February 23, 2003
9:10 PM*sighs happily again* My favorite fic is done now! =grins= And it was a happy ending so I feel content instead of depressed. =grins= What a way to end the happy weekend ne? And so the poor children must go to school. The cycle begins again. But we have hope. For another weekend comes soon. This is what we live for. The weekend. When the chains that bind us loosen.
Music: Kangta - Sum
Blurb: Yerp... Still listening to it.
7:21 PM
Okees! The clips don't make any sense but that's okay!!!! At least I didn't put in the chaotic random scene... ^^;;;
So! Anyway, I got carried away again. ^^;;; Screen shots are fun! Hee hee. I need to make a shortcut for the crop thing on Adobe. There's not shortcut key for it and I thin you can make one... I remember reading somewhere I could. =shrugs= Either way, my scanner's faster now because my cousin found another program I could use that speeds it up! =grns= The problem is I can't get the old program off my desktop. =grumbles= It's one of those undeleteable (sp? Or is it even a word...) things... Mebbe if I just unloaded it... But it was made undeleteable for a reason right?? Meh.
6:33 PM
=sighs happily= I'm listening to Kangta's Sum over and over again. It's so beautiful. =smiles= It's my favorite Kangta solo song, but I can't find an mp3 of it. (I have the mv) =pouts= Logic tells me he wrote it, but it's really not his style. It's from a Korean movie called Resurrection of the Little Match Girl. It actually seems really really cool and I want to see it. =pouts= But I don't understand Korean. =pouts again= Either way, I'm happytho the next-door neighbors are being noisy again. They always have friends over and they always chat on the screened porch thing they have. Is it called a porch if it's on the 2nd floor? Baaah. But! Let's play Kangta again. =beams= Pretty. The mv's really depressing also. Great stuff.
Music: Kangta - Sum
Blurb: Why can't Vincent just be human again??????? =cries=
February 21, 2003
9:43 PMSo! I need to ramble for awhile since I decided to download a clip but I want to go upstairs. But if I go upstairs, I won't want to come back down. ^^;;; *siiigh* I want to daaance!!!! ^^;;; Actually no. I want to find a good fic to read, but I've already read all the good complete fics. =grumbles= But I don't have anything to talk about so... Oh! I know! I need to change my wallpaper pic!!!! That will take at least 20 minutes becuase I need to change the templates and everything.
6:18 PM
Okay, I tweaked it just a little. I originally did this to the right column but it screwed up everything. Briliant me decided to dump the idea all thogether but just now it hit me that it wouldn't look so bad on the left column. ^^;;; Either, way, tell me what you think ne? If it makes it too hard to read, let me know. okees? I think it makes it look cleaner.
5:53 PM
I just spent the day from 1st to 5th period saying today was February 31. e_eV There is no Feb. 31st. There can't be. Hoeeeee.... >.< Shows you how out of it I was because of the blasted Phys test. Ithink I died somewhere in the middle of that test. I literally died. =cries to self= Stupid Granoff. I can't believe he purposely made that test in order to lower the grade averages! =grumblegrumble= *sigh* Do you realize how much work I put into school??? Only to get what? A lowsy grade and a crappin gpa! Pure crap I'm telling you! I'm so pissed off. You'd think with all my hard work I'd be awarded with a semi-decent gpa but noooooooo. Ev has to have the world's crappiest gpa. I feel like such a retard. And no, don't ask what my gpa is. You'll just stare at me funny and say, "That's not bad Ev. That's actually pretty good compared to a lot of the other students." Well you know what? It's not. You know why? I'm psycho and I have high standards for myself. I'm not that crazy tho. I wasn't hoping for a 4.7 okay? But I wanted a good gpa by my standards and I thought with my hard work, I could get a decent gpa. Apprently it's not possible. Apprently, no matter how much work I put into things I still manage to only gets Bs or Fs in science classes. You realize why I feel stupid? This is why!!! =waves gpa paper frantically around=
=fumes some more= ::after awhile of fuming:: But! Guess what I saw in anime club to cheer myself up???? VAMPIRE PRINCESS MIYU!!!! OMG!!! It was the coolest thing ever as predicted!!! But! Miyu's so weird.... I thought she'd but cool and angsty but instead she giggles like a crazed maniac. Hoeee.... But it was still cool. The last episode we watched was disturbing though. Creep mannequins. =shivers= But I wanted to see Larva's face! If I remember correctly he was a bishounen. =grins crookedly= Ah well.
Another thing that was funny is... Ah n/m Lemme start it differently. I was planning to write an entry when it happened but I became too busy. But! Okay, Let's try again... Music is a major uniting tool. Did I ever mention that? It's crazy how you can get together with someone just through music. It's also amazing the amount of excitement that is created just on the topic of music. Crystal asked me what kind of music I liked and I said kpop. Chen-Ting got really excited. Anyway, to make a semi-short story shorter ( -.-V ) she found out I loved JTL and HOT. Woohyuk and Tony in particular. And she started telling me about the Chinese fan club she's in. (She's obssessed. She actually donates money so the club can buy JTL presents. x.x) But! We were squealing through the hallways. Lol. Suz was there to witness it. It was really funny. Wow. But! She likes Tonhyuk! Yah ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!!!!! So she's cool. Thought I was just a freak you know but now I'm happy. So mebbe we'll get together on that vein and mebbe not. Who knows. Either way, music is a powerful thing. It's been proven yet again.
