March 31, 2003
6:26 PMAAAAAAAA! INTERNET DIED!!!!!!!!!! =cries= Of course by the time you read this, the internet will be up but currently, the internet is dead. =wants to cry= That means I have to go to physics to go print out my homework!!!!! =wants to cry some more= Mom's being stubborn and she refuses to call I-Chih for help because she wants to figure out how to fix it on her own. Isn't that a guy-only thing to do? =grumbles= I think she just doesn't want to see I-Chih. Well I like him so meh. =scowls some more= Pah I tell you pah!
March 30, 2003
2:15 PMGackt-saaaaaaan!!!!! =grins like a maniac= Ehm... ^^;;; I've uploaded the 2 songs from Gackt's most recent single. They're cooool!!!!!!!!! =gringringringringringringrin= Supersuper cool. ^^;;;; I wanna type a bunch ont he songs but oh well. Let's just say super cool can't even begin to describe how nifty they are. ^^;;;; So! Just a warning. Don't make your speakers too loud okay? They both explode. You'll get what I'm talking about when you hear it. =^^=
Oh, and I deleted Let me Fall because I hate that stupid storage notice thing that shows when you're almost to the limit in space. ^^
March 29, 2003
6:57 PMGackt - How old are you?
Kago - 13.
Gackt - I've never been on a date with a 13 year old girl before. Well, you are 13 years old and I'm 461 this year.
Kago - Eh?????!!!!
Host - Yes, he's 461 this year.
Kago - But how can a man live that long?
Gackt - I don't want you to ask that question.
Lol! It was on a Japanese show where they set Gackt-san with Kago. Dunno exactly who she is but she's not shy enough to just be a fan. Mebbe she's a regular on the show. I know she's not a famous person tho. ^^;;;; Either way. I thought it was the most halarious thing. Hee hee. If you're wondering how I understood it, it was subtitled. I guess it's not that funny when you read it, but it's funny when you see it. -shrugs- Anyway, she's 13 and wow is her voice high. Just like the anime. So! I guess the anime seiyuu are actually accurate. Japanese girls pitch their voices higher. Mebbe that's why whenever people speak Japanese, their voices tend to get igher. Well... Only girls. I think guys stay the same. ^^;;;
1:52 PM
Don't want to work. =scowls= But I haaave to. =scowls= But! I'm looking forward to Mrs. Bell's lecture on japan! =grins maniacly= She's planning to just give us a detailed outline of what she's supposed to be talking aobut and then just spend the entire day showing us slides of her trip to Japan and random facts aobut modern Japan. I'm starting to like her more now. But I still find some of her methods aggravating. But It's okay I guess. The lectures are becoming more and more interesting. I still miss Mrs. Sperotto but I'm getting used to it now. Fake? ! Debating wheter I should try and buy their cd. It's silly sicne I've only heard one song. But I love it so much! *sigh* Watch it be a godawful cd. ^^;;; So! Either way, it's either Heejun or Fake?. Oh btw! Luna Sea broke up in 2000 so that's why Inoue's playing for Fake?. Fake?'s not as popular tho. Mebbe because it's on English. Lol.
Music: Fake? - Everglow
Blurb: You think I should download a shareware program? Hm.... I'm scared it'll kill my compie. But I'm thinking WinMX or Kazaa... Tell me what you think or if you have a better shareware program k?
March 28, 2003
7:54 PMOkay! I know you guys prolly are little dubious (is that the word? Erm... I mean the eyebrow raise thing) about my liking Tonhyuk. ^^;;;; If you haven't figure it out by now it's all good. Either way, I've posted 2 really really cute Tonhyuk fancomics on Briefcase. It's really cute. Hee hee. If you don't get the second one just count the lumps of his head. It's cute. ^^;;;; Either way. Most likely you'll figure out what Tonhyuk is in the end. ^^;;;;;
Music: Baby VOX - Killer
Blurb: Seriously backwards.
6:53 PM
Oi, fergot to upload the last entry. *siiigh* Ah well, wasn't important. ^^;;; Either way, guess whay? I'm going backwards again! Bisa festival's made me look into Japanese music again and now I'm rehooked on Japanese music. ^^;;; Or at least jrock. Definitely stuck on jrock. Sooo cool! Well.... *cough* Anyway, I'm going to see if Briefcase will let me upload this really cool song. It's in English peoples! Okees, here goes my little shpeel (dun ask) about it. ^^;;; Just skip the next paragraph if you don't care.
