedded in melted grease, the next day, by
Marilla, who gathered them up and thanked mercy the house hadn't been set on fire.
- "Whatever is the matter, Diana?" cried Anne. "Has your
mother relented at last?"
- "Oh, Anne, do come quick," implored Diana nervously.
"Minnie May is awful sick--she's got croup. Young Mary Joe says--and Father and
Mother are away to town and there's nobody to go for the doctor. Minnie May is awful bad
and Young Mary Joe doesn't know what to do--and oh, Anne, I'm so scared!"
- Matthew, without a word, reached out for cap and coat, slipped past
Diana and away into the darkness of the yard.
- "He's gone to harness the sorrel mare to go to Carmody for the
doctor," said Anne, who was hurrying on hood and jacket. "I know it as well as
if he'd said so. Matthew and I are such kindred spirits I can read his thoughts without
words at all."
- "I don't believe he'll find the doctor at Carmody," sobbed
Diana. "I know that Dr. Blair went to town and I guess Dr. Spencer would go too.
Young Mary Joe never saw anybody with croup and Mrs. Lynde is away. Oh, Anne!"
- "Don't cry, Di," said Anne cheerily. "I know exactly
what to do for croup. You forget that Mrs. Hammond had twins three times. When you look
after three pairs of twins you naturally get a lot of experience. They all had croup
regularly. Just wait till I get the ipecac bottle--you mayn't have any at your house. Come
on now."
- The two little girls hastened out hand in hand and hurried through
Lover's Lane and across the crusted field beyond, for the snow was too deep to go by the
shorter wood way. Anne, although sincerely sorry for Minnie May, was far from being
insensible to the romance of the situation and to the sweetness of once more sharing that
romance with a kindred spirit.
- The night was clear and frosty, all ebony of shadow and silver of snowy
slope; big stars were shining over the silent fields; here and there the dark pointed firs
stood up with snow powdering their branches and the wind whistling through them. Anne
thought it was truly delightful to go skimming through all this mystery and loveliness
with your bosom friend who had been so long estranged.
- Minnie May, aged three, was really very sick. She lay on the kitchen
sofa feverish and restless, while her hoarse breathing could be heard all over the house.
Young Mary Joe, a buxom, broad-faced French girl from the creek, whom Mrs. Barry had
engaged to stay with the children during her absence, was helpless and bewildered, quite
incapable of thinking what to do, or doing it if she thought of it.
- Anne went to work with skill and promptness.
- "Minnie May has croup all right; she's pretty bad, but I've seen
them worse. First we must have lots of hot water. I declare, Diana, there isn't more than
a cupful in the kettle! There, I've filled it up, and, Mary Joe, you may put some wood in
the stove. I don't want to hurt your feelings but it seems to me you might have thought of
this before if you'd any imagination. Now, I'll undress Minnie May and put her to bed and
you try to find some soft flannel cloths, Diana. I'm going to give her a dose of ipecac
first of all."
- Minnie May did not take kindly to the ipecac but Anne had not brought
up three pairs of twins for nothing. Down that ipecac went, not only once, but many times
during the long, anxious night when the two little girls worked patiently over the
suffering Minnie May, and Young Mary Joe, honestly anxious to do all she could, kept up a
roaring fire and heated more water than would have been needed for a hospital of croupy
babies.
- It was three o'clock when Matthew came with a doctor, for he had been
obliged to go all the way to Spencervale for one. But the pressing need for assistance was
past. Minnie May was much better and was sleeping soundly.
- "I was awfully near giving up in despair," explained Anne.
"She got worse and worse until she was sicker than ever the Hammond twins were, even
the last pair. I actually thought she was going to choke to death. I gave her every drop
of ipecac in that bottle and when the last dose went down I said to myself--not to Diana
or Young Mary Joe, because I didn't want to worry them any more than they were worried,
but I had to say it to myself just to relieve my feelings--`This is the last lingering
hope and I fear, tis a vain one.' But in about three minutes she coughed up the phlegm and
began to get better right away. You must just imagine my relief, doctor, because I can't
express it in words. You know there are some things that cannot be expressed in
words."
- "Yes, I know," nodded the doctor. He looked at Anne as if he
were thinking some things about her that couldn't be expressed in words. Later on,
however, he expressed them to Mr. and Mrs. Barry.
- "That little redheaded girl they have over at Cuthbert's is as
smart as they make 'em. I tell you she saved that baby's life, for it would have been too
late by the time I got there. She seems to have a skill and presence of mind perfectly
wonderful in a child of her age. I never saw anything like the eyes of her when she was
explaining the case to me."
- Anne had gone home in the wonderful, white-frosted winter morning,
heavy eyed from loss of sleep, but still talking unweariedly to Matthew as they crossed
the long white field and walked under the glittering fairy arch of the Lover's Lane
maples.
- "Oh, Matthew, isn't it a wonderful morning? The world looks like
something God had just imagined for His own pleasure, doesn't it? Those trees look as if I
could blow them away with a breath--pouf! I'm so glad I live in a world where there are
white frosts, aren't you? And I'm so glad Mrs. Hammond had three pairs of twins after all.
If she hadn't I mightn't have known what to do for Minnie May. I'm real sorry I was ever
cross with Mrs. Hammond for having twins. But, oh, Matthew, I'm so sleepy. I can't go to
school. I just know I couldn't keep my eyes open and I'd be so stupid. But l hate to stay
home, for Gil--some of the others will get head of the class, and it's so hard to get up
again--although of course the harder it is the more satisfaction you have when you do get
up, haven't you?"
- "Well now, I guess you'll manage all right," said Matthew,
looking at Anne's white little face and the dark shadows under her eyes. "You just go
right to bed and have a good sleep. I'll do all the chores."
- Anne accordingly went to bed and slept so long and soundly that it was
well on in the white and rosy winter afternoon when she awoke and descended to the kitchen
where Marilla, who had arrived home in the meantime, was sitting knitting.
- "Oh, did you see the Premier?" exclaimed Anne at once.
"What did he look like Marilla?"
- "Well, he never got to be Premier on account of his looks,"
said Marilla. "Such a nose as that man had! But he can speak. I was proud of being a
Conservative. Rachel Lynde, of course, being a Liberal, had no use for him. Your dinner is
in the oven, Anne, and you can get yourself some blue plum preserve out of the pantry. I
guess you're hungry. Matthew has been telling me about last night. I must say it was
fortunate you knew what to do. I wouldn't have had any idea myself, for I never saw a case
of croup. There now, never mind talking till you've had your dinner. I can tell by the
look of you that you're just full up with speeches, but they'll keep."
- Marilla had something to tell Anne, but she did not tell it just then
for she knew if she did Anne's consequent excitement would lift her clear out of the
region of such material matters as appetite or dinner. Not until Anne had finished her
saucer of blue plums did Marilla say:
- "Mrs. Barry was here this afternoon, Anne. She wanted to see you,
but I wouldn't wake you up. She says you saved Minnie May's life, and she is very sorry
she acted as she did in that affair of the currant wine. She says she knows now you didn't
mean to set Diana drunk, and she hopes you'll forgive her and be good friends with Diana
again. You're to go over this evening if you like for Diana can't stir outside the door on
account of a bad cold she caught last night. Now, Anne Shirley, for pity's sake don't fly
up into the air."
- The warning seemed not unnecessary, so uplifted and aerial was Anne's
expression and attitude as she sprang to her feet, her face irradiated with the flame of
her spirit.
- "Oh, Marilla, can I go right now--without washing my dishes? I'll
wash them when I come back, but I cannot tie myself down to anything so unromantic as
dishwashing at this thrilling moment."
- "Yes, yes, run along," said Marilla indulgently. "Anne
Shirley--are you crazy? Come back this instant and put something on you. I might as well
call to the wind. She's gone without a cap or wrap. Look at her tearing through the
orchard with her hair streaming. It'll be a mercy if she doesn't catch her death of
cold."
- Anne came dancing home in the purple winter twilight across the snowy
places. Afar in the southwest was the great shimmering, pearl-like sparkle of an evening
star in a sky that was pale golden and ethereal rose over gleaming white spaces and dark
glens of spruce. The tinkles of sleigh bells among the snowy hills came like elfin chimes
through the frosty air, but their music was not sweeter than the song in Anne's heart and
on her lips.
- "You see before you a perfectly happy person, Marilla," she
announced. "I'm perfectly happy--yes, in spite of my red hair. Just at present I have
a soul above red hair. Mrs. Barry kissed me and cried and said she was so sorry and she
could never repay me. I felt fearfully embarrassed, Marilla, but I just said as politely
as I could, `I have no hard feelings for you, Mrs. Barry. I assure you once for all that I
did not mean to intoxicate Diana and henceforth I shall cover the past with the mantle of
oblivion.' That was a pretty dignified way of speaking wasn't it, Marilla?
- I felt that I was heaping coals of fire on Mrs. Barry's head. And Diana
and I had a lovely afternoon. Diana showed me a new fancy crochet stitch her aunt over at
Carmody taught her. Not a soul in Avonlea knows it but us, and we pledged a solemn vow
never to reveal it to anyone else. Diana gave me a beautiful card with a wreath of roses
on it and a verse of poetry:
- "If you love me as I love you Nothing but death can part us two.
- And that is true, Marilla. We're going to ask Mr. Phillips to let us
sit together in school again, and Gertie Pye can go with Minnie Andrews. We had an elegant
tea. Mrs. Barry had the very best china set out, Marilla, just as if I was real company. I
can't tell you what a thrill it gave me. Nobody ever used their very best china on my
account before. And we had fruit cake and pound cake and doughnuts and two kinds of
preserves, Marilla. And Mrs. Barry asked me if I took tea and said `Pa, why don't you pass
the biscuits to Anne?' It must be lovely to be grown up, Marilla, when just being treated
as if you were is so nice."
- "I don't know about that," said Marilla, with a brief sigh.
- "Well, anyway, when I am grown up," said Anne decidedly,
"I'm always going to talk to little girls as if they were too, and I'll never laugh
when they use big words. I know from sorrowful experience how that hurts one's feelings.
After tea Diana and I made taffy. The taffy wasn't very good, I suppose because neither
Diana nor I had ever made any before. Diana left me to stir it while she buttered the
plates and I forgot and let it burn; and then when we set it out on the platform to cool
the cat walked over one plate and that had to be thrown away. But the making of it was
splendid fun. Then when I came home Mrs. Barry asked me to come over as often as I could
and Diana stood at the window and threw kisses to me all the way down to Lover's Lane. I
assure you, Marilla, that I feel like praying tonight and I'm going to think out a special
brand-new prayer in honor of the occasion."
- CHAPTER XIX
- A Concert a Catastrophe and a Confession
- "MARILLA, can I go over to see Diana just for a minute?"
asked Anne, running breathlessly down from the east gable one February evening.
- "I don't see what you want to be traipsing about after dark
for," said Marilla shortly. "You and Diana walked home from school together and
then stood down there in the snow for half an hour more, your tongues going the whole
blessed time, clickety-clack. So I don't think you're very badly off to see her
again."
- "But she wants to see me," pleaded Anne. "She has
something very important to tell me."
- "How do you know she has?"
- "Because she just signaled to me from her window. We have arranged
a way to signal with our candles and cardboard. We set the candle on the window sill and
make flashes by passing the cardboard back and forth. So many flashes mean a certain
thing. It was my idea, Marilla."
- "I'll warrant you it was," said Marilla emphatically.
"And the next thing you'll be setting fire to the curtains with your signaling
nonsense."
- "Oh, we're very careful, Marilla. And it's so interesting. Two
flashes mean, `Are you there?' Three mean `yes' and four `no.' Five mean, `Come over as
soon as possible, because I have something important to reveal.' Diana has just signaled
five flashes, and I'm really suffering to know what it is."
- "Well, you needn't suffer any longer," said Marilla
sarcastically. "You can go, but you're to be back here in just ten minutes, remember
that."
- Anne did remember it and was back in the stipulated time, although
probably no mortal will ever know just what it cost her to confine the discussion of
Diana's important communication within the limits of ten minutes. But at least she had
made good use of them.
- "Oh, Marilla, what do you think? You know tomorrow is Diana's
birthday. Well, her mother told her she could ask me to go home with her from school and
stay all night with her. And her cousins are coming over from Newbridge in a big pung
sleigh to go to the Debating Club concert at the hall tomorrow night. And they are going
to take Diana and me to the concert--if you'll let me go, that is. You will, won't you,
Marilla? Oh, I feel so excited."
- "You can calm down then, because you're not going. You're better
at home in your own bed, and as for that club concert, it's all nonsense, and little girls
should not be allowed to go out to such places at all."
- "I'm sure the Debating Club is a most respectable affair,"
pleaded Anne.
- "I'm not saying it isn't. But you're not going to begin gadding
about to concerts and staying out all hours of the night. Pretty doings for children. I'm
surprised at Mrs. Barry's letting Diana go."
- "But it's such a very special occasion," mourned Anne, on the
verge of tears. "Diana has only one birthday in a year. It isn't as if birthdays were
common things, Marilla. Prissy Andrews is going to recite `Curfew Must Not Ring Tonight.'
That is such a good moral piece, Marilla, I'm sure it would do me lots of good to hear it.
And the choir are going to sing four lovely pathetic songs that are pretty near as good as
hymns. And oh, Marilla, the minister is going to take part; yes, indeed, he is; he's going
to give an address. That will be just about the same thing as a sermon. Please, mayn't I
go, Marilla?"
- "You heard what I said, Anne, didn't you? Take off your boots now
and go to bed. It's past eight."
- "There's just one more thing, Marilla," said Anne, with the
air of producing the last shot in her locker. "Mrs. Barry told Diana that we might
sleep in the spare-room bed. Think of the honor of your little Anne being put in the
spare-room bed."
- "It's an honor you'll have to get along without. Go to bed, Anne,
and don't let me hear another word out of you."
- When Anne, with tears rolling over her cheeks, had gone sorrowfully
upstairs, Matthew, who had been apparently sound asleep on the lounge during the whole
dialogue, opened his eyes and said decidedly:
- "Well now, Marilla, I think you ought to let Anne go."
- "I don't then," retorted Marilla. "Who's bringing this
child up, Matthew, you or me?"
- "Well now, you," admitted Matthew.
- "Don't interfere then."
- "Well now, I ain't interfering. It ain't interfering to have your
own opinion. And my opinion is that you ought to let Anne go."
- "You'd think I ought to let Anne go to the moon if she took the
notion, I've no doubt" was Marilla's amiable rejoinder. "I might have let her
spend the night with Diana, if that was all. But I don't approve of this concert plan.
She'd go there and catch cold like as not, and have her head filled up with nonsense and
excitement. It would unsettle her for a week. I understand that child's disposition and
what's good for it better than you, Matthew."
- "I think you ought to let Anne go," repeated Matthew firmly.
Argument was not his strong point, but holding fast to his opinion certainly was. Marilla
gave a gasp of helplessness and took refuge in silence. The next morning, when Anne was
washing the breakfast dishes in the pantry, Matthew paused on his way out to the barn to
say to Marilla again:
- "I think you ought to let Anne go, Marilla."
- For a moment Marilla looked things not lawful to be uttered. Then she
yielded to the inevitable and said tartly:
- "Very well, she can go, since nothing else'll please you."
- Anne flew out of the pantry, dripping dishcloth in hand.
- "Oh, Marilla, Marilla, say those blessed words again."
- "I guess once is enough to say them. This is Matthew's doings and
I wash my hands of it. If you catch pneumonia sleeping in a strange bed or coming out of
that hot hall in the middle of the night, don't blame me, blame Matthew. Anne Shirley,
you're dripping greasy water all over the floor. I never saw such a careless child."
- "Oh, I know I'm a great trial to you, Marilla," said Anne
repentantly. "I make so many mistakes. But then just think of all the mistakes I
don't make, although I might. I'll get some sand and scrub up the spots before I go to
school. Oh, Marilla, my heart was just set on going to that concert. I never was to a
concert in my life, and when the other girls talk about them in school I feel so out of
it. You didn't know just how I felt about it, but you see Matthew did. Matthew understands
me, and it's so nice to be understood, Marilla."
- Anne was too excited to do herself justice as to lessons that morning
in school. Gilbert Blythe spelled her down in class and left her clear out of sight in
mental arithmetic. Anne's consequent humiliation was less than it might have been,
however, in view of the concert and the spare-room bed. She and Diana talked so constantly
about it all day that with a stricter teacher than Mr. Phillips dire disgrace must
inevitably have been their portion.
- Anne felt that she could not have borne it if she had not been going to
the concert, for nothing else was discussed that day in school. The Avonlea Debating Club,
which met fortnightly all winter, had had several smaller free entertainments; but this
was to be a big affair, admission ten cents, in aid of the library. The Avonlea young
people had been practicing for weeks, and all the scholars were especially interested in
it by reason of older brothers and sisters who were going to take part. Everybody in
school over nine years of age expected to go, except Carrie Sloane, whose father shared
Marilla's opinions about small girls going out to night concerts. Carrie Sloane cried into
her grammar all the afternoon and felt that life was not worth living.
- For Anne the real excitement began with the dismissal of school and
increased therefrom in crescendo until it reached to a crash of positive ecstasy in the
concert itself. They had a "perfectly elegant tea;" and then came the delicious
occupation of dressing in Diana's little room upstairs. Diana did Anne's front hair in the
new pompadour style and Anne tied Diana's bows with the especial knack she possessed; and
they experimented with at least half a dozen different ways of arranging their back hair.
At last they were ready, cheeks scarlet and eyes glowing with excitement.
- True, Anne could not help a little pang when she contrasted her plain
black tam and shapeless, tight-sleeved, homemade gray-cloth coat with Diana's jaunty fur
cap and smart little jacket. But she remembered in time that she had an imagination and
could use it.
- Then Diana's cousins, the Murrays from Newbridge, came; they all
crowded into the big pung sleigh, among straw and furry robes. Anne reveled in the drive
to the hall, slipping along over the satin-smooth roads with the snow crisping under the
runners. There was a magnificent sunset, and the snowy hills and deep-blue water of the
St. Lawrence Gulf seemed to rim??? in the splendor like a huge bowl of pearl and sapphire
brimmed with wine and fire. Tinkles of sleigh bells and distant laughter, that seemed like
the mirth of wood elves, came from every quarter.
- "Oh, Diana," breathed Anne, squeezing Diana's mittened hand
under the fur robe, "isn't it all like a beautiful dream? Do I really look the same
as usual? I feel so different that it seems to me it must show in my looks."
- "You look awfully nice," said Diana, who having just received
a compliment from one of her cousins, felt that she ought to pass it on. "You've got
the loveliest color."
- The program that night was a series of "thrills" for at least
one listener in the audience, and, as Anne assured Diana, every succeeding thrill was
thrillier than the last. When Prissy Andrews, attired in a new pink-silk waist with a
string of pearls about her smooth white throat and real carnations in her hair--rumor
whispered that the master had sent all the way to town for them for her--"climbed the
slimy ladder, dark without one ray of light," Anne shivered in luxurious sympathy;
when the choir sang "Far Above the Gentle Daisies" Anne gazed at the ceiling as
if it were frescoed with angels; when Sam Sloane proceeded to explain and illustrate
"How Sockery Set a Hen" Anne laughed until people sitting near her laughed too,
more out of sympathy with her than with amusement at a selection that was rather
threadbare even in Avonlea; and when Mr. Phillips gave Mark Antony's oration over the dead
body of Caesar in the most heartstirring tones--looking at Prissy Andrews at the end of
every sentence--Anne felt that she could rise and mutiny on the spot if but one Roman
citizen led the way.
- Only one number on the program failed to interest her. When Gilbert
Blythe recited "Bingen on the Rhine" Anne picked up Rhoda Murray's library book
and read it until he had finished, when she sat rigidly stiff and motionless while Diana
clapped her hands until they tingled.
- It was eleven when they got home, sated with dissipation, but with the
exceeding sweet pleasure of talking it all over still to come. Everybody seemed asleep and
the house was dark and silent. Anne and Diana tiptoed into the parlor, a long narrow room
out of which the spare room opened. It was pleasantly warm and dimly lighted by the embers
of a fire in the grate.
- "Let's undress here," said Diana. "It's so nice and
warm."
- "Hasn't it been a delightful time?" sighed Anne rapturously.
"It must be splendid to get up and recite there. Do you suppose we will ever be asked
to do it, Diana?"
- "Yes, of course, someday. They're always wanting the big scholars
to recite. Gilbert Blythe does often and he's only two years older than us. Oh, Anne, how
could you pretend not to listen to him? When he came to the line,
- "THERE'S ANOTHER, not A SISTER,
- he looked right down at you."
- "Diana," said Anne with dignity, "you are my bosom
friend, but I cannot allow even you to speak to me of that person. Are you ready for bed?
Let's run a race and see who'll get to the bed first."
- The suggestion appealed to Diana. The two little white-clad figures
flew down the long room, through the spare-room door, and bounded on the bed at the same
moment. And then--something--moved beneath them, there was a gasp and a cry--and somebody
said in muffled accents:
- "Merciful goodness!"
- Anne and Diana were never able to tell just how they got off that bed
and out of the room. They only knew that after one frantic rush they found themselves
tiptoeing shiveringly upstairs.
- "Oh, who was it--WHAT was it?" whispered Anne, her teeth
chattering with cold and fright.
- "It was Aunt Josephine," said Diana, gasping with laughter.
"Oh, Anne, it was Aunt Josephine, however she came to be there. Oh, and I know she
will be furious. It's dreadful--it's really dreadful--but did you ever know anything so
funny, Anne?"
- "Who is your Aunt Josephine?"
- "She's father's aunt and she lives in Charlottetown. She's awfully
old--seventy anyhow--and I don't believe she was EVER a little girl. We were expecting her
out for a visit, but not so soon. She's awfully prim and proper and she'll scold
dreadfully about this, I know. Well, we'll have to sleep with Minnie May--and you can't
think how she kicks."
- Miss Josephine Barry did not appear at the early breakfast the next
morning. Mrs. Barry smiled kindly at the two little girls.
- "Did you have a good time last night? I tried to stay awake until
you came home, for I wanted to tell you Aunt Josephine had come and that you would have to
go upstairs after all, but I was so tired I fell asleep. I hope you didn't disturb your
aunt, Diana."
- Diana preserved a discreet silence, but she and Anne exchanged furtive
smiles of guilty amusement across the table. Anne hurried home after breakfast and so
remained in blissful ignorance of the disturbance which presently resulted in the Barry
household until the late afternoon, when she went down to Mrs. Lynde's on an errand for
Marilla.
- "So you and Diana nearly frightened poor old Miss Barry to death
last night?" said Mrs. Lynde severely, but with a twinkle in her eye. "Mrs.
Barry was here a few minutes ago on her way to Carmody. She's feeling real worried over
it. Old Miss Barry was in a terrible temper when she got up this morning--and Josephine
Barry's temper is no joke, I can tell you that. She wouldn't speak to Diana at all."
- "It wasn't Diana's fault," said Anne contritely. "It was
mine. I suggested racing to see who would get into bed first."
- "I knew it!" said Mrs. Lynde, with the exultation of a
correct guesser. "I knew that idea came out of your head. Well, it's made a nice lot
of trouble, that's what. Old Miss Barry came out to stay for a month, but she declares she
won't stay another day and is going right back to town tomorrow, Sunday and all as it is.
She'd have gone today if they could have taken her. She had promised to pay for a
quarter's music lessons for Diana, but now she is determined to do nothing at all for such
a tomboy. Oh, I guess they had a lively time of it there this morning. The Barrys must
feel cut up. Old Miss Barry is rich and they'd like to keep on the good side of her. Of
course, Mrs. Barry didn't say just that to me, but I'm a pretty good judge of human
nature, that's what."
- "I'm such an unlucky girl," mourned Anne. "I'm always
getting into scrapes myself and getting my best friends--people I'd shed my heart's blood
for--into them too. Can you tell me why it is so, Mrs. Lynde?"
- "It's because you're too heedless and impulsive, child, that's
what. You never stop to think--whatever comes into your head to say or do you say or do it
without a moment's reflection."
- "Oh, but that's the best of it," protested Anne.
"Something just flashes into your mind, so exciting, and you must out with it. If you
stop to think it over you spoil it all. Haven't you never felt that yourself, Mrs.
Lynde?"
- No, Mrs. Lynde had not. She shook her head sagely.
- "You must learn to think a little, Anne, that's what. The proverb
you need to go by is `Look before you leap'--especially into spare-room beds."
- Mrs. Lynde laughed comfortably over her mild joke, but Anne remained
pensive. She saw nothing to laugh at in the situation, which to her eyes appeared very
serious. When she left Mrs. Lynde's she took her way across the crusted fields to Orchard
Slope. Diana met her at the kitchen door.
- "Your Aunt Josephine was very cross about it, wasn't she?"
whispered Anne.
- "Yes," answered Diana, stifling a giggle with an apprehensive
glance over her shoulder at the closed sitting-room door. "She was fairly dancing
with rage, Anne. Oh, how she scolded. She said I was the worst-behaved girl she ever saw
and that my parents ought to be ashamed of the way they had brought me up. She says she
won't stay and I'm sure I don't care. But Father and Mother do."
- "Why didn't you tell them it was my fault?" demanded Anne.
- "It's likely I'd do such a thing, isn't it?" said Diana with
just scorn. "I'm no telltale, Anne Shirley, and anyhow I was just as much to blame as
you."
- "Well, I'm going in to tell her myself," said Anne
resolutely.
- Diana stared.
- "Anne Shirley, you'd never! why--she'll eat you alive!"
- "Don't frighten me any more than I am frightened," implored
Anne. "I'd rather walk up to a cannon's mouth. But I've got to do it, Diana. It was
my fault and I've got to confess. I've had practice in confessing, fortunately."
- "Well, she's in the room," said Diana. "You can go in if
you want to. I wouldn't dare. And I don't believe you'll do a bit of good."
- With this encouragement Anne bearded the lion in its den--that is to
say, walked resolutely up to the sitting-room door and knocked faintly. A sharp "Come
in" followed.
- Miss Josephine Barry, thin, prim, and rigid, was knitting fiercely by
the fire, her wrath quite unappeased and her eyes snapping through her gold-rimmed
glasses. She wheeled around in her chair, expecting to see Diana, and beheld a white-faced
girl whose great eyes were brimmed up with a mixture of desperate courage and shrinking
terror.
- "Who are you?" demanded Miss Josephine Barry, without
ceremony.
- "I'm Anne of Green Gables," said the small visitor
tremulously, clasping her hands with her characteristic gesture, "and I've come to
confess, if you please."
- "Confess what?"
- "That it was all my fault about jumping into bed on you last
night. I suggested it. Diana would never have thought of such a thing, I am sure. Diana is
a very ladylike girl, Miss Barry. So you must see how unjust it is to blame her."
- "Oh, I must, hey? I rather think Diana did her share of the
jumping at least. Such carryings on in a respectable house!"
- "But we were only in fun," persisted Anne. "I think you
ought to forgive us, Miss Barry, now that we've apologized. And anyhow, please forgive
Diana and let her have her music lessons. Diana's heart is set on her music lessons, Miss
Barry, and I know too well what it is to set your heart on a thing and not get it. If you
must be cross with anyone, be cross with me. I've been so used in my early days to having
people cross at me that I can endure it much better than Diana can."
- Much of the snap had gone out of the old lady's eyes by this time and
was replaced by a twinkle of amused interest. But she still said severely:
- "I don't think it is any excuse for you that you were only in fun.
Little girls never indulged in that kind of fun when I was young. You don't know what it
is to be awakened out of a sound sleep, after a long and arduous journey, by two great
girls coming bounce down on you."
- "I don't KNOW, but I can IMAGINE," said Anne eagerly.
"I'm sure it must have been very disturbing. But then, there is our side of it too.
Have you any imagination, Miss Barry? If you have, just put yourself in our place. We
didn't know there was anybody in that bed and you nearly scared us to death. It was simply
awful the way we felt. And then we couldn't sleep in the spare room after being promised.
I suppose you are used to sleeping in spare rooms. But just imagine what you would feel
like if you were a little orphan girl who had never had such an honor."
- All the snap had gone by this time. Miss Barry actually laughed--a
sound which caused Diana, waiting in speechless anxiety in the kitchen outside, to give a
great gasp of relief.
- "I'm afraid my imagination is a little rusty--it's so long since I
used it," she said. "I dare say your claim to sympathy is just as strong as
mine. It all depends on the way we look at it. Sit down here and tell me about
yourself."
- "I am very sorry I can't," said Anne firmly. "I would
like to, because you seem like an interesting lady, and you might even be a kindred spirit
although you don't look very much like it. But it is my duty to go home to Miss Marilla
Cuthbert. Miss Marilla Cuthbert is a very kind lady who has taken me to bring up properly.
She is doing her best, but it is very discouraging work. You must not blame her because I
jumped on the bed. But before I go I do wish you would tell me if you will forgive Diana
and stay just as long as you meant to in Avonlea."
- "I think perhaps I will if you will come over and talk to me
occasionally," said Miss Barry.
- That evening Miss Barry gave Diana a silver bangle bracelet and told
the senior members of the household that she had unpacked her valise.
- "I've made up my mind to stay simply for the sake of getting
better acquainted with that Anne-girl," she said frankly. "She amuses me, and at
my time of life an amusing person is a rarity."
- Marilla's only comment when she heard the story was, "I told you
so." This was for Matthew's benefit.
- Miss Barry stayed her month out and over. She was a more agreeable
guest than usual, for Anne kept her in good humor. They became firm friends.
- When Miss Barry went away she said:
- "Remember, you Anne-girl, when you come to town you're to visit me
and I'll put you in my very sparest spare-room bed to sleep."
- "Miss Barry was a kindred spirit, after all," Anne confided
to Marilla. "You wouldn't think so to look at her, but she is. You don't find it
right out at first, as in Matthew's case, but after a while you come to see it. Kindred
spirits are not so scarce as I used to think. It's splendid to find out there are so many
of them in the world."
- CHAPTER XX
- A Good Imagination Gone Wrong
- Spring had come once more to Green Gables--the beautiful capricious,
reluctant Canadian spring, lingering along through April and May in a succession of sweet,
fresh, chilly days, with pink sunsets and miracles of resurrection and growth. The maples
in Lover's Lane were red budded and little curly ferns pushed up around the Dryad's
Bubble. Away up in the barrens, behind Mr. Silas Sloane's place, the Mayflowers blossomed
out, pink and white stars of sweetness under their brown leaves. All the school girls and
boys had one golden afternoon gathering them, coming home in the clear, echoing twilight
with arms and baskets full of flowery spoil.
- "I'm so sorry for people who live in lands where there are no
Mayflowers," said Anne. "Diana says perhaps they have something better, but
there couldn't be anything better than Mayflowers, could there, Marilla? And Diana says if
they don't know what they are like they don't miss them. But I think that is the saddest
thing of all. I think it would be TRAGIC, Marilla, not to know what Mayflowers are like
and NOT to miss them. Do you know what I think Mayflowers are, Marilla? I think they must
be the souls of the flowers that died last summer and this is their heaven. But we had a
splendid time today, Marilla. We had our lunch down in a big mossy hollow by an old
well--such a ROMANTIC spot. Charlie Sloane dared Arty Gillis to jump over it, and Arty did
because he wouldn't take a dare. Nobody would in school. It is very FASHIONABLE to dare.
Mr. Phillips gave all the Mayflowers he found to Prissy Andrews and I heard him to say
`sweets to the sweet.' He got that out of a book, I know; but it shows he has some
imagination. I was offered some Mayflowers too, but I rejected them with scorn. I can't
tell you the person's name because I have vowed never to let it cross my lips. We made
wreaths of the Mayflowers and put them on our hats; and when the time came to go home we
marched in procession down the road, two by two, with our bouquets and wreaths, singing
`My Home on the Hill.' Oh, it was so thrilling, Marilla. All Mr. Silas Sloane's folks
rushed out to see us and everybody we met on the road stopped and stared after us. We made
a real sensation."
- "Not much wonder! Such silly doings!" was Marilla's response.
- After the Mayflowers came the violets, and Violet Vale was empurpled
with them. Anne walked through it on her way to school with reverent steps and worshiping
eyes, as if she trod on holy ground.
- "Somehow," she told Diana, "when I'm going through here
I don't really care whether Gil--whether anybody gets ahead of me in class or not. But
when I'm up in school it's all different and I care as much as ever. There's such a lot of
different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I
was just the one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn't be
half so interesting."
One June evening, when the orchards were pink blossomed again, when the frogs were
singing silverly sweet in the marshes about the head of the Lake of Shining Waters, and
the air was full of the savor of clover fields
- and balsamic fir woods, Anne was sitting by her gable window. She had
been studying her lessons, but it had grown too dark to see the book, so she had fallen
into wide-eyed reverie, looking out past the boughs of the Snow Queen, once more bestarred
with its tufts of blossom.
