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April 30, 2003
9:49 PM
Why? Why do people like this song? I can't figure it out? It's the ending song to Spirited Away. The song won awards for gods sake!!!! I find it rather bland. Actually, very bland. Of course if you watch the movie and then listen to the song it's beautiful. It's so weird. I'm listening to it right now on mp3 and I think it's close to nothing but after watching it earlier the song haunted me. I thought it was the most beautiful thing and I kept grinning like a maniac. It's so sad you know? Call me the tragedian but I don't think Haku will ever get to be with Chihiro. Ever. Because he can't cross the river. So the last scene where he lets go of her hand makes me want to cry. And you know what? Tell me something else. Like why they do it. Why don't they see? It hurts people. It really does. She isn't like me okay? And I swear, if you make her cry I will hate you for the rest of my life. Call it over dramatic. She doesn't deserve it.
You're my only friend.
Yeah right. I'm sure you have at least one more.
No... They've all used me and then left.
...
So I guess it's your turn.
To what?
To use me.
Music: Spirited Away - Itsumo Nando Demo (Always with Me)
Blurb: Is it beautiful now?
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April 27, 2003
2:48 PM
=grumbles= I'm not a morning person. =scowls= ^^;;; I know. It's not the morning, but I only have 9 hours of sleep in me. I went to bed at 4 and woke up at 1. So I guess 9 is enough but... =shrugs= Oh well. I felt better last night/this morning. Haaaaaa.... I-Chih fixed my copy of Spirited Away so I got to watch it. =grins maniacly= You guys have to watch it. Haku-chaaaan! =glomps= I wanna dragon boyfriend!!! ^^;;; *cough* Either way, this is supposed to be a music update entry so here goes....
Okay, first off, I deleted Fake - Everglow, Gackt - Birdcage, Gackt - Kimi ga Oikaketa Yume , Akino Arai - The Wish, and Akino Arai - Sakasama no Niji. Aaaaannd I'm uploading
Chachamaru ft Gackt - Kagero: Okay, this is the song at the end of my Poison cd... Ithink... Dun remember. ^^;;;; I've been listening to mp3s a lot more than cds okee? Haaaa... Either way, this is Chachamaru featuring Gackt. It's an awesome song. Beautiful guitar. Hmmm... I wonder why???? Lol. Chachamaru is a guitarist. That's why. Haaaa. And you plug in Gackt and you get super cool! =beams= Oh btw, sorry I had to bump the song all the way down to a 96 kbit. >.< It couldn't be helped. 112 kbits made the song 5.11 mb. Sowweeee... So it's not as clear as it could be.... Well, you prolly can't tell too well, but if you hear the original, you'll be able to tell at the high clash areas... Does that make any sense?? ^^;;;
Pierrot - Medianoid: Cool song. I mean cool song. Pierrot!!!! I haff un qvestion... ^^ In Agatha Christie, is the character Pierrot or Peirrot? Anyway, that's a random question. Pierrot is a jorck band. Dun think they're visual kei. They look relatively normal.... Of course, jrock bands never really look normal.... Haaaa... But you ever decide to look up Malice Mizer, you'll understand what visual kei is. That's basically a visual rock band. I usually dun like visual kei music anyway. =shrugs= It's a lot less musical and a lot more strange. Who knows tho... I might grw into it. ^;;; I used to hate Pierrot with a passion because the music gave me a headache...
Pierrot - Paradox: Bouncy rock music. Hee hee hee... By the way, most jrock bands sound like the main singer. Weird higher voices. Gackt is the major exception. Keep that in mind. Jrock is not Gackt. Too bad tho. =^^=
Pierrot - Purple Sky: It starts out as messed up, but then. =grins= Me gusta esa cancion. =winces= Need accent mark. Ah well.
Sakamoto Maaya - Koucha: Just in! I just got it last night! It's sooo cool. Well... Not the same cool as the others. So actually, take a break before listening to this because there's a huge change in music style. Durrrr... Well anyway, I love this song. I keep wanting to smile when I hear it. Not a happy smile but a calm smile? Ermmm.... Yes.... Either way, typical super cool Sakamoto Maaya song. Beautiful as usual. =beams= Must buy her cd no matter how much it costs. Do you know where they sell it in Houston? Delivery makes her cds about $21. I tihnk.. Just a guess...
