It's creeping around in the back of my head progressively inching forwards and it's scaring the crap out of me. It can't be so it won't be true. I say so therefore it must be. =continues to inch forward= Damn you. Grgh. I feel so clueless. I'm constantly whammed in the head by how clueless and I naive I am all the time. Bwaaah. I feel like a little kid surrounded by adults. x.x Sorry, I'm worthy of being a senior am I? Heh. But.... ok never mind. The more I think about it the more depressed I get. So! Ghost in the Shell has the weirdest ost. Seriously bizarre. Yes, I'm on my illegal cd downloading spree again. ^^V So sure me. Free music is fun. Heh... Laura and I are picking on a fellow classmate anonymously. It was too tempting and I started it so I take the bame. She's jsut so stupid. And she had a tagboard. And there was already an anonymous basher. And she had a screwed up pic of herself posted. I just had to. So I did. ^^ Either way, I'm going to have to submit applications behind Mom's back now. Dammit. She wants to see everything I submit. That's usually okay except she has this psycho idea that when they ask if I'm fluent in anything, I should say Spanish. =scowls= She's crazy. Well ok. Things aren't going so well anymore. So... Someone fill me in. I don't know what's going on anymore and Laura spending Halloween with her sister. So... Merf. Maybe this doesn't make any sense but it does to me. I hope Jenny has a Halloween party but I don't want to be alone. Laura's the only one I have common ground with now. I'm so different from everyone else now. I feel as if people are looking down on me. Or just hiding from me. Either way, it sucks.
Just an added note. If you ever go to Shockwave.com and play Arcadia... It's insane!! Gyaaaah! You ahve to play 4 games at the same time! x.x Oiiiiiii. I freaked out after awhile. I was okay until the pong ball decided to go diagonal instead of horizontal. So I had to pay attention to 3 instead of just. But! I got #55!!! Wheeeeee. =dies= Go play. It's in the puzzle section. Fun chaotic stuff. Heh... ^^V
... Just when you thought you knew someone... then you discover an aspect about them you never suspected they had. Hum.... =blinks= Sucks you know? And someone please hurt all the stupid girls parading around constantly nagging me to vote for them for homecoming queen. Screwwwwww youuuuuu!!!!! =shakes fist angrily= Like becoming homecoming queen is actually important. =snorts= Well, it's too much effort to actually wait in that huge line to vote for the king and queen so meh. Well, I'm having serious problems figuring out who on earth to do my recs. Heh. I need to figure it out really really really soon. =dies= I'm pretty sure I can get Mrs. Sperotto to do one, but who else? Gyaaaaaaaah. Brain melt down.... Mr. Mazzoni thinks I'm a lazy bum since I sleep in his class and fail tests. =cries= and... I dunno if Mr. Newland knows anything about me. I think the only thing he knows is that I'm quiet and I'm best friends with Laura. =frowns= Sucks. Grrrrrrrrrrr.... Well, you never know, I haven't looked at the apps yet. They might actually want a math teacher. Then I'm screwed. Ms. Gould left this year. Dammit!!!! Grrrrr and she didn't even let us know. Grrrrrrrrrrr. Well either way, CONCERT MONDAY!!!! O.O Nervous as hell because we still can't get the re after singing a do. x.x It's a long pause okees?? This Monday's rehearsal was godawful. I was the only one with the re and since I'm a coward, I sang even quieter than normal. Ms. Walter pointed outt hat I had it and everyone went zhoomp! Stare at Evelyn! Watch as Evelyn melts into a puddle and dies!!!! Seriously sucked. Then Ms. Walter went on a super campaign to get me to sing louder when all she managed to do was make me so nervous, all my muscles were sore after rehearsal. The only good thing that came out of that rehearsal was the fact that the belter girl that was horribly off was moved far far away from me on the 3rd row. I'll be very happy if she either stays there for the rest of the year. Even better, she gets moved even further away. Oooh even better, she gets kicked out of choir! =cackles maniacly= *cough* Oookay. I'll be good now. That entry was long overdue. ^^V So! Either way, RenFest!!! When is it over? You guys know if it's going on during the thanksgiving holiday? That would be great if it did. *siiigh* I really really really want to go!!!! Have to go before college. Besides I haven't gone in 2 years. I feel deprived. Well! Ok. I think that's all. I'll go back to my Cal hw now. ^^V It's pretty easy today. Yay! Jsut lots of it. But that's okay. I'm downloading the 6th episode of GetBackers painfully slowly. BitTorrent killz. x.x 6 kb/s Gyaaaaaaah. I'm a 59% tho. That's better than yesterday's efforts. I'm determined to download all the fansubs before GetBackers gets liscenced. I will get a complete anime series!!!!! Well ok, I have Pretear, but it's bad quality. ^^V
