I worked today.  It was hot.  I went to an Open Talk today, given by some old guy who couldn't hardly string a few thoughts together.  He had had a stroke recently.  It was still good, I didn't even get fidgety.  I read "Working with Others" today.  My sponsor once warned me about how if I stuck around the cult, that people would go back out.  How it would hurt, if they were people I cared about.  Today I found out that two people I know, and care for/about, went back out.  I saw one of them at the Open Talk.  He had gone to Ireland to take care of his mother, and didn't go to meetings, quit calling his sponsor.  He was very upfront about his drinking again, and came right out and told me when I asked him how things were going.  I found out also today, that someone that I have been talking to regularly got a second DUI.  This person didn't tell me right away.  It's been a few weeks I believe.  That hurt me, that she didn't trust me enough to tell me.  I need to talk to my sponsor about this.  I talked to him earlier in the day, before knowing about this, it was just "Hey, whatcha doin" kinda conversation.  I am going make sure I talk to him about this , because he has deffinitely been through this before.

I was easily aggitated at work today, by one of my co-workers.  Not my fellow cult member, a different guy.  I need to nip that in the bud, before it turns into out and out hostility.  I need to try and give this annoyance over, and make me accept him as he is, or work on calmly, courtiously, encourage him to quit doing some of the things that are getting under my skin, if they are indeed not just all ME to begin with.  But I know the things that were bugging me, were also annoying my fellow cult member.  I just need to make sure to not let this escalate into open hostility.  I think I may need to clam up a little more at work, while the three of us work together, and only open up when it's just myself and my fellow cult member working.  I think I'll also discuss this with my sponsor, and also my fellow cult member that I work with.

My sponsor's fiance just stopped by (1:30am) and dropped off an invite to a Halloween Party.  This will be the second sober Halloween Party for me.  Last Halloween was the first party of any kind that I have eever attended sober.  It brings back good memories for me.  Makes me so very greatful for being sober, and reminds me how far I have come.