Anyway.... =glares at Yahoo= Yahoo's not working with me.... We're going to pray that Yahoo will stop pretending to upload my songs and really upload them... =glareglare= So that I don't have to post this a lot later and confuse the heck out of people.... I actually converted files a lot faster than uplaoding them for once.... =glares= Anyway, I'll go do my hw while trying to upload the songs. This will be posted after everything gets uplaoded. Hopefully by the end of today. So basically, this time's not going to make any sense. Hee... Ja!
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April 26, 2003
4:56 PM
Okay! Right click on the link and click "Save target as" Honda Accord : COG commercial Download it! Now! It's the coolest commercial ever! It starts off with one cog setting off this super cool chain reaction! =grins like a madman= It's sooo cool. So! Anyway, it's a very small file too. =grins some more= Oh hey! I'm planning to upload stuff on Briefcase! But I have to type up my Phys journal first okees? I did upload something earlier. It's Inoran's Monsoon Baby. Cool song. It's in English so you guys can sing along. Pretty song. So! Yesh, I will go. I have to do a lot before my cousin gets here so mebbe I'll upload Pierrot tomorrow...
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April 25, 2003
8:09 PM
=grins= I had the greatest English day ever. Ms. Quaite wasn'tt here so we didnt review for the APs. Better yet, she didn't leave a lesson plan! =grins= So we spent the time just blabbing away. I realized that I have lots of cool people in my English class. It was funny. I spent the time talking to Elton, Ron and eventually Brian. Miranda, Simi, and Sang had left to watch another group play Spoons and prolly other card games. =shrugs= I miss Grace in the class, but I still had lots of fun. =grins= Guys are a lot cooler than girls. End of story. Hee hee. Once you get me talking, it's easier to talkto guys. Dunno why. Hum! Either way, it was fun. You guys should meet Ron at least. You all would like him. He's cool. =bemas= And to top it all off I'm listening to Fragrance! =drools= Gackt sound the coolest in this song. It's got to be the most seductive (?) song by him, yet it has nothing to do with seduction. lol
I can't even figure out where I'm headed
Fading memory is slowly drawn
Towards the wind by a slender thread
I listen closely to the voice of my troubled heart
"What in the world
was I born to do..."
Yes, it's asking
The moon is always gazing at me
Even now, the answer has yet to come
Please let me hear
The voice...
Please show me
The dream...
Because even if I fall into unending sleep
There's nothing to be afraid of
Please teach me
The truth...
Please tell me
The crime...
As my hidden self is
Wet with red tears...
Only affection is becoming greater
I can't remember anything
Not even the name of the past
I can't do anything anymore
The moon is always, quietly,
Letting the rain keep falling...
*sighs* Anyway. Mom and I talk a lot now. =grins= It's fun talking to Mom. =beams= It scares me tho. She's not getting better. She just coughs. It's not a nice cough either, it's a phlegm-y one. It scares me. Mom's weaker than me, but I'm the one that always gets sick. Now she's sick. She hasn't been sick in a long time. *sigh* I hope she gets better. I told her she's not allowed to die until I die. I don't think I can live without her. Or mebbe I'm just selfish. Without her, i'd have to face dad. I couldn't stand that. *sigh* Anyway, gtg eat dinner. I'll be back and add more to this entry.
*sigh* registering for the Sat is complicated. I'm afraid I'll click one wrong thing and get charged for it. =grumbles= Anyway, I can't pick a location until Mom comes over which may be awhile. *siiigh* How did you guys take it at Bellaire? I'm confused.... =rubs head= Oiiiii.... I guess it changes since it's the summer time and schools are closed. Anyway, I ran out of things to say after dinner so I'm gtg now. Ja!
Music: Gackt - Fragrance
Blurb: Gaaaackt-saaaaan!!!! =glomp=
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April 21, 2003
9:24 PM
*sighs* It's the battle oft he homework. Which one to try and frantically rush to finish first? I had a talk with mom. She told me to move on. Ha. Even she says so. You realize how hard it is? What if I did? But I'm already trying. Isn't it hard. We all know it is. That's why we're all fighting. We can't move on. Back then I said it wasn't my fault. They woldn't let me go. I realize I can't let them go. I can't let go of the memories I used to have. I keep reliving them hoping one day everything will be okay again. Then I realize it'll never be okay. It wasn't even oay back then. So then what? *sigh* I think I'm going to try harder to take Mom's advice. I'll try to move on. I've already been trying but maybe I was too afraid to really do anything... *sigh* oaky, well anyway, back to work right?
Music: Gackt - Sekirei
Blurb: I absolutely refuse to spell it the proper way which is Seki Ray. =grumbles= It looks so wrong.