merrrr... Need to stop bein lazy and see if I can submit part one of the app online. Heh... =dies= I think it's really really late since Rice mailed me part one over the summer... x.xV Oh well. I also need to edit my essays and give them to Ms. Bagley to read over. Hopefully she'll say it's good. =hides= Scared. I squeaked by English with my awesome deductive skills. lol Also I'm really suspicious of my computer right now. Every day there's a new patch that has to be downloaded to fix the errors of Win XP. That's seriously screwed up. Either it's downloading the same patch over and over again or there are a crap load of flaws in the Windows system. Heh... That's was funny tho. Mr. Newland got the Panther system for his Mac laptop and he did this thing that made the window for a cube and rotate. I think it was changing users or something. The entire class went "Ooooh." And then he opened a lot of windows and clicked this little button that made all the other windows shrink so you could see all the windows. We all thought that was super spiffy as well. =^^= *sigh* I would buy a Mac except they're more expensive than cheap imitation pcs. ^^V Merf. Ah well. Mom signed by godawful Cal progress report and she didn't yell at me! =beams happily= Of course, I told her I was going to fight to mantain an A. It's not that far away. I have an 87.4 =glares= Blasted test. My grades are 100, 104, 100, 100, 72. But the 100s are not worth much. Grrrrrrrr. Well, I currently addicted to Even in Death. A song from Evanescence's Origin cd. You can go to Fortissimo to download it. Lots of other random songs up there. ^^V From Bach to Michael Jackson, who would have guessed. ^^V Well, I better get to work now. =scowls at Cal book=
Well isn't this just friggin peachy????? =fingers inch towards katana= Grrrrrrrrrrrr. Mom refuses to give me her legal name. wtf? "Don't you think I can choose who to give my legal name to?" Yes you can but what's so horibble about giving your legal name to your daughter so she can write it on her college application?????? The hell? Grrrrgh! It's not like this is some weirdo fantasy world where if you give someone your true name, they can blast you to hell with a slew of curses. Get a grip! Gaaaah! =scowls angrily= Apparently, her other reason for not giving me any information so I can't mail anything is because I asked her with "such a nasty tone." =scowls= I'm sorry, she was trying to read the app to make sure they really needed a legal name. I want to make sure I don't do anything wrong by just putting her real name on there. Is that so hard? =grabs hammer instead and pounds watermelon into a reddish pinkish pulp= Anyway, I seriously hate the entrance pic. You guys agree? Merf. It's ugly. I swear, whatever I do first turns out pretty, but everything else is really really ugly. Well I think I used too many brushes on that one. I'm thinking of redoing it next weekend. Mebbe. Get rid of the eivdence of my ghetto coloring skillz. ^^V Heh. Yah, I had fun with the air brush tho. Haaaaaa.... =dies= Well... Ok. I really didn't know what to do with the entrance pic. I'm thinking of mebbe using transparencies to make it a funny shape. Good? Bad? Heh. ^^V We'll see ne? I got a kick out of extracting pics from the manga pages. I didn't realize it at the time, but png can do transparencies. So I thought I was saving it as a psd with a layer, but it was really just a png file. Make any sense. Ha oh well. I thought that was really really spiffy. ^^ Well... ok. I fergot to fill out the first part of the Rice app so I'm already screwed. Crapcrapcrap. So that and the fact that mom refuses to give me info on herself is making really mad jsut by looking at the Rice app. =scowls= Okay, yah. I need anger management classes