The band is called Fake? Yes, with a question mark. It consists of two guys (at least to my limited knowledge) Inoue Kiyonobu. He's the guitarist of Luna Sea! (That's supposed to be a really popular jrock band. It's up there with Gackt-sama and Janne da Arc.) Anyway, he teamed up with Kentaro Shibuya/James Lloyd. Put it together and you get Ken Lloyd. I don't know why he has two names, but mebbe it's because he's british-japanese. (Suz goes "Ooooo") He's the vocal in a band called Oblivion Dust. Anyone ever heard of it? Jenny? =shrugs= No clue. Either way. Yes. I've loaded the only song I have of them. I'm surrently addicted to it. =grins happily= Ooo! Funny thing! this morning I was listening to the radio (it's my alarm) and I like the most boring repetitive song. It's by Moonpool. What's it called? Graaah. I fergot! Either way, dunno why I like it. If you analyze it, it sucks but who knows. *cough* Anyway! So! Okay, now it's up on Briefcase. I called it Everglow copy so delete the word copy. I have to change it to 128 kbps so it'd be smaller than 5mb. Sorry, but the quality's still good.
Anyway, sorry peoples, I feel like talking more aobut music so just ignore this entire entry if you hate it. ^^;;;;
Okay, I'm uploading Fly to the Sky's No More Games. This is what I'd like to call crap but catchy music. ^^;;; Trust me when you hear it you're going to wonder why on earth E likes this song. I don't know why!!!!! >.< Either way, the first voice you hear is Hwan Hee aka Fany. The rapper who also sings is Brian Joo. Fany is from Korea and Brian is from New Jersy. I hate the way Brian raps. =grumbles= It's not as cool as Eric's rap somply because Eric sounds cool, but Brian's rap does actually make sense. (As stupid as his lyrics are.) (He whiiineeees!!!!!!) Ever notice Eric's lyrics never make any sense? Or how whatever he says it never goes with the song. I mean, the song could be about ice cream and he'll be rapping about cars! Either way, I don't think Fly to the Sky blends well at all. I'm very dissappointed in Fly to the Sky. But.... I still like the song. =wants to cry= Anyway, again, I had to shrink the file some, but I made sure the quality was still good. (Blessings to the wonderful mp3 converter!) So cut out the "copy" again.
And I uploaded something from Heejun's live concert. Honestly, that's what I called it. Because I have no earthly clue what the song is called. It was the bg to one of the HOT forums I go to and I loved it so much, I had to download it. Just a leetle recommendation peoples, don't turn your speakers on top volume when you hear it for the first time okees? It's heavy rock but Heejun's brilliant. He kind does the growl thing but when he sings.... =dreamy eyes= This isn't the best one but it's the only song I have of him on an audio file. (Sorries!) It's still cool, but.... If you were me, you'd cry becuase it'd cooler with 4 other guys backing him up. *coughWoohyukTonyKangtaJaewoncough* Wow. Anyway, you haaaave to hear Generous! >.< It's so beautiful! And Sum! yes... Sum's cool. It's very cool. But Kangta's not a rocker so behind all the sadness it's amusing.
Okees, I'm uploading Hiiro no Tsuki and Tsuki no Ie becuase I think Jenny said something about needing to download it again. And... Do you guys want to me to upload the Japanese version of Jewel Song? It's a lot prettier. Anyway, I'll go now. I have other things to do before I work. ^^;;;;
March 21, 2003
10:25 PM
You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly
everything and is constantly wondering about
what could have been.You're not happy with your
situation and usually blame yourself because of
the bad things that have happened.Cheer up.
What Kind of Smile are You?
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Awww, something sad happened which keeps you
clinging to the physical world. You are a poor
yurei, a ghost who will not cross over. Yurei
are ghosts who died before their time, Murdered
for argument sake. Or they are those who did
not recieve a proper funeral. You stay in the
astral plane because you have unfinished
business, or because you want revenge!
What Japanese Creature are you?
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11:00 AM
Dad's going to pick me up in 30 minutes. So! I'll hurry up and post 3 pictures I'm proud of. I took them yesterday in the middleyard.
March 20, 2003
10:55 PMMy current state of mind:
I'm Kross, the guy in the bg. ^^;;; I'm just kidding. I just have this scene stuck in my head over and over again and I reread the Forcekill part of the Mission Trance online manga almost 4days ago! Beats me why it's stuck in my head now. But something about it makes me want to laugh and go squee at the same time. I want to laugh at Kross (he looks so disturbed! Well... He is disturbed.) and squee at Sharpshot. Squeeee! And kill Kenny. =scowls= Stupid clingy ninny boy. Lol, anyway. Dun worry about not having any clue what I'm talking about. The purpose was just to shows you this clip of an online manga I think is super cool. Silver Dragon draws the best cars. It looks really really real. I started drooling in the car scenes. *siiigh* And I hate cars.
Music: Heejun and Minwoo - Look Out the Window
Blurb: Yup, still on the Christmas cd.
8:02 PM
What Is Your Animal Personality?
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o.O.... LOL!!!!!!! You know what? The description matches nicely I think but honestly... Wolf???? WTF???? ^^^^^^VVVVVV >.< Everyone's laughing at me. =grumbles and glares at Kazaore, Rae, and Megara= Shaddap.
Btw, in case you forgot (yes it just occured to me) The briefcase account is "ittaina" as usual and the password is still "qwertle" Okees? Yesh. Anyway... Happeee Christmas!!!! ^^;;; It's the music I swear.
