Heya!!!! Duude... long break in postings.. or.. no? hm... lol I guess not.. seems like forever. Anyone read this anymore? Mou.... Either way, just an update. Ev has too much hw its scary. Ask James. He's always trying to just talk to me and I'm like MOO!!! HW!!! Graaaaa... =dies= So! For my bday I got a crap load of food!!! Me thinks it's a campaign to make Evelyn fat or something. =dies= But nah, it started with Leslie coming over to visit all of us UT peoples!!! It was this huuuuuge group. And we had some random Bellaire and non-Bellaire ppl too. We made sooo much noise at Jester. Hee hee. And then after a loong time of sititng around and talking (Grace got to meet Leslie!!!) George mentioned how Wei had an Aladdin tissue box and we all wanted to see. Therefore we cramed a bunch of people into one little dorm room. Lots of fun. ^^ Then I had to go and meet Roger. (he was in Jester West so not much of a walk) And then!! (Merrrf) And then Laura, Grace, Roger, and I marched to Jing and Linh's apartment. Except Laura was hungry (4:30!!!) so Laura and Grace left. So Roger and I arrived at Jing and Linh's place and they made me a cake!!!! A really good cake!!!! Like really good!!!! Uwaaaaaa.... It was chocolate cheesecake!! With green icing! Hee hee. They also gave me chocolate from Godiva. =dies= Gonna get faat.... merrf.... So! Then I got chased around their apartment which was bad because their a/c broke. =dies= Roger was NO HELP!!! =grumbles= Some bodyguard. =dies= Then! We walked back to my dorm room where we just talked some more. Roger's friend canceled her dinner plans with him to go clubbing so we were stuck together as abandoned dinner peoples. Hee hee. Except.. we weren't hungry... x.x.... I blame it on the cake. So we talked and talked and talked. Went downstairs to get Mom's bday package which had cocnut cookies and a cake and some other stuff. =dies some more= Went back up. Talked some more. So around.... 10 mebbe? (iono....) We decided to go try and find something small to eat. Which turned out to be at 7-11 buying a sub sandwich and splitting it. ^^;;; So! My bday dinner wa a sub sandwich from 7-11. Hee hee. Ah well. No worries. I had lots of fun. ^^ I was exhausted by the time Roger left tho. =dies= But yeah... Lesson of that day? People are determined to make Evelyn a living ball. I'm already short. merrrf... But yeah, that cheesecake is really filling. Great for Mondays when I have no time for lunch. ^^ Mwah ha ha ha ha!!! Other than that... not much has happened... yupyupyup... ^^ But yeah, contact me any way you can and.... if ANYONE is going back home for labor day weekend.... PLEASE take the 5 o'clock bus from Dobie. Please???? Imma be all alone.... =dies= If I go... . Which I prolly will... Guilty Mom factor. =grumbles= Ok... I'm screwing the cs classes hw for now and going to sleep. I hafta wake up at 9 tomorrow. =dies=

Frou Frou - Let Go 11:29 pm - 08.31.04

Alrighty peoples.... August 26th!!! 2004!!! Yes yes I know today is the 27th. Screw that. THE TWENTY-SIXTH!!!! Much more important.... ^^;;;; Yes... Either way, I'm faring quite ok in college.... First day.. Oh man oh man.... I thought it was Monday. Luckily my first 2 classes were the same but the problem is after.... x.xV It was supposed to be the wins seminar but when I went into the room, I noticed that there were guys.... See.. That'd be ok except it was the wins meeting. Wins aka Women in Nat Sci. So! I asked a random person and she said chemistry. I thought I wrote the room number down wrong because they changed the classroom at the last minute. x.x So! I asked a random upperclassmen wandering around. She was nice enough to help a little.... I went back to the old meeting place hoping there was some kind of sign on the door but no! So I decided to go back to my dorm and look at the sheet where I originally wrote the new classroom and on the way I saw a girl in the wins program too! I think I scared the crap out of her in my enthusiasm of seeing her. But she was nice. ^^;;; And she pointed out that wins meetings were only on Monday and then I realized it wasn't Monday. x.x... Yeeeahhh.... So! Ha ha!!! Ev was a dork for the first day.... Merrrf... Thursday was better. Only one class. The cal tutorial thingie with the ta. Which was fine except.. he's not very good. Like our group asked him a question and he said we were doing it right and then when he went over the answers, apparently we weren't. =dies= Yeah... So!!! Either way..... Lesse... Today my legs decided to object my walking around at a rapid pace. Tripped going up the steps to my logic class even going at a snail's pace. But! Today is Friday! And I get to do lots of bring reading. x.x... Either way, oh well. Hopefully I'll get to hang out with more people... If not.... =galres at people= call me dammit!!!! And oh yeah! Lisle's coming tomorrow! Wheeeee!!! =dances around= I heard it's gonna be like a Lanier get together. lol