Music: HOT - A Song for Lady
Blurb: I need kpop obsessed buddies so I can squeal freely. I have a felling you guys are getting slightly sick hearing about Tony this and Woohyuk that. ^^;;; Gomen ne. Thanks for tolerating it tho.
February 15, 2003
11:44 PM>.< I just moved my new stero system around my room a total of 5 times. ;_; See, mom is strange. I was happy with my 17 watt cd player. Mom thought it was pathetic and dinky and the sound was horrible. =shrugs= I thought it was really cool. ^^;;; Shows how weird I am. Anyway, Mom decided to buy me a 150 watt stereo system. x.xV The thing is big. About the size of Jenny's. *siiigh* So I measured it and I found out it wouldn't fit my 2 shelves by my bed. >.< It was too wide. So I had to clean one of the shelves next to my desk. Move #1 After awhile of sneezing and coughing, I could move it in. It fit perfectly. As in there wasn't even a milimeter of space left on the shelf. >.< So after awhile of thinking and glaring at the shelf for not being wide enough, I decided to move it to the shelf in front of my bed. Move #2 Two speakers would go on one shelf and the main system would go underneath it. I thoguht it was a good idea at the time. So I cleaned up the two shelves. Luckily it took less time because I had cleaned it earlier. Unfortunately, one of the shelves was too low so I had to move it up. In order to do that I had to move the stuff out of the top shelf also. So I did that and moved up the shelves. So I put the speakers in and then the main system only to find the main system stuck out by about 5 inches. >.< So I sat down on my bed and thought about it. I had a sudden brain flash and decided to put it on the other shelf next to my bed and just turn the main system sideways. Move #3 Good idea at the time. So I cleaned up another shelf and put the main system in only to realize the wires of the speakers couldn't reach that far. So I had to take the speakers and main system out, clean out the shelves of the shelf in front of my bed and try to move it. I successfully moved it about an inch and a half and put the stero system in again. I found out that it still didn't fit. I got really annoyed and decided to move it back to the old shelf. Move #4 I liked my idea of breaking it into 2 parts so I decided to put the main system on the second to top shelf and the speakers on the third to top. One shelf was already clean but had to clean the second shelf and the top shelf as a place to put all the stuff on the second shelf. But then I realized the second shelf was too low (I originally put it on the third shelf). I didn't want to touch the top shelf because I had put a lot of stuff up there so I decided to lower the third shelf and the second shelf (there are 4 shelves). The little board holder knobby things were really tight so I had a really hard time with those. (My fingers are still red. =grumbles=) But after adjusting the thrid board, I found ot the second board was screwed in. You can imagine my absolute delight in finding that out. What kind of moron would design it to where you can adjust the first and the last board but not the middle board??!!! =grumbles= So I ended up having to mess with the first board anyway. Except I was lazy so I just pushed up the board and adjusted the knobs while holding up the board. But I mentioned earlier that the knobs were really tight. So I was happy to find out that the first three were easy to take out and put into another hole. But the last one was evil. And it was in a corner where the most weight was so I had to constantly hold the board up in order to prevent it from tipping over. ;_; Right now, it's only partially in but oh well. I'll fix it later. Anway, I finally moved everything in and plugged everything together only to realize that I was too short to see the top of the cd thingy that comes out when you push the button. Basically, I couldn't see where to put the cds in. >.< So! =grumble grumble= I had to disconnect everything and flip it around. Move #5 So that's it. The entire thing took about 4 hours and I excluded a lot of the moving from the shelf to my bed to the shelf to my bed and the thinking. Baaah. Mom got tired hearing my story. Meh. So if you guys ever come over and you see my new stero system, be glad you never had to mess with it.