or something. One of these days I swear I'm going to blow up and kill someone. x.x But! I'm proud to say I've never gone past yelling. I think the punching pillow thing is seriously stupid. No offense if anyone reading this does it. ^^V Never works, I just feel stupid doing it. So I usually run to my room and pace like a madman. ^^ Or make a super long blog entry! Haaaaaaaa.... *cough* Yeeaah.... So! I'll try and brave the storm after dinner and get the info from my... =grumbles to self= mom... Then I can start on other apps! Until then, I get to brainstorm ideas of what on earth I can contribute to whatever blasted college I'm applying to. Merf. =must resist temptation to go play Rocket Mania=
Meh. This is weird. =.=.... Yupyup. New layout. From Yamato Gensouki. Evil short manga. Cut off right when you least expect it. Gyaaaaaaaaaah. x.xV Either way... =gets out pointer= =points at entrance page and main banner= The Guy in front is Shion. He's the main character in my opinion. Tho I guess you could say Iyo was also a main character. She's okay I guess... We never find out her past even tho the mangaka keeps alluding to it. =glares at mangaka= =points at guy behind Shion on main banner= That it Kouma. Evil cool guy with this huge obsession with beating Shion. It's almost like a scary competitive brother complex. ^^V So! This layout is rather.... Blaaah. I keep trying to make the banner smaller height-wise but noooooo. Ev keeps trying to make the banner bigger! Gyaaah. x.x So! Yesh. You notice you can tell when I'm messing with layouts when the tag board starts to slowly change colors? lol Well, changing the colors of the tag board is hell. The code is evil to read and it gives me a headache. The only way I can really get it is if I change it bit by bit constantly saving and seeing the results. =dies= Meh. But Geocities is screwing with my layouts page. I had to go through the Geocities editor to fix some of the links. It's adding extra letters to the urls and I dunno why. =glares angrily at Geocities= The original file that was uploaded is fine. Hmph. Eeeeeeeviiiil.
October 18, 2003
Merrr.... So many stupid mistakes.... What the crap is "escritaron"???? Why on earth did I write that? =dies= So many stupid mistakes. >.< Oiiiiiiiiii. Well, oh well. I dunno what possessed Sra. Garcia to give me an A- for grammar but.... Oh well. Psycho I'm telling you. I should have gotten a C-. Ah well, I need that grade. If I keep this up, my Spanish grade with go up significantly. Wheee!!!! =dances around= I also have to start working really hard in CompSci. =dies= A B!!!!! Sucks I tell you. Especially since Mom's watching my CompSci grades like a hawk. "You entire future relies on your CmpSci grades. You need to do really well on the AP! Blah blah blah blah Nag nag nag." =glares at Mom= Can't even have fun anymore without sneaking around her. Grrrrrrr. Well, either way. Anyone want to buy a Chickfila calendar??? =smiles hopefully= It's only $5!!! Scary cows dressed as superheros! $20 worth of coupons? C'mon help the Ev-is-forced-to-go-on-the-expensive-LA-trip cause! On that note, anyone have an extra calendar? I'm dying here without a single calendar in the house. Baaaaaah. x.x Well either way, yesh. Mom's gone right now, so imma go back to Psychometerer Eiji. I swear the bad guys give me the creeps. Did I ever mention this? The mangaka draws the bad guy as a solid black figure with bulging white eyes so you can't tell who it is. It scares the crap out of me and if it weren't for the interludes, I'd go insane. Interludes are really funny. ^^V Tho sometimes really hentai. >.< Ah well. I have the sneaking suspicion this is more of a guy's manga.... =dies= Ah well. I'll stop reading if I get nightmares. Heh. Not likely tho. I don't get nightmares. I do have an overactive imagination that creeps me out enough when I'm awake. I remember there was this time long ago I would walk around the house with my staff closing all the doors and attacking the shadows. ^^V I try not to think about it too much especially now that the noises outside are very loud and frequent. That's no good tho. Soon, I'll be oblivious to any noises and anyone can sneak up on me. Also I think all this constant exposure is going to make me deaf like all the stupid teenagers out there right now. *siiigh* Ah well, who ever heard of an assassin with glasses? lol j/k =^^=
