"Here I sit blindfolded, never sure whether I'm defending against new
information from outsiders or from my own ability to reason things out. I
know there are two sides to every issue, but I'm not sure I want to
consider both of them. I might have to change my opinion.
"At times my motto appears to be, `Don't confuse me with the facts. I've
already made up my mind.' I feel balanced and satisfied as I am, although
I do get kind of lonely, and tired of holding up these swords.
"Actually I have closed myself off from outside influences in order to
patiently resolve my problem. I want to use mental clarity and not be
swayed by emotions or the opinions of others.
"One of the conflicts I am called upon to resolve is the integration of
conscious will and unconscious motivation. I'll resist, of course, but I
know it's a task I must eventually undertake. I do not easily allow my
intuition and feelings to have their say.
"My key phrase is
false balance."
