December 30, 2002
9:23 PM
Okay, the stuff was uploaded ahwile ago. =shrugs=

Joanne - A Good Day For Sunshine: yup, the Korean Britney Spears. lol. Okay, actually, I dunno. Her music just reminds me of it. =shrugs= She's not as bad as Britney. And it's only her music that reminds me of her, not anything else. I'll go get a pic of her one dy and upload it k?
Joanne - First Love: This one's also okay. Okay as in, good but I'll get sick of it. You'll understand what I mean once you listen to it.
Joanne - Game: I think this one's better. Imo again. Okees? You don't have to believe me. ^^;;;
JTL - A Better Day (remix): This is the better version imo. Hee... I like using imo don't I? (imo=in my opinion) As you know, JTL is from the 3 former HOt members Woohyuk, Jaewon and Tony. JTL stands for Jaewon, Tony and Lee. (Lee is Woohyuk's last name.) I think it's funny. What not JTW? Or WTJ? TJW? =shrugs= Who knows why they picked it.
JTL - A Better Day: This song, the slow original, features LUV, a new girl band. =shrugs= Tho not so new since this song isn't the newest. (It's from their first album.) Tony's voice isn't so great. Makes me want to wince since it always seems like he's about to get off pitch. Eesh.
Shinhwa - Chaos: This isn't theior best song ever but it's got an even cooler rap sequence than Maybe. Well... Cool in different ways I guess. ^^

7:25 PM
Gah, I keep typing the date wrong. Baaah. *sigh* Anyway, I'm supposed to go to Jeny's house tomorrow right??? ^^;;; Fergot. Heee.... Kind of disoriented. The fanfic took an entire day to read. 31 chapters. Gaaah. But it had good grammar!!!! Woaw... Hee hee. I listened to JTl on endless repeat for the entire fic. Bwaaah. So I'm trying to wash it away. (I only have 2 JTL songs, one's a remix of the first one.) Haaa. I guess it'd better if I just took a break fromt he computer, but I'll just type a lot instead. 9I have to stare at the keyboard.) ^^;;; The majority of the glitter has vanished from my desk. e_eV Dunno where it went tho. Prolly transferred onto my face. >.< So! Yesterday was interesting... I uploaded 10 picts just because I was bored. =shrugs= You all can go see them in the Inbox if you want. I'm going to delete all the Christmas stuff and upload JTL and mebbe Joanne. She's only 2 years older than us! But her music will make me sick after awhile. It's like Korean Britney Spears. Gaaah. But! For the moment, I like it. Yup yup. She's prettier than Boa imo. Boa looks older. Ah well. I found out something scary browsing through the forums. Apparently, there's this thing a lot of Korean female stars do. They use glue to make thier eyes bigger. The whole description confused me, but aparently, they use glue on their eyelids to make their yes bigger. (It's special glue) And young girls will use tape at home so their eyes will naturally become bigger in time. Wow. How scary. I admit, big eyes are prettier, but honestly peoples. Glue? Tape? Just imagining it makes me laugh. Also, there's a surgery they can do to make your eyes bigger. Scary ne? They think Boa uses glue because she's too young to do the surgery but dunno becuase there's another article I read saying she had some kind of surgery. Totally forgot. Heh...

Anyway, yah. I guess I shouldn't be posting this since you all are reading this to find more about me but honestly, what is there to say? If I decided to talk about me, would you really want to read? It'd be so repetitive. I'm sad. I'm lonely. I'm sad. Boo hoo. Poor Ev. *snort* I'd puke after awhile. I could sit down and write cool depressing stories like Jenny but honestly, you all would throw rotten fruit at me. I can't write them. Mine sound so youcky and cliche, why bother? *sigh* So I tell you all about kpop. Half of you all don't care, maybe all. But tell me, would you prefer to hear about how horribly boring and repetitive my life is or would you rather hear about Korean singers? =shrugs= They both sound boring to me. Mebbe I shouldn't post at all. =laughs= Then where would I be? I have one reason for mantaining this site. I like the fact that I can do html. As crappy as my html is, I can do it. And for that, I'm proud of myself. All this other stuff... =shrugs= Gods know why I even bother posting. There's really no honest point. Ha. Ev's feeling sorry for herself again. =smiles bitterly= That's okay guys. Don't go to Jenny's party and hug me. I don't want it. It's not real, so don't bother. Go hug someone else. Kazaore says I think the world revolves around me. I guess that's almost true. I don't think it does, but I really act like I do. *sigh* But I know very well how the world doesn't even come close to revolving around me, but I can't help but get carried away and over dramatic. Would you like to know how I really feel? How many people would I have to step over to be honest? Too many. I'm lying, but I'm not being honest either.

Music: Joanne - Game (No, it doesn't really match my mood.)
Blurb: You lied to me and I lied back, but we never knew. We just kept lying.