3:05 PM
First off, Suz sent me another eye! Tho it was awhile ago... ^^;;; Sowweee... Too lazy to upload! ^^;;;; Then again... I dun think I've actually uploaded my previous entries either... Haaaaaaa... Either way! suz's eye! Right.
Pretty as usual. On to the second thing!
Suz sent me the lyrics to Birdcage!!!!!!! And Kimi ga Oikaketa Yume!!!!! (Arigatou gozaimasu Nia-chan!) But! Birdcage is more important. Always more important! =beams and cries because she's listening to it too much=
Inside of the light, I saw my youthful memories
They're still too far off for me, filthy as I am now
Inside of the darkness, I called your name over and over again
Inside of the endless time, there's no one there but you
I lock myself up, unable to even atone
I can't do anything but pray...my sadness is not cured
I tore off a single damp petal from a hydrangea
It floats in a puddle, and I remember you
In the evening just after the rain, I faintly heard the far off whistle of a ship
For some reason, it made me sad
If I can't be forgiven, then everything can disappear
The sadness and the pain, to the world that doesn't need anything
I lock myself up, unable to even atone
I can't do anything but pray...my sadness is not cured
From the gently crying sky, I also heard your voice
I laughed through gathering tears, but I couldn't see anything...
Inside of the light, I saw my youthful memories
Even the soundless smile is happy right now
I can't return to that time ever again
When we were laughing
Waaaaaaaiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Beautiful songs! =shniffles= I have to at least hunt down the lyrics to Generous and Sum since they both also send chills down my spine. Depressing songs always do that.
Aaaaannd last but not least. Dun wanna go to school tomorrow. Can we have another religious holiday? Pwwwweeeeese? :3
Music: Gackt - Birdcage
Blurb: Want purple contacts but I can't even put in regular ones. =pouts= Weenie.
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April 19, 2003
12:55 PM
Spirited Away isn't working.... =pouts to self= Sucks you know? =grumbles= Dun wanna work on my mental map. Graaaaaa.... *sigh* You know what? Listening to this song, I realize Andy would have been great in HOT. =pouts to self= then HOT would have been a group of 6! =cackles maniacly= Andy was a better rapper back in the old days. =grumbles= Stupid Eric for corrupting him. =kickkick= ^^;;; Either way.... You all think I'm psycho by now right? Haaaa.... Ah well. Sokay. Everyone thinks I'm psycho. Hee... You know what's funny? Cindy wants to go to Taiwan to become a singer! I told mom and she laughed and said she'd never make it. How's that for you? Mom always liked Cindy. She's never met her, but she says Cindy has a nice smile. (Prolly because I don't smile enough ^^;;;) Either way, I thought Mom would just kind of shrug and say maybe but Mom just said no. Lol! Mebbe she can go to LA and audition. They're holding auditions this month for SM Town. I think they do it every year. Either way, LA's closer than Taiwan ne? I want to see the auditions! It'd be so cool! It's not just singing, but dancing, and composing! Mebbe I've only been exposed to these certain singers, but the amjority of the singers I listen to actually compose all or part of their album. Kangta composes all of it. HOT composed the amjority of it. Each singer composed 2 to 3 songs. Shinhwa's worse. They only have mebbe 4 or 5 songs per album. Sometimes even less. HeeJun composes all of his album also. I think Fly to the Sky does since I've heard that Brian composes his own lyrics. Toh I dun think Boa or Joanne does... But they're really young so they might later. Oh you know what was scary? There was this rumor going around that Minwoo was dating this girl he met on the Rose War. The Rose War was a show where they basically took stars and paired them up with other stars.... For Valetines Day. It was silly, but either way, when the rumor came out people sent hate mail to the girl. They sent her a picture of herself all torn up and bloody. That was probably the worst reported but honestly.... Fans are insane. Either way, I'm going to go now. Ja!!!