October 17, 2003
Vignette page up! =does a little dance= Okay... Sorry excuse of a vignette. lol Er... Yes... Anyway, Red raspberry lollipop no good. here, i'll make a list. Just because I feel like wasting my time this way. ^^V 3 being ok 5/5 being very good
- mint chocolate chip : 5/5
- sour black cherry : 3/5
- caramel apple : green part-5/5 brown part--2/5
- red raspberry : 3/5
I think that's all I bought from myself. hm! Pretty good! ^^V I thought I bought 6. Heh.... Either way, now I get to but them, not sell them! Wheeeeeee. Except, now all the good flavors are gone. =sniffle= We'll buy Orange from Laura on Monday. =evil grin= Either way, .hack//SIGN music is good to a certain extent. What's with the endless number of Twilight songs??? =.=V Also, after awhile, they all start blending together and sounding alike. Eeeeehhhhhh.... Yeeeaaaahhh.... So! Yesh. Sadly enough angel sanctuary music does the same thing. >.< Merf. Sucks. Miyu has bad music too. How evil is this? Funny, a lot of the anime I like has sucky music. Merf. I guess you just can't win. Inuyasha was cool today. Stupid squealy girls though. Grrrrrrgh.... Must resist urge to strangle. Everytime Inuyasha so much as lept into the air you heard at least 2 girls going "Squeeeeeee!!!!!" =twitch twitch= Stupid =mutter mutter= Grrrrrrr. Well, I forgot Leslie's birthday!!!!!!! Gyaaaaaaaah!!!!! Every single year! =grumbles= I suck. You know that? Meh.
October 16, 2003
I made a paper junk box of all the "materials" I kept just because I could use it on a card. Heh... ^^V I'm a pack rat. x.x Well, I was opening one ball of tissue paper when all this silver glitter exploded onto my desk. Note to self: when seeing a ball of tissue paper innocently sitting around, never open it quickly by pulling on two opposite ends. x.x I have silver glitter all over my desk now. =.=V
Oh and just a side question... You guys mind if I link you all on my blog? I dunno why, but I feel like making a page linking all of you. Let me know if you don't want to be linked okees? And if you do, make a button! That makes things more interesting ne? Hee hee. Hm... What's the standard size...? Eh... 88x31 pixels... ? Heh, I just went onto a random site and looked to see what all their button sizes were. Well, button banner thingie. Okay *cough* I'm sure you all know what on earth I'm talking about... Or do you? ^^V Heh okay, I'm gonna go now. Mom's nagging and the only thing keeping me sane was the glitter explosion and the fact that I downloaded a crap load of new mp3s last night. ^^V
October 15, 2003
=fumes angrily= She wants a list of dates. She wants me to write down a list of all the stupid friggin dates every friggin thing is due so she can monitor me like the crazy banshee nazi woman she is. =scowls angrily= I am very very tempted to run around screaming and throwing things. Or at least beat someone or something into a bloody pulp. She has been nagging me non-stop! For 3 days straight. You need to do this. You need to do that. Screw off! Graaaaaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhh. Okay! So if you hear a shrill scream followed by a loud explosion, that's me being pushed past my limits of not so well contained fury. Behold the demons of hell. My friends. You die now bastard.
October 12, 2003
Laura is baaaaack! lol well she was back yesterday. Wheeeeee!!!! And I went insane with her request. She wanted me to write down what we did in class etc and I er.... Yes... She has a booklet now. ^^V Either way... I want extra time!!!!!!!! I have the strongest urge to work on Nelmir. Hm....... Baaaaaaaah. x.x =dies= I have to go do Cal now. I'm semi-behind. I only did half of last times hw and I also have to do tonight's hw. Merf. Well! Tomorrow.... Gr. I get to go do the committee project and then choir rehearsal. We get to have a "dress rehearsal" so Mr. Marshall can make sure our dress's are the right length and our shoes are okay. Stupid.... =glares angrily= Guys get to point and laugh since they don't have to do anything!!!!!!!!! =scowls= I think he should make the guys dress up as well, just so we don't feel stupid. Mr. Mashall's planning to run around with a ruler making sure our hem is .5 inches above the floor. Good freakin god!!!! x.x Grrrrrggghhhh. Oh well. We already knew he was serously anal. What else is new.