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December 29, 2002
11:34 AM
Would you blind me? Would you sacrifice your life to protect me from everything bad in the world? Are you sure I'd want it? *sigh* Yah. Here's Ev feeling sorry for herself again. =smiles= Can you believe the year's almost over? And what have I done? Nothing good. I've suceeded in fading away. Yes. What an accomplishment. Haa. There's just so many things... So many things I don't know about. Everything you say confuses me. I can't follow it anymore. You have your friends and I have mine but they're not the same. You say you won't but you will. I know. Fate does this. Fate has a funny sense of humor I guess. But will you fight it? I'm not asking you to, but I'm wondering. Why would you? Is there any point? In the end, it'll be for the best. Same issue as it's always been. So much sadness and pain to accompany the happiness. =laughs bitterly= There's so many things that have to be left unsaid. We want to say them. Or is it just me? I can't leave them unsaid but it's for the best. White lies. Why white? Why not black? Black lies. They hurt but they help.

Music: HOT - 8:15
Blurb: Nothing's ever good enough is it?

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December 28, 2002
10:28 PM
Guess I didn't post the morning entry. Heh. Anyway, I'm back. Gah I'm tired. I'm torn between going upstairs and reading my new Chobits manga or staying down here and listening to 8:15 and Iyah. =pouts= Stupid cd player can't play mp3s. =poutpoutpout= Anyway, I'm really tired tho, so I'll go upstairs after I make my usual internet circut. I have lots to complain about it, but since I've already made this huge entry for today, I'll just let it go. It's not really anything that comes out in a comprehensible form anyway. ^^;;; So! Yeah, I'm in a funny mood. Add frustration with loneliness with exhaustion with sadness with thoughtfulness and you get this. Dunno what to putt he imood at. I'll just put it at bittersweet because I feel it fits. Yah.

Music: HOT - 8:15
Blurb: Shh... Kazaore's asleep. =smiles and covers him with a blanket=

10:07 AM
Dancing is fun with wet hair. =grins= Okay, yes, that was my random thing of the day However, if you're cold, wet hair's no fun. I'm seriously considering hiding in my room until 11:00. Baaah. My room is at least 10 degrees warmer than downstairs. 20 degrees warmer than the other side. Heh. I hoard warmth and sunlight. What can I say? =grins= Anyway, I'm too happy listening to Iyah to really go upstairs. And the heater's helping. I want to download Golem's Song from Anime Orbital, but the site has limited bandwidth and apparently, lots of people are downloading. =pouts= I'll try at 1 in the morning. :3 Can you beleive I'm writing a fanfic again. Gross. I promised myself I'd never write antoher fanfic, but *siiigh* I decided to write one anyway. I'm completely stuck but that's okay becuase then I'll never post it. Heh heh. Yeah, I still have this superstition about posting fics before they're done. And I'm still pissed about losing my last CCS fic. It was good. I only stop because I couldn't write a fight scene. *siiigh* I still can't. Mebbe I should haunt RP chat rooms and see what they do. =shrugs= I can imagine a lot of things but it never comes out in writing. lol. Actually, it's that way with writing anything in general. A lot of my entries are really choppy and hard to follow simply because my mind thinks a lot faster than my brain thinks. By the time I finish a sentence, I'll be on a completely different topic. And depending on how hyper I am, I might even run around in circles. Yup! Heee hee. I tend to think about things subconsiously and when I finally find a good response, I'll mention it again a day later. I think only Jenny can possible understand when I do but sometimes not even then. Hee hee. Ah well. I don't think there's a person in the world who can actually fully understand what I'm talking about when I'm hyper. Think about my blog entries as a condensed version. ^^ So anyway! I don't have anything to do until 11:00 and I woke up at 8:00 today. Baaah. So I have lots of nothing to do. Yess... So! I'm not looking forward to the rest of today. Later, I have to go eat dinner with Mom, Edith and Catherine and her family. Baaah. Then we go to Miller to see some lighting thing... I thought that was for Christmas. =shrugs= Dun wanna go! Gonna be farging cold at night! *siiiigh* And I get to smile my poor brains away. Smile smile smile. =scowls= I'm not a naturally smiling person. Dun see what it's easier, it hurts when you smile too much, it doesn't hurt when you frown too much. Bah. *sigh* Yah, anyway. LEt's talk about something else can we? Hmm....

HOT disbanded ahile ago... Yes... *sigh* Okay, let's just flood the blog with HOT info and get it over with. Yes? (Sorry peoples ^^) So! OFFICIAL WARNING BEGINS NOW! If you do not want to read about HOT, feel free to exit. I wont be adding anything else so you people can skip it. K? Okay! Now I begin.

