Entry for October 1, 2007
Worked today! Moved a couple of piano's, got a ride to work, rode my bike home. I made my DL Assesment appointment today. Thursday @ 2pm, I'll be getting assessed at the Livonia Counceling Center. Went to the Monday meeting at the IHA Building @ 6pm. Only one cult memeber showed up, but we talked for the full hour, and stayed on Cult Topics 100%, which isn't always the case when only one person shows up for the meeting. Things generaly disolve into just "shooting the shit" with a fellow cultist. Normaly I need the structure of the meeting to get that good feeling that I normaly get from attending a meeting. I left the IHA Building with that same feeling. We talked about several topics, but mainly about the difference between religion and faith, the difference between the core beliefs and doctrine. I opened up quite a bit, and tod my fellow cult member about my lack of "God" but how I have faith in the cult. He said it well "Look at the two of us, you an Athiest, me a Catholic, but we're both here, sober, discussing how to stay sober, practicing the principles in our affairs" I feel content that I think I am right where I should and need to be and everything is OK. Yes, it stresses me out that the Big Book says if I don't find God that "if any, our sobriety will be precarious" but I am trying to stay willing, and open minded. I have faith in the cult. I believe in certain undeniable truths, that rise above and span religions. One of the biggest being that if I drink I'll get drunk, my way sucks!
