| September 2 Jon and I have been together now for almost 7 months. For me, thats a long time. We have our fights, we have our screaming matches, but we always end up hugging each other in the end. I really love him and can't... not can't... won't see my self without him. |
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| Morgan is moving to New York. I have so many conflicting feelings about this. We haven't talked in so long. In a way, I know it will be better for her, taking this step at making a life for herself, but why does she have to do it so far away? Its not like she has anything really holding her here, I haven't been a friend to her in a long time. She's having a going away party on Thursday, and I want to go, I want to say goodbye, I know the dangers of not saying goodbye. I also live in denial. So by not saying goodbye, she can't really leave... she will anyway, I know that, but not in my head. |
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| ic, I'm still with Jon. We celebrated our 1 year anniversary on Feb. 11. I still don't go to parties, although, I tried to get back into the scene, went to Buzz and had the worst time. I hated it, there were so many people there just looking for drugs, there were two fights, and there was no room to dance. I guess my people phobia hasn't gone away, I wanted to scream walking from the main room to the room with the stage, whatever that room is called. It sucked. Anyway, I guess I'm just not ready to go back to that. I was so tired at the end of the night I wanted to pass out and not wake up for 3 days. |
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| March 12 Ok, so I'm sitting here, still at Jon's computer, still bored. And I realize, hey, I'm sitting in MY APARTMENT. How cool is that? My friend Jason just got into a car accident involving drunk driving(not on his part) and I can't stop thinking of the accident I was in so many years ago and how I'm still living the aftermath of it. Its a little sad, but as they say Sey La Vi. Carmen is getting married. Yay for her. Thats all. I need to amuse myself elsewhere for now. |
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