So! First the poeple! (Should I get pics?) Nah, kinda lazy. I'll figure it out later. Or you can just go to their site. Anyway, the leader is Heejun (Moon Hee Jun). (He's soo scary!! Eep!) He raps and sings, and we're going to assume he can dance. Dun really know but he's the leader. He's actually got a nice singing voice. =shrugs= Surprise ne? If you want to find him in Hwanhee, look for the scary guy who raps frist, then sings. Kangta (An Chil Hyun) is the lead vocal of course. Dun think he can rap. Hee hee. If you close your eyes when you're listening to HOT, you can actually draw parallels between Hyesung and Kangta's singing. Lol. I thought that was funny. They even perform the same. Lol!!! Anyway, yes. So! The only other guy I know a bit about is Tony (Ahn Tony). He's the last guy you see performing on Hwanhee. I had to figure out who he was because he's got a nasty stalking look. :3 (His hair reminded me of a canary tho.) Anyway, he's a rapper and a sub-vocal. Then there's Woo Hyuk (Jang Woo Hyuk). Becuase of him, I really have to download the Outside castle mv. Apparently, he can really dance. He's really ugly but he can really dance. =shrugs= I heard he looked best in Outside Castle so Ev has to go hunting. In Hwanhee, I'm pretty sure he's the guy with the hair that curled towards the center of his face. Lol! (HOT hair is so weird.) The last guy is Jae Won (Lee Jae Won). He's the zombie guy in Hwanhee. The other guy with black hair whio literally looks dead. x.xV *sigh* Anyway, he's just a rapper. His hair is always really screwed up I swear. Anyway, that's everyone I think. 5 guys for High-five of Teenagers. So they broke up on May 2001. Both Kangta and HeeJun continued with SM Town going solo. Out of thw two, Kangta's the most successful. (Durrr) I thought Tony, Woo Hyuk and Jae Won were still with SM Town but apparently not. Hm! =shrugs= Anyway, they formed their own group called JTL with a company called Ye Je. There's a rumor going around that Kangta and Heejun will reunite with Tony, Woo Hyuk and Jae Won after thier contracts run out. =shrugs= Dunno about tht. That's be itnersting, but I think they all got uglier so who knows. ^^;;;; Yes! So! You want to know a random fact Ev found out while digging arouns for info on Tony? Tony actually auditioned for HOT in LA with Andy! Andy and Tony are friends. =nodnod= So! Andy was originally going to be with HOt but his parents said he was too young, so he signed up with Shinhwa later instead. Good thing since HOT just not as good. ^^ So! I think that's all the info I have on HOT... I ahve to go check out TL some time, see if they're any good.... Oh!!! I fergot! Okay, I think everyone in the group has written at least one song in their collecction of albums. Kangta's really good at spouting out crap, but every once in awhile he gets a good song. lol. But! Anyway, guess who wrote Natural Born Killer? Tony! Yes. *cough* Anyway, I think Hee Jun wrote IYah so I'm sad. =poutpout= Okay, I'm going to stop now since there's prolly a bunch of typos and I'm waaay too lazy to go edit this. So! Ja ne! I hope your head isn't swimming with HOT info. Heh. If you want pics, just let me know, but honestly, just go to the site.

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December 27, 2002
6:19 PM
Ev analyzed the Wild Eyes performance. =pouts= Okay, only Minwoo does it. =poutpoutpout= And the stool's not that tall so they can't fall over and die. But what Minwoo did was still cool. ^^

5:10 PM
Okay! Random song entries and another movie performance!

HOT - 8:15 This is a cool song! Too bad the majority of HOT songs isn't like this. =pouts= I lurvs this song. But the next one's even better.
HOT - Natural Born Killer This was banned in Korea.... ^^;;;; Apparently too violent. I dun remember which memeber wrote this, but! he said it wasn't really about killing, but it was about the feeling of hatred between two lovers. hee... yes, it's true, love can produce much hate.
HOT - Hwanhee This is the mv. Cool song, sucky performance. Trust, me if you've seen Shinhwa perform, this is too funny. They're literal corpses. Hee hee hee. The only singing guy that looks normal is Kangta. (You'll know what I'm talking about when you see the mv.) But! If you ever find the song! Pleeeeaaaase give it to me! Baaah! Because I like the song a lot. :3
HOT - Outside Castle Cool song! A characteristic of HOT is having an orchestra. At least with the good songs. ^^;;;
Key:The Metal Idol - Junko Iwao - Lullaby (Key version) Did I post this? My log says I didn't. Eitherway, this is the coolest lullaby ever!!!! Yeaaaah!
Sakamoto Maaya - Inori I thought I posted this, but oh well! Neat song! Only cowritten by Yoko Kanno. ^^;;;;

2:25 PM
Cold! Glitter is everywhere! =cackles= My desk is now covered with glitter. I wonder why. =smiles innocently= Hee hee. Dunno what you're talking about! Anyway! I changed my mind about giving Laura the bad card. She volunteered, but I felt bad about it, so I randomly drew to see who would get what card. Yup. I still feel bad for even making the crappy card. =pouts= It was my 3rd try so you should have seen the first 2 tries. Wow those were bad. Gaaah. So! The cards are done. I have to wrap the gifts some times soon. Lol. I've developed an obsession with gift bags. They're fun! I swear they are. Heh heh. The tissue paper's cool. That and it makes things easy to wrap... ^^;;;;;; I didn't buy anything in a box this time so I'm going to have to haul 7 bags. *siiigh* Grace better be there because although I got Linh a gift, I didn't make her a card. Bah. So! I downloaded another mv! Well... Shinhwa's live performance of Wild Eyes. How do they go from sitting to standing on the stool in less than a second??? Gah! I want to do that! I was expecting them to fall over or knock the stoll over or both. Mebbe they fixed it to the stage before hand. Eitherway, it looked super spiffy but the camera didn't get very close. =pouts= And since it was for an awards show, the camera also cut to some stars. Bah. Stupid awards show. *sigh* Anyway, I'll go now before I bore you with my stupidity. Hee hee.