Landy Wen - Northern Star 7:31 pm - 08.27.04

So! i figured I should type up my schedule so you people know when not to call ne? ^^ SO! Just go here. Hm.. Ok! So! Lesse.. Today I learned how to play pool!!!! And I am very proud to say that I... suck at it! ^^ Yayyyy!!! Isn't that fun? hee hee. Ah well. It's to be expected with my great aiming skills and all. ^^;;; Either way, Elton (he taught me) said that the equipment was pretty crappy. So... Yes... I'l have to agree... There are 2 tables in the Q and only one set of balls... And the set of balls is missing a cue ball among others... x.xV Yeah.... Really sad. And the cue sticks (?) yeah... missing the rounded tips. Wonderful ne? And apparently there was no chalk.... Yes... ^^;;; Either way, all around bad horrible horrible quality. But! I had fun! And because Elton had to leave early I am now in possession of Elton's Bellaire id. Bwah ha ha ha!!! not like I can do anything with it.... Ok! After that, I met Wallace for the first time! Which was pretty cool. Walked around, met more Celements peoples.... Yupyup. Went to dinner with Laura and Grace, hung around for a bit and then... Hm... That's about it. Talked with James! XD Yeah... ok.... *sigh* Either way, imma go now. Tomorrow I get to go to the... uhm... WCH room 1.110! Not for class but for lunch with the rest of the Wins girls. Merrf... Wow... 24th... Can you believe it. Wow wow wow.... Ok! So either way, Ev will work on cheering herself up and you all work on... uhm... sleeping? working? uhm.. yes..... Bai! Contacts drying up, I can feel it... >.<

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James' voice. ^^ 10:50 pm - 08.22.04

So! Met up with Grace and Laura today. Basically went tromping around with her friend Jessica and her friends. Yup.... Hm.... Yeah... Kinda uneventful.... I got chocolate milkshake splattered on my jeans! I had to wear the light colored one this time. Merrrrf.... x.xV Yes.... I'm a bit tired. Yupyup. I think imma be done for the day unless someone calls. *sigh* Yeah.... hm.... what to do.... la la la la la.... Merf... okok I go now. ^^

silence.... 8:41 pm - 08.22.04

ok... things have been a bit hectic.... Like... ok lesse.... Friday I moved in. We got there at 11:30 (scheduled for 12 but I got there early) and got busy moving boxes to my dorm until about 1:30. Really really hot sweaty work. Merrrrrf. x.x And then we walked to Kinsolving to eat lunch and for some odd reason I wasn't very hungry. Went back and unpacked. Princess came in with her mom. Mom seems to like them. They seemed nice so far. Princess is quiet but that's fine. ^^ But so far I've been having the room to myself besically. Mainly because yesterday she spent the night with her mom and today she had a lock in thingy. Yupyup. So today I woke up at 10 by James. And then I actually got up around 11 sat around for a bit. Then ate lunch in my room since I was waaay too cold to go next door to get a smoothie. x.xV Then Roger came around 3 and helped me find all my classes. Except the tour was cut short due to rain. So we ended up playing Sims for an hour before going down the to study room to meet Jeff for dinner. Dinner at Kinsolving again. This time I got my fruit! bwah ha ha ha!!!! yes.... tho I didn't eat most of it. x.x I'm either going to have to stop caring that my tray is a billion times emptier than everyone else's or learn to eat more. I dont like the latter option. Merrrf... Screw everyone else!! baaaaahhhh.... lol okok mebbe not. I'll just say I'm on a diet... =shifty glance= Yes... diet.... *cough* more like really tiny stomach capacity. Merf merf. yes... So either way, Jeff had to leave for more band practice at 6:30! poor guy. =patpat= He was complaining about how getting there involved going downhill which is perfectly fine and then marching uphill. ^^;;; So yah, Roger and I watched My Sassy Girl which I will admit was a good movie tho... Honestly, the summaries you all gave me were crappy. It's so much more than a mean girl beating up on her boyfriend. Honestly guys. *sigh* ^^ And yeah talked until about 11. And then talked to James for a little bit. And here I am. Exhausted. *sigh* I swear, colege is such a drainer and classes havent even started yet. =grumbles= So! tomorrow, I wake up at.... hm.... 11 again I guess.... Well I'll set the alarm for 11 and lie in bed refusing to get out because of how FREAKISHLY COLD it is. x.x... yes.... Either way, imma sleep now. oh yah! For all you people at ut now or tomorrow (really today since it's late) CALL ME!!!! and if you don't have my number yet, email me and let me know. My new personal email is [email protected] I think.... e.e.... x.x =grumbles= I'll continue checking my evlasha acct tho until it dries up. So yes! Baiii!!!! Call me!!!! I like running around meeting up with people. And for all of you who don't have a cell phone... dammit!!! Get one!!! And get t-mobile. ^.~ Free to talk with evelyn!!! lol hee hee

