Entry for September 19, 2007
No piano moving today! So I helped my Ma hit Meijers then went over to a fellow cultists house, and had lunch. I rode to the St Alfred E. Neuman meeting tonight @ 8pm. I also got on the phone and talked to several people in the cult, including my sponsor. I think I talked to 5 memebers today, and the voice mail of another. This is unlike me. I also read the first chapter of Sobriety and Beyond. I talked to one memeber, who I have work for in the past, and let him know that I am working on call as a piano mover, and that I'd be available to work in the warehouse. He seemed like he was amiable to this. I had talked to one of his employees, another member, who recently lost his mother to cancer, and that employee told me they have been quite busy lately. Maybe between the two jobs I'll stay busy. Its amazing how much better I feel when I have a job, and am doing the things I should be doing, like doing the footwork on getting my DL Haering going, or calling people in the cult, even just cleaning the house. I also think the excersize helps stabalize my moods. Sitting on my ass makes me feel like shit, just like getting too much/not enough sleep. I must remember to stay grounded though, because , this too shall pass. Now is the time to strengthen my contact with my higher power, to do all those things that are good, and strengthen my program, before the shit hits the fan again, because like it or not, it seems to be the way things work with myself. Hopefully I will weatherthe storm better and better, like I heard at a meeting today "I used to set boundries by what caused me pain, now I set them by what causes discomfort" I hope that perhaps in the future I can recover enough that my episodes are only discomforts, instead of pain. It cheers me to think this is possible, if I keep on doing what I am doing, and work my program the best I can. OVER and OUT!