Music: Shinhwa: My Choice cd
Blurb: Maybe has the coolest rap sequence. =nodnodnod=

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December 26, 2002
9:19 PM
=pouts= Cousin can't see HP with me so I won't be able to see it at all. =poutpoutpout= Stupid church making him so busy. Bah. *sigh* Either way, I still have to go hunt down a gift for Grace... Mom said I can get it online so I will. But! =grins happily= I started reading another scanlation1 Omg!!! DN Angel is sooooo cool. Woaw. =beams= Anyway, yes. I can't find anymore red leaves so my last 2 cards are going to have crappy leaves. =pouts= Laura volunteered to have a hole-y leaf. And Suz is getting the jumbo leaf. =cackles= well actually, dunno if it'll fit... Mebbe she'll get a different card entirely... hm.... I know you're wondering why suz. (Or for Suz, why me?) It's because I can make hers different because she's the birthday girl! =beams= Bwah ha ha ha ha ha! *cough* Yes. But! Back to DN angel. Kazaore thinks it's really cool. except for the mushy love part. Hee hee. It's cool tho. Dark (my fac character) is this super thief. Anyway, kyaaaa!!!! Go Minwoo! Eh? =shrugs= Dunno why I said that. ^^;;;; But I bought some more bells! =cackles= So! Since I made some more flowers (I swear, I've memorizled how to make them now.) I'll assemble them. e_e Dunno how else to describe the process of adding wire and bells. Wire! Omg! I didn't buy the green wire! Gaaaaah! Nooooooooooo. >.< This bites. My flowers will continue to look dinky unless I get new wire! Bah. x.x *sigh* Anyway, I bought everyone their *cough*Christmas*coughcough* gift. Yes... I likes tall Laura's the best. ^^;;;; Hee hee hee. Mom thinks I'm silly. I feel obligated to make her gift really pretty because she always wraps things so prettily. Waiii!!!! x.x So it'll be funny. Everyone will get their gift and Laura's will be beautiful. lol. =Ev's imagining it anime style= Hee hee hee.

Music: Shinhwa - Never Can Rewind
Blurb: He has glasses!!! Kawaii des!

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December 25, 2002
10:21 PM
No I haven't died. ^^;;; Yah, so! Anyway, Candace called me at 10 today. Lucky for her, I was already awake at 9 I just didn't feel like leaving the warmth of my bed. Anyway, she's determined to keep in contact with me. Lol. Good friends. =beams= I 've almost finished with the blasted cards. =scowls= Stupid cards. They're giving me hell. I have two more to make but my leaves are really crappy. I'm going to run out tomorrow and see if there are anymore left. But I don't tihnk so since all the leaves fell almost a month ago. =pouts= Need leaves. I'll feel bad if I have to give a card with a leaf with holes on it. =poutpoutpout= Anyway, my desk is covered with glitter now. =cackles= From the cards obviously Hee hee. I only dusted two of them. =beams= I have 7 more left! Hee hee. I downloaded more clips of Shinhwa and other Korean things and I have changed my mind. Asians can dance. I found this cool clip of a World Breakdance Competition. Omg, the Korean teams was soooo cool. Woaw. So they won! =beams= Spiffy!!!!! I never thought breakdancing could be so nifty, but it's really fun to watch. Tho I'd never try it myself. ^^;;;;; I made another discovery! The differences between HOT and Shinhwa. (Btw, HOT stands for High-five of Teenagers. Dun ask me what that means.) HOT's worse. Dun understand why people think HOT is better. =shakes head dissaprovingly= They have nice music. Well, I'll take that back. Some of their songs are cool. Most of it's pop junk, but when they make a cool song, they make a cool song. A lot of their music is a copy of older songs tho. x.xvv Also, they're uglier. Blegh. Their hairstyles.... =shudders= I'll go find a pic for you people one day okay? Also, they just can't dance. Gaaaah. People say they can, but I downloaded two mvs of them and in both they can't dance. Gaaaah. I might upload Hwanhee. It's a cool song, but you really have to crank the volume to hear the rap. I swear, they're like performing corpses. Hoeeee... Anyway, they broke up mebbe a month or two ago. Or was it a year ago? e_ev Fergot hee hee. Anyway, Kangta's fromt hat group! He was the lead vocal! But did I mention he's yucky? Yeah, well, I hate to admit it, but from his dorky hairstyle in HOt to his normal one as a soloist, he got uglier. Bwah ha ha ha ha! *cough* Yes... Musn't diss Kangta, lots of people love him. =shrugs= So! Ev's conclusion? Shinhwa's cooler!

Music: Shinhwa - Hey, Come On
Blurb: Kazaore's relieved I rejected HOT. lol

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December 23, 2002
7:05 PM
Ev's got too much time on her hands. Gods nooooo.... =runs around trying to block ears with hands= Apparently, Kazaore got this silly idea that I was over the Shinhwa cd. Please make it stop! So I had to prove him wrong. =nodnod= =taps Ev= Yes Megarby? I think you should stop playing the Shinhwa cd. Why? I think Kazaore's going to kill himself. =points to Kazaore who is currently eyeing a knife= Oh, then I problably should. =walks to the cd player= =gazes at Ev hopefully= =grins evilly and turns up the volume= NOOOO!!! =lunges for the knife= =tries to hold Kazaore back= Rae help!!! =is currently hiding in her room which is conveniently soundproof (too bad nobody knows about that)= Just let me die!!!!!!! =grins and leans back listening to Yo!= Yup. Too much time.

12:48 PM
Did I mention they put up my suggested mood on imood???? Yatta!!!!! They actually put up bittersweet!!!! So cool! Woaw.