Music: Shinhwa - Story of Sadness
Blurb: The angst!!! =glomps Draco= =^^=
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April 18, 2003
1:31 PM
Waaaaiii! Pierrot rocks!!!!!! Phweeeee!!!!!!!! I never thought rock music could make you want to bounce around but Pierrot does. =grins insanely= Anyway, I just finished browsing Ben's blog. O.OV It looks like a girl's blog. No offense to him but it does. It's got the Java script falling smiley stars and the burst of hearts whenever you click and it's got a midi bg. o.O... But either way. Poor Ben. I just want to hug him right now He's one completely depressed guy. I seriously never thought he was like that but it could seriously explain why he always looks so tired. But I can't because I'm not his friend. Ever met someone that you really wanted to be good friends with, but it just wasn't going to happen? I know lots of people that I wanted to be friends with. *sighs* But I can't. I think it's because I'm so damned boring. Haaaa... Dun ask me. I had this major revelation on the New Orleans trip, but I don't think I'll bother saying it sicne you all will be like, "That's not true Ev!" or "Awwww poor Ev." Or something hideous to that effect. >.< Either way, jsut thought I'd mention it to you. If you're good friends with a Ben, hug him and say your psycho friend read his blog and wanted to hug him but couldn't.
Music: Pierrot - Paradox, Medianoid, and Purple Sky
Blurb: I can't believe I didn't like Pierrot before and ooo!!! I found the COOLEST pics of Gackt!!!!! Waaaaaaaaaiiiii!!!!!! Bishounen desu! See!!!!
Yeah, ignore the Trading Card thingie. ^^;;;; Gackt trading cards.... O.OV
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April 17, 2003
5:47 PM
=grins happily= I just finished Ice Age. I change my mind... I love the movie. =gringringrin= Hee hee. Anyway, I'm so happy right now becuase I get to sleep tonight. Sleeeeeeeeeep.... Oooooooooo.... =gringringrin= And I can dance! And I can read fanfics! And I can catch up on my manga! Hee hee hee... I'm hapy even tho I just failed 2 tests!!! =cackles maniacly= Anyway, I really have nothing much to say so I'm going to go. Ja!
Music: Fly to the Sky - No More Games
Blurb: I really like the Ice Age music too. =shrugs= Weird...
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April 14, 2003
4:29 PM
IIIIEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! We floated! And I paddled like a madman! Yahahahahahahaha!!!!!! I was freaked out as we were paddling down the end of the pool because the second I got in I felt water on my knee. It turned out I just splashed water in but I didn't know that. So I freaked out. For the first minute or so we were spinning around at the beginning then We started paddling straight. Betsy told me to paddle harder and by that time I had this huge adrenaline rush and as Betsy described it, I went Amazon woman on her and quickly we got to the end of the pool. As we turned Betsy's paddle broke so I had to paddle to the edge of the pool where Mr. Granoff offered to let us get out but instead we decided to just get a new paddle and paddle to the end where we got out. Wow. We had to drag the boat all the way around to the dumpster and all the way there I was screaming. Lol!!!!! Huge adrwenaline rush. It was a lot of fun but I can promise you I'll never ever do it again. Wow. Betsy told me after that if we had sunk, because my life jacket couldn't zip up all the way, the life jacket would have popped off me and I would have drowned. ^^;;;; Anyway! Just a side note to Ry who's prolly confused, this is the cardboard boat I was building with Betsy. Did I make an entry about that? I think I did. Anyway wow..... Oh! And Jing said that you said hi! Hiyeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! Lol. So anyway! I gtg back to the enormous amounts of junk I have to do since I missed school. =grumbles=
Music: Evanescence - Bring Me to Life
Blurb: Wow... I love this song. Just because I love the intro. Piano! It's so beautiful! It's currently my most favorite English alternative song. ... That's playing on the radio at least. Hee hee. My favorite English alt song is really Everglow. Tell me if you want me to post it k? I want feedback on the music peoples!!!! =gives an evil eyes= ^^
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April 13, 2003
8:53 PM
Waaaiii!!!!!! I'm alive! Well... Not really... Iseriously have no time to type this entry, but I'm too tired to do anything else1 Hee hee. Guess what? Before I left I-Chih loaded a bunch of avi codecs onto my compie so now I can seethe Vanilla and Eneter the Dragon Perf! Waaaaaiii!!!! Gackt-sama!!!!!!!! He's actually dancing!!!! e_eV Welll.... Errr.... n/m But! Enter the Dragon's super cool. It's by JTl. But the danceing is awesome. =sghs= I wish I could dance. Hey! During the trip at this horrible restaurant we did the Chicken Dance. It was great. =giggles= Thre trip was exhausting tho. I'm sick of charter buses now. I hate them. =scowls= I've determined Madeline's great and Katherine's super cool. Dunno why, I just think so. Yort is Troy backwards and because of that he beat Suz's backwards name. We won! =grins= And we heard one of the choirs sing a song at the House of Blues (we ate there from brunch) and they were pretty good. Their song was boring tho.... ^^;;; Anyway, I could ramble on for hours but hey, I have no time! Haaaaa.... Wonderful Laura told me the mental map was postponed to Tuesday but the physics hw was pushed up to Tuesday. =cries= Anyway, I gtg read the Africa packet. =grumblegrumble=
Music: Fly to the Sky - No More Games
Blurb: Gackt-sama!!!!!!! Suz, you seriously have to see the date clip. You'd like it. Jenny too. Must corrupt people. =cackles madly= He's a bishounen. =nodnodnodnodnod= With a cool voice! =^^=
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April 6, 2003
3:44 PM
Spring forward. Pah. Stupid springing forward. =scowls= Anyway, Suz sent me a cool remake of the fuzzy eye! Yeaaaaaah!