- In all essential respects the little gable chamber was unchanged. The
walls were as white, the pincushion as hard, the chairs as stiffly and yellowly upright as
ever. Yet the whole character of the room was altered. It was full of a new vital, pulsing
personality that seemed to pervade it and to be quite independent of schoolgirl books and
dresses and ribbons, and even of the cracked blue jug full of apple blossoms on the table.
It was as if all the dreams, sleeping and waking, of its vivid occupant had taken a
visible although unmaterial form and had tapestried the bare room with splendid filmy
tissues of rainbow and moonshine. Presently Marilla came briskly in with some of Anne's
freshly ironed school aprons. She hung them over a chair and sat down with a short sigh.
She had had one of her headaches that afternoon, and although the pain had gone she felt
weak and "tuckered out," as she expressed it. Anne looked at her with eyes
limpid with sympathy.
- "I do truly wish I could have had the headache in your place,
Marilla. I would have endured it joyfully for your sake."
- "I guess you did your part in attending to the work and letting me
rest," said Marilla. "You seem to have got on fairly well and made fewer
mistakes than usual. Of course it wasn't exactly necessary to starch Matthew's
handkerchiefs! And most people when they put a pie in the oven to warm up for dinner take
it out and eat it when it gets hot instead of leaving it to be burned to a crisp. But that
doesn't seem to be your way evidently."
- Headaches always left Marilla somewhat sarcastic.
- "Oh, I'm so sorry," said Anne penitently. "I never
thought about that pie from the moment I put it in the oven till now, although I felt
INSTINCTIVELY that there was something missing on the dinner table. I was firmly resolved,
when you left me in charge this morning, not to imagine anything, but keep my thoughts on
facts. I did pretty well until I put the pie in, and then an irresistible temptation came
to me to imagine I was an enchanted princess shut up in a lonely tower with a handsome
knight riding to my rescue on a coal-black steed. So that is how I came to forget the pie.
I didn't know I starched the handkerchiefs. All the time I was ironing I was trying to
think of a name for a new island Diana and I have discovered up the brook. It's the most
ravishing spot, Marilla. There are two maple trees on it and the brook flows right around
it. At last it struck me that it would be splendid to call it Victoria Island because we
found it on the Queen's birthday. Both Diana and I are very loyal. But I'm sorry about
that pie and the handkerchiefs. I wanted to be extra good today because it's an
anniversary. Do you remember what happened this day last year, Marilla?"
- "No, I can't think of anything special."
- "Oh, Marilla, it was the day I came to Green Gables. I shall never
forget it. It was the turning point in my life. Of course it wouldn't seem so important to
you. I've been here for a year and I've been so happy. Of course, I've had my troubles,
but one can live down troubles. Are you sorry you kept me, Marilla?"
- "No, I can't say I'm sorry," said Marilla, who sometimes
wondered how she could have lived before Anne came to Green Gables, "no, not exactly
sorry. If you've finished your lessons, Anne, I want you to run over and ask Mrs. Barry if
she'll lend me Diana's apron pattern."
- "Oh--it's--it's too dark," cried Anne.
- "Too dark? Why, it's only twilight. And goodness knows you've gone
over often enough after dark."
- "I'll go over early in the morning," said Anne eagerly.
"I'll get up at sunrise and go over, Marilla."
- "What has got into your head now, Anne Shirley? I want that
pattern to cut out your new apron this evening. Go at once and be smart too."
- "I'll have to go around by the road, then," said Anne, taking
up her hat reluctantly.
- "Go by the road and waste half an hour! I'd like to catch
you!"
- "I can't go through the Haunted Wood, Marilla," cried Anne
desperately.
- Marilla stared.
- "The Haunted Wood! Are you crazy? What under the canopy is the
Haunted Wood?"
- "The spruce wood over the brook," said Anne in a whisper.
- "Fiddlesticks! There is no such thing as a haunted wood anywhere.
Who has been telling you such stuff?"
- "Nobody," confessed Anne. "Diana and I just imagined the
wood was haunted. All the places around here are so--so--COMMONPLACE. We just got this up
for our own amusement. We began it in April. A haunted wood is so very romantic, Marilla.
We chose the spruce grove because it's so gloomy. Oh, we have imagined the most harrowing
things. There's a white lady walks along the brook just about this time of the night and
wrings her hands and utters wailing cries. She appears when there is to be a death in the
family. And the ghost of a little murdered child haunts the corner up by Idlewild; it
creeps up behind you and lays its cold fingers on your hand--so. Oh, Marilla, it gives me
a shudder to think of it. And there's a headless man stalks up and down the path and
skeletons glower at you between the boughs. Oh, Marilla, I wouldn't go through the Haunted
Wood after dark now for anything. I'd be sure that white things would reach out from
behind the trees and grab me."
- "Did ever anyone hear the like!" ejaculated Marilla, who had
listened in dumb amazement. "Anne Shirley, do you mean to tell me you believe all
that wicked nonsense of your own imagination?"
- "Not believe EXACTLY," faltered Anne. "At least, I don't
believe it in daylight. But after dark, Marilla, it's different. That is when ghosts
walk."
- "There are no such things as ghosts, Anne."
- "Oh, but there are, Marilla," cried Anne eagerly. "I
know people who have seen them. And they are respectable people. Charlie Sloane says that
his grandmother saw his grandfather driving home the cows one night after he'd been buried
for a year. You know Charlie Sloane's grandmother wouldn't tell a story for anything.
She's a very religious woman. And Mrs. Thomas's father was pursued home one night by a
lamb of fire with its head cut off hanging by a strip of skin. He said he knew it was the
spirit of his brother and that it was a warning he would die within nine days. He didn't,
but he died two years after, so you see it was really true. And Ruby Gillis says--"
- "Anne Shirley," interrupted Marilla firmly, "I never
want to hear you talking in this fashion again. I've had my doubts about that imagination
of yours right along, and if this is going to be the outcome of it, I won't countenance
any such doings. You'll go right over to Barry's, and you'll go through that spruce grove,
just for a lesson and a warning to you. And never let me hear a word out of your head
about haunted woods again."
- Anne might plead and cry as she liked--and did, for her terror was very
real. Her imagination had run away with her and she held the spruce grove in mortal dread
after nightfall. But Marilla was inexorable. She marched the shrinking ghostseer down to
the spring and ordered her to proceed straightaway over the bridge and into the dusky
retreats of wailing ladies and headless specters beyond.
- "Oh, Marilla, how can you be so cruel?" sobbed Anne.
"What would you feel like if a white thing did snatch me up and carry me off?"
- "I'll risk it," said Marilla unfeelingly. "You know I
always mean what I say. I'll cure you of imagining ghosts into places. March, now."
- Anne marched. That is, she stumbled over the bridge and went shuddering
up the horrible dim path beyond. Anne never forgot that walk. Bitterly did she repent the
license she had given to her imagination. The goblins of her fancy lurked in every shadow
about her, reaching out their cold, fleshless hands to grasp the terrified small girl who
had called them into being. A white strip of birch bark blowing up from the hollow over
the brown floor of the grove made her heart stand still. The long-drawn wail of two old
boughs rubbing against each other brought out the perspiration in beads on her forehead.
The swoop of bats in the darkness over her was as the wings of unearthly creatures. When
she reached Mr. William Bell's field she fled across it as if pursued by an army of white
things, and arrived at the Barry kitchen door so out of breath that she could hardly gasp
out her request for the apron pattern. Diana was away so that she had no excuse to linger.
The dreadful return journey had to be faced. Anne went back over it with shut eyes,
preferring to take the risk of dashing her brains out among the boughs to that of seeing a
white thing. When she finally stumbled over the log bridge she drew one long shivering
breath of relief.
- "Well, so nothing caught you?" said Marilla
unsympathetically.
- "Oh, Mar--Marilla," chattered Anne, "I'll b-b-be
contt-tented with c-c-commonplace places after this."
- CHAPTER XXI
- A New Departure in Flavorings
- "Dear me, there is nothing but meetings and partings in this
world, as Mrs. Lynde says," remarked Anne plaintively, putting her slate and books
down on the kitchen table on the last day of June and wiping her red eyes with a very damp
handkerchief. "Wasn't it fortunate, Marilla, that I took an extra handkerchief to
school today? I had a presentiment that it would be needed."
- "I never thought you were so fond of Mr. Phillips that you'd
require two handkerchiefs to dry your tears just because he was going away," said
Marilla.
- "I don't think I was crying because I was really so very fond of
him," reflected Anne. "I just cried because all the others did. It was Ruby
Gillis started it. Ruby Gillis has always declared she hated Mr. Phillips, but just as
soon as he got up to make his farewell speech she burst into tears. Then all the girls
began to cry, one after the other. I tried to hold out, Marilla. I tried to remember the
time Mr. Phillips made me sit with Gil--with a, boy; and the time he spelled my name
without an e on the blackboard; and how he said I was the worst dunce he ever saw at
geometry and laughed at my spelling; and all the times he had been so horrid and
sarcastic; but somehow I couldn't, Marilla, and I just had to cry too. Jane Andrews has
been talking for a month about how glad she'd be when Mr. Phillips went away and she
declared she'd never shed a tear. Well, she was worse than any of us and had to borrow a
handkerchief from her brother--of course the boys didn't cry--because she hadn't brought
one of her own, not expecting to need it. Oh, Marilla, it was heartrending. Mr. Phillips
made such a beautiful farewell speech beginning, `The time has come for us to part.' It
was very affecting. And he had tears in his eyes too, Marilla. Oh, I felt dreadfully sorry
and remorseful for all the times I'd talked in school and drawn pictures of him on my
slate and made fun of him and Prissy. I can tell you I wished I'd been a model pupil like
Minnie Andrews. She hadn't anything on her conscience. The girls cried all the way home
from school. Carrie Sloane kept saying every few minutes, `The time has come for us to
part,' and that would start us off again whenever we were in any danger of cheering up. I
do feel dreadfully sad, Marilla. But one can't feel quite in the depths of despair with
two months' vacation before them, can they, Marilla? And besides, we met the new minister
and his wife coming from the station. For all I was feeling so bad about Mr. Phillips
going away I couldn't help taking a little interest in a new minister, could I? His wife
is very pretty. Not exactly regally lovely, of course--it wouldn't do, I suppose, for a
minister to have a regally lovely wife, because it might set a bad example. Mrs. Lynde
says the minister's wife over at Newbridge sets a very bad example because she dresses so
fashionably. Our new minister's wife was dressed in blue muslin with lovely puffed sleeves
and a hat trimmed with roses. Jane Andrews said she thought puffed sleeves were too
worldly for a minister's wife, but I didn't make any such uncharitable remark, Marilla,
because I know what it is to long for puffed sleeves. Besides, she's only been a
minister's wife for a little while, so one should make allowances, shouldn't they? They
are going to board with Mrs. Lynde until the manse is ready."
- If Marilla, in going down to Mrs. Lynde's that evening, was actuated by
any motive save her avowed one of returning the quilting frames she had borrowed the
preceding winter, it was an amiable weakness shared by most of the Avonlea people. Many a
thing Mrs. Lynde had lent, sometimes never expecting to see it again, came home that night
in charge of the borrowers thereof. A new minister, and moreover a minister with a wife,
was a lawful object of curiosity in a quiet little country settlement where sensations
were few and far between.
- Old Mr. Bentley, the minister whom Anne had found lacking in
imagination, had been pastor of Avonlea for eighteen years. He was a widower when he came,
and a widower he remained, despite the fact that gossip regularly married him to this,
that, or the other one, every year of his sojourn. In the preceding February he had
resigned his charge and departed amid the regrets of his people, most of whom had the
affection born of long intercourse for their good old minister in spite of his
shortcomings as an orator. Since then the Avonlea church had enjoyed a variety of
religious dissipation in listening to the many and various candidates and
"supplies" who came Sunday after Sunday to preach on trial. These stood or fell
by the judgment of the fathers and mothers in Israel; but a certain small, red-haired girl
who sat meekly in the corner of the old Cuthbert pew also had her opinions about them and
discussed the same in full with Matthew, Marilla always declining from principle to
criticize ministers in any shape or form.
- "I don't think Mr. Smith would have done, Matthew" was Anne's
final summing up. "Mrs. Lynde says his delivery was so poor, but I think his worst
fault was just like Mr. Bentley's--he had no imagination. And Mr. Terry had too much; he
let it run away with him just as I did mine in the matter of the Haunted Wood. Besides,
Mrs. Lynde says his theology wasn't sound. Mr. Gresham was a very good man and a very
religious man, but he told too many funny stories and made the people laugh in church; he
was undignified, and you must have some dignity about a minister, mustn't you, Matthew? I
thought Mr. Marshall was decidedly attractive; but Mrs. Lynde says he isn't married, or
even engaged, because she made special inquiries about him, and she says it would never do
to have a young unmarried minister in Avonlea, because he might marry in the congregation
and that would make trouble. Mrs. Lynde is a very farseeing woman, isn't she, Matthew? I'm
very glad they've called Mr. Allan. I liked him because his sermon was interesting and he
prayed as if he meant it and not just as if he did it because he was in the habit of it.
Mrs. Lynde says he isn't perfect, but she says she supposes we couldn't expect a perfect
minister for seven hundred and fifty dollars a year, and anyhow his theology is sound
because she questioned him thoroughly on all the points of doctrine. And she knows his
wife's people and they are most respectable and the women are all good housekeepers. Mrs.
Lynde says that sound doctrine in the man and good housekeeping in the woman make an ideal
combination for a minister's family."
- The new minister and his wife were a young, pleasant-faced couple,
still on their honeymoon, and full of all good and beautiful enthusiasms for their chosen
lifework. Avonlea opened its heart to them from the start. Old and young liked the frank,
cheerful young man with his high ideals, and the bright, gentle little lady who assumed
the mistress-ship of the manse. With Mrs. Allan Anne fell promptly and wholeheartedly in
love. She had discovered another kindred spirit.
- "Mrs. Allan is perfectly lovely," she announced one Sunday
afternoon. "She's taken our class and she's a splendid teacher. She said right away
she didn't think it was fair for the teacher to ask all the questions, and you know,
Marilla, that is exactly what I've always thought. She said we could ask her any question
we liked and I asked ever so many. I'm good at asking questions, Marilla."
- "I believe you" was Marilla's emphatic comment.
- "Nobody else asked any except Ruby Gillis, and she asked if there
was to be a Sunday-school picnic this summer. I didn't think that was a very proper
question to ask because it hadn't any connection with the lesson--the lesson was about
Daniel in the lions' den--but Mrs. Allan just smiled and said she thought there would be.
Mrs. Allan has a lovely smile; she has such EXQUISITE dimples in her cheeks. I wish I had
dimples in my cheeks, Marilla. I'm not half so skinny as I was when I came here, but I
have no dimples yet. If I had perhaps I could influence people for good. Mrs. Allan said
we ought always to try to influence other people for good. She talked so nice about
everything. I never knew before that religion was such a cheerful thing. I always thought
it was kind of melancholy, but Mrs. Allan's isn't, and I'd like to be a Christian if I
could be one like her. I wouldn't want to be one like Mr. Superintendent Bell."
- "It's very naughty of you to speak so about Mr. Bell," said
Marilla severely. "Mr. Bell is a real good man."
- "Oh, of course he's good," agreed Anne, "but he doesn't
seem to get any comfort out of it. If I could be good I'd dance and sing all day because I
was glad of it. I suppose Mrs. Allan is too old to dance and sing and of course it
wouldn't be dignified in a minister's wife. But I can just feel she's glad she's a
Christian and that she'd be one even if she could get to heaven without it."
- "I suppose we must have Mr. and Mrs. Allan up to tea someday
soon," said Marilla reflectively. "They've been most everywhere but here. Let me
see. Next Wednesday would be a good time to have them. But don't say a word to Matthew
about it, for if he knew they were coming he'd find some excuse to be away that day. He'd
got so used to Mr. Bentley he didn't mind him, but he's going to find it hard to get
acquainted with a new minister, and a new minister's wife will frighten him to
death."
- "I'll be as secret as the dead," assured Anne. "But oh,
Marilla, will you let me make a cake for the occasion? I'd love to do something for Mrs.
Allan, and you know I can make a pretty good cake by this time."
- "You can make a layer cake," promised Marilla.
- Monday and Tuesday great preparations went on at Green Gables. Having
the minister and his wife to tea was a serious and important undertaking, and Marilla was
determined not to be eclipsed by any of the Avonlea housekeepers. Anne was wild with
excitement and delight. She talked it all over with Diana Tuesday night in the twilight,
as they sat on the big red stones by the Dryad's Bubble and made rainbows in the water
with little twigs dipped in fir balsam.
- "Everything is ready, Diana, except my cake which I'm to make in
the morning, and the baking-powder biscuits which Marilla will make just before teatime. I
assure you, Diana, that Marilla and I have had a busy two days of it. It's such a
responsibility having a minister's family to tea. I never went through such an experience
before. You should just see our pantry. It's a sight to behold. We're going to have
jellied chicken and cold tongue. We're to have two kinds of jelly, red and yellow, and
whipped cream and lemon pie, and cherry pie, and three kinds of cookies, and fruit cake,
and Marilla's famous yellow plum preserves that she keeps especially for ministers, and
pound cake and layer cake, and biscuits as aforesaid; and new bread and old both, in case
the minister is dyspeptic and can't eat new. Mrs. Lynde says ministers are dyspeptic, but
I don't think Mr. Allan has been a minister long enough for it to have had a bad effect on
him. I just grow cold when I think of my layer cake. Oh, Diana, what if it shouldn't be
good! I dreamed last night that I was chased all around by a fearful goblin with a big
layer cake for a head."
- "It'll be good, all right," assured Diana, who was a very
comfortable sort of friend. "I'm sure that piece of the one you made that we had for
lunch in Idlewild two weeks ago was perfectly elegant."
- "Yes; but cakes have such a terrible habit of turning out bad just
when you especially want them to be good," sighed Anne, setting a particularly
well-balsamed twig afloat. "However, I suppose I shall just have to trust to
Providence and be careful to put in the flour. Oh, look, Diana, what a lovely rainbow! Do
you suppose the dryad will come out after we go away and take it for a scarf?"
- "You know there is no such thing as a dryad," said Diana.
Diana's mother had found out about the Haunted Wood and had been decidedly angry over it.
As a result Diana had abstained from any further imitative flights of imagination and did
not think it prudent to cultivate a spirit of belief even in harmless dryads.
- "But it's so easy to imagine there is," said Anne.
"Every night before I go to bed, I look out of my window and wonder if the dryad is
really sitting here, combing her locks with the spring for a mirror. Sometimes I look for
her footprints in the dew in the morning. Oh, Diana, don't give up your faith in the
dryad!"
- Wednesday morning came. Anne got up at sunrise because she was too
excited to sleep. She had caught a severe cold in the head by reason of her dabbling in
the spring on the preceding evening; but nothing short of absolute pneumonia could have
quenched her interest in culinary matters that morning. After breakfast she proceeded to
make her cake. When she finally shut the oven door upon it she drew a long breath.
- "I'm sure I haven't forgotten anything this time, Marilla. But do
you think it will rise? Just suppose perhaps the baking powder isn't good? I used it out
of the new can. And Mrs. Lynde says you can never be sure of getting good baking powder
nowadays when everything is so adulterated. Mrs. Lynde says the Government ought to take
the matter up, but she says we'll never see the day when a Tory Government will do it.
Marilla, what if that cake doesn't rise?"
- "We'll have plenty without it" was Marilla's unimpassioned
way of looking at the subject.
- The cake did rise, however, and came out of the oven as light and
feathery as golden foam. Anne, flushed with delight, clapped it together with layers of
ruby jelly and, in imagination, saw Mrs. Allan eating it and possibly asking for another
piece!
- "You'll be using the best tea set, of course, Marilla," she
said. "Can I fix the table with ferns and wild roses?"
- "I think that's all nonsense," sniffed Marilla. "In my
opinion it's the eatables that matter and not flummery decorations."
- "Mrs. Barry had HER table decorated," said Anne, who was not
entirely guiltless of the wisdom of the serpent, "and the minister paid her an
elegant compliment. He said it was a feast for the eye as well as the palate."
- "Well, do as you like," said Marilla, who was quite
determined not to be surpassed by Mrs. Barry or anybody else. "Only mind you leave
enough room for the dishes and the food."
- Anne laid herself out to decorate in a manner and after a fashion that
should leave Mrs. Barry's nowhere. Having abundance of roses and ferns and a very artistic
taste of her own, she made that tea table such a thing of beauty that when the minister
and his wife sat down to it they exclaimed in chorus over it loveliness.
- "It's Anne's doings," said Marilla, grimly just; and Anne
felt that Mrs. Allan's approving smile was almost too much happiness for this world.
- Matthew was there, having been inveigled into the party only goodness
and Anne knew how. He had been in such a state of shyness and nervousness that Marilla had
given him up in despair, but Anne took him in hand so successfully that he now sat at the
table in his best clothes and white collar and talked to the minister not uninterestingly.
He never said a word to Mrs. Allan, but that perhaps was not to be expected.
- All went merry as a marriage bell until Anne's layer cake was passed.
Mrs. Allan, having already been helped to a bewildering variety, declined it. But Marilla,
seeing the disappointment on Anne's face, said smilingly:
- "Oh, you must take a piece of this, Mrs. Allan. Anne made it on
purpose for you."
- "In that case I must sample it," laughed Mrs. Allan, helping
herself to a plump triangle, as did also the minister and Marilla.
- Mrs. Allan took a mouthful of hers and a most peculiar expression
crossed her face; not a word did she say, however, but steadily ate away at it. Marilla
saw the expression and hastened to taste the cake.
- "Anne Shirley!" she exclaimed, "what on earth did you
put into that cake?"
- "Nothing but what the recipe said, Marilla," cried Anne with
a look of anguish. "Oh, isn't it all right?"
- "All right! It's simply horrible. Mr. Allan, don't try to eat it.
Anne, taste it yourself. What flavoring did you use?"
- "Vanilla," said Anne, her face scarlet with mortification
after tasting the cake. "Only vanilla. Oh, Marilla, it must have been the baking
powder. I had my suspicions of that bak--"
- "Baking powder fiddlesticks! Go and bring me the bottle of vanilla
you used."
- Anne fled to the pantry and returned with a small bottle partially
filled with a brown liquid and labeled yellowly, "Best Vanilla."
- Marilla took it, uncorked it, smelled it.
- "Mercy on us, Anne, you've flavored that cake with ANODYNE
LINIMENT. I broke the liniment bottle last week and poured what was left into an old empty
vanilla bottle. I suppose it's partly my fault--I should have warned you--but for pity's
sake why couldn't you have smelled it?"
- Anne dissolved into tears under this double disgrace.
- "I couldn't--I had such a cold!" and with this she fairly
fled to the gable chamber, where she cast herself on the bed and wept as one who refuses
to be comforted.
- Presently a light step sounded on the stairs and somebody entered the
room.
- "Oh, Marilla," sobbed Anne, without looking up, "I'm
disgraced forever. I shall never be able to live this down. It will get out--things always
do get out in Avonlea. Diana will ask me how my cake turned out and I shall have to tell
her the truth. I shall always be pointed at as the girl who flavored a cake with anodyne
liniment. Gil--the boys in school will never get over laughing at it. Oh, Marilla, if you
have a spark of Christian pity don't tell me that I must go down and wash the dishes after
this. I'll wash them when the minister and his wife are gone, but I cannot ever look Mrs.
Allan in the face again. Perhaps she'll think I tried to poison her. Mrs. Lynde says she
knows an orphan girl who tried to poison her benefactor. But the liniment isn't poisonous.
It's meant to be taken internally--although not in cakes. Won't you tell Mrs. Allan so,
Marilla?"
- "Suppose you jump up and tell her so yourself," said a merry
voice.
- Anne flew up, to find Mrs. Allan standing by her bed, surveying her
with laughing eyes.
- "My dear little girl, you musn't cry like this," she said,
genuinely disturbed by Anne's tragic face. "Why, it's all just a funny mistake that
anybody might make."
- "Oh, no, it takes me to make such a mistake," said Anne
forlornly. "And I wanted to have that cake so nice for you, Mrs. Allan."
- "Yes, I know, dear. And I assure you I appreciate your kindness
and thoughtfulness just as much as if it had turned out all right. Now, you mustn't cry
any more, but come down with me and show me your flower garden. Miss Cuthbert tells me you
have a little plot all your own. I want to see it, for I'm very much interested in
flowers."
- Anne permitted herself to be led down and comforted, reflecting that it
was really providential that Mrs. Allan was a kindred spirit. Nothing more was said about
the liniment cake, and when the guests went away Anne found that she had enjoyed the
evening more than could have been expected, considering that terrible incident.
Nevertheless, she sighed deeply.
- "Marilla, isn't it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with
no mistakes in it yet?"
- "I'll warrant you'll make plenty in it," said Marilla.
"I never saw your beat for making mistakes, Anne."
- "Yes, and well I know it," admitted Anne mournfully.
"But have you ever noticed one encouraging thing about me, Marilla? I never make the
same mistake twice."
- "I don't know as that's much benefit when you're always making new
ones."
- "Oh, don't you see, Marilla? There must be a limit to the mistakes
one person can make, and when I get to the end of them, then I'll be through with them.
That's a very comforting thought."
- "Well, you'd better go and give that cake to the pigs," said
Marilla. "It isn't fit for any human to eat, not even Jerry Boute."
- CHAPTER XXII
- Anne is Invited Out to Tea
- "And what are your eyes popping out of your head about. Now?"
asked Marilla, when Anne had just come in from a run to the post office. "Have you
discovered another kindred spirit?" Excitement hung around Anne like a garment, shone
in her eyes, kindled in every feature. She had come dancing up the lane, like a wind-blown
sprite, through the mellow sunshine and lazy shadows of the August evening.
- "No, Marilla, but oh, what do you think? I am invited to tea at
the manse tomorrow afternoon! Mrs. Allan left the letter for me at the post office. Just
look at it, Marilla. `Miss Anne Shirley, Green Gables.' That is the first time I was ever
called `Miss.' Such a thrill as it gave me! I shall cherish it forever among my choicest
treasures."
- "Mrs. Allan told me she meant to have all the members of her
Sunday-school class to tea in turn," said Marilla, regarding the wonderful event very
coolly. "You needn't get in such a fever over it. Do learn to take things calmly,
child."
- For Anne to take things calmly would have been to change her nature.
All "spirit and fire and dew," as she was, the pleasures and pains of life came
to her with trebled intensity. Marilla felt this and was vaguely troubled over it,
realizing that the ups and downs of existence would probably bear hardly on this impulsive
soul and not sufficiently understanding that the equally great capacity for delight might
more than compensate. Therefore Marilla conceived it to be her duty to drill Anne into a
tranquil uniformity of disposition as impossible and alien to her as to a dancing sunbeam
in one of the brook shallows. She did not make much headway, as she sorrowfully admitted
to herself. The downfall of some dear hope or plan plunged Anne into "deeps of
affliction." The fulfillment thereof exalted her to dizzy realms of delight. Marilla
had almost begun to despair of ever fashioning this waif of the world into her model
little girl of demure manners and prim deportment. Neither would she have believed that
she really liked Anne much better as she was.
- Anne went to bed that night speechless with misery because Matthew had
said the wind was round northeast and he feared it would be a rainy day tomorrow. The
rustle of the poplar leaves about the house worried her, it sounded so like pattering
raindrops, and the full, faraway roar of the gulf, to which she listened delightedly at
other times, loving its strange, sonorous, haunting rhythm, now seemed like a prophecy of
storm and disaster to a small maiden who particularly wanted a fine day. Anne thought that
the morning would never come.
- But all things have an end, even nights before the day on which you are
invited to take tea at the manse. The morning, in spite of Matthew's predictions, was fine
and Anne's spirits soared to their highest. "Oh, Marilla, there is something in me
today that makes me just love everybody I see," she exclaimed as she washed the
breakfast dishes. "You don't know how good I feel! Wouldn't it be nice if it could
last? I believe I could be a model child if I were just invited out to tea every day. But
oh, Marilla, it's a solemn occasion too. I feel so anxious. What if I shouldn't behave
properly? You know I never had tea at a manse before, and I'm not sure that I know all the
rules of etiquette, although I've been studying the rules given in the Etiquette
Department of the Family Herald ever since I came here. I'm so afraid I'll do something
silly or forget to do something I should do. Would it be good manners to take a second
helping of anything if you wanted to VERY much?"
- "The trouble with you, Anne, is that you're thinking too much
about yourself. You should just think of Mrs. Allan and what would be nicest and most
agreeable to her," said Marilla, hitting for once in her life on a very sound and
pithy piece of advice. Anne instantly realized this.
- "You are right, Marilla. I'll try not to think about myself at
all."
- Anne evidently got through her visit without any serious breach of
"etiquette," for she came home through the twilight, under a great, high-sprung
sky gloried over with trails of saffron and rosy cloud, in a beatified state of mind and
told Marilla all about it happily, sitting on the big red-sandstone slab at the kitchen
door with her tired curly head in Marilla's gingham lap.
- A cool wind was blowing down over the long harvest fields from the rims
of firry western hills and whistling through the poplars. One clear star hung over the
orchard and the fireflies were flitting over in Lover's Lane, in and out among the ferns
and rustling boughs. Anne watched them as she talked and somehow felt that wind and stars
and fireflies were all tangled up together into something unutterably sweet and
enchanting.
- "Oh, Marilla, I've had a most FASCINATING time. I feel that I have
not lived in vain and I shall always feel like that even if I should never be invited to
tea at a manse again. When I got there Mrs. Allan met me at the door. She was dressed in
the sweetest dress of pale-pink organdy, with dozens of frills and elbow sleeves, and she
looked just like a seraph. I really think I'd like to be a minister's wife when I grow up,
Marilla. A minister mightn't mind my red hair because he wouldn't be thinking of such
worldly things. But then of course one would have to be naturally good and I'll never be
that, so I suppose there's no use in thinking about it. Some people are naturally good,
you know, and others are not. I'm one of the others. Mrs. Lynde says I'm full of original
sin. No matter how hard I try to be good I can never make such a success of it as those
who are naturally good. It's a good deal like geometry, I expect. But don't you think the
trying so hard ought to count for something? Mrs. Allan is one of the naturally good
people. I love her passionately. You know there are some people, like Matthew and Mrs.
Allan that you can love right off without any trouble. And there are others, like Mrs.
Lynde, that you have to try very hard to love. You know you OUGHT to love them because
they know so much and are such active workers in the church, but you have to keep
reminding yourself of it all the time or else you forget. There was another little girl at
the manse to tea, from the White Sands Sunday school. Her name was Laurette Bradley, and
she was a very nice little girl. Not exactly a kindred spirit, you know, but still very
nice. We had an elegant tea, and I think I kept all the rules of etiquette pretty well.
After tea Mrs. Allan played and sang and she got Lauretta and me to sing too. Mrs. Allan
says I have a good voice and she says I must sing in the Sunday-school choir after this.
You can't think how I was thrilled at the mere thought. I've longed so to sing in the
Sunday-school choir, as Diana does, but I feared it was an honor I could never aspire to.
Lauretta had to go home early because there is a big concert in the White Sands Hotel
tonight and her sister is to recite at it. Lauretta says that the Americans at the hotel
give a concert every fortnight in aid of the Charlottetown hospital, and they ask lots of
the White Sands people to recite. Lauretta said she expected to be asked herself someday.
I just gazed at her in awe. After she had gone Mrs. Allan and I had a heart-to-heart talk.
I told her everything--about Mrs. Thomas and the twins and Katie Maurice and Violetta and
coming to Green Gables and my troubles over geometry. And would you believe it, Marilla?
Mrs. Allan told me she was a dunce at geometry too. You don't know how that encouraged me.
Mrs. Lynde came to the manse just before I left, and what do you think, Marilla? The
trustees have hired a new teacher and it's a lady. Her name is Miss Muriel Stacy. Isn't
that a romantic name? Mrs. Lynde says they've never had a female teacher in Avonlea before
and she thinks it is a dangerous innovation. But I think it will be splendid to have a
lady teacher, and I really don't see how I'm going to live through the two weeks before
school begins. I'm so impatient to see her."
- CHAPTER XXIII
- Anne Comes to Grief in an Affair of Honor
- Anne had to live through more than two weeks, as it happened. Almost a
month having elapsed since the liniment cake episode, it was high time for her to get into
fresh trouble of some sort, little mistakes, such as absentmindedly emptying a pan of skim
milk into a basket of yarn balls in the pantry instead of into the pigs' bucket, and
walking clean over the edge of the log bridge into the brook while wrapped in imaginative
reverie, not really being worth counting.
- A week after the tea at the manse Diana Barry gave a party.
- "Small and select," Anne assured Marilla. "Just the
girls in our class."
- They had a very good time and nothing untoward happened until after
tea, when they found themselves in the Barry garden, a little tired of all their games and
ripe for any enticing form of mischief which might present itself. This presently took the
form of "daring."