12:25 PM
So! Yeah, I get to go eat lunch with Dad tomorrow. Tomorrow Mom and I should prolly go shopping so I can go to I-Chih's condo and slip his card under the door. It's hard to believe day after next is Christmas. Bah humbug. Lol. Anyway, I went to sleep at 11 yesterday. Can you believe that? Woaw. Anyway, yeah. I'm starting to think my website's only okay. Heh heh. =shrugs= I'm still happy that everything aligns, but only when the window is maximized as a big as the window can get. Eh hee hee... =shrugs= Sucks doesn't it? Bah. Anyway, Mom wants to chop my hair up. Eep. To me, it's kind of amusing/annoying. (my hair) I like it long, but I hate it long. I love clipping it up. It's cool. I have to fold it over twice before I can clip it. So then I get this funny bob at the top of my head. I love it. Hee hee.

=scowls= I just got a call from a telemarketer. Okay, what kind of moronic telemarketer would call the day before Christmas Eve????? FREAKS! =glares at phone= *sigh* Anyway, did you know typing is hard with long nails? It is. It really really is. Bah. Typos everywhere. So anyway, I'm running out of things to say again. Ja!

Music: Shinhwa - Yo!
Blurb: Yes, it's still on endless repeat. Me luuurrrvs it! Bwah ha ha ha ha!

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December 22, 2002
10:49 PM
So! What is Ev doing now? Being bored. Dun wanna read anymore fanfics. *gasp* No more fanfics??!! Ev's gone crazy. Actualy, just in the mood for something else. Like what you ask? =smiles innocently= Stalking! ::everyone sweatdrops:: Hee hee hee. Stalking who you might ask? Minwoo of course! =grins happily= Too many fanfics I'm telling you. They make him seem so cool. Bah. It doesn't help that I already think he's cool. =cackles= So anyway, I need to up in an hour. =shrugs= I'm tired anyway since I only got 7 hours of sleep. Need more... Everyone was gone until 4 today. It was fun. I got to listen to my music without the earphones. Hee hee. But I wasn't really in the mood for dancing so it wasn't as great as it could have been. Ah well. I did a little classical improv again in my room. That was around 3:30 so I had to hide and do it quietly. It was fun. Nobody has any clue what I'm tlaking about. =shrugs= It's hard to explain. But let's say it invloves a lot of frantic humming of various parts of music floating around in my head and mad conducting. I swear, I must have looked insane b/c in the end I was giggling non-stop. Hee hee. Ah well. Anyway, I made two cards yesterday, but the other leaves I had already dried weren't good enough so I'm going to hope the leaves are dry my tomorrow. You people better like yourcard. =scowls= I worked very hard on them. But I think it looks like crap, so I can't really blame you f you open the envelope, plaster a big fake smile on your face and go, "That's nice Ev." x.x Ah well. I'm running out of bells! Noooooo!!!!!! =pouts= But anyway, I'm completely out of things to say so... Ja ne!

Music: Shinhwa - Yo!
Blurb: I want to print out one of the fanfics, but it's 64 pages in size 6 verdana with .5 inch borders. =pouts= I have to find a way tho so I can read it upstairs...

8:22 PM
HAH!!! This is cool! Bwah ha ha ha ha ha!!!!!!! I got the stupid text to align! See!!! =points at the edges of the site= And it fits! Omg it fits! This is brilliant! It all fits! Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! So happy. =nodnodnodnod= It almost looks professional. Okay, Ev's getting cocky. Heh heh. Let me be cocky just this once ok? My site is soooo cool! Eeep! Okay, Waaay too happy. I currently want to run around screaming and jumping up and down. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! Oh kay! Hee hee. So anyway, like I said before, the entrance is Minwoo with Bayou Bend in the bg. And the banner =points up= Is Shinhwa with St Louis Pass in the bg. =beams= I think I blended together to look like one pic okay.. tho the banner look's a little like it was from 2 diff pics. =shrugs= I tried. Oh! And if you can't read the quotes. It says, "Today I search for the person who loves me for me. But... Does that person exist? I hope so..." The first two lines are from Chobits. (Thanks Jenny ^^) I like Chobits, but I can't ever read it in front of my mom. ^^;;;; I hate the main character Hideki. Hentai freak. But Chi's cute. Awwwww. :3 So anyway, GO ME!!! =beams=

Music: SM Town - 4th album cd
Blurb: Kazaore doesn't like my layout. =pouts=

3:51 PM
Okay, that's the biggest load of crap I've ever heard. Mebbe I'm just pissed. Is Ev pissed? =Kazaore nods emphatically= Yeah. I thought so. =scowls and glares= Mom's pissed that I was still downstairs at 2 this morning. She knows I always do it but she was pissed because I-Chih and I were talking until 2. Okay, first of all, we didn't talk half as loud as Mom does. Her excuse is, "Well, you woke me up." Well hello moron! You wake me up all the time! With your noisy coversations in the morning! I'm still sleeping! So is that a valid excuse? Hell no. So then what? "Oh it makes your eyes worse because you're working in the dark. No. I have two freaking lights on. One lamp pointing directly over me and a spotlight. Even if I went to sleep before 12 am, I'd still be working in the dark because it gets dark a lot earlier than that. So I-Chih said to just be nice and go upstairs at 12 so Mom will feel better but I don't have to go to sleep. No. Pride peoples. And inconvenience. =scowls= I like staying up really late. Do you know how nice it is to be able to do what you want in silece???? Apparently not.