=beams= You guys are all so talented. My question is, did you all color on top with a separate layer or something? Yeah, so! If you can even understand my question (=cries=) let me know. I need to start drawing again but oh well. ^^;;;; I haven't drawn a real pict in a looong loong time. I think the last time was this sumemr. Haaaaaa... But I love cg-ing even tho it all looks like crap to me. =^^= Oh and guys... Thanks. For everything. Just remember that okees?
Music: Gackt-sama - Birdcage
Blurb: We can't afford to forget anymore. Oblivion will only kill.
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April 5, 2003
9:07 PM
Cami! Camis for everyone! ^^;;; Mebbe not. Me lurvs camis. Puhahahahaha!!!!!!! Yesh... e_eV Anyway, I deleted Fly the Sky's song and uploaded Akino Arai's The Wish. Remember? The incomplete thing that pissed me off? *sigh* Well I'm uploading the incomplete version so you all can get addicted to it just like me! Super cool song. *sighs unhappily* Oaky, I've got another song to upload so Heejun's song is gone alone with the two Outlaw Star endings and the HOT comics. Anyway! I'm uploading Akino Arai's Sakasama no Niji. It's from Record of Lodoss War and it's pretty also. But in a different way. Oooh! I checked my email and Ry sent me her own remakes of the eye! =grins= They're cool.
=grins= Lots of eyes for Evie!!!!! Oh hey! As a challenge, everyone who's reading this is obligated to remake your own eye or this eye. =grins insanly= If you want to remake you're own eyes, send in a pic of the original please. =grins= I'm gonna post it! Hee hee hee hee. Remember! You have to! You people go to school with me! And I know where you all live! So do it or suffer the consequences! Btw, I wanna see someone do Suz's eye. Hey Suz? Can I take a pict of your eyes one day? =whistles innocently=
Music: Akino Arai - Sakasama no Niji
Blurb: Pretty music. ^^
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April 4, 2003
8:17 PM
Yup, definitely wasting my time effectively! Lol!
Okay, if I had bothered to cut it a bit better, it would have looked nicer. Either way, I had fun with my little manipulation. I didn't end up doing what I wanted to do, which was to simply tint the eye purple, but it was fun. =grin=
6:37 PM
Internet's back!!!! ^^;;;; I killed it. Haaaaaaaaa.... >.< Either way! I'm runnign for office! I'm running for Secretary, Grace is running for Seargent of Arms, and Laura (tall one) is running for President. Puhahahahahahaha!!!!! Actually, depending on the competition, I might just run for historian because there's no way in hell I can compete against Cheng-Ting. =cries= *sigh* Anyway, here are 3 picts. 2 from the middle yard, the last one from Laura's kitchen. She's got these really beautiful roses. Wow. She thought I was a dork for taking pictures of them. ^^;;;
I also have a few cd fragments so once I get the lists full, I can arrange the songs and I'll have 3 more cds to add to my Flawed series: Broken Toys, Dappled (for lack of a better name), and Defiance. =grimaces= Aish. They sound like really bad Gap commercials. >.< Pah. anyway, leaving on Wednesday afternoon for New Orleans with choir for competition. Teachers don't seem to understand I won't have time over the weekend when I get back to do homework since I'm getting back at 5. That was going to be my sleep time. >.< So now it's going to be mad scramble time. Anyway, I must go back to efficiently wasting my time.
Music: Sakamoto Maaya - Getsuyou no Asa
Blurb: Aaaaiiiii!!!!! Gackt-san wa koudanshi desu!!!!!!!! =beams= I was reading the Japanese grammar page and got confused. >.< So I decided to say something I knew how to say. Need a Japanese workbook with answers in the back.