Watched football and stayed in bed all day. 

I haven't kept up with my blog thing lately, because as they say in the cult, I am undiscaplined.  Wednesday and Thursday, I isolated, not going to any meetings.  I felt like crap.  I think now, that it was probably stress about my DL Assessment, that was supposed to be ready on the 17th, and also because the possible work that I was lined up with turned out to be just BS.  I am learning that most of what the owner of the company that I worked for over last weekend says is BS.  He still hasn't paid me either.  He called me on Monday at 8:06 am, when I called him back @ 8:-07 am, I missed the call barely, he wouldn't answer the phone.  Neither did he answer, or call back all week.  Later this week, I did get a call from the lady who did the assessment, she was very helpful.  She thought that I needed a M.D. to say that I did not need any medication, for my hearing.  She then called back on Friday, she had found a doctor to do this.  She said she'd call me on Monday, to set up an appointment with this doctor.  I was/am very happy and suprized by this.  I can never remember her name, but the lady who did my assessment says she will do something, and she does it.  Unlike my boss at Maxal.  I think that stressess me out more than it should.  Tomorrow I am going to walk up to the bank, deposit my check from the piano movers (see how that treats my back) then call about the money I am owed.  I don't want to be sarcastic, or confrontational.  If the walk doesn't make my back hurt too badly, I am going to try and start some chores around the house that I have been putting off, due to my natural inclination to procrastination, and because of my isolation.  I have been doing some thinking about my recent little depression.  I can link stress (my medical record still havent come in, worrying about paying a doctor to sign off on my assessment, and not getting paid when I was told I was going to and also the work that was discussed is never going to happen)and rutine change (working midnights for two days on no sleep) and also I ingested alot of caffine over the weekend, to stay up, and then on Monday through now I haven't  had any caffine, I think that is a contributing factor.  I haven't been to a meeting since Tuesday either.  But this wasn't a cause of, more than a by product of my depression.  And since I hurt my back I don't think I could sit long enough for a meeting anyhow, but I am looking forward to a meeting on Monday.