Entry for November 15, 2007
I talked to my Patients Rights advocate today, she is going to see about getting me some money back from my psyche eval. I resinned my concent today, and the DLAD won't be seeing my old psyche eval. I called several places about finding a psychologist and/or a shrink. I am working on letting the answers come to me, not make the situation fit my expectations. It is difficult. I am on edge quite a bit, and my mother hasn't helped of late. Things aren't going as she expects, and I am keeping my head open to ALL the possibilities that present themselves, including: If I can't find ashrink who is willing to diagnose me as anything other than Bipolar, I'll take their recomendations, but in doing so, try and get any assistance I can. If I am going to labeled as bipolar, and as such be deemed "metaly sick" I should also get any monies, benift, whatever that I can. I don't think that if I am going to be labeled this I shouldn't have to only accept the negative things of such a label. But that's only if I can't find a shrink with enough backbone to think for themselves, ad not just diagnose my history instead of the person I am today. Of course, telling my mother that I am even considering this option, she thinks I am going to be a freeloading bum. That is her prejudices, not mine, on the situation. She thinks that I should "pull myself up by the bootstraps". I think I should take what assistance I can, and see how things pan out, however it maybe. I can determine the outcome of this situation, I can only do my best to try and stay sober, and accept life on lifes terms.