- Daring was the fashionable amusement among the Avonlea small fry just
then. It had begun among the boys, but soon spread to the girls, and all the silly things
that were done in Avonlea that summer because the doers thereof were "dared" to
do them would fill a book by themselves.
- First of all Carrie Sloane dared Ruby Gillis to climb to a certain
point in the huge old willow tree before the front door; which Ruby Gillis, albeit in
mortal dread of the fat green caterpillars with which said tree was infested and with the
fear of her mother before her eyes if she should tear her new muslin dress, nimbly did, to
the discomfiture of the aforesaid Carrie Sloane. Then Josie Pye dared Jane Andrews to hop
on her left leg around the garden without stopping once or putting her right foot to the
ground; which Jane Andrews gamely tried to do, but gave out at the third corner and had to
confess herself defeated.
- Josie's triumph being rather more pronounced than good taste permitted,
Anne Shirley dared her to walk along the top of the board fence which bounded the garden
to the east. Now, to "walk" board fences requires more skill and steadiness of
head and heel than one might suppose who has never tried it. But Josie Pye, if deficient
in some qualities that make for popularity, had at least a natural and inborn gift, duly
cultivated, for walking board fences. Josie walked the Barry fence with an airy unconcern
which seemed to imply that a little thing like that wasn't worth a "dare."
Reluctant admiration greeted her exploit, for most of the other girls could appreciate it,
having suffered many things themselves in their efforts to walk fences. Josie descended
from her perch, flushed with victory, and darted a defiant glance at Anne.
- Anne tossed her red braids.
- "I don't think it's such a very wonderful thing to walk a little,
low, board fence," she said. "I knew a girl in Marysville who could walk the
ridgepole of a roof."
- "I don't believe it," said Josie flatly. "I don't
believe anybody could walk a ridgepole. YOU couldn't, anyhow."
- "Couldn't I?" cried Anne rashly.
- "Then I dare you to do it," said Josie defiantly. "I
dare you to climb up there and walk the ridgepole of Mr. Barry's kitchen roof."
- Anne turned pale, but there was clearly only one thing to be done. She
walked toward the house, where a ladder was leaning against the kitchen roof. All the
fifth-class girls said, "Oh!" partly in excitement, partly in dismay.
- "Don't you do it, Anne," entreated Diana. "You'll fall
off and be killed. Never mind Josie Pye. It isn't fair to dare anybody to do anything so
dangerous."
- "I must do it. My honor is at stake," said Anne solemnly.
"I shall walk that ridgepole, Diana, or perish in the attempt. If I am killed you are
to have my pearl bead ring."
- Anne climbed the ladder amid breathless silence, gained the ridgepole,
balanced herself uprightly on that precarious footing, and started to walk along it,
dizzily conscious that she was uncomfortably high up in the world and that walking
ridgepoles was not a thing in which your imagination helped you out much. Nevertheless,
she managed to take several steps before the catastrophe came. Then she swayed, lost her
balance, stumbled, staggered, and fell, sliding down over the sun-baked roof and crashing
off it through the tangle of Virginia creeper beneath-- all before the dismayed circle
below could give a simultaneous, terrified shriek.
- If Anne had tumbled off the roof on the side up which she had ascended
Diana would probably have fallen heir to the pearl bead ring then and there. Fortunately
she fell on the other side, where the roof extended down over the porch so nearly to the
ground that a fall therefrom was a much less serious thing. Nevertheless, when Diana and
the other girls had rushed frantically around the house--except Ruby Gillis, who remained
as if rooted to the ground and went into hysterics--they found Anne lying all white and
limp among the wreck and ruin of the Virginia creeper.
- "Anne, are you killed?" shrieked Diana, throwing herself on
her knees beside her friend. "Oh, Anne, dear Anne, speak just one word to me and tell
me if you're killed."
- To the immense relief of all the girls, and especially of Josie Pye,
who, in spite of lack of imagination, had been seized with horrible visions of a future
branded as the girl who was the cause of Anne Shirley's early and tragic death, Anne sat
dizzily up and answered uncertainly:
- "No, Diana, I am not killed, but I think I am rendered
unconscious."
- "Where?" sobbed Carrie Sloane. "Oh, where, Anne?"
Before Anne could answer Mrs. Barry appeared on the scene. At sight of her Anne tried to
scramble to her feet, but sank back again with a sharp little cry of pain.
- "What's the matter? Where have you hurt yourself?" demanded
Mrs. Barry.
- "My ankle," gasped Anne. "Oh, Diana, please find your
father and ask him to take me home. I know I can never walk there. And I'm sure I couldn't
hop so far on one foot when Jane couldn't even hop around the garden."
- Marilla was out in the orchard picking a panful of summer apples when
she saw Mr. Barry coming over the log bridge and up the slope, with Mrs. Barry beside him
and a whole procession of little girls trailing after him. In his arms he carried Anne,
whose head lay limply against his shoulder.
- At that moment Marilla had a revelation. In the sudden stab of fear
that pierced her very heart she realized what Anne had come to mean to her. She would have
admitted that she liked Anne--nay, that she was very fond of Anne. But now she knew as she
hurried wildly down the slope that Anne was dearer to her than anything else on earth.
- "Mr. Barry, what has happened to her?" she gasped, more white
and shaken than the self-contained, sensible Marilla had been for many years.
- Anne herself answered, lifting her head.
- "Don't be very frightened, Marilla. I was walking the ridgepole
and I fell off. I expect I have sprained my ankle. But, Marilla, I might have broken my
neck. Let us look on the bright side of things."
- "I might have known you'd go and do something of the sort when I
let you go to that party," said Marilla, sharp and shrewish in her very relief.
"Bring her in here, Mr. Barry, and lay her on the sofa. Mercy me, the child has gone
and fainted!"
- It was quite true. Overcome by the pain of her injury, Anne had one
more of her wishes granted to her. She had fainted dead away.
- Matthew, hastily summoned from the harvest field, was straightway
dispatched for the doctor, who in due time came, to discover that the injury was more
serious than they had supposed. Anne's ankle was broken.
- That night, when Marilla went up to the east gable, where a white-faced
girl was lying, a plaintive voice greeted her from the bed.
- "Aren't you very sorry for me, Marilla?"
- "It was your own fault," said Marilla, twitching down the
blind and lighting a lamp.
- "And that is just why you should be sorry for me," said Anne,
"because the thought that it is all my own fault is what makes it so hard. If I could
blame it on anybody I would feel so much better. But what would you have done, Marilla, if
you had been dared to walk a ridgepole?"
- "I'd have stayed on good firm ground and let them dare away. Such
absurdity!" said Marilla.
- Anne sighed.
- "But you have such strength of mind, Marilla. I haven't. I just
felt that I couldn't bear Josie Pye's scorn. She would have crowed over me all my life.
And I think I have been punished so much that you needn't be very cross with me, Marilla.
It's not a bit nice to faint, after all. And the doctor hurt me dreadfully when he was
setting my ankle. I won't be able to go around for six or seven weeks and I'll miss the
new lady teacher. She won't be new any more by the time I'm able to go to school. And
Gil-- everybody will get ahead of me in class. Oh, I am an afflicted mortal. But I'll try
to bear it all bravely if only you won't be cross with me, Marilla."
- "There, there, I'm not cross," said Marilla. "You're an
unlucky child, there's no doubt about that; but as you say, you'll have the suffering of
it. Here now, try and eat some supper."
- "Isn't it fortunate I've got such an imagination?" said Anne.
"It will help me through splendidly, I expect. What do people who haven't any
imagination do when they break their bones, do you suppose, Marilla?"
- Anne had good reason to bless her imagination many a time and oft
during the tedious seven weeks that followed. But she was not solely dependent on it. She
had many visitors and not a day passed without one or more of the schoolgirls dropping in
to bring her flowers and books and tell her all the happenings in the juvenile world of
Avonlea.
- "Everybody has been so good and kind, Marilla," sighed Anne
happily, on the day when she could first limp across the floor. "It isn't very
pleasant to be laid up; but there is a bright side to it, Marilla. You find out how many
friends you have. Why, even Superintendent Bell came to see me, and he's really a very
fine man. Not a kindred spirit, of course; but still I like him and I'm awfully sorry I
ever criticized his prayers. I believe now he really does mean them, only he has got into
the habit of saying them as if he didn't. He could get over that if he'd take a little
trouble. I gave him a good broad hint. I told him how hard I tried to make my own little
private prayers interesting. He told me all about the time he broke his ankle when he was
a boy. It does seem so strange to think of Superintendent Bell ever being a boy. Even my
imagination has its limits, for I can't imagine THAT. When I try to imagine him as a boy I
see him with gray whiskers and spectacles, just as he looks in Sunday school, only small.
Now, it's so easy to imagine Mrs. Allan as a little girl. Mrs. Allan has been to see me
fourteen times. Isn't that something to be proud of, Marilla? When a minister's wife has
so many claims on her time! She is such a cheerful person to have visit you, too. She
never tells you it's your own fault and she hopes you'll be a better girl on account of
it. Mrs. Lynde always told me that when she came to see me; and she said it in a kind of
way that made me feel she might hope I'd be a better girl but didn't really believe I
would. Even Josie Pye came to see me. I received her as politely as I could, because I
think she was sorry she dared me to walk a ridgepole. If I had been killed she would had
to carry a dark burden of remorse all her life. Diana has been a faithful friend. She's
been over every day to cheer my lonely pillow. But oh, I shall be so glad when I can go to
school for I've heard such exciting things about the new teacher. The girls all think she
is perfectly sweet. Diana says she has the loveliest fair curly hair and such fascinating
eyes. She dresses beautifully, and her sleeve puffs are bigger than anybody else's in
Avonlea. Every other Friday afternoon she has recitations and everybody has to say a piece
or take part in a dialogue. Oh, it's just glorious to think of it. Josie Pye says she
hates it but that is just because Josie has so little imagination. Diana and Ruby Gillis
and Jane Andrews are preparing a dialogue, called `A Morning Visit,' for next Friday. And
the Friday afternoons they don't have recitations Miss Stacy takes them all to the woods
for a `field' day and they study ferns and flowers and birds. And they have physical
culture exercises every morning and evening. Mrs. Lynde says she never heard of such
goings on and it all comes of having a lady teacher. But I think it must be splendid and I
believe I shall find that Miss Stacy is a kindred spirit."
- "There's one thing plain to be seen, Anne," said Marilla,
"and that is that your fall off the Barry roof hasn't injured your tongue at
all."
- CHAPTER XXIV
- Miss Stacy and Her Pupils Get Up a Concert
- It was October again when Anne was ready to go back to school--a
glorious October, all red and gold, with mellow mornings when the valleys were filled with
delicate mists as if the spirit of autumn had poured them in for the sun to
drain--amethyst, pearl, silver, rose, and smoke-blue. The dews were so heavy that the
fields glistened like cloth of silver and there were such heaps of rustling leaves in the
hollows of many-stemmed woods to run crisply through. The Birch Path was a canopy of
yellow and the ferns were sear and brown all along it. There was a tang in the very air
that inspired the hearts of small maidens tripping, unlike snails, swiftly and willingly
to school; and it WAS jolly to be back again at the little brown desk beside Diana, with
Ruby Gillis nodding across the aisle and Carrie Sloane sending up notes and Julia Bell
passing a "chew" of gum down from the back seat. Anne drew a long breath of
happiness as she sharpened her pencil and arranged her picture cards in her desk. Life was
certainly very interesting.
- In the new teacher she found another true and helpful friend. Miss
Stacy was a bright, sympathetic young woman with the happy gift of winning and holding the
affections of her pupils and bringing out the best that was in them mentally and morally.
Anne expanded like a flower under this wholesome influence and carried home to the
admiring Matthew and the critical Marilla glowing accounts of schoolwork and aims.
- "I love Miss Stacy with my whole heart, Marilla. She is so
ladylike and she has such a sweet voice. When she pronounces my name I feel INSTINCTIVELY
that she's spelling it with an E. We had recitations this afternoon. I just wish you could
have been there to hear me recite `Mary, Queen of Scots.' I just put my whole soul into
it. Ruby Gillis told me coming home that the way I said the line, `Now for my father's
arm,' she said, `my woman's heart farewell,' just made her blood run cold."
- "Well now, you might recite it for me some of these days, out in
the barn," suggested Matthew.
- "Of course I will," said Anne meditatively, "but I won't
be able to do it so well, I know. It won't be so exciting as it is when you have a whole
schoolful before you hanging breathlessly on your words. I know I won't be able to make
your blood run cold."
- "Mrs. Lynde says it made HER blood run cold to see the boys
climbing to the very tops of those big trees on Bell's hill after crows' nests last
Friday," said Marilla. "I wonder at Miss Stacy for encouraging it."
- "But we wanted a crow's nest for nature study," explained
Anne. "That was on our field afternoon. Field afternoons are splendid, Marilla. And
Miss Stacy explains everything so beautifully. We have to write compositions on our field
afternoons and I write the best ones."
- "It's very vain of you to say so then. You'd better let your
teacher say it."
- "But she DID say it, Marilla. And indeed I'm not vain about it.
How can I be, when I'm such a dunce at geometry? Although I'm really beginning to see
through it a little, too. Miss Stacy makes it so clear. Still, I'll never be good at it
and I assure you it is a humbling reflection. But I love writing compositions. Mostly Miss
Stacy lets us choose our own subjects; but next week we are to write a composition on some
remarkable person. It's hard to choose among so many remarkable people who have lived.
Mustn't it be splendid to be remarkable and have compositions written about you after
you're dead? Oh, I would dearly love to be remarkable. I think when I grow up I'll be a
trained nurse and go with the Red Crosses to the field of battle as a messenger of mercy.
That is, if I don't go out as a foreign missionary. That would be very romantic, but one
would have to be very good to be a missionary, and that would be a stumbling block. We
have physical culture exercises every day, too. They make you graceful and promote
digestion."
- "Promote fiddlesticks!" said Marilla, who honestly thought it
was all nonsense.
- But all the field afternoons and recitation Fridays and physical
culture contortions paled before a project which Miss Stacy brought forward in November.
This was that the scholars of Avonlea school should get up a concert and hold it in the
hall on Christmas Night, for the laudable purpose of helping to pay for a schoolhouse
flag. The pupils one and all taking graciously to this plan, the preparations for a
program were begun at once. And of all the excited performers-elect none was so excited as
Anne Shirley, who threw herself into the undertaking heart and soul, hampered as she was
by Marilla's disapproval. Marilla thought it all rank foolishness.
- "It's just filling your heads up with nonsense and taking time
that ought to be put on your lessons," she grumbled. "I don't approve of
children's getting up concerts and racing about to practices. It makes them vain and
forward and fond of gadding."
- "But think of the worthy object," pleaded Anne. "A flag
will cultivate a spirit of patriotism, Marilla."
- "Fudge! There's precious little patriotism in the thoughts of any
of you. All you want is a good time."
- "Well, when you can combine patriotism and fun, isn't it all
right? Of course it's real nice to be getting up a concert. We're going to have six
choruses and Diana is to sing a solo. I'm in two dialogues--`The Society for the
Suppression of Gossip' and `The Fairy Queen.' The boys are going to have a dialogue too.
And I'm to have two recitations, Marilla. I just tremble when I think of it, but it's a
nice thrilly kind of tremble. And we're to have a tableau at the last--`Faith, Hope and
Charity.' Diana and Ruby and I are to be in it, all draped in white with flowing hair. I'm
to be Hope, with my hands clasped--so--and my eyes uplifted. I'm going to practice my
recitations in the garret. Don't be alarmed if you hear me groaning. I have to groan
heartrendingly in one of them, and it's really hard to get up a good artistic groan,
Marilla. Josie Pye is sulky because she didn't get the part she wanted in the dialogue.
She wanted to be the fairy queen. That would have been ridiculous, for who ever heard of a
fairy queen as fat as Josie? Fairy queens must be slender. Jane Andrews is to be the queen
and I am to be one of her maids of honor. Josie says she thinks a red-haired fairy is just
as ridiculous as a fat one, but I do not let myself mind what Josie says. I'm to have a
wreath of white roses on my hair and Ruby Gillis is going to lend me her slippers because
I haven't any of my own. It's necessary for fairies to have slippers, you know. You
couldn't imagine a fairy wearing boots, could you? Especially with copper toes? We are
going to decorate the hall with creeping spruce and fir mottoes with pink tissue-paper
roses in them. And we are all to march in two by two after the audience is seated, while
Emma White plays a march on the organ. Oh, Marilla, I know you are not so enthusiastic
about it as I am, but don't you hope your little Anne will distinguish herself?"
- "All I hope is that you'll behave yourself. I'll be heartily glad
when all this fuss is over and you'll be able to settle down. You are simply good for
nothing just now with your head stuffed full of dialogues and groans and tableaus. As for
your tongue, it's a marvel it's not clean worn out."
- Anne sighed and betook herself to the back yard, over which a young new
moon was shining through the leafless poplar boughs from an apple-green western sky, and
where Matthew was splitting wood. Anne perched herself on a block and talked the concert
over with him, sure of an appreciative and sympathetic listener in this instance at least.
- "Well now, I reckon it's going to be a pretty good concert. And I
expect you'll do your part fine," he said, smiling down into her eager, vivacious
little face. Anne smiled back at him. Those two were the best of friends and Matthew
thanked his stars many a time and oft that he had nothing to do with bringing her up. That
was Marilla's exclusive duty; if it had been his he would have been worried over frequent
conflicts between inclination and said duty. As it was, he was free to, "spoil
Anne"--Marilla's phrasing--as much as he liked. But it was not such a bad arrangement
after all; a little "appreciation" sometimes does quite as much good as all the
conscientious "bringing up" in the world.
- CHAPTER XXV
- Matthew Insists on Puffed Sleeves
- Matthew was having a bad ten minutes of it. He had come into the
kitchen, in the twilight of a cold, gray December evening, and had sat down in the woodbox
corner to take off his heavy boots, unconscious of the fact that Anne and a bevy of her
schoolmates were having a practice of "The Fairy Queen" in the sitting room.
Presently they came trooping through the hall and out into the kitchen, laughing and
chattering gaily. They did not see Matthew, who shrank bashfully back into the shadows
beyond the woodbox with a boot in one hand and a bootjack in the other, and he watched
them shyly for the aforesaid ten minutes as they put on caps and jackets and talked about
the dialogue and the concert. Anne stood among them, bright eyed and animated as they; but
Matthew suddenly became conscious that there was something about her different from her
mates. And what worried Matthew was that the difference impressed him as being something
that should not exist. Anne had a brighter face, and bigger, starrier eyes, and more
delicate features than the other; even shy, unobservant Matthew had learned to take note
of these things; but the difference that disturbed him did not consist in any of these
respects. Then in what did it consist?
- Matthew was haunted by this question long after the girls had gone, arm
in arm, down the long, hard-frozen lane and Anne had betaken herself to her books. He
could not refer it to Marilla, who, he felt, would be quite sure to sniff scornfully and
remark that the only difference she saw between Anne and the other girls was that they
sometimes kept their tongues quiet while Anne never did. This, Matthew felt, would be no
great help.
- He had recourse to his pipe that evening to help him study it out, much
to Marilla's disgust. After two hours of smoking and hard reflection Matthew arrived at a
solution of his problem. Anne was not dressed like the other girls!
- The more Matthew thought about the matter the more he was convinced
that Anne never had been dressed like the other girls--never since she had come to Green
Gables. Marilla kept her clothed in plain, dark dresses, all made after the same unvarying
pattern. If Matthew knew there was such a thing as fashion in dress it was as much as he
did; but he was quite sure that Anne's sleeves did not look at all like the sleeves the
other girls wore. He recalled the cluster of little girls he had seen around her that
evening--all gay in waists of red and blue and pink and white--and he wondered why Marilla
always kept her so plainly and soberly gowned.
- Of course, it must be all right. Marilla knew best and Marilla was
bringing her up. Probably some wise, inscrutable motive was to be served thereby. But
surely it would do no harm to let the child have one pretty dress--something like Diana
Barry always wore. Matthew decided that he would give her one; that surely could not be
objected to as an unwarranted putting in of his oar. Christmas was only a fortnight off. A
nice new dress would be the very thing for a present. Matthew, with a sigh of
satisfaction, put away his pipe and went to bed, while Marilla opened all the doors and
aired the house.
- The very next evening Matthew betook himself to Carmody to buy the
dress, determined to get the worst over and have done with it. It would be, he felt
assured, no trifling ordeal. There were some things Matthew could buy and prove himself no
mean bargainer; but he knew he would be at the mercy of shopkeepers when it came to buying
a girl's dress.
- After much cogitation Matthew resolved to go to Samuel Lawson's store
instead of William Blair's. To be sure, the Cuthberts always had gone to William Blair's;
it was almost as much a matter of conscience with them as to attend the Presbyterian
church and vote Conservative. But William Blair's two daughters frequently waited on
customers there and Matthew held them in absolute dread. He could contrive to deal with
them when he knew exactly what he wanted and could point it out; but in such a matter as
this, requiring explanation and consultation, Matthew felt that he must be sure of a man
behind the counter. So he would go to Lawson's, where Samuel or his son would wait on him.
- Alas! Matthew did not know that Samuel, in the recent expansion of his
business, had set up a lady clerk also; she was a niece of his wife's and a very dashing
young person indeed, with a huge, drooping pompadour, big, rolling brown eyes, and a most
extensive and bewildering smile. She was dressed with exceeding smartness and wore several
bangle bracelets that glittered and rattled and tinkled with every movement of her hands.
Matthew was covered with confusion at finding her there at all; and those bangles
completely wrecked his wits at one fell swoop.
- "What can I do for you this evening, Mr. Cuthbert?" Miss
Lucilla Harris inquired, briskly and ingratiatingly, tapping the counter with both hands.
- "Have you any--any--any--well now, say any garden rakes?"
stammered Matthew.
- Miss Harris looked somewhat surprised, as well she might, to hear a man
inquiring for garden rakes in the middle of December.
- "I believe we have one or two left over," she said, "but
they're upstairs in the lumber room. I'll go and see." During her absence Matthew
collected his scattered senses for another effort.
- When Miss Harris returned with the rake and cheerfully inquired:
"Anything else tonight, Mr. Cuthbert?" Matthew took his courage in both hands
and replied: "Well now, since you suggest it, I might as well--take--that is--look
at--buy some--some hayseed."
- Miss Harris had heard Matthew Cuthbert called odd. She now concluded
that he was entirely crazy.
- "We only keep hayseed in the spring," she explained loftily.
"We've none on hand just now."
- "Oh, certainly--certainly--just as you say," stammered
unhappy Matthew, seizing the rake and making for the door. At the threshold he recollected
that he had not paid for it and he turned miserably back. While Miss Harris was counting
out his change he rallied his powers for a final desperate attempt.
- "Well now--if it isn't too much trouble--I might as well--that
is--I'd like to look at--at--some sugar."
- "White or brown?" queried Miss Harris patiently.
- "Oh--well now--brown," said Matthew feebly.
- "There's a barrel of it over there," said Miss Harris,
shaking her bangles at it. "It's the only kind we have."
- "I'll--I'll take twenty pounds of it," said Matthew, with
beads of perspiration standing on his forehead.
- Matthew had driven halfway home before he was his own man again. It had
been a gruesome experience, but it served him right, he thought, for committing the heresy
of going to a strange store. When he reached home he hid the rake in the tool house, but
the sugar he carried in to Marilla.
- "Brown sugar!" exclaimed Marilla. "Whatever possessed
you to get so much? You know I never use it except for the hired man's porridge or black
fruit cake. Jerry's gone and I've made my cake long ago. It's not good sugar, either--it's
coarse and dark--William Blair doesn't usually keep sugar like that."
- "I--I thought it might come in handy sometime," said Matthew,
making good his escape.
- When Matthew came to think the matter over he decided that a woman was
required to cope with the situation. Marilla was out of the question. Matthew felt sure
she would throw cold water on his project at once. Remained only Mrs. Lynde; for of no
other woman in Avonlea would Matthew have dared to ask advice. To Mrs. Lynde he went
accordingly, and that good lady promptly took the matter out of the harassed man's hands.
- "Pick out a dress for you to give Anne? To be sure I will. I'm
going to Carmody tomorrow and I'll attend to it. Have you something particular in mind?
No? Well, I'll just go by my own judgment then. I believe a nice rich brown would just
suit Anne, and William Blair has some new gloria in that's real pretty. Perhaps you'd like
me to make it up for her, too, seeing that if Marilla was to make it Anne would probably
get wind of it before the time and spoil the surprise? Well, I'll do it. No, it isn't a
mite of trouble. I like sewing. I'll make it to fit my niece, Jenny Gillis, for she and
Anne are as like as two peas as far as figure goes."
- "Well now, I'm much obliged," said Matthew, "and--and--I
dunno--but I'd like--I think they make the sleeves different nowadays to what they used to
be. If it wouldn't be asking too much I--I'd like them made in the new way."
- "Puffs? Of course. You needn't worry a speck more about it,
Matthew. I'll make it up in the very latest fashion," said Mrs. Lynde. To herself she
added when Matthew had gone:
- "It'll be a real satisfaction to see that poor child wearing
something decent for once. The way Marilla dresses her is positively ridiculous, that's
what, and I've ached to tell her so plainly a dozen times. I've held my tongue though, for
I can see Marilla doesn't want advice and she thinks she knows more about bringing
children up than I do for all she's an old maid. But that's always the way. Folks that has
brought up children know that there's no hard and fast method in the world that'll suit
every child. But them as never have think it's all as plain and easy as Rule of
Three--just set your three terms down so fashion, and the sum'll work out correct. But
flesh and blood don't come under the head of arithmetic and that's where Marilla Cuthbert
makes her mistake. I suppose she's trying to cultivate a spirit of humility in Anne by
dressing her as she does; but it's more likely to cultivate envy and discontent. I'm sure
the child must feel the difference between her clothes and the other girls'. But to think
of Matthew taking notice of it! That man is waking up after being asleep for over sixty
years."
- Marilla knew all the following fortnight that Matthew had something on
his mind, but what it was she could not guess, until Christmas Eve, when Mrs. Lynde
brought up the new dress. Marilla behaved pretty well on the whole, although it is very
likely she distrusted Mrs. Lynde's diplomatic explanation that she had made the dress
because Matthew was afraid Anne would find out about it too soon if Marilla made it.
- "So this is what Matthew has been looking so mysterious over and
grinning about to himself for two weeks, is it?" she said a little stiffly but
tolerantly. "I knew he was up to some foolishness. Well, I must say I don't think
Anne needed any more dresses. I made her three good, warm, serviceable ones this fall, and
anything more is sheer extravagance. There's enough material in those sleeves alone to
make a waist, I declare there is. You'll just pamper Anne's vanity, Matthew, and she's as
vain as a peacock now. Well, I hope she'll be satisfied at last, for I know she's been
hankering after those silly sleeves ever since they came in, although she never said a
word after the first. The puffs have been getting bigger and more ridiculous right along;
they're as big as balloons now. Next year anybody who wears them will have to go through a
door sideways."
- Christmas morning broke on a beautiful white world. It had been a very
mild December and people had looked forward to a green Christmas; but just enough snow
fell softly in the night to transfigure Avonlea. Anne peeped out from her frosted gable
window with delighted eyes. The firs in the Haunted Wood were all feathery and wonderful;
the birches and wild cherry trees were outlined in pearl; the plowed fields were stretches
of snowy dimples; and there was a crisp tang in the air that was glorious. Anne ran
downstairs singing until her voice reechoed through Green Gables.
- "Merry Christmas, Marilla! Merry Christmas, Matthew! Isn't it a
lovely Christmas? I'm so glad it's white. Any other kind of Christmas doesn't seem real,
does it? I don't like green Christmases. They're not green-- they're just nasty faded
browns and grays. What makes people call them green? Why--why--Matthew, is that for me?
Oh, Matthew!"
- Matthew had sheepishly unfolded the dress from its paper swathings and
held it out with a deprecatory glance at Marilla, who feigned to be contemptuously filling
the teapot, but nevertheless watched the scene out of the corner of her eye with a rather
interested air.
- Anne took the dress and looked at it in reverent silence. Oh, how
pretty it was--a lovely soft brown gloria with all the gloss of silk; a skirt with dainty
frills and shirrings; a waist elaborately pintucked in the most fashionable way, with a
little ruffle of filmy lace at the neck. But the sleeves--they were the crowning glory!
Long elbow cuffs, and above them two beautiful puffs divided by rows of shirring and bows
of brown-silk ribbon.
- "That's a Christmas present for you, Anne," said Matthew
shyly. "Why--why--Anne, don't you like it? Well now--well now."
- For Anne's eyes had suddenly filled with tears.
- "Like it! Oh, Matthew!" Anne laid the dress over a chair and
clasped her hands. "Matthew, it's perfectly exquisite. Oh, I can never thank you
enough. Look at those sleeves! Oh, it seems to me this must be a happy dream."
- "Well, well, let us have breakfast," interrupted Marilla.
"I must say, Anne, I don't think you needed the dress; but since Matthew has got it
for you, see that you take good care of it. There's a hair ribbon Mrs. Lynde left for you.
It's brown, to match the dress. Come now, sit in."
- "I don't see how I'm going to eat breakfast," said Anne
rapturously. "Breakfast seems so commonplace at such an exciting moment. I'd rather
feast my eyes on that dress. I'm so glad that puffed sleeves are still fashionable. It did
seem to me that I'd never get over it if they went out before I had a dress with them. I'd
never have felt quite satisfied, you see. It was lovely of Mrs. Lynde to give me the
ribbon too. I feel that I ought to be a very good girl indeed. It's at times like this I'm
sorry I'm not a model little girl; and I always resolve that I will be in future. But
somehow it's hard to carry out your resolutions when irresistible temptations come. Still,
I really will make an extra effort after this."
- When the commonplace breakfast was over Diana appeared, crossing the
white log bridge in the hollow, a gay little figure in her crimson ulster. Anne flew down
the slope to meet her.
- "Merry Christmas, Diana! And oh, it's a wonderful Christmas. I've
something splendid to show you. Matthew has given me the loveliest dress, with SUCH
sleeves. I couldn't even imagine any nicer."
- "I've got something more for you," said Diana breathlessly.
"Here-- this box. Aunt Josephine sent us out a big box with ever so many things in
it--and this is for you. I'd have brought it over last night, but it didn't come until
after dark, and I never feel very comfortable coming through the Haunted Wood in the dark
now."
- Anne opened the box and peeped in. First a card with "For the
Anne-girl and Merry Christmas," written on it; and then, a pair of the daintiest
little kid slippers, with beaded toes and satin bows and glistening buckles.
- "Oh," said Anne, "Diana, this is too much. I must be
dreaming."
- "I call it providential," said Diana. "You won't have to
borrow Ruby's slippers now, and that's a blessing, for they're two sizes too big for you,
and it would be awful to hear a fairy shuffling. Josie Pye would be delighted. Mind you,
Rob Wright went home with Gertie Pye from the practice night before last. Did you ever
hear anything equal to that?"
- All the Avonlea scholars were in a fever of excitement that day, for
the hall had to be decorated and a last grand rehearsal held.
- The concert came off in the evening and was a pronounced success. The
little hall was crowded; all the performers did excellently well, but Anne was the bright
particular star of the occasion, as even envy, in the shape of Josie Pye, dared not deny.
- "Oh, hasn't it been a brilliant evening?" sighed Anne, when
it was all over and she and Diana were walking home together under a dark, starry sky.
- "Everything went off very well," said Diana practically.
"I guess we must have made as much as ten dollars. Mind you, Mr. Allan is going to
send an account of it to the Charlottetown papers."
- "Oh, Diana, will we really see our names in print? It makes me
thrill to think of it. Your solo was perfectly elegant, Diana. I felt prouder than you did
when it was encored. I just said to myself, `It is my dear bosom friend who is so
honored.'"
- "Well, your recitations just brought down the house, Anne. That
sad one was simply splendid."
- "Oh, I was so nervous, Diana. When Mr. Allan called out my name I
really cannot tell how I ever got up on that platform. I felt as if a million eyes were
looking at me and through me, and for one dreadful moment I was sure I couldn't begin at
all. Then I thought of my lovely puffed sleeves and took courage. I knew that I must live
up to those sleeves, Diana. So I started in, and my voice seemed to be coming from ever so
far away. I just felt like a parrot. It's providential that I practiced those recitations
so often up in the garret, or I'd never have been able to get through. Did I groan all
right?"
- "Yes, indeed, you groaned lovely," assured Diana.
- "I saw old Mrs. Sloane wiping away tears when I sat down. It was
splendid to think I had touched somebody's heart. It's so romantic to take part in a
concert, isn't it? Oh, it's been a very memorable occasion indeed."
- "Wasn't the boys' dialogue fine?" said Diana. "Gilbert
Blythe was just splendid. Anne, I do think it's awful mean the way you treat Gil. Wait
till I tell you. When you ran off the platform after the fairy dialogue one of your roses
fell out of your hair. I saw Gil pick it up and put it in his breast pocket. There now.
