Well it's about 4:30am, and I just got done designing a Initial picture, for Meagan and Mike.  Mel's picking me up around 3:00pm to go to the wedding.  I also did a little work on my web site.  Trying to make the picture gallery user friendly, well as friendly as I wan't it to be, that is.  I hitched a ride today, to go to the library and Meijers.  I was worried that I was going to get roped into driving, or try and ride my bike, with a dozen eggs in my backpack, just a disaster waiting to happen.  Luckily, my Big Secret is shaping up much faster than I had imagined.  I still will have to keep it, but I am confident that much sooner than expected, the Big Secret won't be so damn labor intensive.  I have deffinitely worked on accepting this and it was trying, but I think I have wrapped my head around it enough, that I don't get a sick feeling in my head everytime I think about it, which is good. 

I hit the Geneva meeting today @ 7:30pm.  One of the guys I regularly talk to seemed like he was troubled, and his table was let out earlier than mine,  He took off before I could talk to him, I think I'll call him today, it might be a good excuse to step out from the wedding, get a breather and call someone from the cult.  Not that I am trying to fix anything, I just got the impression he was in a shitty space, I know that feeling, I can relate.  And I heard that damned "I am responsible" cliche' running in my head!  It's amazing how un-wound up I am about going to a wedding.  After the begining of my week, I think that the wedding won't be all that bad on my nerves.  I must stay vigilant though, and not underestimate that cunning baffling foe.  I think I'll read the Doctor's Opinion before I go, and my sponsor will be there and my cell is full of numbers, I think I am spiritualy fit enough to go.  Anywho, I think I should try and get some rest.