7:46 PM
The world is going insane and my mom's going along with it. >.< Apparently, France decided not tojoin us in the war against terrorism and therefore, Bill O'Reilly has recommended through his news show that people boycotts a list of Frech related stores and restaurants, including La Madeline. *siiiigh* My mom doesn't have an office so she oftn brings her clients to La Madeline to sign contracts. As you can imagine, becuase I just mentioned my mom's insane, she's boycotting La Madeline and has now moved her business to Jason's Deli. Lol! Somehow, this strikes me as sad. Never sign a contract at Jason's Deli. It lacks a certain sense of sophistication and syle. *siiiigh* Either way, she also mentioned that somewhere they also serve Freedom fries. Freedom fried peoples. They took out the french and put in freedom. I think I'm gonna be sick. Someone please tell me who the moron is who made up that corny substitute so I can hurt him or her. Then I'll send out a notice telling everyone to boycott the freedom fries. x.x What's next? Some brilliant moron out there is going to decide to dye the freedom fries patriotic colors! Except the dye won't work very well so the blue red and white will smear together can you'll get purple fries! Brilliant. Just brilliant. Freedom fries. Honestly. What is the world coming to? What does freedom have to do with anything? Hmph.
Music: SM Town 4th: Winter Vacation cd
Blurb: Kazaore got a good laugh out the the French's Liberty bread so just imagine him with out Freedom fries.
March 19, 2003
8:12 PMLet me fall,
Let me climb,
There�s a moment when fear and dreams must collide.
Someone I am is waiting for courage,
The one I want,
The one I will become will catch me.
So, let me fall,
If I must fall,
I won�t heed your warnings,
I won�t hear them.
All I ask,
All I need,
Let me open whichever door I might open.
Let me fall,
And if I fall,
All the feelings may or may not die.
I will dance so freely,
Holding onto to no one,
You can hold me only if you too will fall,
Away from all,
These useless fears and chains.
Someone I am is waiting for my courage,
The one I want,
The one I will become will catch me.
So let me fall,
If I must fall,
I won�t heed your warnings,
I won�t hear.
Let me fall,
And if I fall,
There�s no reason to miss this one chance,
This perfect moment,
Just let me fall.
Cirque Du Soleil - Let Me Fall Album : Quidam
Pretty song... Makes me want to cry. Did I mention I love Cirque du Soleil? It's so beautiful. The music, the acrobatics, the costumes. *sighs happily* Everything's so wonderful. Laura (tall one) is so lucky to have seen Drailon. Anyway! Since I've decided you all must hear it becuase it's so pretty I'm uploading it (very slowly) onto Briefcase. Then you can listen to it and blink thinking, "This is boring. What was Ev talking about?"
*sigh* Laura (short one) is depressing me. She has too much information. Well I have near to nothing. Worse than crap. My information is crappier than crap! =currently wants to die crying= You know why? Because brilliant Ev wasn't able to xerox the pages that would have been helpful. And so you ask, "Why don't you just go to the library? Because I can't. Why? I don't have a friggin ride!!!!! Music is slowly making me more and more depressed. Wonderful! Mebbe I should go hunt down some angry music.... Wolf and Sheep anyone? *sigh* yah, let's go get it so I won't start crying my eyes out.
So! I'm still "talking to Laura." We aren't doing much talking right now. .... Nevermind. She hung up. Sooo eventful... =grumbles= Yes, I'm in a crappy mood right now. I think I'll go storm upstairs after the song is over and glare at my Frankenstein essay assignment. =grumblegrumblegrumble= You know what? I need a calendar... >.< Need to write down all the birthdays. It's so weird. Last year I had waaaay too many and now I have none. Just like the year before last. And the year before the year before last I had too many calendars also! e_eV That was confuzzling.... Too many "year"s and "before"s So anyway, song's over. I'm leaving. Ja.