So anyway. She's arguing with me right now. What am I supposed to do? Grgh. See, now she's staring at me. So then what? Kazaore, make her leave me alone. I don't want to fight with her but she wants to. I think she's jealous of I-Chih. What do you think? I think so. Did you know he's moving out on Monday? And you know what's silly? I'm actually going to miss him For all the times he pissed me off I'm really going to miss him. I know it sounds silly but I told you, give me another month and I'd consider him my brother. He's almost like a brother to me now. Mom's upset by that. I-Chih has no clue. hee hee. Let me keep this one good secret ne? Kazaore's laughing at me know. Mom's planning to force me to go upstairs at 12. See? She's upset. I told her we wouldn't talk on this side again but she says it just disturbs people. Who to disturb? I don't know! Oh well. Mom's also trying to convince me I-Chih will read this since our computers are connected, but you know what's funny? Mom was the one trying to convince me he'd never do that when we first networked the computers. So then what? Yeah, I'm repeating myself. You know why? Becuase Mom's still here. And I'll continue typing until she leaves. Kazaore... You need to make her go away! I might get into this huge fight and I don't want to since we're going to be alone at least until the end of Christmas. *sigh*

So now she's gone. And you know what? I really don't want I-Chih to leave. Mom's jealous because I'm getting closer to I-Chih. I can just tell. I don't know how to react to that. She's the one who wanted me to get closer to him, but she's only happy when I complain about him. Can't she see? Somebody let her see. It's confusing me. I just don't know anymore. What will life be like without I-Chih? Will it be worse? She won't have anyone to complain to. I just hope it will be okay soon. You know? Yeah. Kazaore, you really need to help me because Kotori won't.

Music: Shinhwa - Yo!
Blurb: And you know what's funny? She's like this about Dad too.

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December 21, 2002
1:42 PM
Okay! I made the page for my two huge surveys! So! Click!

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December 20, 2002
11:39 PM
Ev's been thinking... And procrastinating but let's not get into that. ^^;;; So! Yes, thinking. More in the back of my head but I can hear whispers of it every once in awhile. But what can I say? Dunno. Suz reminded me of my problem with blogs. I can't say what I want to say. I want to tell you but I can't because it'd piss you off. So then what? Kpop helps. =grins happily= I love music. See I don't understand why people have to take anti-depressant pills when all they have to do is listen to happy music. But then again, your mind still thinks about the depressing things. So anyway, yeah. Another pointless entry? Yes and no. I have a point but I can't make it. It's kind of funny and sad at the same time. Bittersweet? Very. To an extent you won't understand? Always. Why? Because I can't let you know. Why? Because I'm your friend. Friends lie but only to help you. Funny. Very. Weird. Very. Why am I repeating myself? Because I want to sound funny and abstract. =pause= Bwah ha ha ha ha!

Music: SM Town - Look Out the Window (original version and Minwoo/Hee Jun version)
Blurb: Sorry, I just can't stay serious. It's the music's fault. =pause= And Kazaore's. =points at Kazaore who's blushing because he was caught dancing to the Minwoo/Hee Jun version= He does like Shinhwa. =cackles= No I don't! You were dancing. I don't know what you're talking about. I have a picture to prove it! =waves around picture= =cackles maniacly=

9:33 PM
Ooof. My offline copy of this website is completely ruined because I took away the picts. Lol. But anyway I can't find a pict for my banner! =pouts= So I'm stuck. Joy. But! It gives me a good reason to browse through all the Shinhwa galleries! Heh heh. If you'd like to help me, find a pict of Shinhwa (one, some or all the members) looking for something or just looking pathetic of miserable. =shrugs= My theme is "looking for you" Yah, sounds bad ne? I'm still really proud of Vs 2's entrance. (the one right now) It's cool! Except I got a little too hyper with the liquify tool so you can actually see an S and an i in the bottom right corner. ^^;;; That was just me seeing what all the tools did. Eh heh. It's not supposed to say anything. Anyway! So here's a previw of my new banner!

It's Minwoo!!! From the Yo mv. Hee hee. The bg is actually from a pict I took at Bayou bend with some tweaking. =cackles= But anyay, I don't like it very much so I might change it later. Bah. It's too long. It needs to be shorter but I don't see how without cutting more off the motorcycle and if I do that, I'll lose more of the ghost effect. Bah.

7:49 PM
LORD OF THE RINGS WAS SOOOOO COOOOOL!!!!!! GAH!!!!! Eeep! So anyway, after that, I went to dinner with Mom at Jason's Deli on Westheimer and guess who I saw? I think it was Nina. O.Ov You have any clue who she is? She was in my 7th grade English class. She was the one with the bottomless purse that stores two bottles of hair spray. Still don't remember? Sokay, I didn't like her. lol. But! It was disorienting to see her again. It's scary but I recognized her voice and then recognized her face. It was her first day working there because there was another worker beside her explaining things. So! Anyway, that was weird. But! Lotr was cool. =nod nod nod= It was better than the first one. The entire time I was in awe. And Legolas is still super cool! Iiiiieeeee!!!! But! Shinhwa's also cool. Hee hee. But in different ways if that makes any sense. So, I'm slowly working on my new template. lol Ry's going to get sick looking at it. It's Shinhwa!!!! Unless I change my mind, but I already went through the hassle of cutting out Minwoo...