You're so romantic that I'm sure you ought to be pleased at that."
- "It's nothing to me what that person does," said Anne
loftily. "I simply never waste a thought on him, Diana."
- That night Marilla and Matthew, who had been out to a concert for the
first time in twenty years, sat for a while by the kitchen fire after Anne had gone to
bed.
- "Well now, I guess our Anne did as well as any of them," said
Matthew proudly.
- "Yes, she did," admitted Marilla. "She's a bright child,
Matthew. And she looked real nice too. I've been kind of opposed to this concert scheme,
but I suppose there's no real harm in it after all. Anyhow, I was proud of Anne tonight,
although I'm not going to tell her so."
- "Well now, I was proud of her and I did tell her so 'fore she went
upstairs," said Matthew. "We must see what we can do for her some of these days,
Marilla. I guess she'll need something more than Avonlea school by and by."
- "There's time enough to think of that," said Marilla.
"She's only thirteen in March. Though tonight it struck me she was growing quite a
big girl. Mrs. Lynde made that dress a mite too long, and it makes Anne look so tall.
She's quick to learn and I guess the best thing we can do for her will be to send her to
Queen's after a spell. But nothing need be said about that for a year or two yet."
- "Well now, it'll do no harm to be thinking it over off and
on," said Matthew. "Things like that are all the better for lots of thinking
over."
- CHAPTER XXVI
- The Story Club Is Formed
- Junior Avonlea found it hard to settle down to humdrum existence again.
To Anne in particular things seemed fearfully flat, stale, and unprofitable after the
goblet of excitement she had been sipping for weeks. Could she go back to the former quiet
pleasures of those faraway days before the concert? At first, as she told Diana, she did
not really think she could.
- "I'm positively certain, Diana, that life can never be quite the
same again as it was in those olden days," she said mournfully, as if referring to a
period of at least fifty years back. "Perhaps after a while I'll get used to it, but
I'm afraid concerts spoil people for everyday life. I suppose that is why Marilla
disapproves of them. Marilla is such a sensible woman. It must be a great deal better to
be sensible; but still, I don't believe I'd really want to be a sensible person, because
they are so unromantic. Mrs. Lynde says there is no danger of my ever being one, but you
can never tell. I feel just now that I may grow up to be sensible yet. But perhaps that is
only because I'm tired. I simply couldn't sleep last night for ever so long. I just lay
awake and imagined the concert over and over again. That's one splendid thing about such
affairs--it's so lovely to look back to them."
- Eventually, however, Avonlea school slipped back into its old groove
and took up its old interests. To be sure, the concert left traces. Ruby Gillis and Emma
White, who had quarreled over a point of precedence in their platform seats, no longer sat
at the same desk, and a promising friendship of three years was broken up. Josie Pye and
Julia Bell did not "speak" for three months, because Josie Pye had told Bessie
Wright that Julia Bell's bow when she got up to recite made her think of a chicken jerking
its head, and Bessie told Julia. None of the Sloanes would have any dealings with the
Bells, because the Bells had declared that the Sloanes had too much to do in the program,
and the Sloanes had retorted that the Bells were not capable of doing the little they had
to do properly. Finally, Charlie Sloane fought Moody Spurgeon MacPherson, because Moody
Spurgeon had said that Anne Shirley put on airs about her recitations, and Moody Spurgeon
was "licked"; consequently Moody Spurgeon's sister, Ella May, would not
"speak" to Anne Shirley all the rest of the winter. With the exception of these
trifling frictions, work in Miss Stacy's little kingdom went on with regularity and
smoothness.
- The winter weeks slipped by. It was an unusually mild winter, with so
little snow that Anne and Diana could go to school nearly every day by way of the Birch
Path. On Anne's birthday they were tripping lightly down it, keeping eyes and ears alert
amid all their chatter, for Miss Stacy had told them that they must soon write a
composition on "A Winter's Walk in the Woods," and it behooved them to be
observant.
- "Just think, Diana, I'm thirteen years old today," remarked
Anne in an awed voice. "I can scarcely realize that I'm in my teens. When I woke this
morning it seemed to me that everything must be different. You've been thirteen for a
month, so I suppose it doesn't seem such a novelty to you as it does to me. It makes life
seem so much more interesting. In two more years I'll be really grown up. It's a great
comfort to think that I'll be able to use big words then without being laughed at."
- "Ruby Gillis says she means to have a beau as soon as she's
fifteen," said Diana.
- "Ruby Gillis thinks of nothing but beaus," said Anne
disdainfully. "She's actually delighted when anyone writes her name up in a
take-notice for all she pretends to be so mad. But I'm afraid that is an uncharitable
speech. Mrs. Allan says we should never make uncharitable speeches; but they do slip out
so often before you think, don't they? I simply can't talk about Josie Pye without making
an uncharitable speech, so I never mention her at all. You may have noticed that. I'm
trying to be as much like Mrs. Allan as I possibly can, for I think she's perfect. Mr.
Allan thinks so too. Mrs. Lynde says he just worships the ground she treads on and she
doesn't really think it right for a minister to set his affections so much on a mortal
being. But then, Diana, even ministers are human and have their besetting sins just like
everybody else. I had such an interesting talk with Mrs. Allan about besetting sins last
Sunday afternoon. There are just a few things it's proper to talk about on Sundays and
that is one of them. My besetting sin is imagining too much and forgetting my duties. I'm
striving very hard to overcome it and now that I'm really thirteen perhaps I'll get on
better."
- "In four more years we'll be able to put our hair up," said
Diana. "Alice Bell is only sixteen and she is wearing hers up, but I think that's
ridiculous. I shall wait until I'm seventeen."
- "If I had Alice Bell's crooked nose," said Anne decidedly,
"I wouldn't--but there! I won't say what I was going to because it was extremely
uncharitable. Besides, I was comparing it with my own nose and that's vanity. I'm afraid I
think too much about my nose ever since I heard that compliment about it long ago. It
really is a great comfort to me. Oh, Diana, look, there's a rabbit. That's something to
remember for our woods composition. I really think the woods are just as lovely in winter
as in summer. They're so white and still, as if they were asleep and dreaming pretty
dreams."
- "I won't mind writing that composition when its time comes,"
sighed Diana. "I can manage to write about the woods, but the one we're to hand in
Monday is terrible. The idea of Miss Stacy telling us to write a story out of our own
heads!"
- "Why, it's as easy as wink," said Anne.
- "It's easy for you because you have an imagination," retorted
Diana, "but what would you do if you had been born without one? I suppose you have
your composition all done?"
- Anne nodded, trying hard not to look virtuously complacent and failing
miserably.
- "I wrote it last Monday evening. It's called `The Jealous Rival;
or In Death Not Divided.' I read it to Marilla and she said it was stuff and nonsense.
Then I read it to Matthew and he said it was fine. That is the kind of critic I like. It's
a sad, sweet story. I just cried like a child while I was writing it. It's about two
beautiful maidens called Cordelia Montmorency and Geraldine Seymour who lived in the same
village and were devotedly attached to each other. Cordelia was a regal brunette with a
coronet of midnight hair and duskly flashing eyes. Geraldine was a queenly blonde with
hair like spun gold and velvety purple eyes."
- "I never saw anybody with purple eyes," said Diana dubiously.
- "Neither did I. I just imagined them. I wanted something out of
the common. Geraldine had an alabaster brow too. I've found out what an alabaster brow is.
That is one of the advantages of being thirteen. You know so much more than you did when
you were only twelve."
- "Well, what became of Cordelia and Geraldine?" asked Diana,
who was beginning to feel rather interested in their fate.
- "They grew in beauty side by side until they were sixteen. Then
Bertram DeVere came to their native village and fell in love with the fair Geraldine. He
saved her life when her horse ran away with her in a carriage, and she fainted in his arms
and he carried her home three miles; because, you understand, the carriage was all smashed
up. I found it rather hard to imagine the proposal because I had no experience to go by. I
asked Ruby Gillis if she knew anything about how men proposed because I thought she'd
likely be an authority on the subject, having so many sisters married. Ruby told me she
was hid in the hall pantry when Malcolm Andres proposed to her sister Susan. She said
Malcolm told Susan that his dad had given him the farm in his own name and then said,
`What do you say, darling pet, if we get hitched this fall?' And Susan said, `Yes--no--I
don't know--let me see'--and there they were, engaged as quick as that. But I didn't think
that sort of a proposal was a very romantic one, so in the end I had to imagine it out as
well as I could. I made it very flowery and poetical and Bertram went on his knees,
although Ruby Gillis says it isn't done nowadays. Geraldine accepted him in a speech a
page long. I can tell you I took a lot of trouble with that speech. I rewrote it five
times and I look upon it as my masterpiece. Bertram gave her a diamond ring and a ruby
necklace and told her they would go to Europe for a wedding tour, for he was immensely
wealthy. But then, alas, shadows began to darken over their path. Cordelia was secretly in
love with Bertram herself and when Geraldine told her about the engagement she was simply
furious, especially when she saw the necklace and the diamond ring. All her affection for
Geraldine turned to bitter hate and she vowed that she should never marry Bertram. But she
pretended to be Geraldine's friend the same as ever. One evening they were standing on the
bridge over a rushing turbulent stream and Cordelia, thinking they were alone, pushed
Geraldine over the brink with a wild, mocking, `Ha, ha, ha.' But Bertram saw it all and he
at once plunged into the current, exclaiming, `I will save thee, my peerless Geraldine.'
But alas, he had forgotten he couldn't swim, and they were both drowned, clasped in each
other's arms. Their bodies were washed ashore soon afterwards. They were buried in the one
grave and their funeral was most imposing, Diana. It's so much more romantic to end a
story up with a funeral than a wedding. As for Cordelia, she went insane with remorse and
was shut up in a lunatic asylum. I thought that was a poetical retribution for her
crime."
- "How perfectly lovely!" sighed Diana, who belonged to
Matthew's school of critics. "I don't see how you can make up such thrilling things
out of your own head, Anne. I wish my imagination was as good as yours."
- "It would be if you'd only cultivate it," said Anne
cheeringly. "I've just thought of a plan, Diana. Let you and me have a story club all
our own and write stories for practice. I'll help you along until you can do them by
yourself. You ought to cultivate your imagination, you know. Miss Stacy says so. Only we
must take the right way. I told her about the Haunted Wood, but she said we went the wrong
way about it in that."
- This was how the story club came into existence. It was limited to
Diana and Anne at first, but soon it was extended to include Jane Andrews and Ruby Gillis
and one or two others who felt that their imaginations needed cultivating. No boys were
allowed in it--although Ruby Gillis opined that their admission would make it more
exciting--and each member had to produce one story a week.
- "It's extremely interesting," Anne told Marilla. "Each
girl has to read her story out loud and then we talk it over. We are going to keep them
all sacredly and have them to read to our descendants. We each write under a nom-de-plume.
Mine is Rosamond Montmorency. All the girls do pretty well. Ruby Gillis is rather
sentimental. She puts too much lovemaking into her stories and you know too much is worse
than too little. Jane never puts any because she says it makes her feel so silly when she
had to read it out loud. Jane's stories are extremely sensible. Then Diana puts too many
murders into hers. She says most of the time she doesn't know what to do with the people
so she kills them off to get rid of them. I mostly always have to tell them what to write
about, but that isn't hard for I've millions of ideas."
- "I think this story-writing business is the foolishest yet,"
scoffed Marilla. "You'll get a pack of nonsense into your heads and waste time that
should be put on your lessons. Reading stories is bad enough but writing them is
worse."
- "But we're so careful to put a moral into them all, Marilla,"
explained Anne. "I insist upon that. All the good people are rewarded and all the bad
ones are suitably punished. I'm sure that must have a wholesome effect. The moral is the
great thing. Mr. Allan says so. I read one of my stories to him and Mrs. Allan and they
both agreed that the moral was excellent. Only they laughed in the wrong places. I like it
better when people cry. Jane and Ruby almost always cry when I come to the pathetic parts.
Diana wrote her Aunt Josephine about our club and her Aunt Josephine wrote back that we
were to send her some of our stories. So we copied out four of our very best and sent
them. Miss Josephine Barry wrote back that she had never read anything so amusing in her
life. That kind of puzzled us because the stories were all very pathetic and almost
everybody died. But I'm glad Miss Barry liked them. It shows our club is doing some good
in the world. Mrs. Allan says that ought to be our object in everything. I do really try
to make it my object but I forget so often when I'm having fun. I hope I shall be a little
like Mrs. Allan when I grow up. Do you think there is any prospect of it, Marilla?"
- "I shouldn't say there was a great deal" was Marilla's
encouraging answer. "I'm sure Mrs. Allan was never such a silly, forgetful little
girl as you are."
- "No; but she wasn't always so good as she is now either,"
said Anne seriously. "She told me so herself--that is, she said she was a dreadful
mischief when she was a girl and was always getting into scrapes. I felt so encouraged
when I heard that. Is it very wicked of me, Marilla, to feel encouraged when I hear that
other people have been bad and mischievous? Mrs. Lynde says it is. Mrs. Lynde says she
always feels shocked when she hears of anyone ever having been naughty, no matter how
small they were. Mrs. Lynde says she once heard a minister confess that when he was a boy
he stole a strawberry tart out of his aunt's pantry and she never had any respect for that
minister again. Now, I wouldn't have felt that way. I'd have thought that it was real
noble of him to confess it, and I'd have thought what an encouraging thing it would be for
small boys nowadays who do naughty things and are sorry for them to know that perhaps they
may grow up to be ministers in spite of it. That's how I'd feel, Marilla."
- "The way I feel at present, Anne," said Marilla, "is
that it's high time you had those dishes washed. You've taken half an hour longer than you
should with all your chattering. Learn to work first and talk afterwards."
- CHAPTER XXVII
- Vanity and Vexation of Spirit
- Marilla, walking home one late April evening from an Aid meeting,
realized that the winter was over and gone with the thrill of delight that spring never
fails to bring to the oldest and saddest as well as to the youngest and merriest. Marilla
was not given to subjective analysis of her thoughts and feelings. She probably imagined
that she was thinking about the Aids and their missionary box and the new carpet for the
vestry room, but under these reflections was a harmonious consciousness of red fields
smoking into pale-purply mists in the declining sun, of long, sharp-pointed fir shadows
falling over the meadow beyond the brook, of still, crimson-budded maples around a
mirrorlike wood pool, of a wakening in the world and a stir of hidden pulses under the
gray sod. The spring was abroad in the land and Marilla's sober, middle-aged step was
lighter and swifter because of its deep, primal gladness.
- Her eyes dwelt affectionately on Green Gables, peering through its
network of trees and reflecting the sunlight back from its windows in several little
coruscations of glory. Marilla, as she picked her steps along the damp lane, thought that
it was really a satisfaction to know that she was going home to a briskly snapping wood
fire and a table nicely spread for tea, instead of to the cold comfort of old Aid meeting
evenings before Anne had come to Green Gables.
- Consequently, when Marilla entered her kitchen and found the fire black
out, with no sign of Anne anywhere, she felt justly disappointed and irritated. She had
told Anne to be sure and have tea ready at five o'clock, but now she must hurry to take
off her second-best dress and prepare the meal herself against Matthew's return from
plowing.
- "I'll settle Miss Anne when she comes home," said Marilla
grimly, as she shaved up kindlings with a carving knife and with more vim than was
strictly necessary. Matthew had come in and was waiting patiently for his tea in his
corner. "She's gadding off somewhere with Diana, writing stories or practicing
dialogues or some such tomfoolery, and never thinking once about the time or her duties.
She's just got to be pulled up short and sudden on this sort of thing. I don't care if
Mrs. Allan does say she's the brightest and sweetest child she ever knew. She may be
bright and sweet enough, but her head is full of nonsense and there's never any knowing
what shape it'll break out in next. Just as soon as she grows out of one freak she takes
up with another. But there! Here I am saying the very thing I was so riled with Rachel
Lynde for saying at the Aid today. I was real glad when Mrs. Allan spoke up for Anne, for
if she hadn't I know I'd have said something too sharp to Rachel before everybody. Anne's
got plenty of faults, goodness knows, and far be it from me to deny it. But I'm bringing
her up and not Rachel Lynde, who'd pick faults in the Angel Gabriel himself if he lived in
Avonlea. Just the same, Anne has no business to leave the house like this when I told her
she was to stay home this afternoon and look after things. I must say, with all her
faults, I never found her disobedient or untrustworthy before and I'm real sorry to find
her so now."
- "Well now, I dunno," said Matthew, who, being patient and
wise and, above all, hungry, had deemed it best to let Marilla talk her wrath out
unhindered, having learned by experience that she got through with whatever work was on
hand much quicker if not delayed by untimely argument. "Perhaps you're judging her
too hasty, Marilla. Don't call her untrustworthy until you're sure she has disobeyed you.
Mebbe it can all be explained--Anne's a great hand at explaining."
- "She's not here when I told her to stay," retorted Marilla.
"I reckon she'll find it hard to explain THAT to my satisfaction. Of course I knew
you'd take her part, Matthew. But I'm bringing her up, not you."
- It was dark when supper was ready, and still no sign of Anne, coming
hurriedly over the log bridge or up Lover's Lane, breathless and repentant with a sense of
neglected duties. Marilla washed and put away the dishes grimly. Then, wanting a candle to
light her way down the cellar, she went up to the east gable for the one that generally
stood on Anne's table. Lighting it, she turned around to see Anne herself lying on the
bed, face downward among the pillows.
- "Mercy on us," said astonished Marilla, "have you been
asleep, Anne?"
- "No," was the muffled reply.
- "Are you sick then?" demanded Marilla anxiously, going over
to the bed.
- Anne cowered deeper into her pillows as if desirous of hiding herself
forever from mortal eyes.
- "No. But please, Marilla, go away and don't look at me. I'm in the
depths of despair and I don't care who gets head in class or writes the best composition
or sings in the Sunday-school choir any more. Little things like that are of no importance
now because I don't suppose I'll ever be able to go anywhere again. My career is closed.
Please, Marilla, go away and don't look at me."
- "Did anyone ever hear the like?" the mystified Marilla wanted
to know. "Anne Shirley, whatever is the matter with you? What have you done? Get
right up this minute and tell me. This minute, I say. There now, what is it?"
- Anne had slid to the floor in despairing obedience.
- "Look at my hair, Marilla," she whispered.
- Accordingly, Marilla lifted her candle and looked scrutinizingly at
Anne's hair, flowing in heavy masses down her back. It certainly had a very strange
appearance.
- "Anne Shirley, what have you done to your hair? Why, it's
GREEN!"
- Green it might be called, if it were any earthly color--a queer, dull,
bronzy green, with streaks here and there of the original red to heighten the ghastly
effect. Never in all her life had Marilla seen anything so grotesque as Anne's hair at
that moment.
- "Yes, it's green," moaned Anne. "I thought nothing could
be as bad as red hair. But now I know it's ten times worse to have green hair. Oh,
Marilla, you little know how utterly wretched I am."
- "I little know how you got into this fix, but I mean to find
out," said Marilla. "Come right down to the kitchen--it's too cold up here--and
tell me just what you've done. I've been expecting something queer for some time. You
haven't got into any scrape for over two months, and I was sure another one was due. Now,
then, what did you do to your hair?"
- "I dyed it."
- "Dyed it! Dyed your hair! Anne Shirley, didn't you know it was a
wicked thing to do?"
- "Yes, I knew it was a little wicked," admitted Anne.
"But I thought it was worth while to be a little wicked to get rid of red hair. I
counted the cost, Marilla. Besides, I meant to be extra good in other ways to make up for
it."
- "Well," said Marilla sarcastically, "if I'd decided it
was worth while to dye my hair I'd have dyed it a decent color at least. I wouldn't have
dyed it green."
- "But I didn't mean to dye it green, Marilla," protested Anne
dejectedly. "If I was wicked I meant to be wicked to some purpose. He said it would
turn my hair a beautiful raven black--he positively assured me that it would. How could I
doubt his word, Marilla? I know what it feels like to have your word doubted. And Mrs.
Allan says we should never suspect anyone of not telling us the truth unless we have proof
that they're not. I have proof now--green hair is proof enough for anybody. But I hadn't
then and I believed every word he said IMPLICITLY."
- "Who said? Who are you talking about?"
- "The peddler that was here this afternoon. I bought the dye from
him."
- "Anne Shirley, how often have I told you never to let one of those
Italians in the house! I don't believe in encouraging them to come around at all."
- "Oh, I didn't let him in the house. I remembered what you told me,
and I went out, carefully shut the door, and looked at his things on the step. Besides, he
wasn't an Italian--he was a German Jew. He had a big box full of very interesting things
and he told me he was working hard to make enough money to bring his wife and children out
from Germany. He spoke so feelingly about them that it touched my heart. I wanted to buy
something from him to help him in such a worthy object. Then all at once I saw the bottle
of hair dye. The peddler said it was warranted to dye any hair a beautiful raven black and
wouldn't wash off. In a trice I saw myself with beautiful raven-black hair and the
temptation was irresistible. But the price of the bottle was seventy-five cents and I had
only fifty cents left out of my chicken money. I think the peddler had a very kind heart,
for he said that, seeing it was me, he'd sell it for fifty cents and that was just giving
it away. So I bought it, and as soon as he had gone I came up here and applied it with an
old hairbrush as the directions said. I used up the whole bottle, and oh, Marilla, when I
saw the dreadful color it turned my hair I repented of being wicked, I can tell you. And
I've been repenting ever since."
- "Well, I hope you'll repent to good purpose," said Marilla
severely, "and that you've got your eyes opened to where your vanity has led you,
Anne. Goodness knows what's to be done. I suppose the first thing is to give your hair a
good washing and see if that will do any good."
- Accordingly, Anne washed her hair, scrubbing it vigorously with soap
and water, but for all the difference it made she might as well have been scouring its
original red. The peddler had certainly spoken the truth when he declared that the dye
wouldn't wash off, however his veracity might be impeached in other respects.
- "Oh, Marilla, what shall I do?" questioned Anne in tears.
"I can never live this down. People have pretty well forgotten my other mistakes--the
liniment cake and setting Diana drunk and flying into a temper with Mrs. Lynde. But
they'll never forget this. They will think I am not respectable. Oh, Marilla, `what a
tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive.' That is poetry, but it is true.
And oh, how Josie Pye will laugh! Marilla, I CANNOT face Josie Pye. I am the unhappiest
girl in Prince Edward Island."
- Anne's unhappiness continued for a week. During that time she went
nowhere and shampooed her hair every day. Diana alone of outsiders knew the fatal secret,
but she promised solemnly never to tell, and it may be stated here and now that she kept
her word. At the end of the week Marilla said decidedly:
- "It's no use, Anne. That is fast dye if ever there was any. Your
hair must be cut off; there is no other way. You can't go out with it looking like
that."
- Anne's lips quivered, but she realized the bitter truth of Marilla's
remarks. With a dismal sigh she went for the scissors.
- "Please cut it off at once, Marilla, and have it over. Oh, I feel
that my heart is broken. This is such an unromantic affliction. The girls in books lose
their hair in fevers or sell it to get money for some good deed, and I'm sure I wouldn't
mind losing my hair in some such fashion half so much. But there is nothing comforting in
having your hair cut off because you've dyed it a dreadful color, is there? I'm going to
weep all the time you're cutting it off, if it won't interfere. It seems such a tragic
thing."
- Anne wept then, but later on, when she went upstairs and looked in the
glass, she was calm with despair. Marilla had done her work thoroughly and it had been
necessary to shingle the hair as closely as possible. The result was not becoming, to
state the case as mildly as may be. Anne promptly turned her glass to the wall.
- "I'll never, never look at myself again until my hair grows,"
she exclaimed passionately.
- Then she suddenly righted the glass.
- "Yes, I will, too. I'd do penance for being wicked that way. I'll
look at myself every time I come to my room and see how ugly I am. And I won't try to
imagine it away, either. I never thought I was vain about my hair, of all things, but now
I know I was, in spite of its being red, because it was so long and thick and curly. I
expect something will happen to my nose next."
- Anne's clipped head made a sensation in school on the following Monday,
but to her relief nobody guessed the real reason for it, not even Josie Pye, who, however,
did not fail to inform Anne that she looked like a perfect scarecrow.
- "I didn't say anything when Josie said that to me," Anne
confided that evening to Marilla, who was lying on the sofa after one of her headaches,
"because I thought it was part of my punishment and I ought to bear it patiently.
It's hard to be told you look like a scarecrow and I wanted to say something back. But I
didn't. I just swept her one scornful look and then I forgave her. It makes you feel very
virtuous when you forgive people, doesn't it? I mean to devote all my energies to being
good after this and I shall never try to be beautiful again. Of course it's better to be
good. I know it is, but it's sometimes so hard to believe a thing even when you know it. I
do really want to be good, Marilla, like you and Mrs. Allan and Miss Stacy, and grow up to
be a credit to you. Diana says when my hair begins to grow to tie a black velvet ribbon
around my head with a bow at one side. She says she thinks it will be very becoming. I
will call it a snood--that sounds so romantic. But am I talking too much, Marilla? Does it
hurt your head?"
- "My head is better now. It was terrible bad this afternoon,
though. These headaches of mine are getting worse and worse. I'll have to see a doctor
about them. As for your chatter, I don't know that I mind it--I've got so used to
it."
- Which was Marilla's way of saying that she liked to hear it.
- CHAPTER XXVII
- An Unfortunate Lily Maid
- OF course you must be Elaine, Anne," said Diana. "I could
never have the courage to float down there."
- "Nor I," said Ruby Gillis, with a shiver. "I don't mind
floating down when there's two or three of us in the flat and we can sit up. It's fun
then. But to lie down and pretend I was dead--I just couldn't. I'd die really of
fright."
- "Of course it would be romantic," conceded Jane Andrews,
"but I know I couldn't keep still. I'd be popping up every minute or so to see where
I was and if I wasn't drifting too far out. And you know, Anne, that would spoil the
effect."
- "But it's so ridiculous to have a redheaded Elaine," mourned
Anne. "I'm not afraid to float down and I'd love to be Elaine. But it's ridiculous
just the same. Ruby ought to be Elaine because she is so fair and has such lovely long
golden hair-- Elaine had `all her bright hair streaming down,' you know. And Elaine was
the lily maid. Now, a red-haired person cannot be a lily maid."
- "Your complexion is just as fair as Ruby's," said Diana
earnestly, "and your hair is ever so much darker than it used to be before you cut
it."
- "Oh, do you really think so?" exclaimed Anne, flushing
sensitively with delight. "I've sometimes thought it was myself--but I never dared to
ask anyone for fear she would tell me it wasn't. Do you think it could be called auburn
now, Diana?"
- "Yes, and I think it is real pretty," said Diana, looking
admiringly at the short, silky curls that clustered over Anne's head and were held in
place by a very jaunty black velvet ribbon and bow.
- They were standing on the bank of the pond, below Orchard Slope, where
a little headland fringed with birches ran out from the bank; at its tip was a small
wooden platform built out into the water for the convenience of fishermen and duck
hunters. Ruby and Jane were spending the midsummer afternoon with Diana, and Anne had come
over to play with them.
- Anne and Diana had spent most of their playtime that summer on and
about the pond. Idlewild was a thing of the past, Mr. Bell having ruthlessly cut down the
little circle of trees in his back pasture in the spring. Anne had sat among the stumps
and wept, not without an eye to the romance of it; but she was speedily consoled, for,
after all, as she and Diana said, big girls of thirteen, going on fourteen, were too old
for such childish amusements as playhouses, and there were more fascinating sports to be
found about the pond. It was splendid to fish for trout over the bridge and the two girls
learned to row themselves about in the little flat-bottomed dory Mr. Barry kept for duck
shooting.
- It was Anne's idea that they dramatize Elaine. They had studied
Tennyson's poem in school the preceding winter, the Superintendent of Education having
prescribed it in the English course for the Prince Edward Island schools. They had
analyzed and parsed it and torn it to pieces in general until it was a wonder there was
any meaning at all left in it for them, but at least the fair lily maid and Lancelot and
Guinevere and King Arthur had become very real people to them, and Anne was devoured by
secret regret that she had not been born in Camelot. Those days, she said, were so much
more romantic than the present.
- Anne's plan was hailed with enthusiasm. The girls had discovered that
if the flat were pushed off from the landing place it would drift down with the current
under the bridge and finally strand itself on another headland lower down which ran out at
a curve in the pond. They had often gone down like this and nothing could be more
convenient for playing Elaine.
- "Well, I'll be Elaine," said Anne, yielding reluctantly, for,
although she would have been delighted to play the principal character, yet her artistic
sense demanded fitness for it and this, she felt, her limitations made impossible.
"Ruby, you must be King Arthur and Jane will be Guinevere and Diana must be Lancelot.
But first you must be the brothers and the father. We can't have the old dumb servitor
because there isn't room for two in the flat when one is lying down. We must pall the
barge all its length in blackest samite. That old black shawl of your mother's will be
just the thing, Diana."
- The black shawl having been procured, Anne spread it over the flat and
then lay down on the bottom, with closed eyes and hands folded over her breast.
- "Oh, she does look really dead," whispered Ruby Gillis
nervously, watching the still, white little face under the flickering shadows of the
birches. "It makes me feel frightened, girls. Do you suppose it's really right to act
like this? Mrs. Lynde says that all play-acting is abominably wicked."
- "Ruby, you shouldn't talk about Mrs. Lynde," said Anne
severely. "It spoils the effect because this is hundreds of years before Mrs. Lynde
was born. Jane, you arrange this. It's silly for Elaine to be talking when she's
dead."
- Jane rose to the occasion. Cloth of gold for coverlet there was none,
but an old piano scarf of yellow Japanese crepe was an excellent substitute. A white lily
was not obtainable just then, but the effect of a tall blue iris placed in one of Anne's
folded hands was all that could be desired.
- "Now, she's all ready," said Jane. "We must kiss her
quiet brows and, Diana, you say, `Sister, farewell forever,' and Ruby, you say, `Farewell,
sweet sister,' both of you as sorrowfully as you possibly can. Anne, for goodness sake
smile a little. You know Elaine `lay as though she smiled.' That's better. Now push the
flat off."
- The flat was accordingly pushed off, scraping roughly over an old
embedded stake in the process. Diana and Jane and Ruby only waited long enough to see it
caught in the current and headed for the bridge before scampering up through the woods,
across the road, and down to the lower headland where, as Lancelot and Guinevere and the
King, they were to be in readiness to receive the lily maid.
- For a few minutes Anne, drifting slowly down, enjoyed the romance of
her situation to the full. Then something happened not at all romantic. The flat began to
leak. In a very few moments it was necessary for Elaine to scramble to her feet, pick up
her cloth of gold coverlet and pall of blackest samite and gaze blankly at a big crack in
the bottom of her barge through which the water was literally pouring. That sharp stake at
the landing had torn off the strip of batting nailed on the flat. Anne did not know this,
but it did not take her long to realize that she was in a dangerous plight. At this rate
the flat would fill and sink long before it could drift to the lower headland. Where were
the oars? Left behind at the landing!
- Anne gave one gasping little scream which nobody ever heard; she was
white to the lips, but she did not lose her self-possession. There was one chance--just
one.
- "I was horribly frightened," she told Mrs. Allan the next
day, "and it seemed like years while the flat was drifting down to the bridge and the
water rising in it every moment. I prayed, Mrs. Allan, most earnestly, but I didn't shut
my eyes to pray, for I knew the only way God could save me was to let the flat float close
enough to one of the bridge piles for me to climb up on it. You know the piles are just
old tree trunks and there are lots of knots and old branch stubs on them. It was proper to
pray, but I had to do my part by watching out and right well I knew it. I just said, `Dear
God, please take the flat close to a pile and I'll do the rest,' over and over again.
Under such circumstances you don't think much about making a flowery prayer. But mine was
answered, for the flat bumped right into a pile for a minute and I flung the scarf and the
shawl over my shoulder and scrambled up on a big providential stub. And there I was, Mrs.
Allan, clinging to that slippery old pile with no way of getting up or down. It was a very
unromantic position, but I didn't think about that at the time. You don't think much about
romance when you have just escaped from a watery grave. I said a grateful prayer at once
and then I gave all my attention to holding on tight, for I knew I should probably have to
depend on human aid to get back to dry land."
- The flat drifted under the bridge and then promptly sank in midstream.
Ruby, Jane, and Diana, already awaiting it on the lower headland, saw it disappear before
their very eyes and had not a doubt but that Anne had gone down with it. For a moment they
stood still, white as sheets, frozen with horror at the tragedy; then, shrieking at the
tops of their voices, they started on a frantic run up through the woods, never pausing as
they crossed the main road to glance the way of the bridge. Anne, clinging desperately to
her precarious foothold, saw their flying forms and heard their shrieks. Help would soon
come, but meanwhile her position was a very uncomfortable one.