October 10, 2003
Laura called!!!!!!!! =smile beam mope mope mope smile? beam? mope. = -.-... I miss her. But! she'll be back tomorrow!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! =dances around happilly=
October 9, 2003
e_eV Gyaaah, I just had a major stupidity influx. Graaaaaaaaaa.... Brain... melting... down..... Must... Block... off.... stupidity..... Run... run while you still can...... =dies= Baaaaaaah. Okay, Linh told me she had ann's blog linked of her blog. So! Out of curosity for how stupid people even live in the world I innocently clicked the link. GYAH! She... It's.... Just look.
damn dis weekend seemed soo long! 1st of all i told mah mom that im goin to bishop debate tourney so i can b out the whole weekend. friday dere waz johns party but my restaurant got so damn bz it was incredible. lines were goin out the door @ midnyte when we close!!!! evry1 had to stay n i left @ round 1am.
SEE???!!!!! Geeeeh. x.x Man. At least they're not doing the random caps thing. That's makes me feel seasick. I bet if you ran her blog through spell check the program would scream in terror, break, then die. *siigh* Either way... =shift gaze= Manga hunt!!!!! Merrrr. I want new manga to read.. Hm.....
October 8, 2003
Oh that's too funny. Sakura-crisis is back up. Using the same layout pic as Grace and the same avatar pic as me. lol I was going to use the avatar pic for Grace's board but I got a cool pic of Kirito that I had to make an avatar of. As dinky as it is. lol Kirito's cooler than Cain. ^^V Eiiither way... Merrrrf. I dun wanna study for English but I really have to since she didn't go over everything and we're having a quiz tomorrow. It's still really weird. Ms. Bagley is going so slowly and repeating everything and yet somehow we're ahead of all the other classes. lol I don't even feel as if she's rushing us! Hum! lol ah well. I guess you never realize how quickly you're going until you go to another class. It's like how Cal doesn't seem to be going to fast but I bet if I dropped to AB it'd hit me over really hard. What really frustrates me is that I could be getting a high A in Cal right now if I was in AB. But I'm still not dropping! Grrrrrrrrrr. I wiiill be stubborn. Baah I say. ^^V I found out Ben doesn't study for anything.... Grrrrr. Evil part of top 5 people person. You know, Alina doesn't either. Graaaa! Damn their natural intelligence. =dies= Merf. No fair. Absolutely noooo faiiirrrrrr. You know, school's no fun without Laura. As much as she bothers me sometimes, I miss her. I have literally the first half of the day with her. Spanish, CompSci, Cal and lunch. All boring without her. well, I can kind of endure Spanish and Cal but CompSci is horrible. I'm so quiet now. x.x Seriously sucks. She needs to get back nowww!!!! And from what Linh is saying, I dunno if Laura will actually enjoy the Yellowstone trip... Actually, I'm kind of scared of the Yellowstone trip now. Hm! Mebbe Laura will come back with a boyfriend! =cackles maniacly= Heh. sorry, it's just that everytime I think of Laura getting a boyfriend I think of, "If my boyfriend wants to hug me, he's going to have to do it from 3 feet away!" =grins= That's Laura for ya. ^^ Well, I've successfully corrupted Suz so now she really likes Cherry Filter. Go meeee!!! The singer really does sound like Alanis Morissette. Except the singer from Cherry Filter has a bigger range. =shakes fist= I was trying to hit some of the really really high notes she sings in the bg and I couldn't. Most of them are about a half step too high for me. God that just kills. It seriously seriously kills. Graaarrrgh.... x.x Merf. Ryan may want to be able to sing chords, but I just want to be able to sing every note a human can possibly sing and without much strain. Grrrrrrrrr...