Music: SM town - Look Out the Window
Blurb: =pouts= I have to wait another year for the conclusion. =poutpoutpout=

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December 19, 2002
6:50 PM
Konnanichiwa!!!! I am here! I survived! I did better on my physics final than I did on my Spanish final! Now that's just a shame. =pouts= Anyway! So! I got my Streamload account! It lets me upload as much as I want and it's 5 times faster than Yahoo. =grins= It only lets me have up to 50 mb of downloading per day (or was it week) but that's okay becuase only two or three people are downloading stuff so I'll be fine. Besides, all you have to do is wait for the next day to continue uploading! Ees cool peoples! Yah! So anyway, sorry, you have to use my account now instead of logging in as your own name. The login name changed from ittaina to evlasha because someone already took it. =scowls= The password's still the same tho. It's qwertle. If you want, you can upload something too! It can be like a big communal uploading thing! Hee hee. It'd be spiffy. Or you could start your own account. =shrugs= Anyway, okay, here's the list! The theme is Christmas.

Boa - Jewel Song (Korean Vs): The file doesn't specify but I'm just letting you know. Ees cool. =grins= It's on SM Town's new holiday cd.
Gackt - Junigatsu no Love Song: He sounds so normal in this song. =shivers= But trust me. Gackt's not normal. He's wierd like us. He insists he's older than 100. Lol ^^v
Sakamoto Maaya - Kissing the Christmas Killer: The depressing Christmas song. =cackles= That's because Yoko Kanno wrote it. (Obviously.) Okay, so that doesn't explain anything. =^^= Ah well. It's cool.
SM Town - Angel Eyes: Okay, this is from an older SM Town Winter Vacation cd. In case you didn't know, SM Town is the company that has contracts with Shinhwa, SES, Boa, HOT, Fly to the Sky, Kangta and more. A lot of popular singers. Anyway, they make a winter and summer vacation cd every year. Basically, a lot of the singers get together and sing. Yup! =^^=
SM Town - Look Out the Window: Again same thing! I also have a version from the new holiday cd where Minwoo and Hee Jun resing but it's not as good. Hee hee. Hee Jun sounds funny. =wrinkles nose=
SM Town - Snow Baby: Fun song. M... Running out of things to say... Dongwan and Junjin aren't my favorite singers of Shinhwa.

Boa - Jewel Song (Japanese Vs): Okay! The music video! Eeeee! I can actually attempt to sing along with this because it's in Japanese. But anyway, I love this music video. Mebbe I'm just dull and boring, but I love it. It depresses me. lol.

So anyway, that's it for me. I'll post later but right now I have to burn cds and make lists for Jenny. She likes my Flawed series. Lol. I haven't listened to them for awhile. =shrugs=

Music: SM Town - Snow Baby
Blurb: I had to play it to find out who Junjin and Dongwan was singing with. Hee hee. But then I couldn't figure out anything to say. Haa...

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December 14, 2002
5:15 PM
Kangta's up on Briefcase. I discovered a really good online storage place called Streamload. I'm going to see if I can set up an account on Friday, but not right now. K? Yah. It lets you store more and I think it lets you upload more. I'm pretty sure it's free and downloads are much faster. So! Ja.

3:48 PM
It's just another sad love song. Dunno anymore you know? After listening to Kangta's Pine Tree 3 times and watching Boa's Jewel Song once more and reading Jenny's Friday entry, I can say I'm happily thoughtful going on depressed. Isn't this funny? Evelyn, you don't have time for this. You need to get going. But I want to stop. And I will. For just a portion of my life I'll stop and share with you what I'm thinking. I like the bittersweet feeling. Call me morbid, but I like putting on the mask. It's so easy don't you think? You never have to worry aobut how to act when you have your mask on. Jsut smile and be happy. If it's too hard, be hyper. If it's even harder be stupid. And everyone will love. And everyone will say, "Oh! You're so cute!" That's me. Cute. Yes, I'm adorable. Because I'm stupid. Don't say I'm not. I really don't feel like explaining it, but I'm tlaking aobut another stupid. *sigh* Either way, somehow, people see past the mask. I don't remember who, but someone told me that I always looked like I was angry about something. Yeah, I am usually, but I try to hide that. Does that work? I guess not. there's not way i can change my natural facial expresson unless I get plastic surgery and that's not going to happen. So I stare in the mirror and try to see what people see in me. But I see sadness. I feel an emptiness inside. Why doesn't anyone see thaT? I'd like to be cocky and say that it's because I'm good with masks but I know it's not true. I always slip up. So then what is it? Why do they say I'm cute? Why do they say I'm pretty? Mom's friends always think I'm pretty. Even Mom's clients and I-Chih's church friends. Always the pretty girl. "She's like a little doll." "So cute." "S pretty." But I never understand. I don't know what I'm rambling about anymore. I'm sorry for wasting your time. But I needed to ramble. Anyway, it all boils down to one thing. It's just another sad love song.

Music: Kangta - Pine Tree
Blurb: Suz, Yo's been posted last week. Forgot to tell you. Gomen ne.