6:58 PM
...Weird... Mebbe I got the date wrong but I think 5 days ago it was Heejun's bday... But you'd think the fans in the forums would go crazy. There's always at least 4 fics written for a person's bday. Real or non-real person. So! In honor of his bday, I have decided to go suicidal and buy one of his albums... I'm thinking the second one because they say it was better. Of course, this is comeing from the girl who likes all of Kangta's saxaphone happy ballads. Graaaah... So! That leaves me with one more cd to plan in buying and my $100 will be gone. =sighs unhappily= I could spend it on something else but.... Hm... Mebbe I could buy origami paper... But that can wait until the summer when I go to Taiwan... Merf... You know how I fixed my speakers? Well, I think they sound a little funny.... It sounds oddly hollow. Mebbe I'm just going insane. That could be it... I'm afraid to bang it again because I might be forced to live with one-sided hearing again.... I'm really not looking forward to school. I foolishly volunteered to do the Bisa festival and be in the madrigal group. graaaaaaa.... I'm going to be so busy after school! And Mom's going to kill me for having to drive me around so much. On top of that, o the weekends, Betsy's going to teach me how to paddle and we're going to practice getting into a cardboard boat. =grumbles= Laura still wants to do the physics extra credit project with me at the Children's Museum and we also have to get together to do the World History extra credit. >.< The problem is I need the extra credit. You'd think with all my busying around, I'd get good grades. One word to sum it all up, "HA!" I'm not kidding when I say it takes me about 3 hours to learn 80 vocabulary words. And the funny thing is I'll remember the first half within the hour, the and the majority within two hours but the next hour is spent stuck on 5 or 6 words I can't seem to memorize. =grubmles to self= I miss the days when I could learn the 10 vocabulary words while walking to Spanish, then taking the quiz and acing it. *sigh* Anyway! I had the most insane idea. Lol. Now, keep in mind I'm not obsessed, I just thought he'd love it. I wanted to mail Tony the Linkin Park Reanimation cd. =^^V= I said keep in mind I'm NOT obsessed. Kazaore's laughing at me. Did I mention he's back? Either way... Even if I did somehoe buy the Reanimation cd, how on earth am I going to explain to mom that I need to mail it Korea? Erm... Yes... I have a friend in Korea... *coughcoughcoughcough* Lol. Either wway, that was my crazed idea. Oooooh! You wanna hear my crazed idea from when I was obsessed with watching the Yo! performance? I really really wanted to mail Nsync a copy of the performance with a letter saying, "See! This is how you do it!" Lol! Yeah... Anyway, that was me being dorky. I eventually tlaked myself out of it. Tho the postage would have been a lot cheaper than mailing something to Tony in Korea. ^^;;;; I was thinkig mebbe I could team up with Chen-Ting since she already donates money to a group to buy JTL presents all the time, but she hates Linkin Park. =cries= How can you not like Linkin Park? It's the only American band cd I still listen to! (I still listen to soundtracks.) =grumbles to self= I've encountered one major difference between me and the HOT fans I've come in contact with at Bellaire. They all like the friggin happy songs. =grumble= I love the dark, chaotic evil ones. Haaaa... I can't help it. I still think rock music is better than pop music. Pop music doesn't blend well with classical, but scarily enough, rock does. Wow. Rock really does. =starry eyes= Eeeeeeee.... Anyway... Gtg get back to work... *coughcough* More like reading Sherlock Holmes. ^^;;; Leave me alone! I think he's cool!
Music: HOT - Natural Born Killer
Blurb: I swear he'd like it! I used to be a good judge of those kinds of things! I'm pretty sure I still can...
March 18, 2003
5:26 PMOkay, so I have a random story to tell before I drown myself in the unhappy world of homework. I was at the bookstore yesterday looking at the Sci-fi Section downstairs for the 3rd time since Mom was still looking at her Gardening books. (It's beyond me why she buys them but whatever makes her happy you know.) I was just browsing titles trying to find a good one, but since I'm looking for those creepy thought provoking books, it's really hard. I got completely repulsed by the oversexed looking people on the cover. Whatever, I'm running out of vocabulary wright now. Haaa... Either way, Guy mebbe in his late 40s saw me looking at books with a disgusted expression and said ,"So, you're hooked on Sci-fi books also?" And that's what started it. I told him I was having a hard time finding a good bok and he listed off a few authors. I thin he suggested Stilving or something funny like that. The book was about Nantucket being pulled into the past or future. I forogt. Either way, I put that one back on the shelf after he left because I wasn't really interested in the travels of Nantucket. But! He mentioned Asimov and I gave him a blank look. He was astonished I'd never read of even heard of Asimov. Haaaa... I felt so bad I apologized. So I gave me a brief biography of Asimov and suggested I try his robot series. It sounded cool coming from him probably because he was so enthusiastic, but after reading the summaries of the books, I realized I didn't want to read it. I don't particularly like robot books. Call me picky I guess. But I did decide to take his word for it and pick up Nightfall because it wasn't part of a series (I think) and the summary sounded pretty nifty. What's weird is his son graduated from Bellaire and majored in computer science in UT! How weird... That's what I want to do.... So anyway, after being called a beautiful lady about 5 times and saying goodbye twice (he came back and I swear he was dissapointed to find out I was reading the Hitchiker Triology) I bought Nightfall. Then I wandered around a bit more upstairs this time and discovered they had a Japanese-English disctionary. All brand new only $3! So I bought it. I feel bad now becuase it's only Japanese to Englosh. Ha... Ah well. So now I bet you Sci-fi crazed people are going to be screaming at me wondering why on Earth I didn't buy the Nantucket book. Or why I'm not giving the Robot series a chance. ^^;;; My only reason is the Nantucket book is huge and the Robot books are a series. I have no time to get hooked on anything. ^^V So! Anyway, I'll go make my flashcards now while belting out in my godsawgul Korean. Heh heh. I got rehooked on Shinhwa's 6th album. >.<
4:56 PM
=^^= Squee!!!! Yes, I just said squee. =laughs= I just read an uber-sappy fanfic. Squeee! Happy now. =gringringrin= I really really really should be doing hw.... Mebbe I'll get started by making flash cards.... ^^;;; Really dun wanna work, but I need to get started on my various essays and projects tomorrow. =grumbles= But for now, I'm happy.