- The minutes passed by, each seeming an hour to the unfortunate lily
maid. Why didn't somebody come? Where had the girls gone? Suppose they had fainted, one
and all! Suppose nobody ever came! Suppose she grew so tired and cramped that she could
hold on no longer! Anne looked at the wicked green depths below her, wavering with long,
oily shadows, and shivered. Her imagination began to suggest all manner of gruesome
possibilities to her.
- Then, just as she thought she really could not endure the ache in her
arms and wrists another moment, Gilbert Blythe came rowing under the bridge in Harmon
Andrews's dory!
- Gilbert glanced up and, much to his amazement, beheld a little white
scornful face looking down upon him with big, frightened but also scornful gray eyes.
- "Anne Shirley! How on earth did you get there?" he exclaimed.
- Without waiting for an answer he pulled close to the pile and extended
his hand. There was no help for it; Anne, clinging to Gilbert Blythe's hand, scrambled
down into the dory, where she sat, drabbled and furious, in the stern with her arms full
of dripping shawl and wet crepe. It was certainly extremely difficult to be dignified
under the circumstances!
- "What has happened, Anne?" asked Gilbert, taking up his oars.
"We were playing Elaine" explained Anne frigidly, without even looking at her
rescuer, "and I had to drift down to Camelot in the barge--I mean the flat. The flat
began to leak and I climbed out on the pile. The girls went for help. Will you be kind
enough to row me to the landing?"
- Gilbert obligingly rowed to the landing and Anne, disdaining
assistance, sprang nimbly on shore.
- "I'm very much obliged to you," she said haughtily as she
turned away. But Gilbert had also sprung from the boat and now laid a detaining hand on
her arm.
- "Anne," he said hurriedly, "look here. Can't we be good
friends? I'm awfully sorry I made fun of your hair that time. I didn't mean to vex you and
I only meant it for a joke. Besides, it's so long ago. I think your hair is awfully pretty
now--honest I do. Let's be friends."
- For a moment Anne hesitated. She had an odd, newly awakened
consciousness under all her outraged dignity that the half-shy, half-eager expression in
Gilbert's hazel eyes was something that was very good to see. Her heart gave a quick,
queer little beat. But the bitterness of her old grievance promptly stiffened up her
wavering determination. That scene of two years before flashed back into her recollection
as vividly as if it had taken place yesterday. Gilbert had called her "carrots"
and had brought about her disgrace before the whole school. Her resentment, which to other
and older people might be as laughable as its cause, was in no whit allayed and softened
by time seemingly. She hated Gilbert Blythe! She would never forgive him!
- "No," she said coldly, "I shall never be friends with
you, Gilbert Blythe; and I don't want to be!"
- "All right!" Gilbert sprang into his skiff with an angry
color in his cheeks. "I'll never ask you to be friends again, Anne Shirley. And I
don't care either!"
- He pulled away with swift defiant strokes, and Anne went up the steep,
ferny little path under the maples. She held her head very high, but she was conscious of
an odd feeling of regret. She almost wished she had answered Gilbert differently. Of
course, he had insulted her terribly, but still--! Altogether, Anne rather thought it
would be a relief to sit down and have a good cry. She was really quite unstrung, for the
reaction from her fright and cramped clinging was making itself felt.
- Halfway up the path she met Jane and Diana rushing back to the pond in
a state narrowly removed from positive frenzy. They had found nobody at Orchard Slope,
both Mr. and Mrs. Barry being away. Here Ruby Gillis had succumbed to hysterics, and was
left to recover from them as best she might, while Jane and Diana flew through the Haunted
Wood and across the brook to Green Gables. There they had found nobody either, for Marilla
had gone to Carmody and Matthew was making hay in the back field.
- "Oh, Anne," gasped Diana, fairly falling on the former's neck
and weeping with relief and delight, "oh, Anne--we thought--you were--drowned--and we
felt like murderers--because we had made--you be--Elaine. And Ruby is in hysterics--oh,
Anne, how did you escape?"
- "I climbed up on one of the piles," explained Anne wearily,
"and Gilbert Blythe came along in Mr. Andrews's dory and brought me to land."
- "Oh, Anne, how splendid of him! Why, it's so romantic!" said
Jane, finding breath enough for utterance at last. "Of course you'll speak to him
after this."
- "Of course I won't," flashed Anne, with a momentary return of
her old spirit. "And I don't want ever to hear the word `romantic' again, Jane
Andrews. I'm awfully sorry you were so frightened, girls. It is all my fault. I feel sure
I was born under an unlucky star. Everything I do gets me or my dearest friends into a
scrape. We've gone and lost your father's flat, Diana, and I have a presentiment that
we'll not be allowed to row on the pond any more."
- Anne's presentiment proved more trustworthy than presentiments are apt
to do. Great was the consternation in the Barry and Cuthbert households when the events of
the afternoon became known.
- "Will you ever have any sense, Anne?" groaned Marilla.
- "Oh, yes, I think I will, Marilla," returned Anne
optimistically. A good cry, indulged in the grateful solitude of the east gable, had
soothed her nerves and restored her to her wonted cheerfulness. "I think my prospects
of becoming sensible are brighter now than ever"
- "I don't see how," said Marilla.
- "Well," explained Anne, "I've learned a new and valuable
lesson today. Ever since I came to Green Gables I've been making mistakes, and each
mistake has helped to cure me of some great shortcoming. The affair of the amethyst brooch
cured me of meddling with things that didn't belong to me. The Haunted Wood mistake cured
me of letting my imagination run away with me. The liniment cake mistake cured me of
carelessness in cooking. Dyeing my hair cured me of vanity. I never think about my hair
and nose now--at least, very seldom. And today's mistake is going to cure me of being too
romantic. I have come to the conclusion that it is no use trying to be romantic in
Avonlea. It was probably easy enough in towered Camelot hundreds of years ago, but romance
is not appreciated now. I feel quite sure that you will soon see a great improvement in me
in this respect, Marilla."
- "I'm sure I hope so," said Marilla skeptically.
- But Matthew, who had been sitting mutely in his corner, laid a hand on
Anne's shoulder when Marilla had gone out.
- "Don't give up all your romance, Anne," he whispered shyly,
"a little of it is a good thing--not too much, of course--but keep a little of it,
Anne, keep a little of it."
- CHAPTER XXIX
- An Epoch in Anne's Life
- Anne was bringing the cows home from the back pasture by way of Lover's
Lane. It was a September evening and all the gaps and clearings in the woods were brimmed
up with ruby sunset light. Here and there the lane was splashed with it, but for the most
part it was already quite shadowy beneath the maples, and the spaces under the firs were
filled with a clear violet dusk like airy wine. The winds were out in their tops, and
there is no sweeter music on earth than that which the wind makes in the fir trees at
evening.
- The cows swung placidly down the lane, and Anne followed them dreamily,
repeating aloud the battle canto from MARMION--which had also been part of their English
course the preceding winter and which Miss Stacy had made them learn off by heart--and
exulting in its rushing lines and the clash of spears in its imagery. When she came to the
lines
- The stubborn spearsmen still made good Their dark impenetrable wood,
- she stopped in ecstasy to shut her eyes that she might the better fancy
herself one of that heroic ring. When she opened them again it was to behold Diana coming
through the gate that led into the Barry field and looking so important that Anne
instantly divined there was news to be told. But betray too eager curiosity she would not.
- "Isn't this evening just like a purple dream, Diana? It makes me
so glad to be alive. In the mornings I always think the mornings are best; but when
evening comes I think it's lovelier still."
- "It's a very fine evening," said Diana, "but oh, I have
such news, Anne. Guess. You can have three guesses."
- "Charlotte Gillis is going to be married in the church after all
and Mrs. Allan wants us to decorate it," cried Anne.
- "No. Charlotte's beau won't agree to that, because nobody ever has
been married in the church yet, and he thinks it would seem too much like a funeral. It's
too mean, because it would be such fun. Guess again."
- "Jane's mother is going to let her have a birthday party?"
- Diana shook her head, her black eyes dancing with merriment.
- "I can't think what it can be," said Anne in despair,
"unless it's that Moody Spurgeon MacPherson saw you home from prayer meeting last
night. Did he?"
- "I should think not," exclaimed Diana indignantly. "I
wouldn't be likely to boast of it if he did, the horrid creature! I knew you couldn't
guess it. Mother had a letter from Aunt Josephine today, and Aunt Josephine wants you and
me to go to town next Tuesday and stop with her for the Exhibition. There!"
- "Oh, Diana," whispered Anne, finding it necessary to lean up
against a maple tree for support, "do you really mean it? But I'm afraid Marilla
won't let me go. She will say that she can't encourage gadding about. That was what she
said last week when Jane invited me to go with them in their double-seated buggy to the
American concert at the White Sands Hotel. I wanted to go, but Marilla said I'd be better
at home learning my lessons and so would Jane. I was bitterly disappointed, Diana. I felt
so heartbroken that I wouldn't say my prayers when I went to bed. But I repented of that
and got up in the middle of the night and said them."
- "I'll tell you," said Diana, "we'll get Mother to ask
Marilla. She'll be more likely to let you go then; and if she does we'll have the time of
our lives, Anne. I've never been to an Exhibition, and it's so aggravating to hear the
other girls talking about their trips. Jane and Ruby have been twice, and they're going
this year again."
- "I'm not going to think about it at all until I know whether I can
go or not," said Anne resolutely. "If I did and then was disappointed, it would
be more than I could bear. But in case I do go I'm very glad my new coat will be ready by
that time. Marilla didn't think I needed a new coat. She said my old one would do very
well for another winter and that I ought to be satisfied with having a new dress. The
dress is very pretty, Diana--navy blue and made so fashionably. Marilla always makes my
dresses fashionably now, because she says she doesn't intend to have Matthew going to Mrs.
Lynde to make them. I'm so glad. It is ever so much easier to be good if your clothes are
fashionable. At least, it is easier for me. I suppose it doesn't make such a difference to
naturally good people. But Matthew said I must have a new coat, so Marilla bought a lovely
piece of blue broadcloth, and it's being made by a real dressmaker over at Carmody. It's
to be done Saturday night, and I'm trying not to imagine myself walking up the church
aisle on Sunday in my new suit and cap, because I'm afraid it isn't right to imagine such
things. But it just slips into my mind in spite of me. My cap is so pretty. Matthew bought
it for me the day we were over at Carmody. It is one of those little blue velvet ones that
are all the rage, with gold cord and tassels. Your new hat is elegant, Diana, and so
becoming. When I saw you come into church last Sunday my heart swelled with pride to think
you were my dearest friend. Do you suppose it's wrong for us to think so much about our
clothes? Marilla says it is very sinful. But it is such an interesting subject, isn't
it?"
- Marilla agreed to let Anne go to town, and it was arranged that Mr.
Barry should take the girls in on the following Tuesday. As Charlottetown was thirty miles
away and Mr. Barry wished to go and return the same day, it was necessary to make a very
early start. But Anne counted it all joy, and was up before sunrise on Tuesday morning. A
glance from her window assured her that the day would be fine, for the eastern sky behind
the firs of the Haunted Wood was all silvery and cloudless. Through the gap in the trees a
light was shining in the western gable of Orchard Slope, a token that Diana was also up.
- Anne was dressed by the time Matthew had the fire on and had the
breakfast ready when Marilla came down, but for her own part was much too excited to eat.
After breakfast the jaunty new cap and jacket were donned, and Anne hastened over the
brook and up through the firs to Orchard Slope. Mr. Barry and Diana were waiting for her,
and they were soon on the road.
- It was a long drive, but Anne and Diana enjoyed every minute of it. It
was delightful to rattle along over the moist roads in the early red sunlight that was
creeping across the shorn harvest fields. The air was fresh and crisp, and little
smoke-blue mists curled through the valleys and floated off from the hills. Sometimes the
road went through woods where maples were beginning to hang out scarlet banners; sometimes
it crossed rivers on bridges that made Anne's flesh cringe with the old, half-delightful
fear; sometimes it wound along a harbor shore and passed by a little cluster of
weather-gray fishing huts; again it mounted to hills whence a far sweep of curving upland
or misty-blue sky could be seen; but wherever it went there was much of interest to
discuss. It was almost noon when they reached town and found their way to
"Beechwood." It was quite a fine old mansion, set back from the street in a
seclusion of green elms and branching beeches. Miss Barry met them at the door with a
twinkle in her sharp black eyes.
- "So you've come to see me at last, you Anne-girl," she said.
"Mercy, child, how you have grown! You're taller than I am, I declare. And you're
ever so much better looking than you used to be, too. But I dare say you know that without
being told."
- "Indeed I didn't," said Anne radiantly. "I know I'm not
so freckled as I used to be, so I've much to be thankful for, but I really hadn't dared to
hope there was any other improvement. I'm so glad you think there is, Miss Barry."
Miss Barry's house was furnished with "great magnificence," as Anne told Marilla
afterward. The two little country girls were rather abashed by the splendor of the parlor
where Miss Barry left them when she went to see about dinner.
- "Isn't it just like a palace?" whispered Diana. "I never
was in Aunt Josephine's house before, and I'd no idea it was so grand. I just wish Julia
Bell could see this--she puts on such airs about her mother's parlor."
- "Velvet carpet," sighed Anne luxuriously, "and silk
curtains! I've dreamed of such things, Diana. But do you know I don't believe I feel very
comfortable with them after all. There are so many things in this room and all so splendid
that there is no scope for imagination. That is one consolation when you are poor--there
are so many more things you can imagine about."
- Their sojourn in town was something that Anne and Diana dated from for
years. From first to last it was crowded with delights.
- On Wednesday Miss Barry took them to the Exhibition grounds and kept
them there all day.
- "It was splendid," Anne related to Marilla later on. "I
never imagined anything so interesting. I don't really know which department was the most
interesting. I think I liked the horses and the flowers and the fancywork best. Josie Pye
took first prize for knitted lace. I was real glad she did. And I was glad that I felt
glad, for it shows I'm improving, don't you think, Marilla, when I can rejoice in Josie's
success? Mr. Harmon Andrews took second prize for Gravenstein apples and Mr. Bell took
first prize for a pig. Diana said she thought it was ridiculous for a Sunday-school
superintendent to take a prize in pigs, but I don't see why. Do you? She said she would
always think of it after this when he was praying so solemnly. Clara Louise MacPherson
took a prize for painting, and Mrs. Lynde got first prize for homemade butter and cheese.
So Avonlea was pretty well represented, wasn't it? Mrs. Lynde was there that day, and I
never knew how much I really liked her until I saw her familiar face among all those
strangers. There were thousands of people there, Marilla. It made me feel dreadfully
insignificant. And Miss Barry took us up to the grandstand to see the horse races. Mrs.
Lynde wouldn't go; she said horse racing was an abomination and, she being a church
member, thought it her bounden duty to set a good example by staying away. But there were
so many there I don't believe Mrs. Lynde's absence would ever be noticed. I don't think,
though, that I ought to go very often to horse races, because they ARE awfully
fascinating. Diana got so excited that she offered to bet me ten cents that the red horse
would win. I didn't believe he would, but I refused to bet, because I wanted to tell Mrs.
Allan all about everything, and I felt sure it wouldn't do to tell her that. It's always
wrong to do anything you can't tell the minister's wife. It's as good as an extra
conscience to have a minister's wife for your friend. And I was very glad I didn't bet,
because the red horse DID win, and I would have lost ten cents. So you see that virtue was
its own reward. We saw a man go up in a balloon. I'd love to go up in a balloon, Marilla;
it would be simply thrilling; and we saw a man selling fortunes. You paid him ten cents
and a little bird picked out your fortune for you. Miss Barry gave Diana and me ten cents
each to have our fortunes told. Mine was that I would marry a dark-complected man who was
very wealthy, and I would go across water to live. I looked carefully at all the dark men
I saw after that, but I didn't care much for any of them, and anyhow I suppose it's too
early to be looking out for him yet. Oh, it was a never-to-be-forgotten day, Marilla. I
was so tired I couldn't sleep at night. Miss Barry put us in the spare room, according to
promise. It was an elegant room, Marilla, but somehow sleeping in a spare room isn't what
I used to think it was. That's the worst of growing up, and I'm beginning to realize it.
The things you wanted so much when you were a child don't seem half so wonderful to you
when you get them."
- Thursday the girls had a drive in the park, and in the evening Miss
Barry took them to a concert in the Academy of Music, where a noted prima donna was to
sing. To Anne the evening was a glittering vision of delight.
- "Oh, Marilla, it was beyond description. I was so excited I
couldn't even talk, so you may know what it was like. I just sat in enraptured silence.
Madame Selitsky was perfectly beautiful, and wore white satin and diamonds. But when she
began to sing I never thought about anything else. Oh, I can't tell you how I felt. But it
seemed to me that it could never be hard to be good any more. I felt like I do when I look
up to the stars. Tears came into my eyes, but, oh, they were such happy tears. I was so
sorry when it was all over, and I told Miss Barry I didn't see how I was ever to return to
common life again. She said she thought if we went over to the restaurant across the
street and had an ice cream it might help me. That sounded so prosaic; but to my surprise
I found it true. The ice cream was delicious, Marilla, and it was so lovely and dissipated
to be sitting there eating it at eleven o'clock at night. Diana said she believed she was
born for city life. Miss Barry asked me what my opinion was, but I said I would have to
think it over very seriously before I could tell her what I really thought. So I thought
it over after I went to bed. That is the to think things out. And I came to the
conclusion, Marilla, that I wasn't born for city life and that I was glad of it. It's nice
to be eating ice cream at brilliant restaurants at eleven o'clock at night once in a
while; but as a regular thing I'd rather be in the east gable at eleven, sound asleep, but
kind of knowing even in my sleep that the stars were shining outside and that the wind was
blowing in the firs across the brook. I told Miss Barry so at breakfast the next morning
and she laughed. Miss Barry generally laughed at anything I said, even when I said the
most solemn things. I don't think I liked it, Marilla, because I wasn't trying to be
funny. But she is a most hospitable lady and treated us royally."
- Friday brought going-home time, and Mr. Barry drove in for the girls.
- "Well, I hope you've enjoyed yourselves," said Miss Barry, as
she bade them good-bye.
- "Indeed we have," said Diana.
- "And you, Anne-girl?"
- "I've enjoyed every minute of the time," said Anne, throwing
her arms impulsively about the old woman's neck and kissing her wrinkled cheek. Diana
would never have dared to do such a thing and felt rather aghast at Anne's freedom. But
Miss Barry was pleased, and she stood on her veranda and watched the buggy out of sight.
Then she went back into her big house with a sigh. It seemed very lonely, lacking those
fresh young lives. Miss Barry was a rather selfish old lady, if the truth must be told,
and had never cared much for anybody but herself. She valued people only as they were of
service to her or amused her. Anne had amused her, and consequently stood high in the old
lady's good graces. But Miss Barry found herself thinking less about Anne's quaint
speeches than of her fresh enthusiasms, her transparent emotions, her little winning ways,
and the sweetness of her eyes and lips.
- "I thought Marilla Cuthbert was an old fool when I heard she'd
adopted a girl out of an orphan asylum," she said to herself, "but I guess she
didn't make much of a mistake after all. If I'd a child like Anne in the house all the
time I'd be a better and happier woman."
- Anne and Diana found the drive home as pleasant as the drive
in--pleasanter, indeed, since there was the delightful consciousness of home waiting at
the end of it. It was sunset when they passed through White Sands and turned into the
shore road. Beyond, the Avonlea hills came out darkly against the saffron sky. Behind them
the moon was rising out of the sea that grew all radiant and transfigured in her light.
Every little cove along the curving road was a marvel of dancing ripples. The waves broke
with a soft swish on the rocks below them, and the tang of the sea was in the strong,
fresh air.
- "Oh, but it's good to be alive and to be going home,"
breathed Anne.
- When she crossed the log bridge over the brook the kitchen light of
Green Gables winked her a friendly welcome back, and through the open door shone the
hearth fire, sending out its warm red glow athwart the chilly autumn night. Anne ran
blithely up the hill and into the kitchen, where a hot supper was waiting on the table.
- "So you've got back?" said Marilla, folding up her knitting.
- "Yes, and oh, it's so good to be back," said Anne joyously.
"I could kiss everything, even to the clock. Marilla, a broiled chicken! You don't
mean to say you cooked that for me!"
- "Yes, I did," said Marilla. "I thought you'd be hungry
after such a drive and need something real appetizing. Hurry and take off your things, and
we'll have supper as soon as Matthew comes in. I'm glad you've got back, I must say. It's
been fearful lonesome here without you, and I never put in four longer days."
- After supper Anne sat before the fire between Matthew and Marilla, and
gave them a full account of her visit.
- "I've had a splendid time," she concluded happily, "and
I feel that it marks an epoch in my life. But the best of it all was the coming
home."
- CHAPTER XXX
- The Queens Class Is Organized
- Marilla laid her knitting on her lap and leaned back in her chair. Her
eyes were tired, and she thought vaguely that she must see about having her glasses
changed the next time she went to town, for her eyes had grown tired very often of late.
- It was nearly dark, for the full November twilight had fallen around
Green Gables, and the only light in the kitchen came from the dancing red flames in the
stove.
- Anne was curled up Turk-fashion on the hearthrug, gazing into that
joyous glow where the sunshine of a hundred summers was being distilled from the maple
cordwood. She had been reading, but her book had slipped to the floor, and now she was
dreaming, with a smile on her parted lips. Glittering castles in Spain were shaping
themselves out of the mists and rainbows of her lively fancy; adventures wonderful and
enthralling were happening to her in cloudland--adventures that always turned out
triumphantly and never involved her in scrapes like those of actual life.
- Marilla looked at her with a tenderness that would never have been
suffered to reveal itself in any clearer light than that soft mingling of fireshine and
shadow. The lesson of a love that should display itself easily in spoken word and open
look was one Marilla could never learn. But she had learned to love this slim, gray-eyed
girl with an affection all the deeper and stronger from its very undemonstrativeness. Her
love made her afraid of being unduly indulgent, indeed. She had an uneasy feeling that it
was rather sinful to set one's heart so intensely on any human creature as she had set
hers on Anne, and perhaps she performed a sort of unconscious penance for this by being
stricter and more critical than if the girl had been less dear to her. Certainly Anne
herself had no idea how Marilla loved her. She sometimes thought wistfully that Marilla
was very hard to please and distinctly lacking in sympathy and understanding. But she
always checked the thought reproachfully, remembering what she owed to Marilla.
- "Anne," said Marilla abruptly, "Miss Stacy was here this
afternoon when you were out with Diana."
- Anne came back from her other world with a start and a sigh.
- "Was she? Oh, I'm so sorry I wasn't in. Why didn't you call me,
Marilla? Diana and I were only over in the Haunted Wood. It's lovely in the woods now. All
the little wood things--the ferns and the satin leaves and the crackerberries--have gone
to sleep, just as if somebody had tucked them away until spring under a blanket of leaves.
I think it was a little gray fairy with a rainbow scarf that came tiptoeing along the last
moonlight night and did it. Diana wouldn't say much about that, though. Diana has never
forgotten the scolding her mother gave her about imagining ghosts into the Haunted Wood.
It had a very bad effect on Diana's imagination. It blighted it. Mrs. Lynde says Myrtle
Bell is a blighted being. I asked Ruby Gillis why Myrtle was blighted, and Ruby said she
guessed it was because her young man had gone back on her. Ruby Gillis thinks of nothing
but young men, and the older she gets the worse she is. Young men are all very well in
their place, but it doesn't do to drag them into everything, does it? Diana and I are
thinking seriously of promising each other that we will never marry but be nice old maids
and live together forever. Diana hasn't quite made up her mind though, because she thinks
perhaps it would be nobler to marry some wild, dashing, wicked young man and reform him.
Diana and I talk a great deal about serious subjects now, you know. We feel that we are so
much older than we used to be that it isn't becoming to talk of childish matters. It's
such a solemn thing to be almost fourteen, Marilla. Miss Stacy took all us girls who are
in our teens down to the brook last Wednesday, and talked to us about it. She said we
couldn't be too careful what habits we formed and what ideals we acquired in our teens,
because by the time we were twenty our characters would be developed and the foundation
laid for our whole future life. And she said if the foundation was shaky we could never
build anything really worth while on it. Diana and I talked the matter over coming home
from school. We felt extremely solemn, Marilla. And we decided that we would try to be
very careful indeed and form respectable habits and learn all we could and be as sensible
as possible, so that by the time we were twenty our characters would be properly
developed. It's perfectly appalling to think of being twenty, Marilla. It sounds so
fearfully old and grown up. But why was Miss Stacy here this afternoon?"
- "That is what I want to tell you, Anne, if you'll ever give me a
chance to get a word in edgewise. She was talking about you."
- "About me?" Anne looked rather scared. Then she flushed and
exclaimed:
- "Oh, I know what she was saying. I meant to tell you, Marilla,
honestly I did, but I forgot. Miss Stacy caught me reading Ben Hur in school yesterday
afternoon when I should have been studying my Canadian history. Jane Andrews lent it to
me. I was reading it at dinner hour, and I had just got to the chariot race when school
went in. I was simply wild to know how it turned out-- although I felt sure Ben Hur must
win, because it wouldn't be poetical justice if he didn't--so I spread the history open on
my desk lid and then tucked Ben Hur between the desk and my knee. I just looked as if I
were studying Canadian history, you know, while all the while I was reveling in Ben Hur. I
was so interested in it that I never noticed Miss Stacy coming down the aisle until all at
once I just looked up and there she was looking down at me, so reproachful-like. I can't
tell you how ashamed I felt, Marilla, especially when I heard Josie Pye giggling. Miss
Stacy took Ben Hur away, but she never said a word then. She kept me in at recess and
talked to me. She said I had done very wrong in two respects. First, I was wasting the
time I ought to have put on my studies; and secondly, I was deceiving my teacher in trying
to make it appear I was reading a history when it was a storybook instead. I had never
realized until that moment, Marilla, that what I was doing was deceitful. I was shocked. I
cried bitterly, and asked Miss Stacy to forgive me and I'd never do such a thing again;
and I offered to do penance by never so much as looking at Ben Hur for a whole week, not
even to see how the chariot race turned out. But Miss Stacy said she wouldn't require
that, and she forgave me freely. So I think it wasn't very kind of her to come up here to
you about it after all."
- "Miss Stacy never mentioned such a thing to me, Anne, and its only
your guilty conscience that's the matter with you. You have no business to be taking
storybooks to school. You read too many novels anyhow. When I was a girl I wasn't so much
as allowed to look at a novel."
- "Oh, how can you call Ben Hur a novel when it's really such a
religious book?" protested Anne. "Of course it's a little too exciting to be
proper reading for Sunday, and I only read it on weekdays. And I never read ANY book now
unless either Miss Stacy or Mrs. Allan thinks it is a proper book for a girl thirteen and
three-quarters to read. Miss Stacy made me promise that. She found me reading a book one
day called, The Lurid Mystery of the Haunted Hall. It was one Ruby Gillis had lent me,
and, oh, Marilla, it was so fascinating and creepy. It just curdled the blood in my veins.
But Miss Stacy said it was a very silly, unwholesome book, and she asked me not to read
any more of it or any like it. I didn't mind promising not to read any more like it, but
it was AGONIZING to give back that book without knowing how it turned out. But my love for
Miss Stacy stood the test and I did. It's really wonderful, Marilla, what you can do when
you're truly anxious to please a certain person."
- "Well, I guess I'll light the lamp and get to work," said
Marilla. "I see plainly that you don't want to hear what Miss Stacy had to say.
You're more interested in the sound of your own tongue than in anything else."
- "Oh, indeed, Marilla, I do want to hear it," cried Anne
contritely. "I won't say another word--not one. I know I talk too much, but I am
really trying to overcome it, and although I say far too much, yet if you only knew how
many things I want to say and don't, you'd give me some credit for it. Please tell me,
Marilla."
- "Well, Miss Stacy wants to organize a class among her advanced
students who mean to study for the entrance examination into Queen's. She intends to give
them extra lessons for an hour after school. And she came to ask Matthew and me if we
would like to have you join it. What do you think about it yourself, Anne? Would you like
to go to Queen's and pass for a teacher?"
- "Oh, Marilla!" Anne straightened to her knees and clasped her
hands. "It's been the dream of my life--that is, for the last six months, ever since
Ruby and Jane began to talk of studying for the Entrance. But I didn't say anything about
it, because I supposed it would be perfectly useless. I'd love to be a teacher. But won't
it be dreadfully expensive? Mr. Andrews says it cost him one hundred and fifty dollars to
put Prissy through, and Prissy wasn't a dunce in geometry."
- "I guess you needn't worry about that part of it. When Matthew and
I took you to bring up we resolved we would do the best we could for you and give you a
good education. I believe in a girl being fitted to earn her own living whether she ever
has to or not. You'll always have a home at Green Gables as long as Matthew and I are
here, but nobody knows what is going to happen in this uncertain world, and it's just as
well to be prepared. So you can join the Queen's class if you like, Anne."
- "Oh, Marilla, thank you." Anne flung her arms about Marilla's
waist and looked up earnestly into her face. "I'm extremely grateful to you and
Matthew. And I'll study as hard as I can and do my very best to be a credit to you. I warn
you not to expect much in geometry, but I think I can hold my own in anything else if I
work hard."
- "I dare say you'll get along well enough. Miss Stacy says you are
bright and diligent." Not for worlds would Marilla have told Anne just what Miss
Stacy had said about her; that would have been to pamper vanity. "You needn't rush to
any extreme of killing yourself over your books. There is no hurry. You won't be ready to
try the Entrance for a year and a half yet. But it's well to begin in time and be
thoroughly grounded, Miss Stacy says."
- "I shall take more interest than ever in my studies now,"
said Anne blissfully, "because I have a purpose in life. Mr. Allan says everybody
should have a purpose in life and pursue it faithfully. Only he says we must first make
sure that it is a worthy purpose. I would call it a worthy purpose to want to be a teacher
like Miss Stacy, wouldn't you, Marilla? I think it's a very noble profession."
- The Queen's class was organized in due time. Gilbert Blythe, Anne
Shirley, Ruby Gillis, Jane Andrews, Josie Pye, Charlie Sloane, and Moody Spurgeon
MacPherson joined it. Diana Barry did not, as her parents did not intend to send her to
Queen's. This seemed nothing short of a calamity to Anne. Never, since the night on which
Minnie May had had the croup, had she and Diana been separated in anything. On the evening
when the Queen's class first remained in school for the extra lessons and Anne saw Diana
go slowly out with the others, to walk home alone through the Birch Path and Violet Vale,
it was all the former could do to keep her seat and refrain from rushing impulsively after
her chum. A lump came into her throat, and she hastily retired behind the pages of her
uplifted Latin grammar to hide the tears in her eyes. Not for worlds would Anne have had
Gilbert Blythe or Josie Pye see those tears.
- "But, oh, Marilla, I really felt that I had tasted the bitterness
of death, as Mr. Allan said in his sermon last Sunday, when I saw Diana go out
alone," she said mournfully that night. "I thought how splendid it would have
been if Diana had only been going to study for the Entrance, too. But we can't have things
perfect in this imperfect world, as Mrs. Lynde says. Mrs. Lynde isn't exactly a comforting
person sometimes, but there's no doubt she says a great many very true things. And I think
the Queen's class is going to be extremely interesting. Jane and Ruby are just going to
study to be teachers. That is the height of their ambition. Ruby says she will only teach
for two years after she gets through, and then she intends to be married. Jane says she
will devote her whole life to teaching, and never, never marry, because you are paid a
salary for teaching, but a husband won't pay you anything, and growls if you ask for a
share in the egg and butter money. I expect Jane speaks from mournful experience, for Mrs.
Lynde says that her father is a perfect old crank, and meaner than second skimmings. Josie
Pye says she is just going to college for education's sake, because she won't have to earn
her own living; she says of course it is different with orphans who are living on
charity--THEY have to hustle. Moody Spurgeon is going to be a minister. Mrs. Lynde says he
couldn't be anything else with a name like that to live up to. I hope it isn't wicked of
me, Marilla, but really the thought of Moody Spurgeon being a minister makes me laugh.
He's such a funny-looking boy with that big fat face, and his little blue eyes, and his
ears sticking out like flaps. But perhaps he will be more intellectual looking when he
grows up. Charlie Sloane says he's going to go into politics and be a member of
Parliament, but Mrs. Lynde says he'll never succeed at that, because the Sloanes are all
honest people, and it's only rascals that get on in politics nowadays."
- "What is Gilbert Blythe going to be?" queried Marilla, seeing
that Anne was opening her Caesar.
- "I don't happen to know what Gilbert Blythe's ambition in life
is-- if he has any," said Anne scornfully.
- There was open rivalry between Gilbert and Anne now. Previously the
rivalry had been rather onesided, but there was no longer any doubt that Gilbert was as
determined to be first in class as Anne was. He was a foeman worthy of her steel. The
other members of the class tacitly acknowledged their superiority, and never dreamed of
trying to compete with them.