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December 13, 2002
8:00 PM
*sighs* Boa's Jewel Song depresses me. I haven't found an mp3 version of it so I'm just playing the mv version with the window closed. Maybe I'm stupid, but there's something desperately sad in the mv. Gah. But no, Ev didn't cry. ^^;; It's not as sad as All your Dreams. Hee hee. But this is more like a hollow sad. The one that haunts you and slowly eats away at you. And you enver know it's there until you're left alone. And suddenly everything is empty. Dunno... Jenny? You feel that way or am I just psycho? Jenny's the only one who's seen the mv since it was on my cd when I was trying to corrupt her with Shinhwa. Heee... But! Yes. Over Chirstmas, I'm going to see if I can record it into an mp3 since my media making software doesn't recognize any image files. =pouts= And the site where I downloaded the mv also has the mp3 but it doesn't work! How cruel is that??? Bah. Gonna go study physics and replay it. Ja.

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December 12, 2002
7:55 PM
Did the freakishly long survey from Jenny's blog. Gah. I'll figure out a way to post it later k?

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December 6, 2002
11:16 PM
=pouts= Hyesung can't dance very well. Baaah. But he's a better dancer than me. Durrrr... Everyone is. ^^;;; Minwoo's a really good dancer. This is all based on the millions of times I've watched the Yo! mv. Eh hee... But! The guy with the cool hair is a dancer! Breakdancing I think... Okay, so only Neko-chan has a clue what I'm talking about. ^^;;; He walks a long way home. Gah, that takes a lot. I saw him in front of the Diamond Shamarock before the railroad tracks on Bissonet on the way home. That's a looong way to walk. Gah. I feel sorry for him if he has to do it every single day. Anyway, I'll stop writing now since I know half of you are like, "So what???" Ah well. Stupid PreCal's evil. I can't for the life of me figure out number 17... =grumbles=

Music: Shinhwa - Yo! (yes it's on endless repeat right now)
Blurb: Kangta's a big let down. He's not cool at all. Bah. Shinhwa's still the coolest. =waves around little Hyesung and Minwoo flags= ^^;;

=grins= I have ear plugs! =points to bright orange blob in ear= =runs up to Kazaore= Nani? Yoink! =Shinhwa floods in= Nooooooo!!!!!!!!!

8:25 PM
Clips from Shinhwa's All Your Dreams even tho I'm not listening to it. Dun worry, I will in a sec. :3

Suddenly one day, all I had ever wanted disappeared...
It seems like everything in this world hates me...
I don't want to live like a loser

There is never a person who has asked me, if I was in pain or if I was afraid, so what is the point?
After all, there is no one to understand me, you who left, no more excuses will be left for you...

7:57 PM
Gladiator! Bum bum ba dum dum Baaaaaah Bum bum bum!!!! Yah ha ha ha!!!! Super cool! Eh hee hee hee. Me lurvs eet. Can you tell? Yah, anyway, this new heater is so stupid. It focuses on this tiny little area you point it to. Ooooh boy. i'm only using it instead of the big coil to humor my mom. That's it. She's upset because she bought two and I-Chih and I thought it sucked. Eh heh. Soo... I-Chih and I were going to alternate the heater thing but then I realized he'd end up giving it to me most of the thing and then I'd feel bad so I decided I might as well use the silly heater and point it at my fingers. Of course, its pointing from the side so my right hand can only be warm when my left hand isn't blocking it. =snrk= Tnhis is seriously amusing. So! It's like Yellowstone all over again! Those hot steam clouds would blow through you and once it's left, it'd be really cold. So it'd be cold then hot then cold. Hee hee. So! Anyway! Yes. I forgot to mention something!!!! I got a 94 on the anthro esaay! Bwah ha ha!!! (Just letting you know Ry.) I had to quote Ryan twice because Ms. Darrigo liked her survey so much. Hee hee. Anyway! Lotr is coming out! Bwaaaah! Harry Potter over Chirstmas break along with contact lens practice. Bwaaah. I haaave to get contact lenses. I swear I'll go blind if I don't slow it down. Grgh. But I have to get used to wearing them first. Oh! Christmas concert in the 10th of next week! That's a tuesday okees? At 7:00 PM peoples. This is at Willow Meadows Baptists Church (4300 W. Bellfort). I don't think you have to buy tickets or pay at the door so just come okees? We're supposed to be good. *cough* But if we sang anything like we did yesterday at Holiday in the Park, we suck. Eh hee. It was godawful. I don't care what everyone else said, we sucked. Half of us didn't know the way to sing some of the Chirstmas Carols Mr. Marshall gave us and there were about two or three of use trying to make some awful attempt at harmonizing. Gah. It's was gross. But not as bad as prep choir. Anyway! We're not singing any corny Christmas songs so! If we sound anything like we did in the last lunch rehearsal, we'll be good but the band members playing with us fir the Christmas Cantata will suck. Hopefully they can pull it off ne? The organist will be wonderful tho. So! Yah. Oh gods! The trans-siberian orchestra cd is also super cool! I didn't get the Christmas Attic. I got the first one the Christmas Eve and Other Stories. So anyway... I think that's it.

Music: Gladiator cd
Blurb: Remember peoples, no matter what, Shinhwa's cooler. =cackles= Oh yeah! Kami-sama!

Yes, Kazaore is weird. And yes, he does have a will. ^^;;;

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