Music: HOT - Song for Lady
Blurb: I still say Heejun sings better than Kangta. Tho Kangta has more dynamics. ^^;;; You should have seen the expressing on Linda's face when I told her that. It was sacreligious or something. Haaa...
3:32 PM
Marf. I really should get working. =grumbles to self= I spent alllast night reading The Restaurant at the End of the Universe. ^^;;; It's getting more and more random. Weird.... I was hyper last night after going to the book store. =beams= The moon looked super cool at 9:30 last night. Wanna see my crappy pictures? If you use flash, everything's clear, but it doesn't lookthe way it really did, but without flash, the colors are accurate, but it's all blurry so anyway, here you go.
The ky was actually a bit bluer. Not so much pink. Heh... I think there's a setting on this thing that will let me take picts at night, but I didn't want to run inside and figure it out. Lol. Neighbors saw me outside taking picts of the moon and had to come out right when I said, "Mom! This is cool!" =^^= Oh well. Hayden prolly already thinks I'm a freak. It can't be helped. ^^ they're prolly also really confused since they think my Mom's my aunt. (Don't ask, just don't ask.) So actually, since it was the father, who saw me, he prolly doesn't even know that was me. He'll go inside and tell his wife who will describe me. It won't sound like me at all, so they'll think I'm the cousin of me. Lol! Yes, it's confusing. Dun worry aobut it k? You'll see when you see.
Music: Heejun - Generous
Blurb: I really want to listen to "Sum" but I'm too lazy to go upstairs and get the cd.
You're a dork you're a dork. Ha ha!
March 17, 2003
2:35 PM*sighs* Yes. I don't know what to say, but I feel as if I should say something. But what could I say? I want to scream but I can't. I want to cry but I can't. It's embarassing crying in front of Mom. I hope to never do it again. I can't ever describe to her what's really bothering me so I just pinpoint it on school work. Who knows. If you know, can you tell me? Then I can fix my problem and I'll be okay. *sighs again* If you can, talk to me. But don't hug me. I don't want a hug. I want company. I want friends. I only have one. =laughs bitterly= That sounds so cruel doesn't it? Maybe I'm selfish. Maybe I do act as if the world centers around me, but...
You know who Kazaore is? He's the dream of a friend. He's always been there, I've just never talked to him before. He's a good friend. We argue a lot, but he's always there to comfort me when I'm sad. I hate it when he goes on vacation though. As I grow, he changes with me. As my personality changes, he'll always be my perfect friend. I don't know why he's a guy. He just is. He could be a girl, but I don't really associate with girls. I mean, in reality I do, but if I could, I'd associate with boys more. Doesn't make any sense again does it. Haaa... Oh well. As long as I do, that's all that matters. I want to make an offline blog, but I can't until summer when I have the time. Except even then I won't because I'll be so busy. *sigh* I've changed so much since then. I used to love fantasy artwork. Loved reading fantasy books. Loved alternative music and being depressed. I loved magic and believed in it. Now I love my Korean music. I never draw any more. I don't bother looking at artwork anymore. I don't have time to read and when I do, I go for the sci-fi books that make you think a lot. I also like funny books, but those are hard to come by so I never bother. I still run around with the camera. I intend to carry my camera to school one day just to take a picture of the moss on the way home from the bus stop. The stuff in the house right where my bus stop is is being liquidated. Mom says the owner died. I hope the new owner doesn't cut down the tree at the corner of the fence. In the summer time it has these beautiful pink blossoms I've been meaning to take a picture of for the longest time. I still lie impulsively. That sounds bad, but I always confess within the second. I lie about silly things like the sky being purple. I can say I've matured more. I don't do silly things for attention. The only indulgence I give myself in terms of attention is this blog. I never ask for more. I behave myself and stay quiet in school. Almost too quiet I guess. People forget me all the time. But that's okay with me since I've become more bitter. I find faults in everyone now. I'm disgusted by half the people I come in contact with. Mom says it's bad, I say it's being observant. I love glitter even more now. Music has become increasingly more the focus of my life. I've expanded my horizons while narrowing them. I know what I don't what and I'm searching for what I do. But now that I think about it, the thing that bothers me is I was right. I was so right. Out of all the stupid things I predicted as a child, I got this one right. Isn't that ironic. But it was obvious anyway. It only took forever for people to accept it. Except, I don't think you people have. You guys really should. It's for the best.
Music: Macross Plus - Myung Theme
Blurb: The music is so beautiful. To put it simply, it's the instrumental version of Akino Arai's "Voices."