hissing of the vent 1:35 am - 08.22.04

So! I am now in Austin! And Mom has left! and my roommate is quiet like me! bwah ha ha ha ha ^^ yes.... And I has gotten resnet so you will see me online. =pokes a certain person= =pokepokepoke= Yes you will!!!! Oh yeah... I need to send out an email telling everyone my new cell number and my address.... If you don't get an email from me by tomorrow left me know. You might not be on my address book. yupyup oh yeah, I got gmail! Elton invited me! ^^ thank you!!!!! so! I'm trying to establish myself. yupyup and.. hm.... movin in is tiring... you'd think a dollie (sp?) would make it easier but.... nah... evil evil stairs.... and we have to march through the guy's floor to get to the elevator... yes.. didn't know that... almost went tromping through andrews. ^^;;;; either way, it's kinda weird chatting when your roommate is unpacking... mou.... >.< I'm a bit too lazy to unpack the bath and stationary stuff.... ^^;;; yeah.... mebbe I should.... mff... hmmm... well ok, just checking in to say I'm alive.... other than that... I go.

unpacking 7:08 pm - 08.20.04

So.... Not much time left.... I'm praying I'll get a cell phone before I leave but I dunno if it's possible.... Dammit... But yeah... I'm leaving in Friday and.... Suddenly in my rush to become free I realize that I'm not ready to go just yet. Give me one more week maybe.... I'm scared and I need to see him to make it better. Is it ok to be clingy like this? Yet I'm not quite clingy enough... It's.... weird... For lack of a better word. Every part of me was screaming to run off to college as soon as possible and then.... And then it happened and suddenly my great desire to leave gradually faded. And now I'm just scared and sad and fearful that once I get to ut, despite all the people I will know, I'll be alone. I know I won't be but... living in 2 different cities is not such a wonderful thing. I'm kind of glad we couldn't meet whenever we wanted because losing that ability would be even more painful. This is silly isn't it? To want the most difficult love I could have. I could find another love later at an easier time. But.... It wouldn't be the same would it? So... I guess I'll let myself be stupid and continue to look and see what happens. I hope it'll last. But I always do. It's odd though.... I'm scared of what could happen if it works as much as what could happen if it doesn't. You know... If I really were an angel, I wouldn't hurt anyone. I'd find some way with my powers to make sure everyone was happy and then I'd be good. That's why I'm human. Because why I may try at times, it's never good enough. Someone always gets hurt and I hurt as a result. Maybe it's better this way... I'll really never know. But making everyone happy would be nice... Ever get sick of hurting people just to try and make yourself happy? I mean, it's not like I'm openly attacking people in order to give myself a laugh or two but... I feel as if I'm stepping on people in order to see him. Mainly my mom. I'm sneaking around her just so I can meet him but... Then there are friends I use to meet up with him. It conflicts me. I don't want to use them and I really wish I didn't have to. I try to make it one big group thing, where everyone's talking but... it doesn't work. So... I don't know... I feel as if I'm wrong but I'm not at the same time. *sigh* Sorry... I think the Wolf's Rain last night really got to me. I must have cried at least 5 times because the ending episodes were ungodly sad. And the ending.... I want to shoot the ending. So not good enough. x.x I mean it was good but honestly... yes.... I'll cheer up later today since I'm meeting my friends up for tapioca. I just have to stall for a good 2 hours.... I was planning on waking up at 1 but blasted mom had to screw up my plans. *sigh* Yes.... =hugs ushi-chan and nia-chan= Thanks guys. ^^

Wolf's Rain - Rakuen ~ Secret Garden 12:02 pm - 08.17.04

.... On a side note.... I hate hurting people and I seem to be doing it a lot these days. *sigh*
Is this really ok?