- Since the day by the pond when she had refused to listen to his plea
for forgiveness, Gilbert, save for the aforesaid determined rivalry, had evinced no
recognition whatever of the existence of Anne Shirley. He talked and jested with the other
girls, exchanged books and puzzles with them, discussed lessons and plans, sometimes
walked home with one or the other of them from prayer meeting or Debating Club. But Anne
Shirley he simply ignored, and Anne found out that it is not pleasant to be ignored. It
was in vain that she told herself with a toss of her head that she did not care. Deep down
in her wayward, feminine little heart she knew that she did care, and that if she had that
chance of the Lake of Shining Waters again she would answer very differently. All at once,
as it seemed, and to her secret dismay, she found that the old resentment she had
cherished against him was gone--gone just when she most needed its sustaining power. It
was in vain that she recalled every incident and emotion of that memorable occasion and
tried to feel the old satisfying anger. That day by the pond had witnessed its last
spasmodic flicker. Anne realized that she had forgiven and forgotten without knowing it.
But it was too late.
- And at least neither Gilbert nor anybody else, not even Diana, should
ever suspect how sorry she was and how much she wished she hadn't been so proud and
horrid! She determined to "shroud her feelings in deepest oblivion," and it may
be stated here and now that she did it, so successfully that Gilbert, who possibly was not
quite so indifferent as he seemed, could not console himself with any belief that Anne
felt his retaliatory scorn. The only poor comfort he had was that she snubbed Charlie
Sloane, unmercifully, continually, and undeservedly.
- Otherwise the winter passed away in a round of pleasant duties and
studies. For Anne the days slipped by like golden beads on the necklace of the year. She
was happy, eager, interested; there were lessons to be learned and honor to be won;
delightful books to read; new pieces to be practiced for the Sunday-school choir; pleasant
Saturday afternoons at the manse with Mrs. Allan; and then, almost before Anne realized
it, spring had come again to Green Gables and all the world was abloom once more.
- Studies palled just a wee bit then; the Queen's class, left behind in
school while the others scattered to green lanes and leafy wood cuts and meadow byways,
looked wistfully out of the windows and discovered that Latin verbs and French exercises
had somehow lost the tang and zest they had possessed in the crisp winter months. Even
Anne and Gilbert lagged and grew indifferent. Teacher and taught were alike glad when the
term was ended and the glad vacation days stretched rosily before them.
- "But you've done good work this past year," Miss Stacy told
them on the last evening, "and you deserve a good, jolly vacation. Have the best time
you can in the out-of-door world and lay in a good stock of health and vitality and
ambition to carry you through next year. It will be the tug of war, you know--the last
year before the Entrance."
- "Are you going to be back next year, Miss Stacy?" asked Josie
Pye.
- Josie Pye never scrupled to ask questions; in this instance the rest of
the class felt grateful to her; none of them would have dared to ask it of Miss Stacy, but
all wanted to, for there had been alarming rumors running at large through the school for
some time that Miss Stacy was not coming back the next year--that she had been offered a
position in the grade school of her own home district and meant to accept. The Queen's
class listened in breathless suspense for her answer.
- "Yes, I think I will," said Miss Stacy. "I thought of
taking another school, but I have decided to come back to Avonlea. To tell the truth, I've
grown so interested in my pupils here that I found I couldn't leave them. So I'll stay and
see you through."
- "Hurrah!" said Moody Spurgeon. Moody Spurgeon had never been
so carried away by his feelings before, and he blushed uncomfortably every time he thought
about it for a week.
- "Oh, I'm so glad," said Anne, with shining eyes. "Dear
Stacy, it would be perfectly dreadful if you didn't come back. I don't believe I could
have the heart to go on with my studies at all if another teacher came here."
- When Anne got home that night she stacked all her textbooks away in an
old trunk in the attic, locked it, and threw the key into the blanket box.
- "I'm not even going to look at a schoolbook in vacation," she
told Marilla. "I've studied as hard all the term as I possibly could and I've pored
over that geometry until I know every proposition in the first book off by heart, even
when the letters ARE changed. I just feel tired of everything sensible and I'm going to
let my imagination run riot for the summer. Oh, you needn't be alarmed, Marilla. I'll only
let it run riot within reasonable limits. But I want to have a real good jolly time this
summer, for maybe it's the last summer I'll be a little girl. Mrs. Lynde says that if I
keep stretching out next year as I've done this I'll have to put on longer skirts. She
says I'm all running to legs and eyes. And when I put on longer skirts I shall feel that I
have to live up to them and be very dignified. It won't even do to believe in fairies
then, I'm afraid; so I'm going to believe in them with all my whole heart this summer. I
think we're going to have a very gay vacation. Ruby Gillis is going to have a birthday
party soon and there's the Sunday school picnic and the missionary concert next month. And
Mrs. Barry says that some evening he'll take Diana and me over to the White Sands Hotel
and have dinner there. They have dinner there in the evening, you know. Jane Andrews was
over once last summer and she says it was a dazzling sight to see the electric lights and
the flowers and all the lady guests in such beautiful dresses. Jane says it was her first
glimpse into high life and she'll never forget it to her dying day."
- Mrs. Lynde came up the next afternoon to find out why Marilla had not
been at the Aid meeting on Thursday. When Marilla was not at Aid meeting people knew there
was something wrong at Green Gables.
- "Matthew had a bad spell with his heart Thursday," Marilla
explained, "and I didn't feel like leaving him. Oh, yes, he's all right again now,
but he takes them spells oftener than he used to and I'm anxious about him. The doctor
says he must be careful to avoid excitement. That's easy enough, for Matthew doesn't go
about looking for excitement by any means and never did, but he's not to do any very heavy
work either and you might as well tell Matthew not to breathe as not to work. Come and lay
off your things, Rachel. You'll stay to tea?"
- "Well, seeing you're so pressing, perhaps I might as well,
stay" said Mrs. Rachel, who had not the slightest intention of doing anything else.
- Mrs. Rachel and Marilla sat comfortably in the parlor while Anne got
the tea and made hot biscuits that were light and white enough to defy even Mrs. Rachel's
criticism.
- "I must say Anne has turned out a real smart girl," admitted
Mrs. Rachel, as Marilla accompanied her to the end of the lane at sunset. "She must
be a great help to you."
- "She is," said Marilla, "and she's real steady and
reliable now. I used to be afraid she'd never get over her featherbrained ways, but she
has and I wouldn't be afraid to trust her in anything now."
- "I never would have thought she'd have turned out so well that
first day I was here three years ago," said Mrs. Rachel. "Lawful heart, shall I
ever forget that tantrum of hers! When I went home that night I says to Thomas, says I,
`Mark my words, Thomas, Marilla Cuthbert'll live to rue the step she's took.' But I was
mistaken and I'm real glad of it. I ain't one of those kind of people, Marilla, as can
never be brought to own up that they've made a mistake. No, that never was my way, thank
goodness. I did make a mistake in judging Anne, but it weren't no wonder, for an odder,
unexpecteder witch of a child there never was in this world, that's what. There was no
ciphering her out by the rules that worked with other children. It's nothing short of
wonderful how she's improved these three years, but especially in looks. She's a real
pretty girl got to be, though I can't say I'm overly partial to that pale, big-eyed style
myself. I like more snap and color, like Diana Barry has or Ruby Gillis. Ruby Gillis's
looks are real showy. But somehow--I don't know how it is but when Anne and them are
together, though she ain't half as handsome, she makes them look kind of common and
overdone-- something like them white June lilies she calls narcissus alongside of the big,
red peonies, that's what."
- CHAPTER XXXI
- Where the Brook and River Meet
- Anne had her "good" summer and enjoyed it wholeheartedly. She
and Diana fairly lived outdoors, reveling in all the delights that Lover's Lane and the
Dryad's Bubble and Willowmere and Victoria Island afforded. Marilla offered no objections
to Anne's gypsyings. The Spencervale doctor who had come the night Minnie May had the
croup met Anne at the house of a patient one afternoon early in vacation, looked her over
sharply, screwed up his mouth, shook his head, and sent a message to Marilla Cuthbert by
another person. It was:
- "Keep that redheaded girl of yours in the open air all summer and
don't let her read books until she gets more spring into her step."
- This message frightened Marilla wholesomely. She read Anne's death
warrant by consumption in it unless it was scrupulously obeyed. As a result, Anne had the
golden summer of her life as far as freedom and frolic went. She walked, rowed, berried,
and dreamed to her heart's content; and when September came she was bright-eyed and alert,
with a step that would have satisfied the Spencervale doctor and a heart full of ambition
and zest once more.
- "I feel just like studying with might and main," she declared
as she brought her books down from the attic. "Oh, you good old friends, I'm glad to
see your honest faces once more--yes, even you, geometry. I've had a perfectly beautiful
summer, Marilla, and now I'm rejoicing as a strong man to run a race, as Mr. Allan said
last Sunday. Doesn't Mr. Allan preach magnificent sermons? Mrs. Lynde says he is improving
every day and the first thing we know some city church will gobble him up and then we'll
be left and have to turn to and break in another green preacher. But I don't see the use
of meeting trouble halfway, do you, Marilla? I think it would be better just to enjoy Mr.
Allan while we have him. If I were a man I think I'd be a minister. They can have such an
influence for good, if their theology is sound; and it must be thrilling to preach
splendid sermons and stir your hearers' hearts. Why can't women be ministers, Marilla? I
asked Mrs. Lynde that and she was shocked and said it would be a scandalous thing. She
said there might be female ministers in the States and she believed there was, but thank
goodness we hadn't got to that stage in Canada yet and she hoped we never would. But I
don't see why. I think women would make splendid ministers. When there is a social to be
got up or a church tea or anything else to raise money the women have to turn to and do
the work. I'm sure Mrs. Lynde can pray every bit as well as Superintendent Bell and I've
no doubt she could preach too with a little practice."
- "Yes, I believe she could," said Marilla dryly. "She
does plenty of unofficial preaching as it is. Nobody has much of a chance to go wrong in
Avonlea with Rachel to oversee them."
- "Marilla," said Anne in a burst of confidence, "I want
to tell you something and ask you what you think about it. It has worried me terribly--on
Sunday afternoons, that is, when I think specially about such matters. I do really want to
be good; and when I'm with you or Mrs. Allan or Miss Stacy I want it more than ever and I
want to do just what would please you and what you would approve of. But mostly when I'm
with Mrs. Lynde I feel desperately wicked and as if I wanted to go and do the very thing
she tells me I oughtn't to do. I feel irresistibly tempted to do it. Now, what do you
think is the reason I feel like that? Do you think it's because I'm really bad and
unregenerate?"
- Marilla looked dubious for a moment. Then she laughed.
- "If you are I guess I am too, Anne, for Rachel often has that very
effect on me. I sometimes think she'd have more of an influence for good, as you say
yourself, if she didn't keep nagging people to do right. There should have been a special
commandment against nagging. But there, I shouldn't talk so. Rachel is a good Christian
woman and she means well. There isn't a kinder soul in Avonlea and she never shirks her
share of work."
- "I'm very glad you feel the same," said Anne decidedly.
"It's so encouraging. I shan't worry so much over that after this. But I dare say
there'll be other things to worry me. They keep coming up new all the time--things to
perplex you, you know. You settle one question and there's another right after. There are
so many things to be thought over and decided when you're beginning to grow up. It keeps
me busy all the time thinking them over and deciding what is right. It's a serious thing
to grow up, isn't it, Marilla? But when I have such good friends as you and Matthew and
Mrs. Allan and Miss Stacy I ought to grow up successfully, and I'm sure it will be my own
fault if I don't. I feel it's a great responsibility because I have only the one chance.
If I don't grow up right I can't go back and begin over again. I've grown two inches this
summer, Marilla. Mr. Gillis measured me at Ruby's party. I'm so glad you made my new
dresses longer. That dark-green one is so pretty and it was sweet of you to put on the
flounce. Of course I know it wasn't really necessary, but flounces are so stylish this
fall and Josie Pye has flounces on all her dresses. I know I'll be able to study better
because of mine. I shall have such a comfortable feeling deep down in my mind about that
flounce."
- "It's worth something to have that," admitted Marilla.
- Miss Stacy came back to Avonlea school and found all her pupils eager
for work once more. Especially did the Queen's class gird up their loins for the fray, for
at the end of the coming year, dimly shadowing their pathway already, loomed up that
fateful thing known as "the Entrance," at the thought of which one and all felt
their hearts sink into their very shoes. Suppose they did not pass! That thought was
doomed to haunt Anne through the waking hours of that winter, Sunday afternoons inclusive,
to the almost entire exclusion of moral and theological problems. When Anne had bad dreams
she found herself staring miserably at pass lists of the Entrance exams, where Gilbert
Blythe's name was blazoned at the top and in which hers did not appear at all.
- But it was a jolly, busy, happy swift-flying winter. Schoolwork was as
interesting, class rivalry as absorbing, as of yore. New worlds of thought, feeling, and
ambition, fresh, fascinating fields of unexplored knowledge seemed to be opening out
before Anne's eager eyes.
- "Hills peeped o'er hill and Alps on Alps arose."
- Much of all this was due to Miss Stacy's tactful, careful, broadminded
guidance. She led her class to think and explore and discover for themselves and
encouraged straying from the old beaten paths to a degree that quite shocked Mrs. Lynde
and the school trustees, who viewed all innovations on established methods rather
dubiously.
- Apart from her studies Anne expanded socially, for Marilla, mindful of
the Spencervale doctor's dictum, no longer vetoed occasional outings. The Debating Club
flourished and gave several concerts; there were one or two parties almost verging on
grown-up affairs; there were sleigh drives and skating frolics galore.
- Betweentimes Anne grew, shooting up so rapidly that Marilla was
astonished one day, when they were standing side by side, to find the girl was taller than
herself.
- "Why, Anne, how you've grown!" she said, almost
unbelievingly. A sigh followed on the words. Marilla felt a queer regret over Anne's
inches. The child she had learned to love had vanished somehow and here was this tall,
serious-eyed girl of fifteen, with the thoughtful brows and the proudly poised little
head, in her place. Marilla loved the girl as much as she had loved the child, but she was
conscious of a queer sorrowful sense of loss. And that night, when Anne had gone to prayer
meeting with Diana, Marilla sat alone in the wintry twilight and indulged in the weakness
of a cry. Matthew, coming in with a lantern, caught her at it and gazed at her in such
consternation that Marilla had to laugh through her tears.
- "I was thinking about Anne," she explained. "She's got
to be such a big girl--and she'll probably be away from us next winter. I'll miss her
terrible."
- "She'll be able to come home often," comforted Matthew, to
whom Anne was as yet and always would be the little, eager girl he had brought home from
Bright River on that June evening four years before. "The branch railroad will be
built to Carmody by that time."
- "It won't be the same thing as having her here all the time,"
sighed Marilla gloomily, determined to enjoy her luxury of grief uncomforted. "But
there--men can't understand these things!"
- There were other changes in Anne no less real than the physical change.
For one thing, she became much quieter. Perhaps she thought all the more and dreamed as
much as ever, but she certainly talked less. Marilla noticed and commented on this also.
- "You don't chatter half as much as you used to, Anne, nor use half
as many big words. What has come over you?"
- Anne colored and laughed a little, as she dropped her book and looked
dreamily out of the window, where big fat red buds were bursting out on the creeper in
response to the lure of the spring sunshine.
- "I don't know--I don't want to talk as much," she said,
denting her chin thoughtfully with her forefinger. "It's nicer to think dear, pretty
thoughts and keep them in one's heart, like treasures. I don't like to have them laughed
at or wondered over. And somehow I don't want to use big words any more. It's almost a
pity, isn't it, now that I'm really growing big enough to say them if I did want to. It's
fun to be almost grown up in some ways, but it's not the kind of fun I expected, Marilla.
There's so much to learn and do and think that there isn't time for big words. Besides,
Miss Stacy says the short ones are much stronger and better. She makes us write all our
essays as simply as possible. It was hard at first. I was so used to crowding in all the
fine big words I could think of--and I thought of any number of them. But I've got used to
it now and I see it's so much better."
- "What has become of your story club? I haven't heard you speak of
it for a long time."
- "The story club isn't in existence any longer. We hadn't time for
it--and anyhow I think we had got tired of it. It was silly to be writing about love and
murder and elopements and mysteries. Miss Stacy sometimes has us write a story for
training in composition, but she won't let us write anything but what might happen in
Avonlea in our own lives, and she criticizes it very sharply and makes us criticize our
own too. I never thought my compositions had so many faults until I began to look for them
myself. I felt so ashamed I wanted to give up altogether, but Miss Stacy said I could
learn to write well if I only trained myself to be my own severest critic. And so I am
trying to."
- "You've only two more months before the Entrance," said
Marilla. "Do you think you'll be able to get through?"
- Anne shivered.
- "I don't know. Sometimes I think I'll be all right--and then I get
horribly afraid. We've studied hard and Miss Stacy has drilled us thoroughly, but we
mayn't get through for all that. We've each got a stumbling block. Mine is geometry of
course, and Jane's is Latin, and Ruby and Charlie's is algebra, and Josie's is arithmetic.
Moody Spurgeon says he feels it in his bones that he is going to fail in English history.
Miss Stacy is going to give us examinations in June just as hard as we'll have at the
Entrance and mark us just as strictly, so we'll have some idea. I wish it was all over,
Marilla. It haunts me. Sometimes I wake up in the night and wonder what I'll do if I don't
pass."
- "Why, go to school next year and try again," said Marilla
unconcernedly.
- "Oh, I don't believe I'd have the heart for it. It would be such a
disgrace to fail, especially if Gil--if the others passed. And I get so nervous in an
examination that I'm likely to make a mess of it. I wish I had nerves like Jane Andrews.
Nothing rattles her."
- Anne sighed and, dragging her eyes from the witcheries of the spring
world, the beckoning day of breeze and blue, and the green things upspringing in the
garden, buried herself resolutely in her book. There would be other springs, but if she
did not succeed in passing the Entrance, Anne felt convinced that she would never recover
sufficiently to enjoy them.
- CHAPTER XXXII
- The Pass List Is Out
- With the end of June came the close of the term and the close of Miss
Stacy's rule in Avonlea school. Anne and Diana walked home that evening feeling very sober
indeed. Red eyes and damp handkerchiefs bore convincing testimony to the fact that Miss
Stacy's farewell words must have been quite as touching as Mr. Phillips's had been under
similar circumstances three years before. Diana looked back at the schoolhouse from the
foot of the spruce hill and sighed deeply.
- "It does seem as if it was the end of everything, doesn't
it?" she said dismally.
- "You oughtn't to feel half as badly as I do," said Anne,
hunting vainly for a dry spot on her handkerchief. "You'll be back again next winter,
but I suppose I've left the dear old school forever-- if I have good luck, that is."
- "It won't be a bit the same. Miss Stacy won't be there, nor you
nor Jane nor Ruby probably. I shall have to sit all alone, for I couldn't bear to have
another deskmate after you. Oh, we have had jolly times, haven't we, Anne? It's dreadful
to think they're all over."
- Two big tears rolled down by Diana's nose.
- "If you would stop crying I could," said Anne imploringly.
"Just as soon as I put away my hanky I see you brimming up and that starts me off
again. As Mrs. Lynde says, `If you can't be cheerful, be as cheerful as you can.' After
all, I dare say I'll be back next year. This is one of the times I KNOW I'm not going to
pass. They're getting alarmingly frequent."
- "Why, you came out splendidly in the exams Miss Stacy gave."
- "Yes, but those exams didn't make me nervous. When I think of the
real thing you can't imagine what a horrid cold fluttery feeling comes round my heart. And
then my number is thirteen and Josie Pye says it's so unlucky. I am NOT superstitious and
I know it can make no difference. But still I wish it wasn't thirteen."
- "I do wish I was going in with you," said Diana.
"Wouldn't we have a perfectly elegant time? But I suppose you'll have to cram in the
evenings."
- "No; Miss Stacy has made us promise not to open a book at all. She
says it would only tire and confuse us and we are to go out walking and not think about
the exams at all and go to bed early. It's good advice, but I expect it will be hard to
follow; good advice is apt to be, I think. Prissy Andrews told me that she sat up half the
night every night of her Entrance week and crammed for dear life; and I had determined to
sit up AT LEAST as long as she did. It was so kind of your Aunt Josephine to ask me to
stay at Beechwood while I'm in town."
- "You'll write to me while you're in, won't you?"
- "I'll write Tuesday night and tell you how the first day
goes," promised Anne.
- "I'll be haunting the post office Wednesday," vowed Diana.
- Anne went to town the following Monday and on Wednesday Diana haunted
the post office, as agreed, and got her letter.
- "Dearest Diana" [wrote Anne],
- "Here it is Tuesday night and I'm writing this in the library at
Beechwood. Last night I was horribly lonesome all alone in my room and wished so much you
were with me. I couldn't "cram" because I'd promised Miss Stacy not to, but it
was as hard to keep from opening my history as it used to be to keep from reading a story
before my lessons were learned.
- "This morning Miss Stacy came for me and we went to the Academy,
calling for Jane and Ruby and Josie on our way. Ruby asked me to feel her hands and they
were as cold as ice. Josie said I looked as if I hadn't slept a wink and she didn't
believe I was strong enough to stand the grind of the teacher's course even if I did get
through. There are times and seasons even yet when I don't feel that I've made any great
headway in learning to like Josie Pye!
- "When we reached the Academy there were scores of students there
from all over the Island. The first person we saw was Moody Spurgeon sitting on the steps
and muttering away to himself. Jane asked him what on earth he was doing and he said he
was repeating the multiplication table over and over to steady his nerves and for pity's
sake not to interrupt him, because if he stopped for a moment he got frightened and forgot
everything he ever knew, but the multiplication table kept all his facts firmly in their
proper place!
- "When we were assigned to our rooms Miss Stacy had to leave us.
Jane and I sat together and Jane was so composed that I envied her. No need of the
multiplication table for good, steady, sensible Jane! I wondered if I looked as I felt and
if they could hear my heart thumping clear across the room. Then a man came in and began
distributing the English examination sheets. My hands grew cold then and my head fairly
whirled around as I picked it up. Just one awful moment--Diana, I felt exactly as I did
four years ago when I asked Marilla if I might stay at Green Gables--and then everything
cleared up in my mind and my heart began beating again--I forgot to say that it had
stopped altogether!--for I knew I could do something with THAT paper anyhow.
- "At noon we went home for dinner and then back again for history
in the afternoon. The history was a pretty hard paper and I got dreadfully mixed up in the
dates. Still, I think I did fairly well today. But oh, Diana, tomorrow the geometry exam
comes off and when I think of it it takes every bit of determination I possess to keep
from opening my Euclid. If I thought the multiplication table would help me any I would
recite it from now till tomorrow morning.
- "I went down to see the other girls this evening. On my way I met
Moody Spurgeon wandering distractedly around. He said he knew he had failed in history and
he was born to be a disappointment to his parents and he was going home on the morning
train; and it would be easier to be a carpenter than a minister, anyhow. I cheered him up
and persuaded him to stay to the end because it would be unfair to Miss Stacy if he
didn't. Sometimes I have wished I was born a boy, but when I see Moody Spurgeon I'm always
glad I'm a girl and not his sister.
- "Ruby was in hysterics when I reached their boardinghouse; she had
just discovered a fearful mistake she had made in her English paper. When she recovered we
went uptown and had an ice cream. How we wished you had been with us.
- "Oh, Diana, if only the geometry examination were over! But there,
as Mrs. Lynde would say, the sun will go on rising and setting whether I fail in geometry
or not. That is true but not especially comforting. I think I'd rather it didn't go on if
I failed!
- Yours devotedly, Anne"
- The geometry examination and all the others were over in due time and
Anne arrived home on Friday evening, rather tired but with an air of chastened triumph
about her. Diana was over at Green Gables when she arrived and they met as if they had
been parted for years.
- "You old darling, it's perfectly splendid to see you back again.
It seems like an age since you went to town and oh, Anne, how did you get along?"
- "Pretty well, I think, in everything but the geometry. I don't
know whether I passed in it or not and I have a creepy, crawly presentiment that I didn't.
Oh, how good it is to be back! Green Gables is the dearest, loveliest spot in the
world."
- "How did the others do?"
- "The girls say they know they didn't pass, but I think they did
pretty well. Josie says the geometry was so easy a child of ten could do it! Moody
Spurgeon still thinks he failed in history and Charlie says he failed in algebra. But we
don't really know anything about it and won't until the pass list is out. That won't be
for a fortnight. Fancy living a fortnight in such suspense! I wish I could go to sleep and
never wake up until it is over."
- Diana knew it would be useless to ask how Gilbert Blythe had fared, so
she merely said:
- "Oh, you'll pass all right. Don't worry."
- "I'd rather not pass at all than not come out pretty well up on
the list," flashed Anne, by which she meant--and Diana knew she meant--that success
would be incomplete and bitter if she did not come out ahead of Gilbert Blythe.
- With this end in view Anne had strained every nerve during the
examinations. So had Gilbert. They had met and passed each other on the street a dozen
times without any sign of recognition and every time Anne had held her head a little
higher and wished a little more earnestly that she had made friends with Gilbert when he
asked her, and vowed a little more determinedly to surpass him in the examination. She
knew that all Avonlea junior was wondering which would come out first; she even knew that
Jimmy Glover and Ned Wright had a bet on the question and that Josie Pye had said there
was no doubt in the world that Gilbert would be first; and she felt that her humiliation
would be unbearable if she failed.
- But she had another and nobler motive for wishing to do well. She
wanted to "pass high" for the sake of Matthew and Marilla-- especially Matthew.
Matthew had declared to her his conviction that she "would beat the whole
Island." That, Anne felt, was something it would be foolish to hope for even in the
wildest dreams. But she did hope fervently that she would be among the first ten at least,
so that she might see Matthew's kindly brown eyes gleam with pride in her achievement.
That, she felt, would be a sweet reward indeed for all her hard work and patient grubbing
among unimaginative equations and conjugations.
- At the end of the fortnight Anne took to "haunting" the post
office also, in the distracted company of Jane, Ruby, and Josie, opening the Charlottetown
dailies with shaking hands and cold, sinkaway feelings as bad as any experienced during
the Entrance week. Charlie and Gilbert were not above doing this too, but Moody Spurgeon
stayed resolutely away.
- "I haven't got the grit to go there and look at a paper in cold
blood," he told Anne. "I'm just going to wait until somebody comes and tells me
suddenly whether I've passed or not."
- When three weeks had gone by without the pass list appearing Anne began
to feel that she really couldn't stand the strain much longer. Her appetite failed and her
interest in Avonlea doings languished. Mrs. Lynde wanted to know what else you could
expect with a Tory superintendent of education at the head of affairs, and Matthew, noting
Anne's paleness and indifference and the lagging steps that bore her home from the post
office every afternoon, began seriously to wonder if he hadn't better vote Grit at the
next election.
- But one evening the news came. Anne was sitting at her open window, for
the time forgetful of the woes of examinations and the cares of the world, as she drank in
the beauty of the summer dusk, sweet-scented with flower breaths from the garden below and
sibilant and rustling from the stir of poplars. The eastern sky above the firs was flushed
faintly pink from the reflection of the west, and Anne was wondering dreamily if the
spirit of color looked like that, when she saw Diana come flying down through the firs,
over the log bridge, and up the slope, with a fluttering newspaper in her hand.
- Anne sprang to her feet, knowing at once what that paper contained. The
pass list was out! Her head whirled and her heart beat until it hurt her. She could not
move a step. It seemed an hour to her before Diana came rushing along the hall and burst
into the room without even knocking, so great was her excitement.
- "Anne, you've passed," she cried, "passed the VERY
FIRST--you and Gilbert both--you're ties--but your name is first. Oh, I'm so proud!"
- Diana flung the paper on the table and herself on Anne's bed, utterly
breathless and incapable of further speech. Anne lighted the lamp, oversetting the match
safe and using up half a dozen matches before her shaking hands could accomplish the task.
Then she snatched up the paper. Yes, she had passed--there was her name at the very top of
a list of two hundred! That moment was worth living for.
- "You did just splendidly, Anne," puffed Diana, recovering
sufficiently to sit up and speak, for Anne, starry eyed and rapt, had not uttered a word.
"Father brought the paper home from Bright River not ten minutes ago--it came out on
the afternoon train, you know, and won't be here till tomorrow by mail--and when I saw the
pass list I just rushed over like a wild thing. You've all passed, every one of you, Moody
Spurgeon and all, although he's conditioned in history. Jane and Ruby did pretty
well--they're halfway up--and so did Charlie. Josie just scraped through with three marks
to spare, but you'll see she'll put on as many airs as if she'd led. Won't Miss Stacy be
delighted? Oh, Anne, what does it feel like to see your name at the head of a pass list
like that? If it were me I know I'd go crazy with joy. I am pretty near crazy as it is,
but you're as calm and cool as a spring evening."
- "I'm just dazzled inside," said Anne. "I want to say a
hundred things, and I can't find words to say them in. I never dreamed of this--yes, I did
too, just once! I let myself think ONCE, `What if I should come out first?' quakingly, you
know, for it seemed so vain and presumptuous to think I could lead the Island. Excuse me a
minute, Diana. I must run right out to the field to tell Matthew. Then we'll go up the
road and tell the good news to the others."
- They hurried to the hayfield below the barn where Matthew was coiling
hay, and, as luck would have it, Mrs. Lynde was talking to Marilla at the lane fence.
- "Oh, Matthew," exclaimed Anne, "I've passed and I'm
first--or one of the first! I'm not vain, but I'm thankful."
- "Well now, I always said it," said Matthew, gazing at the
pass list delightedly. "I knew you could beat them all easy."
- "You've done pretty well, I must say, Anne," said Marilla,
trying to hide her extreme pride in Anne from Mrs. Rachel's critical eye. But that good
soul said heartily:
- "I just guess she has done well, and far be it from me to be
backward in saying it. You're a credit to your friends, Anne, that's what, and we're all
proud of you."
- That night Anne, who had wound up the delightful evening with a serious
little talk with Mrs. Allan at the manse, knelt sweetly by her open window in a great
sheen of moonshine and murmured a prayer of gratitude and aspiration that came straight
from her heart. There was in it thankfulness for the past and reverent petition for the
future; and when she slept on her white pillow her dreams were as fair and bright and
beautiful as maidenhood might desire.
- CHAPTER XXXIII
- The Hotel Concert
- Put on your white organdy, by all means, Anne," advised Diana
decidedly.
- They were together in the east gable chamber; outside it was only
twilight--a lovely yellowish-green twilight with a clear-blue cloudless sky. A big round
moon, slowly deepening from her pallid luster into burnished silver, hung over the Haunted
Wood; the air was full of sweet summer sounds--sleepy birds twittering, freakish breezes,
faraway voices and laughter. But in Anne's room the blind was drawn and the lamp lighted,
for an important toilet was being made.
- The east gable was a very different place from what it had been on that
night four years before, when Anne had felt its bareness penetrate to the marrow of her
spirit with its inhospitable chill. Changes had crept in, Marilla conniving at them
resignedly, until it was as sweet and dainty a nest as a young girl could desire.
- The velvet carpet with the pink roses and the pink silk curtains of
Anne's early visions had certainly never materialized; but her dreams had kept pace with
her growth, and it is not probable she lamented them. The floor was covered with a pretty
matting, and the curtains that softened the high window and fluttered in the vagrant
breezes were of pale-green art muslin. The walls, hung not with gold and silver brocade
tapestry, but with a dainty apple-blossom paper, were adorned with a few good pictures
given Anne by Mrs. Allan. Miss Stacy's photograph occupied the place of honor, and Anne
made a sentimental point of keeping fresh flowers on the bracket under it. Tonight a spike
of white lilies faintly perfumed the room like the dream of a fragrance. There was no
"mahogany furniture," but there was a white-painted bookcase filled with books,
a cushioned wicker rocker, a toilet table befrilled with white muslin, a quaint,
gilt-framed mirror with chubby pink Cupids and purple grapes painted over its arched top,
that used to hang in the spare room, and a low white bed.
- Anne was dressing for a concert at the White Sands Hotel. The guests
had got it up in aid of the Charlottetown hospital, and had hunted out all the available
amateur talent in the surrounding districts to help it along. Bertha Sampson and Pearl
Clay of the White Sands Baptist choir had been asked to sing a duet; Milton Clark of
Newbridge was to give a violin solo; Winnie Adella Blair of Carmody was to sing a Scotch
ballad; and Laura Spencer of Spencervale and Anne Shirley of Avonlea were to recite.
- As Anne would have said at one time, it was "an epoch in her
life," and she was deliciously athrill with the excitement of it. Matthew was in the
seventh heaven of gratified pride over the honor conferred on his Anne and Marilla was not
far behind, although she would have died rather than admit it, and said she didn't think
it was very proper for a lot of young folks to be gadding over to the hotel without any
responsible person with them.
- Anne and Diana were to drive over with Jane Andrews and her brother
Billy in their double-seated buggy; and several other Avonlea girls and boys were going
too. There was a party of visitors expected out from town, and after the concert a supper
was to be given to the performers.