12:55 PM
You see what I mean? You see???? =points angrily at it= That's what I'm talking about. That's everything. That's it! What is wrong with me? It happens all the time. =grumble= gtg eat lunch.
12:40 PM
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Music: Shinhwa - Yo!
Blurb: I replayed the cd once then I got hooked on Yo so I kinda got stuck there... ^^
12:05 PM
Fell asleep last night after talking to Laura. =grumbles= I hate it when I do that. Ah well... I made 4 cards. =grins= I love 2 of them. Haaa... I tried to make a dog but it wouldn't cooperate. I tried to make a fox and it got shrunk so it looks like a fox chibi-style. Lol! Mm... Bluberry muffin-like thingy tastes good.... =^^= I'm a moron but that's okay. I'm all better now. Dunno what got into me yesterday. You know what's fun? Typing in choppy sentences. I bet some of you are getting a headache, but that's okay. ^^ You all can deal right? I'm replaying the My Choice cd. =grins= Happeeeeee.... I love Shinhwa, but HOT just so much cooler. *sighs* I want to go see Woohyuk's dance group. I bet they're all really really cool. Ah well. It wouldn't work because I can't speak Korean. I can say hello on and off the phone tho! >.< That would be halarious. I'd just keep bowing and saying hello. Lol! Oh actually, I can say I love you also. Haaaaa... Oh! And I'm sorry! Great! So my lines will be. Hello! I love you! I'm sorry. Lol! Ah well. =currently trying to think of other things in Korean= Oh hey! I can say idiot! So it's Hello! I love you idiot! I'm sorry. Somehow, I don't think Woohyuk will be too pleased. -.-V Better off trying to talk to Tony. He speaks English. Tony gave up his American citizenship. Weird... "My love's DRC moodorung hee gon yesuh" Or at least that's how I sing it. Lol. This was before I looked up lyrics. Song makes no sense whatsoever. But I love it! Yaaaaaaaah!!!!! The extended version is almost like the perf of TOP that I have, but it doesn't have to cool intro. =pouts= I liked the intro. Me want intro! ^^;;;; Kazaore might come back early. You never know. I think he is, but Rae highly doubts it. Rae decided to be evil yesterday and she told me most likely Kazaore won't ever come back. Megara dragged her away before she could say anymore. Grarrrgh! Stupid bangs! =swatswatswat= ^^;;; Yesh. I do have problems. What's your point? Oh hey! I currently have a little less than 150 blank CD-Rs. Anyone want me to burn anything? Exception for Jennywith music cds because for some odd reason all of her cd players hate my music cds.... o.O? I asked my cousing about that and he said I should try and play it on Mom's expensive sound system becuase if there were any kinf of flaws it would catch it really well. So I played it and I heard nothing except for music.... e_eV But I can convert everything to mp3 and give you a data cd if you want. Actually, if anyone wants me to burn anything, data or music, just ask okay? Because I have waaaay to many CD-Rs. Mom went crazy with the rebate thing. Hooeeeee... =beams= "I remember all of your dreams..." Waaiiii!!!! I love the intro! =cackles=
Music: Shinhwa- My Choice cd
Blurb: The corniest line is "Let's go to shelter place!" *siiigh* But the mv is cool! He dies! Junjin dies! Mwaha ha ha ha ha ha ha!
March 16, 2003
8:29 PMI heard the voice of the wind
Wanting to know the rest of the dream
No one would tell me
My breast is dyed red...
I want you at least to understand
That I must go back...
This far away land where the whiteness stretches out forever
I shout and my voice doesn't reach anyone
As if to hide this body's pain
Embraced by the tenderness from the sky.
The moon reflected in those eyes is beautiful
Even if the night never ends
This far away land where the whiteness stretches out forever
I shout and my voice doesn't reach anyone
This deep land where the whiteness stretches out forever
I fall again, no one can heal me
As if to enfold that small body
Embraced by the tenderness of the wagtail...
Sleeping with the tenderness from the sky
Embraced by the warmth of the earth...
