May 27, 2005 -
If I am lost for a day try to find me
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me
All of the things, that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day
December is darkest, in June there's the light
But this empty bedroom won't make anything right
But out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night
I dreamed I was dying, as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window and threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there, please don't let me die
But I can't live forever, I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on the beach by the sea
The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost
song on webspace
- 10:30 pm
May 26, 2005 -
It makes you wonder sometimes. This inconvenient sequence of events. Is it all by coincidence or is there some sort of hidden purpose. I've been working up the nerve to ask Mom if I can see James. No James hasn't asked yet or at least recently and I hope he doesn't. I just want to see if it's okay first. And so today is the last day of school for him and I was hoping to see him soon after. But then Mom and I had an argument. Yes I'm pissy. *sigh* So yeah it's my fault. Go figure. Leave it to me to screw things up to where I can't ask her for something that simple. Yeah the typical argument of "Why should I do things for you if you don't do things for me and you're always mad at me? why are you always so angry?" Everyone who says I'm nice needs to shut up now. And leave me alone while you're at it. And everyone else who sees what I see... I know. So please go away too.
- 7:37 pm
May 21, 2005 -
UWAAAAA!!!!!!! I'M LAAAATE!!! x.x... Well happy really late bday!!!! =dies= I was planning to post a happy bday message earlier but I had a cal final to celebrate your bday instead. And then I got to pack and move! x.x... Gomen ne. =bows deeply= So! I hope you had fun. ^^ Us scattered peoples miss you too. So yes! What have I been doing... I haven't completely unpacked yet. *coughnotevenclosecough* I've been slowly reorganizing my bathoom and cleaning out my closet at the same time. Meanwhile I'm forced to dance around a billion boxes. x.x.... So sad... I miss having drawers ironically enough. And lots of space. well.... more like I had lots of space in the dorm because I didn't have that much stuff. *sigh* too much junk arrrgggh!!!!!!!!!!!!! but yes. I'll be gone on June 14th I believe and I'll be back on July 11th.... or 9th... not sure which but! I will be back around that time. So until then Houston peoples please drag me out or else I'll still be reorganizing my room. Hmm.... other than that..... I haven't been up to much. We're slowly working up the courage to ask Mom if I can see James again... =winces= Good luck to me.
- 7:06 pm
May 13, 2005 -
You know I'm procrastinating when I'm blogging... ^^;;; Odd since it's 2 hours away from my Spanish final. Doo doo doo.... =skips around= So! Today is skirt day! ^^ I was going to do laundry but I can't get off my lazy bum to do it. x.x... Mebbe tomorrow... Always tomorrow. Which means tomorrow is skirt day too.... x.x.... *siiigh* Day before yesterday was pigtail day! That was fun. :3 I felt cute! =nodnod= So we're gonna do that more often. =shrugs= It's either that or clip my hair up whenever I have a lump on the side of my hair from letting it dry weird. And since my hair's psycho layered only bobby pins work. Let's just say bobby pins and I don't quite get along.... x.x... Eiiiither way.... I think I'll look over my grammar after playing some Syepmania... Doot doo doo.... :3 Jya!!! Oh hey!!! I found the perfect tv show for me!!!! It's psycho random cuteness!!! Bwah ha ha ha ha ha!!!! You know what's scary tho? So it's Morning Musume which is basically a bunch of girls hopping around looking adorable. The main part of their fan base is girls as expected but there's a good number of middle aged men too. You can always hear them cheering in the bg. It's SCARY. =shudder= Japanese men have to be the worst horny people ever. x.x.... LITTLE GIRLS!!!!! aged 12 to 20!!!!! For GODS SAKE!!!! If I were in Morning Musume I'd be crying by now.
- 5:03 pm
May 9, 2005 -
"Their song (sorry I don't have the name) somewhat followed the path laid out by the previous year's group being a rap song, but the lyrics were .. unusual, since the song was about eating banana chips."
LOL!!!! None of you will get this except for mebbe Suz so just letting you know Suz, that's talking about the Salt5 song. You know... The spring off of Morning Musume where they were trying to look tough and boxed a little... ^^;;; But yes... banana chips.... =face vaults= In the meantime (I haven't most in gods know how long x.x... ) Ev's picked up at least a billion music obsessions. Most significant in my mind as of now are Melon Kinenbi (from the creators of Morning Musume), E Nomine (spiffy German gothic rock that most people seem to hate....), and Rob Dougan (creator of Matrix's Clubbed to Death). I've also gotten myself hopelessly addicted to Stepmania. x.x... Ooo and I'm also sick! Go me! Finals week too!!! =dances around and dies= Nah I'm better now. I actually got sick I think the second to last day of classes. ^^;;; But yes... Roomie dissappeared for the entirety of the weekend. I was secretly praying she fell over and died. Gods know the world would be better without her. =shakes fist= It's getting to the point where so much as her breathing pisses me off. I just want to get up and pummel her with a poisoned stick and run off before she can retaliate. =scowls= You have no idea how happy I was when she vanished for days on end. I was hoping she'd only come back for finals and vanish again. x.x.... Blast it all. Why can't she go move in with her girlfriend for gods sake???? Go piss her off!!! Graaaaaaaaaa.... Eiiither way, Ev's being a lazy bum now. I should get started on my Linguistics thesis. She liked my presentation! Wheee! ^^ Ironically I planned out my presentation until 2:30 in the morning on my worst day of being sck I think.... Wait... Then that means I didn't get sick on Thursday.... Eh..... =confused= Ah screw it. I got sick and now I'm recovering now. That's really all there is to it. So aaanyway! Hmmm..... we have to somehow find a way to give all this music to Suz.... ooo Im corrupting Linh. She even likes m-flo! =cackles madly= Who would have known? Tho m-flo is awesome. =nodnodnod= But yes!!! A book fell from the shelf right onto my keyboard and killed one of the buttons. Originally only one side was really loose, you could make it to where it kinda locked. But then David came over and pushed it really hard or something so now it's just really loose no matter what. I think he made it worse. Which leads me to a conclusion. I'm not letting him touch my laptop even with a 10 foot stick. ^^;;; Yeah yeah I'm sure he meant to help but now it's completely wobbly!!! x.x.... But yes.... Linh's tulips are wilting awfully fast.... ;_; Hai.... Well..... Poor things, must be wilting under the depressing atmosphere. ^^;;;; la la la la la not like I have anything to do with that. No angst here. No way no way. I'm 100% peachy! *coughNOTcough* But either way, I really want to buy Mom flowers but have to vehicle in order to do it with. x.x... Too bad tho. I'll figure it out one day. ^^ And next year I'm bringing a vase since Linh likes to buy me flowers. I need to get her some too.... x.x... Bleh. NEXT YEAR!!! =looks scarily determined= ^^;;; Yes we're hyper. It's the music! The music! =dances around= la la la la.... David told me it's actually possible to plug DDR mats into your compie and Step mania lets you configure it to use those mats so... =plots madly= playing irl is sooo much more fun. ^^ Even tho it's a billion times harder... Bwah ha ha ha ha!!! XDD But yes! That's my life right now tho you have to add a lot of school insanity in the last week that's converted me into a lazy bum. Blegh. I HAVE to get started studying by tomorrow. Graaaa.... Graaaa!!!! x.x.... So dead....
- 10:16 pm