Music: Gackt - Oasis (Mars Version)
Blurb: But it's purtee. :3 It's black and dark blue. Spiffy... I think I lost the remote in the process of all the moving. ^^;;; I'll find it one day. The thing is stupid tho. I can't pause the cd without the remote. >.<
2:47 PM
Befruary???? >.< Siiiiigh.... I really can't type these months. I can't wait until March. It's so much easier to type. =grumbles to self= It'd make more sense if it was Febuary. =grumbles again= Mebbe I should type my months in another language... ^^;;;; Febrero makes more sense than February. Who says "Feh broo air ee?" We say "Feh byoo air ee" =grumblegrumblegrumble= Anyway... I didn't get anything acomplished yesterday except curling my hair and conking out at 12. ^^ My hair's wavy now because I french braided it! It's a habit now. Everytime I wash my hair I french braid it. It helps keep my hair from drying funny when I sleep with it wet and it keept all the short hairs from sticking up. (I have more now because I pull my hair waaay too much.) And I'd like to say one more thing before I go. I wasn't going to mention it but Mom reminded me. She asked about Harry Huang because apparently, one of her clients was talking about it to her. Anyway, she says it's almost become a Chinese vs. Hispanic-American thing. Anyway, I'm pissed off because I know I said minorities are racist also, but I never meant racist as in name calling. But I guess I'm wrong. I thought nobody would actually stoop to the level of intentionally calling seomone a racist term as an insult but as I was leaving school on Friday, I got in a Hispanic guy's way and he called me a "fucking chino". =growls to self= Either way, I'm going to assume he was just stupid or something because calling someone that just because I accidentally got in his way is stupid. So1 Now that that's done. There you go. Oh! I think my streamload account die right? Or was it the 19th.... I really want you all to see this spiffy clip of woohyuk dancing... =grumbles= Ah well. n/m You won't die if you don't. I would becuase I think Woohyuk's super cool but you all won't. ^^;;;; But! Yes. Woohyuks a breakdancer. =^^= I'll shut up now. Yes..... =giggles girlishly= Yes. =rolls eyes at Ani= She's hopeless I'm telling you. You think he's cool too! Yes, but I don't giggle about it. =gives him a funny look= Of course you don't... I hope you don't.... *cough* Anyway, I-Chih gve me a CD-RW to replace the one I killed! He is my savior!!!! Yeaaaah! I can burn stuff out now! But I still dunno how to cut the concert in half. =pouts= *sigh* So I'm gonna go now. Ja ne!
Music: Joanne - A Good Lay to Love
Blurb: Owwiieeee.... My legs are really really sore. I've never had them this sore before. It even hurts to rotate my foot.
February 14, 2003
9:29 PMWow, has it really benn that long? o.O;;; Gomen ne peoples. I was very busy. Actually, I still am. =pouts to self= But I'm completely exhausted since I made a record recovery in a span of 3 days. Wow. I still have a mild cough and interesting nose effects, but other than that I'm fine. I honestly though I'd lose my voice by today. Singing Valentines didn't help. I was already dead yesterday and running all over the school today didn't help. And it was really hot too. Gaaah. First thing I did when I got home was wash my face. Eesh. I'm also starting to get in the habit of sleeping on the bus. But I'm usually too paranoid to really fall asleep except for today. Today I woken up when we were passing Shepard. Wow. If I had slept 5 minutes longer the bus driver might have had to wake me up. ^^;;; *sigh* Either way, Valentines day was interesting. Yup. I met Jenny's after school friends. They're actually cool. (Well, some of can be pretty stupid at times...) But not today! They were cool today. One of the guys could breakdance. That was cool. And the cool girl was there also! (Jenny you're going to have to give me names... ^^) I only know Brian and Bryan. The other two... e_ev And he was there.... O.O =^^= I'm not going to clarify that. Don't worry about it okees? So! How have I been doing? I've been pretty stressed out. the last two weeks have been really bad. Solo and Ensemble is over tho! Ees overrr!!! (Last Friday.) I got two 1s!!!!!!!! Yeeeeaaaah! But the judge was really really nice. I freaked out on my solo and lost a lot of breath. That was bad since that song took a lot of breath control. But she only said that I need to open up my mouth a bit more in the back and that I still had a girl's voice but that couldn't be helped (since that's biological heh...) So! Yeah! 1!!! And ensemble went great. Not the best. The best we did was in the main entrance hall of Nimitz. (The guy ensemble we heard there practicing was soooooo coooool....) But we did better than expected. Hm.... What else... Oooh! Hold on. I need to go make a screen cap of the cool hair. I'm just going to pick up this entry later.
Okay! Back! Pictures!!!
Music: Joanne's Throw Away and A Good Time for Love
Blurb: New summer projects! Make a Found poem! Laura's is cool. I helped her. =grins= Well, more like I had her read it and I replied with ,"This part sounds funny." ^^
HIGHLIGHTER HAIR HIGHLIGHTER HAIR PHWEEEEEEE!!!!! I put a big red marker in my folder.... :3
February 1, 2003
1:20 PMToday I feel depressed. I don't know why. I just woke up today and thought, "Today is going to be a bad day." Who knows why. It just is going to be. It's been predetermined by the gods I guess... Of course Kazaore says today's okay and Megara says it's a beautiful day but at least Fihrea kind of supports me. *snort* But she likes depressing days. =grumble grumble= Anyway, I've posted the lyrics before I'll post them again.
Listen carefully...I'll keep shouting until you understand
I'm still here, here, here forever.
What is at the end of these half-tiresome
days that are chased by time?
An image of me, trying to rush through my life
Is it funny? Go ahead and laugh.
Look into my eyes, I want you to call my name.
I want you to hold my hand and say it's ok by nodding your head
Help me, or I think I'll never be able to go on.
If it's a lie, at least lie until the end
I'll trust in the flow of time
Where will I wash ashore?
Despite my faults
Can you forgive me? Please tell me.
Please understand, that's not what I'm saying
Please notice, this isn't what I want.
Please let me go, I don't want to go to that place
I'm only waiting for one word
Music: Ayumi Hamasaki - I Am...
Blurb: ...