Depressed right now. Convinced I'm going to fail everything in sight. Sucks for me doesn't it? =smiles and wants to cry= But no... Don't bother about me. It's okay. See? I'm happy. =nods= Sekirei affects me again. Beautiful song. Now I know why it didn't work last time. I wasn't sad enough... Didn't get to go to the book store. Realized all my reasearch was crap as usual. What's wrong with me? Gods know. Who cares. No one cares. Why should I? Kazaore left for vacation. Isn't that funny? He left for vacation. Where to? Somewhere happier than here. Un lugar cualquiera. Is that right? Dunno if it is. I suck at Spanish. You get my drift. Or do you? Who cares again? Oh right, Kazaore's not here. I wish I could have left with him, but you see he's not real so I can't. He's not real. Sad how I have invisible friends. When was that healthy? Never. When was it accepted? 5 years old. How old am I? 16 as far as I know. How many years apart? 11. 11 years and I finally have an invisible friend. Call me a late bloomer I guess. I'm always in my own world. Call me Ani. I might just answer. Call me Sae. Call me Evlasha. Call me Rae. Call me Megara. I'll answer to anything. Because I don't know what I am. I might as well be everything until I figure it all out. Am I making any sense? To me I am. What about future me? She'll never understand. How can she? Kazaore will have left by then. Who was my last friend? I don't remember. Was it Megara? Maybe. Was it Rae? Maybe. Who knows. Who cares. I do but I don't. I'm repeating. Isn't this funny? Let's laugh right now. Maybe if we laugh hard enough, our tears will carry away our sadness. That will be good won't it? Group laugh on the count of 5. Let's see who can sound the most pathetic. Ha. Do you think if I write Kazaore a letter he'll write me back? He's the only one that listens. I think I'm hurting Laura's ear. She doesn't understand because I never tell her. She just hears me complain about everything and everyone. Everyone gets hurt some way or another right? What was that? You still don't understand. Don't worry. My confused state of mind is only temporary. But even if I don't recover, you'll never know because you won't care. Because I won't care. Because nobody cares except for my mom. Except she won't ever understand. Instead she gets mad at me for not making any sense. But what does it matter? We all don't care. This must be a good world. This not caring could bring peace but somehow we care when we don't care. We care about hurting others but not about caring for others. All irony? No, just humanity and Ev being screwy. Because she's crazy. Blame everything on me. It's all right. Nobody will care if you blame just a few things on me. Then once you get used to it, you can blame everything on me. I can handle it. Because I'm strong. Oh yes. I'm very strong. So strong, I've fallen down as one great crying bleeding mass. And I watch as everyone just passes by. I smile bitterly as I hear someone ask, "Is she going to be okay?" But it's not directed at me. It's directed at someone else. Someone who is cared for. I hear another call of concern. "Is he okay?" Yes he's okay, but I'm not. But they love him. They love her. They love everyone but me because I am nothing and everything at once. I must figure out who I am. That way people will love me. But I will never figure it out. Because nobody cares? Wonderful explanation. Shall we write it down? No it isn't needed. Why? Because no one cares to read it again. We'll all just carry it around the in the backs of our minds. A haunting chant that slowly kills us. "You don't care so why should I?" But I do. That's why I don't know who I am. Because I care too much. I guess I am cursed.
Music: Gackt - Sekirei
4:44 PM
=cackles evilly= Heh heh heh. Thursday will be special. =grins happily= Suuuuuusssaaaaaannnn.... ^^;;; Actually, Dun worry about it. It has nothing to do with you. I'm just being bored and I wanted to pick on you. Lol. Either way, stupid hair. =whack whack= It's getting in my way. Owwwiieee... I'm in a funny mood. I checked up on Eversummer Eve. this really cool manga I was reading but dropped back in August becuase it was updating too slowly. So I decided to check on it now, but there weren't enough entries. =grumbles= So I checked up on Mission Trance. Even worse. =grumbles to self= Either way... Wanna see some cool sites? Okees!
Book-a-minute - Got the site from Betsy. It's really funny. Read the one for The Odyssey Lol! Tho some aren't so funny. Ah well.
Four Elements Photography's LiveJournal - This is actually a group thing where people post pretty nature pictures. Lots of professionals post. It's cool.
Okay, I'm going to leave before my entry becomes completely pointless.
Music: HOT - Wolf and Sheep
Blurb: I fixed my speakers after Mom left by banging it a few times. =grins=
10:56 AM
Betsy canceled today on me so I won't finish the boat until mebbe next weekend. =grumbles= We need time to practice paddling tho!!!! >.< But I need to hunt down a life jacket before then in case I fall into the pool while practicing... Sorry I fergot to post the last entry. ^^;;; I got distracted reading manga. Waiii!!!! Sanzo is soooo cooool!!!!!!!!! =gringringringringringringrin= ^^ I really wanna find a scanlation of Saiyuki Gaiden. See, here's my little informative speel.
Gensoumaden Saiyuki (the manga I'm reading now) began as a manga then exploded into an anime. Then Saiyuki Gaiden came out as an anime. It's supposed to be even better. It's basically about Sanzo, Hakkai, Goku and Gojyo's (the four guys you always see in picts) past life together. I heard it's more sotry oriented without the crap filler. Tho I dunno if I'm stupid, but I don't see any fillers. ^^;;;; But mebbe it's more obvious in the anime since Gensoumaden Saiyuki's anime vs is supposed to be really really crappy. Why would you watch anime when you can read a manga anyway??? =grins= Anyway, Saiyuki Gaiden is being written into a manga currently but isn't complete yet. =grumbles= sucks for me. I can't find a scanlator who's doing it. Oh well.... I still have DN Angel, Gensoumaden Saiyuki, and Yami no Matsuei. =^^= You know what? It just occured to me that It could be Gaiden Saiyuki.... O.oV Heee... Whatever.... It doesn't really matter. You all are prolly thinking, "What does it matter? Who cares?" ^^;;; Gomen ne. I want to go to the bookstore!!!!!!!! So since it's convenient for my mom, I prolly will! 3 hours at half-Price! Life is good. I wanna buy the last volumes of the Hitchiker's Triology (that really confuses me) and The Stranger for English. The book is great. Dunno why but I love it. (Not as much as Family.) Mebbe I can find a copy of the Hitchiker Triology in one book... I was going to borrow Laura's brother's copy, but I left it at her house. =cries= And by the time I go to her house, I won't have time to read it. =grumbles= Anyway, I'm gonna go reread the prologue to Gensoumaden Saiyuki and hopefully won't be compelled to read the 19 other chapters I downloaded. >.<
No music because one of my speakers died again and no matter how much I hskae it, it won't go back so I feel as if I'm going deaf in one ear.