- "Do you really think the organdy will be best?" queried Anne
anxiously. "I don't think it's as pretty as my blue-flowered muslin--and it certainly
isn't so fashionable."
- "But it suits you ever so much better," said Diana.
"It's so soft and frilly and clinging. The muslin is stiff, and makes you look too
dressed up. But the organdy seems as if it grew on you."
- Anne sighed and yielded. Diana was beginning to have a reputation for
notable taste in dressing, and her advice on such subjects was much sought after. She was
looking very pretty herself on this particular night in a dress of the lovely wild-rose
pink, from which Anne was forever debarred; but she was not to take any part in the
concert, so her appearance was of minor importance. All her pains were bestowed upon Anne,
who, she vowed, must, for the credit of Avonlea, be dressed and combed and adorned to the
Queen's taste.
- "Pull out that frill a little more--so; here, let me tie your
sash; now for your slippers. I'm going to braid your hair in two thick braids, and tie
them halfway up with big white bows--no, don't pull out a single curl over your
forehead--just have the soft part. There is no way you do your hair suits you so well,
Anne, and Mrs. Allan says you look like a Madonna when you part it so. I shall fasten this
little white house rose just behind your ear. There was just one on my bush, and I saved
it for you."
- "Shall I put my pearl beads on?" asked Anne. "Matthew
brought me a string from town last week, and I know he'd like to see them on me."
- Diana pursed up her lips, put her black head on one side critically,
and finally pronounced in favor of the beads, which were thereupon tied around Anne's slim
milk-white throat.
- "There's something so stylish about you, Anne," said Diana,
with unenvious admiration. "You hold your head with such an air. I suppose it's your
figure. I am just a dumpling. I've always been afraid of it, and now I know it is so.
Well, I suppose I shall just have to resign myself to it."
- "But you have such dimples," said Anne, smiling
affectionately into the pretty, vivacious face so near her own. "Lovely dimples, like
little dents in cream. I have given up all hope of dimples. My dimple-dream will never
come true; but so many of my dreams have that I mustn't complain. Am I all ready
now?"
- "All ready," assured Diana, as Marilla appeared in the
doorway, a gaunt figure with grayer hair than of yore and no fewer angles, but with a much
softer face. "Come right in and look at our elocutionist, Marilla. Doesn't she look
lovely?"
- Marilla emitted a sound between a sniff and a grunt.
- "She looks neat and proper. I like that way of fixing her hair.
But I expect she'll ruin that dress driving over there in the dust and dew with it, and it
looks most too thin for these damp nights. Organdy's the most unserviceable stuff in the
world anyhow, and I told Matthew so when he got it. But there is no use in saying anything
to Matthew nowadays. Time was when he would take my advice, but now he just buys things
for Anne regardless, and the clerks at Carmody know they can palm anything off on him.
Just let them tell him a thing is pretty and fashionable, and Matthew plunks his money
down for it. Mind you keep your skirt clear of the wheel, Anne, and put your warm jacket
on."
- Then Marilla stalked downstairs, thinking proudly how sweet Anne
looked, with that
- "One moonbeam from the forehead to the crown"
- and regretting that she could not go to the concert herself to hear her
girl recite.
- "I wonder if it IS too damp for my dress," said Anne
anxiously.
- "Not a bit of it," said Diana, pulling up the window blind.
"It's a perfect night, and there won't be any dew. Look at the moonlight."
- "I'm so glad my window looks east into the sunrising," said
Anne, going over to Diana. "It's so splendid to see the morning coming up over those
long hills and glowing through those sharp fir tops. It's new every morning, and I feel as
if I washed my very soul in that bath of earliest sunshine. Oh, Diana, I love this little
room so dearly. I don't know how I'll get along without it when I go to town next
month."
- "Don't speak of your going away tonight," begged Diana.
"I don't want to think of it, it makes me so miserable, and I do want to have a good
time this evening. What are you going to recite, Anne? And are you nervous?"
- "Not a bit. I've recited so often in public I don't mind at all
now. I've decided to give `The Maiden's Vow.' It's so pathetic. Laura Spencer is going to
give a comic recitation, but I'd rather make people cry than laugh."
- "What will you recite if they encore you?"
- "They won't dream of encoring me," scoffed Anne, who was not
without her own secret hopes that they would, and already visioned herself telling Matthew
all about it at the next morning's breakfast table. "There are Billy and Jane now-- I
hear the wheels. Come on."
- Billy Andrews insisted that Anne should ride on the front seat with
him, so she unwillingly climbed up. She would have much preferred to sit back with the
girls, where she could have laughed and chattered to her heart's content. There was not
much of either laughter or chatter in Billy. He was a big, fat, stolid youth of twenty,
with a round, expressionless face, and a painful lack of conversational gifts. But he
admired Anne immensely, and was puffed up with pride over the prospect of driving to White
Sands with that slim, upright figure beside him.
- Anne, by dint of talking over her shoulder to the girls and
occasionally passing a sop of civility to Billy--who grinned and chuckled and never could
think of any reply until it was too late--contrived to enjoy the drive in spite of all. It
was a night for enjoyment. The road was full of buggies, all bound for the hotel, and
laughter, silver clear, echoed and reechoed along it. When they reached the hotel it was a
blaze of light from top to bottom. They were met by the ladies of the concert committee,
one of whom took Anne off to the performers' dressing room which was filled with the
members of a Charlottetown Symphony Club, among whom Anne felt suddenly shy and frightened
and countrified. Her dress, which, in the east gable, had seemed so dainty and pretty, now
seemed simple and plain--too simple and plain, she thought, among all the silks and laces
that glistened and rustled around her. What were her pearl beads compared to the diamonds
of the big, handsome lady near her? And how poor her one wee white rose must look beside
all the hothouse flowers the others wore! Anne laid her hat and jacket away, and shrank
miserably into a corner. She wished herself back in the white room at Green Gables.
- It was still worse on the platform of the big concert hall of the
hotel, where she presently found herself. The electric lights dazzled her eyes, the
perfume and hum bewildered her. She wished she were sitting down in the audience with
Diana and Jane, who seemed to be having a splendid time away at the back. She was wedged
in between a stout lady in pink silk and a tall, scornful-looking girl in a white-lace
dress. The stout lady occasionally turned her head squarely around and surveyed Anne
through her eyeglasses until Anne, acutely sensitive of being so scrutinized, felt that
she must scream aloud; and the white-lace girl kept talking audibly to her next neighbor
about the "country bumpkins" and "rustic belles" in the audience,
languidly anticipating "such fun" from the displays of local talent on the
program. Anne believed that she would hate that white-lace girl to the end of life.
- Unfortunately for Anne, a professional elocutionist was staying at the
hotel and had consented to recite. She was a lithe, dark-eyed woman in a wonderful gown of
shimmering gray stuff like woven moonbeams, with gems on her neck and in her dark hair.
She had a marvelously flexible voice and wonderful power of expression; the audience went
wild over her selection. Anne, forgetting all about herself and her troubles for the time,
listened with rapt and shining eyes; but when the recitation ended she suddenly put her
hands over her face. She could never get up and recite after that--never. Had she ever
thought she could recite? Oh, if she were only back at Green Gables!
- At this unpropitious moment her name was called. Somehow Anne--who did
not notice the rather guilty little start of surprise the white-lace girl gave, and would
not have understood the subtle compliment implied therein if she had--got on her feet, and
moved dizzily out to the front. She was so pale that Diana and Jane, down in the audience,
clasped each other's hands in nervous sympathy.
- Anne was the victim of an overwhelming attack of stage fright. Often as
she had recited in public, she had never before faced such an audience as this, and the
sight of it paralyzed her energies completely. Everything was so strange, so brilliant, so
bewildering--the rows of ladies in evening dress, the critical faces, the whole atmosphere
of wealth and culture about her. Very different this from the plain benches at the
Debating Club, filled with the homely, sympathetic faces of friends and neighbors. These
people, she thought, would be merciless critics. Perhaps, like the white-lace girl, they
anticipated amusement from her "rustic" efforts. She felt hopelessly, helplessly
ashamed and miserable. Her knees trembled, her heart fluttered, a horrible faintness came
over her; not a word could she utter, and the next moment she would have fled from the
platform despite the humiliation which, she felt, must ever after be her portion if she
did so.
- But suddenly, as her dilated, frightened eyes gazed out over the
audience, she saw Gilbert Blythe away at the back of the room, bending forward with a
smile on his face--a smile which seemed to Anne at once triumphant and taunting. In
reality it was nothing of the kind. Gilbert was merely smiling with appreciation of the
whole affair in general and of the effect produced by Anne's slender white form and
spiritual face against a background of palms in particular. Josie Pye, whom he had driven
over, sat beside him, and her face certainly was both triumphant and taunting. But Anne
did not see Josie, and would not have cared if she had. She drew a long breath and flung
her head up proudly, courage and determination tingling over her like an electric shock.
She WOULD NOT fail before Gilbert Blythe--he should never be able to laugh at her, never,
never! Her fright and nervousness vanished; and she began her recitation, her clear, sweet
voice reaching to the farthest corner of the room without a tremor or a break.
Self-possession was fully restored to her, and in the reaction from that horrible moment
of powerlessness she recited as she had never done before. When she finished there were
bursts of honest applause. Anne, stepping back to her seat, blushing with shyness and
delight, found her hand vigorously clasped and shaken by the stout lady in pink silk.
- "My dear, you did splendidly," she puffed. "I've been
crying like a baby, actually I have. There, they're encoring you-- they're bound to have
you back!"
- "Oh, I can't go," said Anne confusedly. "But yet--I
must, or Matthew will be disappointed. He said they would encore me."
- "Then don't disappoint Matthew," said the pink lady,
laughing.
- Smiling, blushing, limpid eyed, Anne tripped back and gave a quaint,
funny little selection that captivated her audience still further. The rest of the evening
was quite a little triumph for her.
- When the concert was over, the stout, pink lady--who was the wife of an
American millionaire--took her under her wing, and introduced her to everybody; and
everybody was very nice to her. The professional elocutionist, Mrs. Evans, came and
chatted with her, telling her that she had a charming voice and "interpreted"
her selections beautifully. Even the white-lace girl paid her a languid little compliment.
They had supper in the big, beautifully decorated dining room; Diana and Jane were invited
to partake of this, also, since they had come with Anne, but Billy was nowhere to be
found, having decamped in mortal fear of some such invitation. He was in waiting for them,
with the team, however, when it was all over, and the three girls came merrily out into
the calm, white moonshine radiance. Anne breathed deeply, and looked into the clear sky
beyond the dark boughs of the firs.
- Oh, it was good to be out again in the purity and silence of the night!
How great and still and wonderful everything was, with the murmur of the sea sounding
through it and the darkling cliffs beyond like grim giants guarding enchanted coasts.
- "Hasn't it been a perfectly splendid time?" sighed Jane, as
they drove away. "I just wish I was a rich American and could spend my summer at a
hotel and wear jewels and low-necked dresses and have ice cream and chicken salad every
blessed day. I'm sure it would be ever so much more fun than teaching school. Anne, your
recitation was simply great, although I thought at first you were never going to begin. I
think it was better than Mrs. Evans's."
- "Oh, no, don't say things like that, Jane," said Anne
quickly, "because it sounds silly. It couldn't be better than Mrs. Evans's, you know,
for she is a professional, and I'm only a schoolgirl, with a little knack of reciting. I'm
quite satisfied if the people just liked mine pretty well."
- "I've a compliment for you, Anne," said Diana. "At least
I think it must be a compliment because of the tone he said it in. Part of it was anyhow.
There was an American sitting behind Jane and me--such a romantic-looking man, with
coal-black hair and eyes. Josie Pye says he is a distinguished artist, and that her
mother's cousin in Boston is married to a man that used to go to school with him. Well, we
heard him say--didn't we, Jane?--`Who is that girl on the platform with the splendid
Titian hair? She has a face I should like to paint.' There now, Anne. But what does Titian
hair mean?"
- "Being interpreted it means plain red, I guess," laughed
Anne. "Titian was a very famous artist who liked to paint red-haired women."
- "DID you see all the diamonds those ladies wore?" sighed
Jane. "They were simply dazzling. Wouldn't you just love to be rich, girls?"
- "We ARE rich," said Anne staunchly. "Why, we have
sixteen years to our credit, and we're happy as queens, and we've all got imaginations,
more or less. Look at that sea, girls--all silver and shadow and vision of things not
seen. We couldn't enjoy its loveliness any more if we had millions of dollars and ropes of
diamonds. You wouldn't change into any of those women if you could. Would you want to be
that white-lace girl and wear a sour look all your life, as if you'd been born turning up
your nose at the world? Or the pink lady, kind and nice as she is, so stout and short that
you'd really no figure at all? Or even Mrs. Evans, with that sad, sad look in her eyes?
She must have been dreadfully unhappy sometime to have such a look. You KNOW you wouldn't,
Jane Andrews!"
- "I DON'T know--exactly," said Jane unconvinced. "I think
diamonds would comfort a person for a good deal."
- "Well, I don't want to be anyone but myself, even if I go
uncomforted by diamonds all my life," declared Anne. "I'm quite content to be
Anne of Green Gables, with my string of pearl beads. I know Matthew gave me as much love
with them as ever went with Madame the Pink Lady's jewels."
- CHAPTER XXXIV
- A Queen's Girl
- The next three weeks were busy ones at Green Gables, for Anne was
getting ready to go to Queen's, and there was much sewing to be done, and many things to
be talked over and arranged. Anne's outfit was ample and pretty, for Matthew saw to that,
and Marilla for once made no objections whatever to anything he purchased or suggested.
More-- one evening she went up to the east gable with her arms full of a delicate pale
green material.
- "Anne, here's something for a nice light dress for you. I don't
suppose you really need it; you've plenty of pretty waists; but I thought maybe you'd like
something real dressy to wear if you were asked out anywhere of an evening in town, to a
party or anything like that. I hear that Jane and Ruby and Josie have got `evening
dresses,' as they call them, and I don't mean you shall be behind them. I got Mrs. Allan
to help me pick it in town last week, and we'll get Emily Gillis to make it for you. Emily
has got taste, and her fits aren't to be equaled."
- "Oh, Marilla, it's just lovely," said Anne. "Thank you
so much. I don't believe you ought to be so kind to me--it's making it harder every day
for me to go away."
- The green dress was made up with as many tucks and frills and shirrings
as Emily's taste permitted. Anne put it on one evening for Matthew's and Marilla's
benefit, and recited "The Maiden's Vow" for them in the kitchen. As Marilla
watched the bright, animated face and graceful motions her thoughts went back to the
evening Anne had arrived at Green Gables, and memory recalled a vivid picture of the odd,
frightened child in her preposterous yellowish-brown wincey dress, the heartbreak looking
out of her tearful eyes. Something in the memory brought tears to Marilla's own eyes.
- "I declare, my recitation has made you cry, Marilla," said
Anne gaily stooping over Marilla's chair to drop a butterfly kiss on that lady's cheek.
"Now, I call that a positive triumph."
- "No, I wasn't crying over your piece," said Marilla, who
would have scorned to be betrayed into such weakness by any poetry stuff. "I just
couldn't help thinking of the little girl you used to be, Anne. And I was wishing you
could have stayed a little girl, even with all your queer ways. You've grown up now and
you're going away; and you look so tall and stylish and so--so--different altogether in
that dress--as if you didn't belong in Avonlea at all-- and I just got lonesome thinking
it all over."
- "Marilla!" Anne sat down on Marilla's gingham lap, took
Marilla's lined face between her hands, and looked gravely and tenderly into Marilla's
eyes. "I'm not a bit changed-- not really. I'm only just pruned down and branched
out. The real ME--back here--is just the same. It won't make a bit of difference where I
go or how much I change outwardly; at heart I shall always be your little Anne, who will
love you and Matthew and dear Green Gables more and better every day of her life."
- Anne laid her fresh young cheek against Marilla's faded one, and
reached out a hand to pat Matthew's shoulder. Marilla would have given much just then to
have possessed Anne's power of putting her feelings into words; but nature and habit had
willed it otherwise, and she could only put her arms close about her girl and hold her
tenderly to her heart, wishing that she need never let her go.
- Matthew, with a suspicious moisture in his eyes, got up and went
out-of-doors. Under the stars of the blue summer night he walked agitatedly across the
yard to the gate under the poplars.
- "Well now, I guess she ain't been much spoiled," he muttered,
proudly. "I guess my putting in my oar occasional never did much harm after all.
She's smart and pretty, and loving, too, which is better than all the rest. She's been a
blessing to us, and there never was a luckier mistake than what Mrs. Spencer made--if it
WAS luck. I don't believe it was any such thing. It was Providence, because the Almighty
saw we needed her, I reckon."
- The day finally came when Anne must go to town. She and Matthew drove
in one fine September morning, after a tearful parting with Diana and an untearful
practical one-- on Marilla's side at least--with Marilla. But when Anne had gone Diana
dried her tears and went to a beach picnic at White Sands with some of her Carmody
cousins, where she contrived to enjoy herself tolerably well; while Marilla plunged
fiercely into unnecessary work and kept at it all day long with the bitterest kind of
heartache--the ache that burns and gnaws and cannot wash itself away in ready tears. But
that night, when Marilla went to bed, acutely and miserably conscious that the little
gable room at the end of the hall was untenanted by any vivid young life and unstirred by
any soft breathing, she buried her face in her pillow, and wept for her girl in a passion
of sobs that appalled her when she grew calm enough to reflect how very wicked it must be
to take on so about a sinful fellow creature.
- Anne and the rest of the Avonlea scholars reached town just in time to
hurry off to the Academy. That first day passed pleasantly enough in a whirl of
excitement, meeting all the new students, learning to know the professors by sight and
being assorted and organized into classes. Anne intended taking up the Second Year work
being advised to do so by Miss Stacy; Gilbert Blythe elected to do the same. This meant
getting a First Class teacher's license in one year instead of two, if they were
successful; but it also meant much more and harder work. Jane, Ruby, Josie, Charlie, and
Moody Spurgeon, not being troubled with the stirrings of ambition, were content to take up
the Second Class work. Anne was conscious of a pang of loneliness when she found herself
in a room with fifty other students, not one of whom she knew, except the tall,
brown-haired boy across the room; and knowing him in the fashion she did, did not help her
much, as she reflected pessimistically. Yet she was undeniably glad that they were in the
same class; the old rivalry could still be carried on, and Anne would hardly have known
what to do if it had been lacking.
- "I wouldn't feel comfortable without it," she thought.
"Gilbert looks awfully determined. I suppose he's making up his mind, here and now,
to win the medal. What a splendid chin he has! I never noticed it before. I do wish Jane
and Ruby had gone in for First Class, too. I suppose I won't feel so much like a cat in a
strange garret when I get acquainted, though. I wonder which of the girls here are going
to be my friends. It's really an interesting speculation. Of course I promised Diana that
no Queen's girl, no matter how much I liked her, should ever be as dear to me as she is;
but I've lots of second-best affections to bestow. I like the look of that girl with the
brown eyes and the crimson waist. She looks vivid and red-rosy; there's that pale, fair
one gazing out of the window. She has lovely hair, and looks as if she knew a thing or two
about dreams. I'd like to know them both--know them well--well enough to walk with my arm
about their waists, and call them nicknames. But just now I don't know them and they don't
know me, and probably don't want to know me particularly. Oh, it's lonesome!"
- It was lonesomer still when Anne found herself alone in her hall
bedroom that night at twilight. She was not to board with the other girls, who all had
relatives in town to take pity on them. Miss Josephine Barry would have liked to board
her, but Beechwood was so far from the Academy that it was out of the question; so miss
Barry hunted up a boarding-house, assuring Matthew and Marilla that it was the very place
for Anne.
- "The lady who keeps it is a reduced gentlewoman," explained
Miss Barry. "Her husband was a British officer, and she is very careful what sort of
boarders she takes. Anne will not meet with any objectionable persons under her roof. The
table is good, and the house is near the Academy, in a quiet neighborhood."
- All this might be quite true, and indeed, proved to be so, but it did
not materially help Anne in the first agony of homesickness that seized upon her. She
looked dismally about her narrow little room, with its dull-papered, pictureless walls,
its small iron bedstead and empty book- case; and a horrible choke came into her throat as
she thought of her own white room at Green Gables, where she would have the pleasant
consciousness of a great green still outdoors, of sweet peas growing in the garden, and
moonlight falling on the orchard, of the brook below the slope and the spruce boughs
tossing in the night wind beyond it, of a vast starry sky, and the light from Diana's
window shining out through the gap in the trees. Here there was nothing of this; Anne knew
that outside of her window was a hard street, with a network of telephone wires shutting
out the sky, the tramp of alien feet, and a thousand lights gleaming on stranger faces.
She knew that she was going to cry, and fought against it.
- "I WON'T cry. It's silly--and weak--there's the third tear
splashing down by my nose. There are more coming! I must think of something funny to stop
them. But there's nothing funny except what is connected with Avonlea, and that only makes
things worse--four--five--I'm going home next Friday, but that seems a hundred years away.
Oh, Matthew is nearly home by now--and Marilla is at the gate, looking down the lane for
him--six--seven--eight-- oh, there's no use in counting them! They're coming in a flood
presently. I can't cheer up--I don't WANT to cheer up. It's nicer to be miserable!"
- The flood of tears would have come, no doubt, had not Josie Pye
appeared at that moment. In the joy of seeing a familiar face Anne forgot that there had
never been much love lost between her and Josie. As a part of Avonlea life even a Pye was
welcome.
- "I'm so glad you came up." Anne said sincerely.
- "You've been crying," remarked Josie, with aggravating pity.
"I suppose you're homesick--some people have so little self-control in that respect.
I've no intention of being homesick, I can tell you. Town's too jolly after that poky old
Avonlea. I wonder how I ever existed there so long. You shouldn't cry, Anne; it isn't
becoming, for your nose and eyes get red, and then you see ALL red. I'd a perfectly
scrumptious time in the Academy today. Our French professor is simply a duck. His
moustache would give you kerwollowps of the heart. Have you anything eatable around, Anne?
I'm literally starving. Ah, I guessed likely Marilla'd load you up with cake. That's why I
called round. Otherwise I'd have gone to the park to hear the band play with Frank
Stockley. He boards same place as I do, and he's a sport. He noticed you in class today,
and asked me who the red-headed girl was. I told him you were an orphan that the Cuthberts
had adopted, and nobody knew very much about what you'd been before that."
- Anne was wondering if, after all, solitude and tears were not more
satisfactory than Josie Pye's companionship when Jane and Ruby appeared, each with an inch
of Queen's color ribbon--purple and scarlet--pinned proudly to her coat. As Josie was not
"speaking" to Jane just then she had to subside into comparative harmlessness.
- "Well," said Jane with a sigh, "I feel as if I'd lived
many moons since the morning. I ought to be home studying my Virgil--that horrid old
professor gave us twenty lines to start in on tomorrow. But I simply couldn't settle down
to study tonight. Anne, methinks I see the traces of tears. If you've been crying DO own
up. It will restore my self-respect, for I was shedding tears freely before Ruby came
along. I don't mind being a goose so much if somebody else is goosey, too. Cake? You'll
give me a teeny piece, won't you? Thank you. It has the real Avonlea flavor."
- Ruby, perceiving the Queen's calendar lying on the table, wanted to
know if Anne meant to try for the gold medal.
- Anne blushed and admitted she was thinking of it.
- "Oh, that reminds me," said Josie, "Queen's is to get
one of the Avery scholarships after all. The word came today. Frank Stockley told me--his
uncle is one of the board of governors, you know. It will be announced in the Academy
tomorrow."
- An Avery scholarship! Anne felt her heart beat more quickly, and the
horizons of her ambition shifted and broadened as if by magic. Before Josie had told the
news Anne's highest pinnacle of aspiration had been a teacher's provincial license, First
Class, at the end of the year, and perhaps the medal! But now in one moment Anne saw
herself winning the Avery scholarship, taking an Arts course at Redmond College, and
graduating in a gown and mortar board, before the echo of Josie's words had died away. For
the Avery scholarship was in English, and Anne felt that here her foot was on native
heath.???
- A wealthy manufacturer of New Brunswick had died and left part of his
fortune to endow a large number of scholarships to be distributed among the various high
schools and academies of the Maritime Provinces, according to their respective standings.
There had been much doubt whether one would be allotted to Queen's, but the matter was
settled at last, and at the end of the year the graduate who made the highest mark in
English and English Literature would win the scholarship-- two hundred and fifty dollars a
year for four years at Redmond College. No wonder that Anne went to bed that night with
tingling cheeks!
- "I'll win that scholarship if hard work can do it," she
resolved. "Wouldn't Matthew be proud if I got to be a B.A.? Oh, it's delightful to
have ambitions. I'm so glad I have such a lot. And there never seems to be any end to
them-- that's the best of it. Just as soon as you attain to one ambition you see another
one glittering higher up still. It does make life so interesting."
- CHAPTER XXXV
- The Winter at Queen's
- Anne's homesickness wore off, greatly helped in the wearing by her
weekend visits home. As long as the open weather lasted the Avonlea students went out to
Carmody on the new branch railway every Friday night. Diana and several other Avonlea
young folks were generally on hand to meet them and they all walked over to Avonlea in a
merry party. Anne thought those Friday evening gypsyings over the autumnal hills in the
crisp golden air, with the homelights of Avonlea twinkling beyond, were the best and
dearest hours in the whole week.
- Gilbert Blythe nearly always walked with Ruby Gillis and carried her
satchel for her. Ruby was a very handsome young lady, now thinking herself quite as grown
up as she really was; she wore her skirts as long as her mother would let her and did her
hair up in town, though she had to take it down when she went home. She had large,
bright-blue eyes, a brilliant complexion, and a plump showy figure. She laughed a great
deal, was cheerful and good-tempered, and enjoyed the pleasant things of life frankly.
- "But I shouldn't think she was the sort of girl Gilbert would
like," whispered Jane to Anne. Anne did not think so either, but she would not have
said so for the Avery scholarship. She could not help thinking, too, that it would be very
pleasant to have such a friend as Gilbert to jest and chatter with and exchange ideas
about books and studies and ambitions. Gilbert had ambitions, she knew, and Ruby Gillis
did not seem the sort of person with whom such could be profitably discussed.
- There was no silly sentiment in Anne's ideas concerning Gilbert. Boys
were to her, when she thought about them at all, merely possible good comrades. If she and
Gilbert had been friends she would not have cared how many other friends he had nor with
whom he walked. She had a genius for friendship; girl friends she had in plenty; but she
had a vague consciousness that masculine friendship might also be a good thing to round
out one's conceptions of companionship and furnish broader standpoints of judgment and
comparison. Not that Anne could have put her feelings on the matter into just such clear
definition. But she thought that if Gilbert had ever walked home with her from the train,
over the crisp fields and along the ferny byways, they might have had many and merry and
interesting conversations about the new world that was opening around them and their hopes
and ambitions therein. Gilbert was a clever young fellow, with his own thoughts about
things and a determination to get the best out of life and put the best into it. Ruby
Gillis told Jane Andrews that she didn't understand half the things Gilbert Blythe said;
he talked just like Anne Shirley did when she had a thoughtful fit on and for her part she
didn't think it any fun to be bothering about books and that sort of thing when you didn't
have to. Frank Stockley had lots more dash and go, but then he wasn't half as good-looking
as Gilbert and she really couldn't decide which she liked best!
- In the Academy Anne gradually drew a little circle of friends about
her, thoughtful, imaginative, ambitious students like herself. With the
"rose-red" girl, Stella Maynard, and the "dream girl," Priscilla
Grant, she soon became intimate, finding the latter pale spiritual-looking maiden to be
full to the brim of mischief and pranks and fun, while the vivid, black-eyed Stella had a
heartful of wistful dreams and fancies, as aerial and rainbow-like as Anne's own.
- After the Christmas holidays the Avonlea students gave up going home on
Fridays and settled down to hard work. By this time all the Queen's scholars had
gravitated into their own places in the ranks and the various classes had assumed distinct
and settled shadings of individuality. Certain facts had become generally accepted. It was
admitted that the medal contestants had practically narrowed down to three--Gilbert
Blythe, Anne Shirley, and Lewis Wilson; the Avery scholarship was more doubtful, any one
of a certain six being a possible winner. The bronze medal for mathematics was considered
as good as won by a fat, funny little up-country boy with a bumpy forehead and a patched
coat.
- Ruby Gillis was the handsomest girl of the year at the Academy; in the
Second Year classes Stella Maynard carried off the palm for beauty, with small but
critical minority in favor of Anne Shirley. Ethel Marr was admitted by all competent
judges to have the most stylish modes of hair-dressing, and Jane Andrews--plain, plodding,
conscientious Jane--carried off the honors in the domestic science course. Even Josie Pye
attained a certain preeminence as the sharpest- tongued young lady in attendance at
Queen's. So it may be fairly stated that Miss Stacy's old pupil's held their own in the
wider arena of the academical course.
- Anne worked hard and steadily. Her rivalry with Gilbert was as intense
as it had ever been in Avonlea school, although it was not known in the class at large,
but somehow the bitterness had gone out of it. Anne no longer wished to win for the sake
of defeating Gilbert; rather, for the proud consciousness of a well-won victory over a
worthy foeman. It would be worth while to win, but she no longer thought life would be
insupportable if she did not.
- In spite of lessons the students found opportunities for pleasant
times. Anne spent many of her spare hours at Beechwood and generally ate her Sunday
dinners there and went to church with Miss Barry. The latter was, as she admitted, growing
old, but her black eyes were not dim nor the vigor of her tongue in the least abated. But
she never sharpened the latter on Anne, who continued to be a prime favorite with the
critical old lady.
- "That Anne-girl improves all the time," she said. "I get
tired of other girls--there is such a provoking and eternal sameness about them. Anne has
as many shades as a rainbow and every shade is the prettiest while it lasts. I don't know
that she is as amusing as she was when she was a child, but she makes me love her and I
like people who make me love them. It saves me so much trouble in making myself love
them."
- Then, almost before anybody realized it, spring had come; out in
Avonlea the Mayflowers were peeping pinkly out on the sere barrens where snow-wreaths
lingered; and the "mist of green" was on the woods and in the valleys. But in
Charlottetown harassed Queen's students thought and talked only of examinations.
- "It doesn't seem possible that the term is nearly over," said
Anne. "Why, last fall it seemed so long to look forward to--a whole winter of studies
and classes. And here we are, with the exams looming up next week. Girls, sometimes I feel
as if those exams meant everything, but when I look at the big buds swelling on those
chestnut trees and the misty blue air at the end of the streets they don't seem half so
important."
- Jane and Ruby and Josie, who had dropped in, did not take this view of
it. To them the coming examinations were constantly very important indeed--far more
important than chestnut buds or Maytime hazes. It was all very well for Anne, who was sure
of passing at least, to have her moments of belittling them, but when your whole future
depended on them--as the girls truly thought theirs did-- you could not regard them
philosophically.
- "I've lost seven pounds in the last two weeks," sighed Jane.
"It's no use to say don't worry. I WILL worry. Worrying helps you some--it seems as
if you were doing something when you're worrying. It would be dreadful if I failed to get
my license after going to Queen's all winter and spending so much money."
- "_I_ don't care," said Josie Pye. "If I don't pass this
year I'm coming back next. My father can afford to send me. Anne, Frank Stockley says that
Professor Tremaine said Gilbert Blythe was sure to get the medal and that Emily Clay would
likely win the Avery scholarship."
- "That may make me feel badly tomorrow, Josie," laughed Anne,
"but just now I honestly feel that as long as I know the violets are coming out all
purple down in the hollow below Green Gables and that little ferns are poking their heads
up in Lovers' Lane, it's not a great deal of difference whether I win the Avery or not.
I've done my best and I begin to understand what is meant by the `joy of the strife.' Next
to trying and winning, the best thing is trying and failing. Girls, don't talk about
exams! Look at that arch of pale green sky over those houses and picture to yourself what
it must look like over the purply-dark beech-woods back of Avonlea."
- "What are you going to wear for commencement, Jane?" asked
Ruby practically.
- Jane and Josie both answered at once and the chatter drifted into a
side eddy of fashions. But Anne, with her elbows on the window sill, her soft cheek laid
against her clasped hands, and her eyes filled with visions, looked out unheedingly across
city roof and spire to that glorious dome of sunset sky and wove her dreams of a possible
future from the golden tissue of youth's own optimism. All the Beyond was hers with its
possibilities lurking rosily in the oncoming years--each year a rose of promise to be
woven into an immortal chaplet.
- CHAPTER XXXVI
- The Glory and the Dream
- On the morning when the final results of all the examina- tions were to
be posted on the bulletin board at Queen's, Anne and Jane walked down the street together.