3:44 pm - 08.13.04

So I haven't entered in awhile..... ^^;;; Yes.... Lots has happened again.... if anything, Mom is getting more controlling. She's kidnapping me for hours at a time just having me work for her. Sorting out junk. Entering data in the comp. Bleghhh... But either way, it's kinda odd..... I started out really being afraid of college and then after orientation I couldn't wait to go. And now.... Now I'm just confused. I want to stay.... But I don't.... I want to get away from my mom. That's for sure. I think if I stay any longer with her, she'll lock me in my room and hide me away from the rest of the world. But.... I'm afraid of what's going to happen in college. Everyone's against us in some way.... Even I know it's not right. And I can't help but wonder.... How long will it take for me to give in to myself? Or will I manage to ignore and go on? And if I do will it be worth it? So far I'm going on the fact that there are only 2 people so far that understand me. And because of that they cannot be replaced. In my whole life I think I'll only find maybe at most 5 people wo really understand me. I don't like to tihnk of myself as complicated but... I guess I am.... And it's only because my life is composed of thousandes of layers of protections and lies and.... yeah.... Remember when we tried to bottle up our emotions and just pretend to be happy for the benefit of others? Remember how much it hurt? And so we decided maybe it was better to just face it and deal instead of pretend? And then the hurting stopped? Well sometimes I wonder.... Did we really get rid of our masks or did the masks just become us. The hurting stopped because it was no longer foreign. Yeah.... Painting another tragic figure. The problem with doing that is it's so unbelievable because it's so dramatic. Too dramatic.... it's interesting though... Thinking of myself in this way no longer makes me sad the way it used to.... Yes it still makes me sad but.... Not in the self pitying drown in an endless pool sorrows kinda way.... More like sad interest. More of me asks why. So... yeah.... I have more important things to be sad about ne? ^^;;;; Yeah... Ok getting out of sad mode, I just wanted to let you all know I'm going to UT August 20th. I'll be there at 12. Anyone going then also? Wanna carpool? I haven't gotten my new cell phone yet, but when I do I'll send everyone a big batch email. With my address too! yes....

Jet - Look What You've Done 3:28 pm - 08.13.04

Cold.... *sigh* Yes.... I haven't posted in awhile.... I kinda forgot what happened now so.... ha.... yeah.... crazy things... lots of crazy things... I did something psychotic and now mom is very sad. I am very sad but for many many reasons... She's making a consious effort to try and rebond with me. I say it's too late. Her newest effort? Going on a cruise together. *sigh* Things aren't the same anymore.... I feel all.... weird and tired and very very lost as to what to do. So I've taken the coward's way out. I'm not doing anything about it. I think I've reached my limit as to the amount of crazy stressful things that can happen all at once. *sigh* So cold..... x.x Mom was really worried about me this afternoon. She even came banging on my door because I had slept until 4. I don't know why I slept that long. I always wake up by at least 2 or 3. Even when I stay up until 7 in the morning.... Yes I've done that before. But.... Yeah.... I just felt so tired... I'm still tired if that makes any sense. I think I'm too stressed out now. So yes... I'm trying not to think anymore. But... It's really not working this time. Something in me has changed drastically.... I don't know if I like it. I want to cry and scream and run around in circles all at the same time. But most of all I want to sleep. I want to sleep all my troubles away.... But that can't happen can it? Nothing can go back to the way it was... Too many things have changed. I've lost something and gained something.... *sigh* Must I go out shopping today? Screw tax-free. I don't feel like doing anything except curling into a ball and sleeping.

LOTR 2 - Gollum's Song 5:27 pm - 08.07.04

Couldn't go out to day and hang out with various friends because mom is a CRAZY PSYCHO BANSHEE!!! Meh. Nuff said on that subject... =growls= But yah.... Thanks Suz. ^^ =hugs back= (your tagboard was taking forever to load. ^^;;;;) but yes... James has dumped 3 gameboy advance games on me and I'm slowly working through them. ^^ with cheats enabled of course hee hee... but yes, even with cheats still very slowly. Like at a snail's pace... mfff.... I'm slow. mehhhh... ^^ either way..... It's prolly good I didn't get to go to tapioca today. Still can't chew on one side of my mouth.. ^^;;;; yeeeaahh.... So! Either way! Things are very quiet at my house.... hee hee... I think Mom's mad pissed..... meh either way I feel like kicking things! ^^;;;; yeah..... prolly not a good idea to be around me... I'm actually kinda sleepy tho.... I'm waking up very slowly today. prolly because I got up so early... 8 am! and then I went back to sleep unto 9, played some hp gba and went down to eat lunch. hm.... yupyup... today will be an uneventful day.... =growls at mom=

Wolf's Rain - Face On 1:56 pm - 08.02.04

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