Entry for November 7, 2007
I talked to my sponsor for an hour or so after I wrote here. I also called a fewother cult members, and hit the St John Neuman meeting. After further review of the psychological assessment, the doctor out and out lied about my demeanor, and supossed bipolar symptoms. He claimed that I couldn't pay attention, that I was fidgety, my judgement was impaired etc. Where he trully fucked up was when he stated thast one of my symptoms was "Frequently wakes at night". Anyone, anyone at all who knows me, knows that I have trouble FALLING asleep, never ever have I had a problem staying alseep. Those words have never passed my lips. He fucking lied, no if ands or buts about it. I called the lady thearapist who was helping me. I told her how the doctor made up my symptoms, and I asked her if these symptoms that he described were present when she interviewed me. She said they weren't, and in fact, these were the classic symptoms of Bipolar, textbook. Well I am not a textbook, and he described someone else, not me. She was very hessitant to say he lied, but I wasn't. She told me that I had little recourse, other than confronting the doctor. I am going to. He's out of town till Tuesday, but I will not let this go without confronting him. I will speak with his superior if need be. He can't make up symptoms, and I have him caught in a blatent lie. I want to be reimbursed for my time and money that I wasted. On a positive note, I need to concentrate on finding another psychiatrist to do an evaluation. This doctor may say I am bipolar, that's fine. I'll go to thearapy, whatever. But I won't be submarined again. I'll have to get another assessment. It's a shame that I can't use Kathy's assessment, and a different psychological assesssment. But there is no way in god's green earth that the DLAD will ever see this psychological assessment. I need to stay in today, not worry about will happen on Tuesday whenI confront the doctor. I even prayed for him, first sarcasticly, praying that he has good medical insurance, but then seriously that he made a mistake, or would see reason. this is a prefect opportunity to put the Cults way to the test. I didn't drink, or go off the deep end, that's a start!