March 14, 2003
2:38 PMYou realize how friggin hard it is to get a ride anywhere??? Graaarrrgh!!!!!!!! =currently wants to strangle someone= Either way, I'm dead tired and usiness begins again tomorrow. =grumble grumble= Laura pointed out that I say "What are you doing?" a lot. Hee hee hee. I never realized that. ^^;;; Ah well. Either way, I went to the Rice library again. I killed $5.70 which means I copied 114 pages. ^^;;; Heh heh heh heh. It was funny. But I have a new idea! Heee.. Oooh, I found the Dream of the Red Chamber on the table across the copy machines. I was reading the first apge when I ahd to help Laura. But I really really want to read that book. So when we go to the library for fun, we need to hunt down the section the book came from. I bet they have Journey to the West Which reminds me! Manga update! Pleeeaaaase!!!!!!
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March 7, 2003
4:43 PMI'm going to be super busy this weekend so don't expect to hear from me any time soon. If you really need to talk to be, be careful to hold the phone away when you first call me becuase I might just scream. I have crap loads of hw to do mainly becuase I've been at choir rehearsal almost all week. Just a reminder! The Pop concert's tonight and tomorrow night from 7 to 9-ish. It's about 2 hours if everything runs smoothly. Tickets are now $7 and $12 for the ones in the center. ^^;;; Again, Jenny's doing a trio with Justin and Katherine! Katherine's the person who did the ensemble with us. She's really good and guess what??? She's going to Rice!!!! =cries= Either way, if you see Katherine Zodrow around next year (Ry) tell her Ev said hi and that I miss her. Or at least I will miss her. ^^;;; So! Anyway, that's that. I have to run off now and try to cram as much happiness as I can before I leave for the concert. Ja!!!!
March 2, 2003
10:52 AMI AM DONE!!!!!!! Yah ha ha ha ha! *cough* Well, I still have to laminate it but... Yes... ^^ Oh! Btw, I forgot to ask permission if I can use your art work! (Ryan) I put the Circle of Hope on my collage. ^^ So! Since I have a digital camera now guess what I did??? Yes! I took pictures of the building process! ^^;;; I'm a dork. Leave me alone. I love visuals. It's all about the pictures peoples.
Yeah, I put in a pic of my stereo system so you can get some idea of the split sytem I described earlier. Anyway, yah. My room got really really messy. ^^;;; Ah well. So I gtg type up the Hamlet test now. Ja!
Music: HOT - Wolf and Sheep
Blurb: Look! It's not Sum! Yah ha ha ha! ^^;;; It's a beautiful song, but I'm not in the mood for beautiful right now.
March 1, 2003
5:05 PMSee! March is sooo much easier to spell. ^^;;; Anyway, I really don't feel like working on my blasted collage. And I'm soo full of Teen magazine stupidity that I'm going to scream. =grubles= Jenny gave me a crap load of Teen magazines so I could cut out pictures and I started reaing some of it out of curiosity. You know what's the most annoying thing? Why on earth would you call your lips your kisser or your pucker???? The heck??? It drove me insane. Kazaore was busy killing himself multiple times, Rae was on a homocidal rampage and Megara was laughing insanely. Wow. Either way, it annoyed me to find that the majority of readers who read Teen magazine were around the age of 12-14. That's really young peoples. And what's the advice in these magazines? To sum it all up, 101 Ways to Sell Yourself to the Guy You Want to Have a Heavy Makeout Session With. =grumbles= Oh well. It's my fault for reading them. ^^;;;; You know what's funny??? I think Teen Magazine's waging a war against Marilyn Manson. Lol! They constantly bash him. They even asked Britney Spears what she thought of him! Hee hee. Either way, Marilyn Manson's pretty creepy. He scares the crap out of me and I think I mentioned this before, but he started out only a little stranger than us. Okay, so nobody's allowed to start a rock band! Lol. j/k
Music: Kangta - Sum
Blurb: I was trying to not listen to Sum to not wear it out, but Gackt just can't compare anymore. =cries= I think I played Sekirei a little too much.