Jane was smiling and happy; examinations were over and she was comfortably sure she had
made a pass at least; further considerations troubled Jane not at all; she had no soaring
ambitions and consequently was not affected with the unrest attendant thereon. For we pay
a price for everything we get or take in this world; and although ambitions are well worth
having, they are not to be cheaply won, but exact their dues of work and self-denial,
anxiety and discouragement. Anne was pale and quiet; in ten more minutes she would know
who had won the medal and who the Avery. Beyond those ten minutes there did not seem, just
then, to be anything worth being called Time.
- "Of course you'll win one of them anyhow," said Jane, who
couldn't understand how the faculty could be so unfair as to order it otherwise.
- "I have not hope of the Avery," said Anne. "Everybody
says Emily Clay will win it. And I'm not going to march up to that bulletin board and look
at it before everybody. I haven't the moral courage. I'm going straight to the girls'
dressing room. You must read the announcements and then come and tell me, Jane. And I
implore you in the name of our old friendship to do it as quickly as possible. If I have
failed just say so, without trying to break it gently; and whatever you do DON'T
sympathize with me. Promise me this, Jane."
- Jane promised solemnly; but, as it happened, there was no necessity for
such a promise. When they went up the entrance steps of Queen's they found the hall full
of boys who were carrying Gilbert Blythe around on their shoulders and yelling at the tops
of their voices, "Hurrah for Blythe, Medalist!"
- For a moment Anne felt one sickening pang of defeat and disappointment.
So she had failed and Gilbert had won! Well, Matthew would be sorry--he had been so sure
she would win.
- And then!
- Somebody called out:
- "Three cheers for Miss Shirley, winner of the Avery!"
- "Oh, Anne," gasped Jane, as they fled to the girls' dressing
room amid hearty cheers. "Oh, Anne I'm so proud! Isn't it splendid?"
- And then the girls were around them and Anne was the center of a
laughing, congratulating group. Her shoulders were thumped and her hands shaken
vigorously. She was pushed and pulled and hugged and among it all she managed to whisper
to Jane:
- "Oh, won't Matthew and Marilla be pleased! I must write the news
home right away."
- Commencement was the next important happening. The exercises were held
in the big assembly hall of the Academy. Addresses were given, essays read, songs sung,
the public award of diplomas, prizes and medals made.
- Matthew and Marilla were there, with eyes and ears for only one student
on the platform--a tall girl in pale green, with faintly flushed cheeks and starry eyes,
who read the best essay and was pointed out and whispered about as the Avery winner.
- "Reckon you're glad we kept her, Marilla?" whispered Matthew,
speaking for the first time since he had entered the hall, when Anne had finished her
essay.
- "It's not the first time I've been glad," retorted Marilla.
"You do like to rub things in, Matthew Cuthbert."
- Miss Barry, who was sitting behind them, leaned forward and poked
Marilla in the back with her parasol.
- "Aren't you proud of that Anne-girl? I am," she said.
- Anne went home to Avonlea with Matthew and Marilla that evening. She
had not been home since April and she felt that she could not wait another day. The apple
blossoms were out and the world was fresh and young. Diana was at Green Gables to meet
her. In her own white room, where Marilla had set a flowering house rose on the window
sill, Anne looked about her and drew a long breath of happiness.
- "Oh, Diana, it's so good to be back again. It's so good to see
those pointed firs coming out against the pink sky-- and that white orchard and the old
Snow Queen. Isn't the breath of the mint delicious? And that tea rose--why, it's a song
and a hope and a prayer all in one. And it's GOOD to see you again, Diana!"
- "I thought you like that Stella Maynard better than me," said
Diana reproachfully. "Josie Pye told me you did. Josie said you were INFATUATED with
her."
- Anne laughed and pelted Diana with the faded "June lilies" of
her bouquet.
- "Stella Maynard is the dearest girl in the world except one and
you are that one, Diana," she said. "I love you more than ever--and I've so many
things to tell you. But just now I feel as if it were joy enough to sit here and look at
you. I'm tired, I think--tired of being studious and ambitious. I mean to spend at least
two hours tomorrow lying out in the orchard grass, thinking of absolutely nothing."
- "You've done splendidly, Anne. I suppose you won't be teaching now
that you've won the Avery?"
- "No. I'm going to Redmond in September. Doesn't it seem wonderful?
I'll have a brand new stock of ambition laid in by that time after three glorious, golden
months of vacation. Jane and Ruby are going to teach. Isn't it splendid to think we all
got through even to Moody Spurgeon and Josie Pye?"
- "The Newbridge trustees have offered Jane their school
already," said Diana. "Gilbert Blythe is going to teach, too. He has to. His
father can't afford to send him to college next year, after all, so he means to earn his
own way through. I expect he'll get the school here if Miss Ames decides to leave."
- Anne felt a queer little sensation of dismayed surprise. She had not
known this; she had expected that Gilbert would be going to Redmond also. What would she
do without their inspiring rivalry? Would not work, even at a coeducational college with a
real degree in prospect, be rather flat without her friend the enemy?
- The next morning at breakfast it suddenly struck Anne that Matthew was
not looking well. Surely he was much grayer than he had been a year before.
- "Marilla," she said hesitatingly when he had gone out,
"is Matthew quite well?"
- "No, he isn't," said Marilla in a troubled tone. "He's
had some real bad spells with his heart this spring and he won't spare himself a mite.
I've been real worried about him, but he's some better this while back and we've got a
good hired man, so I'm hoping he'll kind of rest and pick up. Maybe he will now you're
home. You always cheer him up."
- Anne leaned across the table and took Marilla's face in her hands.
- "You are not looking as well yourself as I'd like to see you,
Marilla. You look tired. I'm afraid you've been working too hard. You must take a rest,
now that I'm home. I'm just going to take this one day off to visit all the dear old spots
and hunt up my old dreams, and then it will be your turn to be lazy while I do the
work."
- Marilla smiled affectionately at her girl.
- "It's not the work--it's my head. I've got a pain so often
now--behind my eyes. Doctor Spencer's been fussing with glasses, but they don't do me any
good. There is a distin- guished oculist coming to the Island the last of June and the
doctor says I must see him. I guess I'll have to. I can't read or sew with any comfort
now. Well, Anne, you've done real well at Queen's I must say. To take First Class License
in one year and win the Avery scholarship--well, well, Mrs. Lynde says pride goes before a
fall and she doesn't believe in the higher education of women at all; she says it unfits
them for woman's true sphere. I don't believe a word of it. speaking of Rachel reminds
me--did you hear anything about the Abbey Bank lately, Anne?"
- "I heard it was shaky," answered Anne. "Why?"
- "That is what Rachel said. She was up here one day last week and
said there was some talk about it. Matthew felt real worried. All we have saved is in that
bank--every penny. I wanted Matthew to put it in the Savings Bank in the first place, but
old Mr. Abbey was a great friend of father's and he'd always banked with him. Matthew said
any bank with him at the head of it was good enough for anybody."
- "I think he has only been its nominal head for many years,"
said Anne. "He is a very old man; his nephews are really at the head of the
institution."
- "Well, when Rachel told us that, I wanted Matthew to draw our
money right out and he said he'd think of it. But Mr. Russell told him yesterday that the
bank was all right."
- Anne had her good day in the companionship of the outdoor world. She
never forgot that day; it was so bright and golden and fair, so free from shadow and so
lavish of blossom. Anne spent some of its rich hours in the orchard; she went to the
Dryad's Bubble and Willowmere and Violet Vale; she called at the manse and had a
satisfying talk with Mrs. Allan; and finally in the evening she went with Matthew for the
cows, through Lovers' Lane to the back pasture. The woods were all gloried through with
sunset and the warm splendor of it streamed down through the hill gaps in the west.
Matthew walked slowly with bent head; Anne, tall and erect, suited her springing step to
his.
- "You've been working too hard today, Matthew," she said
reproachfully. "Why won't you take things easier?"
- "Well now, I can't seem to," said Matthew, as he opened the
yard gate to let the cows through. "It's only that I'm getting old, Anne, and keep
forgetting it. Well, well, I've always worked pretty hard and I'd rather drop in
harness."
- "If I had been the boy you sent for," said Anne wistfully,
"I'd be able to help you so much now and spare you in a hundred ways. I could find it
in my heart to wish I had been, just for that."
- "Well now, I'd rather have you than a dozen boys, Anne," said
Matthew patting her hand. "Just mind you that-- rather than a dozen boys. Well now, I
guess it wasn't a boy that took the Avery scholarship, was it? It was a girl--my girl--my
girl that I'm proud of."
- He smiled his shy smile at her as he went into the yard. Anne took the
memory of it with her when she went to her room that night and sat for a long while at her
open window, thinking of the past and dreaming of the future. Outside the Snow Queen was
mistily white in the moonshine; the frogs were singing in the marsh beyond Orchard Slope.
Anne always remembered the silvery, peaceful beauty and fragrant calm of that night. It
was the last night before sorrow touched her life; and no life is ever quite the same
again when once that cold, sanctifying touch has been laid upon it.
- CHAPTER XXXVII
- The Reaper Whose Name Is Death
- "Matthew--Matthew--what is the matter? Matthew, are you
sick?"
- It was Marilla who spoke, alarm in every jerky word. Anne came through
the hall, her hands full of white narcissus,--it was long before Anne could love the sight
or odor of white narcissus again,--in time to hear her and to see Matthew standing in the
porch doorway, a folded paper in his hand, and his face strangely drawn and gray. Anne
dropped her flowers and sprang across the kitchen to him at the same moment as Marilla.
They were both too late; before they could reach him Matthew had fallen across the
threshold.
- "He's fainted," gasped Marilla. "Anne, run for Martin--
quick, quick! He's at the barn."
- Martin, the hired man, who had just driven home from the post office,
started at once for the doctor, calling at Orchard Slope on his way to send Mr. and Mrs.
Barry over. Mrs. Lynde, who was there on an errand, came too. They found Anne and Marilla
distractedly trying to restore Matthew to consciousness.
- Mrs. Lynde pushed them gently aside, tried his pulse, and then laid her
ear over his heart. She looked at their anxious faces sorrowfully and the tears came into
her eyes.
- "Oh, Marilla," she said gravely. "I don't think--we can
do anything for him."
- "Mrs. Lynde, you don't think--you can't think Matthew is--
is--" Anne could not say the dreadful word; she turned sick and pallid.
- "Child, yes, I'm afraid of it. Look at his face. When you've seen
that look as often as I have you'll know what it means."
- Anne looked at the still face and there beheld the seal of the Great
Presence.
- When the doctor came he said that death had been instantaneous and
probably painless, caused in all likelihood by some sudden shock. The secret of the shock
was discovered to be in the paper Matthew had held and which Martin had brought from the
office that morning. It contained an account of the failure of the Abbey Bank.
- The news spread quickly through Avonlea, and all day friends and
neighbors thronged Green Gables and came and went on errands of kindness for the dead and
living. For the first time shy, quiet Matthew Cuthbert was a person of central importance;
the white majesty of death had fallen on him and set him apart as one crowned.
- When the calm night came softly down over Green Gables the old house
was hushed and tranquil. In the parlor lay Matthew Cuthbert in his coffin, his long gray
hair framing his placid face on which there was a little kindly smile as if he but slept,
dreaming pleasant dreams. There were flowers about him--sweet old-fashioned flowers which
his mother had planted in the homestead garden in her bridal days and for which Matthew
had always had a secret, wordless love. Anne had gathered them and brought them to him,
her anguished, tearless eyes burning in her white face. It was the last thing she could do
for him.
- The Barrys and Mrs. Lynde stayed with them that night. Diana, going to
the east gable, where Anne was standing at her window, said gently:
- "Anne dear, would you like to have me sleep with you
tonight?"
- "Thank you, Diana." Anne looked earnestly into her friend's
face. "I think you won't misunderstand me when I say I want to be alone. I'm not
afraid. I haven't been alone one minute since it happened-- and I want to be. I want to be
quite silent and quiet and try to realize it. I can't realize it. Half the time it seems
to me that Matthew can't be dead; and the other half it seems as if he must have been dead
for a long time and I've had this horrible dull ache ever since."
- Diana did not quite understand. Marilla's impassioned grief, breaking
all the bounds of natural reserve and lifelong habit in its stormy rush, she could
comprehend better than Anne's tearless agony. But she went away kindly, leaving Anne alone
to keep her first vigil with sorrow.
- Anne hoped that the tears would come in solitude. It seemed to her a
terrible thing that she could not shed a tear for Matthew, whom she had loved so much and
who had been so kind to her, Matthew who had walked with her last evening at sunset and
was now lying in the dim room below with that awful peace on his brow. But no tears came
at first, even when she knelt by her window in the darkness and prayed, looking up to the
stars beyond the hills--no tears, only the same horrible dull ache of misery that kept on
aching until she fell asleep, worn out with the day's pain and excitement.
- In the night she awakened, with the stillness and the darkness about
her, and the recollection of the day came over her like a wave of sorrow. She could see
Matthew's face smiling at her as he had smiled when they parted at the gate that last
evening--she could hear his voice saying, "My girl--my girl that I'm proud of."
Then the tears came and Anne wept her heart out. Marilla heard her and crept in to comfort
her.
- "There--there--don't cry so, dearie. It can't bring him back.
It--it--isn't right to cry so. I knew that today, but I couldn't help it then. He'd always
been such a good, kind brother to me--but God knows best."
- "Oh, just let me cry, Marilla," sobbed Anne. "The tears
don't hurt me like that ache did. Stay here for a little while with me and keep your arm
round me--so. I couldn't have Diana stay, she's good and kind and sweet--but it's not her
sorrow--she's outside of it and she couldn't come close enough to my heart to help me.
It's our sorrow-- yours and mine. Oh, Marilla, what will we do without him?"
- "We've got each other, Anne. I don't know what I'd do if you
weren't here--if you'd never come. Oh, Anne, I know I've been kind of strict and harsh
with you maybe-- but you mustn't think I didn't love you as well as Matthew did, for all
that. I want to tell you now when I can. It's never been easy for me to say things out of
my heart, but at times like this it's easier. I love you as dear as if you were my own
flesh and blood and you've been my joy and comfort ever since you came to Green
Gables."
- Two days afterwards they carried Matthew Cuthbert over his homestead
threshold and away from the fields he had tilled and the orchards he had loved and the
trees he had planted; and then Avonlea settled back to its usual placidity and even at
Green Gables affairs slipped into their old groove and work was done and duties fulfilled
with regularity as before, although always with the aching sense of "loss in all
familiar things." Anne, new to grief, thought it almost sad that it could be so--that
they COULD go on in the old way without Matthew. She felt something like shame and remorse
when she discovered that the sunrises behind the firs and the pale pink buds opening in
the garden gave her the old inrush of gladness when she saw them--that Diana's visits were
pleasant to her and that Diana's merry words and ways moved her to laughter and
smiles--that, in brief, the beautiful world of blossom and love and friendship had lost
none of its power to please her fancy and thrill her heart, that life still called to her
with many insistent voices.
- "It seems like disloyalty to Matthew, somehow, to find pleasure in
these things now that he has gone," she said wistfully to Mrs. Allan one evening when
they were together in the manse garden. "I miss him so much--all the time-- and yet,
Mrs. Allan, the world and life seem very beautiful and interesting to me for all. Today
Diana said something funny and I found myself laughing. I thought when it happened I could
never laugh again. And it somehow seems as if I oughtn't to."
- "When Matthew was here he liked to hear you laugh and he liked to
know that you found pleasure in the pleasant things around you," said Mrs. Allan
gently. "He is just away now; and he likes to know it just the same. I am sure we
should not shut our hearts against the healing influences that nature offers us. But I can
understand your feeling. I think we all experience the same thing. We resent the thought
that anything can please us when someone we love is no longer here to share the pleasure
with us, and we almost feel as if we were unfaithful to our sorrow when we find our
interest in life returning to us."
- "I was down to the graveyard to plant a rosebush on Matthew's
grave this afternoon," said Anne dreamily. "I took a slip of the little white
Scotch rosebush his mother brought out from Scotland long ago; Matthew always liked those
roses the best--they were so small and sweet on their thorny stems. It made me feel glad
that I could plant it by his grave--as if I were doing something that must please him in
taking it there to be near him. I hope he has roses like them in heaven. Perhaps the souls
of all those little white roses that he has loved so many summers were all there to meet
him. I must go home now. Marilla is all alone and she gets lonely at twilight."
- "She will be lonelier still, I fear, when you go away again to
college," said Mrs. Allan.
- Anne did not reply; she said good night and went slowly back to green
Gables. Marilla was sitting on the front door-steps and Anne sat down beside her. The door
was open behind them, held back by a big pink conch shell with hints of sea sunsets in its
smooth inner convolutions.
- Anne gathered some sprays of pale-yellow honeysuckle and put them in
her hair. She liked the delicious hint of fragrance, as some aerial benediction, above her
every time she moved.
- "Doctor Spencer was here while you were away," Marilla said.
"He says that the specialist will be in town tomorrow and he insists that I must go
in and have my eyes examined. I suppose I'd better go and have it over. I'll be more than
thankful if the man can give me the right kind of glasses to suit my eyes. You won't mind
staying here alone while I'm away, will you? Martin will have to drive me in and there's
ironing and baking to do."
- "I shall be all right. Diana will come over for company for me. I
shall attend to the ironing and baking beautifully-- you needn't fear that I'll starch the
handkerchiefs or flavor the cake with liniment."
- Marilla laughed.
- "What a girl you were for making mistakes in them days, Anne. You
were always getting into scrapes. I did use to think you were possessed. Do you mind the
time you dyed your hair?"
- "Yes, indeed. I shall never forget it," smiled Anne, touching
the heavy braid of hair that was wound about her shapely head. "I laugh a little now
sometimes when I think what a worry my hair used to be to me--but I don't laugh MUCH,
because it was a very real trouble then. I did suffer terribly over my hair and my
freckles. My freckles are really gone; and people are nice enough to tell me my hair is
auburn now--all but Josie Pye. She informed me yesterday that she really thought it was
redder than ever, or at least my black dress made it look redder, and she asked me if
people who had red hair ever got used to having it. Marilla, I've almost decided to give
up trying to like Josie Pye. I've made what I would once have called a heroic effort to
like her, but Josie Pye won't BE liked."
- "Josie is a Pye," said Marilla sharply, "so she can't
help being disagreeable. I suppose people of that kind serve some useful purpose in
society, but I must say I don't know what it is any more than I know the use of thistles.
Is Josie going to teach?"
- "No, she is going back to Queen's next year. So are Moody Spurgeon
and Charlie Sloane. Jane and Ruby are going to teach and they have both got schools--Jane
at Newbridge and Ruby at some place up west."
- "Gilbert Blythe is going to teach too, isn't he?"
- "Yes"--briefly.
- "What a nice-looking fellow he is," said Marilla absently.
"I saw him in church last Sunday and he seemed so tall and manly. He looks a lot like
his father did at the same age. John Blythe was a nice boy. We used to be real good
friends, he and I. People called him my beau."
- Anne looked up with swift interest.
- "Oh, Marilla--and what happened?--why didn't you--"
- "We had a quarrel. I wouldn't forgive him when he asked me to. I
meant to, after awhile--but I was sulky and angry and I wanted to punish him first. He
never came back--the Blythes were all mighty independent. But I always felt--rather sorry.
I've always kind of wished I'd forgiven him when I had the chance."
- "So you've had a bit of romance in your life, too," said Anne
softly.
- "Yes, I suppose you might call it that. You wouldn't think so to
look at me, would you? But you never can tell about people from their outsides. Everybody
has forgot about me and John. I'd forgotten myself. But it all came back to me when I saw
Gilbert last Sunday."
- CHAPTER XXXVIII
- The Bend in the road
- Marilla went to town the next day and returned in the evening. Anne had
gone over to Orchard Slope with Diana and came back to find Marilla in the kitchen,
sitting by the table with her head leaning on her hand. Something in her dejected attitude
struck a chill to Anne's heart. She had never seen Marilla sit limply inert like that.
- "Are you very tired, Marilla?"
- "Yes--no--I don't know," said Marilla wearily, looking up.
"I suppose I am tired but I haven't thought about it. It's not that."
- "Did you see the oculist? What did he say?" asked Anne
anxiously.
- "Yes, I saw him. He examined my eyes. He says that if I give up
all reading and sewing entirely and any kind of work that strains the eyes, and if I'm
careful not to cry, and if I wear the glasses he's given me he thinks my eyes may not get
any worse and my headaches will be cured. But if I don't he says I'll certainly be
stone-blind in six months. Blind! Anne, just think of it!"
- For a minute Anne, after her first quick exclamation of dismay, was
silent. It seemed to her that she could NOT speak. Then she said bravely, but with a catch
in her voice:
- "Marilla, DON'T think of it. You know he has given you hope. If
you are careful you won't lose your sight altogether; and if his glasses cure your
headaches it will be a great thing."
- "I don't call it much hope," said Marilla bitterly.
"What am I to live for if I can't read or sew or do anything like that? I might as
well be blind--or dead. And as for crying, I can't help that when I get lonesome. But
there, it's no good talking about it. If you'll get me a cup of tea I'll be thankful. I'm
about done out. Don't say anything about this to any one for a spell yet, anyway. I can't
bear that folks should come here to question and sympathize and talk about it."
- When Marilla had eaten her lunch Anne persuaded her to go to bed. Then
Anne went herself to the east gable and sat down by her window in the darkness alone with
her tears and her heaviness of heart. How sadly things had changed since she had sat there
the night after coming home! Then she had been full of hope and joy and the future had
looked rosy with promise. Anne felt as if she had lived years since then, but before she
went to bed there was a smile on her lips and peace in her heart. She had looked her duty
courageously in the face and found it a friend--as duty ever is when we meet it frankly.
- One afternoon a few days later Marilla came slowly in from the front
yard where she had been talking to a caller-- a man whom Anne knew by sight as Sadler from
Carmody. Anne wondered what he could have been saying to bring that look to Marilla's
face.
- "What did Mr. Sadler want, Marilla?"
- Marilla sat down by the window and looked at Anne. There were tears in
her eyes in defiance of the oculist's prohibition and her voice broke as she said:
- "He heard that I was going to sell Green Gables and he wants to
buy it."
- "Buy it! Buy Green Gables?" Anne wondered if she had heard
aright. "Oh, Marilla, you don't mean to sell Green Gables!"
- "Anne, I don't know what else is to be done. I've thought it all
over. If my eyes were strong I could stay here and make out to look after things and
manage, with a good hired man. But as it is I can't. I may lose my sight altogether; and
anyway I'll not be fit to run things. Oh, I never thought I'd live to see the day when I'd
have to sell my home. But things would only go behind worse and worse all the time, till
nobody would want to buy it. Every cent of our money went in that bank; and there's some
notes Matthew gave last fall to pay. Mrs. Lynde advises me to sell the farm and board
somewhere--with her I suppose. It won't bring much--it's small and the buildings are old.
But it'll be enough for me to live on I reckon. I'm thankful you're provided for with that
scholarship, Anne. I'm sorry you won't have a home to come to in your vacations, that's
all, but I suppose you'll manage somehow."
- Marilla broke down and wept bitterly.
- "You mustn't sell Green Gables," said Anne resolutely.
- "Oh, Anne, I wish I didn't have to. But you can see for yourself.
I can't stay here alone. I'd go crazy with trouble and loneliness. And my sight would
go--I know it would."
- "You won't have to stay here alone, Marilla. I'll be with you. I'm
not going to Redmond."
- "Not going to Redmond!" Marilla lifted her worn face from her
hands and looked at Anne. "Why, what do you mean?"
- "Just what I say. I'm not going to take the scholarship. I decided
so the night after you came home from town. You surely don't think I could leave you alone
in your trouble, Marilla, after all you've done for me. I've been thinking and planning.
Let me tell you my plans. Mr. Barry wants to rent the farm for next year. So you won't
have any bother over that. And I'm going to teach. I've applied for the school here--but I
don't expect to get it for I understand the trustees have promised it to Gilbert Blythe.
But I can have the Carmody school--Mr. Blair told me so last night at the store. Of course
that won't be quite as nice or convenient as if I had the Avonlea school. But I can board
home and drive myself over to Carmody and back, in the warm weather at least. And even in
winter I can come home Fridays. We'll keep a horse for that. Oh, I have it all planned
out, Marilla. And I'll read to you and keep you cheered up. You sha'n't be dull or
lonesome. And we'll be real cozy and happy here together, you and I."
- Marilla had listened like a woman in a dream.
- "Oh, Anne, I could get on real well if you were here, I know. But
I can't let you sacrifice yourself so for me. It would be terrible."
- "Nonsense!" Anne laughed merrily. "There is no
sacrifice. Nothing could be worse than giving up Green Gables--nothing could hurt me more.
We must keep the dear old place. My mind is quite made up, Marilla. I'm NOT going to
Redmond; and I AM going to stay here and teach. Don't you worry about me a bit."
- "But your ambitions--and--"
- "I'm just as ambitious as ever. Only, I've changed the object of
my ambitions. I'm going to be a good teacher-- and I'm going to save your eyesight.
Besides, I mean to study at home here and take a little college course all by myself. Oh,
I've dozens of plans, Marilla. I've been thinking them out for a week. I shall give life
here my best, and I believe it will give its best to me in return. When I left Queen's my
future seemed to stretch out before me like a straight road. I thought I could see along
it for many a milestone. Now there is a bend in it. I don't know what lies around the
bend, but I'm going to believe that the best does. It has a fascination of its own, that
bend, Marilla. I wonder how the road beyond it goes--what there is of green glory and
soft, checkered light and shadows--what new landscapes--what new beauties--what curves and
hills and valleys further on."
- "I don't feel as if I ought to let you give it up," said
Marilla, referring to the scholarship.
- "But you can't prevent me. I'm sixteen and a half, `obstinate as a
mule,' as Mrs. Lynde once told me," laughed Anne. "Oh, Marilla, don't you go
pitying me. I don't like to be pitied, and there is no need for it. I'm heart glad over
the very thought of staying at dear Green Gables. Nobody could love it as you and I do--so
we must keep it."
- "You blessed girl!" said Marilla, yielding. "I feel as
if you'd given me new life. I guess I ought to stick out and make you go to college--but I
know I can't, so I ain't going to try. I'll make it up to you though, Anne."
- When it became noised abroad in Avonlea that Anne Shirley had given up
the idea of going to college and intended to stay home and teach there was a good deal of
discussion over it. Most of the good folks, not knowing about Marilla's eyes, thought she
was foolish. Mrs. Allan did not. She told Anne so in approving words that brought tears of
pleasure to the girl's eyes. Neither did good Mrs. Lynde. She came up one evening and
found Anne and Marilla sitting at the front door in the warm, scented summer dusk. They
liked to sit there when the twilight came down and the white moths flew about in the
garden and the odor of mint filled the dewy air.
- Mrs. Rachel deposited her substantial person upon the stone bench by
the door, behind which grew a row of tall pink and yellow hollyhocks, with a long breath
of mingled weariness and relief.
- "I declare I'm getting glad to sit down. I've been on my feet all
day, and two hundred pounds is a good bit for two feet to carry round. It's a great
blessing not to be fat, Marilla. I hope you appreciate it. Well, Anne, I hear you've given
up your notion of going to college. I was real glad to hear it. You've got as much
education now as a woman can be comfortable with. I don't believe in girls going to
college with the men and cramming their heads full of Latin and Greek and all that
nonsense."
- "But I'm going to study Latin and Greek just the same, Mrs.
Lynde," said Anne laughing. "I'm going to take my Arts course right here at
Green Gables, and study everything that I would at college."
- Mrs. Lynde lifted her hands in holy horror.
- "Anne Shirley, you'll kill yourself."
- "Not a bit of it. I shall thrive on it. Oh, I'm not going to
overdo things. As `Josiah Allen's wife,' says, I shall be `mejum'. But I'll have lots of
spare time in the long winter evenings, and I've no vocation for fancy work. I'm going to
teach over at Carmody, you know."
- "I don't know it. I guess you're going to teach right here in
Avonlea. The trustees have decided to give you the school."
- "Mrs. Lynde!" cried Anne, springing to her feet in her
surprise. "Why, I thought they had promised it to Gilbert Blythe!"
- "So they did. But as soon as Gilbert heard that you had applied
for it he went to them--they had a business meeting at the school last night, you
know--and told them that he withdrew his application, and suggested that they accept
yours. He said he was going to teach at White Sands. Of course he knew how much you wanted
to stay with Marilla, and I must say I think it was real kind and thoughtful in him,
that's what. Real self-sacrificing, too, for he'll have his board to pay at White Sands,
and everybody knows he's got to earn his own way through college. So the trustees decided
to take you. I was tickled to death when Thomas came home and told me."
- "I don't feel that I ought to take it," murmured Anne.
"I mean--I don't think I ought to let Gilbert make such a sacrifice for--for
me."
- "I guess you can't prevent him now. He's signed papers with the
White Sands trustees. So it wouldn't do him any good now if you were to refuse. Of course
you'll take the school. You'll get along all right, now that there are no Pyes going.
Josie was the last of them, and a good thing she was, that's what. There's been some Pye
or other going to Avonlea school for the last twenty years, and I guess their mission in
life was to keep school teachers reminded that earth isn't their home. Bless my heart!
What does all that winking and blinking at the Barry gable mean?"
- "Diana is signaling for me to go over," laughed Anne.
"You know we keep up the old custom. Excuse me while I run over and see what she
wants."
- Anne ran down the clover slope like a deer, and disappeared in the
firry shadows of the Haunted Wood. Mrs. Lynde looked after her indulgently.
- "There's a good deal of the child about her yet in some
ways."
- "There's a good deal more of the woman about her in others,"
retorted Marilla, with a momentary return of her old crispness.
- But crispness was no longer Marilla's distinguishing characteristic. As
Mrs. Lynde told her Thomas that night.
- "Marilla Cuthbert has got MELLOW. That's what."
- Anne went to the little Avonlea graveyard the next evening to put fresh
flowers on Matthew's grave and water the Scotch rosebush. She lingered there until dusk,
liking the peace and calm of the little place, with its poplars whose rustle was like low,
friendly speech, and its whispering grasses growing at will among the graves. When she
finally left it and walked down the long hill that sloped to the Lake of Shining Waters it
was past sunset and all Avonlea lay before her in a dreamlike afterlight-- "a haunt
of ancient peace." There was a freshness in the air as of a wind that had blown over
honey-sweet fields of clover. Home lights twinkled out here and there among the homestead
trees. Beyond lay the sea, misty and purple, with its haunting, unceasing murmur. The west
was a glory of soft mingled hues, and the pond reflected them all in still softer
shadings. The beauty of it all thrilled Anne's heart, and she gratefully opened the gates
of her soul to it.
- "Dear old world," she murmured, "you are very lovely,
and I am glad to be alive in you."
- Halfway down the hill a tall lad came whistling out of a gate before
the Blythe homestead. It was Gilbert, and the whistle died on his lips as he recognized
Anne. He lifted his cap courteously, but he would have passed on in silence, if Anne had
not stopped and held out her hand.
- "Gilbert," she said, with scarlet cheeks, "I want to
thank you for giving up the school for me. It was very good of you--and I want you to know
that I appreciate it."
- Gilbert took the offered hand eagerly.
- "It wasn't particularly good of me at all, Anne. I was pleased to
be able to do you some small service. Are we going to be friends after this? Have you
really forgiven me my old fault?"
- Anne laughed and tried unsuccessfully to withdraw her hand.
- "I forgave you that day by the pond landing, although I didn't
know it. What a stubborn little goose I was. I've been--I may as well make a complete
confession--I've been sorry ever since."
- "We are going to be the best of friends," said Gilbert,
jubilantly. "We were born to be good friends, Anne. You've thwarted destiny enough. I
know we can help each other in many ways. You are going to keep up your studies, aren't
you? So am I. Come, I'm going to walk home with you."
- Marilla looked curiously at Anne when the latter entered the kitchen.
- "Who was that came up the lane with you, Anne?"
- "Gilbert Blythe," answered Anne, vexed to find herself
blushing. "I met him on Barry's hill."
- "I didn't think you and Gilbert Blythe were such good friends that
you'd stand for half an hour at the gate talking to him," said Marilla with a dry
smile.
- "We haven't been--we've been good enemies. But we have decided
that it will be much more sensible to be good friends in the future. Were we really there
half an hour? It seemed just a few minutes. But, you see, we have five years' lost
conversations to catch up with, Marilla."
- Anne sat long at her window that night companioned by a glad content.
The wind purred softly in the cherry boughs, and the mint breaths came up to her. The
stars twinkled over the pointed firs in the hollow and Diana's light gleamed through the
old gap.
- Anne's horizons had closed in since the night she had sat there after
coming home from Queen's; but if the path set before her feet was to be narrow she knew
that flowers of quiet happiness would bloom along it. The joy of sincere work and worthy
aspiration and congenial friendship were to be hers; nothing could rob her of her
birthright of fancy or her ideal world of dreams. And there was always the bend in the
road!
"`God's in his heaven, all's
right with the world,'" whispered Anne softly. *** End of Anne of Green Gables
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