October 6, 2003
=gapes= I just got this huge magazine thing from USC just because I filled out a postcard saying I was interested... Eeep! x.xV This thing is huuuuuuge!!!!! Gyaaaaaaaaaah. I got dizzy trying to read the thing since it was so big. Either way, yah. I'm really nervous about not going to school today. Ever since Lanier I swear. x.x No school today riiight??? =dies= Merf. Weellllll.... Okay. Yah. Imma go now. Browsing around the admissions site really has me feeling kind of sad. I want to get out of state but Mom doesn't want me to. She says I should go out of state for graduate school, not as an undergrad. *sigh* I guess so... I like Pomona. =^^= Anyone hear any bad rumors? Have to have inside info. lol
October 5, 2003
=.=V I just realized my pencil case is scarily coordinated. x.x I honestly didn't mean to do that. It didn't really reguster earlier even tho Naida poked through my bag and said, "Oh cute! They're all purple!" =dies= Ah well. I have finally found a Korean rock band! I'm very proud of myself. =grins= Go meeeeee. And you thought Korean Rock didn't exist. =cackles maniacly= Bwah ha ha ha ha ha!!!!!! Even scarier is this is a female singer. But the rest are guys. lol I want to find a video clip iof some kind. She's pretty cool but I guess you kind of have to get used to the music. It's kinda loud at times. And she kinda get shrilly at times, but not in the Ayumi kind of way. What's really weird is track 6. There's some a sound clip they use that is the same clip used for Linkin Park's Cure for an Itch. I swear it's weird. This cd was released in 2002. anyone know when the 1st Linking Park d was released? 2002 I think.... So! Which sound clip came first! who's listening to who? Too funny in my opinion. ^^V Either way, there's also a funny rumr going around that Boa migh be playing Cho in the hp movies. Yes Suz, Kwon Boa. I ever mention her English is horrible? That and she's 17. Everyone else is 16 or 15 right? Okay, that doesn't sound too weird except they're playing 13 or 14 year olds right? And Boa looks really mature unlike the main characters of the hp movie. Sooooo.... This should be interesting ne? Boa not only trying to speak english but with a British accent. =cackles maniacly= Ok, mebbe they won't be that cruel. ^^V We'll see what really happens ne?
October 4, 2003
Braket is halfway unglued and mother the brilliant decided to not listen to Evelyn and move the dentist appointment from this Tuesday to November. Why you ask? Because apparently the pain will be so great I can't recover by the following Saturday for the SAT. This conclusion was made based ont he fact that my braces have never given me more than 2 days of mild pain that can be cured with gum chewing. =glares angrily= Hopefully we can move it back but if not, we're screwed and maybe mom will learn to listen to me more often. =snort= Mebbe not. =scowls=
e_eV Thinking too much. I just read Neji. Merrrrr. It's a really spiffy scifi manga from Kaori Yuki. Weird. I've never read a scifi thingie by Kaori Yuki before. But now I'm thinking too much. Last weekend I read Anne Freaks. That was depressing and frustrating and grargh! I statrted out thinking Anne was cool then I hated her. lol But ah well. Poeple have to go read that and Neji. Both morbid and stuff lol. Ah well. Laura's leaving today for the Yellowstone trip. =shniffles= I get to fend for myself for a week. >.< Sucks. Merrrr. Well Anime club meeting was pretty good this Friday! Wheeee!!! I need to learn hwo to check off stuff in the correct column but it's okay. lol Onii-chan said he'd let me borrow the entire series of Trigun so I'm really happy since It's hard to read the subtitles during the club meetings. Wheeee!!!! First thing Ev is going to do is copy them. Bwah ha ha ha ha ha!!!! Since I'm pretty surehe's got the stolent version not the dvd version. Heh. That means it can fit on a cd-r =grins= Merf. I got picked on after the club meeting tho. So mean. Onii-chan and Chase were both picking on me then Laura decided to go "Hey! Don't pick on my best friend!" =pokes Evelyn pokepokepoke= "Only I can do that!" x.x No fair. 3 taller people against one poor innocent midget. Well it's okay. I was hyper after school anyway. When I'm hyper I can be picked on easier. lol